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eyelessfaces · 23 days

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uncalled for

summary: you get quite upset when poe "saves" your assigned mission by giving orders to your teams without consulting you; poe is determined to fix his mistake.

warnings: (public) arguing, talks of the future; family and having kids

tags: gn!reader, angst, being parents to bb8, fluff, this ends up being real sweet tbh

word count: 1.7k

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(uh yeah I'm back if you even noticed I was gone lol. I might just post this and disappear again for a little longer idk but anyways I'll explain the reason whenever I'm back for good; I'm okay don't worry, and I'm still gonna post fics don't worry it's nothing too serious fr)

It causes a disruption when you both barge into the hangar; despite the constant clattering and whirring of tools and material there, both your bitter shoutings have been overlapping the sounds ever since Poe started following you closely, right from the moment you hastily jumped out of your x wing to try to forget about the awful management of your mission that would probably cost you to never get to lead one again.

“It was my call, not yours” you affirm bitterly, voice dripping with resentment, your steps heavy and hurried as you try to shake Poe off but he is anything if not persevering, so it only manages to piss you off even more and fuel your frustration. “I didn’t need you to save my mission or whatever,” you exclaim, causing heads to turn as you walk across the large room, barely minding what is going on around you.

“I did because I knew it would work!” Poe tries to explain, still heeling you closely. “I wouldn’t have done it if I wasn’t sure it would be successful” he declares louder than he needs to, thrown off when you suddenly stop in your steps, turning to him.

“So you think you can make decisions for me? You think I can’t do it, can’t command a mission correctly?” you rhetorically ask, revolted, sighing a profanity under your breath before you storm off again, your steps resonating with frustration. Poe sighs and winces before he follows you again, taking a hold of your arm.

“Babe come on you know that’s not–”

You stop again, your patience running short. “You had no right to encroach on my orders, I knew what I had to do, and you stepping in with your own instructions could have blown the whole mission up!” you call out, pressing a finger to his chest.

It’s when you finally take a moment to take a look at his face that you realize it, what is going on; you are being the center of attention, the little show everyone stopped their current task to sit and watch, your every word carefully awaited by your unwanted audience.

You sigh softly, taking a moment to step back from the situation. “Now leave me alone before we embarrass ourselves further or before I tell you things I don’t really mean just because I’m angry and don’t wanna talk to you” you hiss softly before leaving Poe in the middle of the busy room where he watches you walk away, helplessly standing there.

When he looks around him, most people turn away and avert their gazes to pretend they haven’t witnessed anything, and Poe is well too aware of the tension still lingering in the air even as you exit the room.

When Jessika climbs down from her ladder after watching the scene from her cockpit, BB-8 rolls over to her and chirps sadly, having observed yours and Poe’s argument from afar just like most of the hangar after his master went running after you. She kneels down to the droid’s level, giving him a sympathetic smile.

“That’s gonna be fine Beebs, they always end up figuring it out somehow” she affirms as the droid’s upper part sinks in distress accompanied by saddened beeps. Jessika can’t help but smile fondly at him and his obvious concern, at the fact that he quite literally acts like you are his parents.

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A few hours have passed when Poe joins you again; you don't notice him at first, having made sure to get focused enough on your paperwork to forget about the whole situation and try to ease the frustration within you. It's only when you put your datapad down that you see him leaning against the door frame.

“You're so pretty when you're focused” he smiles gently when your eyes meet his figure, causing you to roll your eyes and reluctantly smile at his words despite your lingering frustration.

“I’m still mad at you,” you sigh softly as you try to hide your slight smirk, gaze darting back down to enter numbers into your datapad.

He acknowledges your feelings with a nod, his lips pressed together in a tight line. “I know.” he admits, stepping into the room. “That’s why I’m here” You look back up at him, taking a deep breath as you set your datapad aside; despite the fact that everything he did since you wrapped your mission up got on your nerves, deep down you only wish for this to situation to get figured out and eventually be behind the both of you. You join him in front of your desk, leaning against it.

“I knew what I was doing. I was handling it” you affirm before he even gets the chance to do so much as open his mouth.

He holds a hand up to slow you down. “I know,” he nods understandingly. “I shouldn’t have redirected the plan, I should have trusted you. I was just afraid things would go wrong considering how it was all starting to go down so quickly” he explains. “I know I could have fucked it all up, everything you put in place so the mission could go right” you slightly tilt your head to the side in agreement.

“And I know my move was probably a lot more dangerous than the plan you had in mind to make everything right but you know I would never put you or our teams in danger, only myself” he declares with a concerned nod, causing your expression to soften. “You, never. I would never risk it, no matter what” there’s a soft frown over his face as his eyes flicker with sincerity, his confession making your heart ache as it hangs in the air before he talks again. “And I never doubted your ability to command a mission.”

You nod with a heavy sigh, acknowledging his apology. “I should apologize too. I shouldn't have lashed out on you like that either.” you admit and nod sheepishly, reflecting on your impulsive behavior. “I really wanted this mission to go right”

“For what it’s worth,” he starts with a small smile, trying to dissimulate a bigger one. “I talked about it with Leia and she thinks you did pretty good” his declaration doesn’t fail to draw an appreciative smile from you, one that makes him mirror your action. “And she thinks we would work great together”

“And I agree,” you reply, finally feeling a weight lift off your shoulders as the tension between you begins to dissipate. “We do make a good team.”

Poe’s smile widens, relieved to see you loosen up a bit. “Yeah, we do” he agrees with a small huff, stepping closer to you. “I just hate seeing you so worked up.”

You chuckle softly, shaking your head. “I hate getting worked up,” you scoff.

“I’ll try to think about it twice next time,” Poe promises, reaching out to gently take your hand in his. “I don’t want to step on your toes or make you feel like I don’t trust you or your judgment.”

Your fingers intertwine with his, the warmth of his touch calming you further. “Well I’ll try not to snap at you,” you promise in return, giving his hand a reassuring squeeze as you let your head rest against his chest with a small, barely audible sigh. “Especially not in front of everyone,” you mutter, earning an amused chuckle from him. You melt into his touch as he leans to press a gentle kiss over your forehead, his hand that is not holding yours coming to wrap around you.

It is only after you pull away from his embrace and leave a chaste kiss to his lips that the corner of your eye notices a sort of spy in the corner of the door frame.

“What’s he doing here”

Poe frowns before he turns around, huffing out a laugh when he notices BB-8 peeking out the door. “How long have you been here?” he jokingly scolds his droid that fully reveals himself now that he has been caught. “You know he doesn’t like when we fight” he softly sighs turning back to you, a mix of amusement and concern in his eyes before he looks at BB rolling over the both of you.

You shake your head, unable to suppress your smile at BB-8’s presence. “Very sweet of him to be looking out for us,” you start, reaching out to pat the droid’s dome affectionately. “But maybe he should learn not to eavesdrop.”

BB-8 chirps playfully, obviously pleased with the attention, seemingly eager to be a part of the reconciliation.

Poe chuckles, kneeling down to scratch behind BB-8’s sensor with a fond smile. “Yeah, yeah, we’ll work on that,” he says before glancing back at you with a soft smile. “He's our kid, he’s been worried sick about us, weren't you?” he turns to BB, who's beeping frantically in agreement.

You glance at him, then back at Poe, a softness settling in your chest at the sight of them together, your little family. “Our first kid, yeah” you smile softly, heart fluttering inside your chest.

“First? Meaning there's gonna be more?” Poe asks with a playful smile, getting back on his feet. He raises his eyebrows as he awaits your response, and you both laugh at the sudden change of atmosphere as Poe wraps a hand around you before pressing a kiss to your temple.

You huff out a laugh at his quick jump to conclusion, “I don't know, you're a pretty good dad to this one,” you shrug.

“A couple hours ago I was dead to you and now we're talking having kids” he laughs into your hair, a teasing tone in his voice.

“You weren’t even close to being dead to me, you’re so dramatic Poe” you declare with a small scoff, poking his chest lightly. “That’s the reason Beebs loves you so much” you tease, making him huff out a laugh. “I’d say we should focus on surviving one parenting experience first,” you chuckle looking down at BB-8, nudging Poe playfully. “But who knows what the future holds?”

Poe grins, his eyes sparkling with excitement as his arm grasps tighter around his hold on you. “As long as I have you by my side, I'm up for anything babe.”

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clanwarrior-tumbly · 3 months

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oooh I got one! prompt 74 with any of the follower!bishops, where they get hurt on a crusade and reader, who is a healer finds them and helps them <333

74) "I think I broke my leg!"

.......

"I can't believe this...betrayed by my own-!!"

"Lord Kallamar?"

Surprised by the voice, Kallamar looked up at you, the figure dressed in white tattered robes, clean of any and all ichor. The metal halo behind your head reflected the sunlight from above Anchordeep, making it seem as though it were glowing.

Now he remembers.

You're one of the many nameless Healers in his former army of cultists and devotees. He thought most of them were culled by the Lamb at this point, yet you were somehow still alive.

"You have returned to us in such a miniscule form." You mused, to which you saw him tense up, trying to shuffle away.

So far, every creature here was trying to kill him during his crusade, and he wasn't sure if you were going to be any different.

He knew should've gone to the tailor first; at least they wouldn't attack him on-sight just because his red robes remind them of the Lamb..and that his defeat permanently shattered his image as a leader.

"Back away from me! I'm---ow!!!" Feeling a sudden sharp pain in one of his legs, Kallamar stopped moving and looked down, realizing it didn't look quite right. "Ah...a-ahaha...I-I think I broke my leg...!"

"Do not fear, my lord. I will make it all better." Floating down to the ground, you gently reached your hands out to him, green magic appearing from your fingertips. "How did this happen, if I may ask?"

"Well..I fell.." He mumbled quietly, and you looked at him, mishearing him.

"What happened?"

"I-I fell while fleeing from one of those sea creatures..." Red dusted his face as he averted his gaze, embarrassed to be seen like this--especially by someone he used to rule over.

But you seemed to show absolutely no bias nor resentment towards him, even though he now wore the same robes of the enemy cult.

Part of him was afraid you'd refuse and leave him to suffer on his own, although he remembers that your singular job is to be a healer. And despite knowing that he wasn't some all-powerful god anymore and allowed himself to be beaten by Lamb into submission...you wanted to help him anyways. You didn't huff or laugh or show any indication that you thought of him as pathetic for breaking his leg over a simple fall.

Instead, you quietly allowed your magic to go to work, mending the broken done and repairing the torn flesh. Soon it set itself back into place without causing him further pain, making it good as new.

Like nothing even happened.

"You should be good now, my lord. Do be careful with your new mortal vessel." Bowing your head, you rose to your feet and watched as Kallamar slowly got up.

"Only now I see how fragile this body is..damned Lamb.." He grunted, checking out his leg before picking up his backpack. Then he gazed up at you. "What's your name?"

You blinked. "My name..?"

"Yes, that's what I said. I never knew your name, but I wanna know it now."

"I see, then...I'm [y/n]." You answered, surprised and flattered that he asked.

It's been so long since you've said your name to anyone, that you've almost forgotten it entirely.

"Well, [y/n]..would you care to accompany me for the remainder of my crusade? I was sent to retrieve as many crystal shards as I could carry...but I keep running into dead ends, and death traps.." Kallamar shuddered. "And I-"

"You needn't worry, my lord. I would be happy to join you." Although he couldn't see your smile under your hood, he could hear the delight in your voice, and chuffed.

Why were you so kind to him? Why did you treat him as though he was still your ruler?

"None of this bothers you at all?" He vaguely gestured to himself. "You don't see me as your "enemy"?"

"I only see the injured and the sick, and I heal them." You assured him, chuckling softly. "Do not fret. It matters not what form you take or how limited it is, my lord-"

"Okay, I'm not your "lord" anymore. Just Kallamar is fine."

"...very well, Kallamar. Then let us go. I know a safe path."

#clanask #anonymous #cult of the lamb x reader #cotl x reader #cotl kallamar #kallamar x reader #cotl kallamar x reader #follower kallamar #platonic #angst/horror prompt

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homochadensistm · 10 days

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Hello. I know this will sound super weird and probably rude because why tf would I come to a stranger with my personal problems? But I wanted to ask for advice, if that’d be okay? I remember you saying you suffered from depression, and managed to deal with it and work on it enough to get somewhat past it. Depression ruined my life completely. I’m 30 with absolutely nothing to show for it, not even a degree. I have tried so so many things, but nothing seems to help me. I promise that I keep fighting with all I’ve got, and I’m not really asking about what to do or something like that, but I want a sincere opinion, if that’s okay. Do you think I can still turn my life around somehow? Do you think I can still try to start over at this age? Start going to uni again even with the pressure that I need to have kids soon as well before it’s too late? With the pressure that I might fail again if my menthol eelness gets too bad again? Is it too late for me to have big dreams of ever living up to a potential I could’ve had if not for this stupid disease?

Hi anon, I think you're completely fine. Life is not a race, there is no medal at the end of it for all the XP maximizers. You're not gonna get a Goodest Girl award for doing uni at 20 or for not having Being Sad Debilitatingly DiseaseTM. It's really OK. Your pace is your own and the amount of progress you can have with yourself in 1 month can be equivalent to the progress a 20yo girlie has in 5 years, it's all good. Time is not the most important factor in the Happiness and FulfillmentTM equation.

That being said, I'm sensing a lot of fomo/expectations stress(?) from ur text. What do u mean "I NEED to have kids"? That's not something you "need" to have, it's something you should WANT to have. You shouldn't feel pressured by time (or anything else) to have kids, you can have them later in life if that's something you aspire to, it's fine. iirc nowadays around 25% of births are by women who passed the age of 35 (and the rate+age is increasing), you have absolutely nothing to worry about.

You can turn your life around at any given point in time. You can do it at 20, at 30, at 50, it doesn't matter. Again, the universe won't hand you an award for getting your shit together sooner than later, we're all going to die as the same, medium quality slab of meat. Will you maybe feel like you could've done it sooner and save yourself the time and misery? Sure, but that isn't going to get u anywhere, yesterday is over bestie there's only now and tomorrow, and that's plenty of more time!

From my experience, depression is informed by both internal and external factors, and, most annoyingly, the internal factors are informed by the external factors as well. You feel the way you behave and live. If you treat yourself like shit you're gonna feel like shit. If you behave in ways that encourage negativity (angry, resentful, spiteful, selfish, lazy etc) it'll affect you negatively. Depression also encourages you to be comfortable with yourself (ironically) in a way that inhibits growth and learning: I don't have to hold myself accountable to doing chores or taking a shower or eating well or doing homework or working on my project or even going to work, I'm depressed! This doesn't happen consciously imo, you don't actively decide "I'm not gonna take a shower cause I'm depressed", you sort of slip into the mood of not taking a shower, and the excuse your brain gives you for that is "oh well, that's depression for ya" and the cycle continues. The uncomfortable zone is the place where YOU ACTIVELY catch yourself doing that, and doing something else, uncomfortable, instead (like taking a shower despite feeling like you REALLY don't wanna). This ofc applies to literally everything in life, not just showers. Depression actively keeps you in your comfort zone, where you don't have to do anything that makes you feel anxious, nervous or UGH-y, and provides you with a wonderful excuse.

Your life will start taking a turn for the better once you free yourself from the prison of comfort your brain put you in, and start actively seeking out and completing activities that make you uncomfortable. Start taking care of your skin daily. Put those moisturizers on your face. Clean your place, declutter your surroundings. Dont eat food straight from the fridge like an animal, put it in a bowl and sit down and eat. Cook for yourself, stop relying on the comfort of instant trash. Move your body more, take walks outside, preferably around nature/parks, even if it requires a bit of travel to get there. Invest in your own fucking stocks, your looks, your health, your well being. Nothing will ever happen if you won't actively make it happen, and you will never feel good about yourself if you don't start taking yourself seriously. You give your Sims the best lifestyle with food, health, clothes and hobbies, why not yourself?

Make a routine for yourself and stick with it. Eat your meals at the same time every single day. Wake up and go to sleep at the same time every day. Give yourself a structured framework to live by so that your brain can feel like there's order in the chaos, trust me it's a big deal. Start working out, and make it a routine. For the love of God, PLEASE start working out! It doesn't have to be super long or complicated, but moving your body is essential for both your mental and physical health, and if ur so worried about the time "wasted" on being Sad SickTM then the solution is in prolonging the time and the quality of time you have left, and that can be done optimally through exercise and good food habits. You have no idea what kind of physical and mental changes a well structured workout program (that you stick to as part of your routine) can bring, at any age. It can also count a hobby and give you measurable little goals to reach.

In short: taking responsibility over myself and owning up to my (in)action, having a set routine and bedtime/waketime, a good diet, working out and taking care of myself are what eviscerated years of depression for me. I obviously don't know your personal situation but I (and the field of cognitive behavioral therapy) feel like these factors^ are the most common denominator in all of us feeling like shit, and play such a huge role in every human person's wellbeing and they're universal across the board.

I highly encourage you to watch this, and take notes:

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Hope I helped somehow and Goodluck anon! There's absolutely nothing wrong with you, I promise.

#dobetter

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basuralindo · 11 months

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*Rises from the depths gasping for air* You'll Have Me Rise chapter 14 is here!!!

I'd like to say this took so long because I was honing it to perfection, but tbh the same kinda shit that caused the last mini hiatus just keeps happening and at this point I don't wanna jinx anything by saying this is the last of it. That said, this chapter is long as hell, and I did genuinely put a lot of work into it. This is finally a huge bulk of the plot reveal, and I hope you all enjoy!

Babble under the cut.

-Fffff where do I even begin with this? First off thank you for reading the whole thing. I can't begin to explain how this whole concept entered my head, and tbh I'm not sure how much it will end up being addressed within this story. But, if I keep at it, this means there's gonna be a sequel with undercover spy work and guerilla warfare and the works, so, fingers crossed there.

-Anyway, the opening lyrics are meant to be kind of an emotional reversal from the first chapter, because I'm seeing this as kind of a turning point in Jamil's feelings and perception of the octatrio. In chapter 1, Jamil is feeling like he's worth more than he's being given, that he's better than the people controlling him deserve. He's resenting and resisting the people around him and fighting for a sense of independence, of control over his own life. Now in these last two chapters, he's surrendering to a feeling of helplessness, he's been beaten down by recent events and falling back on the belief that he can only gain anything by being used. He's realizing that he's actually started valuing certain people, and perceiving himself as not worth enough for it to be reciprocated. Basically, Jamil is starting to give in to the prospect of being controlled by the only people he actually likes, because he's lost sight of any better alternative.

-That said, obviously his sense of pride isn't letting him give up the fight quite that easily. Jamil may get convinced to look down on himself at times, but that doesn't mean he thinks the rest of them are any better.

-I don't care about the canon dorm images. I have an idea in my head and I'm sticking with it.

-Fun fact, as a barista: If you tell us "surprise me" (unless we really like you), you're getting whatever's easiest at the moment/using up leftover ingredients laced with spite. Unless you seem chill enough to experiment on and the manager isn't there, then you're getting whatever weird flavor combo the staff has been curious about but not willing to try themselves. At least give a general range of flavor preference, or ask what we think is good. All that said, this is more proof Azul really likes Jamil.

-Mansplaining as a narrative device for exposition? In my fic? It's more likely than you think… (for real though, you can't have a story about villains without at least one monologue)

-So, moray eels shed and regrow teeth, which means I'm deciding that the tweels do too, which supplies some of the parts they're selling. So yeah I'm picturing Azul acting like the world's most awful tooth fairy and coming to collect whenever his boyfriends lose one

-Very minor but I imagine Azul is absurdly pleased with himself for coming up with a terrestrial plant metaphor to explain things to his terrestrial crush

-A while ago (when I thought the chapter would be written soon) I did a short poll asking folks on tumblr to vote on who got fridged for Azul's backstory, and his stepdad was eliminated …sorry Orfeo… (I'm gonna go into how I picked the name after a chapter where we learn more about him)

-TBH I feel like half of this lore was made up on the spot. I'm not sure if I'm sorry or proud of myself, but at least it's written down. It didn't hit me until I was done writing it out that environmental exploitation and human trafficking have always been such major topics growing up that they've really become go-to narrative conflicts in my writing

-I can't resist the concept of sirens having an inherent magical allure. I imagine it helps Azul with convincing clients and victims to agree to his inadvisable deals, and acts up more subconsciously when he actually wants to attract someone (like Jamil during class and in this chapter)

-I actually really enjoyed trying to depict Azul's feelings and motives from the POV of Jamil completely misinterpreting just about every cue

-A moment of silence for Jamil and what he thinks is normal. The idea that Azul might be upset for him has never crossed his mind (Azul: What's that? People try to poison you? Often??? I'm going to need a drink. / Azul: Oh so you… don't… get choices… in your line of work? You just referred to yourself as someone's resource? More wine it is. / Jamil: …is he mad at me?)

-On that same note, another moment of silence for when first crush anxiety meets massive paranoia. And the inevitable drastic misunderstandings when one party is accustomed to always being used and the other is notorious for always using people. Our boys are Going Through It

-Jamil can't tell the difference between a broken heart and indigestion tbh, and Azul's pretty sure he's poured his heart out on the floor enough times that he can't figure out what could possibly be left to misinterpret

-Aaaand have another round of Disney References Slipped Into Serious Scenes For A Laugh. It's like an easter egg hunt of me sabotaging the mood of my own story! (I'm still waiting on someone to catch the shitty aladdin sequel ref thrown into one of my otherwise favorite scenes from several chapters back). All that said, I'm actually kinda pleased with this one, since the theme songs can merge like that

#you'll have me rise fic #chapter babble #chapter update #you'll have me rise chapter 14

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alexandraisyes · 1 month

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🤯😈🤡🍆🍦💖

Thanks for the ask! Turbo's answers under the cut! Here's where you can find the emojis for the ask game!

🤯 What's a genre you struggle with as a writer (ex. romance, action, etc.)?

Probably romance. I'm not a very romantic person but that's to be expected considering my, uh, psychological standing (sweats in ASPD). I've been told that the romantic and soft and family shit I write is really nice and feels real, but I'm just making shit up man, haha. I do a lot of self-projecting when I write sweet shit because I wanna give my characters what I can't have. ❤️Thankfully Turbo is here to make me brainrot and think about all of the sweet shit. Otherwise, the fics would be a lot darker than they already are.

😈 Has there been a point in a story where you did something just to be playfully mean to your readers?

Like kill Sun's cats? OH YOU SAID PLAYFULLY-

🤡 What's a line, scene, or exchange you've written that made you laugh?

Any time Killcode acts like a feral cat I get a good laugh. He's just an oversized cat who acts like one too his lovers as well. Including play fighting them (much to Flare's dismay as he gets pulled away from tasks).

🍆 Do you write the spicy stuffs? If so, what's your most popular nsfw fic?

I do haha. My most popular nsfw fic is The Deal because that's the only one uploaded so far. TMiB is just the sequel to The Deal so it doesn't count.

🍦 What's the sweetest fic you've created so far?

Oooh that's tricky. I would say The Deal except that's got uh. . . death. lol. Probably Erros in Resentment just because it's me projecting on Eclipse like all fuck and he gets the happy ending that I think he deserves. Without more suffering. It's kind of my love letter to my disorder (ASPD) since Eclipse and Ruin both have it. There's something beautiful in the absolute devotion a sociopath can have to someone, the unwavering loyalty, and that's often taken for granted because we don't love in the traditional sense of the word. It's meant to show that people with ASPD can still be happy, and change, and grow and improve and live meaningful lives without causing harm to people around them. Not even just ASPD, but all Cluster B disorders. That someone who is aromantic by nature can still find happiness with someone else, even if it's not a romantic companionship, but rather just a sense of belonging. Like I said, it's me self-projecting on Eclipse, and Ruin also having ASPD? That was just the cherry on top for me. I can't promise when it'll get updated, though.

💖 What made you start writing?

I've always been writing! I just normally kept it to myself or roleplays. I've been writing short stories since I knew how to write, though.

Turbo's turn!

🤯 What's a genre you struggle with as a writer (ex. romance, action, etc.)?

serious conversations? probably some heavy- really heavy shit i think

😈 Has there been a point in a story where you did something just to be playfully mean to your readers?

that one time me and alex hinted at a solar x lunar shit. But it was one sided

🤡 What's a line, scene, or exchange you've written that made you laugh?

Any scene where bloodmoon swore in the deal. it just hits different because he dosent swear so much in my ehes

🍆 Do you write the spicy stuffs? If so, what's your most popular nsfw fic?

THE DEAL LMAO

🍦 What's the sweetest fic you've created so far?

A little snippet called "bloodmoon, eclipse, lunar, and burgers" 🥺 (its not found anywhere but on a discord server lel im too shy)

💖 What made you start writing?

DUNGEONS AND DRAGONS NGL AND MY LOVE FOR STORIES

#alex talks #alex rambles #long post #long answer #answered ask #fanfic writer emoji ask game #fanfic writer ask #fanfic writer #ao3 writer #the deal tsams

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spookyclooky · 2 years

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considering I will never shut up about this, and I see a lot of people ganging up on each other over this, I've decided I'm going to publicly share at least a few (if not all) of the slides from a powerpoint I made for my friends explaining why Stancy doesn't work and Steddie does

Keep in mind, this was not originally intended for general audiences but I've reached the end of my rope with this and I'm gonna show you some research I did (though I'm gonna exclude some of my slides cause they're introducing the characters for my friends who don't watch ST)

my first two slides, because some of this was jokes but I'm so actually fucking serious about this it's crazy

my summarization of both of their relationships (some of the Steddie one was jokes because they don't actually have a canon relationship obv)

and this is the summation of my analysis of both relationships (or what I think their relationship could be by analyzing the way they interact in Steve and Eddie's case). This doesn't even include the fact that Steve evidently wants a big family according to ST4, which Nancy straight up said is the last thing she wants. So, in being with Steve, she'd be trapped in her worst nightmare and would grow to eventually resent him. She even says this during that conversation:

Because she doesn't want kids! She expressed this early on the series when she's talking about her parents with Jonathan, telling him about how her dad was older and her mom married him for money. She didn't want to be like her parents, she still doesn't. She's trying her hardest to pave a path for herself in her journalism, by any means necessary. You think she can do that stuck in a house on the end of a cul-de-sac with someone she never truly loved in the first place?? NO!!! She says this to Jonathan in S1 E6, which just further proves my point

so hearing that, do you think she wants a cute little family with Steve, schlepping across the country with "six little nuggets" in tow? Absolutely the fuck not.

AND, for Steve, he straight up tells Robin that he doesn't love Nancy anymore. While he was on 'truth serum' from the russians. He doesn't even hesitate, and here's the scene if you wanna watch it again cause you don't believe me.

Even Murray, an outsider looking in, could see their relationship was not it

Like, do y'all not remember this?

Cause I do

this shows that even an outside party, who is JUST MEETING Nancy, can tell that she no longer loves Steve, and that's assuming she ever had feelings like that for him in the first place.

In S4, he SPECIFICALLY says, after the bit about crawling backwards, that he says when he gets a big enough thump on his head, he can change and move forward. He thanks her for helping him to 'crawl forward', which I kind of interpreted as a 'hey, thanks for showing me that the way I was acting before sucked, and you breaking up with me changed my life for the better', the breakup acting as his proverbial bump to the head in this particular case.

Speaking as someone who has been in an extremely unhealthy relationship in the past, I think that Steve is simply going through a denial stage at this point, his rose colored glasses coming back on to romanticize the good parts of his and Nancy's relationship instead of seeing the entirety of it. The good and the bad, even though from what we see as an audience, there's much more bad outweighing the good. Especially considering they weren't together for very long by the time the events of season 1 took place.

At the beginning of season 2, it seems like from Steve's perspective, the stuff involving the Upside Down (i.e, Barb's death, facing the demogorgon together, etc.), brought them closer together, but to Nancy, it made it easier for her to distance herself from Steve, for whatever reasons she personally may have found prominent at the time.

She at least acts like she's in denial at first about not being in love with Steve, but she lets that fall apart insanely quickly, considering she kisses/sleeps with Jonathan at Murray's a few hours after they talk about her love life/relationship with Steve where she says that she does in fact love him??

Delving into the mind of Nancy Wheeler is a complicated endeavor, the same could be said for Steve Harrington himself, but long story short, the idea that the Duffers could possibly be pushing them back together bothers me a lot because it'd be like Steve crawling backward all over again. It's like they don't know what to do with him unless he has some sort of love interest and it kind of shows. In S1 and S2, it was Nancy, in S3, it was Robin and now they're trying to come full circle which doesn't make any logical sense.

In all honesty, I think Nancy should just take a break from having a relationship all together, to finally let herself grieve Barb properly and Steve should have a partner that matches his emotional maturity that he's gained over the past seasons.

But that's all I'm gonna say, so thank you for coming to my TED talk and I hope you enjoyed <3

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I have some questions about geto. 1. Isn't it strange that he wants to kill his parents like I think he didn't kill his whole family but he specifically killed his parents I think geto's parents weren't that nice I think geto had a difficult childhood. 2. There are 2 scenes where I find Geto's reaction strange. When Amanai hugs his maid and says he loves her, he reacts like he's never seen that before. and the second scene when yuta says he likes rika and kisses her geto makes a surprised reaction and i find that strange. Do you think geto wasn't born into a loving family that's why he had these reactions in these scenes? 3. do you think we will have a story about geto's past one day?

Before I start answering, I just wanna say that I think fandom has a tendency to try to smooth out Geto's crimes. He's a huge fan favorite and it's very hard, even for me who is a Geto stan to really digest that he did the things he did and believes the things he does so I have an inclination to try to justify him because of how empathetic he is. Gege doesn't want to us to think he's absolutely evil. With that in mind;

I think Geto didn't kill the rest of his family members not because they were nicer to him. I don't think he killed his own parents because they were particularly horrible to him either. It was probably more convenient and safer to kill his parents instead of hunting for his extended family which would have given openings for Gojo or someone else to catch him. If the family happens to land at his feet, he'll kill them, searching for them suggests grudges and I doubt he cared about the extended family's life or death that much. Geto is the kind of person who needs an ideal to live up to and that evolved into him prioritizing ideals over people. To show to himself and the world he means business, he kill them to complete the process of putting his ideals above people(leaving Gojo and not asking for him to join him is also a part of this). He wanted to save people before, yes, but he says it's because the ideal for a society is the strong protecting the weak so everyone can be kept in check and be safe. He's starry-eyed about being the strongest and was already separating people in terms of "weak" and "strong." The ideal he was living up to, he realizes, was broken and was breaking him and everything he cared about. The problem is systematic. So, change the system. But in order to do that sacrifices and compromises have to be made. His compromise was non-sorcerer lives, which likely wasn't a difficult choice since he already had biases against them anyways because of Toji but I think killing his parents was how he truly sealed the deal. He keeps seeing the end goal rather than the path taken to get there. The way he reacts to the idea of a found family and how he immediately assigns Kuroi and Riko as family does make me think yeah he may not have had a good relationship with his parents but I don't think it was nearly as bad as what people might imagine it to have been. Not something for them to be killed over most likely(perhaps them not understanding Geto seeing curses or trying to relate to him caused divides, or he was also experiencing what Gojo was in terms of the power difference and saw his parents less as people and more as plants or insects). He stopped giving a shit, his parents were justifiable collateral in the ideal world he's building where the people he chooses to care about will be safe. And to that ends, he'll do anything. (I do think there's implications of non-sorcerer making curses that directly hurt Geto, and Geto's parents being non-sorcerers who likely produced or attracted the first curses he saw which may have led to resentment building from his end. His powers are just, inherently awful and strips him down and hurts him. The only people capable of not hurting him are sorcerers).

With Kuroi and Riko, I think that was him being shocked that they were so close though Kuroi was Riko's maid. It's laid out like a professional relationship and seeing these two so close was a shock because it was clearly more familial and because SatoSugu assumed Riko's got nothing to lose and is chill with the merger but there is someone who will hurt if she's gone. Wrt Yuuta and Rika skjdfbh. Can I be fr? I think Geto was just bitter. Yuuta says he'll fight for love and Geto says he'll fight for justice. Seeing Yuuta have love likely reminded Geto that he forsook his love(which was a core part of him during Hidden Inventory) for an empty justice which gave him no true happiness or contentment. Probably realized his true contentment came from the safety of his found family. Yuuta was exhibiting how WRONG Geto is and that majorly bruised his ego. Like Geto probably admits defeat and is being a sore loser when he's dragging himself across the alleway talking about how he'll get Rika but a bunch of his final words are about his found family.

I....don't know tbh. I'd like that. If we do get a light novel chapter or something I think it'd focus on how Geto came to learn his powers and his first year in Jujutsu Tech. I don't think we'll be getting much on his parents and extended family.

#riki asks #geto suguru #jjk meta

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'And call me cold, but no, I don’t care that Aemond lost an eye and I don’t care about Alicent being upset either. Aemond brought that on himself because he got cocky after claiming Vhaegar and then kept escalating the fight to the point where he was going to kill Jace, which caused Luke to slash his eye in defense.'

WOW anon you are not just cold but also heartless I guess, congratulations. You mean A CHILD deserved to be maimed FOR LIFE for an insult that he probably doesn't even understand in fool meaning yet because he 'got cocky'? That's absolutely crazy. You say he was influenced by Alicent, so you are also victim blaming him because he had no one but his mother? He was euphoric and cocky after finally getting a dragon but why are ignoring the context? He was feeling not worthy and lonely because all other children had dragons and shared interests, they laughed at him. Aemond who didn't plan to kill anyone even at the age of 17 tried to kill Jace at 10? Make it make sense. He lowered the knife many times. Don't you think that Jace actually could kill him when he was swinging a knife at him? Why did he have a knife at all? They were hitting Aemond 3 to 1 and he picked a stone for self defense. In the end everything that happened was the result of their parents' actions but blaming the kids is crazy.

I believe that I am both the train track and destination for this message to another anon HERE. Since this anon didn’t bother to just reblog my post to talk to the other anon, or condense this to a comment in the same post.

You: “You say he was influenced by Alicent, so you are also victim blaming him because he had no one but his mother? He was euphoric and cocky after finally getting a dragon but why are ignoring the context? He was feeling not worthy and lonely because all other children had dragons and shared interests, they laughed at him.”

First, Aemond doesn’t have just his mother. He has the Hightowers, he would have had his uncle if the writers stayed with the canon lore, and he has his grandfather for political support. If he has little emotional support, that’s because Alicent forgot to pay attention to her kids’ emotional needs apart from the usurp-Rhaenyra mission, which places heavier emphasis on a twisted sense of duty to family over love of family.

You wanna blame someone for Aemond’s loneliness? Blame it on Alicent, Otto, Viserys and the HotD writers/showrunners themselves for “just getting to the good stuff”, as Condal said to justify the jump cuts.

Second, Aemond and all of his own brothers -- in the book -- had a rivalry themselves with the V boys. And Aegon definitely wasn’t against his own brother, like in the show:

The enmity between Queen Alicent and Princess Rhaenyra was passed on to their sons, and the queen’s three boys, the Princes Aegon, Aemond, and Daeron, grew to be bitter rivals of their Velaryon nephews, resentful of them for having stolen what they regarded as their birthright: the Iron Throne itself. Though all six boys attended the same feasts, balls, and revels, and sometimes trained together in the yard under the same master-a-arms and studied under the same maesters, this enforced closeness only served to feed their mutual mislike, rather than binding them together as brothers.

(Fire and Blood; “A Question of Succession”)

This implies that the green boys would have hated the V boys so much that there was and would be open antagonism. Not necessarily ultra physically violent encounters (frequent outright fights), but physical altercation is not the only or more important type of altercation. You yourself might try to bring up how the show’s V boys bully Aemond -- this is itself not physical bullying or violence, but it is emotional bullying. Which I am sure you’d agree is not less than physical bullying....hopefully

In Fire and Blood, Aemond is described as “fierce” since childhood/baby childhood (perhaps 6-8):

Two years later, she produced a daughter for the king, Helaena; in 110 AC, she bore him a second son, Aemond, who was said to be half the size of his elder brother, but twice as fierce.

AND

Prince Aemond, despite the loss of his eye, had become a proficient and dangerous swordsman under the tutelage of Ser Criston Cole, but remained a wild and willful child, hot-tempered and unforgiving.

(Fire and Blood; “A Question of Succession”)

The word “remained” lets me know that Aemond was “willful”, “hot-tempered” and “fierce” from young childhood. And the reason why I am accepting of this characterization is because:

the court would have all seen it, how he acted and held himself –> and there is no evidential contradiction

his mother would have definitely instilled his entitlement and hatred for Rhaenyra/hers sons at an early age

his rivalry with his nephews would have been palpable

and other events that I won’t spoil for you -- unless you read the book?

My point here is that Aemond, as the menace that he is, would AND should have been the real aggressor and fiercer bully against the V boys in HotD, because he has the classist, blood-purist mindset that he is better than them while also envying them for taking his mal-given “birthright”. The way the show writes him is intended to dilute his rancor and disgust towards these kids so he seems not as reprehensible...when most of his life he has been. And it's important to note that, because it gives us the understanding of where Aemond stood in the blacks v greens rivalry, how Alicent & Otto constructed their own later nightmare when he killed Luke, etc. It assigns undoubted accountability.

Which means that he would not have been as bullied, victimized, or antagonized as he was in the show, since the V boys would have been growing up in a court that found them abhorrent or distasteful for being suspected bastards. which, by the way, is defined by the Faith as being: “born from lust, lies, and weakness, and as such, they are said to be wanton and treacherous by nature.” Blood purity. The V boys would rather try their best to not antagonize or argue with the green boys.], most likely at their mother’s behest. And Aemond, Aegon, “even” Daeron would have all made their sneers, jokes, innuendos, the errant shoulder- push. Think how Hogwarts Slytherin and Gryf. students would behave when there’s a teacher present times 10.

And this is all (except the 2nd quote) with him being dragon-less and before Vhagar. Like I said, Aemond is supported well and his birth is never in question. Plus, Targaryens have a long history of claiming dragons in their preteens, teens, and even adulthood. Cradle bonding is overrated. It rather shows the court/Alicent’s misogyny and unfounded prejudice against bastards, which GRRM is always writing to be a negative mindset to have (ahem, Dany, Cersei Rhaegar, Robert I Baratheon, Jon Snow).

Aemond, even dragonless, is fine and would have been fine. He’s pressed because his grandfather/mother wants him to be useful against Rhaenyra for the sake of Aegon’s rule. That’s all.

So why does the show change this and make Aemond look more of a victim if they read of his wrongs in Fire and Blood, if they actually paid attention to the book’s language and thought about its layers of context?

You: “Aemond who didn't plan to kill anyone even at the age of 17 tried to kill Jace at 10? Make it make sense. He lowered the knife many times. Don't you think that Jace actually could kill him when he was swinging a knife at him? Why did he have a knife at all? They were hitting Aemond 3 to 1 and he picked a stone for self defense.”

Since you should now know the show is trash for me, I do not put stock into how Aemond picked up the rock and all that apart from proving to people who say that he put it down that he actually picked it up again and THAT'S when he got slashed. Especially since he was always meant to be an asshole, from childhood to his death.

And again, he’s 12-13, not 17. Go back and do some calculations.

About the knife, I already address it in the post I already linked in one of these sentences I wrote:

Meanwhile…how the hell did any of these kids get up from bed and get down there in the first place? Aemond claiming Vhagar is never addressed. How Baela and Rhaena thought there was a random person taking Vhagar and went down with the Velayron boys for security and protection, thus the knife’s presence.

Plus, medieval boys are trained to fight since young. You don’t think that they’d be very willing to use said knife when they hear someone calling them “bastards” and fighting them?

And, I will repeat, when their cousins are asking them to come with them down to confront the Vhagar “thief” (no I do not think Vhagar was stolen, I think that his act to claim her was under devious means and was unethical--link is to a post I reblogged from theblackqveen).

Look, I don’t think that the other anon (or I) is saying that children in general deserved to be tortured or should be immediately physically punished for a wrong.

We are saying “fuck around, find out”, that if you do a wrong act--or any act--there will be consequences or there's likely to be a retaliation. That there was the case of a justified retaliation. That kids are not exempted from this one thing, since they are living, thinking, and acting beings even if they are learning morality. Yes, they are learning, which means they come up to moments where their actions are punished or have consequences.

You live, you act, and there are consequences.

Young Aemond of episodes 6 & 7 (really Aemond everywhere all at once) displays enough self-awareness of his actions and has a cunning that has him protect Alicent in the moment of Viserys questioning him. He would have been 12-13 years old (not 17) at this moment of the show, whereas he was 10ish in the book, so Show!Ameond has even less an excuse than his canon character comparatively.

He may have been a child, but he’s a child with a deep sense of his own inherent superiority that is featured in homophobes, racists, classists, and sexists -- he’s a menace.

Otto and Alicent’s fault? Yes. Does he grow into an adult capable of distinguishing right from wrong? Yes, yet he continues into this into his adulthood (Lucerys’ death). People get abused their entire lives or receive terrible injuries, yet some do not fall into abusive patterns themselves and we punish those who display such behaviors even with their history.

You’re another person who’d benefit from reading this article by Seth Abramson called “House of the Dragon Showrunner Ryan Condal Responds to Criticism of the Season 1 Finale”. Your choice.

#asoiaf asks to me #hotd writing #hotd fandom #hotd characterization #aemond's characterization #hotd comment #ryan condal #vhagar claim #hotd episode 7 #green stan nonsense #the targtowers #asoiaf #hotd

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I'm on a roll huh?

I wanna talk about some of the AU rewrites for some of the movies! Because it's my Au, and I can do whatever I want lol

Hero Of The Rails

Thomas found Hiro when his train detached from him and ran him off the rails and into a steep ditch, where Hiro was hiding.

Instead of finding parts, Thomas helped Hiro by giving him food and bringing him medical supplies for his injured paw.

Thomas is less willing to tell the others in fear that one of them would tell the Fat Controller, and he doesn't wanna risk Hiro's life in any way.

The others only find out when days of not eating causes Thomas to faint in the middle of the day, and they had to pry it outta him.

Spencer's motives are kinda petty, as all he wanted was to hurt Thomas for showing him up. He couldn't care less about Hiro, he just wanted Thomas to suffer.

Hiro was not THE first worker on the island, but he was ONE OF the first.

Thomas easily grows attached to Hiro because he sees himself in the older lion, and wants to help him be useful again so he won't be "sent away" (aka put down).

I added an extra scene where Thomas confines in Edward at Tidmouth Sheds about his worry for Hiro, he's scared he'd lose him.

The Fat Controller obviously allows Hiro to be properly treated at the Sodor Infirmary, but Hiro still walks with a limp to this day.

Hiro goes home to Japan after that, and while the others will miss him, he promises to visit whenever he can.

Journey Beyond Sodor

The main drama isn't figuring who is the Controller's favorite is, but more about James implying that Thomas is only good for yard work and small local trains. Thomas takes his goods cars to spite him.

Thomas learns that this was impulsive and he was kinda an idiot for taking a train that goes somewhere he isn't familiar with.

When Hurricane and Frankie get a hold of him, he's forced to wear a heavy chain around his neck and shoulders, it's better suited for work in the Steelworks, but it's also used to chain him to his shed at night.

I erased the experimental engines' yard and only kept Merlin, now just being a lost engine Thomas met on his journey.

Hurricane and Frankie aren't as sympathetic here. They still only want help, but they also don't have the morality to fully understand why what they did was wrong. They don't get to be forgiven at the end, and Frankie is even resentful of the Sodor workers when they leave. Hurricane is just sad.

As seen before, Thomas is severely injured while rescuing James. Hurricane and Frankie didn't want anyone to get hurt but just because now Thomas would be useless to them. They just let the Steelworks medical team treat him before James took him home, Merlin in tow.

For the rest of the CGI series onward, Thomas's leg is nearly lost of all its fur, and his scars are visible. He and James get constant nightmares, and they become close as a result via confining in each other.

Misty Island Rescue

The beginning is pretty much the same, except without Thomas being a dick to Desiel, instead being more pompous and arrogant about his job taking the wood to the rescue center. Desiel takes his train just to spite him.

He still loses the wood and Thomas still saves him from falling into the river, both are very apologetic about the situation.

Thomas is sent on a ship to help collect more wood from the Mainland for the Rescue center, because I believe the wood came from the Mainland, but it's too far to run to quickly.

A storm throws Thomas off the ship and he ends up washed up on the shore of Misty Island, a bit water-logged but otherwise okay.

There's no railway built on the island, but that doesn't mean Thomas is alone.

Bash, Dash, and Ferdinand still exist, but they aren't as insufferable as they are in the canon movie. In fact, they're more elusive and don't take kindly to a stranger on their island.

They aren't the only animals on the island, in fact, the island's crawling with them. This part of the movie would be more about Thomas adjusting to being on the island and hoping for a rescue, as he can't swim.

The tunnel to the island doesn't exist, because how would a mining tunnel from one island to another, across an OCEAN, exist without being flooded??

Thomas isn't found until the rescue team is sent to search for him out at sea, but before that, he would howl in order to hopefully alert Sodor of his whereabouts, this fails as he's too far away to hear.

Harold was the one to find Thomas after flying close enough to see Misty Island, he tells the Fat Contoller, who sends a boat to collect him.

One of the Misty Island residents does return to Sodor with Thomas, but she'll be given more story later ;)

The Adventure Begins

As mentioned before, at the point of this movie, Thomas would have lived on the island nearly his whole life, so he wouldn't be the "new guy" anymore.

It's more like Thomas starts proper training to work on the railway, and while he is clumsy and often made mistakes, he does still get a big head whenever the Fat Contoller gave him any sort of good feedback.

He would still have some growing to do so he would still need time to reach his full potential, so his strength is lacking some.

The scene with Thomas helping Henry with his fear is erased, as this moment would happen long before the movie. So Henry's character would be more confident and dare I say, arrogant.

Thomas's attitude is more like it was back in season 1, he's cheeky, plays constant tricks on the other workers, and gets into more trouble than he's worth.

Properly working on the railway forces him to mature and humble himself a bit. Not to mention the threat of being sent away and forced to leave his friends.

He shows his eventual growth by helping James when he's thrown off the rails by his goods train, and he's the one to carry him to the Infirmary as it was a nasty crash. He pulled it off, despite his smaller size and lack of strength, he thinks it was adrenaline.

I know this isn't every movie, but just the ones I had right off the bat. I may do more in the future!

#ttte thomas #ttte edward #ttte au #ttte fanart #ttte #thomas the tank engine #thomas and friends #Ttte animal au #ttte james #thomas the tank engine au #au

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"Get outta my way!"

Sodor Syndrome Diesel 10 is here! Again, still wanna do the full bodies for everyone, but a mugshot headshot is easier to do lol. In due time.

At least we got some LORE for this lad. (Long post time)

-Diesel 10 (real name Cockade AKA D810) was built in 1959 alongside D800-D13.

-In his earlier years, he specialized in heavy goods and eventually worked his way up to pulling express trains for the majority of the time. He was particularly fond of his express, as it reminded him of a certain blue express engine from a book series that was read to him as his other siblings were being made.

-in 1964, he was tasked with retrieving a goods engine that had failed on the line. Once the steam engine was dumped in a siding, Cockade took the train the rest of the way to its destination. Course, the trucks didn't like being pulled by some "fancy showoff diesel" and caused him to derail before he could get there.

-The crash wasn't fatal for his crew, but it left them pretty scarred. 10 himself was battered and badly beaten from the incident, and even lost a tooth!

-He was quickly repaired and was back on the rails in 1968. He expected a repaint and a polish after this, but he received a few scars and a gold tooth for his troubles instead. He couldn't really complain though, he rocks the look.

-His life was pretty uneventful after that, up until 1972 of course, when him and the rest of his class were sent for scrap. Naturally, he's pretty bitter about this, and grows resentful that the outdated steam locomotives get be preserve but not the superior diesels.

-Cue a certain PT boomer who not only promises to get him out of the scrapyard AND revenge at the same time and you got yourself a deal. He sneaks D/10 out of the scrapyard and introduces him to the mercenary business, which specializes in hunting down lost or escaped steam engines to be brought back to their owners or to the scrapyard.

-Boomer eventually installs Pinchy to help with the business but had to gut 10s cab just so she can retract into said cab to make sure D/10 is still a legal engine.

-In 1977, a few years after the death of Boomer, he gets a bounty on Oliver and makes his way to Sodor. He masquerades as a newly purchased diesel engine that takes the midnight express.

-Course, with this being Thomas and FRIENDS, he ends gets attached to how nice everyone is and ends up completely abandoning the bounty. (much to the Mainland Scrapyards frustration). He goes through a mini redemption arc and becomes the dad to most of the other diesels, and eventually gets rid of his prejudice for steam over the years.

(See how this edgy bounty hunter turned into a Dilf in just 4 weeks!)

-In 2001, Diesel came to the works looking paler than usual, and became worse over the next few weeks. He grew weaker, and eventually his motor failed entirely. D/10, being the concerned and loving dad he is, takes him inside one of the repair sheds to get looked at. Not long after shunting him into the shed, 10 starts showing the same symptoms as diesel.

-What happened the next day can be summed up as followed:

Dodge: "Ey boss! You were late to roll call, you feeling good up there?"

D/10, looking at his new hands: "...UM NO I DON'T THINK I AM-"

Splatter: "Oh, a-are you still feeling ill or-"

D/10: "YEAH YOU COULD SAY THAT."

-As an added bonus, the same thing happened to Diesel! And Pinchy's a Doberman now! So at least he isn't alone in this mess! Though, I'd imagine he'd have a few words with Diesel about all of this...

#ttte SS au #ttte au #ttte #ttte diesel 10 #ttte splatter #ttte dodge #ttte diesel #poor ten he just wanted to live a normal happy life and then his son does this to him wtf-

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I JUST FINISHED LICHT'S ROUTE LIKE OVER 12 HOURS AGO (I FELL ASLEEP AFTER) AND SO SPOILER ALERT. ALSO I START SCHOOL IN LIKE TWO WEEKS SO PRAY FOR ME HAHA-

Also I switch a lot between saying "I" and "Emma" in this post. Im sorry-

NOKTO- NO, STOP. DON'T GIVE PORNHUB ANY IDEAS 😭

Tell him, Licht 😤

I- Licht, if I were to become Nokto's sibling-in-law.. What else would you end up being besides my husband? You really think I'm gonna marry one of your other brothers? Fuck no.

I don't know, are you Emma's boyfriend? Is Emma your girlfriend? If so, then yes.

It.. You don't want to be called boyfriend and girlfriend? Okay, that's fine. I hated it when my ex-boyfriend called me his partner or his lover instead of his boyfriend so I get it.

No. Thats what Chevalier used. Be original.

Sweetheart is actually a good way to describe Licht. He's a total sweetheart and I just wanna give him a hug, I don't even like hugging people.

I am such a sucker for Licht's smile. He's one of those characters in which when they smile, you just want to smile too. I love it ❤

Im also gonna take this opportunity to info dump in relation to Licht-

So, I am still working on making ikemen ocs. I just decided to take a small break to rework the current characters I have and make them proper art and profiles. Might as well be happy with the finished product, yeah? And I already do have an OC for Licht.

This character does not currently have a design, all I can currently say on how they look is she has red hair and pale icy blue eyes. Their name is Mila Grayfield and her pronouns are They/She, they're 22 years old.

With how much Licht's route talks about his and Emma's love hurting each other, I figured that.. May as well make my OC for Licht be just as fucking tragic right? So here's a bit of Mila's backstory.

In my AU, the Grayfield family is a family of assassins, each generation tasked with assassinating the Royal family. This all started because of Glen Grayfield, Mila's grandfather. He was increasing jealous of the Royals and wanted that power for himself. So, he decided to make it his life's goal to try and take out the King as a well-known assassin. After he was caught and executed, his wife decided to teach his goal onto their children, Oliver and Leona, who carried on this ideal.

Leona then had twin daughters of her own, Mila and Mia Grayfield, who she trained to also be assassins. Mila showed the most promise so she was tasked with the most difficult missions. This harsh life caused Mila to become cold and reserved, hesitant with getting close to others but still willing to do whatever is asked of them. At first, she was deadset on rejecting the offer of being Belle, refusing to believe that her heart was beautiful or pure despite the life of sin they lived. But, since it was something to do to serve her Kingdom, she agreed.

Even after falling for Prince Licht, Mila refused to allow themself to open up to him or be vulnerable. She firmly believed that if he or anyone in the palace knew who they were, she'd be executed without a single question asked. And when the time to leave the palace came, they straight up told Licht it'd be better if he completely forgot who they were. Referring to themself as a 'dirty and hypocritical sinner who had no right to tell Licht how to live.'

When Sariel came to Mila and asked if she would return to the palace to see Licht, they just about refused. But gave in anyway. And thats about as far as I've thought up Mila's story with Licht. I still have more to plan.

I thought the idea of forbidden love between a prince and a commoner is way too cliche so.. Why not forbidden love between a prince and an assassin raised to kill him is a bit more interesting? It adds a bit more drama to the story if Mila actually understands Licht on an emotional and empathetic level over sympathetic.

Also, like most of my characters, Mila has a.. complicated relationship with their own family. Mila resents her grandfather and grandmother for the life she has to live, despite never meeting either of them. Mila doesn't know who her uncle is, as he left Rhodolite months prior to their birth. And her relationship with her mother is.. complicated too. Leona was always a kind and doting mother, but the pressure she placed on her daughters was too much.

As for Mila's relationship with her twin sister, Mia.. Its probably the best relationship they have. Mila adores her 'little' sister and does whatever they can to protect her, even if it means they have to take on more dangerous jobs and put their life on the line.

Also I currently have no idea whether I'll also make Mia a love interest OC in Ikemen Prince. Like- I know with Ikerev, I have both Iris and Kahlia as twins and love interest OCs. But I might not do the same thing with Mila and Mia. It all depends on if I can think one of the princes would be a good suitor for Mia or something. Dunno.

#ikemen series #cybird ikemen #ikemen prince #ikepri #ikepri licht #licht klein #ikemen oc #oc #ikepri oc

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everything-i-couldnt-tell-u · 18 days

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i remember how i fronted a lot around you before and god i was so happy cause i thought someone finally accepts me. til i found out you exposed my messages on that server and im still so humiliated. yk after that, arveil said that if only i didnt front and showed my embarrassing personality, things between you and him wouldnt have been ruined.

so well i moved to ranting on twt instead of doing it in anyones dms after that to avoid it happening again. but every time i fronted to rant on twt i always seemed to receive replies from you bc you noticed something wrong about me and the things i say? i gaslighted myself for so long that maybe i truly am so flawed that's why no one seems to want me to the point that i don't remember anything loveable about me anymore.

and the last time i talked to you seriously and asked what is it that you even liked about me, you told me that you don't know how to answer. even though it was already obvious that you dont like me, i still desperately looked for signs. but well you said that question suffocates you. that it's hard to love me cause i require a reason to be loved. i just really wished to know if i'm being loved for who i am and im not just being used, but i never got to know. you said that im the one who pushes everyone away like a bitch then whines about it when i get lonely. sure that was true but how am i not gonna push everyone away after ive been lied to and abandoned a lot? and to make things worse how would i not be pushing you away out of fear when you kept saying and doing things that make me feel like you dont like me?

but the day you told me i wasn't worth your time was the day it became clear to me that maybe you never loved me. i dont really care if you didnt mean that cause it was the only thing that made sense. sure maybe you didn't feel that way towards arveil but i'm sure you feel like that towards me. it was arveil you loved and not me. you didnt like how i felt like a soulless shell to you whenever arveil wasn't fronting. i always managed to make you lose your patience and lash out cause of how paranoid i am. you'd get sick of how arveil tries to fix his friendship with you after i sabotage it so much. if you get sick of him it's probably my fault again. im the price everyone pays for just so they can be with arveil but soon you'd think that the price isn't worth it right?

i feel like you and arveil must hate me so much so i started resenting both of you. yeah i dont like it when people treat me horribly but i hate it even more when people mistake me for and treat me like im arveil. it makes me feel sick, it feels like im being reminded that it's arveil that everyone wants to talk to and not me. that things wouldve been better if i never existed.

i know that you're genuine with arveil but i know you have no reason to love me. i promised you before that i wouldn't force you to answer that question anymore. unless you have a good reason to tell me why you'd want to have any connection with me, don't force it. after all the things ive seen and heard from you, what reason is there for me not the think that you don't hate me like everyone else? i just don't wanna get my hopes up thinking that you'd want me and i dont wanna feel guilty if in the end i'll just be the reason why your time got wasted.

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College AU Part 7: IMNOTYOURBOYFRIENDBABY

Content warning: violence, emotional abuse

Scene 1: IMNOTYOURBOYFRIENDBABY

(Scene title by 3oh!3)

INT. Boys Dorm Hallway - Late afternoon

Ace and Zayn are walking down the hallway together. They are both smiling and giggling in a flirtatious manner. Ace is holding onto Zayn's arm.

ACE: That was so much fun!

ZAYN: I'm glad you had fun. I like seeing you smile.

Ace smiles and bashfully hides his face with his free hand.

ACE: You're too sweet.

Zayn laughs as they turn the corner, almost at their dorm. His smile is quickly replaced by a look of confusion though.

We see that Cyra is leaning against their door, looking down at the floor. Zayn stops so Ace does too. Ace hasn't noticed Cyra yet though.

ZAYN: Uh, were you expecting someone?

Ace looks up and immediately scowls when he sees Cyra. Cyra looks up too.

CYRA: Hey! Ace, uh–

ACE: What are you doing here?!

Ace lets go of Zayn's arm and angrily takes a step towards Cyra.

ACE: How the fuck did you find my dorm?

CYRA: I just asked around, it wasn't hard.

Ace just stares at Cyra in disbelief.

CYRA: You weren't answering my texts! I had to talk to you somehow.

ACE: I wasn't answering your texts for a reason.

Cyra ignores Ace and glares at Zayn instead.

CYRA: Who's this?

ACE: This is my roommate. I told you about him. Remember?

ZAYN: Hi, I'm Zayn!

Cyra responds in a resentful tone.

CYRA: Cyra.

Zayn cautiously takes a step back.

ZAYN: Uh... it sounds like you two have something you need to talk about.

Ace sighs.

ACE: Yeah. Could you excuse us?

ZAYN: Sure. I'll be back later.

Zayn takes a few steps backwards before turning around to walk away. Ace calls out to him.

ACE: Thanks!

Ace waits until Zayn turns the corner before unlocking the door to his dorm. He looks at Cyra and points at the doorway.

ACE: Okay. Get inside.

Cyra smiles and happily skips into the room. Ace rolls his eyes and follows her in, shutting the door behind them.

Once inside the room, Ace glares at Cyra intimidatingly.

ACE: What the hell is wrong with you?!

CYRA: Huh?

ACE: You can't just show up at someone's dorm after they turned you down. That's psychopath behavior.

CYRA: I already told you, I'm only here because you wouldn't answer my texts.

ACE: Yeah, I didn't answer because I didn't want to.

Cyra folds her arms and pouts.

CYRA: Why not? Why don't you like me? Everyone likes me.

ACE: Oh. I get it now.

CYRA: Get what?

ACE: You're just a spoiled brat who's gotten everything she ever wanted in life. No one's ever told you no. I'm willing to bet you've never been rejected before.

CYRA: That's not true!

ACE: Oh yeah? How many times have you been rejected then?

Cyra thinks about it for a moment.

CYRA: Um... Does being dumped count?

ACE: No.

Cyra just stares at the floor, not knowing what to say.

ACE: Get out of my dorm and leave me alone.

CYRA: What? No!

Cyra takes a step closer to Ace.

CYRA: Please! Just give me one more chance. I know you think we'll have nothing in common but you never know. I'm sure there's lots of stuff we can talk about.

Ace frowns at Cyra.

ACE: God you're hopeless.

Cyra grabs Ace's hands and begs more.

CYRA: Please! Just let me–

Cyra is suddenly cut off when Ace rips his hands out of her grasp and wraps them around her neck instead. He spins them both around and pushes Cyra back against the door, banging her head on it in the process.

ACE: Okay, listen you little bitch. Nothing you say is gonna change my mind. You know why? Because you're annoying and fucking crazy.

Ace is squeezing Cyra's neck pretty hard, she looks terrified.

ACE: I don't wanna date you. I don't wanna be your friend. I don't want anything to do with you.

Cyra chokes out in protest.

CYRA: But–

Ace tightens his grip even more, causing Cyra to choke and gargle.

ACE: Stop fucking talking! You don't get to argue with me. I'm telling you no. It's never gonna happen. The end. Do you understand me?

Cyra attempts to swallow and manages to nod her head.

ACE: Good.

Ace lets go of Cyra and she collapses to the floor. She coughs and gasps for air. Ace just stares down at her, waiting for her to recover.

When Cyra does recover though, she looks up at Ace with determination.

CYRA: I won't give up. I know I can convince you.

Ace responds by kicking Cyra in the stomach. Cyra winces in pain and covers her midsection with her arm. Ace doesn't seem to care, kicking her arm instead. He kicks her a couple more times before stopping.

ACE: Get out of my dorm.

Cyra looks down at the floor in defeat.

Scene 2: Shut Up And Kiss Me

(Scene title by Marianas Trench)

INT. Laura & Sky's dorm - Night

Sky is sitting at her desk, working on a large drawing. She is focused on her work. She doesn't even look up when the door opens and Laura walks in.

LAURA: Oh good, you're still up. I didn't wanna wake you.

SKY: I have to finish this tonight.

Laura sets her stuff down and walks over to Sky's desk. She looks over her shoulder at the drawing. We see that it is a drawing of a dress on a mannequin.

LAURA: What is it?

SKY: It's an assignment for my light study class.

Laura rests her hands on Sky's shoulders. It seems to make Sky a little nervous.

LAURA: It's beautiful.

SKY: Thanks.

Laura watches Sky draw for a bit longer, thinking about something.

LAURA: Hey, Sky?

SKY: Hm?

Sky doesn't look up from her drawing. Determined to get her attention, Laura places a hand on the other girl's cheek and gently turns her head. As soon as she's close enough, she leans in and kisses Sky.

Sky lets the kiss happen, closing her eyes for a moment. When Laura pulls away, she stares up at her with a dazed look in her eyes.

LAURA: Sorry. I know you have to finish your project. I just...

Taking a chance, Laura swings her leg over Sky and sits down on her lap. When Sky doesn't stop her, Laura cups her face in her hands and pulls her into another kiss. This one is much more intimate and quickly turns into a slow make-out.

Sky wraps her arms around Laura's waist, pulling her closer and clinging onto her desperately. Both girls breathe heavily.

They keep their lips locked together until the chair suddenly starts to tip back. Laura reacts quickly, breaking the kiss and sticking her leg further out to stabilize them.

Both girls giggle bashfully.

LAURA: Whoops. Maybe she should move to the bed.

Sky bites her lip.

SKY: Sure...

Scene 3: Got My Mind Set On You

(Scene title by George Harrison)

INT. Science & Psychology building - Morning

Arabella and Cyra are walking together.

CYRA: I haven't even been in this building yet.

ARABELLA: This is where most of my classes are.

CYRA: Are your classes fun?

Arabella raises an eyebrow.

ARABELLA: Hasn't Celia told you anything about them?

CYRA: We usually talk about other stuff.

ARABELLA: Like...?

Cyra smiles and shrugs. Both girls start giggling.

Once they both calm down, Cyra looks around and suddenly stops in her tracks.

Cut to a long shot of one of the nearby, open classroom doors. Ace is leaning against it and talking to someone inside the classroom.

ARABELLA: What?

CYRA: I need to go talk to that guy.

ARABELLA: What guy?

Cyra sighs and starts walking over to where Ace is standing. Arabella follows her.

CYRA: Ace!

Ace looks over when he hears his name called. He looks annoyed when he sees who it is.

ACE: Ugh, not you again.

Ace waves goodbye to whoever he was talking to and stops leaning against the door.

ACE: I thought I told you to leave me alone. Do I have to tell you again?

CYRA: Can we just talk please?

ACE: I don't wanna talk to you.

ARABELLA: What's, uh, what's going on?

ACE: Tell your friend to take a hike.

Ace leans in close to Cyra, getting right up in her face.

ACE: I'm not interested.

Cyra frowns.

CYRA: So that's it? One date is all I get?

ACE: Yeah.

ARABELLA: You two went on a date?

CYRA: We went on one date and we didn't even get to talk much.

ACE: We talked enough for me to know that we wouldn't work. I already told you why.

CYRA: And I asked you to just give me one more chance. Come on, it could be fun! What are you doing tonight?

ACE: You're really still interested after what I did to you?

ARABELLA: Wait, what did you do to her?

CYRA: He was just really mean about it when he rejected me.

Ace giggles at Cyra's response.

ACE: Alright, fine. I'll let you try to impress me one more time. But I already have a date tonight.

CYRA: Can I come?

Arabella laughs.

ACE: No. Although...

Ace thinks for a moment.

ACE: You could help me with something before that.

CYRA: Okay!

Ace looks at Arabella.

ACE: Can I steal her?

ARABELLA: Go ahead. I have a class right now anyway.

Cyra giggles and follows Ace as he starts walking away. Arabella smiles and calls after her.

ARABELLA: Try not to get rejected too hard this time!

Ace laughs at Arabella's joke but Cyra ignores it.

Scene 4: Fashionably Late

(Scene title by *checks notes* Falling In Reverse)

INT. Designer clothing store - Morning

Ace is looking through a rack of clothes while Cyra sits on one of the store's benches.

CYRA: I can't believe you're making me buy you clothes for your date.

Ace doesn't take his eyes off the clothes.

ACE: This is what you get for not listening to me.

CYRA: You're mean.

ACE: And yet you're still here.

Ace picks out a sparkly dress and holds it up to his body to show Cyra.

ACE: What about this?

Cyra doesn't look impressed.

CYRA: It's... kinda boring.

Ace sighs and goes back to looking through the rack.

ACE: I probably shouldn't be asking you for fashion advice.

CYRA: You don't like my outfits?

ACE: No.

Cyra laughs.

CYRA: So... I'm assuming you have a date with Zayn?

ACE: Mhm.

Cyra leans back on her hands and stares up at the ceiling.

CYRA: What's so great about Zayn anyway?

ACE: Everything. I mean, have you seen him?

Cyra thinks for a moment.

CYRA: I guess he is pretty cute.

Ace glances at Cyra, looking a little surprised.

ACE: You're in a good mood today. When you met Zayn the other day you looked like you wanted to kill him.

Cyra shrugs.

CYRA: I've been thinking a lot since you, um, politely told me to go away.

Ace giggles.

ACE: What have you been thinking about?

CYRA: Mostly just self-reflecting. Second-guessing what I'm doing with my life.

ACE: I'm surprised you have the ability to self-reflect.

Ace shakes his head.

ACE: You're a strange kid. I didn't think the daughter of the Drake family would be this crazy.

Cyra doesn't respond to that. She just sits there with a thoughtful look on her face. Ace selects another garment from the rack. This time it's a black bodysuit with cut-outs on the side and a see-through middle. He holds it up to his chest and Cyra examines it. She nods approvingly.

CYRA: Now we're talking.

Ace laughs.

Scene 5: My Best Friend's Girl

(Scene title by The Cars)

INT. Celia & Cyra's dorm - Afternoon

The door to the room opens and Celia, Arabella, and Sky walk in together. Celia immediately throws her school bag onto her bed.

SKY: Does Cyra have a class right now?

CELIA: No. She's probably just out causing trouble.

ARABELLA: Typical.

Arabella sits down on Cyra's bed. Celia sits cross-legged on her own bed and Sky settles down on the floor in front of Celia's bookshelf. She starts looking through the manga.

ARABELLA: Are you sure you don't mind us studying while you read, Sky? We might be loud.

SKY: It's fine. I don't need quiet to read.

CELIA: Manga's pretty easy to read.

SKY: Yeah.

Sky selects a book and moves to lean back against the wall. Arabella reaches into her bag and pulls out a plant biology textbook.

ARABELLA: Shall we begin?

CELIA: Sure. Quiz me.

Arabella replies in a joking tone as she opens the textbook.

ARABELLA: Professor Arabella's pop quiz starts now. What are the two main types of plants?

CELIA: Va–

ARABELLA: Uh-uh. Raise your hand first.

Celia raises her hand and Sky giggles.

ARABELLA: Yes, Celia.

CELIA: Vascular and nonvascular.

ARABELLA: Very good. Which type uses tubes to transport food and water through the plant?

Celia raises her hand again.

ARABELLA: Yes?

CELIA: Vascular.

ARABELLA: That's correct. Good girl, Celia.

Celia puts her hand down in shock and blushes. Sky laughs again, this time a bit louder. Arabella notices this and smiles at her.

ARABELLA: She'll remember all of this better if I exploit her praise kink. Right, Celia?

Celia hides behind her hands and falls onto her back, groaning in frustration.

CELIA: Cyra told you about that, didn't she?

ARABELLA: Yes and she really shouldn't have. I'm sorry but you're screwed now.

Celia just groans again. Sky giggles again and bashfully hides her face behind the manga she's reading.

ARABELLA: Does my star student want to answer the next question too?

Celia sits up again.

CELIA: Yes...

ARABELLA: You should know this one. What are the two types of vascular plants?

CELIA: Spore producer and seed producers.

ARABELLA: Good girl. And spore producers are all...?

CELIA: Ferns.

ARABELLA: Very good girl.

Celia blushes and falls to her side.

CELIA: You can't do this to me!

ARABELLA: And you can't keep dramatically falling over every time I praise you or else we'll never get through these questions.

Celia grabs her blanket and covers her face with it.

CELIA: I'm not ready!

Arabella laughs almost maniacally.

ARABELLA: This is gonna be a long afternoon for you.

Scene 5: Wrapped Around Your Finger

(Scene title by The Police - or Post Malone if you're a zoomer)

INT. Axel & Drew's dorm - Evening

Axel is sitting at his desk, talking with someone on the phone. He is alone in the dorm. He has a notebook and a textbook open on his desk, studying.

AXEL: I don't know. I mean, my roommate's nice to me but I don't think he likes me much.

Axel anxiously taps his pen on the paper as he listens to the person on the phone.

AXEL: No, no! I haven't really been talking to anyone else.

Axel suddenly drops his pen.

AXEL: What? I can't just not talk to him. We share a room.

Pausing again to listen, Axel blinks in disbelief.

AXEL: No! It's not like that.

Axel leans his elbows on the desk and runs his hand through his hair, clearly upset.

AXEL: But–

We can faintly hear the person on the phone raise their voice, but it's impossible to make out what they're saying. Axel flinches when they yell.

AXEL: Okay, okay, fine! Just drop it. I'll do what I can.

Just as Axel begins to tear up, the door opens. He flinches again and looks behind him to see Drew walking in.

DREW: Hey Axel.

AXEL: I gotta go. My roommate's back.

Axel squeezes his eyes shut to stop himself from crying.

AXEL: Yes, yes, I know! I won't. I won't, okay?

Drew frowns skeptically, hearing the desperation in Axel's voice. Axel pauses and listens.

AXEL: Okay, I'll text you. Yeah, I promise. Okay, bye.

As soon as Axel hangs up, Drew questions him.

DREW: Hey, are you alright?

AXEL: Why don't you mind your own fucking business?!

Drew's eyes widen in surprise when Axel yells at him.

DREW: Sorry. It's just, you seem upset.

AXEL: And why do you care?

Axel abruptly stands up and stomps to the bathroom.

AXEL: Leave me alone!

Drew flinches as Axel slams the bathroom door behind him. Looking confused, Drew sits down on his bed.

#cyra’s world #creative writing #script #sapphic #unrequited #original characters #cyra college au

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djryefaith87 · 1 year

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Story Time

This is for my readers of course, I was editing from 12pm-4:45pm. I haven't finished no where near it but I got a phone call from my dad around 2-3pm. In this conversation much like all of his calls beginning is good the turn comes in the middle and in the end the same hostility and frustration. There's nothing more piss poor than someone coming into your peace and destroying it for no other reason of their reality not being there in peace. The talks went from hating John Cena to him feeling like a piece of shit not coming to my uncle funeral. Then saying I was fucked up on how I went about my aunts funeral. You can't make this up, he proceeds to tell me that my uncles baby mother was saying I won't go to him and him encouraging it "yeah he's not gonna come up to me" did u tell her why? No u told her I was in my own world u didn't tell her that you curse me out the night before gypsy passed away. He proceeds to tell me family didn't say anything about me yet I have a family member saying other wise. This is why I don't like to be around anyone. Especially family they will always find something wrong with what you do in life instead of striving you for greatness. I yet again give this man the benefit of the doubt and answer his call. And he fumbles yet again. I m not reminded more of enough of his lack of memory. But the continue of excuses not seeing me is ridiculous and it's to the point I don't not care anymore and I leave it in God's hands.

So what's with the glasses? I asked God after being so frustrated and prayed and asked for a blessing. Now I was really hoping to see in people that I know. When I went down and picked up my dinner I came back and these glasses were just laying on the 2nd floor along with many others for free take. On new years eve I was looking for these type of 2023 sun glasses all over but only had $2 on me and no one wanted to budge and give me a pair cause they were selling it for $5. I gave my $2 away to 2 women who was sitting in the rain with close to nothing on and just kept it moving. Now coming back from getting my dinner I get the glasses for a God reminder cause that's how I see it.

I got the Bible verse underneath and I proceeded to state my peace with my father in the process. But it was in God reminding me of these sunglasses that 2023 is about me. People show you who they are believe them and just leave it as that even if it's family. It's tough I don't wanna live this way but my parents really just don't give me much of a choice with not seeing much of their actions.

It's brutal it's cruel I live with it but it so not healthy. This month I m suppose to get call to go back to the respite center. Those ppl can't call me soon enough. I put out the good because I deal with so much bad and evil and I constantly just try to stay positive. You know it's real when you ask God to remove you or take you because it's the only way they will both wake up or will they? So I ll do my best to remove that way I won't be seen anymore. This pain is too much this shit hurts way too much and I don't wanna deal with it anymore. I didn't bring myself in this world they did the sin of love and brought a child into the world and have made me feel nothing but pain and resentment as an adult and I am exhausted.

P.S I still wonder if God was sending myself a message when my god father agree to leave this world September 7th a day before my father's birthday. I think about that one alot. 🙏

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staliaqueen · 3 years

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Just curious, what is it about Percy/Annabeth that you don’t like (other than the stans)?

I'll happily explain! Just a quick disclaimer that it was a while ago I last read the books.

The entire thing was kinda surprising, cause on paper, percabeth should've been the perfect ship for me. They've got this enemies/rivals to lovers, bickering married couple vibes, unique nicknames etc. I love these tropes, hell, I’ve written them myself, but in percabeth's case I just don't think they're done very well.

To fully explain, I first wanna bring up an example of these things being done right, and why. The first one that comes to mind is Dan and Blair from Gossip Girl. They are also an enemies to friends to lovers ship, with this bickering married couple energy, and they're one of my favourite ships of all time. Their bickering is pretty similar to percabeth's (in the sense that it's mostly Blair saying mean things to Dan), but the key difference is that her insults (at least during their friends and lovers stages) are never coming from a malicious place and Dan's feelings are never hurt by her comments. He recognizes that this is just how Blair expresses her affection for him, and it's even something he enjoys about her. Every time she cleverly insults him he laughs/smiles and looks at her like she's the best thing in the world.

[Id: Two gifs of Dan and Blair. First gif has Blair saying, “There is no up-and-comers section. And even if there were, I mean, let’s face it Humphrey – you still wouldn’t make the cut.” And Dan smiling/laughing like she’s the best thing since sliced bread. Second gif has Blair saying “I care about you too, even if I have odd ways of showing it. Like bossing you around or making fun of your hair. Seriously, you should cut it.” And Dan, once again, smiling/laughing with the most lovey-dovey look on his face. / end id]

(x)

But in Annabeth’s case, insulting Percy isn’t how she shows her affection. She lashes out at him due to her repressed trauma, and Percy does not like that she does this. Annabeth resents people assuming that she’s dumb because she’s blonde, but she continually calls Percy stupid. She’s generally terrible at communicating how she feels and what she needs and then gets mad at him when he doesn’t respond exactly how she wants. I think the worst example of this is in the beginning of The Titan’s Curse when she punches him in the stomach for not asking her to dance with him.

[Id: Excerpt from The Titan’s Curse: “Dance, you guys!” Thalia ordered. “You look stupid just standing there.” I looked nervously at Annabeth, then at the groups of girls who were roaming the gym. “Well?” Annabeth said. “Um, who should I ask?” She punched me in the gut. “Me, Seaweed Brain.” “Oh. Oh, right.” / end id]

Unlike the judo-flip, I’ve never even seen this moment discussed before, and it’s so annoying, cause I just know that if the genders were switched people would be horrified by it.

The same issue comes up with the nicknames. Wise Girl is clearly complimentary while Seaweed Brain is derogatory. Now, what I expected when I read PJO was that Seaweed Brain would eventually turn affectionate, sort of like an inside joke, which again, is a trope I LOVE. And that kinda happens, but only after they start dating. I initially thought it had done so at the end of Lightning Thief when they became real friends, but then this happened in TTC:

[Id: Excerpt from The Titan’s Curse: But Thalia held out her spear. “You want some, Seaweed Brain?” Somehow, it was okay when Annabeth called me that—at least, I’d gotten used to it—but hearing it from Thalia was not cool. / end id]

This really shocked me when I read it. Cause this clearly shows that Percy still doesn’t like when Annabeth calls him that, he just doesn’t respond with anger anymore because he’s “gotten used to it”, which is... not good.

Annabeth also never steps in with reassurance that she actually knows that Percy is smart. For all we know she actually believes that he's an idiot (which he definitely isn't!). That's definitely how she makes Percy feel.

There’s also the case of Annabeth’s extreme jealousy. Like, the way she treats Rachel... I’m pretty sure most percabeth shippers even agree that she’s being completely unfair. (Edit: No, they don't, it seems. God I hate this fandom). @fake-plastic-trees made a meme that explains how hypocritical her behaviour concerning Rachel is way better than I ever could, so here’s that:

[Id: Picture of a meme. First a picture of an anthropomorphic flower screaming in anger, paired with the caption, “How Annabeth reacts when Percy is with Rachel”. Second picture is of the same flower with a sweet/happy look on it’s face, paired with the caption “How Annabeth expects Percy to react when she simps over Luke”. / end id]

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This is the situation where I have the most sympathy with Annabeth, though. At least in the Calypso situation. Like having your best friend that you have feelings for go missing for so long that there’s pretty much no way he’s not dead, only for him to show up on his funeral and you find out that he was sent to an island where another girl took care of and fell in love with him and he most likely had feelings for her too, yeah that must suck. Especially with her abandonment issues. Still, doesn’t make her actions okay.

And the way I see some percabeth stans talking about this is honestly disgusting. Slut shaming Percy like crazy, calling him a hoe (he was literally 14 while this happened) and being mad at him for "stepping out of line". Annabeth clearly believes she has some sort of claim on Percy and her stans have been convinced of that, too.

All of this is what, partially, makes perachel so appealing. They’re a breath of fresh air, because Rachel is the exact opposite. She’s straight forward with Percy. When he doesn’t make a move on her, instead of punching him or calling him a coward, she just makes a move. Which is, you know, the reasonable and healthy thing to do. Percy himself even expresses that he appreciates this about her.

[Id: Excerpt from The Last Olympian: She nodded. “And so ... hypothetically, if these two people liked each other, what would it take to get the stupid guy to kiss the girl, huh?” “Oh ...” I felt like one of Apollo’s sacred cows—slow, dumb, and bright red. “Um ...” I can’t pretend I hadn’t thought about Rachel. She was so much easier to be around than ... well, than some other girls I knew. I didn’t have to work hard, or watch what I said, or rack my brain trying to figure out what she was thinking. Rachel didn’t hide much. She let you know how she felt. / end id]

It's pretty clear that "some other girls I knew" is just Annabeth.

Finally, I just wanna say that I would be fine with all of this if Annabeth actually had a character arc where she realizes how she was acting was not okay, apologizes, and makes an effort to change and work through her trauma so she wouldn’t lash out on people anymore. Characters are allowed to have flaws, it’s encouraged actually! But those flaws, at least the ones that have a large negative affect on others, need to actually be acknowledged. And if you want the character to be framed like a hero, they need to take steps to change. But that is not what happens with Annabeth, so I’m not okay with it.

really hope you had the energy to read through all of that

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