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seekingthestars · 21 days

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she's beauty she's grace she's Miss Eevee Cosplay 3.0

#personal #pls don't ask me why i'm up at 2am i don't wanna talk about it #anyway i think she's mostly done maybe #i did some more work on the bangs on the wig after i took these pictures so they look better #and i might try to find some flowery earrings when i go to the store for some other stuff tomorrow #but all the major things are done. i think.#honestly i'm all over the place rn so i could be forgetting something #i keep bouncing back and forth between the one million things i have to do (con and not con-related)#anyway i usually try to do a different cosplay every day of con but idk i think i'll just wear flower eevee both saturday and sunday #bc i've put so much work into it and tbh i don't think i can handle trying to get another cosplay ready rn #the only exception would be maybe doing eevee 1.0 or 2.0 bc have everything except the wigs for those ready bc of eevee 3.0 #totoro is friday bc my friends and i are doing a ghibli group!!#i wish i had a different ghibli cosplay just bc i've done totoro so much but i do love totoro and she's easy and comfy so that'll be nice #sorry shutting up now i need to go to bed i have WORK TOMORROW #cries #i should start taking off the whole week of convention lol #(no i shouldn't i should just get back in the habit of getting my cosplays done early and not con crunching -.-)

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arthur-r · 2 months

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hello new self portrait just dropped which means this is officially what i look like now

#i have glasses now!!!! i’m not very good at drawing them but i sure have them on my face at all times shdhdf #and i recently started growing out my hair!!!! my distinctive bowl cut had a good run but i’m officially moving forward #i’ve also started exaggerating my big droopy sad eyelashes a LOT in pictures lately it’s part of my core identity now or something #(that’s not true shdhdf but i think my face knew about my puppydog destiny long ago and gave me puppydog eyes)#anyway i just haven’t drew anything in forever like i think i’ve drew four things that weren’t JUST notebook doodling. all this school year #(and one of those was vent art on paper and the other one was coloring with my little sister. so i’ve drew two things on ibispaint at all)#anyway i think my glasses suit me really good and i’m also really excited i can see the world really good now #i still have some vision problems from POTS that aren’t fixed but like. i can see detail in brick walls now and i’m obsessed #house fucker behavior i’m so sorry shdhdhdff (THIS IS A JOKE AND LIE. I DONT FUCK HOUSES)#(and i’m apparently a house m.d. kinnie so i wouldn’t fuck him EITHER cause we’re the same person i could never)#ANYWAYS i can see well finally and that’s good. and in conclusion i’m real tired and should go to bed #i took my meds at 9:30 then started drawing at 10 finished at 11:30 #and now it’s midnight and i’m long overdue to be asleep already. so goodnight world!!!!#i have a sleepover tomorrow night which is very exciting. and also work and homework as usual shdhdf #but in the meantime i get to sleep. for up to 12 hours!!!! here’s hoping #ok anyway!!!! goodnight!!!!#P.S. text or call if you need anything!!#me. my post. mine.#delete later (probably)

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toastsnaffler · 8 months

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after I've worked thru my current library stack I think im gonna reread tlt for the millionth time. bc I deserve it <3

#i just wanna feel smth... ive been suppressing the hyperfixation too long I need to get rly annoying abt it again. and make so much fanart #fortifying the defences before the seasonal depression properly hits..!!#my flatmate was saying it would probably help to have a project or smth and shes right its just difficult for me to start things atm #so it might be easier to go back to smth familiar but interact with it a new way. i want to annotate more and draw a tonnnn #and dredge up the half finished art I drew 2 years ago when I first read gtn.....#I definitely have a list of personal projects id like to work on somewhere but maybe this can work as an on ramp to that. we shall see #anyway going to bed early bc i have parkour tomorrow morning and also i wanna read a few chapters of smth before i sleep.. byeeee #.diaries

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exopelagic · 1 month

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okay I’m going insane I need to fix my sleep schedule now

#I cannot keep getting up at/after midday this is driving me crazy #SO. I’m gonna not do ice hockey for a little bit until I can get myself normal #I want to step away from ice hockey anyway bc the new committee are being annoying and I need them to stop making me do things #tonight I will go to bed at midnight. and I will stop everything to get ready for bed by 10 bc I need that time #and tomorrow I’m setting my alarm for 7:30 #I’m going to have mornings again if it kills me bc this is making me feel like shit now #will also mean hopefully I’m less stressed about work and can schedule stuff with my friends bc oh my god everything has been a nightmare #this week. and it’s only Tuesday what the fuck #also going to make a sleep tracker again bc that worked in February #and I’m setting library times for weekdays as 9:30-12 and 2-5 because getting there is the problem and I normally stay longer once I’m ther #and that worked for exams AND there’s just less work to do now so if I can keep on top of it everything should be fine #just have to actually do it #like right now I rlly need to go get writing bc I need to figure out some title options and that needs to be done by tomorrow afternoon #otherwise there won’t be time to get feedback from my supervisor before the deadline #so while today might be a bit of a lost cause bc I need to shower go to the shop and cook which takes most of the free working time #I can do something and if I can make tomorrow morning work I’ll have enough time #I’m okay with having periodic getting my shit together days as long as I do use them to get my shit together #now pls. get your shit together <3 #luke.txt

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milo-is-rambling · 1 month

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I can’t even imagine living without anxiety. Like. How. What?

#I mean if I woke up tomorrow with a normal amount of anxiety it would be a shocking difference to my daily life. and I am medicated!!! like.#what? am I missing something here?#my mom tells me that meds can only do so much and that they’re really just meant to make it so you can get out of bed every day #but now I’m wondering like is that true or is that my mom is on the wrong dose herself and something could be done to help us both #gahhhhh idk I just feel helpless bc I’m scared of making big changes and the big changes have to make are scary and large and I need a #bulleted list made of things I can do (and break down into very small steps) to actually progress in a positive way in my life instead of #being SO afraid and SO stagnant. it’s been six months since (ptsd diagnosis causing thing) and I don’t feel like I’ve made any progress even #with a therapist. I’m working towards a more intensive program but I feel like it’s almost making me feel more alienated bc I’d have to like #go be surrounded by other mentally ill people and medical people which brings dad dying trauma and like I know I’m running from it bc I’m #afraid to face the changes I need to make and the feelings that are going to come up but fuck man can’t I get some fucking meds that make #this easier to deal with!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! grief and ptsd and long term isolation and anxiety and chronic pain like fuck it’s #so exhausting!!!! I feel like I’m fucking fighting thru life and then from the outside it’s like I’m doing nothing cause I stay in my room #and get stoned and play animal crossing and watch tv and cry and over eat and sometimes I drive around in circles so I can scream sing until #my throat burns and I get a headache and everything finally quiets down in my head for a second. I know I look like I’m doing nothing and #that’s because I am doing nothing but waiting for the next time a mental health professional will talk to me for an hour like it’s so sad #anyways. you ever take a big dab and then start crying and type all of this like it’s an epiphany even tho it’s things you already know.#honestly crying in front of the air conditioner is so slay slight breeze over my face cooling the tears the white noise calming me down

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dreamboatsandtrenchcoats · 4 months

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My boss literally told me I didn't have to work today after I asked to work from home because I wasn't feeling well and I STILL feel guilty logging off after only 7.6 hours of work instead of the usual 9

#how does one get over this #(this is like two decades of listening to my mom complain about people calling out and herself going in when shes sick. i know this.#it's her voice i hear in my head whenever these feelings come up. and she happens to have the day off so yipiee)#don't mind me #literally no one at work is going to care #i got a lot done #but now I'm going to lay in bed and hope that helps me feel even better tomorrow #i think some of that guilt is coming from the fact that i do feel better then i did this morning #anyway no one needs to listen to me ramble about this #i just needed to get it out of me so i can go watch shows in bed and feel less guilty about it

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lavender---sunshine · 1 year

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in all seriousness i 90% sure im going to quit my job tomorrow and for a while i will have just enough money to live on and will have to spruce up my resume and job hunt and stress but MY GOD i need to do something else because this is making me suicidal

#like actively suicidal. wanting to die in a way i have not since highschool. literally woke up and thought 'i dont want to be here anymore'#and then couldnt make myself get out of bed until like 10 minutes before i had to leave the house for job 2 #i know its unprofessional but i pretty much...quiet quit i guess. i worked from home for like a month straight without telling my boss #and she called yesterday wondering about it and the whole time the only thing i could think of was 'you didnt even know for a MONTH #thats how little people communicate around here #the office culture is toxic. the people are self absorbed and shut me out. ive gone through like 6 big life events and no one knows because #no one in that office cares enough to ask. and even if i volunteer the most i get is a 'wow that wild look at this tiktok yeah anyway'#im so burnt out. i have 1 day of rest and i dont get to do that at all. so no like im not going to get up get dressed sit in traffic park #on the street because a year later they still havent given me a clicker for the parking lot and sit in the back of a warehouse for hours #talking to no one. ive literally gone days without talking to anyone there. its so lonely.#theres only so many audiobooks and podcasts and albums you can listen to before you think 'i would be ok getting hit by a truck tomorrow'#im going to hate these next few months but i just need time #and the lord works in mysterious ways because my other boss just started talking about hiring for mon/tues which are the days i work bad jo #so i would at least get those hours until i find something else stable. im going to try very hard not to be mean about it but im like...#hey girl this place sucks ass and you know it. im not negotiating #but thanks for that raise 9 months late #im giving you three weeks for find a replacement and i dont care if you fire me in that time #il work from home or panera or starbucks or library but im not stepping in that office again unless its for my minifridge and heater

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arolesbianism · 1 year

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I've just been playing the new cotl update for most of the day and I'm so so close to being done with the main new story bits I think but it's also past midnight but also I'm so excited idk if I'll be able to sleep but also god damn do I need to sleep

#rat rambles #and I know I wont have long to play when I wake up tomorrow since my friends will probably wanna continue our dont starve save #and I wanna too which is why I wont say no if they do but also aghhhhhh #Ill be able to finish it once they have to go to bed but thats so long Ill have to wait 😔#anyways I saved kalamar for last since hes the hardest originally but based off my current load out I think Ill be fine #aka literally every other bishop died in seconds due to my bomb demon being over level 30 lol #Im so glad they seem to scale further now its soooooo funny walking into a room with a boss and just watching them immediately explode #also Ive been using the golden fleece more and its been going pretty well #I got up to over 500% damage one run that was cool #Ive barely been touching the heavy attacks tho but tbf thats partially cause of keyboard mapping #Ive been having so so much fun with this update tho even if Im not a huge fan of a few aspects #this has brought so much more life to the combat portion to the game for me I havent had this much fun with the combat in a while #I do still need to collect all the rellics tho Im working on it #I also feel like I should buy all the new cards but man. none of them seem very appealing to me tbh #that is one of my big problems with cotl in general getting new cards can make it harder to get the more fun or useful ones #most of the actually useful cards are the base ones or ones given to you mostly for free #everything else is mildy useful or at least fun at best and actively useless at worst #like. ooo drop ichor on hit. wow. honestly give me deaths door at that point like jesus

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dragons-and-yellow-roses · 1 year

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Take a shot for every time I use an unnecessary comma. I don't recommend this, as you are sure to die of alcohol poisoning before you finish the first paragraph.

#me? writing a tumblr post to avoid the work i need to be doing? it's more likely than you think #if you've read any of my posts then you know im working on a very important project and have been for the past 1.5 years #(unrelated but im at a coffee shop and really need to use the bathroom but someone has been in there for like an hour)#so far i'm the only person (except my two siblings who helped me with some formatting and made sure all of my links work) that has seen it #but now... the time has come for me to share it with all of the relevant people #that's like... eleven people?#they're all very important people and uh #one of them is a person i can no longer speak to and honestly shouldn't contact in any way. but here i am playing with fire #maybe fucking up this nonexistent relationship by breaking our promise not to contact each other #messing up any possibility of us having a relationship again #but yknow it's very possible we'd never have a relationship again anyway #and she deserves to see this project so uh. guess ill do it and maybe regret it for the rest of my life #and now im going to offer up this piece of my soul to people who may judge or hate it #or who may judge or hate me #this project has been the reaon i stay alive for the last 1.5 years. the reason i get out of bed. the reason i leave the house #what happens when it's done? when i have no more of it to work on?#im finally sharing it because it's reached the end of what i can do for awhile #im effectively done #now what do i do with my life?#im sending it out today or tomorrow and then... i dont know #if any of yall have watched psych. yknow the yin yang trilogy? yknow when yang is caught #and Mary says hes spent the last 15 years pursuing yang? and now he doesnt know what he's going to do?#thats me right now

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running-in-the-dark · 1 year

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my gallbladder surgery is in like 6 hours (that's when I need to be at the hospital anyway, it might take a long time until it's actually my turn) and I'm pretty anxious now 😔 I know it's very likely that everything will go well and I'm trying not to think about everything that could go wrong.

at least I can stop myself from thinking about that kind of thing now - before the anxiety meds I'd probably have been unable to sleep for the last week, and I'd have thought about it all day every day, and I'd have been legitimately panicking for days. now the unpleasant thoughts happen, I tell myself 'it's going to be fine and if it isn't we can't change it anyway' and move on.

#is that how normal people's brains work?#it's still so fascinating to me that this is possible #but anyway I've got everything packed that I could possibly need (though I've probably forgotten something really obvious lol)#I suspect it'll be much less awful being in hospital like this - when it's scheduled and I know it's going to happen & can prepare #the other times were genuinely horrible. but I was terrified and didn't know what was wrong (turns out it was probably my #fucking gallbladder the entire time lol) and I never knew when someone would take me somewhere to do yet another test #this time should be pretty different #and I've got my Switch Lite and my iPad and many ebooks and audiobooks so I definitely won't be bored #though realistically I'll probably sleep at least most of tomorrow anyway. I loooove sleeping after general anesthesia. it's so nice #anyway gotta go to bed if I want to get any sleep at all #oh and! the most important thing is that I now have noise cancelling headphones. I think that'll make the nights bearable. it's so #difficult for me to sleep when there's that much noise. and nurses checking on you constantly #I woke up every time they came in before. hopefully that'll be a bit better now 🤷#personal #I

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starbuck · 2 years

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my body is so weak… it is soooooooo tired of fall birding and the season’s only halfway over!! it’s a good thing i’m so damn determined!

#my back fucking HATES me this time of year it’s so funny #birders call the pain in your neck you get from constantly looking up during migration ‘warbler neck’#but i personally think the true and underlooked evil here is ‘warbler lower back’#i try to do stretches in the field but it only mitagates it so much…#i am still in a lot of pain #and like. yeah i could take something for it but painkillers don’t do me that much good #and i sleep better when i’m achey anyway #and GOD knows i need the sleep #the getting up early is another thing my body HATES #no matter how early i go to bed tonight - i can already tell that tomorrow morning is gonna be Rough…#and i’m planning to go out Friday morning as well!!!!#truly i have a death wish 😂😂#but then we get the rain from the hurricane and i get a few days off #so it all works out in the end!#after that my friend will be visiting and i’ll be Out There yet again!#like i said - it’s a good thing i’m so determined and find this all so fun #or i’d be throwing in the towel from the pain and exhaustion alone #but ANYWAYS… off to have a little Ice Cream Treat and then have the best sleep of my life ❤️❤️

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arthur-r · 2 years

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i have a job interview tomorrow for a babysitting job i don’t even want….

#an irl friend used to babysit for this family #and now they really really need a babysitter. they pay $7 an hour according to tara which is even less than my job that rips me off #and i get that babysitting is different but this is the kind of job for someone who isn’t old enough to work a minimum wage job yet #like im professionally employed and if im getting another job i want it to actually make a dent in paying for college #and actual life expenses and all of that. not a little mini subminimum wage side hustle #i literally already have a subminimum wage main hustle. if im working somewhere else it’s going to be a grocery store goddammit #but anyway basically just. i never texted those people about babysitting because i didn’t really want to. but then my irl followed up #and says they really really need a babysitter and i should really get in touch with them. so i did #i introduced myself as ari and we’re meeting up tomorrow at 2:00 pm. so that’s fun #like i won’t object if this becomes what i do with some of my evenings every week i won’t be upset or like. say no #but i just wish i didn’t have to reach out about it in the first place. like. yes im looking for a second job. but please understand it’s #i already have a job where the terrible pay is made worth it by a loving and not-too-busy workplace environment #i really don’t need another one of those…. like i love kids but it’s just. when i say im looking for a second job what i mean is a $16/hour #fast paced grocery job within biking distance four or five mornings a week #then i’ll actually be getting somewhere. i don’t want to set a whole night aside for $21 when i could be with my own baby sister #but anyway yeah. that’s what im going to be up to tomorrow. 2 pm mark your calendars arthur will be out and gone #im so tired i need a hug #also i think im heading to bed any minute because my mom gets home on tuesday and i have to get my room clean before she sees me and so i #need to go to sleep early so that i can wake up early so that i can go for a walk with the irl i mentioned and then meet that family #idk i’ll just get the babysitting job and my pizza job and add a grocery job and all of a sudden i’ll be a millionaire or something #might as well make the most of my time this summer all it’s going to be otherwise is family time and i miss my baby sister but still #anyway i also might still end up making and selling jewelry before this summer is over. i might be able to buy a car or something after that #….or a limited edition used fender stratocaster in fiesta red with gold hardware. but um. here at arthur inc we spend our money responsibly #however if i buy that guitar i can sell my current guitar which my dad got for free from a friend…. which means…. turning a profit (kinda)#anyway idk. my main focus is always college but i want to have fun with my life too. it’s getting harder to budget responsibly #man this post is going to be a minefield of bots. hate talking about money and jobs on tumblr dot com #but anyway just. i should probably sleep but yeah im getting another job most likely. and then probably another one #but im probably logging off of tumblr now. just had to take a second and say all that i guess #me. my post. mine.#delete later

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toastsnaffler · 29 days

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I will say while I've loved most of elden ring I'm really glad I'm down to just 2 more main boss fights (malenia + maliketh) before I start the endgame boss fights... whew 😮‍💨

#really gorgeous world but frankly its unnecessarily long. theyre gonna kill me for saying that but its true..#some areas/bosses just become overly repetitive when the game is THAT massive like its unavoidable #they tried rly hard to distinguish every area + honestly its a great effort but it couldve been half the size and just as good #like i just did the elphael ulcerative tree spirit bc i wanted to finish millicents questline. and come on man we didnt need another one #the design is sick + loooove the animation. but its a bad fight not bc of the difficulty but bc its janky as hell #lock on doesnt work properly bc of its size and the way it moves. u cant see shit on ur screen fighting them melee its just hack n slash #and theyre always in the most dogshit arenas possible for them like spaces w no maneuverability. its just not fuuuun #especially after youve fought 5 or 6 already earlier on in the game..#and its cool to have variations like the scarlet rot ones but we already HAD one of those just before lake of rot!! the gimmicks worn off #i did everything except maliketh in farum azula today as well and again. it didnt need to be that long. killing beastmen gets boring #after like the first 20 combat is just mashing buttons.. even the platforming is getting dull bc ive done 120 hours of it now #and theres only so many combinations of ladders and hallways and so on that u can possibly cram in here..#i say all this with fondness like i truly do love it. but it couldve been a lot tighter! regardless ill still 100% complete it #and i get most ppl dont try to get every single armament and talisman etc so they probably dont waste time FULLY exploring like i am #ahhh. anyway ill probably do malenia and maliketh tmr bc im right outside both of their arenas. and then call it quits this weekend #ill get my first ending next weekend probably... and hopefully by june ill have 100% and then i can play something else 😭#ik the dlc comes out in june but ill probably take a month or two break before i get to that #it doesnt even neeeed a dlc.......its excessive as it is just make a new game by this point ahhhhh #anyway its like 1am i need to SLEEP. i said i would go out to watch for northern lights but its overcast and im tired and my roommate #didnt wanna come with.. so i was gonna go to bed early instead but i guess that didnt happen lol #gonna feel like shit tomorrow bc i have to be up early to take my meds and she'll wake me up anyway.. but cross that bridge #typing is getting difficult bc im so sleepy okay goodnight everyone #.diaries

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milo-is-rambling · 1 year

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Chronic pain really got me going to bed before it’s even dark out (also my little pink unicorn lights Millie got me look so cool in the second pic)

#my back and shoulder are killing me and I’ve done nothing but smoke weed and stretch and I just hurt so bad #so I’m gonna go to bed and hopefully feel better tomorrow #I work at nine again tomorrow so if anything hopefully going to bed early helps that #I’m excited to sleep hopefully a lot and hopefully really well bc 1) weed. 2) took sleepy cough meds to try and mooch extra pain reliever #out of meds in my cabinet. 3) took a back and muscle pain Aleve (even tho I hate taking pills and it took me like three whole min to get it #down my fucking throat. 4) tired from actually using my brain and anxiety from work tired #5) period tired and chronic pain tired #like guys my brain and my body are both exhausted and the idea of getting up tomorrow and doing any of it again makes me miserable and I did #nothing but sit at a computer for three and a half hours that’s itttttt #like doing two week road-trip then non stop either emotional or physical shit every day until my first day at work #like I’m already setting myself up for this to be the summer of the grind #gonna make a bunch of money (and spend too much and blame it on the summer time and needing a little treat every time I venture out into the #heat or work a day or do anything at all) and then save a bunch all fall winter spring and once it gets colder and I feel like I can handle #my job more I want to focus on how to make moving out happen. like I need to figure out if maybe there’s somewhere I want to live that has #an Office Depot I could transfer to cause office depots are everywhere and maybe that’s an added way for me to figure out where I want to #move #hmmm okay I’m gonna lay in bed on google maps looking at Office Depot locations in New England and I’m just gonna daydream and try to fall #asleep and I’ll look at / add to my Pinterest board of house and apartment inspo #going to think about the future because I want to live !!!!#anyways yeah this is the summer of being miserable and spending all my money on bullshit and daydreaming and disappointing my mother #and also the summer of my weed tolerance doubling forever until I’m back to smoking constantly to the point where I’m making myself sick and #then I’ll get sick of smoking weed for a bit and that’ll lead me into saving money again #or force me into a tolerance break where I stop buying weed #either way I’m going to smoke all summer it’s gonna be weed and sweat and fresh fruit and laying in my room during all of my days off and it #it’s gonna suck and I’m gonna be thinking about my dad the whole time and it’ll be depressing and isolating and lonely and I’ll come out of #the summer recentered and motivated towards big goals again like I always am #and then I’ll crash and burn next spring as always. cycles continue forever thank u seasonal depression.#I want to grow up and mature in the ways I deal with myself my health and advocating for my mental health I feel like I need to grow up a #bit so I hope I do that and it feels good. I hope I make friends and I can daydream about the future every night and my room will smell like #weed and incense and sweat and love and tears and it will be incredible

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southislandwren · 8 months

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i hope i was endearingly pathetic looking when advisor saw me napping in the small conference room, because thats the only way i'm not annoying & cringe in this situation

#i just needed a nap. long day and its going to be even longer since i HAVE to do this project #aunt and cousin are coming tomorrow and i wont have time to sit down and research #so i need to FINISH all my research NOW and i can work on building slides and writing notecards tomorrow & friday during the school day #because all my free time will be with my family or stargazing (orionids peak on saturday night!) or working #i work on friday and i may work on thurs depending if they do need me around 5 #but i'll probably text them when i get out of lab and ask if they want me to come in #oh but anyway. i know he saw me because i saw him in his office before i went to bed #and when i woke up he had gone home for the day. so hopefully i was like. cutely asleep in a pathetic way #and not like. open mouth twitching lightly snoring #alrighty. gonna eat dinner and do some work now.#diary post

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tender-rosiey · 6 months

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hiii 😭 I REALLY LOVE UR GOJO X YN SO MUCHHH 😔😔 I was also wondering like maybe what if y/n has a wound, like any where 🥲 it could be either on her back, arms, legs but she doesn't wanna tell gojo abt it and she hides it, then he will find out about it either she winces when gojo hugs her, starts wearing long sleeved clothes or her shirt lifts up while sleeping 🤧 TYSMM❤❤

strain — gojo satoru x f!reader

a/n: I am honored that you like my works, love! hope you enjoy this as well 🫶💕🫶 also happy birthday to the man, the myth, the legend: gojo satoru!! (it’s still his birthday in my country so hush I am not late)

you are more than a capable sorcerer. in fact, you are one of the strongest in the field.

however, like anyone else, there are some moments where things get a little out of hand, and you come back bearing a rather long slash on your left arm.

but since it’s pretty late, you decided you will bother shoko about it in the morning. that is how you’re finally in your home, with satoru nowhere to be found.

you frown lightly at the fact that he is still out there fighting curses, but a part of you feels relieved that you don’t have to explain your situation right now.

the night should pass by smoothly, and you will go to shoko tomorrow: a fool-proof plan!

so you do what you can to sanitize the wound, and cover it until you can get it treated properly. you also take the chance to indulge in your favorite snack as a good job treat.

after finishing your food and tidying up for the day, you’re finally in bed, all-cozied up and avoiding anything touching your wound as much as possible.

a deep breathe in, a deep breathe out, and you slowly drift to sleep.

not much time passes before satoru’s familiar footsteps echo throughout the house.

your husband has an abundance of energy.

but it seemed like today’s missions have drained him a bit more than normal, so he skips eating anything and heads straight to your shared bedroom.

his heart softens, and his muscles relax upon the sight of you tucked in bed. he walks to press a small kiss on your forehead, quickly changing into his pajamas and settling right by your side.

he stretches a bit and turns to spoon you as per usual, eyes closing in contentment.

but you wince, even if adeptly, and it sends alarms ringing through his head.

he jerks up, and his hand is instantly placed on your arm again, softly. there is an ever so faint change in your expression as your eyebrows furrow, and he has never pulled his hand away so fast.

he keeps debating in his head whether to wake you up or not, but he swiftly settles for the former.

he needs to know what happened. so he, regrettably, nudges your sleepy form, “y/n?”

you groan, but, nonetheless, you reply, “…what?”

while satoru often likes to base theatrics around his every move and phrase, but he also knows when to get straight to the point, “did you get hurt on today’s mission?”

you’re no longer half-asleep, and you quickly sit up, eyeing your husband. knowing there is no escape nor denial, you fidget with your fingers and nod slowly.

then you hurriedly utter, “but I was going to see shoko first thing in the morning; I promise!”

he nods slowly, holding your hands in his own. you’re left to look him in the eyes. satoru’s eyes being exposed makes him feel so vulnerable, or at least that’s how he is with you.

you can see every wrinkle, and every crease; you can see what he is thinking about in real time. he has long given up hiding anything from you, and, besides, it feels fresh to just let go.

but right now, as you look into his eyes, you see them swarming with confliction, pain, and worry.

he doesn’t scold you about not going right now because he knows that you will tell him that you either thought it wasn’t a big deal or that you didn’t want to bother shoko with it.

instead, he settles on a hushed whisper of “can I see it?”

you throw him a confused look, “why? I am getting it treated tomorrow anyway,” then you smile, “it’s not going to permanent if that’s what you’re worried about.”

he shakes his head, “it’s not that; I just—“ he takes a deep breath then looks at you pleadingly, “just let me see it.”

perhaps it’s to silence his thoughts and to show him that you’re truly okay, as okay as you can be.

you’re still alive, and that’s what matters, he thinks. nevertheless, he feels the need to see just how serious is the wound anyway.

reluctantly, you slowly take off your jacket to reveal the poorly bandaged gash on your arm.

he looks up at you, asking for permission because even if he needs to see it for his own selfish reasons, he has to put you above anything and everything else.

you nod, giving the free reign to slowly take off the bandages. you can barely hold back any pained noises, but you can’t help the wincing of your body.

satoru’s frown deepens, and with every move, your husband’s heart aches. it goes like that until the wound is finally unveiled.

you feel satoru observing the cut so intently that you look away. satoru curses everything that he can think of, and never has we wanted the ability to heal others more than right now.

he straightens his back, “that’s a deep cut, y’know.”

“I know…”

“you also realize that the wound could’ve hit your chest and inevitably heart, right?”

you huff, “listen, if you’re going to give me a lecture or keep making me feel bad about it then I will have you know—“

“you could’ve died.”

you notice the strain in his voice, so you turn to finally look eyes with him. he looks pained, so hurt, maybe even terrified at the fact that there was a chance that he could’ve lost you.

your expression immediately becomes that of sympathy, “but I didn’t, and dwelling on the fact that I might’ve died will only bother you for no reason,” you hold his hand, “I am here and alive, aren’t I?”

your husband sighs, resting his head on your right shoulder, “you’re hurting my poor little heart whenever you put yourself in danger like that.”

a giggle escapes your lips, and your hands naturally find their way in his hair, fingers gently carding through, “whatever shall we do.”

“if things went my way then you would just stay home looking all pretty like you always do,” he states, and you roll your eyes.

“well, they’re going my way tonight, so—“ the clock strikes twelve, “happy birthday, silly boy.”

his eyes widen and he pulls away to look you in the face. he blinks dumbly then looks at what’s in your hands: a cupcake with a candle.

a wide grin of unbridled joy appears on your husband’s face. his eyes shimmer in the moonlight as he laughs, “I really didn’t expect it this time!”

“you outdid yourself, pretty girl,” he hums, hand caressing your cheek.

“I still have a lot more things for you,” you beam with pride. satoru can’t contain himself anymore, and he pulls you into a loving embrace.

“I love you so much,” he murmurs beside your ear, pressing a light kiss to the side of your neck.

you pat his back, “I love you too, ‘toru,” you laugh, “but you’re pressing on my wound, and I think I am just going to cry and not because of overwhelming love.”

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