having a breakdown so im thinking im gonna delete all of my socials forever, i absolutely hate myself and found out someone i trusted to be kind and honest to me hasnt been kind or honest at all. ive been betrayed massively and i hate everything i am and everything ive created. im so ashamed of myself and i am genuinely sorry to you all, to any of you who have ever read my fics im so sorry that ive put you through reading literal garbage. ive tried so hard my entire time here to make quality content and things i can be proud of and things i can share with you guys but thanks to my "friend" it has really hit me like a ton of bricks how worthless i am and how horrible my content truly is. im just so sorry i couldnt be better, im so sorry im me and not somebody more talented. i love you all very much and despite my poor writing quality im so genuinely happy to have made some amazing friends and created some great memories. im really sorry for everything.

Sorry guys, just a vent post from personal life cause I need to throw it somewhere (and maybe it will help someone with similar problems to feel less alone).

So I've been struggling with more anxiety than usual lately. Every stare or laugh in my direction causes me to freeze and almost go into panic mode. Especially since we've got present exchange today and I am still scared that the person I gave a present to hates it and consequently me.

I also struggle with sensory issues and it's been worse recently. Especially that I am in loud places with lots of people often. I am having more meltdowns and overloads than I used to. The fact that neither me or my friends have time to meet in peace is not helping.

Overall I feel like crap and my home situation isn't making it better. My last Sirius Black story was kinda inspired by that.

But I've been through worse and this time I will also survive cause I am not going to let my struggles/other people win my life over.

Stay safe guys and lots of love.

Sincerely,

Moon

i've been looking fem for ages and tomorrow i'm getting my hair cut short for the first time in three years. i can't wait to look more masc, but i am kind of sad because i pretended to be super fem/a girl for so long, and this haircut makes it all just a little more real... like i am finally acknowledging that i'm trans and that my long hair is not who i am. new era for me, scary era but good? i think? yes, good.

There will be so much merrical art and merrical fanfics spewing from me as soon as I have the mental and physical bandwidth I swear.

man, for the last 5 months, I've been playing games with my friend nearly every single night. I don't ever want to stop this new routine and I dread the time it comes to an end.

this time means so much to me and he's the only reason I've made ANY art this year. I'm so grateful

I so desperately want to cut. Go home, meal prep, and slit my wrists.

But I’ve made it 2 months. 62 days to be exact. I can hold out. Please, give me the strength to hold out.

feeling scared but happy

being an extrovert is stupid bc suddenly im home alone without an activity & im so desperately sad like girl…

thanks everyone for the birthday wishes 🥰🥰🥰🥰

now today i am meeting my internet best friend for the first time today!!! im so excited and also scared

gm gang ����🏼

wwwoooow. i just had the nastiest fight with my ""boyfriend""" *vomit* over the phone lmfffaooo but it's over now thank fucking god the disease removed itself from my life thank you  god

How did you sleep .

um ^_^

feeling bad shrimp emotions :(

i cant stop thinking about a post by @possamble so i made this

inspired by this

based on a fanart by BugsGay on twitter

We need to go back to using sailing ships full time like immediately. Yes it would take longer to get places but the Aesthetic is unmatched

Like there is nothing sexier hthan this

if someone told me my blood smelled and tasted good i would be over the moon. this is on account of my nature