Hello there again.

This blog used to be @/emotionally-wistful-spy, but, dude to the falling out of me and TF2, I have revamped it.

Please use he/him for this character and she/they for the person running the account (mod).

Please adhere to the DNI in my bio or you will be blocked.

tell me ur favorite hetalia song and I'll tell you who you are

i feel like i fall super behind with ftc stuff cus im sitting here w/ largely the same trolls and their stories progressing at a snails pace, but every time i check tumblr everyones got 50+ new guys to memorize OTL

y'all...

if you haven't yet (and have read the boys comics first of course), def read "dear becky".

it's perfect. it's just fuckin' perfect. that's all i can say... OOH~! i wanna say moar! it hurts so goddamn much but it's a good bittersweet hurt.

also lovely to get full confirmation that kripke is a superfan of the source material and ennis' work~<3

very reassuring and show's he's an open minded person willing to listen and learn with good media literacy, but also means he set out to adapt the story proper from the very beginning<3<3<3! and boi, it has shown from the very beginning but it just gets me all the more excited<3

butt~ if you have any wonder of what he's going for with butcher--motives, self view, goals, even spoilers--this might help clear it up... leik a LOT actually lol

comics butcher and show butcher are actually a lot more alike than people want to admit (def looks like kripke is going for making him as accurate as he can tho)

plus i'm always a sucker for moar big bobbi<3<3<3 she is literally the BEST<3!

Normal webtoons with normal stories: "what if the girl was isekaied into a romance book she loved'' (Tricked into becoming the Heroine's stepmother, The matchmaking baby princess, the male lead's girlfriend, How to survive a romance fantasy, First night with the duke, Happily Ever Afterwards...)

Weird webtoons with weird stories: "ok let me try it, she is isekaied in a romance book she loved, but it is, for no apparent reason whatsoever, invaded with zombies and she dies multiple times but a loop keeps sending her back in time to the beginning of the day."

NW: "ok no let's try something else. What if a quirky character had a day job that brought a lot of shenanigans?" (Daily JoJo, Maid for Hire, She's Hopeless, Let's Play, Publishing Love...)

WW: "ok lemme try, we've got a handful of quirky characters opening a restaurant and not only does it apparently start the end of the world, traps them in a dark food dimension and kills and resurrect some of their clients, they also think it's boring and try to spice things up by making things explode" (Just Pancakes)

NW: "what if the MC was a being with a physical difference that made them an outcast?" (Woven, New Normal Class 8, Carl, Down to Earth, Sable Curse, Cursed Princess Club...)

WW: "What if the MC was divided into four versions of himself at different ages and had to deal with the consequences every minute?" (live with yourself)

NW: "What if the MC lived an epic romance?" (the Remarried Empress, Lore Olympus, Subzero, Siren's Lament, See you in my 19th life, My dear Cold-Blooded King...)

WW: "What if the MC was unwillingly thrushed upon the path of a white-haired dude and both engaged in a self-and-mutually-destructing relationship of love, hate and obsession?" (the Double Agent, My Deepest Secret, yes there are two stories at least that fit that bill)

NW: "ok you know what I give up."

WW: "good."

Reread through Specter's second oprec and screencapped some of my favorite moments

These ladies make me so emotional :(

Also, while i love and cherish the confident, suave and happy Specter post SN, I have to admit I've got a personal soft spot for the bitter, hopeless Specter here

i don’t care what’s in today’s episode of love in the air as long as prapai’s brother is there

it comes for me at my weakest | 2.22.24

bug images on my dash. /neg

one of us is called the Accountant and I call him that because his entire raison d'etre is to keep track of how much is being poured out of us and how little is being poured in. when we do something that is largely for the benefit of someone outside of us, he hits the panic button under his desk. we feel angry, resentful, petulant, often with an intensity that feels unreasonable and puerile. but he's activating those emotions in us for a reason. not because he wants us to be ungenerous and mean, but because his predictive math tells him that there will be no replacing this energy. there will be nothing poured back in. there is no energy exchange, there is only energy expense. to give is to lose.

consequently, we don't feel the same warm ooey-gooey fuzzy feelings that people talk about when they do things for other people. we feel fear. panic. resentment. this is not because we are cruel bitches who hate other people's happiness. this is because we are constantly in support crisis to the point where we have a whole self-shard dedicated to reminding us of that at every turn. hope that helps

Paperwork is as inclement as ever, unforgiving of other obligations to be prioritized as per the Regent’s wishes. Alert and attentive of the Grand Scribe’s on the day, occupied on his office when the veil of night covers everything and the subject of his custody goes to slumber. It has been that way since it all started, thus surprise reflects in icy sapphires upon catching sight of al-Háitham sitting by the fireplace, book in hand and leg crossed over the other in a stance that denotes utmost elegance. ❝Should you not be asleep?❞ This time he returns to the Twilight Residence just a tad over midnight, symbolizing that today’s paperwork was fewer in number and in degree of concentration. Perfect to get a good night’s rest. Except the fact that concern begins to spring within his mind as the wooden door closes behind him and thus he makes a beeline to where the Sumerian scholar sits.

@samyavastha​ ✦

Why are the neighbors so loud at this time of morning?

my dad is such a putz 

Rereading Sansukh (by Determamfadd on AO3) and poking about for Gimli/Legolas fanart (while "Gigolas" is the most commonly used shipname, I used "GimLas" as a tag for a while but have since taken to "GimLeaf"), I have found my Elrond Favouritism to have flared up rather dramatically. I have found myself spiralling in comment sections over Pained Discoveries on what the Amazon Series has gotten up to, the ease with which Celeborn is misnamed to Setting-Breaking Effect, and undoubtedly startled far too many innocent fanfic writers accidentally caught by my wandering thoughts!

so i must warn, after spending so long Away & having last been active in the Meta of Other Fandoms, that i shall be subjecting innocent bystanders to

THE JUSTICE FOR CELEBRIAN AGENDA

since it has been an actual decade since i last read LOTR (let alone The Hobbit) and that, whilst I was somehow dragged inti watching 2/3 of PJ's Hobbit Trilogy, I have only ever managed to watch the FIRST of PJ' LOTR films in its entirety (the films are LONG and almost all the gaiety of the source text is woefully neglected, prompting my younger self to fall asleep to dreams of flapping away with Galadriel's big swooshy sleeves).

given the State of my Memory (vague, confused over what if book canon & what is fanon & what is from action film adaptations), my "Meta" will be Confused and Weird and Possibly Somewhat Satirical.

after all, for all that i dub my Grievance with Live-Action Tolkien adaptions as "Justice For Celebrian!", Celebrian herself is a Character Known Through "Absence": for being without her, every elven-affiliated character is Changed when "reencountered" in The Hobbit & LOTR.

do they then sit alone like a widow

crying through and through

with none to comfort or be comforted

does sorrow not sigh it’s own comfort

then broken soft

strength sure and taken with grief’s pleasure

struck and plundered preciously by the sun

"I am no one's father for I am only a deity: Suzaku."