so panicking over my health rn ^_^

im realizing (or realizing again, i vaguely remember realizing this a few years ago but i forgot about it) that the recovery process from my broken arm was either kinda traumatizing or at least contributed to my overall trauma

so in 2nd grade i broke my arm in the growth plate. the time period where it was in a cast wasnt too traumatic afaik, the worst parts after the intense pain of the first day or so, were when i fell on it in clas and wasnt allowed to go to the nurses office, and when i had chicken pox while the cast was still on (the itchyness oh my god)

but what im mostly remembering is the years of physical therapy afterwards and the extremes they went to which i don think were fully necessary

basically when i got my cast off i started physical therapy to build up the strength and mobility that had been lost. for most people whove had a cast on for 8 weeks i think they said it tends to take a few months to a year to fully recover, but since my break was in the growth plate they had to put pins in my elbow to keep it in place, which meant i had alot more scar tissue keeping me from bending or straightening it very much (there was also a possibility that the growth plate would close up early and my arm would stop growing, i was terrified of that and very relieved when my arm did grow with me)

anyway physical therapy sucked but when does it not, but the worst part was what we had to do at home. every day for a while my parents would pin me to the table and force my arm as straight as possible for what felt like forever but was probably just a few minutes? it hurt so fucking bad, way worse than when the physical therapists did it, and i screamed and cried so loud my parents got mad bc they were worried the neighbors would call the cops

another thing was the fucking brace i had to wear every night. it was spring loaded to force my arm straight while i slept, but it hurt really bad and made it hard to sleep, and it cut off my circulation so that i always woke up with a swollen numb hand. i would often set it on a less awful setting when i went to bed, and try to set it back before my parents came in to wake me up. but of course i didnt always wake up in time to do that so they caught me and started using a zip tie on it every night to prevent me from doing that. so instead in order to sleep i would push it into a 90 degree angle with my other arm, and lay on my side on top of it to keep it in that position. i realized tonight that thats still my default sleeping position.

also i was in physical therapy for like 4 years or something, my pt said i was her longest patient. i dont even think much progress was made in the last year or so of it? maybe a few degrees more of range of motion but not much. the goal was to keep doing it until i could straighten it the same amount as my left arm, but they let me quit when it became clear no more progress could be made

i still cant straighten my arm all the way but it doesnt affect my life that much, and i think even with a few degrees less of straightening i would probably still function perfectly fine. it would be a bit harder to reach stuff up high but like. being a few inches shorter would also do that so i dont think that would be too awful? idk also people live perfectly good lives with way more mobility issues! hell, im physically disabled now and my arm not straightening all the way is not part of my disability because it doesnt affect my ability to do things!

and i just really wonder if maybe a functional level of mobility couldve been achieved without making that stuff so painful. like if they had pushed slightly less hard when straightening it against the table, or letting me sleep with the brace on a slightly lower setting.

idk. it feels stupid to be upset by all this because my parents were only doing what the doctors told them to do. but also while i typed that sentence my body became filled with anxiety, so maybe i shouldnt call it stupid. clearly a part of me is very affected by this experience and i shouldnt invalidate that

and like! alot of the other stuff they did in physical therapy was very painful too, but the physical therapist seemed to at least have a limit on how much pain she was willing to put me through! the limit was pretty high but it was there! which it wasnt for my parents! they just kept pushing and pushing no matter how much it hurt and how loud i screamed and it wasnt okay! there should have been a limit! and also i dont think they shouldve done it on the hard wood table, the physical therapy table had padding on it

idk idk idk i feel like i need to give them the benefit of the doubt because they were just doing what the doctor said, but shouldnt there be limits??? couldnt they press slightly less hard when it was hurting me too much??? idk im talking in circles now

Caius Volturi x reader

Prompts

Request: "Random #6 and #32, Kisses #4 on the prompt list with Caius Volturi. If your feeling up to it?" By anon

Prompts

Random

#6: “Stop being grumpy, it’s lame.”

#32: "I could punch you right now.”

Kisses

#4: Kiss on the neck

(Hey anon! Thanks for requesting. This is the first one for our blond vampire, I hope you enjoy it!)

Not long after joining the Volturi's coven, you had found out about your "mate". You had met him once before, though your first meeting ended up in a fit of nasty words and ended up leaving a hatred for each other. You knew that even though he was always like that, it still hurt in the slightest. Though when you and him argued you always found a way to make up some way or another. When words just didnt need to be said, a subtle glance in each others direction always seemed to do the trick. To not think about it alot, most of the time you would occupy your time with reading in the library. It was quiet and was very comfortable. One of the first places they had shown you and immediately you felt like this was the place you felt most at ease. You came here everyday. Not just to read but to think, to wonder what your family/friends were up to.

Luckily they had granted you a sliver of access to a phone, so that at anytime you could call your family or friends if need be. Which was once a week at most but if you felt like something was happening it would change to twice a week. The phone wasnt in the library but where the secretary was. She was a kind lady who didnt ask question and was quite calm about the fact she worked for vampires. You liked her but you knew one day she'd be gone and another would take her place. You always made sure to never be in the way of that. That being their feeding time or trials. So sticking to the library until aro or one of the guards came to inform you that they were through was the plan.

Alot of the time you would go and play chess with aro. You had never played before so it took alot of practice and patience for you to finally learn how to play. When you did however, aro had felt he met his match, so he requested you play every other day for a small competition. If he won you would have to join him and his brothers to a trial. If you won however he had to do whatever you wanted him to do. This went on as a silly little game of sorts that went on for months. That was until today. You joined aro for your annual game and decided to up the ante a bit. If you won he and his brother had to accompany you on a night out. To a dinner with all four of you and hopefully a movie if they were comfortable. He agreed and so did Marcus, they both loved the idea of going out for dinner even though you'd be the only one actually "eating". Aros request was always the same, come to a trial and watch. See what they do and how they go about disobedient vampires and all the little rule breakers. You gave it some thought until you also agreed. When you did you sealed it with a handshake and a giddy smile and wiggled in your seat. Just as you were about to start you hear a loud sigh right behind you. You turned and came face to face with a infuriated looking Caius. He shakes his head with an obvious scowl on his face. "Why must you always agree to these stupid little requests brother!? You always lose, I seem to think you do it on purpose." He says through clenched teeth "Well for your information, I seem to recall a certain conversation between us. Do you remember? Or is your memory your frailty?" He snaps his head back to the wall across from him. He slams his fists on the table and gets up. Rushing out of the room not even using his ability to run. Aro sighs out in utter frustration. "If only he was a bit more accepting than maybe we would be considered "normal". I am so very sorry for his behavior y/n." "Why should you be sorry for his outburst?" "We as brothers had a agreement with him not long ago. About a week or so ago. He doesnt want you coming to any of the trials as of the next few months." Confusion runs through your mind, but why your very much willing to attend but why would he care? "He does care for you y/n. More than I've ever seen him care for another." You scrunch up your face, how did he know. "Why would he act this way if he does care then?" He smiles slightly "We have some very dangerous people coming in the next few months. He's afraid they may see you and want to hurt you. Yes, we all are afraid of that but he is the most concerned." You look off to the side, contemplating whether or not you should go and confront him. Suddenly you feel a hand take yours "We can continue this-" he gestures at the chess board "-at some other time, go to him." You nod and get up.

There was only one place you could guess he was, the library. When you arrived there, you could clearly see the back of his head. His blonde hair laying flat against his back and shoulders. You approach him slowly, you could tell he knew you were there. He turns slightly, catching a glimpse of you. "What do you want?" He says not paying attention to you anymore. You walk up beside him and lean down, pushing aside his hair for a split second "What are yo-" he says but groans immediately as he feels your lips against the side of his neck. If he had a pulse surely it would be racing right now. He lays his head back against the chair, he sighs out and smiles slightly. You detach from him and go up to his ear and whisper “Stop being grumpy, it’s lame.” he groans again "Ugh why must you be so difficult?" You let out a short laugh "Why must you make things so hard for me. Make me believe you hate me, I truly thought that for the longest time. Listen, if you dont want me to go the trials I wont but you will go out and eat with me and the others. We can go get dinner, then we can come back. Maybe me and you can spend some time together, maybe I dont know try to get along better?" He clenches his jaw. "Thank you for understanding why I dont want you there. I'm sorry I make you feel unloved. I've never had a mate before, I've gone so long without one that I never knew what it was like to be loved. I never said I didnt want to go to the dinner, though sometimes your little requests are quite odd. I would also like spending time with you. I want to make this work." You smile and take his hand "I'm very glad, though I'm going to be honest with you. I could punch you right now, but I love you to much to hurt you, so maybe instead of doing that we can go get dinner and perhaps "make up"?" He smirks and squeezes your hand in his "I would like that." He says as he gets up and pulls you toward the library door "Now let's go see if you can beat aro yet again." You giggle slightly, maybe now you both can be "normal" then being at each others necks.

(Hey again, I hope you enjoyed and that it was good enough for you. If you did like it please remember requests are always open. Please have an amazing day and stay safe out there in the world!)

Omg I know anon poor baby is always getting hurt! 🥺 I’m sorry this took so long, but I hope you like it!

Genre: Fluff, PG

Word Count: 2951

Warnings: none!

Summary: Izuku expects to find himself with Recovery Girl after he gets hurts in training yet again. How surprised he is to find it’s actually you who gets to take care of his wounds.

Prompt: #2, “You wanna get out of here?” for the @bnhabookclub Provisional Licensing Event!

(Here’s the link)

Izuku’s leg jumped as he waited impatiently in the sterile white room. 

This was now the 3rd time he was in the nursing office this week alone, and it was beginning to exasperate him how easily his body could get damaged in simple training.

He had to work to be harder. Faster. Stronger.

And he couldn’t do that without getting a little torn up and beaten up-it’s the fact he didn’t know when to stop that was the trouble.

Recovery Girl had told him that multiple times since he had became a regular visitor in her office, even threatening to speak to Aizawa-Sensei and revoke some of his training hours. 

That was the very last thing Izuku ever wanted to happen: he had to train. But he laso had to put everything into it: if he didn’t, how wouldnt ever get better.

Izuku heard a door inside the office open, looking up to meet Recovery Girl with a sheepish grin. 

But to his surprise, it wasn’t Recovery Girl-it was a student. 

They didn’t seem to notice him at first as they began to rummage in filing cabinets, their fingers nimbly searching through the organized folders.

Izuku stared with reddened cheeks-they were pretty cute.

But where was Recovery Girl? Maybe they were her assistant, but no, he was in the nurses office so much he would have known-

“Um, excuse me? Are you injured-do you need help?” The attractive person asked, their eyes looking down at him. They were right in front of him now, staring at him with an amused smirk as he thought out loud.

Izuku yelped, realizing a moment too late that he was mumbling again. His whole face became enveloped in red, his freckles much more prominent as he looked up.

“No-actually, um-yes, yes, I am hurt, just not badly,its really just a scratch -“ he was rambling again, instantly stopping as he realized how silly he sounded. His cheeks were on fire, and he was feeling so sheepish and dumb. Why couldn’t he form a single sentence correctly? This person was just too attractive, he couldn’t think straight-

He was surprised to here the person chuckle, their body bending down to be at eye level with him.

“Why am I not surprised Izuku Midoriya is in the nurses office again?” You grinned at his clearly shocked face, his green eyes wide with bewildernment.

“How-how do you know my name?” He asked, his eyebrows knitted in confusion.

You smiled at the nervous boy, your eyes drinking in his face-he was pretty attractive, his cheeks dusted with pink and his freckles scattered around his face like stars. His eyes were a pretty shade of forest green, his messy hair matching it perfectly.

You knew you should be checking for his vitals and any obvious injuries that were life threatening, thats what you’ve been taught after all-but if he had enough blood to blush that hard a few moments ago, he was more than likely fine.

“Well, your practically a honorary resident in the office at this point” you smiled playfully.

You remember him? That made Izuku’s heart soar, knowing somebody as cute as you could actually recall who he was.

Izuku felt a twinge of guilt though, because if you had seen him so many other times, why was this his first time seeing you?

“I’m sorry, I don’t mean to be rude, really,” he stuttered out, “but I don’t-seem to remember you-“

“Oh, don’t feel bad!” You comforted him, “Ive only just started interning with Recovery GIrl these past two weeks,”

“My name’s y/n.” you gave him a warm smile, making Izuku’s insides feel fuzzy.

You began to rummage in the cabinet on the wall, pulling out a small first aid- kit.

“You just happen to hear alot of things once your around teachers more,” you answered his question happily, opening the kit on the bed Izuku was sitting on.

“Like-like what?” he was a little concerned by that- were the teachers in some way talking negatively about him?

You noticed the way his expression changed to worry, giving him a calm smile.

“Its nothing bad, dont worry,” you reassured him, “Recovery Girl actually has quite a soft side for you- its just shes worried about how hard you work yourself.

“You definitely have a reputation for getting yourself pretty banged up, dont’cha?” you giggled at the way Izuku gave you such a guilty, sheepish grin as he fidgeted with his scarred hands.

He chuckled along with you, “More a less- I guess…”

He watched you pull out items from the white box:soft gauze, a vile of clear liquid, fluffy cotton balls, brand new bandages-

“If you dont mind me asking- is Recovery Girl not here today?” he asked

“Nope! Shes on break right now,” you explained, pulling a chair from under the bed he was sitting on, “so you got me for today,”

You scouted the chair in close, so you were practically in between Izuku’s legs and looking right up at him. He felt his body heat up from the sudden closeness-you seemed so calm, collected, and in control, while he was feeling like nervous wreck from how close you were..

“So, you injured your side, right? On the left?” you asked, looking at the torn clothing on his abdomen.

He gave you a curt nod, his green curls bouncing slightly.

 You looked up at him suddenly, his breath stopping in his chest.

“Mind if I look?” you asked, your voice sweet like honey.

“Uh, sure go ahead- just, be careful- its pretty, bruised-”

“Oh, dont worry ‘Zuku, Ill be gentle,” you sent the boy a wink, making his head spin.

Wait- were you flirting with him?

He felt your hands gingerly prod against his PE shirt, the fabric practically worthless around his injury. Your hand left a ticklish feeling against his skin, like kisses trailing along the surface. They sent his stomach into a frenzy, making it felt like it was made out of cotton. 

You hand reached lower, towards his 4th rib bone, prodding slightly as you went along. Izuku instinctively hissed in pain as you touched a certain spot- that was the most tender area by far.

 You gave him a worried expression, a quiet sorry spilling out of your lips as you retracted your hand.

You rested your chin against your fingers, your lips pouted out slightly as you sat there deep in thought.

“You definitely got a good injury there-” you concluded, “but Im not too worried about it. A couple bandages and maybe something for the bruising….and you should be good to go!”

Izuku breathed a sigh of relief, being careful to not exhale too much in order to not irritate his wound.

“Thats a relief!”

You looked down, your teeth catching your bottom lip in nervousness by what you were going to say next. You had to heal it, but the only way to do it would need Izuku to get a little bit more comfortable with you.

“But….in order for me to properly heal it-

“Your gonna have to take off your shirt Izuku.”

Izuku could barely breathe now- take off his shirt- in front of you?? 

He could have gotten a cut anywhere- his arm, leg, shoulder- but no, he got it on his stomach. Where you, this pretty nurses assistant, would have to see him close to naked. 

He know he shouldn't be so worried, this was your job after all, you probably seen plenty of have naked students come and go due to injuries- it just felt strange.

“Are-are you sure, I think Ill be fine, you dont have to, its okay Ill just-” he began to ramble, his mouth making word soup as his anxiety kicked in.

“Izuku,” you sighed calmly, “you wanna get out of here, right?”

He nodded numbly, his green eyes full of concern and sheepish from the turn of events.

“Then your gonna have to trust me,” you placed your hand on his knee, leaning into his body softly.

God- you were- so- close.

Izuku felt his face heat up, unable to think properly. How were you so okay with being so close? You seemed so unfazed by being this near him, your voice calm and reassuring. He, on the other hand, was practically shaking from shock and nervousness.

“I wont judge you for anything, I promise,” you gave him a cheeky grin, letting your eyes trail to his torso, “-and I don’t think you have anything to worry about,” 

The boy was always training, non-stop- at least that’s what you heard from the teachers. 

You were practically certain this boy was only made of hardened muscle, watching how is arms ripples with each movement and the built muscle move under your fingertips.

 If he was worried he wasnt in the best physique to be near a girl shirtless, you were quite certain he was sorely mistaken. 

And if giving him some praise was going to make him feel a little comfortable-you would give him as much as he needed.

Izuku shuffled in his seat again, crinkling the thin paper on the bed.

“O-okay then-I trust you,” he said, trying to sound a little more confident, “Do what you have to do.”

“Awesome!” You exclaimed softly. “I have to go get a few more things..:in the mean time, try to take off that shirt, Kay? Be gentle-and don’t be afraid to call me if you need help,”

You gave him a reassuring pat on the knee, rising from your chair to get larger bandages from another cabinet. You turned your back to Midoriya, walking over to another cabinet and rummaging through the boxes until you found the perfect size bandages.

You felt your hands shake slightly, your heart beating feverishly against your chest. 

Why were you nervous? Was his hesitancy rubbing off on you now? You shouldn’t be scared in any way-you were quite accustomed to this, already working on a handful of other students since interning with Recovery Girl. This shouldn’t be a such a nerve-wracking problem-you has seen countless shirtless boys-

But you had never seen Izuku shirtless-and that was a first.

You willed yourself to take a calming breath, trying to coax your stampeding heart to lull to a normal pace. You had to be comfortable for him at least-he was so beet red in the face from worry he practically looked like a he had a fever.

“Hey Midoriya, you doing alright-“ you began as you turned around, trying to sound as cheerful as possible until your eyes feel on Izuku, your breath hitched in your throat.

This boy was built like a god.

His arm muscles gleamed in the fluorescent lights, almost sparkling as they slumped gently with his breaths. His pecks protruded our nicely, and his abdomen was a sight to be seen. Your hands itched to run along his abs, each one perfectly rounded and built. His v-line made you blush as it set deep into his skin, barely pecking out from his pants.

You could now fully see the injury, the only thing that was disrupting the masterpiece that was Izuku’s body. The red Cuts and purple bruises looked shallow as they encased around his 4th and 5th ribs.

“Is it-that bad?” he asked timidly,’his green orbs staring intently at your shocked face.

You shook your head of your stare, your cheeks inflamed-you couldn’t just be so blatantly enraptured by him. You secretly thanked that Izuku was kind of clueless and thought you were freaking out over his wound, because any other person would have known you were really just checking him out.

“Oh no! Your injury is fine,” you gave him a sheepish grin, placing the boxes on his bed.

His injury was easily fixable, and not at all serious- you were just so confused. How could someone so cute and endearing be so HOT.

“You really do train hard, huh, Midoriya?” You gave another glance at his abdomen, making Izuku chuckle nervously.

You pushed the chair you had sit in under the bed, deciding it would be easier to work on him if he was standing.

Oh geez-youd be the death of him-

you were now standing in between his legs, your hands ghosting the skin on his knees as you stared at him with those pretty eyes of yours.

He gave another small chuckle, his hand going up to scratch the back of his neck. The movement didnt react to well with his injury, a sharp pain crawling up his body. He winced, instinctively holding his side as you looked at him with worry.

“Is it alright if I-” your hands went to lightly touch his side, but he moved to block it away from your touch.

He realized his movements might have looked rude to you, his eyes growing wide with worry.

“I-I’m Sorry, I didn’t mean to-“ he began to feverishly apologize, but quickly stopped once he felt you place your hand on his lower thigh.

“It’s fine, Izuku, really, I’d do the same thing to,” you gave him a soft smile, squeezing his thigh gently.

That action made his whole body feel like jello, his mind only focusing on the way your hand was so gentle against his skin.

“Do you still trust me, though?”

“O-of course!” He exclaimed, his eyes wide.

“Alright then-I promise I’ll be as gentle as possible, Kay?” You said softly, your voice so soothing to Izuku it felt like a lullaby in his ears.

He nodded his head, his curls cascading over his eyes slightly as you took your hand off his leg, his eyes watching your every move.

Your fingers gently ran against the bruised skin, making sure to be as soft and gentle as you could with the infliction. 

You didn’t want to cause him any type of unnecessary pain, but sometimes it was necessary to get the job done.

“I-uh-I have to clean your wounds,” you looked up at Izuku, surprised to see how gentle his eyes were as he looked down at you. He seemed to be much calmer, but the way he looked so dazed and in bliss made your heart thump painfully in your chest.

 “It might sting a little, but I promise after that, it won’t hurt any more than it does.”

“That alright, I-I won’t take any offense, your doing what you have to do,” he grinned slightly at you, his freckles like stars against his cheeks.

You returned the sweet gesture, trying to focus back on his wound and not the way  Izuku was making you feel.

 He was so sweet and so adorably awkward, you couldn’t help but feel something towards the boy that was more than just a friendship feeling. He really was different than any other boy you had ever talked to.

You began working on his cuts, sterilizing each one, and making sure they were completely clean so they wouldnt get any type of infection.

Your heart went out for this poor boy-he really was strong. You had always hated this part whenever getting an injury, and he took it like a champ.

He only hissed once, his eyes and nose scrunched up, reminding of you when a bunny sniffs something it didn’t quite like. He body tensed for a split second, his hands curling around the bed. You placed your hand gently on his, making sure that he knew you were still there. You gave him an apologetic expression, his eyes looking down at you delicately, reassuring you that it was alright.

The room was deathly quiet, yet it was comfortable-you focused solely on Izuku, placing an ointment on the open flesh in order to help it heal. You made sure to keep your hands clean in order to not spread any possible infection, walking away to clean your hands at certain times.

Midoriya hated when you left, missing the warmth your body radiated off. It was intoxicating, really-you were so incredibly gentle and sweet with him. Your hands were so soft and light he sometimes couldn’t even feel you working to heal his injury. He was cherishing each moment: the way he could almost feel your heart rate from your wrist against his skin, the way your fingers would brush against the inner side of his arms by accident, sending a tingle to shoot up throughout his body. He loved how your voice was so soothing and tender, and the way you took time to make sure he was comfortable, asking him if this area hurt the most, if he felt the bandages were too tight, if he needed anything for the bruising.... You were so kind and considerate it made his heart soar with how much you cared for him in this moment.

His chest exhaled sadly when you moved away from him for the last time, realizing you had finally fixed him up.

You stared at your handiwork, your hands a little firmer this time as you moved in quickly, wrapping your fingers against the thick bandages.

“Does this feel fine? Do you feel this? Is it too tight?” You asked for what seemed like the uptenth time, making Izuku chucke sweetly.

He really didnt mind all your questions: he found it quite endearing actually.

“Yep! I’m fine, honestly, you don’t have to worry,” he gave a sheepish grin, gently trying to move to get off the bed.

You instantly rushed to help him, your hands gingerly finding a place in the crook of his elbow and his waist, guiding him off the bed.

He smiled up at you, your heart soaring as the freckled boy gave you such a warm look of appreciation.

You fidgeted nervously, sadly letting go of your hands on his body and tucking a hair behind your ear.

“Your free to go if you want Izuku, it was really nice meeting you!” You gave him one last smile, his heart dropping sadly as he smiled back.

“It was really nice meeting you too, it’s-too bad we don’t have any classes together, you seem, well, really nice!” He was practically stuttering again, yet your warm laugh made him feel a little at ease.

“Oh don’t worry about that Izuku, I’m sure you’ll be back in here in no time! I hope you don’t be too beat up then, but I look forward to it,”

“Me-me too”

And with one last smile, he walked out the door, his heart beating feverishly in his chest.

Taggings:

@birds-have-teeth​ @yuueimagines​ @orokayagi​ @leeeah-loooser​ @freckledoriya​

Tea time! A!Tamaki Amajiki x Fem! Smoll! O! Reader

Warning: None! Except for my cringy writing tell me if I do anything wrong! And alot of fluff!

Ship: fem! O reader x A Tamaki amajik

Summary: Y/N was at a cafe studying for an exam when bully's from your past came in and was plumbiting your self esteem (witch wasn't really high in the first place) you ran towards the closest building and end up in another cafe, yes but what kind?

Readers quirk: element. Its exactly what it sounds like, reader can control any of the elements but she has to focus really hard in order for it to work or if she gets to emotional she loses control of it and things don't really work out

Sorry if the summary was long! Oh gosh I'm already scewing things up! Okay on to the fanfic this was inspired heavily by @makethiscanon she is an awesome writer and I hope I can get to her level, she also has an amazing fluffy channel that if consent granted I will name the channel!

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You really weren't planning to go anywhere for the day, you were studying for Mr. Yamada's (Present mic's) class in your dorm when you decided to go to A cafe about an hour from you, ya the walk was long but they also just so happened to have to best bubble tea besides, your omega really wanted a sweet treat about now, you put on some make-up, brushed your hair, and grabbed your school bag before you went on your way (A little fresh air and some bubble tea couldn't hurt, right? Wrong.) you had just settled at a table inside, it was starting to drizzle as you opened the door to the cafe.

Before placing your order you started typing on your computer occasionally glancing at your notes for the class. You had just gotten up to order when all the sudden you smelt the hauntingly familiar cluster of scents Moss, The ocean, and polished wood and leather (witch you could smell was trying to be covered up with channel.....#4?) entered the cafe and before you could properly react your usual scent of citrus and roses, had already become quite burnt and the familiar faces all stared at you, all to familiar with your scared scent.

"Y/N! I didn't think I'd see much of you after grade school!"

If the scent didn't confirm your suspicion of who the person was there looks sure did. Mienu. The female of the group of three had long red hair with white eyes she was wearing a black tank top with a picture of the pro Hawks on it, blue ripped jeans, and black convers. Shiro, the black haired Alpha had yellow eyes he was wearing a black hoodie and jeans with some white tennis shoes, and finally Shitto. he had white hair, the Whites of his eyes Black with the pupils being white, he was wearing a black sweater that in bold white words read "Fuck this, fuck that, fuck you" (Charming) and some sweapants with black tennis shoes. They were your bully from grade school.

"Awe Y/N why the silence?" The voice you had identified as Mienu asked as the group of three alpha's had welcomed themselves to sit at your table.

Recalling past memories of tourter they put you through during early life you didn't have to be with them for even a second more

"Can you please exit my table?"

You tried to speak in the most confident voice you could muster that ended up sounding more like a whimper.

"Awe you want us to go so soon? We haven't even gotten to get a good look at you!" The black haired alpha snarled.

After stareing you up from head to toe a look of pure disgust played on there features

"Still look like the same whore from 8th grade"

" I am kind of working right now, Mienu"

"Oh, I'm so sorry! I didn't know a job application for a janitor was that serious! I mean no one would have to look at your disgusting face that way." The second white-haired male Alpha had laughed.

"Actually I am in the hero course in UA." You told him coldly as you tapped your textbook to show the obvious U.A logo on it.

They all looked at each other speechless for a moment, the silence was short-lived when the red-haired alpha recovered from the shock.

"Oh, your poor classmates they must be so ashamed that at such a high class, prestigious school they would have to look at walking trash all-day." That one sunk in.

You were already questioning how you of all people got into such a high ranked school, and hearing it from them just broke you a little, I mean they all looked pretty well off....and beautiful. I mean your quirk was powerful but it was tricky to control and unpredictable.

You once got so angry as a child that you caused a mini earth quake, a second time that was just a few months ago, you were hanging out with Asui, hagakure, Mina, shoji, tokoyami, ojiro, and sero in the common room when mineta had decided that, when everyone was in the kitchen preparing snacks for the anime marathon you were all planning on to start hitting on you and got handsy, the next thing you new the metal from the lamp had constricted around the beta's little body (you were praised and treated as a GOD but it still bothered you that you lost control of your quirk Because of a perverted grape)

Your scent only got more burnt moment by moment thinking of how often you lost control.

"You know what I think we've been a little harsh on her let's give her a drink," the final black-haired alpha said looking at his friends.

You saw him grab a coffee from the nearest table and before you could process what he meant you were doused in black coffee, making your omega give a distressed chirp( a little extra part worsening, your omega and pretty much all omegas hated bitter things.)

You felt bad for the civilians at the cafe you could see they wanted to help but that certain cafe is known for there sweets witch drove all the people there to be omegas and betas, (by there scent you could guess the person they stole the coffee from was a beta) neither of witch would be brave enough to stand up to a group of alpha's and you felt terrible yourself, you were supposed to be a hero but you started tearing up at THIS.

You refused to let them see you cry and lose control. you packed up all the things you brought into a bag as quickly as possible and booked it, leaving the three alphas cackling.

You really just wanted to go home to get in your nest but you had already walked an hour, you were not willing to walk all the way back to U.A in the rain, the next bus wasnt going to be here for a solid half hour, your phone was dead so you couldnt call anyone to pick you up, and it was now it was pouring, you needed comfort now.

After about 2 minutes of running aimlessly your blurred, tear stung vision saw a building that had a teapot on the front, you practically threw yourself in the building, collapsing as a bell chiming to announce your entry.

"Are you alright dear?"

You lifted your head a little bit to see a sweet-looking black and gray-haired omega probably in her 40s that smelt of fresh-baked cookies, her kind-blue eyes looked at you with a look if concern, like the look a mom gives her pup if they cry.

She took the tears that stained your complexion as an answer.

"Okay dearie lets get to checked-in"

You didn't really know what you were getting checked in to but none the less you made a quiet nod and followed the women to a desk off in the corner

Once you got a better look the cafe was actually quite nice, white pillars stood inside with vines of ivory on them, the floor was marbled white and gray with a bit of black, the counter was Plain, black hardwood, it was a quaint place that reminded you of a tea shop.

Your scent was getting back to normal.

Now that you were calm again you took in your appearance in the remarkably reflective window of the shop.....you were a mess your H/L hair was soaked by rain and coffee, your eyes were red, your makeup was dripping down your cheeks, and your White coat was coffee stained, and Actually you really didn't notice till now how cold you were with the water from your clothes seeping in your skin you would have used your quirk to get the water off but you felt to emotional to use it safely.

Annnd your scent is back to burnt.

"Name dearie?"

"Oh uhh L/N-F/N

"Okay, now just go upstairs and the first door to the left, we always want our guest to feel at home, so just relax dearie"

"Thank you, ma'am!"

You gave a quick and Curt bow before heading up the stairs.

You went upstairs and followed the instructions the Walls were white with little paintings strewn across it, at the top of the stairs was a hallway with a series of black door's you followed the instructions and went to the first door, the smell of tea and tarts filled your nose and before you could hesitate you opened the door.

Before you could process your surroundings you heard:

"welcome home Princess!"

Oh...shintucky fried chicken...It was one of those cafés. everything was crisp, quaint, and warm. After a quick survey over the room you realised that the servers were all male alpha's that were all illegally attractive, and they all had on tailcoats as they served everything from silver trays.

You looked up at the tall, blonde-haired, blue-eyed Alpha that smelt of freshly cut grass, who greeted you he was wearing a black tail suit and a white buttoned-up shirt with black slacks and dress shoes.

"Are you dineing with us alone my princess?"

You felt like your heart was beating out of your chest as the handsome man asked, you had to remind yourself to behave, he was only being nice to you as part of his job, nothing more nothing less. You told yourself you were here to avoid the rain and nothing more.

You slowly nodded your head, just wishing you looked more presentable, it seemed like everyone there was staring (cause they were) there crisp, elegant clothing and beautiful features were the main things intimidating you, the cafe held mostly beta's and omegas with a few alpha's scattered around you felt like you were a gold fish in an aquarium with the exotic fishes. Misplaced. Looking amongst all the customers you could see all eyes on you, most of the eyes held discust while others held pitty.

Neither of witch you wanted to see.

"princess?"

The voice of the Alpha brought you back to reality you noticed he now had a menu.

"Follow me to your table!"

You nodded and followed him to the back where there was a booth closed off from the rest of the cafe, witch you were very grateful for so no one else could really look at you rather it was on purpose or not you mentally thanked the alpha.

"I am Mirio Togata, your Butler for today will be here shortly! Don't hesitate to ask if you need anything."

'Mirio Togata....why did that sound so familiar?'

your head was so clouded that you forgot he was part of the Big three, a practical legend at U.A.

Before he left he looked left, then right and whispered "Your Butler is very shy and reserved so please don't mind him, he really is a nice person".

He gave you a Curt bow and then walked away.

You decided to skim over the menu, deciding that you would get a tea, that's all you could afford, when you left home you didn't think to bring anymore money than $4.75 because that was the price of the bubble tea, ethier way that was all you were willing to spend..Even with living in the dorms with your class 1-A they were all territorial about there belongings especially there food (Especially since most of your class were alpha's) occasionally the microwaved ramen noodles was shared and occasionally take out thanks to Momo's wealth but you kinda felt guilty for using the Alpha's wealth. what were you doing here? What in the actual heck were you doing here with all these beautiful, prestine, rich as heck customers? You are a broke college student.

"P-p-princess?"

The small innocent question pulled you away from your thoughts to catch a glimpse of your server, you gulped he was hot. An indigo haired Alpha with eyes to match, honestly before you caught his scent of spices you thought he was an omega like you due to his shaky posture and voice. He was wearing a tail suit that matched Mirio's, his posture shaky and he held a small book to take an order.

"My name is A-Amajiki Tamaki, I'll be your B-Buttler today" he bowed before carrying on

"M-may I get you anything to drink princess? M-mabey something hot?"

"Ah. Um...I...I think I will be leaving."

You turned to get your bag when the Alpha scooted into the seat next to you.

"Are you okay, Omega?" He asked worry laced in his voice and eyes.

"Yes?....No?.....Maybe?.....I don't know I'm a mess right now.." you went on explaining what had happened at the other cafe and how you felt so meaningless amongst your Piers (Leaving out the fact you were a U.A student), he occasionally showed he was listening by nodding his head and....was that a growl you heard?

Tamaki didn't show it but he was P.I.S.S.E.D. 'Didn't there mother's ever show them how to treat an Omega?!? An adorable, tiny, sweet smelling one of all!'

After the deed was done you were crying again and it hit you that you just told your problems to a random adorable Alpha.

He watched as you took your hand up to your face wiping away a stray tear, removing your hand from your face he noticed a black smudge on your hand that he could only assume was make-up.

He suddenly got up from the table and held his hand out to you, you hesitated for a moment but grabbed on, he started walking with you in toe to a door that had the word "Private" printed on a little gold rectangle close to the door that you came in from

By his pace you could guess that whatever he was doing, he wasn't supposed to be.

He opened the door and poked his head in to make sure no one was there and opened it a little bit more, gesturing you inside quickly.

"T-This is where we change i-into butlers.." Tamaki said as he held the door open a little wider for you. The room you could obviously tell was a changing room with wardrobes lining the walls with a few vanities and mirrors scattered on a few of the walls.

"Stay here f-for a sec please"

You could tell he dropped the act, he was still shy and muttering but you could tell he was at least trying to stop it from shining through as a butler. You saw as the Alpha grabbed a white towel from a close by hamper, you didn't see this but he rubbed the towel against his scent glands...just to calm you down..... totally not to make you smell like him....

The purple haired Alpha handed you the towel and watched you dry off your hair, when he turned around to grab something else he heard a quiet voice "Y/N...My name is Y/N L/N.."

The alpha smiled a small bit 'Y/N...what a beautiful name'

"W-wait here Y/N"

You watched the timid alpha leave the area, you waited a few seconds before bringing the towel to your nose inhaling his comforting scent...

'He is such a kind alpha....you should try to court him!' Your omega chirped

"NO! We only just met him"

'Get to know him better. That simple.'

"Wow that simple for sure"

'Exactly!'

"🙄"

While to were arguing with your omega in the other room....

'I think they wouldn't mind having dry clothes....' Tamaki thought to himself, tho he had a feeling they would be to tiny to fit his clothes well, he was tempted to get one of the smaller alpha's clothes that had the night shift but there was always a chance they could get out early and find there clothes gone, so he grabbed his own clothes and 'borrowed' a belt from one of the other alpha's wardrobe, they wouldn't miss a belt to much..

He came back in to the room, clothes freshly scented, seeing the Omega look prideful and irritated, like they just had got into an argument and won.

By the time the argument between you and your omega was over he was back, you had won...for now, and he was carrying a pile of neatly folded clothes.

" u-umm here Omega, your clothes look really wet, and there is n-no way you can warm up in them, t-these are my clothes you don't have to take them if you don't want to but I thought they would be more comfortable..."

You gently grabbed the clothes from the Alpha and thanked him, looking down at the clothes it was a biege sweater with a pair of denim jeans, you could obviously see they were going to be way to big for your tiny body but over sized sweaters where a thing and you were sure you could fit the jeans around your waist with they help of a belt.

"Thank you alpha!" You purred at the soft eyed alpha.

Completely forgetting about his existen in the room for a second you took off your jacket looking up to see the alpha with his head against a wall, with a blush redder that the desssert sand.

" u-uh omega.... your blouse"

You looked down to see what he was talking about to see..your blouse was see through do to the rain....'Well a half decent day to be wearing my good bra..' you thought to yourself only for a second when you remembered THIS 👏 ISN'T 👏 YOUR 👏 ALPHA👏 Your eyes widened about to let out a chirp, but you managed to stop your self remembering that the alpha was only trying to be kind, he wasn't trying to peep, and you were about 90% sure you weren't supposed to be in a butler wardrobe room another alpha hearing your chirp could drive them to come in and see you there leading the nice alpha to lose his job...with all these things in mind you were able to suppress the chirp.

"U-Um sorry about that, umm could you please keep turned or go to a different room while I change please?"

"N-no problem" the alpha said still looking like the red sand from the dessert.

The alpha left the room grabbing a few other things while you pulled up the jeans and pulled the sweater over your head. Like you expected they were both way to big but luckily the alpha suspected that and brought you a belt.

"Alpha! You can come back In now" you chirped.

A few seconds later the alpha came back in and stopped dead in his track's to take you in.

"THEY ARE ADORABLE!" You were practically drowning in the jeans with them pooling at your feet as were the sleeves and you were snuggling into the sweater like it was the softest thing on earth!

"U-uh you look nice! I'm I just thought you might want to dry off your hair..." Tamaki spoke as he held out a miniature hair dryer and brush

"Thanks!" you said as you looked for an outlet

"uhh alpha where can I plug this in?"

He had to stiffle a giggle as he led you over to the vanity and plugged it in, he handed back to you and you attempted to turn it on.

"ah...the thing is really finiky, here let me help." he said as he grabbed the hair dryer and brush from you he fiddled with it for a few seconds before it finally turned back on

You were just expecting him to hand the items back to you but to your surprise he started to blow dry and brush your hair for you, tho you had to admit you were a little worried what the coffee was going to do to your hair but surprisingly it didn't do anything.

You couldn't help but let out a content pur.

He then turned your chair around so you were facing him and grabbed a makeup wipes that seemed to appear out of thin air, you suddenly felt your self getting anxious again and held out your arms in a weak attempt to stop him from wiping off the melted makeup from your face.

"What's wrong omega?" Tamaki asked hastily, worried he did something wrong. You were silent for a few moments and muttered something

"I-Im sorry but could you repeat that? I didn't quite hear you the first time.."

You then again muttered to quietly for even the person with the sharpest sences to hear.

"umm one more time please?"

"I look ugly without it.."

You muttered again weakly, you knew the melted makeup looked terrible but it still covered up your... plainness?

Tamaki grabbed your outstretched arms gently lowering them he looked up at you from his kneeling position his brows furrowed.

"Y/N I-I doubt sieriously you could be ugly.." he said shyly as he reached up again with the wipe in hand, looking you in the eyes for permission. With a deep breath you nodded and felt the moisture of the wipe hit your face.

In little time you could feel him pull away and put the wipe in the garbage.

'Wow..' Tamaki thought to himself you were drop dead gorgeous! Why did you want to cover it?

"Y-your really pretty!" The Alpha stated squeezing his eyes shut, opening them again to see a blushing Y/N in front of them

"T-thanks.."

Soon after he snook you back to the diner section. Taking off the wait on other patrons.

You felt more comfortable now that you fit in a bit better but there was still an echoing voice in your head repeating all the bad things the alpha's said to you.

Amajki noticing this came over with a small plate in his hand and placed it in front of you. It was a fruity looking parfait and a cup of Chaì tea.

Was he being sweet or trying to make you spend money? You don't really know.

"Thank you alpha but I don't think I can afford this, I only got a few yin on hand"

"D-Dont worry about it! It's a new recipe the chef was trying out and wanted it to be tasted!"

With that the alpha left and went to take an order from another patron.

With the reasurance you wouldn't be charged you picked up a spoon and took a small bite, immediately an explosion of sweet fruit and cream took over your mouth and immediately went for another bite. Your omega was purring so loud you thought the whole cafe could here! Unbeknownst to you the alpha was smiling as he looked over at your pleased face.

He came over again a few moments after you finished the parfait and presented you with Matcha Macroons before noticing the cream that was on the side of your lip

Adorableness level: upgrade

You looked up at him disappoinment in your features

"thank you so much for everything but I think I need to be heading back to my dorm or my friends will think I got kidnapped!"

Spoiler alert: THEY DID

"A-at least stay untill the rain stops."

You looked up at the window and saw the rain hadn't lessened.

Sighing knowing you were going to get a lecture later on from your classmates you agreed to stay.

Tamaki presented you with dish after dish the next more delicious than the last while conversating with you, when you noticed it stopped raining you were actually a little disappointed, you were quite enjoy your self but you knew you had to get home.

You stood up and saw Tamaki rush over to you.

"Thank you so much for... everything! But I gotta go now my dorm mates are probably about to send a search party my way"

Tamaki looked out the window and saw it had stopped raining, disappointed playing on his features.

"W-wait here a sec omega!" Without giving you a chance to answer he rushed into the room again and came out a few seconds later with a large bag and went into the kitchen appearing again after a few minutes and bolted over to you.

"h-here are your clothes from earlier t-they dryed off but I would still recommend washing them."

You took the bag and the alpha walked away without a word, with a heavy heart you walked out and headed down the stairs and went to desk seeing the omega who greeted you earlier, knowing not all of what Tamaki gave you was free the omega slid you over the check and- OH MY GOD YOU KNEW THIS PLACE WAS EXPENSIVE BUT YOU WRACKED UP 20,761.40¥! The omega obviously able to sence your worry grabbed your hand and calmly stated:

"Don't worry dearie Amajiki payed for it in full and- are those his clothes?"

"Ah- umm-well you see-"

"Shhhh it's okay dear I'm not going to fire Amajiki, that was a kind thing he did and that boy is so shy...I'm just happy you made him come out of his shell a bit. Feel free to come back anytime!"

The omega slowly slid over the receipt with a knowing grin and left to go to the backroom. You left the cafe and flipped over the flimsy paper to read:

To Y/n the omega that looks just as adorable without makeup as she does with cream in her face.

With a number neatly scrawled underneath it, you knew a few things that were going to happen in the future, you knew when you got back to the dorms you would get a lecture, you knew you would have to pull an all-nighter to get all the work done since you got barley any of it done at the cafe, and you knew when you got your phone charged you would be making a call.

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Bonus!:" WHERE THE HELL WERE YOU AVATAR?!" Said an angry bakugo when you entered the dorm, the scent of a whole bunch of worried alpha's filling your nose.

"Bakubro! Calm down! MIDORIYA! COME CALM DOWN YOUR ALPHA!" Said an anxious Kirishima trying weakly to hold his best friend back while waiting for Midoriya to show.

"WELL?!? WHERE THE HELL WERE YOU?!?!"

"Bakugo! That is an ill-mannered way of approching things! Y/N! You were so close to cutting curfew! You could've gotten in trouble!"

"Yes, yes Lida the school rules are important but Y/N is home safe now aren't they?" Said momo.

You were relived at first but then she went down to your level and whispered like a crazy person:

"If you ever make us worry for so long again say good bye to the free nesting materials I make you."

"YOU WOULDN'T!" You said shocked at the threat.

"Oh I would 100% do so if it became necessary."

"WELP IM GOING TO MY NEST NOW IF YOU WILL EXUSE ME!!"

Ya they didn't let you off so easy, you had to stay in the living room another hour for a lecture from EVERYONE.

After you were finally able to go to your room you crashed in your nest, plugged in your phone and sat up while you unpacked your clothes finding three mini Parfaits at the bottom.

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@vixenpen ummm yea I also think your an awesome writer and you said to notify you once it's done and I know it's not really your taste or at least I don't think it is but plz give me some criticism!

here goes nothing ig...

So idk whos going to read this and my English is fucked so if youre gonna read this goodluck. BuT!!

Hi, how are you? ig that we havent seen eachother in a while and since then alot has changed. Now that i think about it i rlly wouldnt know what exactly, ive been so inactive on here that it seems like 4 years ago since i last posted. The reason i am posting this today is because i saw old chats on here and i read them and i got so miserable. Im not that person i was when i used this media platform and i shall never be again, and that scares the living hell out of me.

I saw all those chats eventually die off and the thing was, i dont think i even noticed, maybe not even cared. i was rlly weird but in that way also rlly strong. Maybe its just the one too many stabbies in the back or the 1 time too many that i felt excluded but idk if im still that strong.

Yes, I was a bitch. Do i regret it? to a certain level. but i now understand why i was the way i was and sometimes i still wanna be like that.

All i ever wanted was love and acceptance, once i didnt even feel happy in my own skin anymore i started to freak out. Lash out inside is fine with me, destroy your liver who cares? You can do with a few braincells less. Well i could until i couldnt. and then i got mad at everyone around me.

Im not going to say that i shouldnt have gotten so mad, but i will say that i shouldnt have gotten so sad. It wasnt necessarily directed to you but it did hurt so much and everything became too much and then i had enough.

Enough of everyone who judged me and enough of the people i called friends. But to them i will say, even tho you will never read this and maybe its better that way, im sorry i cared so much and im sorry it wasnt meant to be, but the only one i should say sorry to well that person, she is me. (hihi i rhyme)

Yk, the only thing i ever asked for was acceptance and thats the one thing i never got. ive been my share of bitchy and mean and stupid and dumb tho, i wouldnt have wanted to hang out with me either, atleast something we agreed on. But hating myself and hearing it from the only person you wanted understanding from, well that sUcks. But now i think abt it im even a little bit thankful.

Yes you were all so harsh in your own way and i tried so hard to fit in, but i tried too much and if everything wouldnt have gone the way it went, and if i never dug myself so deep i never wouldve gotten myself out of there. Out of the brainkillers, moodswings but most importantly, out of that band.

It was the one thing i loved most, and the only thing that killed me inside. Im going to admit i am insecure, not abt my body or face or hair or any of that. Im insecure about belonging. Do i fit in? and i didnt and i told myself i did. In just a few months i started hating what i loved most.

And if i hadnt been so down i wouldnt have ever seen how much i actually love him. And if i hadnt seen that and never figured i can live my life the way i want to, i wouldve never quit that band and wouldve stayed with those people alot longer.

if the odds are against me and you actually do read this on my very open social media page i dont blame you, maybe just get really embarrassed. but ill just let you know i never replaced you, once i realised i couldnt live my life with you in it, i never wanted to know anyone that even resembled you. and that thought gave me more peace of mind then any of the past 2 years ever gave me.

yes this is a very big rant about how i struggle with change and yes i know ill cringe about it in a few weeks months years whatever, but i do this for me, read it or dont. but if you did and youre reading this right now, whoever you are, i wanna ask you.

Are you happy?

because i wasnt, even when i thought i was, and maybe i just wanna give you my word of advice but dont go looking for something youll never find. itll save you alot of time and energy and trust me, youll need it.

so i think i finished up here. thank you for reading this although you really didnt have to.

Goodnight,

Jackie

A Vegeta x OC Fanfiction (part 2)¤ ¤ ¤

The morning came with silence and silence came with Raditz banging on Calamatta’s pod. 

“Wake up! we need to get our pods to the ship in the upper atmosphere then we start the terraforming process! Got it?” SHe stretches and gives the long haired Saiyan a lazy thumbs up. Confirming she heard him loud and clear. Rubbing her eyes she punched in the coordinates to the ship and off the four pods flew to the ship in the higher atmosphere, slotting their pods into the mothership.

The four took their time to leave 2 by 2 to the planet and scour the planet to completely terraform it, with expertise and precision. Cracking open the planet enough to let the oceans flow forth, for several hours they did this until they returned to the ship. Calamatta entered the ship last and was greeted with a crisp clap to the back from Nappa. “Good job, lil lady!” He bellowed as she rubbed the back of her head. “T-thanks Nappa, now im just worried.” 

Raditz raised his hand and shook his head, “Ahhh calm down, we're going to give him an honest review of you then you will be moved to our quarters, you get your first pay and then you should be good. Settle down.” He brushes past her and makes his way to Frieza’s Hall. Vegeta followed behind, throwing a glance at the female Saiyan as she sat on a chair, he can tell she was nervous by the frequency of her bouncing leg. They didnt like bending to Frieza’s whim, but they werent about to just go against him out right.. And with one more saiyan with them to train and get stronger they could be unstoppable. Its just the matter of pandering to Lord Frieza until then and making sure they dont get killed.

Lord Friezas chambers had only Zarbon blocking their way, the annoying green haired former prince with no shame. Dodoria, the brainless ruffian was nowhere in sight. “Monkeys.. Im assuming its about the release of Friezas little ape?” Zarbon said very condescendingly to the three, very annoyed Saiyans. Vegeta tightened his fist and grit his teeth at the comparison to apes so blatantly to his face.

 “Zarbon thats quite enough. Ive been expecting them.” Friezas voice piped up waving the three Saiyans in. “Y-yes, Lord Frieza.” He obeyed and moved out of their ways. “You are excused Zarbon, your services arent needed this evening.” Frieza rotated fully in his seat and swirled a full goblet of wine within it. 

The three took bended knee to Frieza begrudgingly and raised up at the same time. “Were here to confirm our Terraforming a rousing success.” Frieza smirked and paid attention to Nappa. “Indeed. It was to be a 4 to 5 day excursion and you done it in 2 and a half days? My my, you 4 are persistent!” He chided and pointed to Nappa first. Everyone is fully aware of Frieza’s death beam so Nappa winced. Causing Frieza to visibly inflate like an egomaniac. “Now what is your report about my favorite little monkey, Ms. Calamatta” He sipped his wine and let it hover mid air rotating it and lacing his fingers together and letting his long worm like tail wag lightly. Nappa took one step forward and spoke up, light sweat on his brow as he made eye contact with deadly bright vermillion eyes.

“Calamatta’s first time out with primary race extermination was exquisite. Effective and heartless. If she continues with us you should expect the same, Lord Frieza!” He did a full bow and stepped back for Raditz, The long haired teenage Saiyan cleared his voice and spoke up, starting with an embarrassing voice crack. “She took orders for sequences of events and how to lay waist to entire cities fairly quickly. I'd prefer her with us simply because she has a job to do and she seems to enjoy it.” Frieza slowly nods, eyes closed and speaks softly. “Mhmm. mmhmmm. You two are dismissed. Vegeta… you stay.” 

Frieza took his goblet and took a sip from it as the Prince narrowed his eyes and approached, puffing up his chest. “What do you think about the pretty little simian? Shes quite interesting… obedient and has grown to be a lovely young woman, shapely i think your repugnant species would call her... You are aware her father appointed her to me when she was a child, I'd assume Vegeta…?” He lets the wine glass levitate again, Vegeta stood with his arms crossed and brow raised. “Yes, Im aware...What is this about.” Frieza clicked his nails about on his seat and smiled softly.

“Her father did not trust his only daughter with the likes of the Kings eldest boy… Not after their fight… so she was appointed as my little monkey butler, a nice little piece of arm candy… if only she wasnt a Saiyan. Anyway… Enough with my little flights of fantasy…” He gestured to the confused Saiyan Prince, his lips lined straight and unmoving. “About Calamatta… How was she.. Your word I take higher then anyone else.” He preened upon saying her name, it was borderline perverted but with a sinister meaning behind it. 

“Shes the missed opportunity id like to get my hands on. A perfect Saiyan through and through. If she werent by your side so often id have taken her by my side YEARS ago, Frieza…” He stated as a matter of factly, Friezas dark little smile returned “How disgustingly romantic... Zarbon! Summon Calamatta for me.” He snaps his fingers and trot like tapping faded down the hallway. Zarbon was waiting outside, like a good little brainless lackey.

Calamatta was tapping on the table she waited at, tail flicking nervously about behind her. She was snapped from her stupor of nervous leg bouncing and hair twirling to Zarbon slapping his hand down firm onto the table. “Calamatta, Lord Frieza is requesting your return asap.” SHe nodded and fixed her hair abit standing up and wrapping her tail around her waist. Shes known Zarbon longer then shes known Dodoria. 

The kinship Zarbon developed for her was astounding, a favorable friendship when she felt immense discomfort in her teens on. It weirds her out and flatters her nonetheless. “Yes, Zarbon.. Right away.” She walks along side Zarbon and even passes Nappa and Raditz on their way back. “Ill have you know for the duration of time that I have known you; you are not like the others… youre charismatic and maybe the most tolerable, of the 4 of you...your  still nothing more than a monkey butler though.” She sneered and returned her gaze fixed forward, down then away. The moment she turned the corner she went wide eyed to see Vegeta. 

She stopped in her tracks and was given a push from Zarbon, Frieza chirped upon her entry. “Welcome back, Calamatta! I have some good news for you…” “Lord Frieza..” She bowed at the waist obediently she stood next to Vegeta and Zarbon once again excused himself.

“I trust that your first day terraforming was a success and that you had a splendid time, did you dear?” Calamatta stood up straight and let her tail unwind from her waist. “Y-Yes! I actually liked it alot!” She chirped and gulped abit, Vegeta scoffed and closed his eyes, only for Frieza to speak. “Oh, well you are not out of the woods yet my dear...no no.. You have one more task to prove to me before i let you do anything with the male populace for you to shake your pretty little tail at.” 

He makes a face and a screen pops up on the window behind him. A massive green, blue and red planet popped up on the screen encircled by 2 rings and 2 moons. “You and Vegeta are to Terraform this planet on your own. I will give you a month to do it because this planet has highly hostile inhabitants.” Vegetas eyes snapped open and stared at the planet then to frieza. “You cant be serious? Why not just send me on my own then i can do it 3 weeks without the likes of a newbie.. No offence Calamatta but its just facts.” He crossed his arms. “Do this the both of you for me in a months worth of time and your pretty little primate will be out of my hands and in yours. Indefinitely. But if not i will be forced to use my own hand… and you dont want that Vegeta..” He grinned widely. His pointer finger extended toward the female Saiyan and she gulped upon seeing the beam charge at the tip of his digit.

Vegeta stepped infront of the female Saiyan and narrowed his eyes, his move was more instinctual than out of emotion. Calamatta never thought the prince would ever put himself in a position like this but here he was, his solid back to her front she peaked over his caped shoulder and looked at the tyrant who tilted his head. "Hehehe.. it seems ive struck a chord in you Vegeta.." "Not at all.. she's done nothing for you to raise that finger at her. I've made the decision and well go…" he clenches his fists, the material of his gloves made a noise. Calamatta could feel the princes frustration from how close he was to her… "to that planet… and well wipe it before the month even finishes.." 

Frieza chuckled, "Good… i know you will fulfill your promise.. Calamatta you stay, dear.. Vegeta…" Calamatta straightened her back  and tightened her tail around her waist. "You are dismissed.. i have a few things to discuss with her." Vegeta turned around and made eye contact with Calamatta, with a pitiful look in his eye.. like he knew she shouldn't be in this situation. "Bye, Vegeta." She said softly, causing the Emperor to briefly narrow his eyes, she kept her head forward. Vegeta said nothing as the door slid shut behind her. Leaving without a word and kind of making her heart sink abit. He grit his teeth and stormed down the hallway to a perplexed Raditz and Nappa.

“Calamatta, come little primate.” Frieza beckoned to her and snapped for one of his little cronies to bring something to him. Folded up in the hands of Dodoria himself. “Hello little Matta, hope you enjoy this little costume change.” She nodded to him and took the body suit and armor. “When would i expect to go to this planet?” SHe tilted her head and held the new suit, noticing theres not much too it, which made her really wary. “Ah ah, first things first alittle bit of information is more useful about the planet then when you and the simian prince will go.” Frieza quips looking at his shiny black claws. “The planets name is To-Rot, it is a giant habitable planet that im sure would be able to line your pockets quite nicely.”

Dodoria crossed his arms and quirked a brow at her, “Lord Frieza told you about the type of inhabitants to that planet right? Its not a walk in the park and I certainly wouldnt go alone... “ Calamatta gulped. “Now now, Dodoria. Do not frighten the girl. Who knows she could be the best of the 4 remaining Saiyans. We will see..” He gets out of his pod like seat and uses his tail to tip her chin up, a small smirk still playing on his lips.

“Run along and change and you may turn in for the evening… you both leave in 20 hours, when we arrive to the nearest solar system. From there you and Vegeta will go To-Rot.” Frieza chuckles to himself. “Fitting name dont you think? Ohohohohohoooo !!” He laughs and Calamatta turns and bows walking back to the saiyan chambers to change.

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[Art is mine.]

[Art is jay in reality bending mode, sexy little deer boy]

[Ill make him look normal one day i swear]

Jay had arrived at Site [■■] and was eager to start his new job. He had heard rumors of this hell site of course. Who hasnt? The amount of breaches and deaths were off the charts. He couldnt help but be excited though! There were fascinating scps to study and curious doctors! The site director was gunna show him around and assign him a guard or two. Strange.. not the usual but if jay got to question new scps then he couldnt care.

When he met up with Dr Kondraki and was greeted warmly! The director was kind and eager to show him around! A few guards took his things to his his new office while he was shown about. He met a few doctors and told the strange rules. Mostly beware one Dr Bright. Hes heard of this chaotic doctor who gained immortality in the form of a scp necklace. He would be wise to be wary around him.

It takes a few hours and a hella good map but soon he has the general gist of the place. Dr Kondraki leaves him at his office after a panicked doctor runs up to him. Someone fucked up most likely. Oh well, he has a new office to settle into!!

Jay doesnt have much at the moment for decoration but he makes it his. A few exotic plants that have strange long names, photos of his foster family, small little woodland critter plushies. He had just finished setting up his drawers and files when a snazzy guard walked in.

James leeworth he introduced himself as. A senior in containment crew. They started off iffy friends but soon grew very close over a couple years. It happens when you have constant chaos and a couple breaches. He was flirty with all the men but with jay he was sweet and comforting. When work was stressing him out james would bring tea and a coffee. When there was a breach james made sure he was somewhere safe or out of the facility completely. They were practically dating! And that meant alot seeing as many doctors couldnt stand being around him or had better things to do. He was his closest friend and crush....

Thats why the last breach hit the hardest.

Jay and james were walking to grab a bite from the cafeteria when the alarms went off, followed by james radio. Multiple keter and euclid level breachs.

James took his hand and took off like a bullet to the nearest safety shelter. It was far off but if they had some luck they could make it.

They had no luck.

As they rounded a corner they saw scp 049, the pleage doctor. The scp stood in front of the shelter door and had an already dead guard at its feet.

Time seem to slow as james all but ran into the scp. The poor guard couldnt even scream before contact was made.

The moment his body hit the floor lifeless the world around him started to glitch. Bits of a strange forest fazed in as jay dropped to his knees.

The world went quiet around him as the grieving doctor looked upon his crushes dead body. He was speaking, begging james to move but he couldnt hear himself. He looked up to scp 049 and spoke.

The scp stepped back.

Jay stood and spoke again, this time more angry.

049 stumbled back.

Things got blurry from there. Jay doesnt remember much besides the forest. The trees and the river that ran red. He remembers crying and screaming his grief but... beyond that. Blank...

Next thing he knows hes being shook by Dr Bright... hes in... hes in a corner with blood on his hands. He doesnt recognize where he is... blood is dripping from his forehead where theres a deep ache...

"You okay? Ive sent for doctor glass.. hes the best psychiatrist we have..." Dr brights words are fuzzy but jay manages to nod shakily.

A man, he assumes is doctor glass, and dr Kondraki enter the room slowly and carefully shut the door. Clearly not wanting to scare the flighty doctor.

"Hello Jay, im doctor glass. Im told you went through a traumatic moment and seem pretty shaken up. Can you tell me what happened?" Dr Glass seems nice... his sounds kind.

Jay takes a moment before nodding, wiping the blood off his head and rubbing where the pain seems to center from.

"Um.. me and james leeworth, the containment guard, were walking to.. to the cafeteria for a quick bite. I had just finished a report.. then the alarms went off about the breach. He.. he lead me to a safe spot to hide it out when.. i think it was scp 049? The um.. the doctor one... it was waiting just around the corner and james ran right into it.. things get.. a little fuzzy from there i-im sorry.."

Glass nods and rubs his leg gently. Bright and Kondraki stand back and whisper to themselves. The director looking quite stressed.

"Can you tell me what else you remember? Anything at all?" Glass urges softly as jay sniffles softly.

"Um... i.. i think i remember a forest? Like.. the one i grew up in? But the river.. river wasnt right... it was red instead of its usual clearness... i remember speaking but i couldnt hear myself at all.. then next thing i know im waking up here.. what happened?" Jay looks up with worried eyes.

Glass seems to freeze and shoots a look to kondraki and bright.

Jay's panic and grief while remembering made his third eye open and his antlers start to sprout.

"Kon... what the fuck?" Bright hurries to whisper as he glances at the closed door.

"05 thinks.. he could be clefs son. I think they're right... with the whole reality going fucking pear shaped hours ago and.. a little now." Kondraki whisper back.

Glass pulled jay into a hug and gave some comforting words and a suggest they meet every week for a while.

Kondraki had glass and bright take the young doctor to get some more medical attention. He took a moment to sigh heavily and shake his head.

This is gunna be one hell of a report...

[I lost motivation half way through sorry]

A Little Snag

Gif credit @xofeno

Requested on wattpad.

Warning: kidnapping.

Happy Reading Dollies.

Hope you all enjoy.

Jay walked into the firestation with a question on his mind but as soon as he saw Kelly that question because irrelevant.

"Where's my sister"? Kelly got up in Jay's face, Jay let out a chuckle but quickly quit as he saw the concern on Kelly's face.

"She's at work. Isn't she"?

"We were supposed to meet at Molly's for lunch. Herrmann gave me the keys to set up for the surprise but she never showed and I've called her but no answer". Kelly sighed, running his hand threw his hair.

"Surprise"?

"Really that's what you got from my sister is missing"? Kelly was fuming, not really at Jay just he wanted to hear from his sister to make sure shes okay.

"If you're really worried I can get a track on her phone or GPS on her car"?

"Yeah, do that. I'm worried something has happened. It's not like her to not answer".

Jay pulled his phone out of his pants pocket and called Adam. Adam quickly done as he was told and found your car was sitting in a towing lot. At first Kelly was relieved but something didn't add up.

"You're sure it says here"? Kelly asked Jay as they got out of the truck and run inside the towing building.

"Yes, it dinged right here. Why"?

"I haven't known Y/N to come to this part of town before". Kelly looked around the sketchy place. No one was around. The place was old and wore down. He had a eerie feeling.

"Where the hell are these people"? Jay slammed his hand down on the counter, dust rolling up. Jay coughed as his phone dinged.

"It's Adam. The place went out of business five years ago and no one has reopened it. So why is her car here then"? Jay looked out the window in the office, he saw a man coming to the front, he had a crowbar in his hand. Jay pulled his gun and walked outside before the guy could come into the office.

"Police! Put the crowbar down now". Jay yelled ordering the guy. He dropped the crowbar instantly.

"I didn't do anything".

"We didn't say you did". Kelly said coming out of the office, walking over to Jay. He eyed the man greasy man in front of him, he knew something was up and it wasnt the heat.

"I'm looking for a car you have in your lot. A red ford mustang". Jay said.

"I don't have any car like that". The man shook his head.

"Well I have proof that it is here and if you don't let me see it. I'll tear this place apart". Jay warned.

"Then I'll strick a match". Kelly threatened.

"Oookay. I picked uup a car early this morrrning". The man stuttered out, his hand trembled.

"Lead the way". Jay motioned his gun.

Jay and Kelly followed the guy down the lines of cars until they got to your car. Kelly searched frantically. Nothing. Your purse wasnt there, no phone, keys. Nothing.

"Where did you pick this up"?

"At a bar, it was parked in a no parking zone".

"Did someone call you to move it"?

The guy shook his head and swatted a fly away.

"What bar"? Jay asked lowering his gun.

"It started with a M".

"Mollys"? Kelly and Jay said together.

"Yeah. That's it".

" Y/N was at Molly's, so where is she now"?

"Was there a girl with the car"?

The man stopped and thought for a moment, tilting his head. Like he was coming up with an excuse. "No".

"Well thanks anyways. We'll have someone get it out". Jay said about to leave.

"No, you can't". The man stepped in front of Jay and Kelly.

"Why? It's not yours. It belongs to my sister".

"You can't have it". The man yelled.

"Okay. Take it easy". Jay said trying to calm him. Everything was quiet and settled. Then Kelly heard a thump.

"What was that"? He started to look around.

"Nothing. I didn't hear anything". The man started to back up from them.

The thump happened again. Now Jay heard it.

"Where is it coming from"?

That's when the guy took off running, dashing down the roll of cars and zig zagging. Jay went after him, hopping over car hoods and shooting off a warning shot.

"Stop"!!

While Jay ran after his suspicious witness, Kelly followed the sound of the thump. As he walked he got closer, closer to oil barrels.

"Y/N!!! If you can hear me keep making that noise". Kelly started opening the oil drums.

The closer he got to you the more your heart raced, you were going to live.

You kept pounding on the side of the barrel. Not wanting to stop even when you felt your energy vanish. Then the top opened and the sun light made you squint. Kelly yelled for Jay while he helped you out. Taking out a knife Kelly cut the tape on your wrist, and gently unraveling the tape from your mouth.

You fell into Kelly's arms crying, he held you tightly.

"You're okay now. I promise". He picked you up bridal style, you wrapped your arms around his neck.

He took you to the truck, turned on the air full blast and handed you a cold bottle of water from Jay's cooler. You gulped in down and started stripping your clothes. Your body temp was high and you needed to cool off. Kelly called for a ambulance and Jay's boss Voight. Kelly didn't want this guy to just go to prison he wanted him to suffer first.

The ambulance rushed in taking you and giving you fluids. Jay finally came back with a man in cuffs. Jay looked exhausted as he threw the guy to the ground.

"I had to chase this fucker ten blocks. I don't know how he survived". Jay panted, Kelly handed him a water. He walked over to you. You were finally coming back to yourself.

"You okay"? Jay asked sitting down beside you on the gurney.

"I'll be okay". You laid your head on his shoulder.

"What happened"?

"I went to Molly's early with supplies, Herrmann gave me a key because he knew Kelly would be running late. As I was finishing up with taking things inside. This guy came out of nowhere and started loading my car up to his tow truck. I asked if I just moved it since I wasn't going to be there long but he said no. So I was about to call Jay and then he said I could just go with him and pay to get it out. At first I didn't want to but I really needed my car, I still had stuff to get. So I went with him. When we got there, something was off and I didn't go into the office. He said he would get the papers. I waited about ten minutes for him but I couldn't see him in the office and that's the last thing I remember. Then I woke up in a oil drum".

"You should have called me". Jay wrapped his arm around you.

"I know, I should've. I'm sorry".

"It's okay now. You're safe".

"Sorry to interrupt but we know who he is". Voight told the three of you and it took you by surprise.

"He's wanted in Washington for a double homicide. Assault and battery in Ohio and now a kidnapping and tempted murder of a police officers wife. Plus, three murders in Chicago".

"Three? Who"? You asked.

"The owners and their son. He was thirteen. It was given to the new owners by his grandfather. They were getting ready to reopen it after the grandfather died".

"Oh god". You gasped, your stomach turned and you felt as if you were going to be sick.

"I could have been the fourth".

"But you're not. You're safe now. He's going away for a very very long time". Jay reassured you.

"I can't believe this. If it wasn't for me being so trusting of other people, he would have gotten away with it and murder some other pour soul".

"You saved alot of people. Now the family's can have closure". Voight smiled and walked off.

"The paramedics are ready to take you to the hospital". Kelly said getting you out of your horror daze.

"In one second". "You coming with me"? You asked Jay who was getting off the ambulance.

"I'll be there in a few. I have something to do. I'll get Adam to sit will you until I get there".

"Yeah me too, I'll call Casey to stay with you". Kelly and Jay nodded to each other.

"Okay. Um, Jay"?

"Yeah, baby"?

"Will you marry me? I know this is probably not how you pictured it cause its not how I did but I don't want to be away from you any longer than I have to".

"That's what the surprise was"?

"Yeah. I was going to ask you tonight". You say wiping a tear away.

"I was going to ask you the same thing tonight. Will you marry me"? He asked getting back into the ambulance, pulling out a black box with a diamond ring.

"Yes, yes I will marry you". You kissed his lips softly and sweetly.

Jay slid the ring on your finger. "Yes I will marry you too". Jay chuckled, his head rested on your forehead.

"I love you so much". You whispered to him.

"I love you. Get some rest and I'll see you in a little bit". He kissed your lips once more, getting out of the ambulance for the paramedic to get in and close the doors. The ambulance rode off. Jay and Kelly looked at each other than to the man that almost ruin their lives, then make to each other. They were going to make sure he knew who he fucked with.

5 years later

Coming back and reading the few posts I had was a bit of a shocker, for many reasons. But im in a position where I really need to express myself again because I dont really have anyone else or any other way. So let the shitshow begin! I dont really know where to begin. I feel like ive grown a lot in some aspects, stayed the same in so many others. Ive definitely stayed the same when it comes to complaining unfortunately... Im well aware i do it, but its like word votmit. I dont string together what im trying to convey in the right way most of the time. Sometimes I swear people have this expectation of me that they put the words in my mouth before i can even finish a sentence. Like please, just let me finish.   Anyway. Point blank, ive been an Alcoholic for about 5-7 years now. I dont really remember when it trulyyyy kicked in that i had such a dependency. But its only within the past year that if i dont get my fix, I go into a withdrawal state of shakes, tremors and sweats. i went to hospital about a year ago, so I didnt have a drink for around 12 hours. I was barely able to move. I was shaking so badly I could barely move my muscles or complete basic motor functions. Some mornings after only a few hours without alcohol i can barely type on my keyboard or use my mouse correctly.  But with all of this, im still proud at other ways ive progressed. Ive quit marijuana. Ive mostly quit smoking. Ive only had green once in the past 2 years. I didnt have a single cigarette for almost 8 months up until recently and i only buy a pack once in a while. Along with that, I feel like my attitude and the way i address certain things has drastically changed also. Im not nearly as aggressive, paranoid or annoying as I used to be. But its never enough... Essentially im here to cry about how alcoholism has somewhat impacted my relationship, but how it also isnt the main reason its over. Its hard to explain right now heh. All i truely want to do is blame him and my perspectives of why he has started to act like this. Nothing is good enough lately. I can shower him with love, affection, appreiciation and all the space he needs but its not enough. I really dont feel my alcoholism can be the complete blame of our relationship - but definitely some things are to do with it.  1. He knew what he was getting into.  And on that note, over 5 years ive done nothing but get better. Especially the past 2 years ive made huge changes whilst he has not. Alcoholism cant be compared to the mistakes he makes, but as a 29 year old he has never left his home, he doesnt pay rent or bills, he has a cushy life where his mother stole 1.2 million and is now in prison for it. But he thinks I would steal money from his account given the chance... 2. I paid for everything for the first 3 years He stayed in my homes non stop, i paid electricity for his pc or to run the aircon, i paid for and cooked 3 meals a day everyday for atleast a few days of every week. I cleaned up after him everytime. in 5 years he has cooked for me once, and by force. He has done dishes for me and bought me takeaway, dont get me wrong. but nothing compared to what ive spent. let alone the green and alcohol he would also consume. But granted he paid alot of fuel whilst i rarely topped him up.  3. Extreme patience with his privacy Theres a certain factor im not going to speak about in this. But ive always been quite upfront with him, never protected my phone or computer around him either. I understood a person needs their space and if he is not willing then thats ok - but only to a point. at 5 years we should be able to share phones. Once i wasnt allowed to hold it to use his flashlight during a power out. thats insane. I went to reddit over this and there were suggestions such as ‘are you clumsy?’ and well... no. he has swerved his car once when i went for his phone to search a location.  4. Games come first Its been a rocky 2 years. Ive asked him to spend more time with me regularly, threatened if he did not take 1 less night a week from raiding im done - and i left. But then his mothers case of theft came in and he was distraight, said he needed me. I couldnt help but give in, so gave him another chance for the sake of moral support. I also very recently came across a chat with some chick online. ‘I guess i havent found my gamer girl yet’ he said.  - i am younger, but have been gaming much longer than him and on different platforms - I am the one he had to compete with in WoW - I am the one who taught him many things and showed him all these things about the game - I take a couple years off of certain games because of my anger and suddenly i am no longer a gamer, let alone his girl. Made me sick to the stomach.  All ive done is change myself to look towards our future and this is all the shit I get. So heres to the men in my history that may read this - karma came the FUCK back around and truly i hope youre doing well.  I think im going to keep on posting again, I need some form of comfort. id like to ultimately turn this into a blog about alcoholism, sobriety and all the things that come with this. I need something to focus on for a bit haha. Best wishes all <3 

The Time For Secrets is Over

A/N: this is my new fave story header!!! i mean he looks so hot!!!! anyway this is for another write challenge!!! happy birthday @thinkwritexpress-official!!! this is #2 of 3 for ya...

pairing: jensen x reader

prompt: possessive

masterlist

my city is Shadowhaven, my name is Y/N. my home was originally New York, but i moved for my work... what happened after i moved was the way things happen, the way i ended up standing beside my very double-sided possessive Fiance. although before i should probably tell you how we got into this situation before continuing. 

~let me take you back to before we got into the danger~

as a artist, song writer and author i move around alot and always end up staying in a different place every few months or so.. depending on work, concerts, conventions, etc.

this project was taking me to the far regions of Europe. yay we are close to my ancestral grounds but i had never ever heard of a place called Shadowhaven till i was told to go record and spend time there... my manager told me it would be good for my rep... 

so i booked my flight and left the USA behind, flying my way to Shadowhaven a decent sized town in the deep end of Scotland (my home ancestral grounds). it was a nice relaxing flight, course i knew my history, but Shadowhaven had never been mentioned anywhere at all.

i could tell that this was the start of a new adventure, immediately making my way through the airport, through customs, towards the inner of the airport, i decided to shop for a new wardrobe that might help me to blend in, i knew my family crest colors so i used my skills in shopping to inconspicuously find a blend in outfit.

you approached this one boutique upon arriving inside this shopkeeper approaches you, and notices that you look like your seeking something specific. 

Shopkeeper: “good day lass, can i help ye with somethin’?”

you smile and turn to face this shopkeeper.

Y/N: “yes, what would you recommend for someone whose first time being in her ancestral grounds and wanting to experience some of her heritage?”

the shopkeeper was very impressed, but immediately had a thought. so she went around the desk again circling through some of the stuff she had back there, and as you watched you realized that it wouldnt be long before someone over here recognized you.

Shopkeeper: “what are your families colors?”

Y/N: “would this help i don really know how to describe it...”

you pulled out your smartphone and showed her a picture of your families colors. she comes up to you again a few moments later with a dress that looks like it was made for royalty, but yet it also looked surprisingly comfortable.

Shopkeeper: “come with me darling, let me help you put it on...”

you follow her to the back of the store storing your suitcase & backpack behind the counter, you knew that there was someone who was kind enough to help you. 

as she helped you get into that dress you started to feel like a normal person. almost like this was your destiny. but thats when you got to look at yourself in the mirror. upon seeing yourself in that dress you felt something inside you change. 

you looked at the lady and were instantly grateful.

Y/N: “thank you so much i appreciate this...”

Shopkeeper: “your welcome deary, its on the house... welcome home!”

you walked back to your bags and smiled as you left the store now blending in. you went to hail a cab and find somewhere to stay at a reasonable price.it wasnt until you got out of the cab in mid town, that there was a voice hailing you down...

a gentleman wearing a suit was now approaching you... it wasnt till he got alot closer that you realized how hot he was... 

Jensen: “excuse me ma’am, may i help you? you look a little lost.”

Y/N: “well yes i am a little lost, i dont really know the city too well... and i very well dont know how to find myself a place to stay so i can start working on my vacation! well actually it was my boss who said i work too hard and told me to just go back to my roots... so here i am on my ancestral grounds.”

Jensen: “well how does staying with me in my castle sound...”

Y/N: “you know supposedly my family also has a castle somewhere but i hath no idea where... its really quite frustrating...”

Jensen could only smile as he moved closer to you... he extended his hand and bowed...

Jensen: “my name is Jensen Ackles! and what is your name mi-lady?”

you were so flattered that you slid your hand into his and curtsied.. not being completely away that he had just marked you... a mark of possession it is something that has been passed down between your 2 households for ages...

Y/N: “my name is Y/N Y/L/N it is good to meet such a fine handsome fellow...”

Jensen: “its my highest honor to have you stay with me for the duration of your stay... no exceptions no constitutions... but some nights i do have things to do, extra work loads and stuff... so on those nights ill be gone shortly after dusk... so will thee join me as my guest, fair lady!”

you smiled at him nodding, but then before you had a chance to say another word your bags were being loaded into his car...

Y/N: "sir, are you sure its fine for me to come stay with you, i really dont want to be a bother..."

at the sound of your lips calling him sir something inside him stirred... as if some sort of dark force on the inside was trying to push out his darkness and take control...

Jensen: "sir seems too formal just call me Jay... everyone does..."

Jensen smiled darkly as you threaded your arm through his and both of you walked to his car... getting in you happened to see the heading of a newpaper.

《《Ethereal Phoenix claims another woman as his own》》

but Jensen rook notice of how your eyes flitted immediately across the headline on the newspaper. Jensen also knew he would have to be careful with where you would wander off too...

Jensen: "those colors are a representation of one of the original founding families of Shadowhaven... it is actually a funny thing our 2 households have always had good relations!"

the dark twisted sound to his voice made you shiver but it was almost like that good kind of shiver...

Y/n: "well i hope that i can learn some history while im here... i honestoy can say i knew i was from scotland but i didnt know where.. it really is beautiful here..."

Jensen: "when we arrive at my castle we shall take a walk through the country side and ill show you where your families castle stands!"

Y/N: "that sounds wonderful in fact i had hoped to get to know the man whose house im staying in tonight. for its my undying gratitude that i give to thee."

Jensen could only smile for in his mind, his other side was getting ready for its time to reveal itself.

the rest of the ride was calm and peaceful! Jensen suddenly felt something come over him... he had the driver stop the car and he stumbled getting out he started into the trees, you followed you had to make sure he was ok...

<< The danger is revealed>>

After a bit of running you found yourself in a clearing, you stopped to admire your scenery, but someone else was there too. for the sound of bushes rustling, branches breaking and heavy footsteps scared you frozen in your tracks..

Y/N: "Jensen... Jensen where are you?"

it wasnt till you screamed that, a dark deep laugh came out of the trees. it showed through the trees a golden blur... it kinda startled you but at the same time made you wonder, what kind of creature might be able to move like that...

you kept a steady pace and slowly continued to now wonder the dark wood in search of Jensen. but you were startled once more qhen a voice spoke out of the darkness.

Ethereal Phoenix: "have you lost something mi lady?"

you tried to track where that voice was coming from but debated on answering it but felt like you could trust it. but as if natural you pulled out your best scottish accent.

Y/N: "a friend of mine ran into these woods a few moments ago and i have not been able to locate him. who are you? where are you?"

ethereal phoenix didnt answer right away instead he raised up in a gold blur and placed himself in a tree.

Ethereal phoenix: "i am the one that those papers in town speak of, the one who takes those women away from their men, i am he who makes women feel like they are worth something. i am Ethereal Phoenix. Miss, may i say you look new, how long have you been in Shadowhaven?"

Ethereal Phoenix said with a dark twisted tone to his voice. you shook off the bad feeling that suddenly plagued you.

Y/N: "only a few short hours... look i really dont mean to be rude but im really scared and i need to find my friend, so please excuse me.."

you started to retrace your steps back to the car, but once more the ethereal Phoenix spoke as thought he had been following you.

ethereal Phoenix: "why are you in such a rush to find your friend dont you want to be with a real man..."

you stopped dead in your tracks, almost feeling more scared of the voice that was talking than that of the dark wood. thats when you saw it standing there a shadowy figure in the little sunlight shining in between the trees. 

Y/N: “excuse me, you have no idea how much of a decent hot man Jensen is... trust me he is better than you... mr im gonna be that creepy ass voice hiding in the shadows... that preys on innocent women, raping them, at least Jensen is man enough to show his face...”

at that moment Ethereal Phoenix rushed in a golden blur and pinned you to a tree... the sunlight reflecting off his face made it clear that he was nothing good... 

Ethereal Phoenix: “you need to learn some manners little girl... how bout i teach you some manners. you know i feel a little possessive of you, now lets go somewhere where i can stand over you, while you scream... while you scream for a rescue that will never come. now hold still and let me see what kind of goodies you have under these clothes...”

at that moment it was like something out of an erotic rape novel... for this creature teleported the both of you to a fancy castle bedroom. where he got off of you after laying you on the bed... he then shackled you to the bed... 

with one evil laugh he snapped his fingers and your dress tore in 2... this exposed your breasts and your lace panties and well everything. there was nothing good happening, there was a creature of some kind that looked human but yet wasnt... 

for it was the thoughts of Jensen, the mystery man that had disappeared that kept you squirming, that kept you screaming... for it was then that you screamed louder... that you tried to break the chains that now held you down.

Y/N: “if i survive this you son of a bitch i’ll kill you...”

Ethereal Phoenix: “oh you will survive this, you will just be my slave... my pregnant slave...”

your mind was now clouded, your mind was scared... hell your physical form was scared... your emotions were running higher and higher, but your form was screaming but all it did was echo over the walls, bouncing off of them like soundwaves off a pond of water.

Ethereal Phoenix: “keep screaming no one will ever hear you...”

this thing seemed to be very sly & very very demanding... that of course is till you started to think back to when you fist met Jensen. it was pretty well a similar nature but this was probably your minds way of making you think about something else.

this of course also seemed to be the bane of your existance... just as you watched your captor walk around it seemed like he was now addressing someone else...

Ethereal Phoenix: “stay down little boy, the girl is not yours... I’m about to claim her... stay away...”

you at that moment wondered who the hell he was talking to...

Y/N: “hey ugly ass if your gonna claim me you should just do it ‘nstead of making small talk with yourself.”

thats when you heard it, a voice it came out of the shadows... a voice that was a delight to hear, for you had no heard it for hours.

Jensen (voice): “phoenix you will not lay another hand on her cause i already marked her... not in the way you were about to but a mark of claiming that i placed on her when i first held her hand... now i say again, let her go...”

the voice, there was only one man you knew to speak with such a dark fire... but ethereal phoenix started to stalk towards you again, this time he was removing his shirt... it seemed like everything you held dear was about to be taken from you but the panic started to set in...

Y/N: “Jensen help!!!!”

Jensen (voice): “hold on Y/N I’ll explain in a few... but first embrace your inner Scotish heritage, you have to try and seperate yourself from those chains...”

Ethereal Phoenix: “insulent fool if you think that you can help this young girl escape... ha, you are really demented... soon she will have the sperm of a god thrust inside her, while you Jay will never ever see the light of day again...”

Jensen at this point had enough and started trying harder to take control back of his own body...

Jensen (voice): “Ethereal Phoenix you have made an enemy of me... as soon as my girl is free you will die asshole.”

you kept doing what Jensen said trying to embrace your scotish heritage... after a few moments it turned out that Jensen had been right the entire time... for you felt this surge of energy loosening the chains... 

Y/N: “Jay take control, bring him towards the mirror...”

the closer to you that phoenix came the louder that he screamed it was almost a war cry...

Jensen (voice): “Y/N keep doing what doing... he doesn’t seem to like it...”

Y/N: “thats fine but i dont know what im doing... or how im doing it...”

thats when it occured to jensen... he had to say something...

Jensen (deep dark voice): “Y/N, listen the mark i told him about its a mark of possession, it is always passed between our two houses when 2 people of the same age range find eachother... its passed through to show the other posers that the 2 people are... well its like a promise ring... or a betrothal of sorts... anyway its got powers, it is how your breaking the chains.”

Y/n: “ok so how does it work...”

Jensen (deep dark voice): “you have to think about what you want and you will have it so...”

with a few more thoughts your feet were free this made Phoenix look over at you... with a few more seconds and a loud crash your hands were now free... it was then that you were once more able to move... 

you didnt bother trying to cover up cause this fight was more important than what ever was left of your decency... 

Y/N: “hold on Jay... i’m gonna try to seperate you guys...”

you grabbed both arms, the screams got louder and louder the mirror started to crack... but you looked at the mirror coming face to face with Jensen, it was Jensen you could see him but you were hold Phoenix back... 

Jensen (deep dark voice): “okay you need to think about spliting me and Phoenix apart... think about 2 seperate physical bodies... i promise once i am in my own body seperate from this evil son of a bitch i intend to be possessive of you in the right way...”

the way that Jensen said that sent a fire deep into your core it was unlike anything you had felt before... you suddenly like it was beyond your control found yourself holding 2 different arms pulling apart 2 different bodies... but it was only the beginning... 

finally after one more good pull you had them split apart but when you did ethereal phoenix went flying out the window... it was not a pretty sight... Jensen however landed on the bed... 

you knelt down to catch your breath for it felt as though you had been running and running continuously.. but in truth it was just your physical body being exhausted from all the magical exertion...

Jensen who was laying still on the bed only breathing from what you could tell he only started speaking in a dark deep tone...

Jensen (deep dark voice): “it is said that when 2 has become 1 that they will fight the evil that plagues the world... they from the moment of marking shall be known to the world as Dark Archer & Dark Mistress... may they serve their powers with the same courage and shattering loyalty as their ancestors...”

MC still being kinda weird, plus an awkward talk on centrism-6/4/22

Hello again! Today was kind of a strange day. I came in on time, and nothing much happened in school (we watched Lady Bird in English class, which is probably the most "coming of age" film I've ever seen, it's entertaining but I can't really feel sympathy for the main character because they go really far with the " no one understands her" trope without giving us any reason to understand her because she's irrational and mean lol, in politics class I didn't have to do anything because it was politics class and I finished the project I was supposed to do agessss ago). Everyone was in today, MC, FW, OF and CW, and with all these people it still felt very awkward. CW was leading most of the conversation talking about how bad the movie Morbius was because he went to see it yesterday, but MC was still very quiet and reserved and I wasn't sure what to say to FW, because I think we're both kinda bad at starting conversations.

After the school day ended, MC and OF and I went to the supermarket to get food and then we sat outside around the side where barely anyone comes and talked. OF, as he usually does, began to talk about politics and stuff (he is an anarchist and pretty far left). Now, I have a running joke, that whenever OF goes on one of his political rants, I would counter it by taking on a persona of one of these politically incorrect radio loudmouths which annoys him. I don't actually believe these things I say and I'm actually quite left wing like him, but a year ago alot of the group were kinda snooty about their political beliefs and if you disagreed they'd look at you like you had two heads and scoff at you (another reason why Anna doesn't get on with the group anymore) you couldn't even joke about not agreeing with them, so I began to slowly poke fun at OF and over time I made bigger and bigger jokes which would eventually make the group less snooty, and for the most part it worked. But today was kinda different.

Same as yesterday, MC was laughing and joking around with my persona, and they began asking what a "centrist" even is (I called myself a centrist because when i was alot younger I fell down the rabbit hole that many newly-pubescent teenagers do of Ben Shapiro videos and feminist-rekt compilations, but I didn't want to be right wing because i wasnt homophobic or anything and I thought centrist sounded smarter at the time because you considered both sides of the argument). OF showed them an article on it and they were like "this shit is genuinely wrong, they have to pick a side", which whether you agree with what they were saying or not, it was mainly just that they had an aura about them like they were waiting for me to say something and their voice had already become raised. I eventually had to clarify that I don't really believe this stuff, which I thought would've been obvious because the points I bring up are really dumb. And OF responded with "of course you're left wing, you're gay", which is its own little can of worms. I'm not gonna sit here and be like "aww right wing gays are so underrepresented" but I just think it sets a bit of a weird standard to be like all gay people have the same views.

Anyways things mellowed out and I went home, after that not much happened. Anna replied to me and she was kinda pissed about MC acting like I was being rude to Anna. She is biased against MC cuz she doesn't like them but to be fair when MC was mad at me for supposedly being rude to Anna, it felt more like a grasp at the moral high ground from the way that they phrased it, and im sure they wouldn't want Anna to be genuinely made fun of for their hyperfixating but it felt like there were also ulterior motives, because they know that I'm also neurodivergent and I talk to Anna everyday, so its not like I dislike her.

Overall, I'm not disagreeing with alot of the stuff that I'm complaining about. I'm complaining because in the past few days, MC has been very quiet and won't talk for the most of the day and then suddenly gets very confronting on different things, usually things that they know I already know about. Idk, I hope this all mellows out soon.

After that, I studied for an Irish exam I suddenly found out was tomorrow and I watched another episode of twin peaks, and now I am in bed finishing this up. Night Night to everyone!

Love is in a Pineapple

‘pitter patter pitter patter...’ heavy rain drops fell from the sky and into the ground. It wasn't a busy street but there were still a few people here and there with their umbrellas. Deep in an alleyway stood a man. He wasnt tall but neither was he short, some what average you could say. Cloaked in blue and with a long sword in his hand, he looked at the trash that stood beneath him. He then took the sword in his hand, and stabbed it into the ground. ‘Fushimi-san! It’s almost time to report back to HQ!’ His colleague, Hidaka Akira called out to him. The two of them were sent on a mission to inspect illegal drug deals by strain in the Shizume-Cho area. A place that was once runned by a gang known as ‘HOMRA’.A few months ago many things happened and HOMRA is nothing more than a quiet gathering of homies. Sure they're still rowdy but not the same as before. Fishing clicked his tongue and walked out of the alley, dragging his sword behind him. They hopped into the company car and drove off into the rain. By the time the clock ticked 7pm, most of the troops were finishing up dinner and rushing off to bathe. Fushimi however, was still finishing up his paperwork. ‘tsk, that domyouji...’ irritated he kept typing and typing on his laptop. The rain hadn't let up. All that could be heard was the typing, soft patter of the rain and the air-conditioning outside. as he kept typing, he leaned back and reviewed the content hed just wrote. The gentle glow of the computer was perhaps the only source of light in the room. When he saw the reflection of his glasses in the screen, he used his hand and gently went over the small crack at the bottom. It was when Munakata brought in a baby strain and it wrecked havoc in the entire office. Thinking back, it had been quite awhile since he’d joined & so many things had happened. There was the Kusuhara Takeru incident, followed by the first special squad party he didn't show up to, then the baby and poisonous animals callback and then Akiyama’s & Benzai’s kotatsu hell and so much more. He’d often wonder if it was a mistake to join scepter 4 & leave his best friend in HOMRA but once the slates were destroyed, his conscious became clear to him. Scepter 4 was his path, and no one could tell him otherwise. On the otherside of town, back in Shizume-Cho, Yata Misaki had just finished his dinner in Bar HOMRA. ‘Yata, did something happen today? You seem a little agitated’ Kusanagi Izumo, the bar tender asked the little redhead. ‘Nah nothing much. The Blues were around though. Apparently strains too.’ he replied, scraping the rest of his curry from his plate and eating it. ‘Thanks for the food,’ he then threw himself on the sofa and laid there, closing his eyes & recalling all the incidents of today. It started off with the boys firing pancakes for Kushina Anna and then going about their usual rounds. Speak— or rather, think of the devil, Anna had just came down for a glass of milk. As Izumo & her made small talk, Yata found himself dozing off on the couch. Only to be awaken to his watch ring chime. ‘What isit you fatso?’ ‘Yata-San! I'm sorry for disturbing you but there are some strains here and—’ ‘HUH?! WHY DIDNT YOU SAY SO EARLIER?! IM ON MY WAY!!’ ‘Wait i’m no—’ Yata had hungup before Rikio Kamamoto; the one at the other end of the line; could finish his sentence. Anna and Izumo looked at Yata with concern. ‘Yata, maybe you should hear what Kamamoto has to say before hanging up y’know?’ ‘Yea whatever. See ya later!’ That child sure is troublesome. After Yata had finally reached the location sent to him by Kamamoto, he noticed there were flashing blue lights all around the area. Upon seeing Kamamoto, he shouted ‘Hey Fatso! what's going on?!’ It wasn't too long before he learnt that a drug deal gone wrong had caused all this commotion. Seemed like due to HOMRA’s intrusion, most of the perpetrators got away and some of Scepter 4’s members were badly injured. One of which was Fushimi Saruhiko. Yata’s eyes widened at this, the grip on his bat tightened and he gritted his teeth. ‘You stupid fatso! Why didn't you call me earlier?!’ ‘i— I was....’ Yata had stopped listening to all these excuses. He was more worried about his friend than anything. Not just a friend, probably a brother or even something else. Something more than just a brotherly bond. He thought back to all they'd gone through together. He ran to a back alley way, where no one would see him. Unfortunately, he had stepped in some strange, sticky liquid of sorts. There was a fine line right in the middle of the semi-black pineapple, he touched it and the sticky substance got onto his hand. Instead of cleaning it away, he decided to play with it. Between his 3 fingers, he kept opening and closing. Watching the substance stretch before clamping it shut. It had a sickly sweet scent, with a hint of rotten eggs. He pressed his thumb hard against his index and middle finger, before releasing the pressure bit by bit then stretching his whole hand again. It seemed as though, then and there, something clicked. He got on his skateboard and went back to his one room apartment. Bursting in like a whirlwind, the wet Yata had accidentally knocked over an umbrella stand but he didn't care. The apartment was nicely decorated, granted it was messy. Clothes and pillows lying around the floor. There was a vintage photoframe with a picture of HOMRA before the tragedy occurred. There were also a few other pictures, of his family One picture in particular, was slightly torn up but had been fixed with tape. It was a picture of him and Fushimi, both smiling. Yata was someone that would hold on to people & articles dearly, so when Fushimi betrayed HOMRA, it’d hurt him more than what others knew. Fushimi meant so much to him, and he wasn't going to lose him now. So he decided to help Fushimi the only way he knew how. At the hospital, Fushimi was alone. They took out the cardiogram, so he wouldnt be dead or anything but he had alot of recovering to go through. He had used his spoon to play with the grungy, brown looking food infront of him but there was no way in hell he’d eat it. It was disgusting, to say the least. Right then and there, there was a knock on the door. ‘tsk. go away munakata’ ‘im not Munakata though’ Fushimis eyes had widened. His throat, now dry, gulped and his hands were shaking. ‘whats he doing here?’, thoughts like this ran through his mind. He was so confused yet excited. Yata was the world to Fushimi, even though he’d never say it aloud. But then, Fushimi still didn't want Yata to enter. Yata shouldn't see him in this sorry state. ‘go away misaki...’ Then, the door vigorously opened ‘Are you sure? You monkey!’ All of a sudden, fushimi felt embarrassed. He wrapped his arms around himself and his cheeks blemished red. Yata sat next to him on the bed and placed his plastic bag on the table with the grungy food. There was a warm aroma coming from the bag, that was rather nostalgic for Fushimi. He could identify it as pineapple fried rice, the Kind that Yata made for him once, when they were in school. ‘whats wrong?’ Yata asked, he the placed his hand against Fushimi’s cheek and tilted his head. ‘you shouldn't be here, misaki....’ acting like a tsundere, he turned his head in the opposite direction and closed his eyes. His arms wrapping around his frail, skinny body tighter. ‘im always here for you, my monkey...’ with that, Yata smiled, just a little, but he moved in, closer to fushimis face. Fushimi’s arms loosened, and soon dropped onto the bed. His mouth opened a little and his eyes were nearly closed. Misaki, with a smile, placed his nose against fushimis’, and then, moved in for a kiss. I'm back from the dead :> ill try to write more & more hoho but it took me 3 days to churn this out :'')

My Flower (Part 1)

Neighbour!Kim Donghan AU

Note: wow i finally decided to write this neighbour au after so long! this is still wip so do let me know what you think is gna happen! and im vvv soft for kim donghan

Read Part 2 here!

you finally settled in your new apartment in the city

the moment you saved up enough from your endless part-time jobs, you immediately bought the apartment you had an eye on

one partly coz of your sibling whom you’re not a fan of rooming with (i mean theyre cool and all but why cant they clean up well...)

and also coz it is alot nearer for you to go to the school you just transferred to

it has been on your bucket list for awhile and you were glad to finally be able to strike that off

since you just moved in, you decided to bake banana bread to give your new neighbours - something you’ve done plenty of times before when your family moved around

it was pretty late when you got the convenience store to get some ingredients

there wasnt anyone else in there so it was nice to shop in peace and quiet

you were browsing through the aisle, searching for vanilla essence when you saw someone familiar entered

well shit, it’s your crazy ex-boyfriend, Daniel asdahkfh sorry i cant think of anyone

he has been on your case lately, despite the fact that you guys broke up quite some time ago

he kept trying to get you back and you kept trying to avoid him

unfortunately, he spotted you and theres nowhere for you to run to

till you spotted a tol guy in the corner of your eye at the end of the aisle

you quickly ran up to him without a second thought, which shocked him abit

“please help me, my crazy ex is here and i really want to avoid him, please just do anything,” you gripped onto his hand desperately

at this point, you dont really expect the guy to do anything coz hes a stranger

so you thought of how to fake a scenario

but suddenly, he had his arm around you then leaned in close to you faints and told you to follow his lead

“________ youre here! who is this?” Daniel looked at the both of you

“her boyfriend, so stop following her around! c’mon babe,” the guy pulled you to another aisle

he still stood by you very closely even after you went to the other side

“okay he’s gone. are you okay?” he looked at you

when you made eye contact, you felt your heart bursting

this guy is hella good looking and you didnt realise it till now??

he had fluffy grey-ish hair with a random blue streak which you thought was really charming

wow his eyes, you could look into them forever

but you snapped back to reality when you realised you have been looking at him for awhile

“i-i’m fine. thanks, err,”

“Donghan,” wow this guy has a really nice name too

both of you continued walking around the store for a bit then making your way to the cashier

before both of you went on separate ways, you thanked him again (and silently wished that you’ll get to see him again soon)

the next day, you finally got round to delivering the banana bread to your neighbours after unpacking a few more of your belongings

“that’s very sweet of you! you really dont have to,” your neighbour, Mrs Kim, cooed

“oh no it’s nothing. just thought it’d be a nice way to say hello to everyone,”

“i am sorry but could you do me a favour? i need to deliver these side dishes to the boy who lives beside you but i need to get going soon. do you mind dropping them off for me?” she asked

“sure of course!”

“thank you so much! poor boy is always eating instant food so i’ll always make extra food for him,” she handed you the containers of food

you placed the containers down and pressed the door bell and waited for your next door neighbour to open up yeoreojwo yeoreojwo yeoreojwo

the door suddenly opened to reveal a tol guy ok you’re just a smol bean thats why everyone is tol to you with grey-ish messy bed hair, clearly just woke up from his deep sleep

before you could say anything, he beat you to it

“oh _______? are you the new neighbour?”

omg it’s Donghan!! ok be cool pretend you hadnt been wondering about him

“Donghan, right? wow what a small world!”

ok you didnt expect to see him again that soon but wow fate is on your side!!

“im so sorry you have to see me like this. i look a lot better than this, trust me,” he ran his fingers through his hair, laughing with his eyes curved like crescents

somehow you had a feeling that both of you would get along really well

💘 ;) u know who i mean

// 𝒞𝒶𝓁𝑒𝓂’𝓈 𝒻𝒾𝓇𝓈𝓉 𝓉𝒾𝓂𝑒 𝓂𝑒𝑒𝓉𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝒯𝒾𝓃𝑔𝑒𝓃, 𝒶 𝓂𝑒𝓂𝑜𝓇𝓎 𝒻𝓇𝑜𝓂 7𝓉𝒽 𝑔𝓇𝒶𝒹𝑒, 𝓂𝒾𝒹𝒹𝓁𝑒 𝓈𝒸𝒽𝑜𝑜𝓁. 

~  ꒰∩✩•⌄•✩꒱⊃━✿✿✿☆*✧💘

Calem leaned back on his palms, glancing up at the sky as he tried to recollect his 7th grade year. Alot had happened that year, that was for sure. Quite frankly he couldnt remember most of it. Just bits and peices of it. Once he finally collected the memory, he turned his gaze to Kota “A memory that makes my heart pound huh..?” He hummed and looked away again. There was one. He’d never understood why he reacted the way he did. Tingen was just a normal middle school boy, there was no reason why his heart pounded in his chest and- actually, he’d spare the details.

“Well, theres one. Way back in 7th grade, feels like forever ago.” He chuckled lightly. “Only been a year, since im starting my 8th grade year at the end of summer.” He plopped down onto the grass with his arms behind his head like a pillow “Guess i’ll quit stallin’. It was around the middle of my 7th grade year and..” his voice drifted off, talking to Shin about the memory.

//Italics = flashback

“Late again Mr.Brooks?” His teacher spoke as he sat down at his desk, dropping his books on the desk with a thud, his leg bouncing “Y-Yes- H-had to walk. Dad took the car to w-work.” He explained, it wasnt often he was late and when he was, it was humiliating. Kids were nosy, kids always stared at him when he came through the door late. He hated it. It wasn’t their buisness he was late. Future Tip: If Dads taking the car, get up at at least 5:00 am. 

Suddenly, another boy came in. He seemed to be taking his sweet time walking through the door and to his desk. This was a familliar occurance. This boy was called ‘Tingen.’ An odd name to Calem, but as far as he knew his wasnt common etheir. Anyways, Tingen had a habit of being late. His usual excuse being that he just overslept. Calem didn’t really find himself too interested so he never paid attention. At least, thats what he liked to tell himself. Truth was, he probably knew what Tingen looked like by heart. Speaking of heart, it was racing like a train every time Tingen came in. He never got why. Just figured it was still the anxiety of being late wearing down. 

Tingen plopped down in his desk, setting down a heavy bag he lugged around all day. Briefly, Calem had wondered what was inside. He’d tried to ask once, but it seemed like the boy wasn’t listening, so he hadn’t bothered again after that. 

“Hey, psst.”

Calem didnt look up from his book, figuring it was some other kid whispering to someone else 

“Psssttt!!! Purple hair!”

Calem lifted his head a bit and glanced over, Tingen was staring right at him. Had he always been at the desk next to him? His heart started pounding again. “I have a name y’know..C-Calem..” 

“Oh, I’ll keep that in mind, Do you have a paperclip?” Tingen reached down and shuffled through his bag before pulling out a random machine, Calem was a bit stunned. Did he build that by himself??? “oh- um- hold on.” He reached a hand inside his chest pocket and pulled out a paper clip “I have random stuff on me sometimes. Here you go.” He reached out and handed it to the other. “Hope you dont mind me asking, but..Did you build that machine by yourself?”

“Oh, yeaahh..Its not something special or anything, but i built it. I just tinker sometimes its not very cool.” “N-No thats amazing!” What the- Where had that come from? “Ah- Its very a-admirable! You s-should be..um..proud of yourself!” He stammered. That caused a small laugh from Tingen which made Calems face heat up. “Yeah...Thanks for the paper clip!”...

Calem went quiet, finishing his little tangent. His face was warm, his cheeks a soft red. Reminicing on that memory.. yeah, that defineintly made his heart pound. He sat up, pulling his hood up and over his head “A-Anyway..”

@radio-heart

2017 has been the craziest most emotionally damaging and most exhausting and weirdest year of my life. But through all have that I've met some amazing people and learned so much and grown up so much as a person I'm really started to learn about who really am and I've opened up and really matured alot this year. Started college and really starting to save up money and buying my own car and turning 18 and being given so much more freedom becoming so much more open and with my mother and forming such a close unbreakable bond with the women who adopted me and saved my life really was I was a baby. SHe and my father (who recently divorced) gave up alot to adopt me and my brother and raise us the best they could. We're not perfect and we definitely are difficult and mean and make stupid decisions sometimes but our parents despite going through alot them selves and our family struggling with alot of deaths and being broke and not having jobs for awhile have still done what they could to give us a good life. My mom is still there for me and is trying her hardest to take care of me and this year has been shitty but it has transformed me into an entirely new and happier and better person honestly. I've become much more spiritual and I'm so much I more in touch with myself .I'v been through alot but I wouldn't have it any other way it has been for the best. I have met so many of the most amazing people this year some of which were only in my life for a short time unfortunately. But I hope to keep in touch with these people and grow and thrive with them and I'm so happy I'm entering 2018 with some of the most amazing talented creative beautiful people I have ever have the pleasure of knowing in this life. This year is going to be about becoming an adult and making my way out of my mom's house and being on my own and figuring my future and my life out. I plan on moving across the country to the Washington /Oregon Seattle or forks or Portland or something because that's where i really feel like I belong and will thrive the most. I currently live in Alabama and there is nothing for me here except all the friends I've made. But I really feel like I want a fresh start somewhere completely new and amazing and meet many more new Amazing beautiful and live my life to the fullest. After Tonight I'm quitting all of my partying and drugs atleast until I get financially stable enough and atleast am moved out of my mom's house or am living on my own somewhere and I can afford to party and live my life a little so that will probably be when move to Seattle and weed and stuff is legal and it's more acceptable to be who I am up there. I'm quitting smoking weed for atleast like 2-3 months after today. Only reason I am not longer is because I smoke marijuana to medicate myself for my depression and anxiety and shit as opposed to prescription stuff because the stuff doctors give me just make me feel numb and not myself and I'm still low-key depressed. I'm only taking a break from weed to start saving up money and really try to focus and finding a place to move out to when I graduate around may and saving up to do so. Don't judge me but while I'm taking my few months off from smoking and I'm going to be selling a bit of bud to my close friends to make some extra money on the side because weed isn't quite legal here yet and it's a little difficult for my friends to get sometimes and it's going to help me out as a student who finds it hard to find a part time job that doesn't pay minimum wage (7.25 fuK THAT) and gives me decent hours it's always not enough hours for decent pay or they work me to FUCKING dEATH for shit pay and it stresses me out. I quit my recent job about a week and ago I'm started 2018 fresh with a new job starting pay a little above minimum wage at 8.50 an hour and after a few weeks I'll get a raise. They say I'll hopefully get decent hours like 25-35 a week and it's a small Japanese/ Asian/ pop culture shop owned by a Chinese lady that coincidentally has the same name as me and there's only like 3 other people that work there and they are all really cool good friends of mine that's I've met through cosplaying the past few years. So starting with a new hopefully better job. Starting off sober with my mind focussed on graduating cosmetology school and saving up money and working hard and getting my life together. The last thing I'll probably really spend money on and do for myself this year is Kami con at the end of this month. My family has helped get me different parts of my lapis lazuli (gem from Steven universe) cosplay for me as Christmas gifts and it is tradition that if at all possible I will do everything I can to attend each year and I have for the past 5 years and this year I will have my first legitimate good cosplay and I'm excited. But after that every bit of my money is to school tuition, helping my mom with the phone bill and our car insurance and groceries when she needs it and saving the rest for moving out and starting my future. When I move to Seattle and hopefully become successful enough? at cosmetology that I open my own salon that I'm hoping my unique edgy choice in hairstyles with be accepted and eventually apprentice as a tattoo artist and open a piercing/tattoo/body shop open up like with my salon that like a super weird dream of mine I had for awhile and honestly I'm probably not going to be good enough but I'm going work my ass off and be sober and focus on my future so I can reach my fullest potential I have been put through too much and made it way too far to not try and live my life to the best of my ability and do everything I can to really be happy and stable and eventually fall in love and maybe have a kid and honestly I truly believe I'm going to marry this boy that I've been on and off with since freshman year of highschool. We both lost out Virginity to each other after dating for the first like 6 months and that was the first time we dated which was almost 11 months after we broke up and went a little crazy and just kinda started dating random people not really for love just because I was so scared of being alone and I hated idea of it. So I just fucked around alot and never really had anything as serious as my dude (I don't wanna say his name but if u know me and ur reading this u probably already know who I'm talking anyways. We were distant and not even on speaking terms for maybe two years. After i grew up a bit and started actually making goals and becoming a young adult I contacted him and asked if he wanted to meet up and catch up on our lives and try to give being friends a shot. Its been maybe a little over a year since I had reached out and started talking to him again. We've tried dating again and we have been on an off since then and we both are young adults trying to figure out our lives and we are both struggling alot as far mental health because of the stress of having to grow up kinda and it just kept fucking up out relationship and my emotions were so all over the place and I was really struggling with trying to figure out what I need in life and how to be happy without have to rely on a relationship or drugs or material things. I had to learn how to enjoy the actual important things in my life like all the beautiful amazing people I've had the pleasure of knowing in this life and how to cut toxic people and thinks and places out of my life if it's affecting my mental health and over learned that it's ok to be sensitive and to want to take care of yourself and have a good mental health. I've learned how to just live in the moment and to surround myself with positive vibes and only be around good honest genuine people that actually care about me and want me to succeed. I want the people in my life now to be people that I know forever and people that are going to be there for me in future. Anyways Over those two years me and the boy didn't talk i never got over him matter how hard a tried and thought I was and that i could potentially be falling love with some one. I just cant. I am in love with him and always will be no matter what. If i still feel so happy and deeply in love with him after.he broke my heart and didn't talk to be for 2 years I know this man is meant to be apart my life forever weather it is as my lover or as one of my closest friends. We are soul mates and I know that I will absolutely love him completely and unconditonally for the rest of my life. Those two years when I wasn't with him kept failing my classes in high school freshman and sophomore and was extremely suicidal and didn't give and fuck about school and even went to the mental hospital for awhile towards the end of my sophomore year and at that point i literally thought I was so stupid and worthless and not even worth the effort of living and being such and disappointment to my family and my friends because I could pass one class in high school and I had given up. Until my counselor transferred me to a kind of alternative school that I could do everything at my own pace and only do the essentials and stuff I absolutely need to learn instead of busy work and stupid shit like public school. This place had no semesters or exams or grades. It has 4 different very well educated and super cool and awesome genuine teachers that actually care about helping you get the best education and they really do care about their students and they are so passionate about helping these kids actually learn and have an opportunity to have a future. Theres one teacher for each subject and 5 councilors that the 70-80 kids are divided between them and it was such an amazing really healing place and i met some really amazing people that year and learned alot about myself and started doing art therapy and I got my work done and realized I wasnt actually stupid like I had been so sure I was but I'm actually very intelligent I just have manic depression and severe social anxiety and I just needed to start working on myself and start making the effort to keep myself happy and actually work on my life and be the person I want to be. After that year during summer I made the decision not to go back to public school for what would have been my senior year so as soon as I was 17 I dropped out of high school and got my GED and I started cosmetology school at 17 years old before my graduating class even finished there senior year. My GED teacher was also a councilor and i became very close to her and she's honestly helped me make a future for myself and she supported me and saw how smart I was and she would help me no matter what and still to this day if in need to talk or need help with something i can call her and she will 100% help me because she is such a good and selfless and kind woman that genuinely cares about me and my future. It's rare that you meet teachers that actually help their kids . I honestly made the decision to do whats best for me and my mental health and i got my career and life started as early as I could because I'm determined to live my life to the best before I'm too old or die super young I'm some crazy way because honestly life is so short and way too short not to do everything u can to just really be the best you can be and enjoy life and do what makes u fuckin happy. So starting this year I am being sober so I can graduate school and work and save money and start my life as a young independent adult. My teenage years have been so wild and I've been through so much but it's I wouldn't trade these last few years. I've met so many kind beautiful amazing souls and I've learned so much about life and other people and relationships and I've learned about happiness within myself and I've learned alot about who I am and what it really want in life. I've learned alot about my mental illnesses and how to cope with them the best way possible for myself. I've had some of the best and most amazing adventures and i made so many amazing memories so despite the bullshit I've been through in my teenage years and all the stress of becoming a young adult in this super fucked up world we live in today I know that I have made it this far and I become stronger and better everyday and I'm thriving and finally getting where I want to be. I'm becoming more content with who I am and I'm learning to love myself and be who I am and I'm so happy with the person I becoming and I know I'm going to continue growing and thriving and becoming a beautiful and amazing person living the best life I can. This started out as a new years resolution post but im on alot of stuff right now and I felt like I needed to just write about stuff. Anyways. Happy new years yall here's to a fresh start and then beginning of my life as I figure out how to be my own person. 2018 is going to be so fucking good