So many words I have to say about this episode of the Neverafter but I just. God idk

Same As The Day I Lost You

I...

This came to me as I'm making dinner so I'll be quick.

What if we mix deaged Danny and twin/older sibling (either one works) Damian, AND he gets tossed to his sibling in a last minute escape.

Like what if he was fighting Vlad who was doing his whole "denounce your father and join me as my son Daniel!" Thing while in the Zone and knocks Danny into something that's floating in the Zone with the ability to deage or was hit by a new Fenton or Plasmius invention while fighting in town that accidentally deages him.

Danny, who in this was adopted, gets put back to the age of six. The same age he had been found by Jazz in a 'haunted' forest Jack and Maddie were visiting/investigating while also using that time as a family vacation. (They were shocked to see a little boy with a stab wound bleeding out and rushed him to the nearby town, almost completely forgetting about the glowing green tiny puddle they found nearby and bagged most of it as evidence when they heard Jazz's scream of terror over finding the hurt little boy)

The sudden revert into that traumatized age, along with the child response to a fight or flight scenario, and add Danny's deepest need/wish to be protected his child fogged mind wishes to go to the one person who always made him feel safe.

His twin/older brother.

Just as quick as it was with Danny being turned into a child, his ghost powers ripped open a portal and sent Danny to the person he wants to be with...

Only he didn't know that right at that moment his seventeen year old twin/older brother is currently fighting the League with his family's help (his mother was trying to convince him to return to the League and be it's heir) in Nanda Parbat (the very place Damian lost the last/only person he knew loved him without any strings attached.)

So imagine everyone's face when a portal opened up, some muttering its a new pit being formed before them or something, and crawling out of it is a very scared and confused six year old Danny.

my controversial(ish, maybe, idk) take on steddy hands is that two semi-apparently contradictory things have to happen first and they are both along the stizzy axis: 1) stede and izzy have to each recognize the other as competent. this takes more growth in stede’s part bc... look my dears, my loves, perhaps even my beloveds. as endearing as stede is, he still ends s1 as an incompetent pirate. he’s never taken a single ship and he has spent his entire life in the lap of luxury. (for his fuckery, he lets the danish board their ship. they live, but they don’t take any property - which is the entire fucking point of piracy). the boy needs to face a material hardship. it builds character, much like working customer service.

and 2.) izzy needs to accept some mild hedonism. pleasure for the sake of pleasure is gooooooood. anyone who tells you different is selling something. this is the one that takes growth on izzy’s part - he doesn’t see value in pleasure alone and like, god, my man perhaps i wish i vibed with you less but...

if these don’t both happen, i can enjoy it, but i can’t believe it, if you feel me. stede is a man who is insecure bc he doesn’t think that he deserves what he has... and up to this point this has lowkey been true. and izzy is fixated on being needed to the point where imo being wanted doesn’t occur to him. (ed is a whole ‘nother bag of worms and this post is toooooo Fucking Long)

but in the end, they need all need to both want and need each other. i think need comes first, but want shouldn’t be short to follow. the want has staying power.

also you can’t dom someone while also being a total incompetent i didn’t say that yes i did (guess im drunk enough)

mmyeah same as its always been

feeling really upset about human beings being corralled into a single area under false claims of safety just to be bombed to their deaths today

hello i love my forensic psychologist lecturer so much she is So Weird and deeply feral she gives the vibe of a falling apart toaster and is incapable of finishing a class on time she is a raccoon in a bin living in a human’s body

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was taylor intentionally thinking about katniss and peeta when she wrote the great war or was that just completely incidental in the way that it is literally them 100000%

why is my body so good at suffering but so bad at dying

Kasane is so good for many reasons but forcing the main character to look at someone’s corpse with her face on and all three times it being her fault is up there as one of my fave things about it.

Antonio in high school: Constantly angry for reasons he struggles to articulate

Kotetsu in highschool: Constantly angry for reasons he struggles to articulate

Antonio: want to go to the abandon lot and punch each other until we feel better?

Kotetsu: i don't want to give into my destructive urges and be the monster everyone expects me to be...

Antonio: if you hit me and i don't want it I'll turn on my powers and break your hand.

Kotetsu: Oh! Then yes. It'll be like hero training!

Antonio: Yeah sounds good.

also like don’t get me wrong i fucking loved that episode 10/10 will watch again and cry 7283 more times about it. BUT. they rlly said in that episode its okay to prioritise your person and do what you have to do to protect them above a wider community and the greater good you are deserving of a happy ending versus in the game where bill ends up alone as a result of his survivalist/isolationist tendencies even though the narrative of tlou2 punishes and villainises joel for doing the same thing and id argue even goes as far as to say he deserved to be brutally beaten to death for it

One day I am gonna start journaling again and then I won't post all this sad shit on here but until then! *posts another sad post*

the closer i get to having to lay down in bed the worse and worse my mental state gets </3 even though i would love being asleep and resting were it not for the horrors.

i wanna send the great war to my fp so bad

Xie Lian at this point reminds me of young, online activists, seeing harm being caused in the world and wanting to help but not yet understanding the factors that lead to the situation well enough to do anything but say "Well? You're in charge! Fix it!" Except Xie Lian is a god and prince who is close enough to being "in charge" to go try "just fixing it"... and then learn firsthand about the things that make it not that simple.