my official rotb review:

okay

wait it just occurred to me there are people who might view kirk and spock as platonic besties through tos AND the movies ??? how do they make sense of it all

henlo! my dash have been pretty dead so i'm currently looking for more people to follow. if you're active and post about:

queer fandom content

cats (or cute animals in general)

art / poetry / memes

marvel / sc content

pretty women (obviously)

chinese period dramas

pls like/reblog this post and i'll check your blog out c:

+ if you have any recommendations for wlw shows for me to get into, feel free to comment or drop by my inbox/dms! much appreciated hehe <3

on having a sister

tennessee williams, a streetcar named desire / brother, sister, rival, friend: the longstanding effects of sibling relationships / natasha, pierre, and the great comet of 1812, sonya alone / frozen ii, the next right thing / me / mitski, i will / louise glück, tango

i miss my stepdad :(

Just asked the girls this but what should Daniel put in his mouth no wrong answers

Guys I finished the supernatural aliens not aliens demogorgons dnd something something show !

somethingsomething if preventative medicine proved to BJ that he couldn’t protect Hawkeye from himself, and period of adjustment proved to BJ that Hawkeye couldn’t be protected from BJ’s emotions either... then how might BJ feel as someone who’s been taking on a role as his protector and stability?

there is... something to be said about zoya being a fresh water creature; she has a distaste for the open sea, yet she is always at her most relaxed when submerged in a tub. water is obviously one of her ruling elements but when mixed with salt and sediment well it no longer can sustain life, at least human life that is! there also is pure water in blood and of course zoya's connection to rain and the water found in vapor i do often thing about her capability to render herself entirely into mist as well but that is a post for another day

a6 chapter 6 thots. its long

Overall: despite the very buggy bedroom scene, genuinely enjoyed it! having that soft moment with our LI was *chefs kiss*

i will say, im conflicted about the tilarin sequence. nerissa being alive derails a lot of possible development and angst i thought might happen. Opens the route for new bad feelings to happen, of course. Like, okay i dont need to be here anymore, i never needed to be here. Regardless of how much Nerissa might love us and the crew may care about us I can see this dredging up a lot of shitty feelings from living in the palace.

On one hand my traveler is happy about this and relieved that a burden of 'what are you going to do after zovack' is no longer on her shoulders but like, in terms of narrative, idk if i like it. If nothing else, it feels too soon and for some reason, too easy? Hard to explain that one

It makes sense that Nerissa would want us to get to her ASAP, if we're as dear to her as she implies

I don't know how we'll be able to direct our travelers after this and i doubt ill actually be able to do it but: i can see my traveler becoming completely overwhelmed by all of this and shutting down. Like, okay, thats whats going to happen regardless if the game lets me. ill fit it in

really hoping Nerissa's not planning to re-establish the Peg'asi monarcy b/c its what got us into this mess in the first place. if she is i'd like if we could convince her a different form of government would be better.

im also hoping Nerissa does not end up traveling with us. my heart is happy she's not dead but her being on the a6 would rub me the wrong way for some reason.

there's quite a bit of 'she's stealing our spotlight!' going around but I a. don't think Nerissa is going to be in the forefront of our narrative for very long (assuming she survives, problems with the k'merii seem to hound us/the crew) and b. the game is still about our character, i understand that it feels like the rug got pulled out from under us though.

also, it's been repeatedly stated that something bad can't happen to the traveler b/c it would take them out of the narrative, but this kind of feels like whats happening. not physically or forcefully but we are no longer needed to accomplish the og goal. (tho if i think about it, we never really were lol)

i really do hope the next part comes out rather quickly, b/c i think part of the reactions im seeing are in response to this chapter ending the way it did. there is no real resolution or what this means for us.

basically, im waiting to see where this goes. i need to see where this goes before really forming a final opinion on Nerissa being back

Fun fact: i had this AU bouncing around in my head that one of our siblings survived. our least favorite one. really just so my traveler could snap and beat the shit out of someone

Idk if you already answered this, but what does the v3 cast do after the killing game in your au?

ooh it never came up!

i imagine most of them would try to just, recover and cope with normalcy and a weirdly parasocial microcelebrity status. they would remain relatively close for a time (with some exceptions) as friends, but by the time kiyo would be rooming with shuichi, it would be a very loose thing with specific people remaining closer to specific people and meeting up from time to time. kind of a post high school graduation classmates setup, except with less trauma. it is important to note however, that by the time kiyo is even released from care, a good chunk of time has passed and the cast have already grown apart as a group.

☕️ gender. Is that too broad a topic? I'm debating my gender atm so I'm thinking about all of it 😂

☕ thots + onions

⌖ It’s a VERY broad topic. What do you want my thoughts on? What it is? That’s all METAPHYSICS! I’M just a RADIO HOST with a BLOG!

⌖ We can start with a single step in my direction, so to speak! It’s a social construct. And I’d like for you to think about what that implies, to you! As far as I’m concerned, it means that I’m not innately anything. To be simplistic, my gender is the social class I move through society as. It’s performative. (I’d take it a step further and say our existences are performative. You don’t find yourself, you create yourself & retain object permanence among your witnesses!)

⌖ I look inside myself and ask, “do I feel like a man or a woman?” and the answer is, “I feel like the ACTIVE DUMPSTER FIRE behind the WAFFLE HOUSE I drunkenly fistfought three people at last month!” And I LIVE & NAVIGATE SOCIETY as a woman because THAT’S what I have to DO to achieve the same level of DYSFUNCTION as the REST of you people!

⌖ (You might find it more productive to focus less on what gender you ARE ‘inside’, and focus more on HOW you want to navigate the world, and why!)

Ship bingo.

For something different...

Aramis/Anne

Athos/Milady

(Any version)

ohhhh hiiii! I've missed these guys a lot. let's see.

aramis/anne (ugh. complicated.)

athos/milady

bonus

athos/milady BOOK VERSION (where is the She Deserved Better panel?!)

i’m the fool for thinking this guy is scared of me bc he likes me no he’s scared of me bc he could b my dad =_=

It's me. I'm the cis, heterosexual, aromantic man. I will never marry, I will never be married, I will grow into middle age and elder age and I will die unmarried. I will be forced to support a household of myself on only my wages alone for the rest of my life. I will be asked about women and marriage and children by my family for the rest of my life (or men, the progressive ones might say). I may not ever come out to them. I feel like I burned my coming out on something stupid. I don't want to explain it. I don't want to run them through the definitions and intricacies. I don't want the acceptance without understanding, placating me with ceased questions and poor explanations to other, drunk adults.

I like my hair to be long, I spent a year with it dyed a golden blonde with dark roots because I like the trashy party girl aesthetic. I want to dye it again with pink tips. I like painting my nails, black and blue are my favorite colors. I like wearing chokers. I also like wearing baggy jeans and ratty hoodies. I like having stubble. I like having chest hair. I like having a square jaw and broad shoulders. I wish I had a flatter stomach and a thinner profile frame. I don't know what this makes me, perhaps this is something no more GNC than Machine Gun Kelly. I think about this a lot, how queer my appearance truly is. I should think about it less. I have thought long and hard about if I could be trans or if I could be non-binary or if I could be genderqueer and the conclusion I ultimately came to is that I most enjoy being a man open to whatever self-expression I want.

I don't date, but I've thought about it. I would like to meet people, and I would like to have sex with them. But I don't want to hurt them. I fear if I explain what I am beforehand it'll scare them away. I fear if I explain after they'll feel manipulated or abused. I don't know how many people in the dating scene want what I want. I fear my own lack of experience will make me a bad lay, an embarrassing story to tell to confidants in hindsight. I fear my own virginity, a boundary to those I wish to be like. All of these fears are baseless, as I've not been able to even begin a single relationship in my life. Despite this I still heavily identify with terms like "slut" and "manwhore" and "thot" because my interests lay so deeply within casual sex, sex without great intimacy or emotion. This may be some form of stolen valor. I hope the true sluts are not too mad at me.

I made this blog several years ago because a mutual of mine reblogged memes making fun of aro and ace people, making fun of the concept of aphobia, and in addition well known aphobes. I didn't feel comfortable talking about aro stuff on my main blog, for as little as I talk about it. Living through the ace discourse of the 2016 era has largely caused me to cringe in embarrassment any time I am forced to discuss my orientation with people who aren't aro or ace themselves. I no longer follow this person. I unfollowed many people I was mutuals with from that time, most of them because they posted too often about how much they hated men and I didn't want to see that, some because our interests simply drifted too far apart, only one for explicit aphobia reasons. (Also one because they became a "both sides are bad, any vote is wasted" libertarian, but that's unrelated.)

I guess at this point I don't care deeply about what strangers on the internet think of me. If a trusted friend told me that they don't think I'm truly queer that may hurt. But I am going to continue to use the word for myself. I take up no resources. I go to events that are open to me. If an event was not open to me, I think I'd not want to go anyways. I am not a hypothetical, I am not a strawman, I am a person with lived experiences both within and exterior to the queer community. If you hate me, I will permit you to continue to do so. But ultimately, I am who I am, I cannot change these facts, and I would not choose to do so even if I could.

theres cliques everywhere, dude

at least let me get paid a living wage to deal with them