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corvidsfullmoons · 9 months

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Playing with the snappy chatty.lol. depression sucks.

#depression #stressed #weak #vulnerable #dark space #alone #struggling #hate this part of life #emotional #i need a hug and a good cry #fake it til you make it #snapchat #filters #beauty thru the pain #blue eyes holding back the tears & pain #i wanna be held

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frecklystars · 7 months

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AGONY

#♬ FAR MORE PAINFUL THAN YOOOOOURS ♪#im taking screenshots to answer an anon and im giggling to myself #i fucking love when you guys ask me questions about ken (or anyone)#so i can go thru the movie and admire my beautiful horsegirl boyfriend husband malewife #CAN WE TALK ABOUT TALL KEN RIGHT NEXT TO HIM? MY DUDE #[ryan gosling voice] MY DUDE. MY DUDE. PLEASE. PLEASE. MY DUDE #barbie movie #ken #love notes #💕 I'll fight for you!! - ̗̀🐎🏖️✨ ̖́-#posts this at 5am so nobody else sees it but thats ok

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allfortzu · 5 months

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i started reading "stumbling through the dark" on ao3 and just caught up oml 😭😭😭 I love fics with more than 100k words thank you so much 🫂

#the beauty of slowly building the plot over thousands of words is real and effective and i love living it thank you 🫶#and i love being in the mood to read all of it!!!!#its reminding me of how much i love satzu 😞😞#and also. unfortunately. reminding me of the dangers of reading an unfinished fic that idk the status of. 😁💔💔 smile behind the pain 😁😁#bc rn things are not going great in the fic 😆😆 i am on the verge of imploding #but i dont and never will learn 🫂🫂 wdym the fic that hasnt updated since 2020 wont be updating anymore idk what youre talking abt 🫂#luckily for me the last update for it was in 2023!!! theres still hope 🫂#the first fic id ever read on ao3 was incomplete too 😭😭 that 14/? status will haunt me forever #edit: smile behind the pain???? i meant smile thru the pain omg

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shitty-quotes · 4 months

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yall ever just, realize how special your friends are?

#shit quote #shit quotes #shitty quote #love #love quotes #love quote #like my god theyre amazing #theyre idiots your honor #they are everything to me #they all look like sunsets #beautiful and unique #theyre so smart #they mean the world to me #id die for them #no id kill for them #id go thru the worst imaginable things if it meant they were safe and happy #i would gladly be tortured in the most excruciating ways if it meant they were left unscathed #if i could take all their pain away and put it in myself. i would

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opens-up-4-nobody · 8 months

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#sometimes. most times. if i cant articulate things properly i feel like my heads gonna explode. which is unfortunate bc i have the #language is hard brain problems. my neurology makes articulation difficult. but i try reguardless. which is sometimes. most times.#exhausting. that words gets thrown around a lot when i describe the patterns of my thoughts. exhausting. and it is i guess. tho id say its #more annoying and frustrating. but maybe its also exhausting. hard to tell when its how u think. but ive been reading a lot of papers this #weekend. enjoying the papers i read. papers about photosynthesis at the edge of habitability. about genetis and the structure and functions #of proteins. and the learning curve is steep but im learning bit by bit. and it just sorta makes me sad bc the way that my brain works has #so damaged the way that i interact with the world and i can see it at every step of my academic career. i dont even kno what to say abt the #past 2 years of my life. from where i stand now its just a black hole of self destruction. y did i do that? i dunno. at the time i was just #following the arbitrary rules and restrictions laid out for me within my head. did these rules have a rational basis? no. not usually. but #thats how it had to be. exhausting. but even then i coukd sometimes see thru to the wonder. and it was agony bc i wasnt allowed to think #abt it. its still agony now but i can feel it more often. maybe that's what happiness is to me. to be so full of wonder that i cant take it #i cant exist in that state or id b nonfunctional. its too big for my chest. it makes me want to scream and weep and pull at my hair. and #and its maddening bc i cant articulate it properly. except to call upon media short hands. there is wonder here. a nightmarish description #but not always. sometimes it was beautiful. theres a reason ive read annihilati0n 5 times despite hating the book. theres a reason i rewatch #the terror nearly once a month. to find beauty in a thing that causes you such terror and pain. theres something about it i can't find the #words for and its driving me nuts. exhausting. but so it goes #unrelated

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pepprs · 2 years

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i like uh. literally cannot believe what is happening is still happening btw.pain and suffering (update omg i hit tag limit CRINGE but i think i was done anyway lol)

#purrs #ive felt sort of beholden to keeping it quiet on here bc i felt bad since it was still kinda a secret irl. but i think the word is #traveling fast irl so im giving myself permission to talk about it with my dearest belovedest mutuals some of whom are irl friends i have #ghosted for the last week and a half despite initially trying to set something up bc i have been so miserable over it that i can’t function #and for that i apologize and i swear to god i will get it together eventually. but ok. the thing that happened is that. lol i am crying #typing it bc how do i even say it. my supervisor who is also my mentor who is also dare i say my friend who is also my close colleague who i #is also the reason i even got to the place im in to begin with in so many ways… got a new job. and didn’t tell us she did and dropped it on #us last week. literally a week after i started my new job and i was so so so looking forward to getting to work closely with her in this new #way at last and um. that is not happening anymore. and it could be so much worse like thank GOD she didn’t *** or whatever which is #something i worry about literally constantly. but this hurts. it’s devastating and i feel betrayed even though im so happy for her and she d #deserves it so much. and im so fucking sad and do fucking scared bc there’s literally 3 of us now and we have to NOT PANIC and act like we #are processing this totally fine or else we will face Consequences which are the same reasons she’s leaving probably. lol. idk. it’s very #cringe to post about it and not vague and i know it’s like weird to be close to work and to your colleagues and whatever but it has never #been just work and it’s like. how can this person come into my life and utterly transform it and we go on this journey together and we JUST #reached this beautiful glorious pinnacle but then you leave?? and who knows how long she was planning to do this. lol. and despite how s #much i care abt her im the least close to her personally out of everyone on the team so i am suffering and withering and exploding and #sobbing and howling and barking and i want to talk to her so bad and tell her how much she means to me and that it is physically painful to #think about doing this without her bc she was supposed to like. help me and stuff bc she went thru baiscally the same path im on lol and we #have a lot in common in terms of identity / life situation and i was like ummmmm hi can you teach me how to be a fuller version of myself.#and this ks like such a wake up call that no *i* need to teach me that and no one can. but i don’t want that to mean losing her and im so #scared that she won’t be in my life anymore and i am going to miss her so much. im going to miss every little thing and it’s killing me and #i can’t stop crying about it and it feels like a fucked up nightmare and everything is different now and im temporarily secon in command who #which is like wtf no that’s YOU. come back. how could you leave. but she needed to i guess and i just didn’t know how bad. but it hurts ummm #lol. and if she knew how hard ive been losing my shit i think she would be angry and sad and like surprised bc i think she thinks im #normaler than i am now but it’s like god. there was so much to look forward to and i was already feeling weird about the future and now it’s #like the little parts of it i at least knew i could count on are totally gone because she’s leaving us for fucking ****** of all places LMAO #delete later #i know it’s like weird to vent abt irl stuff / ppl so candidly i know what it suggests about me but this is like my best possible coping #mechanism rn i guess or at least it feels the best bc ppl like the posts and you don’t even have to say anything it just lets me know that #like. im not insane for it iwguess. even though iwreally feel like it. idk. i just am going to miss her so much. i wish i could stop crying

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karmaphone · 1 year

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ok but this last episode of doom patrol really said 'we're doing uncomfortable camp bc even we can't keep up real quirky when it comes to fucked up relationships with fathers'

#by this last episode I mean the Dorothy ep I just realized I haven't watched this last one I think #they really don't fuck around when it comes to dads it's always been hard hitters #I feel like execs pushed this episode or the format on them and everyone went girls at party staring dot jaypeg #bc all of the other episodes where fathers are directly discussed have been extremely heavy #everything with cliff and his daughter and related how Dorothy was placed above clara and how cliff has to try to build a relationship when #30 years have been stolen #everything with Kay and Miranda and Jane especially we saw during her split into existence how that affects the system #Larry as an emotionally distant and critical father and then entirely absent was like. the plot or at least two episodes #and then we get this. dead eyed 'space case is on the case. I guess' 'yeah no I want to stop actively try killing my dad even tho my dad #literally just tried to kill me'#literally Maura lee korupt was sooooo over it. all of us felt ur pain in this episode miss Maura lee #I'm so sorry they put you thru that but them making Abigail Shapiro say love always wins (potentially hundreds of times) is like. beautiful #karmic punishment that I couldn't do better if I tried

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patrice-bergerons · 2 years

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In the intro to Sexing the Cherry, Jeanette Winterson says-

You remember that definition of a fishnet as holes held together by string? I am interested in the holes. The string is the narrative but the spaces are what matters.

This is also my exact approach to writing - it really is all about the spaces - but my God, she does it so masterfully and I am losing my mind a little.

#jeanette winterson #sexing the cherry #writing #the way the characters tell their story - embellishing and going on detours and looping back -#is delightful. she didn’t have to set it up this way she didn’t have to acknowledge that they are giving you #the story they want to tell and it would have still been a brilliant book but that element adds so much #but then! then - if you know her own story and you can tell thru these characters #she is writing about something very personal refracted thru a kaleidoscope #gahhhh it's so painful and beautiful and brilliant all at once #in general people from dysfunctional families writing about familial trauma is my catnip #and i adore her writing

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sevens-evan · 2 years

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literally no better feeling than leg day going well

#evan says shit #my squat moved so well dude #i’ve been having problems w my hips moving up before the bar and so i’ve been mentally cuing pushing thru my heels #and it fuckin worked so well #added weight to my RDLs and my lower back def felt it some but in a good way #good muscle work instead of hurting my spine lol #bracing against an extra ten pounds is giving me that sick lower back pump 🤌#and now calf raises with almost no plantar fascia pain #beautiful

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reaperheir · 2 years

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if nerv was raised by olive or grim or both he’d have actually been a totally different person i feel.

#💀 - OOC !#// with the beakers he's learned to appreciate life & have compassion #// because of the own pain he goes thru & the fact he's sheltered from the world #// so he's learned to easily see the beauty in every little thing in nature #// whilst not wanting others to go thru the same pain as him #// BUT WITH OLIVE OR GRIM ?#// he'd be a lot more desensitized to pain - as well as death #// just bc his mother murders ppl left & right then his father guides them to an afterlife #// it'll just give him a different perspective - that death doesn't rly matter much #// as there is something beyond it anyway #// and plus without the trauma he endures he won't have the same appreciation for nature #// as it wouldn't be something he was denied of #// and he wouldn't be as... ahem /nervous/

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discountdyke · 6 months

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sometimes i think of my PDs and im like man. what a horrible and miserable childhood to have gone to such lengths to avoid feeling!

#talking tag #what i must have gone thru to have a way of thinking and living #that is so detrimental to being a human being and experiencing the beautiful world #to think that all of this was to protect me from feeling the incredible depths of pain. well thats a lot

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heart-bones · 6 months

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okay. this may have actually been the worst vacation.

#like definitely saw some beautiful things but period + pain + anxiety AND NOW IM SICK #i felt it happening when i got back tonight i was SO ACHY #can't breathe thru my nose my throat is so sore my whole body hurts #fuck.

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yourmoonmomma · 1 year

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*not a reading* Maple may I please ask for your advice? I’ve typed this out so many times and the app keeps crashing on me (what’s going on universe?)

How soon is too soon to get into a relationship? I met a guy at the beginning of the year, we would see each other here and there but it wasn’t until late march that we started talking and after a few days/week (early april) of talking we went on a date. According to him we’ve been boyfriend and girlfriend since after the first date, I didn’t know and was waiting for him to make it official even on our third date 😂. Of course, I’m thrilled, he’s so sweet and caring. He always takes me out and plans things based on what he remembers me telling him I liked etc.

But there’s a lingering thought that we’ve rushed and we’ll lose that spark.. I really like him Maple, I guess that’s why part of me is scared to get close to him because I have a feeling we won’t last long and I know for sure it’ll be a difficult heartbreak. According to his friends he’s the type to look for long term commitment, which I’m not opposed to. He’s the type to make decisions with 100% confidence and doesn’t doubt his judgement but I can’t help but feel scared :( No one has cared for me this much, I really don’t deserve him and constantly tell him to feel free to look for someone else, to which he’s adamant that he’s happy with me.

I’m also moving out of the city, not too far, but far enough that I won’t be able to see him weekly. I want nothing more than to stay with him but I’m so so scared that it’s making me insecure.

I should also mention, he’s asked me to meet his friends and go on holiday (just us two) we were going to meet a friend last week but plans changed and i’m meeting them in the summer. I’m super nervous, like, not because of the speed of the timeline but instead I’m worried he’ll get bored of me/realise that I’m not what he wants in a partner or his friends won’t like me. sorry if this was long, just needed to get my thoughts out.

Hi love, of course you can! I'm sorry to hear the app kept crashing omg, that is one of the most frustrating things when you're trying to send a longer message!

I really do think it varies from person to person. Jayson and I met in August (2019), and started dating that October, after only a week or two of "courting", if you will. But I also told him we weren't to post about it or make it a big deal for the first few months, as like a "trial run" that way it isn't like... embarrassing or something if it doesn't last. I think we probably ended up waiting close to half a year before I made any social media posts about him!

He sounds like a very sweet person!! You remind me a lot of myself, from a few years ago, and I know how scary those feelings can be. Especially if you feel almost... unworthy, perhaps, of what he has to offer you. But you aren't, and you do deserve love, regardless of how long it lasts. It can be a really scary concept, to think of letting yourself open up fully and love and be loved, without the promise of it lasting forever. But we never get that promise. And you cannot hold yourself back from experiencing these wonderful feelings because of that.

With that, it is also okay to take things slow! You can talk to him about these fears and concerns you have, maybe he's worried you'll also lose interest in him. Talking about it, and figuring out a path that works best for the both of you, will help a lot <33

Anyway, I just want to say you DO deserve him. And you deserve to be loved. I promise <3

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ravegirlrevelry · 1 year

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I love being a furry so genuinely it's like the cure to all my body issues when I imagine myself being not in this human body but rather a cool wolf or bird one

#like. it really helps #i go thru a Lot of pain and i just wish sometimes i looked sexy enough to handle it #i wish i looked as beautiful as my pfp sometimes #as you can see i have a complex relationship with gender and identity lol #there is very little i would wanna keep from my body rn #except for maybe my singing voice #but even then i'd wanna fuck around w/ it and make it do fun things #i just feel really thin and ugly a lot and it sucks #all the furry art i reblog is gender #always reiterate that #furry #cw body talk #self love #trying to heal

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miguelswifey04 · 9 months

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ive been wanting this hhhh wedding night sex with miguel fem reader pls 💞💞💞💞💞 & ty!

oh my god yes!!

wedding night sex—miguel o’hara x fem! reader

cw: nsfw 18+, smut; no plot, wedding night sex, oral sex, vaginal sex (p in v), praise kink, slightly aggressive sex

as the night falls and the celebration of your wedding comes to a close, you and miguel find yourselves alone, finally able to indulge in the intimacy of your new union. the anticipation and excitement hang thick in the air as you step into the room that holds the promise of passionate encounters. miguel takes your hand in his, his touch gentle yet filled with desire. he pulls you closer, his lips finding yours in a deep, longing kiss. the weight of the day's emotions melts away as you succumb to the embrace of his strong arms.

with each kiss and caress, your clothing begins to fall away, revealing the raw beauty of your bodies. miguel’s eyes rove over your exposed skin, a hunger evident in his gaze. his hands roam over the curves of your body, worshipping every inch of you with tender yet possessive touch. he lays you gently on the bed, his hands trailing along your thighs, teasing, and exploring. as he positions himself above you, a rush of anticipation floods through you, the realization that this is the beginning of a lifetime together.

miguel's lips journey across your body, leaving a trail of kisses and gentle bites in his wake. his hands explore, cupping your breasts, his thumbs brushing against your hardening nipples. he takes his time, relishing in the pleasure of every touch, every gasp and moan that escapes from your lips. as he reaches your most intimate area, his lips part, his tongue flicking gently over your sensitive folds. he brings his hands up, gently parting your legs, his tongue delving deeper into your warmth. the sensation is overwhelming, pleasure pulsating through every nerve in your body.

miguel's expert tongue works its magic, skillfully exploring every inch of your most intimate parts. the sensations are overwhelming, a whirlwind of pleasure emanating from your core. your hands grip onto the sheets, your body writhing in ecstasy as a sweet release builds. as your climax approaches, miguel’s pace quickens, his tongue moving with fervor. the sensations overloaded your senses, and with an eruption of pleasure, your body tenses as a powerful orgasm consumes you. wave after wave of pleasure washes over you, leaving you gasping for breath. “would you like me to continue, my princess? there’s so much more i want to explore with you tonight." his voice drips with desire, his eyes burning with lust as he looks at you, waiting for your response.

“yes please…” with a powerful surge of strength, miguel effortlessly flips you onto your stomach, your naked body exposed and vulnerable. the anticipation builds as you feel his warm breath against your ear, “you’ve been a such a good girl for me. don’t worry, it'll be pleasure mixed with a touch of pain." without warning, miguel’s strong hands grip your hips possessively, pulling you closer to him. his impressive length brushes against your wetness, teasing and tantalizing.

he enters you slowly, bit by bit, his sizable girth stretching you, filling you up completely. the sensation is overwhelming, a mixture of pleasure and a twinge of pain that only heightens your desire. miguel’s pace quickens, his thrusts becoming more powerful and full of purpose. his hands roam your body, gripping your curves firmly as he takes his pleasure. with each thrust, he hits a spot deep within you that sends you spiraling towards bliss. the sounds of skin slapping against skin fill the room, blending with your moans of pleasure.

time seems to lose meaning as miguel takes you again and again, each thrust bringing you closer to the peak of your desire. the rhythm intensifies, his movements becoming more urgent, more primal. feeling the intensity building, your body tenses as a powerful orgasm approaches. with one final thrust, miguel pushes you over the edge, your body convulsing in ecstasy as waves of pleasure crash over you. miguel, not one to rest, continues his relentless assault, extending your pleasure, prolonging your release. his determination to savor every drop of pleasure pushes you to the edge once again, and with a cry of his name, you surrender to the ecstasy that consumes you.

both of you lay there, panting and sated, riding the waves of post-orgasmic bliss. miguel wraps his arms around you, pulling you close as you bask in the afterglow of your intimate encounter. “you’re incredible, sweetheart.”your hearts beat in sync as you lay there, bodies intertwined, ready to explore the depths of pleasure that await you throughout the night. there’s no doubt that you'll both leave this experience utterly satisfied and hungry for more.

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