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im so glad empanada, even after a tough day, got to have that talk and hug with richas and then bagi where em got some lovely advice about dealing with grief from richas & talked about what went wrong during the day
but i can't help but contrast this with sunny. sunny who empanada still hasn't seen. sunny whose been alone for days. sunny whose talked with almost no one. sunny who doesn't know bad is dead. sunny whose pretending tubbo isn't dead. sunny who got no goodbye. sunny who got no long talks about grief. sunny who got no explanations. sunny who no one visited today. sunny whose birthday is tomorrow. sunny who no one will wake up for first tomorrow
#qsmp#qsmp sunny#qsmp empanada#it's giving em and sunny being separated so long post em's first death#but also 50 times worse#they're sisters your honour they should be together#idk if sunny and leo will have talked off stream or not#but presumably she's done something with her mystery friend#we are for sure going to get angst from sunny tomorrow if only someone stays long enough to see it#also off topic but i think the em interaction with mike was fine#yes he clearly wasn't successful in cheering her up but she seemed to appreciate the attempt#even if it probably left her feeling a little like her feelings were her fault for not being able to cheer up#and he did apologize for barging into her room and left#i don't think he's in her bad books at all#she could definitely tell he cared and she was much more visibly frustrated with bagi#which they luckily had some resolution over#me once again writing one post in the text and another in the tags lmao
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it's just not going to work it feels bad but it has to happen but breakups that happen when nothing in particular has gone wrong and it's just an issue of like...paths in life/compatibility etc etc, where otherwise you actually rly do love the person, are so hard !! like i care for u i still want to be ur friend it just wont work in a romantic way !!
#its 1yr+ relationship too i care abt her so much#we just both deserve to feel fulfilled and i dont currently feel that way its not rly her fault i think we were just meant 2 be friends#and not lovers but somehow that makes it worse ?? like im glad im not on bad terms w her ofc i love her a lot#but it makes it harder to get over yk#....i hope we can still be friends idk idk !!#she has been my best friend for a while#breakup happening in 1 week from now. i keep delaying this decision but it rly rly has to be done#we r just...fundementally missmatched and we both need to be w ppl who we can grow with#i think we could grow together if we were just friends but aughh its sl ahrd ik being friends after a breakup rarely ever works out#my friends say its like a 50/50 chance if u break up on good terms#anyway being the person doint the breaking up is hard !!!#also i have been doing kind of super badly recently and i think i need some time to figure stuff out w my own mental health too
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how it feels when a hater (terf, snape fan, jegulus shipper, etc) is taking a poo in my inbox but i then touch grass and breathe outside air:
#ive been cancelled by the holy trinity i believe#in order of worseness: snape fans were def the meanest#god they were so mean 😭 i had like 50 followers at the time too WHY RU TRYING TO CANCEL MEEEEE#terfs tried the hardest for sure.#jegulus shippers were just a smidge passive aggressive but i havent received that much hate tg#oh ive also been confronted by a theodore nott fan too. yknow the ones who r obsessed with fanon slytherin characters#i have a horror story about that. dm if u want it bcuz i cannot speak abt it publicly 💀💀#harry potter#hp#anti jegulus#anti snapedom#marauders#severus snape#anti jkr#rewriting#it may not look like i touch grass since im technically uploading every day but i use the ✨queue✨ option now. so my drafts dont suffer
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actually yeah im making a quick poll on this. for anyone who has been around long enough to remember when i made my massive clamp readathon situation (in which i read every single one of the works they put out) be everyones problem. hi. im doing it again but much worse now. reading about 400 volumes (and more if i can find more) of tezuka osamu's work. i am just curious on the general consensus of if i should upload thoughts as i read each one (ie: one post being like i finished kimba/jungle kingdom, heres my thoughts) or just have a MASSIVE post of hey. read them all heres my thoughts (as i did with clamp. which is when i found out tumblr had a max text limit)
#twist rambles#i KNOW this is smth most of u do not care about. however comma. im curious what would be better. esp as like... about 50?? i think percent#of these have no translation fan or official. so its smth where i think discussing the plot/characters/art or whatever could be fun :)#but its also like. obviously a lot. for comparison the clamp stuff was abt 90 volumes (half of them being holic and trc). so this is far#worse. i could read all of naruto 5.5 times over in the time this will take me to complete it. so its smth where i do want to like... get#opinions on. either way i dont plan on liveblogging for most of it other than if i find a silly panel (the really good mw panels u will#ALWAYS be famous <- i post them every time i read i think. theyre very good to me). i do however plan on coloring a panel or page from each#series as my OWN personal way of having a physical way of holding onto my memories w it. sorry this is so long and rambly but im gearing up#for this massive project and by god i need to get ppl to read dor.oro. <- my goal or something. please. its very good.#tzkposting#<- all of my posting abt this will/has been under this tag so its not... in the main tags lmao.#sorry for the rambling but. hi. please vote :3 im making a big spreadsheet for stuff bc like... a lot of his stuff is hard to source so onc#im done w that nightmare situation ill probably post that somewhere bc the days of work ive done on all this should be put out there lol#gonna srb this a few times through the day to get like... an idea of what ppl would prefer :)
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i miss. the vibes of the rpc a few years back
#things just felt more. community based#people interacted more w each other on the dash and it felt like people were really there to interact and not just for a follower count#its probably rose colored glasses in a lot of ways bc thats when i was most active so thats when it was most enjoyable but#idk there was just something ab the days where u could have 50 followers and always be interacting w most of them#these days ill get 200 followers and the same 5 mutuals interacting all the time#and like. huge shoutout to them they know who they are but those people make this site worth being on#its just. idk its tiring when a lot of time is spent yelling into the void that is the dash and getting nothing back#and to some extent timezones r to blame and also my lack of writing but its. its not just a lately thing#its been getting worse for years and i think this is really the first time ive ever been like. not active on tumblr?#like im here but a couple of years ago the idea of me having a main blog and barely ever logging in or writing was absurd#i would be online and writing 24/7 if not here then on discord and wire#bc people were always around to interact with and now its just like. oh weve all grown up and become adults and no one has time#for each other anymore and its very. thats life thats how it is but it sucks idk#maybe this is 2 some extent projection also bc thats how things r irl rn but thats just. tahts not important
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That monsters inc au i discussed a while ago
#don't hug me i'm scared#dhmis duck#dhmis red guy#fluffybird#(if you squint just right)#dhmis yellow guy#He's also there#Very tiny but#doodles#i imagine his autotune is like 50 times worse in this au and thats his monster trait#hey theres a guy whos literally just a cartoon octopus in the movie a random ass duck is just as legit
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c3 keqing...............
#pulling xianyun i guess... this is the price of my folly (accidental c1 furina within 3 pulls)#11th time losing 50/50 god bless my luck stays terrible#gacha logs#i also have c3 qiqi but she's worse bc she's broke pity on character banners that i actually wanted desparately (i'm lukewarm on na.via so#i'm vaguely fine w this. i'm so bad at playing geo lmao)#edit: not fine with the fact that i took 83 pulls to get to pity in the first place tho
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Hihihi I'm here with another opinion. And its thats Other Bill is a dumbass.
Other Bill really though familiar Bill was weak because he was playing house with a human. So what if he's domesticated? Does he not realize that this is a version of himself who actually has something to lose. He's the most dangerous!! :/
Other Bill's thought process kinda went like this:
This Bill is Soft for this guy! It's clear when you look at the human's reactions - and even in the environment! All the context pointed right towards some domesticated moron.
And Soft Emotionally = Soft Everywhere = Soft Target. No threat at all!
Clearly this was some whimpering, wailing, quivering, pathetic Bill, that would fold under a bit of pressure. Honestly, he'd be doing the multiverse a favor getting rid of that guy! Squishing (or stealing) his (admittedly cute) human would be a fine precursor to putting him down.
Other Bill did not expect a Bill who was, well. Still very Bill. The mistake he made was thinking that because Bill went soft in one single place - that he'd gone all jello-like everywhere. Classic overgeneralization. Along with a lot of egocentric cognitive biases.
The other dumb thing Other Bill pulled was not changing his plan.
He could have course-corrected when Familiar Bill reemerged- even that first interaction showed him he wasn't dealing with a total pushover - but he figured, hey! If one dumb human could ruin this guy, what could he possibly do against another Bill?
And then he found things out the hard way.
#Overestimating himself and underestimating others#Classic Bill Cipher right there#Other Bill undone by hubris#Familiar Bill still falls into the same trap but he's gone through some stuff recently#His pride's been run through the wringer. Had a crash course in the school of hard knocks#He's about 50% less prone to making egocentric mistakes after all the times he's been thwarted recently#Not gonna catch Familiar Bill dismissing something offhand as a non-threat when it could come back to bite him in the angles#Well. No. He absolutely still does that. But not as often as your typical Bill#His main advantage is that he's *aware* that something innocuous could screw him over. Since he's been caught off-guard so often lately#Even taking a second glance at a situation instead of *assuming* he has it handled is a major check on the hubris#Really shitty for anyone who wants to thwart him though. He's monologuing less and catching people off-guard more#Congratulations Dipper! You simultaneously semi-domesticated a demon while also making him more dangerous#And if Other Bill HAD killed Dipper. Or hurt him worse. Or.#Well overall! Anon is right. Bill actually HAS something to lose now#And if it was taken away from him#Whoo! Man. They would Not like the consequences#Pro Immortality Tip: Don't piss off someone who's also immortal. It never goes well#answers
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Hey y’all! I have family in town right now, and as a general heads up to people who don’t have food allergies/restrictions/stuff like that*:
If you want to go out to dinner with someone you know has food allergies*, PLEASE discuss where you’ll go with them before you finalize plans.
This message brought to you by my mom inviting all the local members of my family out for barbecue, a thing I cannot have in restaurants because either it uses sauce, which has vinegar in it (and usually so much sauce is used there’s a high risk of cross contamination) or it smokes meat, in which case I can’t breathe. Smells good! Usually tastes good! Very bad for my asthma.
*idk where food intolerances fall on this scale? but I couldn’t think of a good catchall term for “cannot eat some foods without bad consequences”
#the person behind the yarn#food mention#allergy mention#I am. kinda sad tbh.#I've told her and told her so many times about the vinegar allergy#it's my worst allergy (well. arguably coconut is worse but my coconut allergy is also dramatic and I can't accidentally eat it)#(and I'd rather cough/wheeze for a few minutes than have migraines extreme nausea and bad tachycardia. Vinegar is worse to me)#(I start wheezing as soon as coconut is in my mouth which makes it extremely easy to not eat it)#the basic rule of thumb for eating in restaurants while allergic to vinegar is: if it has a sauce I can't eat it#tomato based sauces for like pizza and pasta are 50/50 I always have to check#but condiment type sauces pretty much 100% have vinegar in them#I probably would not have gone to the dinner anyway because covid#but still! she didn't even consider it!#and it's perfectly okay for her to not have my list of allergies memorized#all she has to remember is that I HAVE allergies#I do not mind her checking my allergy list! I will happily list what things I am allergic to to pretty much anyone I know!#I am aware that the management of my allergies is on me not on her#but still. it would be nice for my allergies to be a consideration when getting food :(
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Say all you want about the Shiver hate but the funniest thing is that people are making those stories addressing the hate with one character feeling so bad for poor Shiver because people are upset at her and the game iykyk
Especially if they include the "I'm so strong and protective" bit only to "subvert" our expectations with the character being upset FOR her and not AT her
Straight up hilarious, can't believe we're doing this unironically
Anyway yeah I'm salty too that she keeps winning and the Splatfests should be regional again but let's be real, this isn't gonna change and we all knew it was gonna happen when we saw the initial reaction for her. Being salty won't change anything, it's time to accept it y'all
#splatoon#Splatoon 3#frye splatoon#shiver splatoon#big man splatoon#splatfest#ondina's text posts!#we're not making it outta this one lol#the most frustrating thing to me is that she gets over 50% every time and that the fests are only every 2 months so there'll be less to#balance out her win streak#the events feel more unique and special but it makes it worse yk#also her character is arrogant (for the wrong reasons lol) which is fine but it doesn't help when she just keeps winning#just kinda upsets already salty people and makes people like her less#legit when are we getting drama the dialogue is so stale#they've got a great setup for some arguments à la Squid Sisters Fest#I mean Frye getting barely 10% every time... Let her be angry since they're all flawed and we know she's the explosive type who voices her#frustrations#also did y'all notice that Big Betrayal had a second chorus and they didn't show us?! I wanna know what they said...#music popped off ngl it sucks that nintendo doesn't give a damn about Deep Cut#Daybreaker Anthem had NO RIGHT to be confined as a lowly lobby song
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One of the things I really, really, Really miss in MHW is, ironically enough, variety.
MHW is a game with dozens of amazing monster designs, all with unique attacks, strengths and vulnerabilities. And what does the game force the player to do?
Grind your chosen monster again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again, cause you want that upgrade and it costs a (monster name)-gem, which has around 3% drop chance.
I think I won't be breaking any new ground by saying this has been not the best decision on the designer's part.
*to be fair, only the top-est of the top upgrades require a gem, and in my experience you don't Really need those upgrades anyway, cause they will just break the game numbers. that said, my actual experience is just the main story, and I haven't touched the enhanced monsters or the raid ones, also I have not played Iceborne, and I know for certain that the numbers in that DLC are Completely broken right off the start, so maybe that gem upgrade is actually a requirement for it. I can't say for certain
This 'single-monster grind for the rare part you need' is the thing that knocked me off MHW for a while, I am just really tired of farming a single enemy like that. It's so repetitive and boring, despite the combat in the game being stellar. I have tried to switch weapons to make the grind more engaging, however, the skill ceilling for both the weapon and the monster attack patterns is too high far that to work, and you can't get the Gem if you're switching to a less powerful monster version, so that strategy won't work either.
This whole situation is outrageous to me, especially when the game has a few monsters that I have not fought even Once. For ex. Uragaan, it just looks like a Radobaan reskin on a surface level and I don't need it's gear, so I have not engaged with it even once, also Radobaan is just more badass. Here I am, instead, grinding a single monster over and over and over.
Okay, I think I've conveyed my disappointment quite adequately, now for the solution. I think this is a great time to remember about Dauntless.
For anyone who doesn't know, Dauntless is/was s f2p online monster-hunter and I've been a big fan of it for a few years. (sadly, the game has been bought by a chinese magnate and is being driven into the ground by them)
Obviously, as a monster-hunter, in Dauntless the core loop of slaying a beast > getting gear from it > slaying a more powerful beast is the same as in MHW. The difference is that you don't need that much parts from a monster to craft gear (about three kills will secure you an armour, five total should be enough for a weapon on top, those are not exact numbers, and I am speaking from memory), buuuut you need special Orbs to upgrade it. You get Orbs from doing Patrols, and here is the simple beauty of the Dauntless' solution to the grind problem-
Patrols are hunts where your target monster is randomised from a pool of monsters. Later in game, you get Heroic Patrols, which are the same, but for more powerful monster versions, and some new elite ones start appearing only in this category.
Patrols force you to engage with ALL the monsters in the game, and prevent the grind from becoming overbearing. In Dauntless, Pangar and Hellion might seem like model reuse, However the game forces me to experience both fights, and the attack patterns of these two are quite different.
So, the game loop of Dauntless is much more interesting and varied than MHW, because it makes use of 100% of its own content, while MHW has you repeatedly engaging with only 1/31 of it (= monster you grind for gear / total big monster count base game).
From my understanding, this is more of a design oversight, rather than a deliberate mistake, as the Monster Hunter series is quite old, and the 'streamlined monster grind for rare part' was the core eastern design of the series for most of that history, made primarily for the local market. However, this is still a design flaw and MH World was primarily made to bring new audience to the series, so this was the perfect time to reassess some of the carried-over design philosophy.
#i was just fuming about farming around 50 odogarons and not getting the final gem for the glaive upgrade#btw i didn't include investigations in this but they also make this issue even worse#(investigations are hunt quests for specific monster with additional random rewards)#(meaning any time you just slay a monster while free roaming the area cause you are sick of doing the same thing over and over#you are getting less item drops than you Could be if you have done investigations and the gem grind becomes even more tedious)#i don't think rise solved this issue either so here's hoping that mh wilds will#mhw#monster hunter world#mh world
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... how am I meant to get any sort of restful sleep when it's like 85F indoors in my bedroom at NIGHT .. hhhhhhhhhhhhhh
#why the next poll adventure and everything else has taken so long lol.. I straight up have just not done anything#the past few days... staring down my todo list and sweating hopelessly#AT LEAST it;s relatively low humidity. the highest it's been up to is maybe 65%. but is usually around 50 or 40ish#There is one small window air conditioner in a roomate's room that can KIND OF be shared by nailing a sheet up to block off the hallway#with the rooms in it so the cool air goes into the other bedrooms but doesnt flow out into the kitchen or etc but#wjhen it's the time of day that the sun is directly hitting the window & it's like 102F outside even that doesnt help much. to cool 3 rooms#and I always feel like we're going to explode the air conditioner or something running it too much with direct heat on it. sometimes it#smells like hot plastic or whatever ghj.. so it's mostly just.. block off all windows with 5 layers of blankets and cardboard#starting at 10am (meaning.. no indoor light for days basically.. no natural lighting.. time passes weird. hard to determine time of day).#throw water on the bed every night so you sleep in wet sheets and keep your clothes and hair wet at all times. ice. cold drinks. keep a#little fan running pointed directly at you nearly 24/7 even when sleeping with a fan blowing air on you makes your eyes and throat painfull#dry. etc. etc.. and i KNOW people have it worse in plenty of places blah blah. i am just complaining on my little blog that is about me lol#I think the biggest thing about lack of adequate/central air conditioning for me is just the LACK of productivity!!! I am working on games!#and novels!! and so many other crafts. costumes! sculptures!!! things I want to do!!! we all have a limited amount of time on this planet a#nd I have so many goals!! To lose basically 4-5 days straight or producivity - when if I had been able to temperature#control my environment better I could have easily gotten more done because I wouldn't be laying around nuseous and too hot#and sick to do anything all day etc. -- is like.... GRRRRRR... it just feels so senseless.. i could have USEd that time...#Every CEO who has contributed to global warming owes me 1million doallrs to fund my art projects and make up for all the time#I've lost on them due to their stupid bullshit.. also they should be stoned to death in a public square. but redistribute the money FIRST#to everyone on the planet. but especially people who have been affected by floods. fires. etc. etc.#poor people who have limited choice in housing and access to air conditioning. homeless people in cooling centers. people with disabillitie#and health issues that are worse in the heat so the entire future just seems increasingly terrifying for them. etc. etc.#ANYWAY.... eughhhgh.... It can cool down SLIGHTLY at night but the past few nights I have been sleeping in an 81 degree room and I wake up#and first thing in the morning its like 82 by then and I'm so nauseous and nasty feeling... just so so tired of it.. I NEED SNOW#literally not even joking.. snow would heal me. .. oughffff...#AND i got the new nasty stinky poo poo pee pee tumblr dashboard update lol.. e v i l
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unpopular onion be nice but if that was a fuck you to the festival and people seeking nostalgia, it's a fuck you to me, an old ass mcr fan who was also unsettled by the noise and lack of interaction and who spent an ungodly amount of money going to this festival that was beautifully nostalgic after spending an ungodly amount of money going to this mcr tour which was beautifully nostalgic
can anyone be super chill and cool and explain to me how it's not a fuck you to me
I had an incredible time at the show but people going hard on this take is bumming me out, in no small part because it screams of fans running with assumptions they make like it's gospel
#like i get it but also this is the worst mcr show ive ever been to#i loved it! i dont think theyre in my top 5 bands of the day#delete later#i guess 😮💨#now that im alone in vegas i can share my most terriblest thoughts: i am not sucking their dick on this one#dicks* i mean maybe mcr has one collective dick#okay rockefeller was probably worse but it literally snowed on us lol#reasons not accepted include: wwwy tricked bands into joining and fans into coming - then why punish the fans#something cashgrab something - then why. lmao. play the show#WB has their lips sewn shut - do they??????#the only way what people are saying is accurate is if we accept it was poorly done#'you dont get it' because fuck that shit get WHAT who is it for why isnt it for the fucking fans#maybe that's what's bothering me. they didn't connect to the fans at all#p.s. my ocd really wants me to reread this 50 times before i can move on with my life so if you made it this far#mom had me on speaker when i called and apparently annette ran into the room when she heard me ;_;
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I was actually having a pretty good day until just now :/
#i reread and made notes for two solid hours! 15k of words!#i went for a walk and got ransom a toy and stocked up on chocolate (my excuse is that sometimes when i'm feeling awful eating a bit of#chocolate helps lol and this stuff was 50% off) and generally had a good walk!#and i had a bath. first bath of the season! and i read like hafl of out of hte silent planet while i was bathing and it was wonderful!#mum made the BEST ginger pudding today!#so like. i've had a great day today!#so many blessings!#and now i just feel awful because i ate something and i wanna throw up and i mustn't#been struggling more with dealin w eating lately too at times and in the last week have been deviating from what the dietitian's been#encouraging me (variety) bc i couldn't deal with it#but today was a good day! a great day! and now i feel terrible for no apparent reason#yay me :/#puddleglum hours#personal#incidentally am SO grateful for the job that requires me to wear short sleeves bc i know that by now i would've harmed deep enough to scar#on my arms as well if i hadn't had the knowledge that the next day id have to be at work w that. the reason this is coming up rn is#bc SURPRISE i rlly wanna harm#and i CAN'T my mother found my knife. honestly even having it htere whether or not i used it felt like it gave me an option even if i#didn't take it. it was a comfort. and now it feels awful not having it esp as idk when i'll get it back and also even worse my parents#litcherally gave me that knife for my last birthday. i don't know how mum feels about that#but yeah i just. i want to do smth drastic so bad#and i CAN'T#tw sh#i don't even know why#ugh
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wonderful insight past me, thank u
#getting personal in the tags brace urself#oh my god i fucking hate the whole breed of abusers who talk like therapists#or worse! actually go into the field! fuckin hell#man i sure wonder what mightve happened at the beginning of the year that made me write that down#anyways dont trust discord strangers bc its like 50/50 on if theyll turn out to be a fucking ghoul#and hey. this also goes for the ones who talk about being abuse victims. whether or not theyve been abused is irrelevant to how they treat#personal#forgot to put that earlier. lol#maybe im just writing a letter to my past self. just to prove i didnt deserve to be mistreated. none of us deserved that.#that other people hurting you just means they hurt someone and it doesnt say anything about you#whats the stage of grief after rage again. bc i think we went thru the sad and angry already#ill look it up. its fine#3-4 is think about feelings time i guess lol
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#feelin like a big lonely loser tonight teehe ^__^#thought maybe i had plans but then not n everyone else i asked didnt answer or had plans w other ppl too#n i had suggested a plans with stef but she never rlly confirmed or denied but i figured not plus im kinda sick now too but#also called her just to be like hi n i miss u bc idk im SICK n i hate being sick n the way she sounded was weird AaagghGGHHHHH#n im just now realizing maybe she also ended up doing plans w other ppl#just feels like nobody likes me i GUESS which is dramatic but . aagggghhghgh#to be fair a bit of a 180 from i love u so much lemme say it 50 times last night to i call her n say ilu n shes like uhh ok haha#anD I FEEL LIKE EVERYONES GIVING ME RLLY SHORT ANSWERS N LIKE#but i dont know if i have the energy to give a lot of. energy. ?? to expect it back? but its like#an endless cycle of feel bad so less energy or want to bug less so then deserve less in return anyway so feel worse#its kinda feeling like isolation time which i havent done in a hot minute but i tried so hard to get out of it but like . for what yknow#i got to talk to some ppl some more n meet some ppl but at the end of the day i still feel alone n alien teehee#but maybe im just bejng dramatic bc sick. and rsd with the Tones and ppl having Plans With Others#like its perfectly reasonable to have forgotten or just idk had better options or maybe bc i didnt say anything sooner buT . IDK. 😔🥺#im sick n i hate being sick n i want someone to take care of me ugh#instead i just kinda sat here. played some OW. got mad at OW. ordered pizza to engage in basically food self harm LOL n watched some#of a show ive been meanjng to watch. jts neat so far. but yeah now i just feel like shit i guess#idk how to like. not be insane. or like. ask ppl for like. idk. reassurance or smthn or. share feelings. without feeling like i am.... bad#for doing so or itll end poorly or its excess or burdensome or unreasonable. bc it kkinda is unreasonable but idk not entirely ig yknow#and i really need to shower but i especially dont want to now that i ate food bc id rather die than look at myself naked but yea#YEAH. IDK. i feel. like shit. and garbage. and i can almost see this as being the turning point to me sabotaging my ownnpotential future#whatever ive been slowly building that i just. end up giving up now.#god i wanna call stef or pidge or someone n... ig not even talk abt this bc i dont wanna be a bother but. just hear ppl. u_u#feel like i am wanted in the world slepflsjhggbjwjr#It's My Blog I'll Use It As A Diary / Thought Organizing Thing If I Want To !!!!
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