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incorrect-ikevamp-quotes · 8 months

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Comte Drama CD Translations, Track Seven: "To You Who Are So Lovely" - Ending

I'm not a professional yada yada yada, these are just my rough transcriptions of each track in the CD because I need fodder for my simping.

This one reads a bit like a love letter left for MC, it's another sweet one:

…Indeed, the sand in the hourglass has fallen. It appears my day with you is over. (I'M DISTRAUGHT TOO DW BEAUTIFUL) In this way, every moment trickles into another ceaselessly…yes, forever. Even now as I say it, the word “forever” drives a painful wedge in my heart. I often wonder at the essence, the weight that word carries--so often spoken with admiration and yearning by humankind.

I think this is the first time in my life I ever went "philosopher (affectionate)" 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 I could listen to him all day [contented sigh]

I know very well…just how heartbreaking it is. I was shaken by that never-ending, pathless darkness…until you gave me the hope of “now.” A vampire who lives forever, and a woman who lives a finite life, hoping for a better tomorrow. I’m not sure what will become of my love for you that sprouted at the boundary between “forever” and “now.” …But I promise you this. I will never let you go. When I give you eternal love… Let’s spend that time together.

Man the way I act up when I hear fictional man say "I will never let you go" [INSERT LOUD BARKING] it's a promise, Abel 🥺💜

It may turn out to be a bumpy road…but, don’t worry. We’ll take every step of the way hand-in-hand. When I get lost…you’re so kind and strong It makes me sure that if we do ever get lost, we’ll worry about it together, and find answers together. Like a waltz, let’s take each other’s hands…and live together.

Okay all my usual court jester energy aside, I really am so fond of this motif throughout his stories. This idea that being in a relationship is about being there for each other, about promising the other will never be alone. I guess they really just embody what marriage is at its best, for me? Like not necessarily that there's only one way to be married, but that it should be about helping each other and caring about each other? Building a life and sharing that happiness, an enduring love that grows the more two people are together.

Holding hands and dancing, I'm so...

And one day, I’m sure I will… …I’m sure that I’ll turn you into a vampire. At that time, let’s live together forever. From the moment I met you that day, in Paris of the 21st century…it felt like the frozen hands on the clock of my life began to move. I was determined that I would never fall in love with a human again. I was moved by your pure and single-minded thoughts, and I wanted your love. A year later, ten years later, one hundred years of accumulating this “now” I’ve received from you… In the far distant future, I want to see you beside me. I found you in eternity…I love you, and I will dedicate my pureblood life to your fate--

If y'all need me I will be wasting away, ty--

"In the far distant future, I want to see you beside me." I WANT THAT TOO, GORGEOUS

Man the way my brain is just so: the only kind of man I want is one that can go "I wanted your love 🥺👉👈" and "I wanted her blood to run down my mouth." AT THE SAME TIME

It's about the multi-faceted yearning 🤌🏼

#ikevamp #ikemen vampire #ikevamp comte #ikevamp mc #he is the sweetest????? wtf #i swear if i saw a letter like this left for me i would probably actually die of cuteness #the way he's just so '🥺👉👈tg?'#and im just resisting every urge to TACKLE him like 'YES OF COURSE TG FOREVER'#aight but fr comte and mc are def that couple that exchanges love letters unironically #not like every day but once in a while when they're Really Feeling It #am i mushy and ridiculous? probably #but i am cringe and i am free #i cant hear you over the sound of me clutching comte's letter to my chest like some kind of Austen protagonist #okay but why do i see leo being nosy just to get a rise out of him and rooting through comte's drawers #and nearly finds them #but comte grabs him by the scruff of the neck and throws him out #no cigarillos for our boy for a week bad kitty (poor leonardo)#the letters were subsequently concealed in an ornate box he hid in [location censored]#brain: hol'up. no he'd leave all the mushy letters out just to fk with leo but the raunchy ones are def going in the special box #me: my god...psychological warfare...#comte: emotional vulnerability gives him hives; it's equivalent to watching a person with lactose intolerance eat ice cream on purpose #me: KJHLGHJFDSJHFJADHLGDHFJKSGLHJK #honestly idc what mc says watching these two squabble is legit the best full time job out there #comte propaganda #fangdad propaganda #baguettosaurus

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mochinek0 · 1 year

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Heartache

"I am Heartache!" the akuma roared, "Everyone will know the pain I feel. Everyone keeps pain bottled up inside and I'm tired of hurting!"

Ladybug and Chat Noir looked around their surroundings. When people were hit, they were forced to admit things that hurt them. They were shouting how much they hated their jobs, some of them how much they hated their families, some were saying how much they hated the person they were dating. It wasn't their best day.

They carefully avoided the attacks, but Ladybug accidentally got hit. She collapsed on the roof and curled up in a ball, trying to keep her thoughts inside. She didn't.

"I wish I was never made Ladybug! I wish I wasn't the Guardian! I wish I could be normal! I wish the boy I have a crush on liked me back!" she shouted.

No one spoke a word. Chat hovered over her and frowned. In a way, it humanized her for all of Paris. They had all seen a heroine and savior, but here was this girl, terrified of what she had been doing. She hadn't wanted to save them, but she was forced to. They watched as Ladybug began to sob. Chat Noir quickly picked her up and rushed away.

Chat settled them against a rooftop, hidden from view. Ladybug curled up in his lap and continued to cry. The Weilder of Destruction held her and purred, hoping to soothe her. Her sobs quickly turned into sniffles and then stopped, all together. The Weilder of Creation took a deep breath and pushed away from Chat's chest.

"Thank you, Chat." she whispered, "Let's go get the akuma."

"Ladybug, you just-" he began.

"It's part of the job, Chat." she answered, with a smile "Think....Elsa. Conceal; don't feel. Don't let it show."

As she jumped onto the next roof and rushed towards the akuma, Chat Noir couldn't help but wonder how many fake smiles she had worn.

Adrien was walking back onto campus when he heard something. It sounded like arguing.

'Maybe, I can stop an akumatization from happening. Bugaboo will be so proud on me! '

Adrien crouched and moved closer to the sounds of the yelling. He could easily transform from the spot up ahead and prevent anything from getting out of control. Adrien peered around the corner of the building and watched as Lila shoved Marinette down on the ground.

"You're just as pathetic as I thought!" Lila sneered, "Soon you'll be lonely and friendless. Everyone will think it was your own fault. Once I win, Adrien will cast you aside. He already hates you. Everyone thinks so and what everyone think, is seen as true. I have all of them wrapped around my finger. It's only a matter of time until I get you expelled again."

Lila laughed and walked away. Marinette laid still for a moment, on the ground.

'How long has this been going on? Why hasn't Marinette said anything about this?'

Adrien walked closer to confront Marinette about what he just witnessed.

"Conceal; don't feel." She sighed, "Don't let it show."

Adrien froze. He watched as Marinette dusted herself off and adjusted her hair. Marinette smiled and walked away, heading towards the classroom. She never even noticed he was there.

'Marinette is Ladybug. Lila has been hurting M'Lady. She's been suffering silently this whole time. That bitch is going down!'

Adrien sat across from Mrs. Rossi, in their home.

"I'm sorry for the sudden visit, but I really need to talk to you about your daughter." Adrien declared, "I thought I should tell you everything before she ends up sued with a mountain of lawsuits."

"Sued?" she shouted, "Lawsuits?"

"Well," he answered, "she's been sexually harassing me. Father takes those kinds of things seriously. He even bans people from events and photoshoots."

"Why would you sue your girlfriend?" Mrs. Rossi asked "I'm sure if you told her, she would stop. Maybe she misunderstood something."

"Mrs. Rossi, I am not dating your daughter. I have never dated your daughter." Adrien replied, blushing, "I'm actually in love with a girl with black hair and blue eyes. She....she's my best friend. She's amazing, confident, and smart."

'He really seems to like this girl. Why would Lila tell me they were together? He doesn't seem to be lying to me. I wonder what kind of lies my daughter has been telling. It's obvious she's already lied to me.'

Adrien continued with a smile, "She reminds me of Ladybug. I even call her my 'Everyday Ladybug'."

"That failure?" Lila's mother questioned, before she could stop herself.

"Failure?" Adrien shouted in surprise.

He quickly brought out his phone and brought up Alya's blog. He purposefully brought up Alya's first time interviewing Lila, saying they were best friends.

"This is from the first day your daughter came to school. She quickly became popular, saying she knew Ladybug's identity and they were best friends." the Agreste heir explained, "Ladybug actually stopped her in front of me and called her out on her lies. Ladybug said she had never been to Italy, nor had she ever saved your daughter. She went on to list that they weren't 'best friends'. Your daughter got akumatized and tried to force me on a date as an akuma."

"She got akumatized!" her mother exclaimed, "She never told me that!"

"She's been akumatized several times." he spoke, "I'm sorry to be the one to tell you this, but she keeps lying at school She keeps promising classmates help with all these 'celebrity connections'. Almost everyone believes her. I've been trying to ask out my best friend and your daughter keeps bullying her! The girl I like, she keeps trying to tell people your daughter is lying to them. Your daughter starts to cry and says she's not lying, so she ends up plays the victim. She's been saying my best friend is bullying her. I saw your daughter bully her with my own eyes. She laughed at my best friend, telling her how she was almost all alone. Anytime I try to be alone with her, your daughter gets my arm and drags me away."

Adrien lifted his shirts to reveal nail marks.

"I just saw Layla shove her down the other day." he continued, "She even told the school she has a disease that makes her fabricate evidence when she's under so much stress. She blames you for pulling her out of school so much and forcing her to travel with you, all over the world."

Mrs. Rossi couldn't stand to listen to another minute of this.

'I need to get to the bottom of this. I don't think he's lying, but I need to hear this from the school.'

"Let's get you to the school." she smiled, "I'm sure you would rather talk to that future girlfriend of yours."

Adrien blushed and looked down at his lap.

'Yeah. That's definitely a boy in love.'

"Marinette!" Adrien shouted, "Will you go out on a date with me?"

Marinette blushed as the whole class focused their attention on her.

"You.....You like me?" Marinette questioned.

"Yeah." Adrien spoke, rubbing the back of his neck, "I've been trying to find you all week. I wanted to ask you, privately, but I just couldn't resist waiting anymore. So will you?"

"Huh?" Marinette blinked, still confused.

"Will you be my girlfriend?" Adrien asked again.

"Oh!" Mari answered, "Yes!"

Adrien quickly hugged her. Marinette kept still as her face was buried in his chest. She could hear people around them cheer.

The moment was quickly ruined by Lila's sobbing.

"How could you cheat on me?" she cried out.

"What are you talking about, Lila?" Adrien asked, pretending to be confused, "I have a thing for girls with dark hair; you're hair is brown. Even my ex has dark hair."

Lila couldn't help, but see red. She had worked so hard on her plans. She told everyone they were dating and keeping it a secret from Marinette. She had even told them that she had talked to Adrien about Marinette's habit of following him; that he said to ignore her. Now, here he was asking her out! He ruined everything! Lila stormed through their classmates. No one had ever seen her so pissed off.

"I don't even know what you see in her!" she shouted, pointing at Mari, "She's a useless nobody!"

Adrien glared back, "For one thing, Layla, I know she's not a liar!"

"It's-" she began.

"Layla Rossi!" her mother called out from the doorway.

"Mama!" Lila yelped, in shock.

She turned her glare away from her daughter and smiled at the model, "Thank you, Adrien, for letting me know how much my daughter has been misbehaving in school. Oh, and I see you finally asked out the young lady. Congradulations on making her your girlfriend."

Adrien smiled, brightly, "Thank you, Mrs. Rossi."

"We're leaving." her mother stated.

"But-" Lila tried to argue.

"You are going back to Italy and I already have a school in mind." Colette declared, "You will also be starting the school year over."

Lila looked at her mother in tears, "Why?"

"Your fake lying disease, for one!" her mother snapped, "How about missing half the school year, while you were at home. You lied to me, Layla! You told me everyone in your school was akumatized and you were terrified!"

"Mama." the Italian pleaded, "Please. I want-"

"I no longer care what you want; I'll be doing whatever is necessary to make sure you get what you need! Layla Rossi, we are leaving and you are grounded until we leave! No phone. No internet. No electronics." Her mother insisted, "I've already disconnected your phone and changed the wi-fi password."

Alya looked between Lila, Adrien, Marinette, and Lila's mother. She didn't understand what was going on. Why would Lila say she was secretly dating Adrien, but he was asking out Marinette? Lila accused him of cheating, but he said she wasn't his type. Why was her mother thanking Adrien and why would Lila tell her mother everyone was akumatized? What lying disease? Why would her mother say she missed half the year? She went on trips with her. Now, she was about to change schools!

"What's going on?" Alya asked, interrupting the serious conversation.

"I had been looking for Marinette so I could confess. Instead, I saw Lila shove Marinette down and heard Lila threaten her. Lila was telling Mari how I would be 'hers' and how she had 'all of you guys wrapped around her finger'. She told Marinette she was going to be all alone; friendless. " Adrien admitted with a smile, "Once I saw Lila was bullying Marinette, I decided to tell her mother. I had to learn from her mother that she was telling people that we were dating."

"I listened to Adrien, but I also came to the school to see what was going on for myself." her mother declared, "I found out that Layla has been skipping school, telling you that she's been traveling with me, and that she has a lying disease that makes her fabricate evidence when she is stressed. I've already reprimanded your prinicipal for his idiocy. It sounds like you got caught up in a lie and just didn't want to be punished."

"So, the celebrities?" Rose squeaked.

"Lies." her mother huffed, "Like all of the trips."

"Why?" asked Kim.

"We would have been friends with you." spoke Mylene.

"Yeah." replied Ivan.

"Not all of us are celebrities like Chloe, Adrien, or Marinette." stated Sabrina.

"How is Marinette a celebrity?" bit out Lila.

"Marinette is Jagged Stone's personal designer." Adrien answered, "Not to mention, both my father and Style Queen love her work. I've already worn something designed by her on Father's runway. Style Queen, herself, offered her an internship."

Marinette blushed under all of the praise. Lila looked at her in shock.

'That's how she knew.'

"Marinette doesn't brag; that's another thing that sets her apart from you. She could be at my father's level and she would still be this sweet, innocent, humble person." Adrien continued, before kissing the top of her head.

Marinette quickly turned and buried her face in his chest. Everyone could see the soft look he was giving her. They could tell the Agreste heir really did care for the girl in his arms. Mrs. Rossi could see the hurt in her daughter's eyes, but more than anything, she could see anger.

"Layla, let's go." she spoke up.

"But-" Lila tried to beg.

"Now, before I send you to boot camp." her mother declared, walking out of the room.

Lila quickly followed. No one knew what to say. They were all still in a state of disbelief. They had listened to a liar and turned their backs on someone they trusted.

"Is it alright if I sit with you?" Adrien spoke up.

Marinette nodded her head. He smiled as he followed her to the seat in the back row. Adrien took out a piece of paper and quickly wrote something down. With a smirk, he slid it over to Marinette. Confused, Mari took the note and took a peek.

Got to have my partner's back; don't I, Bugaboo?

Marinette froze and could feel her face heat up. She turned and looked at him, only to find him already looking at her. He just smiled and winked. Immediately, Marinette buried her face in her hands.

'It really is him! Adrien was Chat all this time! I rejected him constantly and confessed to him twice!'

Adrien smiled to himself as he watched her blush creep up to the tips of her ears.

'Cute. My little bug. I knew I would recognize her. I even called her my 'Everyday Ladybug'.'

He slid the note towards himself and quickly added another comment. With another smile, he passed it back. He tapped it and let her look at the note.

I knew I would fall in love with the girl behind the mask.

Marinette quickly turned to him in shock. Very quickly, she added to the note.

Seriously?

Of course.

Marinette looked at the paper in disbelief. She could recall confessing to Chat Noir and him rejecting her. He had been arrogant enough to claim he was so awesome he would have married himself, if possible. She even remembered Adrien saying he was in love with another girl to her face; ironically, it was her. Marinette smiled and wrote on the paper. She slid it back to him and waited to see his reaction.

Then, how come you were too blind to realize you were the guy I was rejecting you for? I'm pretty sure I'm 'just a friend'.

Adrien looked at the note and turned red. He looked up at her in shock. Marinette just winked at him.

'Game on, Kitty.'

Seriously?

Yep

All this time?

Way before the rooftop with the petals. (That was beautiful by the way) It was always you.

Adrien put his face on the desk, in shame. Marinette could barely make out what she was hearing, but it sounded like a kitten trying to sound intimidating. She couldn't help but giggle. Adrien turned to her with a pout and giant kitten eyes.

"What?" Marinette asked out loud.

Adrien grabbed the paper, wrote, and slid it back.

Do you really want to date the model version of me?

Marinette rolled her eyes.

I never liked you for being a model. I like the you that was honest with me and your laugh. We can talk more at patrol.

She slid the note over. Adrien smiled as he read it. She could tell her answer meant a lot to him.

"We'll have to discuss rules." Ladybug stated, during patrol.

Chat Noir just whined.

"Ladybug and Chat Noir can't be seen in a relationship." she declared.

"Why not?" He questioned.

"Hawkmoth will come after us more then ever." Ladybug stated.

Chat sighed, "Fair, but if my father forces us to break up, then can Ladybug and Chat Noir date? There's no way I'm losing you just cause of some stupid fashion appearance he wants for me."

"Fine. No nicknames dealing with our hero selves in public." she continued, "Keep the flirting to a minimum."

Chat Noir simply pouted.

Ladybug smirked, "You can still visit, but we can't be distracted."

The weilder of Destruction leaned towards her, "Are you saying you find me distracting?"

Ladybug blushed and quickly looked away. She was still getting use to the idea of Adrien and Chat Noir being the same. Adrien flirting with her was too much at the moment. Chat looked towards his lady and found her cheeks were still pink. He couldn't help the smile that crossed his face.

'She's so cute and all mine.'

Chat Noir grabbed her hand and kissed it. By impulse, she pushed him away by his nose. He simply winked and left the tower, leaving Ladybug flustered.

"See you in an hour, Bugaboo!" he called out.

"Stop calling me that!" she shouted and quickly fled in the opposite direction.

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you-usuratonkachi · 2 years

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no but the fact that the script is all in Will’s pov too... I mean, from the way they shot the whole season you could tell that the point were Will’s feelings, but this just cements that.

The fact that Mike has no directions in the script it’s because the point is that Will would not know what Mike is thinking either. The only directions are very blatant things like Mike throwing away El’s letter, which is something Will can see and take at face value. But Mike’s expressions and feelings and thoughts? Not there.

We don’t know how Mike feels because WILL DOESN’T KNOW.

Will is the pov for the whole thing, Will is also, may I suggest, an unreliable narrator.

In the Rink-o-mania scene he says that Mike is not interested in anything he has to say and that the guy basically ignored him, but Mike goes “you were moping, rolling your eyes” etc. which tells us that Mike was NOT ignoring him at all. In fact, he was paying very close attention to Will’s moods?

May I suggest that Mike has felt like a bit of an asshole for the whole season because WILL felt neglected by him?

The only scene where we get Mike from a pov that isn’t Will’s this season is the fight between Mike and El. But I’m ready to bet whatever you want that even in that scene, the pov is El’s. And she also feels neglected.

We are not being given any insight in Mike’s feelings at all. He’s behaving werirdly and no one around him can phantom WHY. Everyone is just unhappy with him.

For the whole duration of S4 we have Will trying to guess what Mike’s problem is and ASSUMING he just needs reassurence to fix his relationship with El, which has him pushing Mike even further towards El. But was that Mike’s issue?

What stands out to me is that Mike never actually tells Will what it is that he wanted to say to El. He’s vague about it when they have that heart-to-heart on top of the car, until he voices something that has probably been plaguing him for a while during the van scene: what if it was just mere conincidence? What if it was never fate? What if it was puppy love all along and he just got confused?

We assume that he’s saying that because he’s insecure about himself, because that’s how WILL TAKES IT. But what if Mike is actually voicing concern about how he truly feels about El? What if he’s doubting he loves her but in a redundant way because he feels like he’s the bad guy for feeling that way?

And then when Will tells him that El is always gonna need him he also starts to think that he’s just being insecure.

Still, when the time comes once again to say ILY to El, he hesitates. Whatever issue he had is not resolved. He still cannot say it. So Will comes in, reminds him of the whole discussion they had in the car and pushes Mike to say it, because he’s just being insecure, right? He needs to be more confident in how he feels (supposedly). So he says it. He repeats it over and over and Will feels crushed. Here you go, he loves her.

Except... does he? Or is he just overcompensating with the seven ILYs? It’s not like he could back down at that point. El was on the verge of dying, if that what was going to keep her alive, of course he HAD to say it.

No matter how you think about it, the whole thing feels like Mike is hurting Will almost on purpose over and over because we take everything in the same way Will does.

But is that truly how Mike feels?

The truth is that we are given zero insight into Mike’s feelings that aren’t tainted with Will’s perception of the situation.

And the fact that they keep Mike’s feelings so hidden is actually a very important plot point, because there was no NEED for it. If the point of it all had been to make Will suffer and make the audience feel bad for him, having Mike’s thoughts and feelings be explicit would have made us feel MORE pity for Will. If Mike loving El had been evident and descripted, we would feel even more for him. But the point is that IT’S NOT.

His thoughts are concealed and that only tells me one thing: that we would be surprised of what he’s actually thinking. That what goes on his head is NOT what comes out of his mouth. There’s a disconnection and we are not meant to know what it entails YET.

#byler #he cannot be no thoughts head empty #he's been going through a struggle #it might be internalized homophobia #or him simply questioning his own feelings #it's just that will doesn't know #he assumes how mike feels #he assumes mike is straight too #the audience is led to believe this too #but there are too many things that do not match narratively #will does not see the bigger picture #he's misunderstanding something #about mike #which automatically requires a reveal #there has to be a point where mike's feelings will be revealed #be it a vecna vision or whatever #i think s5 will have mike as the narrative pov eventually #especially when he finds out about how will feels #why all this built up to a reveal if there's nothing to reveal that the audience doesn't already know #the more mike's feelings stay concealed the more i'm convinced the revelation is going to be big #byler big

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