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inkskinned · 7 months

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the thing about art is that it was always supposed to be about us, about the human-ness of us, the impossible and beautiful reality that we (for centuries) have stood still, transfixed by music. that we can close our eyes and cry about the same book passage; the events of which aren't real and never happened. theatre in shakespeare's time was as real as it is now; we all laugh at the same cue (pursued by bear), separated hundreds of years apart.

three years ago my housemates were jamming outdoors, just messing around with their instruments, mostly just making noise. our neighbors - shy, cautious, a little sheepish - sat down and started playing. i don't really know how it happened; i was somehow in charge of dancing, barefoot and laughing - but i looked up, and our yard was full of people. kids stacked on the shoulders of parents. old couples holding hands. someone had brought sidewalk chalk; our front walk became a riot of color. someone ran in with a flute and played the most astounding solo i've ever heard in my life, upright and wiggling, skipping as she did so. she only paused because the violin player was kicking his heels up and she was laughing too hard to continue.

two weeks ago my friend and i met in the basement of her apartment complex so she could work out a piece of choreography. we have a language barrier - i'm not as good at ASL as i'd like to be (i'm still learning!) so we communicate mostly through the notes app and this strange secret language of dancers - we have the same movement vocabulary. the two of us cracking jokes at each other, giggling. there were kids in the basement too, who had been playing soccer until we took up the far corner of the room. one by one they made their slow way over like feral cats - they laid down, belly-flat against the floor, just watching. my friend and i were not in tutus - we were in slouchy shirts and leggings and socks. nothing fancy. but when i asked the kids would you like to dance too? they were immediately on their feet and spinning. i love when people dance with abandon, the wild and leggy fervor of childhood. i think it is gorgeous.

their adults showed up eventually, and a few of them said hey, let's not bother the nice ladies. but they weren't bothering us, they were just having fun - so. a few of the adults started dancing awkwardly along, and then most of the adults. someone brought down a better sound system. someone opened a watermelon and started handing out slices. it was 8 PM on a tuesday and nothing about that day was particularly special; we might as well party.

one time i hosted a free "paint along party" and about 20 adults worked quietly while i taught them how to paint nessie. one time i taught community dance classes and so many people showed up we had to move the whole thing outside. we used chairs and coatracks to balance. one time i showed up to a random band playing in a random location, and the whole thing got packed so quickly we had to open every door and window in the place.

i don't think i can tell you how much people want to be making art and engaging with art. they want to, desperately. so many people would be stunning artists, but they are lied to and told from a very young age that art only matters if it is planned, purposeful, beautiful. that if you have an idea, you need to be able to express it perfectly. this is not true. you don't get only 1 chance to communicate. you can spend a lifetime trying to display exactly 1 thing you can never quite language. you can just express the "!!??!!!"-ing-ness of being alive; that is something none of us really have a full grasp on creating. and even when we can't make what we want - god, it feels fucking good to try. and even just enjoying other artists - art inherently rewards the act of participating.

i wasn't raised wealthy. whenever i make a post about art, someone inevitably says something along the lines of well some of us aren't that lucky. i am not lucky; i am dedicated. i have a chronic condition, my hands are constantly in pain. i am not neurotypical, nor was i raised safe. i worked 5-7 jobs while some of these memories happened. i chose art because it mattered to me more than anything on this fucking planet - i would work 80 hours a week just so i could afford to write in 3 of them.

and i am still telling you - if you are called to make art, you are called to the part of you that is human. you do not have to be good at it. you do not have to have enormous amounts of privilege. you can just... give yourself permission. you can just say i'm going to make something now and then - go out and make it. raquel it won't be good though that is okay, i don't make good things every time either. besides. who decides what good even is?

you weren't called to make something because you wanted it to be good, you were called to make something because it is a basic instinct. you were taught to judge its worth and over-value perfection. you are doing something impossible. a god's ability: from nothing springs creation.

a few months ago i found a piece of sidewalk chalk and started drawing. within an hour i had somehow collected a small classroom of young children. their adults often brought their own chalk. i looked up and about fifteen families had joined me from around the block. we drew scrangly unicorns and messed up flowers and one girl asked me to draw charizard. i am not good at drawing. i basically drew an orb with wings. you would have thought i drew her the mona lisa. she dragged her mother over and pointed and said look! look what she drew for me and, in the moment, i admit i flinched (sorry, i don't -). but the mother just grinned at me. he's beautiful. and then she sat down and started drawing.

someone took a picture of it. it was in the local newspaper. the summary underneath said joyful and spontaneous artwork from local artists springs up in public gallery. in the picture, a little girl covered in chalk dust has her head thrown back, delighted. laughing.

#writeblr #warm up #this is longer than i wanted i really considered removing that part about myself and what i went thru #but i think it really fucking bothers me that EVERY time i talk about being an artist #ppl assume i just like. had the skill and ability to drop everything and pay for grad school.#like sir i grew up poor. my house wasn't a safe space. i gave up a FREE RIDE TO LAW SCHOOL. for THIS. bc i chose it.#was it fucking hard? was i choosing the hard thing?? yes.#but we need to stop seeing artists as lazy layabouts that can ''afford'' to just ''sit around and create''#when MANY - if not MOST - of us are NOT like that. we have to work our fucking ASSES off. hard work. long and hard work #part of valuing artists is recognizing the amount we sacrifice to make our art. bc it doesn't just #like HAPPEN to us. also btw it rarely has anything to do with true talent.#speaking as someone with a chronic condition i hate when ppl are like u have it easy. like actively as i'm writing this my hands r #ACTIVELY hurting me. i haven't been posting bc my left hand was curled in a claw for the last week #this isn't fucking luck. after a certain point it's not even TALENT. it's dedication & sacrifice.#''u get to flounce around and do nothing with ur life'' is a narrative that is a direct result of capitalism #imagine if we said that about literally any other profession.#''oh so u give up 10 yrs of ur life to be a doctor? u sacrifice having a social life and u get SUPER in debt?#u need to work countless hours and it will often be thankless? well i wish i was that lucky''#we should be applying that logic to landlords ONLY #''oh ur mom and dad gave u the money to buy a house? and all u did was paint it white and rent it? huh.''

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artfulacrostic · 1 year

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the original series of star trek is absolutely my favorite thing bc every episode is like:

-kirk manhandles a penis shaped rock prop for a very long time

-spock dances flamenco

-sulu fences down the hallway shirtless

-episode plot is kirk v massive sentient lump

-kirk tries to explain spock's ears as a childhood accident where he got his head caught in a mechanical rice picker

-on an unrelated note, spock starts wearing a beanie

-redshirts get turned into like. cubes of salt

-uhura defeats a giant green hand by hotwiring the entire comms console

-spock and kirk hold hands

-scotty stops chekov from starting a bar fight with klingons only to immediately start one himself bc the love of his life (the enterprise) gets insulted

-mccoy's fantasies involve meeting characters from alice in wonderland, including a giant anthropomorphic rabbit

-spock's alien sex drive episode

-kirk gets bodyswapped

-gladiator fight episode (1)

-gladiator fight episode (2)

-gladiator fight episode (3)

AND YET, every episode is ALSO like:

-war cannot be reduced to numbers from an outside perspective, because that makes it easier to stomach without change; the horror that is war must be acknowledged in order to make room for peace

-more types of life can be extant than we can conceive, and just because they are different forms of life doesn't make them incapable of prospering

-love cannot be programmed or controlled, and discriminatory hatred is a tool only for death and pain

-cultures that are different than our own are valuable and can be vibrantly rich with history, and judging them before we try to understand and empathize is not only reductive but contemptible

-happiness is something that we have to allow ourselves, and actively seek out, because it can't come to us without work and acknowledgement of our own state of being

-genocide can never be justified, and certainly not even to supposedly save the people that are more "valuable" by any given metric over those who are not, because all lives have worth

anyway the balance of absurdity and meaningfulness gives me life, and we haven't even gotten started on the whale movie lmao

#star trek #star trek the original series #james kirk #spock #star trek tos #mister spock #leonard mccoy #nyota uhura #hikaru sulu #pavel chekov #montgomery scott #r speaks #tos is everything to me #it's literally insane #some things obviously didn't age as well as others but like overall? wow #the complex themes and character moments just get to me amidst all of the tropey moments #okay???

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twinstxrs · 3 months

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in light of recent canon academic conversations, riz adaine gorgug study sessions have never been more real to me. gorgug helps riz + adaine get out of their own heads when they’re overworking themselves, riz + adaine help gorgug with alternative studying methods because he learns best through visuals + experience. fabian’s there occasionally when he has a particularly difficult assignment/test but he makes them all swear never to speak of it in order to protect his “image.” kristen has shown up exactly twice: once for advice on a group project that was two months overdue & once to just lay on the floor and relax for an hour before leaving. fig didn’t know the study sessions were happening until sophomore year & now keeps getting monthly bans because every time she shows up she ends up accidentally distracting riz + adaine. also, sometimes after/in the middle of really long study sessions riz adaine & gorgug go to basrar’s together to unwind but fabian kristen & fig Are Not Invited (they do still text to ask if anyone wants something brought back from basrar’s. they’re not heartless, after all).

#anyways that’s the post. study trio u r real in my heart #fantasy high #dimension 20 #fhjy #gorgug thistlespring #adaine abernant #riz gukgak #fabian seacaster #kristen applebees #fig faeth #the bad kids #riz adaine gorgug trio who actually care about academics u r so dear to me. only bad kids who regularly do homework #adaine & riz both ‘ditch’ but adaine asks for her coursework beforehand + riz is usually getting rogue extra credit for sneaking out #gorgug has never ditched school in his life except for Urgent World Saving. he was doing his hw on the sig figs tour bus <3 #i’m convinced fabian also cares to a degree but not enough to genuinely try hard. except out of spite. hence the study session visits #fabian both regularly cheats on homework & thinks getting a hard assignment & not doing well is ‘losing’#kristen has probs had a gradual academic falloff through high school due to just the amount of stuff that happened in her life.#like who has the mental energy to care about school when Literally Everything Else was going on… me too kristen me too #i think middle school fig didn’t care about school but still showed up + tried but immediately stopped giving a shit once her horns came in #& so here we are… anyways bad kids i love you

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fear-no-mort · 4 months

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i cant get over the whole time in the real world rick just sat there watching over morty and when he woke up finally rick sounded SO happy the way he just yelled his name excitedly the second he woke up,,,

#i miss them already….#AND ALSO AT THE END. MORTY WAS KIND OF IN A WAY WHAT STOPPED RICK FROM JUMPING INTO THE HOLE TO SEE DIANE.#you saw him like look sad for a second that he wouldn’t get to see her but then his expression changed to a firm one when he decided he was #-going to put mortys picture on the wall and then his little smile after he did… morty isn’t dianes replacement hes even better than that #THATS HOW I SEE IT THOUGH. one of the biggest appeals of r&m to me is just how they are eachothers absolute favourite and they outweigh-#-everything the others ever known. i think this episode really showed that alot.#despite everything he’s seen and experienced mortys biggest fear is rick not caring about him #and like. that’s funny bc that’s a thing where everybody knows for a fact that’s literally impossible #the biggest contributor for why SO many things in the show have happened is rick loves morty more than anything #also that one part in the whole sequence with them growing up where it showed r&m drinking togehter that made me so happy bc like #it was one of those moments where i was like. Oh yeah duhdoy i almost forgot they’re going to be best friends for ever and ever #hhhgg. so many good things so much so much. also im probably not going to touch this episode for a week lol #i Need time ok.#rick and morty #rick and morty spoilers #odiespeak

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creepiefarm · 7 months

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Marble Hornets is a narrative haunted by both Amy and Jessica. So much of the series revolves around the mystery of what happened to them, and how they affected the characters behind the camera.

It's Amy that first shows us Alex does care and is affected by the actions he's taken.

It's Amy that unintentionally gets Jessica involved with the Operator and the others.

It's Jessica that first directly points out how strange Jay's behavior is, and who drives Jay forward to confronting Alex.

It's Amy's mention that allows Tim to finally gain the upper hand in his fight with Alex.

It's Jessica who closes Tim's part in the story, and who carries on the narrative in the comics.

Constantly in the latter two seasons we are left wondering where they are, who knows, and whether they are alright. For characters not given a lot of screen time due to the availability of their actors, so much of the story is driven by their involvement.

#it's not MH fault u guys can't see how important the girls r to literally everything it's literally all there #also almost referenced my own fanfic in this post as smth canon??? it's real to Me and my friends #didn't include taylor bc this is purely about the web series but trust that i have lots to say about her too #marble hornets #creepie.thoughts #amy walters #jessica locke

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vcrnons · 5 months

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VERNON [INSIDE SEVENTEEN] Face the Sun Jacket Shoot Sketch

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shaythey · 2 months

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Newmann brain rot

(don’t talk abt the line art im lazy okayyy)

#literally they r everything to me FUCK #pacific rim #newt geiszler #newton geiszler #hermann gottlieb #newmann #charlie day #pacrim #my art

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pup-pee · 2 months

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pancake bunny pancake bunny boakcake buny

mmmmmm paper

#scheduled #everything hurts but yk what doesnt hrut?#drawign bart allen yay #i sitkl cant decide whether longer hair or slightly short looks better #h the eh r literally like the same length but it matters 2 me #i got dragged out 2 do shopping it was the worst im not bing 2 function sense #anywayd this should b skedruled bc i should b asleep by now #im throwing my phone across my room #if any1s 4 some reason rrading the tags gn <33 #sweet dreams or no dreams if thats better #hopefully im zoinked out & honk snoozin #mimimimimimi #i wanna post more but idk art hardd ;;#impulse #bart allen #dc #puppee art

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sweetsnidle · 1 year

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naekusaba for the soul

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apollos-boyfriend · 11 months

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not forever acknowledging the fact that tazercraft are playing a completely separate modpack and server to everyone else 😭 him and cellbit are losing their minds and becoming paranoid about every little thing meanwhile tazercraft are mistaking a whale for an island and trying to land on it

#icarus speaks #icarus liveblogs #they r everything 2 me #literal cartoons

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transbeeduo · 4 months

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bug thoughts took over again.

BUG SO FUCKING SMALL OHHHHHHHHHHHHHH Tubbo looks so happy here this is so good :((((( I LOVE THIS SO MUCHHHHH THANK YOU

#bug posts #mutuals <3 #terezicaptor #oakley ur bug drawings r literally everything to me #FAVORITES

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oppositeslut · 5 months

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they r holding hands they r in love

#they make me sooooooooo #guys opposite is literally canon has been since the beginning wydm #they r everything to me 🥰🥰🥰#ninjago #kai smith #zane julien #oppositeshipping

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banchie · 1 year

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he has an army of weird dogs that follow him around. he calls them his children. he probably puts sweaters on them. they fall asleep in big big piles. they love to cuddle. they eat pancakes. how can anyone be mad at this book

#its like a fanfic blah blah blah blah BLAH #THEYRE THE COCOA PUFFS?????#AND YOURE MAD ABOUT THAT??????#LITERALLY WHO ARE YOU #sorry ur allergic to fun couldnt be me #the number one most sad thing about nico di Angelo was thT he couldnt get a cat bcs animals didnt like him #now he has TWENTY cats that give him THERAPY and scare his ENEMIES #AND YOU'RE MAD ABOUT THAT?????? bye #they r everything 2 me <3 #tsats #the sun and the star #nico di angelo #will solace

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nyaskitten · 8 months

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I'm sorry, but it's so weird seeing people make the most serious crazy angst for Kai and Nya supposedly being completely broke with no one providing for them or helping them or some shit, and then seeing the most tasteless homeless jokes about Morro ever...

If anything I think canon would support the idea of Morro having it way worse than Kai and Nya. The two canonically had a babysitter and it's explicitly said they watched out for one another all the time.

Meanwhile, we don't know much about Morro's situation, he wore ragged, torn clothes, he looked terrible, he was homeless, an orphan, rummaging through bins on a giant mountain for whatever reason, like???

#ninjago #raine's rambles #im sorry it just rlly annoys me #the way ppl act like kai sacrificed everything for nya as if they didnt both keep each other equally protected #i mean they r like 2-ish years apart my dude hes not raising a 1 year old at 3 dude #literally how would they have survived their younger years with no education and no one to teach them anything #like im sorry ?? kai was not providing everything for nya like that...

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thwackk · 2 years

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i demand your arts

here u can have this one single piece of fanart i made for the fanfic that literally ruined my entire life

#the little house on the prairie halbarry…#if you know you know #halbarry #hal jordan #barry allen #kyle rayner #guy gardner #they r fuckin silly and nothing bad happens in the story i promise. everything is fine forever :)#i gotta be so honest right now that shit is the best thing i’ve ever read in my entire life i am so completely dead serious you dont even kn #i would do horrible ungodly things to farmer barry #what. sorry the demons won #okay honestly i could gush abt this fanfic for literal days it’s not funny i could make like a whole powerpoint abt it it’s been driving me #absolutely crazy please help me #im so normal abt it #my art lol #the absolute grip this shit still has on me… i’ll never get over it

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gratielalovebot · 5 months

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my beautiful son who has anxiety <3

#ramblings #love him very much #they r literally everything to me #anyway i have a billion of these drawings in my math book i should photograph them all one day #sigma #sigma fanart #ms paint bullshit #sigma bsd #sigma bsd fanart #my art #kais art

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