My name is peridotglimmer, also known as Belle or SugarsweetRomantic around these parts. I'm a queer Deaf mum to a toddler living in the Netherlands, an avid fic reader and writer for many different fandoms, and as difficult as I find to say this:
I need help.
Over the last months, I've been coming to the realisation that my wife, who I've been with since I had just turned 17, is abusive. And I need to get myself and our son out as soon as possible, as safely as possible.
My wife has isolated me from everyone IRL, including my parents and friends, and controls every aspect of my life.
This entire situation has had an immense effect on my own mental health, which means I'm currently on disability income myself. That's just enough to pay for bills and groceries. She also controls what we spend money on, which means it's nearly impossible for me to set any money aside. I'm trying to save up as much as I can, but I'm not reaching the amount I need to get out anytime soon.
I have two major issues that I need to take care of:
I need a passport. I fear I'll need to flee when I break this whole cyst open, so to speak. I can take shelter with a friend in the UK, but Brexit means my European ID card isn't enough to enter the UK. A passport costs approximately 85 euros, and I'll also need to get photos taken for it. My wife tracks my location 24/7, but I have some opportunities to get to town hall and get it without her knowing. Getting to my friend would be cheapest by taking a train, then a plane, and then a bus. From that point, they will be able to help me out, and I will be able to support myself as well.
I do not have custody of our son. She's been saying I have to earn custody of him, but it's not looking like she'll ever grant me custody. I'll potentially have to take her to court for that, and I will. I refuse to give up on my son. He's the love of my life, and my motivation to create a better life for us both.
If any of you reading this is in the position to help out financially, I would be eternally grateful. The easiest way to do so, is via Ko-Fi, and thus, I'll link mine below. Please only help out if you can miss the money.
I'll be eternally grateful for any help I might receive. Reblogs are greatly appreciated, thank you in advance. I'm terrified, but determined. I have to get out.
[A sad violin song plays over an image of a sad hamster]
Pac: This doesn't have anything to do with me – I wear a blue sweatshirt, you're crazy, this mouse doesn't even have a sweatshirt, this hamster! [Reading chat] Am I a depressed hamster?
[ Transcript continued ↓ ]*
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Pac: Actually– that's fine! I embrace that idea – of course I'm going to be depressed, are you crazy? [He hits his desk, then starts counting off people on his fingers] Fit is gone, Richarlyson is gone, Ramon is gone, Bagi and Empanada who were always there when we were there are also gone, I haven't seen them! It's just me and Tubbo, and sometimes Philza shows up.
Pac: I lost Chume Labs, I lost the Favela, I lost Murder Mystery, I lost Ilha Chume Labs, it's crazy! Look at how much I've lost, and I've gained nothing! Of course I'm going to be depressed, are you crazy?! How am I supposed to be happy?!
Pac: [Reading chat] "You have us Pac," that's true, thank you. No, that's true, sorry.
* NOTE: Please note that this is an incomplete transcript, as I was primarily relying on Aypierre's translation mod at the time and if I am not confident of the translation, I do not include it. As always, please feel free to add on translations or message me corrections.
Fun BSD French translation details and choices - Episode 17
(by someone who does not understand Japanese but thinks the differences with the English translation/subtitles are fun)
General notes:
Kouyou's ability is called "Or démoniaque" (Demonic Gold).
Kouyou called Mori "Monsieur Ougai". I know she calls him "Ougai-dono" in the Japanese dub, but to call someone "Mr [first name]" in French has the connotation of them being a preschool teacher or something sdkjfhskdjf
Lovecraft'S voice actor is so funny. He has the voice you would expect to hear on some kind of large, benevolent, homely creature. Maybe a cuddly bear. He sounds less menacing and more like he ended up in the wrong role, but it still fits his "why am I here I just want to sleep" vibe.
Steinbeck and Lovecraft's abilities are just literal translations of their English counterparts. "Les Raisins de la colère" (The Grapes of Wrath/Anger) and "Le Grand Ancien" (The Great Old One/Ancient).
Chuuya called Kouyou "Madame Kouyou" in front of Mori, in an uncharacteristic show of politeness. French dub Chuuya is just some guy to whom wild stuff happens.
Something I just noticed is that in the French subs, Mori calls Elise "Éris". Understandable, but oops.
Atsushi uses the informal "you" (tu) with Kouyou.
Today's quote:
VF: Fini de jouer, ma belle. On passe aux choses sérieuses.
(We're done playing, gorgeous. Let's get serious.)
Eng: This is not for the eyes of children.
Don't talk to me; I'm still recovering from the fact that the first computer-synthesized voice to sing in 1961 - the IBM 704 - sang Daisy Bell, a love song.
Okay I've talked about the tragedy of Laudna now let's talk about the tragedy of Imogen.
It’s been a while, but her moment in the Feywild truth exercise where she says "I think I’m tainted. I don’t know if I want to save gods that don’t love me" has really stuck in my mind. The thing is, I don’t think she’s specifically talking about the gods here, but rather summing up and projecting her entire experience as a ruidusborn. She isn’t thinking "Why aren’t I the gods' special little princess? Why haven’t they come to save me specifically?? You better love me or I'll let you die" (which we have seen does seem to be a common attitude in the Vanguard) This is her fear of being against her own will tainted by something evil. Her fear that, despite knowing how wrong it is, part of her longs for the power and belonging that comes with giving in to Predathos. It’s knowing that this thing is the antithesis of the gods, and that no matter what she does and how much she opposes it, it is still part of her. And because of that, the world doesn’t love her. Her mother left, her father can barely look at her, her own body will betray her with feelings and powers she doesn't understand, her community ostracized her, her allies view her with suspicion, the gods will not lend a hand in their own rescue when she asks despite Imogen putting herself and her loved ones in danger for their sake.
And Imogen is tired. Tired of being the bigger person, tired of resisting. Logically she knows the gods don’t hate her specifically but it ads up, and as the lure of Predathos does promise love and belonging part of her wants to give in because why should she risk so much to save a world that has never once tried to save her.
And that’s where she, as well as Laudna, get so interesting. They have deeply sympathetic reasons for their doubts and flaws, as well as for why they value each other so much higher than the entirety of Exandria (tl;dr because they have only ever gotten genuine understanding and unconditional love from each other). But that doesn’t mean it isn't flaws. It doesn’t mean Imogen, if she hadn’t met Laudna and the Hells first and realized the harm the Vanguard is causing and that their promises are ultimately lies, couldn’t have been drawn in by the Vanguard's ideas. It doesn’t mean they aren't wrong in blaming gods for bad things in their own lives, or in demanding special treatment. But it’s deeply understandable, which is the very reason they and people like them're such excellent targets for the Vanguard to convert. And once in the Vanguard, it doesn’t matter how tragic and sympathetic you are, you are still doing evil.
Made this image a few months ago and I feel like this is still very accurate to how I feel about "Beta Ambrosius was so much better!! We were robbed" take😬
(I'm speaking about the design/LOOKS specifically, not the character - campy Ambrosius from the novel is one of my favorite things abt the novel itself)
#i'm so invested in shanks' potential bachelor status now
He is literally married to buggy since he was 12. Have some decency/j
that "come with me" loguetown scene really did feel like a proposal tbh...... if shanks had held out a ring instead of his hand would buggy have been tempted to follow?? the answer is probably yes and i think that's really fucking funny
y'all i am REELING from the end of the latest critical role ep! the CHOICES! the choices being made, kept secret, taken away, the fallout from this... that was SO tense to watch but i'm so excited to see what amazing roleplay/intra party tension this stirs up!
#(one fic i remember had dazai really eager to handcuff chuuya but chuuya just kept breaking them and doing whatever he wanted anyway#(so dazai was going for more and more heavy duty restraints it was absolutely ridiculous)#(bro just give up you're gonna break the bedframe at one point)
do. do you still have this fic..... this sounds like peak comedy for my silly little brain
I read that like 2 years ago I have NO way of tracking it down now, sorry 🫡 I remember it being short, the POV being Dazai, and the focus being on Dazai trying to figure out how to make it work, with very little actual sexy content, so there's a solid chance it's an M rating and not an E one.