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ethanharmonia · 5 months

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VOLO MY BELOVED RRHAHHRHHAHRHHAHEHHRHHRHRHRHHHH🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️💥💥💥💥

FINALLY MADE HIS REFERENCE SHEET BECAUSE MY BRAIN WOULDNT STOP MAKING FAKE SCENARIOS ABOUT HIM BEING EPIC RRRAHHHHH LEAVE ME ALONEEEE (giving info later cuz its late at night and im so tired, tumblr do not explode me again pls spare me)

DRAWING THAT ARCEUS HAIR OF HIS MADE ME FALL ON THE FLOOR AND COLLAPSE CUZ I STRUGGLED SO HARD TO DO IT RRAH I HATE HIM BUT I LOVE HIM HE IS MY WIFE

Some other versions cuz i felt like it huehueh

And some doodlers of him (the one on the top were supposed to be the first thing i made before making the references hhhhhh

(hold up i needa do smth imma give explanation later wait)

(listening to Fantasize by ariana grande made me extra gay for this man help me)

#pokemon #pokemon au #reference sheets #reference #pokemon legends arceus #pla volo #pokemon volo #wielder volo #pokemon wielder volo #I LOVE HIM SO DAMN MUCH HE CAN STEP ON ME RN AND I WILL YELL OUT HIS THEME AND I WILL KISS HIM RRAHHHH #he owns arceus yall he is the chosen one not the mc in legends arceus shut up #HIS HAIR IS MAKING ME WANT TO PASS AWAY THE AMOUNT OF TIMES I HAD TO STRUGGLE CUZ OF HIS HAIR #That arceus hair is making me want to chew on it #imagine if he was a dragon rider and rode giratina everytime he wanted to go somewhere imagine that HAHAHHAA #my guy has dementia he doesnt rember who rei and akari are no mo he is so stupid but i lobe him mwah #i do not care what yall say he needs a redemption arc rn and im making it for him hushhhhh #he would definetly hate on cyrus if he ever met him and beat him up like bro would kill cyrus hahahaha #bro would obliterate cyrus the moment he looks at him omg😨😨😨😨#art #drawing #fanart #he is my malewife rn shut up

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widowkills · 5 months

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Helen & Dale | The Newsreader (0:20) colouring by maryxstuart

You asked me why I wasn't saying a word, I'm naming the stars in the sky after you; it was a work of art, that's the hardest part.

— Noah Kahan, “Your Needs, My Needs”

#the newsreader #helen x dale #dale x helen #helen norville #dale jennings #anna torv #sam reid #thenewsreaderedit #helendale #look i have a lot of feelings about how they chose to start s2 #can one gifset send me straight back into vidding mode? absolutely #just a little sth! cuz i'm really struggling with longer projects rn #...what do you call something that's even shorter than a vidlet #my edits #*#*vidlets #*the newsreader

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clarabowmp3 · 6 months

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I’m sorry I genuinely cannotttttt understand how some ppl bash joe even in a joking manner. Like the poor guy did nothing wrong (that we know of) but so many ppl are making such snide remarks by comparing him to Travis which is not only condescending but actually kind of mean! HELLO did we listen to the same reputation album??? You can’t praise Travis for letting Taylor bejeweled and then rip joe to shreds in the same breath when joe was the one there for her in a clearly difficult and trying time in her life

#the ripping to shreds is a little exaggerated cuz there’s not that much vitriol behind it #but I just find the callous attitude to be so disgusting and insincere #like the love for Travis is sooo much rn I can’t imagine ppl hating him if they broke up #but I couldn’t imagine that for joe either #and another thing I think has to do with how public they are which is fine #but because ppl see so much physical proof of Travis being loving it somehow automatically proves joe wasnt #he was a private man! let him be!!#and if that wasn’t smth Taylor liked/struggled with she dealt with it like the grown woman she is #I’m not saying she didn’t face any kind of emotional stress in that r/ship #but if she did/going off of her songs she dealt with it like an adult #and now that chapters closed and ofc we can still talk abt joe but the subtle menace towards him is sooo immature #like some ppl rlly need to grow up/touch grass #and I’m not hating on travis like him not being there in 2016 is not a dig towards him #it’s just pointing out who WAS there which a lot of ppl seem to be forgetting #joe alwyn #travis kelce #taylor swift

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silverquillsideas · 4 months

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Me, an artist : *spends hours perfecting anatomy, proportions, clothing folds, colors, perspective, rendering, background, lights, the 2% overlay layer of doom, etc etc*

Also me, an artist : *posts said art at the worst possible fucking time known to mankind when literally nobody on earth is online*

#Personal #artists on tumblr #Digital art #Illustration #Character art #Visdev #Fanart #Sketch #Doodle #character design #illustrations #Artist #art struggles #YES THIS IS A CALL OUT POST FOR MYSELF CUZ I'M SUPER MAD AT MY IMPULSIVE SIDE RN #Why do I self sabotage everytime lmfao #Please tell me I'm not the only clown doing this asjhadsfsfsjsa

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mjtheartist04 · 5 months

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GENYA KISSING RIKA’S BACK SCARS GENTLY AFTER BANDAGING HER UP FROM AN INJURY THEN AND REALIZING WHAT HE DID SUDDENLY AND STUTTERING OUT "J-just to make them feel better-!!" BUT IT DOESN’T MAKE SENSE CAUSE THEY WEREN'T WHAT HE WAS BANDAGING I-

[It came to me in a dream when I napped earlier 👁👁]

GIRLY YOU HAVE NO IDEA JUST HOW MUCH YOU MADE MY NIGHT RN-

IM SCREAMING AND GIGGLING AT THIS🫣💖

my girl gonna sit there like- (warning bare back and scars-)

MY GIRL WOULD BE FLABBERGASTED🙌😮‍💨

AND THEY WOULD JUST STAY THERE FOR A GOOD AWKWARD MINUTE IN SILENCE TRYING TO COMPREHEND ON WHAT JUST HAPPENED-😖

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mimir97477906 · 29 days

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im so sosry for ranting abour this again but auhgufhgh im making a ref sheet of my ocs for myself beacse EVERYTIME I DRAW THEM THEY LOOK SOOOSK DIFFERENT os i thoguht maybe this can help me memorize their faces but EVEN THO IM USING GUIDELINES THE SAME CHARACTER LOOKS LIKE DIFFERENT PEOPLE ITS JUST A HEAD TURN AROUND I CANT DO THIS I FEEL SO VIOLENT WHY IS MY ART STYLE HAVING AN IDENTITY CRISIS HOWWWWWWW DO I FIX THIS

#everytime when im drawing any of my ocs and someone mixes them up with another oc my heart shatters to 7463874693 pieces #that either means everyone i draw looks the same or the same oc i draw looks so different every time #at that point they just went with whoever they think is the closest #im having the hardest time making my sentences right now what is going on my talkşng abilites have went down to zero #no like also ive always struggled w same face syndrome without realising #all my art life i had ocs that looked exactly the same from an outsiders view but they looked sososooo different to me #like i just erased my ocs frrom existence when i was 12 cuz everyone mixed them up and it frustrated me so bad #and i look back at that era AND THEY REALLY ARE EXACTLY THE SAME I CANT TELL WHO IS WHO #AND THIS KEPT HAPPENING until i got into sims which pushed me to egt out of my comfort zone #this is why its very important to be obsessed with the ugliest character u can find ^_^(NERVOUS SUBJECT)#and now im scared i once again convinced myslef that my ocs look very different when they actually arent #ok maybe this is a transitional period from having a same face syndrome to being able depict different kinds of people #and im in between rn cuz since im nnot used to this i just cant draw the same face again #and everytime i draw it loks like a dfifferent stuyle whatfevrrrr whatevr #wow writing down your feelings really do work maybe i should get a journal #ramblings

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essektheylyss · 2 months

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Sometimes creating a full-fledged outline, with three sentence descriptors per scene, is great for my productivity because I don't have to mediate what each scene is gonna be when I get to it, and if changes happen it's because I know what's missing and how it needs to be altered.

But other times I write the outline and then I'm like, "What do you mean I have to finish writing the whole thing before anyone will look at it. There's an outline right there. Fuck you pay me."

#I am as always a tv writer at heart.#megs is writing #anyway I'm correct. unfortunately no one's gonna so. I'm just gonna have to write the damn thing.#this is PARTICULARLY a struggle when I'm like. okay but the execution of the scene is gonna be funky cuz of form or whatever #which is where I'm at rn.#to be clear I do not yet have a completed outline #cuz if I write one I will simply Not Finish. like I do in fact have to hold the precise outline hostage for my brain to do the thing lmfao

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cursedwithwords · 3 months

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Ah shit this is the first time in 15 chapters I'm stuttering between important scenes. That's not good. I was planning to write something with Ginny but I think I'm having some trouble because I do not have a good relationship with my own mother ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ like hey 911 what would a proper ma say in this situation because I do not knoooooow!

#sometimes me projecting onto characters leads to gold #othertimes it leads to me going “uhhhh” for 7 months #we aint doing that this time chiefs i promise!#but golly what a struggle!#who knew my childhood trauma would rear its head in such a strange way!#gonna watch tik toks to take my mind off of it and also cuz im at my dayjob rn and cant write anyway

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swaggy-transfag · 29 days

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Thought of making a post abt my struggles with communicating and getting my thoughts out in words. But then i was struggling too much abt how to word it so it made sense, so i gave up

#it can be so so tiring to try to squish my thoughts into words sometimes #it just doesnt feel natural and it never represents them good enough #everyday i wish for somekind of mindreading so others could just get what i was thinking #but instead i have to struggle everyday to not even do my thoughts justice #its so frustrating to just sit and try to get something out #often my mind just blanks and i cant grasp any words #its so humiliating bc ppl just assume im kinda dumb or stmh and i cant even prove them wrong cuz i cant translate my thoughts properly #i wanna tell ppl abt my struggles so they can understand #and also so they dont make fun of me anymore for it #but then i have to get the courage and also be able to explain it properly #aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa #its so weird i can usually get my point across (like rn) but it doesnt really feel like my words #talking for me mostly feels like clipping out a newspaper and then assemble all the usefull words k could find into what i want #i really really wanna try to unmask more #and just own the fact that im actually disabled #okay now im just rambling i think #point is im frustrated and sad that mindreading isnt possible

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bunicate · 13 hours

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idk Whts going on but now a days I have no energy T_T i need to be factory reset or smthn . Im just going through the motions atp . . . hoping tht changes soon ;-;

#can’t even finish my video games all i can do is play ovw bcuz im mentally ill obvi :p #but yeam m struggling 2 be productive nd do smthn different #no willpower or care 2 open tumblr im so tired #now that I say that i def think it’s cuz of lack of sleep #only way i can sleep rn is from meds which is so lame #nd even then I wake up so early nd im exhausted but still can’t sleep 😭😭😭#need to BREAK FREE FROM DIS CYCLE #˚｡⋆୨ 𝓫𝓾𝓷𝓷𝔂𝓱𝓸𝓹𝓼 ୧˚

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makkie-is-screaming · 5 months

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perks of always being a super picky eater is on holidays no one questions me not eating a lot. They know I’ve always been really picky with what I eat n don’t get weird if I only eat green beans and a roll.

#Didn’t eat anything but a slice of pie last year on thanksgiving n no one even noticed #it’s also cuz me my sister n cousin sit at a separate table in another room cuz we’re the youngest n there isn’t room at the table #Makes not eating easier bc my sister n cousin won’t say shit #like I don’t trust any of the meat+ I don’t like turkey #I won’t eat anything with cheese or most condiments #N the mashed potatoes r always gross #last year whoever made the green beans put barbecue sauce in them n I do not fuck with that #Rip to everyone struggling with an ed rn that’s at a family dinner #tw ed shit #screaming

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poppyseed799 · 6 months

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Brother why are there so many roaches we have had TWO full exterminations and BOTH TIMES the roaches came back. The first time there were less of them for a week (still some) but the second time there was absolutely zero difference in the number of roaches even immediately after the extermination. Like man. What am I supposed to do about this

#they’re in all the appliances dawg how am I supposed to cook 😭#and my sister is just like ‘just move out!!!’ brother WHERE #she is actually moving out on the shortest notice imaginable cuz she can’t deal with the roaches #going to our ex step fathers house cuz she already planned to move in there with her partner #but now she’s going there early cuz of the roaches #and like okay sure but WE can’t move in there. and yet she’s like ‘find a new place!’ brother we renewed the lease #and also do you know how the world works nowadays you can’t move anywhere it’s always more expensive 😭#we’re like frogs in boiling water #I jumped ahead with that metaphor but I’m too lazy to backtrack to explain how I got there #anyways yknow the roach guys said the infestation was REALLY bad and they wanted to do a follow up #but idk when that follow up is cuz it’s been a month since the extermination and there has been 0 difference. as soon as we came back to the #apartment there were still roaches on the walls #like man what am I supposed to do they’re everywhere and it would be so hard to move out 😭#vent #<- figure I’ll add that cuz like. that’s what this is. my life is just not great rn. constantly hungry too cuz we struggle with groceries #and I’m too scared to make myself some food cuz of the obscene amount of roaches. there was a roach in the dinner last night. then my mom #invited us to dinner at her place and refused to get us dinner.#said she wanted to hang out and didn’t talk to me so wtf #it’s just not going well. I posted happily about how I got those gifts but honestly I can’t even enjoy them because there’s too many roaches #like I don’t know where to put things so that roaches don’t get them. there’s no safe space.

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morningmarionette · 3 months

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i think someone should kill me. violently. make my body unidentifiable. dismember me. discard my limbs in different parts of town.

#mari fucking struggles 😞#risking it all typing this on my school computer lol #i mean the worst theyll do is call my mommy and then ill just idk #be mental irl i have nothing to lose anymore man idc #if i were a band kid and deadly afraid of drug addiction i would get high rn....#the only reason im not completely suicidal is cuz i wanna grow up to be a tired 37 y/o who works with the unbearably hyper teenager #who learns to love themself again while also gifting life knowledge to said teenager like were in a movie or smth #also bc i need to own a victorian estate and have pretty dresses and be hauntingly beautiful and marry a gyaruo #but none of this will happen if i dont get to go to college within 2 years of graduating high school #since 3rd grade my policy has been if i dont get into college suicide.#that probably says alot about me huh #3rd graders are 8-9 btw (i was 8)#i kinda hope the school clocks me but also i hope not cuz itd be sooo hard explaining that i have multiple mental illnesses that #make me wanna kms and sometimes i over share these things online for anybody to see #i trust my mutuals tho lol weve known each other since 2019 thats longer than literally anyone i actively consider a friend irl to date. so #i need to be killed.#mari vents

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minnieposting · 7 months

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i am reading "art and fear" and i want to peel the skin off my face its so. AGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

#minnie post #this isnt negative by all means #its just hitting sooo close to home #but its rlly inspiring tbh .#ive been struggling w art for a bit #im a huge perfectionist and lately i cant work on a piece for long i have too many ideas or just . get bored of it #i have so much to say but idk how to say it!!!!#then i have all these other ideas that i want to do but idk when ill do them so therye just fantasies rn #this work is making me both extremely self aware and i dont like it but also #its making me feel normal and therefore motivated to just Do stuff #cuz who cares #if i died tomorrow and left my current work behind and that was it #i would be so upset #it doesnt feel like !! authentic enough to me #but also AUAGFUIASIFUGASIUASF #art weird #i want to share more #im gonna share so much #no use keeping it hidden away in my brain for it to just die when i do

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bobzora · 11 months

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gonna put persona 1 on my vita lol

#bobtalk #still not gonna play 4 lmao #i’ve heard a lot of Opinions on the first game (for the record: i’m playing the psp version sorry abt the music or w/e)#so let’s see how this goes. i’ve seen the word ‘grid’ thrown around and is it funny that that’s what’s making me most nervous LOL #<- guy who will have played every other main oersona game (not counting versions of the same game ie portable (mayb someday))#pretend that tag is after the p/4 comment my laptop is elsewhere so i’m struggling on my ipad browser rn #once again sorry for being a vita guy lol. childhood console. i hate sony forever for what they did to her btw #p1posting #<- in the same vein as my tag for 2 #by the way if anyone has any recommendations for psp/psx/vita games to put on my console let me know.#it’s mostly a rhythm game device rn cuz there r some good ones but i do also. have arm problems. lol.#only downside to doing this on a console is screenshots 100x less easy btw.#shit what am i gonna name boy with earring. ok bye

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blueslight · 1 year

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Man this shit ruined my whole mood . And I cant even ask my.mom.for help even tmrw cause shes so exhausted and I dont wsnna bother her but with stuff like this I am SO fucking lost and like. Man

#I think i might be really exhausted. i feel like my brain clouds up if i try too.hard to think about everything currently going on #cause I dont wanna cry. so i guess small stuff like this gets to me more #but i specifically said im NOT doing badly and it drives me up the fucking wall when people assume im sad or suffering. idk why but it #DOES #and i also dont wanna be someone whos mean cause hes struggling. I think thats fucking cringe and if anyone tried to blame anything on the #fact that i got a lot going on rn id be pissed at them. but also man. i think im exhausted.#I dont understand my own feelings and shit ever but ESPECIALLY not currentky and i feel.so.lost and my moms.not there to help me #but theres stuff I just cant figure out on my own #And like the stuff w my friend SHES SUPPSOED TO BE MY BEST FRIEND WHY DOES SHE HURT ME #but also like why do i get hurt cuz its not like its bad #bad as in like serious. at all #but like even my two best friends even theyre not. I dont know. a part of me or something. theyre the closest ive ever been with people #outside my family and i do trust them but . its not. idk I cant explain it but its not . even they dont really get me i guess . and even #they are different from me and make me feel bad #(occassionally)

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