I just finished It's Such A Beautiful Day... what.. I...

i need y'all to know that i spent something like 2-3 hours dumping out my thoughts about the newest episode and the state of S3's storytelling as a whole and i just. i can't bring myself to finish writing it out or posting it because it's just such a clusterfuck, it's giving me a huge headache and i have no clue where to start with it so trying to express my thoughts on it feels like some sisyphean nightmare

so just have the cosmonaut variety hour "killing padme" meme instead because that's basically the entirety of LO's S3 plotline but like, somehow even fucking worse

something something, visited by three spirits that push you to reinvent yourself

and meanwhile, the three mother-type figures in Adora's life were all key to her to figuring out what she really wanted and who she wanted to be but literally...

Light Hope "died" trying to right a wrong from the PAST

Queen Angella died trying to preserve Adora's PRESENT

and Shadow Weaver died to give Adora a chance at a FUTURE

I am pleased to inform you that No Way Home was terrible. You would do spiderman movies so much better

i feel like i can finally talk about no way home and say that... while there's a lot that upsets me... there's actually a lot there that i kind of really like.

spoilers for no way home - but i've kind of been obsessed with the visual of peter parker actually picking up the glider with his own hands with murderous intent. holy fucking shit. holy fucking shit. holy fucking shit. like i don't know, every time i think about it i feel like an explosion going off in my brain. it's so fucking. it's so fucking insane. i really REALLY so desperately want to meet the person who conjured that up because they're batshit fucking insane and i froth at the fucking MOUTH whenever i think about it.

there's just... there's just a bit of no way home that is actually a freaking... amazing spider-man story, and everything i've ever wanted - but it's sandwiched amongst all of this mcu nonsense. but dear fucking god. just as a visual, i'm so obsessed with peter. PICKING UP THE GLIDER WITH HIS OWN TWO HANDS.

seen a lot of people saying that episode 13 is a spider episode, but am i the only one who sees it as a desolation episode? idk it’s just the cycle of the finance bro clawing his way up to ultimate fortune by losing everything else, and at the end of it all he doesn’t even get to keep his riches. he literally has nothing by the end of it, he’s burned every bridge, alienated himself from his friends and parents and completely fucked up his health. all that suffering just for one terrible loss, he got a taste of the top and it was stolen from him right at the finish line. life metaphorically going up into flames.

I'm fascinated that Vash, Knives, and Wolfwood don't know their birth families and how that plays out with their guardians.

Vash's philosophies are shaped by Rem; Knives rebels/reframes Rem's words to suit his own agenda ("There's so much we have to do to make sure it [Tesla's death by human experimentation/callousness] doesn't happen again." To me, it's a "I learned drinking at my father's knee" v. "I saw my father drinking and resolved not to be like him" relationship, and many people have written amazing metas on this!

Wolfwood has had two prominent guardians in his life—Melanie and Chapel (depending on which version, Chapel actually raised Wolfwood for a bit). It's pretty formative in that Wolfwood before the Eye of Michael is a caring individual but also hard-nosed to a certain degree (becoming a caretaker figure, knowing the orphanage is struggling, etc.), while Chapel teaches him that connections drag you down and that you must make an immediate decision (as the world/job is harsh and unforgiving). His experiences with Melanie and Chapel also shaped his self-sacrificing nature: to help with the greater good, whatever that means—but Wolfwood rebels against Chapel as Knives did with Rem, which (unlike Knives and Rem) is a good thing.

Again, none of these characters know their birth origins or express a lot of curiosity about finding out more, and that nature/nurture dynamic fascinates me because they're a) very much their own individuals but b) still burdened by who raised them.

It's a compelling theme in Trigun that it's not necessarily how you start out; it's the experience and guidances (or lack thereof) do. There are a lot of self-determination/fate interpretations among Vash, Knives, and Wolfwood—what path are you on? Did you create it? Is it shaped? Can you go without a path or make a different one? How does it all end? Can you truly escape where you came from? (More thoughts in the tags lol)

i never know how to start my fics it always feels so awkward like,, here’s my little guy. and he’s in a situation.

thamks

you after i free you from the tetrisphere

Where are all the Aziraphale/Crowley fan videos set to "Take Me to Church"??

This is an outrage, I would like to make a complaint.

hi! i know you’ve discontinued all your previous aot/snk works, but i had been trying to go thru my saved files trying to find my saved pdf of VOV since i wanted to reread. the reason i dropped in your inbox was because i realized my phone had auto deleted it for some reason and that made me incredibly sad. i just wanted to let you know, that no other work has impacted me quite so much like yours. Your writing style your original character left an impression on me that will last forever. The OC’s heart, their kindness, empathy, patience for others honestly affected me. It is the best thing I have ever read. it made me want to practice more of these things in my own life and love as unashamedly and deeply as they did. It breaks my heart that i can no longer read it, but i really just wanted to let you know how grateful i am that your works (all of them) were put out into the world at all. It’s really not an understatement at all for me to say that it really changed me as a person. I’m self involved, and i don’t often let the people in my life know just how much i appreciate them, and to be honest i didn’t ever consider their feelings and struggles before. Who i was before i read VOV and after are two completely different versions of myself. It taught and encouraged me to try to be a better friend and family, and i’m forever thankful and supportive of you for that. You will always be my favorite writer and artist.

Hi, yes, um.

Holy shit dude?? You wanna make an author cry, this is how you make them cry. I can’t even put into words how much I needed to hear something like this. I’m so honored that my story and my character touched you like this and that you reached out to let me know.

I intentionally wrote her as open with her emotions and with her love as a reminder to myself and hopefully to others that love is out there in abundance and that it’s worth the effort to love. That it touched you in such a way? I— ?? Complete loss of words.

Thank you so, so much for reaching out to let me know. If you would like to reach out to me off anon, I would be happy to send you my PDF copy.

Oh my gods. I did not check my emails for a few days because I am visiting family presently, but I just did.

I have received over $50.

Oh my gods...

Thank you so much to everyone who has donated. Please, if you have sent me money, do not be shy in reaching out for a commission.

I wanna be able to write so badly yall :”( I’m tired of being tired and unable to find words and unable to spend hours day dreaming up complex plots and world building like i used to.

in my last dnd sess, it culminated in me making a child cry

bc my party members absolutely cannot ask softball questions, menaced the hell out of this kid, and apparently i was the last straw

This is what i woke up to this morning

(It's now 23:01)

Lemme tell you, this gave me a heart attack-

This right here made my day! I can't even put my thoughts into words rn-

the more i learn about the american revolution the more hamilton: the musical infuriates me

(read tags for context pls i go off on a mega tangent)

oh my god fall out boy