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tortademaracuya · 1 year

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I wish I could get any joy from drawing again soon

#i should be putting together a demo reel #o anotandome en otra carrera #or idk. drawing silly stuff at least?#but i cant bring myself to do anything #its like whats the point?#its driving me a little insane. wish i could just be good enough already or concentrate for more than 5 seconds #feeling like im looking for pity just for working on any wip or showing them #haunted.txt #drawing while talking to people used to help sometimes but #1) i have no way rn of making my microphone work #2) artists friends are either busy or havent been in contact in a long time #3) asking non artist friends feels like im forcing them to keep me company or smth #i may work on some stop motion project soon with a friend so hopefully that makes me stop feeling like shit?#i could also work on the Babooshka storyboard/animatic too...if i didnt get cringe just by thinking about how others may see it

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horrorlesbians · 3 days

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im so in awe of people who work a full-time job and still have the energy or drive to work on passion projects on their days off/after work. how are you doing that

#🦌#i have ten million projects i want to work on but my energy is non existent #i want nothing more to work on projects on my days off but I feel almost physically incapable #i cant stop myself from oversleeping and then the whole day is gone and then I have no energy and cannot bring myself #to do anything besides the necessary cleaning showering etc. its infuriating

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grzybjek · 10 months

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Stuff that I wont finish and doodles that arent worth posting on instagram. Enjoy these tumblr i love tumblr

#i literally can post whatever I want and i dont feel anxious about it #i love sharing my art even if its unfinished ans i dont like it #i cant bring myself to finish anything recently by thr way. im awfully art blocked #i literally think everything i make recently is so bad and i struggle with the simplest drawings. idk what to do anymore honestly #but i had fun drawing these things today #not to mention like other 30 sketches i made today that are just outright BAD and i hate them

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lynnbutlertron · 1 year

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3 things i just simply cannot bring myself to finish

#doodles #pizza tower #my fucking computer bluescreened while drawing the second one #and i lost a shit tonne of progress #so now i cant bring myself to do anything else with it lol #oh well.....#peppinoise #the noise #peppino

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carnivalcarriondiscarded · 9 months

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ohhhhmygod im gonna be sick. actually nauseous and i did it to myself - there was a spider on the countertop and i Panicked, grabbing the first distance-killer i could grab. it was a grease cleaner spray. i buried it in the stuff, walked away to recover mentally, came back

it fucking fell apart and dissolved into the cleaner. i both feel horrible and im disgusted beyond words. how the fuck do i get rid of it

#slamming my face into a wall repeatedly #i cant leave it there to deal with after Sleep #bc my cats like to go onto the countertops when no one is looking #and i dont want either of them to get poisoned #but i cant rinse it into the sink with the faucet hose bc there's stuff in the sink #but idk if i can bring myself to do dishes with That next to me #and my fear of spiders is so intense that i Cannot get close enough to take care of it with a towel or somethin #im very good at fucking myself over in various ways!#if i had an appetite id lose it. permanently #what if! instead of dealing with it! i curl up in a corner and cry #except im not gonna do that ive filled my tears quota for the year & doing nothing wont help anything #sorry for venting again i just. ohhhhh this is horrible this is Terrible #if i still had my whacking stick id tape a big wad of paper towels to the end and clean the mess up that way #from a Distance!#absolutely unprompted #i wish i wasnt so terrified of spiders #they scare me So much....#the point of feeling physically ill! and like sobbing! or panicking! and this spider was Big!#i wish they'd stop coming into the house.... i hate killing them but i cant function knowing theyre there #but i can't force myself close enough to put them in a cup and bring them outside #so now i have THAT on my counter. disintegrated spider.#life is too fucking much lately... jesus.... i should really just bite the bullet and get this shit over with #no use waiting a month in perpetual terror unease and guilt. do it scared yk yk #im tired of my chest hurting and not being able to eat! i dont like it! i need change! terrifying horrible change!

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ghost-bard · 10 months

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I start to drift off, finally getting some sleep

And then

I have one singular thought:

“Charlie and Quackities characters are always doomed to fall, and when one goes the other is close behind”

My eyes shoot open

I am once again awake, tortured by the knowledge I hold.

#qsmp #quackity smp #las nevadas #q slimecicle #qsmp quackity #qsmp charlie slimecicle #i refuse to tag the server las nevadas is from btw #like. i simply cant bring myself to do so #anyway we see this phenomenon pretty often #when c slime (right??? thats what hes called in LN right?) got pushed into the lava #c quackity had a spiral/downfall pretty quickly #everything that happened with tilín and juanaflippa #and how charlie and quackity dealt with it #and then them eventually coming together with a plan of like. sort of coping? ig?#and now el quackity asking charlie to help him knowing that charlie doesnt know anything about whats happened #like. damn #anyway im trying so hard to be normal about the qsmp #SO HARD #im sorry to any irls/friends that have to see me rambling nonsense #i have an art idea based on the convo quacks and slime had towards the end #and i NEED to write it down so i dont forget it #anyway. im. im gonna try to go to sleep. and not think about tragedy and qsmp

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variksel · 2 months

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at what point am i to blame for what adhd does to me. at what point is it "adhd made it fucking physically impossible for me to focus today so i didnt do much work and hate it" versus just "i didnt do much work." am i allowed to feel shitty about it or is that just wallowing

#genuine question honestly #like. it feels like fucking shit to not have anything to show for sitting at a computer for 8+ hrs #but like thats My Fucking Fault for not doing the work #like god i tried but it just wasnt good enough #and like. what am i allowed to say about it? oh my adhd meds ran out (5 months ago) thats why it didnt work out?#but the reason i havent gotten new ones and let these ones run out is bcs of the same exact reason #i just couldnt bring myself to refill them just like i couldnt work today #so thats again my fault and it Sucks SoBad #i base a lot of my self worth on being productive and adhd makes mr feel like im not worth much when i cant do anything #UGH ANYWAY thats dramatic but. idk. bums me out i really was looking forward to working a long time today #adhd #neurodivergent #neurodiversity #actually adhd #adhd problems #adhd brain #vent #rant #adhd rant #neurodiverse stuff

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jorrated · 4 months

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i have everything in me to be a sonic movie hater, but i think my expectations were simply too low to even evoke emotions in me like anger

#reread the notes i made after watching the movies #i do not stand by them #but also like.#god i just cant bring myself to feel anything for the movies #i see people losing their minds over some of the sonic 3 leaks #and i looked at them and i was like: okay.....#feels too safe and corporate like damn #i just know theres going to be copaganda somewhere in the movie #there is going to have some military justification #i doubt maria is going to be explicitly undeniablyy shot #im saying it now. Theyre going to pull the 'actually ONE guy was really bad and was angry and shot maria #but hashtag not all cops shadow you need to forgive earth'#man..................#im super bitter today but i have no expectations for the movies #and the thing is theyre both so mid i cant even bring myself to actually hate them

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desire-mona · 18 days

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can someone please come over and braid my hair and talk about fnaf like im 9 again thanks. can someone please come over and pretend like its all ok thanks.

#desire mona #not to vent in tags but i need to be so real #i am probably one of the most lonely people ever actually #i have friends but i never see them #i spend all my time on here #ive taken to talking to people down my street which does help tbh like i do enjoy feeling like i have a community #i have a friend named tom down the road but hes like. in his 40s or 50s. but i do enjoy talking to him when we're out walking our dogs #i went out with him and his daughter to try and see the northern lights but it was too cloudy #i felt rly bad for knocking on his door at 10 pm to look at nothing but he was glad i reminded him #but once i go back home its just nothing #my life is just a series of waiting to take drugs again and its eating away at me but i cant fucking Do Anything #i just kinda feel like a pathetic loser for not doing anything productive ever and i KNOW i shouldn't let that demean my character in any wa #y #i know im a good and kind and funny person but my inability to bring myself to improve anything just makes me feel like im the worst #whatever #thoughtsing

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jazzzzzzhands · 5 months

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oh i started something goofy back in September where i wanted to attempt Rendering but this has just been in my art program for too long i lost my attention span on it u_u Please allow me to throw this out here and have peace of mind because i really really enjoyed coloring some cereal, its sooo PRETTY full version below, there's Wally! I DID enjoy his hair but here here, have my unfinished work

oh i forgot my tally marks, i was counting my Cereals as i finished them! silly silly

#ooh when art takes me too long i just get too frustrated #or long projects in general #i have the worlds worst attentions span im sorry #this was a fun experience tho!!#i just cant bring myself to finish it #just so u know the sketch is one layer and everything else is another #im a simple person #i just wanted wally with cereal!!#what do i even tag this #not much of anything really #experimental art #mmm yeah thats it

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toytulini · 28 days

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the challenge of i should commission art of my ocs. would love to commission like, siiyr or bokrae, maybe krachyn or jula. siiyr or bokrae would make the most sense, maybe krachyn. i think theyre the ones with the most detailed notes on their anatomy

but also

oh god i cannot subject another artist to the anatomical war crimes i committed in making these ocs