In My Veins - Excerpt
After everything little Rosie told me her grandmother had told her about what had happened between Charlie and me, I hadn't looked forward to the dinner Anne and I would have to share that evening. I knew it would end up being extremely awkward, only having her and me at the table, since Henry was away and Charlie had chosen to stay away too, still hard at work looking for Charlotte.
The love and kindness Anne had shown me back when Charlie and I fell in love and got married, made the so obvious dislike she now felt toward me even more painful. She once treated me like I was her daughter, but now she couldn't even look at me without a sneer on her face.
It ended up being a very silent meal, since Anne's open hostility toward me, made her entirely unwilling to talk to me. A confrontation between the two of us was clearly needed, but I wasn't about to bring up my and Charlie's private matters while we were surrounded by servants I had no idea if I could trust. So, I ate quietly, while Anne had a nice conversation with the butler.
As soon as the dinner was done, Anne quickly made her way to the small sitting room. Making it more than clear, without even saying a word, that she didn't want me to follow her. I was not about to let her have her way, however, and entered straight behind her. I also made sure to shut the door behind me, so the servants wouldn't come and listen in.
"I was rather hoping to have some time alone." Anne said once she had taken her seat on the sofa in front of the fireplace and she finally noticed that I was in the room with her. With a forced smile on her face, she gestured to the seat next to her on the sofa, and as soon as I had sat down, she spoke again. "But how can I help you?"
"I would very much appreciate it if you would stop telling Rosie lies about me." I decided it was best not to beat around the bush about this, because I doubted the mood in the room would get any better if stuttered and stumbled over my words. Even so, I kept my eyes locked on the roaring fire as I spoke, not feeling brave enough to meet her gaze just yet.
"I haven't lied about anything." She retorted quickly, seemingly having no qualms about keeping her own eyes trained on me. If she was at all shocked by my accusation, it was hard to tell only by the sound of her voice. So I decided to brave it and turned to meet her stare.
"So, Charlie hasn't told you what happened to me during our time apart?" I was sure he hadn't, he could tell how hard it was for me to share it, even with him. And though he might not be too fond of me right now, he still respected me too much to go around sharing my secrets with anyone.
"He hasn't told me anything, he didn't think it was his story to tell." It almost sounded as if she meant her reply to be of comfort to me, but since I knew she had told Rosie I was the one who hurt Charlie, it was a rather cold one.
"But you thought it was your story to make up? I know you want to defend him, but I wasn't the one who hurt him. My father tricked me into believing Charlie died in the war. The letter saying I didn't love Charlie anymore was forged by him too." It seemed that since I was finally brave enough to confront her, and my words had started pouring out of my mouth, there was no stopping them again. "He had a big plan to marry me to the Earl of Dunmore, not even my legal marriage to Charlie was going to stop him. I don't know if he knew how Simon would treat me, but I highly doubt he cared that he sold me to an abusive monster."
"You never wanted to marry him?" Was her only question when I finally stopped talking, and it shocked me so much that all I could do in reply was to turn and stare at her in disbelief. But to her credit, she did actually seem to have begun to feel some remorse for her lie and unkindness. "How does Charlie feel about all this?"
"I truly don't know. He's angry at my father and Simon. I wouldn't blame him if he's mad at me for how easily I believed all my father's lies, because I will always regret how much pain he went through because of my gullibility" I did think I knew more of his feelings about everything, but I wasn't about to put words in his mouth when I wasn't completely sure. I thought he felt sorrow for the choice he had to make, guilt for believing the letter so quickly and never going to look for me once he had been well enough to leave the hospital, and I didn't blame him one bit for any of those feelings. "I don't know what Charlie and I ever to deserve what my father did to us. I just hope it isn't too late for us to find our way back to each other. Because a life with him is all I've ever wanted."
My reply seemed to have shocked her into silence, and it surprised me so much that I couldn't help but turn my gaze back to her. Anne was sitting there, looking at me with tears in her eyes. Seeing her like that brought me to uncontrollable tears as well.
"It's not too late, Alexis." She told me with a gentle smile on her lips, as she held a hand out for me to take. When I did just that, she quickly pulled me into her comforting embrace. "I'm sure of it."
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