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#as for girls/people i WOULD date if they didnt tire me/werent straight/werent just straight up bitchy at one point and threw me off we have
titan-god-helios · 11 months
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im so sad dude like why are none of the gay girls in my school who i actually don't completely despise talking to my type :(
#like bro i LOVE women#but why are the only girls who dont make me feel like killing someone after interaction my first ex/first girlfriend; one of my best friend#who i just would never date they're more like a brother or sibling to me#a girl who is SOSOSOSO pretty and smart and cute and would date in a heartbeat if we had just a bit more in common and if she was gay#a tiny irish gremlin who isnt a girl#another of my good friends who is probably straight but either way i wouldnt date her#ANOTHER one of my best friends who's more like a mother to me and straight and isnt allowed to date (she my wifey fr tho she's so pretty)#would never date her tho#as for girls/people i WOULD date if they didnt tire me/werent straight/werent just straight up bitchy at one point and threw me off we have#very pretty lesbian girl who i totally saw myself vibing with until she insulted me on ms teams and THEN had this very obvi crush on me#which i rejected bc no#and also was taken at the time#then we have aforementioned cute smart girl but STRAIGHT AS A LINE and with probably very conservative parents#also prev. lesbian had a crush on her too which is fun#fucking BEAUTIFUL girl in my class she's so fucking pretty and so fucking kind ohmygod but SO straight but like#bro#why are you so pretty then :(#your face is made for girls#/j obvs but anyway#she's also my ex's/best friend's close friend atp so that would be a big nono#another beautifulbeautiful girl in my class too#she so tall and pretty and so sweet everytime i get visibly upset she messages me to check up#we've never talked much at all though and that makes me sad#not my vibe though in terms of talking stuff so could prob never date and also she's straight too#even if they all like met criteria though i still dont think id date any of them#idk none of us click#which is why apart from ms conservative parents i talk to NONE of them frequently#i wish i could though#i would just be extremely drained after every convo with them though and i dont think i can do that#bisexual -> pansexual -> “but i love women so much ???” -> questioning lesbian -> “but men are so pretty sometimes” -> omni ??
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marauder-exe · 4 years
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Interview- Tom Hiddleston x Reader
Request: Hiya lovely! I was wondering if you could do a Tom Hiddleston x Reader where they are working together on Thor: Ragnarok and reader is bff’s with Tessa and She always tells Tess how much she likes Tom and Tessa is just done with her shit and tells Tom before a trio interview with them all, so during the interview Tom subtly flirts with the reader. After, he goes to her trailer on set and tells her he likes her too and they just cuddle. Thank you so much for reading my request bby!! :) Word Count: 1.1k
A/N: i loved writing this!
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“But Tesssss” You dragged out her name for annoyance. “Hes so charming, like how is he that charming, hes so goddamn charming. With his beautiful smile, and his eyesssss, you should see them Tess.” You trailed behind her as she walked quickly through the building. She came to a holt and you almost crashed iinto her back at the abrupt stop She forcefully turned around and grabbed your shoulders. “(Y/N). As much as I love you, you seriously need to stop talking about Tom, I get you like him, I get he has nice eyes, I get hes Ever. So. Charming. But youve got an interview to get ready for.” This is how a lot of days went when you saw Tom, and hung out with Tessa. It wasnt your fault that a certain British man has stolen your heart. You had been hired to play a major role on Thor:Ragnorok earlier this year, which was how you met Tessa and Tom. And youve never been the same since. She usually listened to you ramble for hours about Tom. Because thats what best friends do. But Tess was very sleep deprived, and you all had an interview and she just wanted you to. Shut. Up. For one second. You glared at her through your lashes. You knew she didnt mean it but she didnt need to be so mean. “Fine, what time is the interview?” “In about 20 minutes” You nodded, and headed back to your trailer, assuming Tess was doing the same thing. You were wrong, of course. She was (Very angrily) heading in the direction of Tom Hiddleston, who was getting some Tea. She stomped up to him. “Tom Bloody Hiddleston” She stopped in front of him, ears practically steaming. It seemed you pissed her off on a bad day. “Yes?” He said very warily, noticing her red face, and angry attitude. “If you dont bloody ask (Y/N) out soon, because I know you like her, I see the way you look at her, you cant lie to me, if you dont confess your feelings, I will punch you straight back to Britain. Because that girl, will not stop talking about you. And as much as I love to see her happy, its very annoying, even on a good day” She had calmed down a little, after getting her rant out. But Tom just stared at her. You liked him. You actually liked him. You had caught his eye the first day on set. Your bright (Y/H/C), and pretty eyes. He was staring at you the entire day. And when he found out you where Lokis love interest, he felt ready to explode. He snapped from his memory daze and looked at her. “Right…” She looked at him expectantly. “Yes… ill do that” She gave him a smile and stomped back to her trailer to get ready, leaving Tom, smiling like an idiot.
You sat in the Interview chair, in between Tess and Tom, readying for the questions. “So, (Y/N) your new on the marvel scene, and the acting scene too, this is your first major role right?” You nodded, Tom smiled in admiration next to you. “So, was it difficult, having a big rise to fame in such a short time?” You pondered the question. “Not really. It certainly was a shock, seeing how fast word travels. But I have my two favourite people to help me adjust. “ You pointed to the people either side of you as they smiled. The interviewer went on with the questions. Tessa answering some, Tom answering some too. Sometimes youd catch yourself staring at Tom, but you brushed it off. “So, (Y/N), we know your Character is a bit of a seductress” He laughed. “Much like real life” Tom chimed in, as your cheeks became painted red. Tessa stared at you both, grinning. Everyone laughed. “Was it hard to get into that frame of mind?” “I would say yes, contrary to Toms beliefs apparently. Im very apprehensive when it comes to flirting and dating, I honestly have no idea what im doing, I wouldnt know flirting if it was happening right in front of me.” You giggle. “Its true, she never notices” Tom added again, making you look away and blush crawl up your neck. The interview went on, but you werent paying attention, you where mostly wondering what the fuck that was about? No. No. He wasnt, he doesnt like you like that. You shook it off as the interview ended. You stood up and shook the interviewers hand, and got up to leave. You made chatter with your two friends as you left the interview room. “Im- ‘m gonna head back to my trailer” You yawned. Tessa gave you a soft look and hugged you goodbye, as did Tom.
You rushed back to your trailer, swinging the door open and flinging yourself onto the couch. what just happened? He wasnt flirting with you was he? Did he know? You got up and looked in the mirror. Your face was as red as a tomato. You began trying to busy yourself, clearing up the small kitchen, until you heard a faint know on the door love. “Alright, love?” Tom ducked his head into the trailer. His voice had startled you, as you turned around, you knocked a bowl off the side. “Shit!” You exclaimed, frantically trying to pick the ceramic pieces up. “Im so sorry about that darling” He rushed over and helped you pick up the pieces of the broken bowl. It was soon cleaned up and you stood to face him. “Did you need something?” You asked softly yawning. “Yes actually i-” The breath caught in his throat. Was he actually about to tell the girl hes been pining over for months how he truly feels? “Earth to Tom” You giggled, waving a hand in front of his face, snapping him out of his daze. “Ah yes. I- uh-” He didnt really know how to say it. He felt like a teenager. “ I have a bit of a ‘crush’ on you, if you will” You giggled at his teenage act. “You like me?” You smiled shyly. “Yes. Thats what im trying to say. I was enchanted by you since the first day I met you.” You yawned. “I am so sorry about the yawning, im very tired” He gave a soft smile. “But I also have a bit of a huge ‘crush’ on you too” You smiled up at him. He lay a hand on your cheek. “Thats good to know” He placed a chaste kiss on your lips. A blush dusted on both of your cheeks. His hand still lay on your cheek as he rubbed your cheek bone with his thumb. “No offense Darling, but you look horribly tired, would you like to lay down?” He asked. “Only if you join me” You smiled up at him. He smiled back. “Of course love” With that, he layed down on the couch in your trailer, opening his arms, beckoning you to cuddle with him.
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does talking to an anon help about ninjago help? cuz I'm down
DHDKCKGSC YES IT DOES THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR OFFERING YOUR SERVICES
Okay now that I know I won’t be clogging people’s dashes buckle the fuck in my dude and I should stress that I literally would not be talking about this as much as I will be if I didn’t genuinely enjoy the show. I’m gonna go season by season and just Rant
S1 has the serpentine as the bbeg and like, as far as villains go they’re p lit. They’re early enough that they haven’t been done to hell, things are fresh, the characters and dynamics are being fleshed out, and all in all s1 is a pretty solid season. There’s some fuckery that gets brought up re: how the FUCK aging works and what the actual timeline of Ninjago is and how Wu and Garmadon fit into that timeline, fuckery that LITERALLY NEVER GETS RESOLVED IN A SATISFYING WAY BC ITS REVEALED IN A LATER SEASON (s8, dw we’ll get there lmao) THAT THE ONLY REASON THE FIRST SPINJITSU MASTER, WU, AND GARMADON LIVED AS LONG AS THEY DID IS CUZ THEYRE BASICALLY DEMIGODS AND ITS IMPLIED THAT LLOYD WILL ALSO LIVE FOR A LONG ASS TIME WHICH MEANS ONE DAY HES GONNA OUTLIVE ALL HIS FRIENDS AND EVERYONE HE EVER LOVED WHICH IS A FUN THING TO THINK ABOUT AT NIGHT But anyway I digress, s1 also coincidentally introduces Lloyd (he wasn’t in the pilot episodes that set up the rest of the series) and the existence of Evil Dad Garmadon.
S2 is where Garmadon starts acting a lot more Evil and a lot less Dad. He’s the main antagonist for that season, and I actually read somewhere that the show was originally slated to end after s2 which high key explains the fuckery of literally every single season after this lmaooooo. Much like s1, I really can’t find much to complain about, the first two seasons are pretty decent as far as I can remember
Season. Fucking. Three. Where the fuck do I start??? I hate season three for entirely personal reasons revolving around the STUPID GODDAMN ROMANCE WRITING. okay lemme back up and explain a thing first so, Jay is dating Nya and they’re fine, they’re going steady, aND THEN????? THE BEGINNING OF THE SEASON INTRODUCES BULLSHIT LOVE TRIANGLE FUCKERY FOR ZERO GODDAMN REASON, BITCH I HATE LOVE TRIANGLES AND I HATE THEM EVEN MORE WHEN THEYRE DONE FOR NO GODDAMN REASON!!! AND THEN. AS IF THAT WERENT ENOUGH. THEY SHOEHORNED A ROBOT ROMANCE BETWEEN ZANE AND PIXAL AND I KNOW I RANTED ABOUT THIS A LITTLE BIT WHEN I WAS ACTUALLY WATCHING BUT I DIDNT GO INTO ENOUGH DETAIL!!!! THEY MADE THE OTHER NINJA OOC IN ORDER TO PROP UP THEIR SHIP!!!!!! AND AT ONE POINT ZANE GOES “its like we were…made for each other” AND I HAD TO FUCUCJDHVE I HAD TO SCREAM INTO A PILLOW BRO, IM SO TIRED!!!! NO THE FUCK YOU WERENT!!!!!! YOU WERE MADE FOR YOU AND PIXAL WAS MADE FOR PIXAL AND IF YALLS WANNA BANG BOLTS THATS FINE BUT DONT IMPLY THAT EITHER OF YOU WERE MADE INCOMPLETE!!!! THATS AN INSULT TO YOUR MAKERS AND YOURSELVES, MOVE ON, PLEASE AND THANK YOU. anyway that season also killed Zane (for the first time, but not the last) (spoiler alert lmao) and like, not to be an emotional little shit but I did cry a bit at his funeral.
S4 is honestly one of my favorites, even though the romance crimes continue (the love triangle bullshit is continuing and honestly I maintain that Cole, Nya, and Jay should all have gotten together and in my personal canon they DID, and also Kai has a forced romance) the VILLAIN makes up for it imo. He’s campy!! He’s funny!! He’s a clown!! He’s serious enough that if he says “I’m gonna kill you” HE MEANS IT and that’s so fucking refreshing!!!! S4 is honestly 8/10 just for the villain alone, don’t like that it retconned the SHIT out of the elemental masters and how many different elements there are TO master but eh, it’s ninjago, shit is stupid.
S5 was…interesting? OH WAIT I FORGOT TO MENTION THAT S3 INTRODUCED A GARMADON WHO WAS A LOT LESS EVIL AND A LOT MORE DAD, HONESTLY I THOUGHT IT TOOK A LOT OF THE FLAVOR OUT BUT THATS JUST ME LMAOOO. anyway s5 killed Garmadon, and I was a little sad cuz I like him okay??? I just think he’s NEAT, he’s got big dad energy, he was teaching Lloyd some shit that just got DROPPED and literally was never brought up again which is honestly a theme in Ninjago. Ninjago drinking game: take a shot every time they introduce a plot point or ability and drop it at or before the end of the season. WHICH THEY ALSO DID IN S5 WITH A DIFFERENT POWER ACTUALLY, so all the ninja are masters of Spinjitsu right, well s5 introduced the concept of Airjitsu which only Spinjitsu masters can learn and it lets them FLY and they used that for seasons 5 and 6 and then they nEVER BROUGHT IT UP AGAIN EVEN THOUGH IT WOULDVE COME IN HANDY FOR S E V E R A L DIFFERENT SITUATIONS ACROSS THE SEASONS, ONE OF THEM WOULD BE FALLING TO THEIR DOOM AND MY ASS WOULD BE YELLING “YOU CAN FLY, DUMBASS” - anyway, they do that again later lmao it’s fine. But what’s low key NOT fine is they made Nya the WATER NINJA!!! Like I’m not mad she has powers, except I kinda am, she was doing just fine as Samurai X and honestly the only reason she has super special ninja powers is for plot reasons. Also Cole got turned into a ghost, but by s7 he’s????? No longer a ghost????????? And that’s NEVER addressed or reasoned away, so like. Cool lmao
S6 didn’t happen. Like, canonically, s6 ends with wish fuckery that undoes the entire season and none of the characters remember anything that happened except Jay and Nya because S6 is the season where they get back together so they remember all those events for???? Feelings reasons?????? Unclear, moving on. The actual bbeg for S6 was a djinn with a vaguely Spanish accent, and to this DAY I don’t know why they made him have a SPANISH accent. Djinn are Arabic, not Spanish!! They’re not central or South American, either!!!! Your villain design makes no sense, do better
S7 had MORE time fuckery, and retconned what happened to Kai and Nya’s parents and hmmmhmhmhmhmhm that makes me Upsetti Spaghetti :3 not just the retconning, but the fact that they LITERALLY brought them back oNLY TO NEVER MENTION THEM AGAIN!!!!!! LITERALLY!!!!!!!! Okay so at the VERY very beginning, like pilot episodes beginning, Kai talks about their dad like he died/left fairly recently, BUT s7 contradicts that and claims that both of their parents were essentially abducted when Kai and Nya were little kids, which makes me question what in the fresh fuck two little kids were doing for all those years alone. SETTING THAT ASIDE FOR A HOT SECOND, their parents were also apparently good friends of Wu’s and old war buddies (from the Serpentine wars, which is YET ANOTHER bit of the timeline that doesn’t quite add up but honestly I could make a whole other post about that shit). But if they were such good fucking friends, why didn’t Wu check in every now and again??? What the fuck was Wu doing that was so fucking important that he couldn’t have been assed to visit his friends ONCE in like TEN MOTHERFUCKING YEARS and realize “oh shit, they’re not here and there are two tiny children running around unsupervised…My Kids Now : )” LIKE????? WU YOU LOW KEY SHOULDA LOOKED OUT FOR YOUR FRIENDS’ KIDS BETTER, THEY COULDA DIED BRO!!! Uhhhh the time fuckery also results in Wu getting yeeted ahead in time a bit and the ninja gotta find him
Season. Eight. I have…mixed feelings about this one. The beginning absolutely SLAUGHTERED me, and not in a “this is so fucking funny” way. No, the beginning made me feel like I was being flayed alive with just about every episode because Ninjago was back on its forced romance bullshit and this time it was Lloyd’s turn on the chopping block. That hurt my soul cuz like, look at that mans color scheme, he’s CLEARLY alloaro, why are you forcing romance on my aro man, why would you hurt me like that, BUT ALSO BECAUSE HE AND THE GIRL HE WAS BEING SET UP WITH HAD A LITTLE HEART TO HEART REALLY EARLY ON AND IT WAS THE MOST QUEER CODED SHIT!!!! IT DEADASS READ AS A CONVERSATION BETWEEN AN OUT AND PROUD QUEER AND A CLOSETED QUEER AND THEY MADE!!! IT!!!!! STRAIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!! The only thing that kept me watching at first was wanting to find Wu, and then I started enjoying myself once Cole found a plot-relevant baby and had fatherhood thrust upon him. Everything went from “ehhhhh” to “holy shit this FUCKS” once it was revealed that Rumi (Lloyd’s love interest) wAS PLAYING HIM THE WHOLE TIME AND WAS EVIL AND HAD AN EVIL GIRLFRIEND!!!!!! LITERALLY IMPROVED EVERYTHING ABOUT THE SEASON FOR ME, I COULD EVEN FORGIVE THE WHOLE “let’s resurrect Garmadon, but as evil as possible” BULLSHIT!!!!!!
S9 is a continuation of s8, Garmadon is back and 1000% Evil, 10% Dad, but none of the Dad energies is directed at Lloyd - it’s all directed at Rumi, and honestly I could write a whole ass post on just RUMI cuz that’s honestly my DAUGHTER and I LOVE HER and I’m MAD SHE DIES AT THE END OF THIS SEASON!!!! SHE DESERVED THERAPY AND TO LIVE WITH HER GF AND MAYBE SOME CRIME. AS A TREAT. RUMI DESERVED BETTER AND LOW KEY IM GONNA WRITE A FIC ABOUT IT, BUT ANYWAY WHERE WAS I
Ah right, so s9 has the four major Ninja stuck in the original dimension with no way home, while Lloyd has no powers (cuz he almost died last season) and has to somehow lead a resistance against Garmadon (who has taken control of Ninjago City and is working on the rest of Ninjago). Actually, s9 is pretty cool. Like, the end of s8 and into s9 are low key my favorite episodes, and I kinda wanna rewatch them now -
S10 is a FUN one. Garmadon got got last season, but he didn’t DIE, so he’s in cold storage and now there’s Another Threat and he’s the only one who knows wtf they’re up against so they let him out and he works with them. The funny part is, he is still Very Much Evil and doesn’t quite Get emotions like he did when he was, uh, human lmao, sO HE WOKE UP EVERY DAY DURING THAT SEASON AND DECIDED TO CAUSE PROBLEMS ON PURPOSE. IT WAS THE FUNNIEST FUCKING SHIT. 1000000/10 MY FAVORITE GARMADON, he ended that season by literally fucking off into Ninjago and they never decided to track him down 😭😭😭😭😭and I’m so SAD about it dude
S11 has another Serpentine as the bbeg, though in the setup to that they retconned how the fucking Serpentine tribes and history work??? I think???? Also Wu was a good 150% angrier and generally Done with the ninja’s shit, which was honestly refreshing tho I’m not quite sure I liked what the refreshed view was, but whatever lmao. S11 also had the ninja get yeeted to the dimension farthest from Ninjago, and honestly - okay, so they didn’t all go at the same TIME, Zane left about a week or two before the others did but there was time dilation fuckery afoot which I’m not too mad about cuz low key it makes sense. What I AM mad about is that they didn’t play the angst up to its full POTENTIAL!!!!!! Zane was EVIL in the other dimension!!!! Okay so I’m Ninjago he was only gone for maybe a week or two, but DECADES had passed in the other one, and all that time Zane was alone and disconnected from everyone he knew and loved, with a staff that boosted his power while slowly corrupting him and Turning Him Evil to help him, and like???? The thought of Zane trying to find a way home, trying to get SOME sort of message back, while he has to use the staff more and more to help him survive the long, lonely decades, so that by the time his family DOES show up its too late??? BRO. B R O. THAT JUST HITS DIFFERENT, BUT NINJAGO DIDNT DO THAT!!! THEY MADE HIM EVIL DUE TO MEMORY WIPE!!!!!! MEMORY WIPE IS BABY SHIT COMPARED TO A LONG, SLOW CORRUPTION!!!!!!
S12 was alright. It went into Cole’s mom, touched on some of the adventures she had had, threatened another forced romance (this time on poor Cole, just leave my mans ALONE) but thankfully didn’t follow through this time, introduced cool new powers that honestly hasn’t been elaborated on since that’s the most recent season I think lmao
Anyway thanks for reading and letting me rant!!!! I have,,So Much More I could talk about, PLEASE ask me about Rumi, some of my headcanons re: Garmadon and Wu’s dynamic, the Serpentine, my top five times they butchered Kai’s character for Plot Reasons, or anything else I brought up here that you want me to elaborate on!!!
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tangerineflowers · 5 years
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i saw her standing (dancing) there.
(brian may x reader)
warning: alcohol consumption, passing out, cuddling, cuteness, fluff
send in requests pls, also comment if you enjoyed maybe even reblog if you're feeling frisky
you stood, well danced, towards the front as this fairly unknown band echoed in your ears. as the night went on and songs got heavier she peeled her eyes away from the men on stage and focused on just dancing to the music. little did you know the band had taken notice to you and your eccentric 'dance like nobodies watching' movements. the song you'd gotten lost in came to an end and you opened your eyes looking at the stage to find the guitarist staring at you. you blushed immediately and he looked away glancing at the frontman who gave him a wink as the drummer announced the next song and the crowd errupted in cheers.
soon enough the show came to an end and you cheered excitedly and rushed over to the bar to get a drink dehydrated from all your dancing.
backstage freddie huddled up the band.
"you all saw that girl dancing in the front right." brian asked nervously playing with his guitar strap.
"yeah what about her?" roger asked lighting his cigarette.
"well i rea-." brian took a deep breath.
"can you be my wingman?" he turned to freddie and roger and deaky walked off laughing at brian's shy antics.
"of course darling now let's go find her." he smiled ruffling his long hair and confidently walking out to the floor of the pub scanning the crowd.
you sat at the bar with your drink swirling your straw around catching your breath making small talk with a man who approached you.
freddie spotted you at the bar and smiled.
"there she is bri." he pointed and brian nodded.
"can you chat her up for a second? i have no idea how to start talking to her.." he groaned crossing his arms.
"i have the perfect plan." freddie smirked and began pushing through the crowd excitedly he saw you talking with a below average bloke and came up behind you tapping your shoulder. you perk up and turn around letting out a small gasp.
"oh hello! great show!" you smiled before taking a sip of your drink ditching the man who was now behind you.
"thank you dear, you certainly seemed like you enjoyed it by the way you were dancing." he joked softly and you flushed.
"i'm freddie, what's your name darling?" he asked.
"y/n" you said flashing him a smile you glanced behind him to see the curly haired guitarist head quickly snap in another direction.
"well y/n." freddie stepped out of the way revealing brian.
"this is brian, our magic fingered guitarist." freddie raised his eyebrows giving you a wink as brian flushed at the comment. he extended his hand towards you.
"hi." he smiled and you shook his hand smiling back at him.
"you're an amazing guitar player." you complimented slowly letting go of his hand he stepped alittle closer to you.
"you're a great dancer." he complimented you back and you laughed softly.
"i try to have fun." you paused before looking out on the dance floor of the pub.
"do you want to dance with me?" you asked setting your now empty drink down.
"oh i-uh- sure! but i dont really dance well." he laughed nervously and you stood up from the bar stool taking his hands.
"thats silly! dancing is just fun moving." you smile pulling him into the crowd on the dance floor and dont let go of his hands. you both danced terribly until you began to feel yourself getting tired you leaned up to his ear.
"can we sit?" you asked and he nodded quickly leading you over to a booth where roger and deaky were already sat talking.
"rog, deaky, this is y/n." brian introduced you as you both sat down. you didnt let go of his hand as you sat until rog extended his for a shake.
"you're the girl who was dancing in the front row!" roger laughed and you rolled your eyes. deaky smiled extending his hand as well.
"you seemed like you really enjoyed our music." you nodded quickly and leaned slightly into brian.
"probably my favorite show i've ever been to!" you smiled and brian looked down at you noticing the genuine light behind your eyes as you spoke about the music.
"the bass lines and the drum beats were like nothing i've heard before you both meld so well together!" you paused and turned to brian.
"and your guitar playing was amazing plus freddies vocals he sounds like an angel!" you giggled and looked at brian who was just smiling listening to you.
"well bri we're going to head out for the night." deaky smirked raising his eyebrows at him.
"dont do anything i wouldnt do." roger winked and they slipped out of the booth leaving the both of you alone. brian took a sharp breath and looked back at you to see you yawning.
"it's getting late huh.." he trailed rubbing the back of his neck and you nodded. you usually werent a sleepy drunk but this booth was so warm and almost quiet that you felt like you were being lulled to sleep.
brian brought his arm up and wrapped it around your shoulders bringing you closer to him you smiled and wrapped your arms around his torso pressing your cheek to his chest. he felt his heart rate rise as you became so much closer to him and he willed himself to relax into you. you slowly fell asleep in his arms and he just sat there with you until freddie quietly slipped into the booth.
"success?" he laughed gesturing to your sleeping form draped over him. brian nodded giving him a small thumbs up. he looked at you while you slept admiring how your eyelashes rested on your cheeks and your hair framed your face. he tucked it behind your ear and pressed a kiss on your forward.
"if i didnt know any better it would look like she was your long time girlfriend or something." freddie joked beginning to stand up. brian just nodded not removing his eyes from you.
"should i take her home? i dont know where she lives." brian asked softly. freddie laughed gently.
"sure but dont scare her, she's gonna be freaked out when she wakes up in the morning." freddie giggled walking away. brian nodded and smiled down at you. he reached his arm around you and picked you up bridal style. in your sleep you snaked your arms around his neck and nuzzled your face into his chest. he carried you out to his van full of equipment and set you in the passenger seat you whined softly at the lack of warmth from brian's body.
he climbed into the front seat and drove home as smoothly as possible to not wake you. he parked and got out picking you up once more and taking you up the stairs to his shared apartment with roger. brian opened the door looking around. no sign of roger being home yet. brian let out a sigh of relief and took you to his bedroom. he layed you down in his bed and took your heels off. he tucked the covers in around you and before he could pull away you lifted your arms and pulled him down ontop of you.
"stay and cuddle." you mumble and run your hands through his hair. he blushed and kicks his shoes off eagerly climbing into bed with you. he stays still as you decide the position hugging close to him your head buried into his chest you continued playing with his hair until you fell asleep. he stayed away running his fingers up and down your arm taking shallow breaths he smiled dopily. he finally passed out.
the morning sun pushed itself through the curtains and straight into your eyes as you slowly woke up confused you immediately shot up hitting your head on the headboard you groaned and fell back down your head hitting brians chest you squeaked and he quickly woke up.
"shit!" you said quickly and covered your eyes with your hands.
"i'm so sorry i just- how'd i get here? did we?" you asked confused and brian quickly cut you off.
"you fell asleep on me last night, we didn't.. do anything." he reassured sitting up and getting a good look at you as you pulled your hands away from your face he smiled.
"you're really pretty." he laughed and your face flushed.
"thanks." you tucked your hair behind your ears and stared at him.
"you're really handsome." you smiled at him before getting up out of his bed. he did the same beaming a brighter more confident smile.
"i'll make us some breakfast." he said leaving the room quickly rushing to the kitchen you followed after him rearranging your dress so it was back in its normal place. you walked in the kitchen to find brian cutting up an apple as the kettle began heating up. you looked around his apartment before sitting down at his small breakfast bar watching him. this whole scene was so domestic you let out a soft sigh and brian turned around.
"you alright?" he asked pushing a plateful of cut apples infront of you.
"yeah thank you." you smiled at him and he poured you both some tea. he walked over sitting next to you.
"sleep well?" you asked lightheartedly expecting a no.
"yeah, best in months actually." he smiled at you and you blushed looking down at your plate.
"that's nice to hear." you giggle and he reaches over grabbing an apple off the plate infront of you.
"would you like to go on a date with me sometime?" he asks softly and you perk up nodding quickly.
"i'd love that!" you say nodding and his canines peak out in a bright smile which makes you smile back at him. you look around the counter and grab a pen and napkin writing your name and number on it.
"here's my number." you smile handing him the napkin and he stands up walking over to his fridge putting it up on the door. you glance over at the clock and sigh.
"i have to head to work soon." you frown resting your chin in your hand. he also frowned.
"do you want me to give you a ride home?" he asked turning back towards you and flashing a hopeful smile. you immediately nod.
"i'd love that." you smiled and leave the room going back to his bedroom you grab your shoes and walk back out to find him grabbing his keys and slipping his clogs on.
"ready?" he asked and you nodded following him out the door. he opened your car door for you and climbed in the drivers seat. he turned on the radio and the beatles 'i saw her standing there' played through the radio and he tapped his fingers on the wheel to the claps you tapped your foot both of you mouthing along to the words until you both were softly singing along with the song. you smiled at him and he smiled back you. you cut in during the song giving him directions until you finally arrived and he stopped the car.
"thank you for the ride." you smiled at him.
"it was no problem." he laughed gently still tapping to the beat.
"i'll be waiting for your call." you smile leaning over and kissing his cheek before jumping out of the van and rushing up to your apartment. his cheek went red hot and he stared down at the steering wheel gathering himself before he quickly drove to freddie's apartment for pointers on what to do next.
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i had a lot of fun writing this so i hope y'all enjoy it, i'm gonna try and write every day this summer but i'll probably miss a few days here and there, it would mean the world to me if y'all could reblog i'd love to start writing people's requests if you have any
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I can’t keep kissing strangers and pretend that they’re you
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Requested: Yes 
“I can’t keep doing this Ty. One day you are telling me how much you love me and the next you make it seem like you wish you were, i don’t know... free. For christ sake Ty, you’re 25 and still not ready to settle down. Clearly you can’t make the choice for yourself so i am making it. It’s over Tyson, I’m sorry.”
And with that you left. You didn’t look back because you knew that if you looked back you would had never left. But you couldn’t keep living the way that you were, never feeling good enough for him, always coming in second. 
It has now been two years since that day. You haven’t really kept in touch with Tyson after the breakup. It was too painful to see how happy he was and how sad you were. You kept in touch with some of the guys who you were close to on the team. You go to their games but make sure to leave right away so you have less of a chance running into Tyson. Plus it was a farther drive since you had moved, you had to since you and Tyson shared the apartment but at least your new place is closer to your work.
Tonight you had finally given into your friends and are letting them drag you out to a club. You haven dated once or twice but it was never anything too serious. you didn’t allow it to get to that point. Your friends couldn’t really blame you. You and Tyson had been together for a little over five years. Everyone thought that you two were it, that you were going to get married, start a family and live happily ever after. But life doesn’t work that way, it’s not all fairytales. 
You heard a knock on the door to your apartment, “Come in.” You yelled from your room. It was Vanessa, Mackinnon’s girlfriend (I know they broke up but just for the stories sake) who you had grown really close to over the years. “I thought we were going out tonight?” she questioned. “I thought so?” you questioned back “You aren’t even ready to go yet.” She responded. “Oh, why are we leaving so early?” you asked looking at the clock. “To get there before all the creeps do. Now come on lets go” she said walking out to your living room.
You rolled over getting out of bed and headed to you bathroom. You plugged in your hair curler and got out your makeup. You didn’t want to go too bold so you did a light eyeshadow but a darker color on your lips since they were your best feature. You quickly ran to get changed into your favorite black dress before heading back into the bathroom to curl your hair. Giving yourself a glance over you walked out to the living room where Vanessa was sitting, coming up behind her you could see that she was on Instagram. Looking over her shoulder you saw Tyson’s face. You dropped your shoes that you were holding making Vanessa jump and turn to look at you. “Y/n....” she looked back down at her phone seeing that Tyson’s picture was still on it, she quickly clicked out of instagram. 
“Y/n... It’s been two years...” Vanessa said. “I know. It still hurts, and I haven’t seen him in so long. Maybe I could just peek on his Insta?” You said pulling out your phone and typing in him name. Clicking on his page you saw a whole bunch of pictures with him and different girls. The pictures were probably like two weeks apart and there was always a new girl with some cliche caption, you also noticed how all the girls all looked sightly similar and almost like you. “Y/n, are you okay?” Vanessa asked grabbing your arm slightly. “Yeah, you ready?” You said placing your phone in your purse, bending down to get your shoes on.
You  called an uber to have you guys taken to the club in town. You were honestly so excited because it was your first time out since Tyson. You walked in and headed straight for the bar. This was honestly your favorite club, there wasn’t a whole lot of creeps and the music was always amazing. You got yourself and Vanessa a shot before heading to the dance floor. You and Vanessa were having a great time. That was until you spotted him. Vanessa must had seen him at the same time you did because she pulled you towards the bar. 
“I didn’t know they were going to be here, Nate didn’t tell me...” “Vanessa, it’s okay. lets get a few more drinks and have a good time, yeah?” You said grabbing the bar tenders attention. At least an hour goes by and at this point you have at least three or four mixed drinks in you so you were feeling pretty good right about then. Tyson hadn’t seen you which made your night ten times better. 
Nate had showed up surprising Vanessa, needless to say they went off and did their own thing leaving you alone on the dance floor. There was now a whole lot more people then there was a few hours ago. Even though you had some drinks the buzz was starting to wear off. Heading back to the bar you bumped into a rather large man. Saying your excuse me’s you continued to the bar. After ordering you drink you went to reach for your purse to which it was no longer on your shoulder. feeling a tap on you other shoulder you turned around. “I think you... Y/N!?!?” Tyson said. “Thanks.” you said grabbing you purse, downing your drink, placing the money on the bar and headed for the doors. 
You just couldn’t be around him, not yet. Seeing him there all up on the other girls dancing, buying them drinks. It was just too much. Pulling out your phone you started to call for an Uber. “Y/N,,, can we just talk?” Tyson asked out of breath from clearly running after you. Ignoring him you hear a faint hello on the other end of the line, giving them your address you hung up.” “You moved pretty far huh? Why?” Tyson asked still standing behind you. “It’s none of your business Tyson, now just go back into the bar and forget you even saw me.” “How can I Y/n, you the most beautiful girl here.” “You’re drunk Tyson.” You said walking away. 
“Y/n, just stop. I haven’t seen you for two years and this is how you are going to treat me?” Tyson asked sounding kind of hurt. “Do you think it is easy for me Tyson, I spent five years of my life with you, loving you, supporting you, waiting. You didn’t even act like you wanted to be in a relationship anymore towards the end so I made the right choice for the both of us. I moved because I couldn’t stand to see how happy you were with the other girls after we broke up. And honestly nothing has changed, so go back in there and go hook up with some puck bunnies or something because I’m not coming back.” You said now spotting your uber. 
Before you knew it Tyson grabbed your arm turning you around to face him. “Tyson, what...” Tyson crashed his lips onto yours, it was like fireworks going off inside your head. Even though it had been two years, and even though you had broken up with him didn’t mean that you stopped caring for him, it didn’t mean that you didn’t love him. Pulling away you looked into Tyson’s eyes. you could tell they were sad. “I can’t keep kissing strangers and pretend that they are you. After you broke up with me I tried to find someone to drown out my sadness, all the girls I kept picking just reminded me of you. I didn’t even really like them, I just wanted you Y/n. I tried pretending that they were you and they weren’t. I hoped and prayed i would run into you again. I am so sorry that I wasted five years of your life Y/n. I wish that I could take it back and been the better boyfriend that you needed. That you deserved.” Tyson said now with tears in his eyes. “Y/n, please, I need you. I’m 27 now and I’m tired of playing these games. I love you.” 
“Ty... I... i need some time to think.” You said before getting into your uber. You were heading back to your place, I couldn’t stop thinking about what Tyson had said. Maybe he has changed. Maybe he is finally ready to settle down. Before you knew it you gave the uber driver your old address. You hoped that Tyson had gone home by this point. Pulling up to the old apartment building you got out. Taking a big breath you headed up to Tyson’s apartment. 
Knocking on the door you head footsteps. The door opened revealing a puffy eyed Tyson. “I can’t keep kissing strangers and pretend that they are you either.” You said making Tyson smile. “This is your one and only chance Tyson Barrie. You better not waste another five years of my life.” You said kissing Tyson. 
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The Gay Kid
Word had gotten out. Who knew the language we speak, became to plague that runs along our tongues. Who knew the compliments we use to brighten peoples day, and uplift people out of depression were the things that were turned and swindled by humans to create offences. Being homosexual now correlates to being a sinner? Being gay is now tied to a negative slanter? Grade 7: The Senior Primary Year. Of the time it was a big thing. Rocking up to class, sitting down i realise all of my class were the popular kids, with the odd 5 nerds in the back. Hmm. Now I think you could have assumed where I sat, well obviously next to the nerds. I mean, after last year, I really couldnt deal with the bullshit, or the drama. Maybe it had fizzled over the holidays? Maybe it had been forgotten. I sit next to this guy, not a nerd, but a 'nerd'. He was super adorable, and today he's hot as fuck but different story. We sat together for a while, chillin, listenin, readin, collecting time to buy while the final year of primary school breezes by. But by breath a blizzard come quick. Freezing time a boy turns around and asks with a nice clear and crisp voice, for even the teacher to hear, 'Are you two dating?' I had honestly thought, you have to be fucking kidding me. This bullshit has gone on long enough. At this point bullying couldnt be dealt with, it would be useless. 'The Gay Kid' branded me for the next half year. Hanging with the in crowd didnt help too much, nor did hanging with the out crowd. Either way, boys were boys, and they are hot. Idk even people to this day look at me like im some disgusting child rapist. Like what act of crime have I gone through for you to give me this look? I cant look my own way? Playing on my mind was the thought of the new year, new school. New me? New identity? A fresh start. That all comes later on. He was super super cute, this guy I would sit next to. I became attracted to him, which was scary at first cause like from being 'hard' over a girl was the norm, in class boys first made reference to wanking, purely from seeing the side ads on school websites. Child-friendly porn you could call it. This idea of a guy kinda hit me where it 'shouldnt have'. The idea of me becoming to this idea churned my stomach. Made me sick. How could I be so disgusting, so vulgar. 'Gay is not the way' played on in my head for so so so long. For anyone who asked, I was the femenine straight kid. I was the pretty, i dont care what anyone thinks kid. I was the strong one. But from where it broke me, it made me. Sure I was the bent kid, who sat alone, but i was never sitting alone was I. Cause I had me. And me, myself, and I pulled myself from out of this shit hole, and put me where i am today. 'The' Gosh make it sound official hey. An isolated character. The. what a profound title. I am the only one. you are lone. at least thats how I felt. Suicide crossed my mind so many times through this period. I thought, if my body wanted to get off to a male's persona rather than a females than why not be in the ground. my mum wont love me? my dad wont? my little sister will be like tf? i felt worthless. I felt hopeless. the kids who would stare and wonder how I could be so different. To the kids who read this and stood by my side through this, thank you, you arent neglected. but if you dont hear yourself be mentioned, then news flash, you werent there to help me. and funny how ive mentioned no one yet. 'Gay' The new sin. The new punishment. What did I do to deserve this? I would go home, and google 'am i gay quiz' or the classic 'how to know if your gay' in google incognito, and look up whether the internet could tell me something i had to tell me myself. it would tell me all kinds of bullshit. it got to the point, where i was sick and tired of crying myself to sleep so much, that i would fake thw results, so I could feel better about myself. but a dark pond willowes beneath me. dark waters swelled. who knows, if your mind sits happy, doesnt mean your heart does. 'Kid' Keep in kind im 12. A twelvie. A selfie junky, long haired, sweaty-rat-like homosexual twelve year old. And I hated myself. Gosh dont i sound horrible. I went from first hearing the word, 'Gay' to now wearing it like my own. Fuck yeah I was the gay kid, you're god damn right I was. This wasnt over, this is only just beginning. Cause you see, the trick I fell down was, believing that finding true happiness comes at the age of 12, pro tip it doesnt. The year goes by, a few death threats, a near death, a near boyfriend, a near girlfriend, 2 girlfriends. I was so scared omg. MANY CRUSHES, many heart breaks. much disappointment. and finally down, to graduation. we graduate. we leave. we. dont. look. back. The final time I saw this guy I turned away and walked off. I didnt cry, I didnt tear, I cried to the first girl I could truely say I liked. How the days have changed. She changed, she changed me. I sit here crying now thinking of how stupid it was, only grade 7. It wasnt the buildings, it wasnt the school. It was the memories that lay within these areas. I wouldve much have rathered being thrown, into a concrete wall, being called gay, then being somewhere new. It had finally hit me. The old has gone, the grade has left. We drove off, into the distance. The gay kid planted in my brain, who knew where it would grow. who knew where it would take me. Who knew who was next to come. And boy wasn't he a nightmare.
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