Aaawwweee! I want to give Ben all of them! 🥺❤️
Ok gotta make a choice🤔
Let‘s give him: 🥰+🍳
Post Nightmare Cuddles and Breakfast in Bed
Ben awoke with a start. He was gasping for air and covered in a cold sweat. He sat up and pulled his knees to his chest. He pressed his head to his knees and tried to calm his breathing.
“Benny? You okay?" Zoe said, rolling over next to him in bed.
She rested her hand on his bare shoulder and he flinched. She pulled her hand away and sat up to be next to him. She gently rubbed his back, her fingers absently tracing the lines of scar tissue that criss crossed his body.
She didn’t say anything. She simply waited with him. Waited for him to come back to her.
“It was just a dream,” He finally whispered. “I’m okay. I’m… I’m okay.”
Ben was still panting. It felt so real. He could feel the cuffs on him, the collar, the hands… Ben scrabbled his fingers down his face.
“I just need a minute. I’ll… I’ll be back. Go back to bed.”
Ben tossed the covers back and got up and walked to the window. He threw the curtains back and stared out at the moonlit night. The air in the room chilled his damp skin. He flexed his fingers, his palms giving a slight throb at the stretch around the scar tissue.
Being able to see the wide open sky always helped when he felt like this.
A moment later Zoe’s familiar hands were on his shoulder, her soft, warm body pressed up against his back.
“It’s okay, Benny. You haven’t had a nightmare in a while. Deep breaths, my love. It’s okay.”
Her hands moved slowly, caressing from the back of his shoulders, around his strong arms, over his chest and then flattened out over his abdomen. She rested her head on his back and they swayed slightly in the moonlight.
He laid his hands over hers. She was right, it had been a while. The demons that haunted him at night were long gone, but every now and then, they reared their ugly heads and tried to claw him back again.
He turned in her arms. “I love you. You’re so good to me.”
She rested her head against the solid plain of his marred chest. Again her fingers traced the scars on his body, the ghosts of old tattoos that were long since removed. She’d memorized every mark and kissed the hurt away from each and every one of them.
He rested his cheek on the top of her head and together they stood in the quiet and the dark.
“I love you, Benny. You’re so good to me as well.”
“Hmmm,” he hummed into her hair.
Zoe listened to his heart rate slowly calm down. There had been many a night she’d helped him battle his demons. But they grew less frequent as time passed.
Finally she looked up at him. “Come back to bed?”
Ben exhaled and nodded. Zoe sat and pulled him to her, pulling the blankets up to cover them both. He pillowed his head on her breasts and she stroked his hair and kissed the top of his head.
“Rest, my beautiful darling. I’ll keep watch for a bit.”
Now it was Ben’s turn to listen to a heartbeat. He let the slow steady rhythm of it lull him back into a peaceful sleep.
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Morning arrived with the sound of birdsong and the smell of coffee. He breathed a contented sigh as he thought over the night before. The nightmares sucked, but at least he wasn’t alone.
Zoe came into the room and handed him a steaming cup of coffee. He could smell the hazelnut. She settled in next to him and they both drank in quiet solitude. He read morning headlines on his phone while she scrolled through social media. It was all so mundane. He wouldn’t have it any other way.
Was he whole? No. Part of him never would be. Was he happy? Completely. There were things that he’d wished he’d never experienced, but they were all part of who he was and how he came to be in this moment right now.
He pulled Zoe towards him and kissed her temple. She smiled at him, placed her hand on his cheek and pulled his face toward her. Their lips touched and Ben wondered if he’d make it out of bed today. If he didn’t it would be okay.
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Holy shit.
This isn’t about Ben, apologies. I just need to shout this
Idk what’s in the air this week, but it’s been stellar. blink just dropped two singles and they are amazinggg
One More Time is such a soft sweet track where they get brutally honest about their numerous breakups. My heart. Blink-182 has been with me for a long time. They’re my favorite band since I was 16. I’m so grateful they found a way to make it work. Both because I love them with all my heart but also because I selfishly want them to keep making music for me for a long time
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