#and like it happens again and again and u know what? fine
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can u do reader coming home drunk after a nightout and paige takes care of her?🥺 (smut or fluff is fine)
𝄞₊ ⊹˚₊‧꒰ა ☆ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚ taking care of you,,
paige bueckers x fem!reader
paige is sitting in your shared apartment’s living room when she hears you fumbling with the keys outside. she immediately sets down her textbook, opening the door before you can even find the right key. she’s been expecting your arrival after you texted her a jumble of words, piecing together ‘home’ and ‘soon.’
you went out with a few of your friends from class to a local club, trying to unwind after a stressful few weeks. of course she wanted you to have fun but sometimes if other people were drinking, you tended to do the same. unfortunately for you, you were a lightweight.
“baby!” your eyes gleam at her, wide and glossy. you’re a bit of a bubbly drunk tonight, finding everything funny and somewhat joyful. you smiled at your girlfriend and jumped into her, craving her touch after being away for a few hours.
“hey ma, how was your night? had fun?” she catches you, holding the back of your thighs when you wrap your legs around her. your smile immediately turns to a dramatic frown, bottom lip pouted out. she has to resist the urge to kiss you, settling for the feeling of your body heat on hers.
“this guy was flirting with me paigey,”
“oh yeah?”
“yeah, told ‘em i have a pretty girlfriend already.”
now she’s smiling at you like a dope, pride swelling in her heart at your little story. you’re smiling with pride too, as if you just got told you did a good job. you’re paige’s favorite person in the world, no doubt. so hearing you brag about her is something that makes her feel all warm and fuzzy inside.
“how much did you drink?” she’s closing the door now, not missing the smell of alcohol when your soft breath hits her face. you shrug your shoulders because you genuinely have no clue. just from your answer, or lack of one, she knows it was a lot more than you can probably handle for one night.
you drop your legs from around your girlfriend and she lets you, letting go of the grip she has on your thighs. you wobble for a second while you adjust to standing on your own again. paige watches you carefully, slightly concerned at how out of it you seem. she finds herself getting a little angry at your friends for letting you drink so much, but she lets it go because she knows it was all in good fun.
“oh.. wow. that’s not-“ your hands are on your stomach and paige knows what’s about to happen. she’s ushering you to the bathroom, lifting the toilet lid, and pulling any loose hair out of your face. she lets you get it all out, patting your back and telling you it’s ok, the same way she always does. if you weren’t battered drunk it would probably make you blush.
“are you okay?”
you silently nod, already feeling a bit more sober. paige sends you a soft smile, kissing your forehead and pulling away again to turn on the shower. she grabs your pj’s from your room and when she comes back you’re half asleep against the wall.
“baby, gotta get you cleaned up okay?”
now you’re both in the shower together while paige lathers the shampoo and conditioner into your hair. you pleaded with her to get in with you, still not feeling the best. she said yes, tied her hair up in a bun, took off her clothes, and now she’s in here. with you.
she helps you rinse your hair out (she does it without any of your help) and just takes a moment to admire you. it seems you had the same idea though, staring up at paige with doe eyes. she notices you’re not exactly smiling, a light frown taking your features.
“what’s wrong?”
“miss you p,”
“i’m right here”
“yeah but.. you’re in minnesota.”
paige is genuinely shocked at your statement, laughing out loud and throwing her head back at what you said. she was in minnesota for a few days last month and you couldn’t free your schedule enough to go with her, which is what she thinks you’re referring to. of course in your drunk mind you think she’s making fun of you, which only makes you feel worse. you step out of the shower, the cold apartment air making your nipples peak and your body shiver.
paige follows in suit, having to hold her breathe at the sight of you. she jogs to your room, putting her own pajamas on and quickly returning to you.
“baby i’m sorry. don’t be upset please, i wasn’t laughing at you.”
you’re clothed too, standing in between paige and the bathroom counter as she rubs lotion on your back from underneath your shirt. her hands are large and warm, smoothing over your skin with a delicacy that you appreciate. you don’t exactly realize it all the time, but paige does a phenomenal job at taking care of you. especially on nights like this.
“yes you were.”
“ok… i was. but! but- it’s because i was just a little shocked, is all.”
you turn to face her, eyes scanning over her face until you determine how you feel. you try to remember what you even said, but nothing’s popping up so you decide to just forget it.
“feeling better?”
“for a kiss.” paige kisses you, gentle and soft. her hands situated on your hips pull you closer until you’re chest to chest. all of the sudden you’re pulling away with a frantic energy, like you just remembered something of the upmost importance.
“skincare!” you (in true clumsy fashion) try hopping up on the counter. once you fail a few times and then some, paige decides to just lift you herself. she digs through your drawer, not knowing where to start.
you don’t even seem to be in the same universe, eyes closed and legs swaying ever-so little. she decides to just pick a few things, mixing them all together in her hands before smoothing it over your face. it isn’t really her thing, you’re always the one doing it for her and yourself. once she’s satisfied, she taps your legs and kisses your nose. your eyes flutter, giving her a lazy smile.
“ready for bed?”
“mhm”
“brush your teeth first” you groan and she smiles as she walks away, pulling the covers back and throwing extra pillows to the floor. by the time she’s cut all the nights off in the apartment and returned, you’re rinsing your mouth out with water. she notices you’re ever more clumsy than usual, knocking over a few things on the counter and almost tripping over your own feet before she catches you.
“c’mere baby,” paige motions you closer, picking you up and carrying you to your shared bedroom. she lays on her back with you on top of her still, never letting go.
her face nuzzles into your damp, freshly washed hair. your face buries itself into her neck, the slow thump of her pulse helping ground you to reality. you couldn’t ever remember a time being this drunk, but to be fair you couldn’t remember much of anything right now. just that you love paige, and paige loves you.
“hey wait, take this advil and drink some water before you pass out please.” you whine, obviously too comfortable to lift your head.
“no. don’t wanna.”
“for a kiss?”
“…..fine.”
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just finished reading like 5 diff kate martin stories on wattpad guys
also this isn’t spell checked pls forgive me
#paige buckets#paige bueckers#uconn wbb#paige bueckers smut#paige bueckers x reader#uconn huskies#uconn women’s basketball
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figure skater and lando norris smau please
Warnings: Swearing, bullying Lando coz why not.
Pairing: Lando Norris x figure!skater!fem!reader
landonorris
caption: look me in the eye and tell me you’ve seen a prettier girl before
ln4forever: I…sir I can not! She’s too good.
charlesleclerc: I’ve seen a prettier girl. Alex 🤤🤤
-> y/n - yeah I can vouch
-> alexandrasaintmleux: don’t even lie, y/n, look at urself
y/n: @/landonorris, c’mere and gimme a kiss u absolute cutie 😍
-> landonorris: omw 🏃
y/nxln4forever: omg she’s actually so pretty what the fuck
-> y/nsnumberonefan: and she’s super talented, she’s everything everyone could need! lucky lando
❤️ by landonorris
georgerussell63: you two disgust me
-> landonorris: who’s asked for ur opinion 🥹
-> carmenmundt: really wish I had a BOYFRIEND who LOVED me like Lando loves Y/N, YOU KNOW?
y/n
caption: leaving this here so y/n has a sweet surprise
landonorris: shucks! however did that get onto your phone!
-> y/nrocks: lando what the fuck 😂😂😂
y/n: oh so u left that along with the various photos of you ear
-> landonorris: and my tongue
-> pierregasly: @/y/n blink twice if you need help
-> y/n: been blinking since I got with him and still no help
y/nissopretty: these two are couple goals fr
landonorris
caption: something about this little life makes me love it so much ❤️
y/n: awwwww lando xxxx
-> landonorris: shit I meant to upload the photo of my steak. my bad.
-> y/n: EXCUSE ME?! THAT SHIT WERENT ABT ME?!
-> landonorris: u alright I guess
y/n: no words. I am heartbroken. And also single. How could you do such a thing to me. I have been nothing but an amazing girlfriend, have I not? 😢😢😢
-> landonorris: pass I ain’t reading allat
-> maxverstappen1: 🚩
-> user726252628: it’s fine, the WAGs can look after you, y/n
❤️ by carmenmundt, alexandrasaintmleux, lilymhe, francisca.gomes and 4 others.
y/n
caption: fuck he found my camera.
landonorris: I can put it lower for you 🤤🤤🤤
-> georgerussell63: EW STOP IT
-> lewishamilton: lando we’ve spoken abt public etiquette before
-> carlossainz: @/y/n it’s small asf don’t bother
y/nismylife: CARLOS TALKING ABT LANDO’S YK WHAT?! wait is it acc small tho I wanna know so bad
-> y/n: I can vouch that it is NOT small. in the slightest.
❤️ by landonorris
landonorris:
caption: my angel puts the figure in skating
y/n: oh yeah, this abt ur steak again?
-> landonorris: nuh uh it’s abt the sexy woman up there 👆
-> y/n: mhm
lilymhe: man I always knew lando to be slightly peculiar, but that sentence right there, is perfection.
-> landonorris: I’m not peculiar
-> charlesleclerc: oh u so r
-> landonorris: NUH UH
-> y/n: ur my peculiar little angel
-> landonorris: I’m so peculiar now
y/nandlando: omg he’s such a simp
❤️ by maxverstappen1, georgerussell63, carmenmundt, lilymhe, francisca.gomes, charlesleclerc, y/n, y/nsnumberonefan, ln4quadrant, teamquadrant and 43 others
landonorris posted to close friends
caption: gang up on me as much as u deem fit, this one’s always in my bed anyways, idc 🤤🤤😍😍
georgerussell63: DELETE
charlesleclerc: DELETE
maxverstappen1: DELETE
fernandoalonosoficial: DELETE
lewishamilton: DELETE
carlossainz: DELETE
logansargeant: DELETE
oscarpiastri: DELETE
lilymhe: take more off and send to me pls 🙏
-> alexandrasaintmleux: send to the gc pls lando 🙏
-> landonorris: lemme finish up with y/n then yeahhhh
-> georgerussell63: WHAT GC?!
-> charlesleclerc: went through Alex’s phone, there’s a flipping GC with Lando and all the girls where he sends mugs of her and they send mugs of us 😭😭
-> y/n: LANDO WTF DELETE THE GC NOW
-> landonorris: NUH UH U HAVE ONE W THE DRIVERS WHERE U DO THE SAME
-> y/n: NO I DONT PROVE IT
-> landonorris: bitch I’m on that group chat-
-> y/n: oh. well. what a shame. I guess I’ll just *sends 27252527 photos of Lando shirtless* oh flipppp, what a shameeee
-> landonorris: putting ur lewd thoughts into * marks doesn’t make them happen
-> y/n: *Lando undress me*
-> landonorris: never fuckign mind
#lando norris#lando norris x reader#lando norris imagine#lando norris x you#lando x reader#f1#lando norris smut#lando norris smau
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STUCK IN BED WITH SEISHIRO
He doesn't want to get up yet.
(A short post for his birthday, 6 May.)
"Seishiro..." You tried to get up from bed and went on with you usual routine but Seishiro wasn't letting you go at all. Just how strong this man actually is to hold you down in bed like this?
He had his arms wrapped around your waist and his head on your chest. It was clear he was sleepy, but it didn't seem like it. His grip around you was too strong or he was just that heavy for you to slip off from his body easily. Either way, you want to get up.
He felt you struggling and decided to say something, "Mmm... Stay..." his voice was almost quiet but you heard him.
"Sei, I can't just stay her-"
"Please?"
"No, Sei. I-"
"Pleasee?"
"Sei, I want to get u-"
"Come ooonnn, it's not everyday I get you in the morning all to myself like this." He tried to argue.
"Sei, you always have me trapped with you as soon as you see me on the bed or when you see me doing absolutely nothing." You replied.
"Those are different. It's morning now and I don't usually wake up earlier around days like this, so please, stay in bed with me."
This was going absolutely nowhere. He didn't usually talk back to you since you often find a way to make him release you, if needed. Now, there was no single method you can use to get out from the bed. He was half-asleep and you probably will receive a totally out of topic reply from him.
Giving up you decided to stay, "Okay, fine. But once I woke you up again, you have to let go off me."
Seishiro nodded immediately as he pulled you back down to the bed and buried his face into your chest.
"Thank you... I love you..." He would say with a sleepy voice before falling asleep again.
While he was sleeping, you ran your hand through his white hair, playing with it as you didn't feel like sleeping again. Giving him occasional kisses on his head and ruffled his hair gently, you did everything yet he didn't wake up. He was deep in sleep.
With you, whatever happens, he can sleep peacefully knowing that you are with him. Your arms around his body and his own around your body. Sleeping with you always calms him down and somehow, makes him feel safe as if you are his protector when technically speaking, he was the one who should make you feel protected but you don't mind it. As long as he is happy, that is what you always say.
#blue lock#anime#shiyosugi#seishiro nagi#nagi seishiro#nagi#bllk nagi#bllk x reader#bllk#x reader#nagi x reader
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Angel - Paige bueckers
part 6
• summary {in which an unsuspecting girl falls for the basketball star}
• warnings {angst, it gets cute at the end tho}
averys pov
“avery why cant we tell them” azzi yells, this has been our third fight this week about this topic
“azzi you know why we cant” i say, sternly
“no i dont, thats why im asking”
“azzi, bellas in the other room. shut up” i say
“ok, fuck you” say says, walking out
azzis pov
azzi
- u home
paige
- pls dont come
- stay with avery please
azzi
- im coming
fuck paige has been weird lately, and she wont tell me
its definitely something with bella
i don’t know how bella doesn’t notice
paige is in love with her
“azzi what did i say” paige says, yelling, tears flooding her eyes and the neck of her shirt
“paige whats happening” i say, genuinely concerned for my best friend
she begins wailing. i’ve never seen her cry like this before
i quickly wall up and embrace her
“i fucked it” she says, barley getting her words out
“i want her and ill never be able to make her mine” she continues
“bella?” i question
“yes” she says, raising her voice
“im calling her”
“no, azzi, no, please don’t. please” she says, pleading, her voice growing louder
“paige, you need to talk to her. i’ve never seen you like this before” i say, authoritatively
“she hates me”
azzi is calling bella
“hey bella”
“hey”
“can you come over”
“yeah ill come now”
call ended
“paige this is a good thing, you guys need to talk”
bellas pov
i know this is about paige
id be lying if i said i was fine about this situation
i’m reality, i’ve been crying. everyday. at any given opportunity
i dont have any resentment towards paige, even though i definitely should. i mean, what she did was fucked
and she never explained herself, all she could say is “i cant do it” like what the fuck does that mean
knock, fuck i should leave
knock, i hate her
knock, no i dont
“hey bella” azzi says, bringing me into her embrace. i know azzi and avery are dating, but they cant tell anyone because avery cheated on jake with azzi, and she hates what she did. but she truly does love the girl, cute. i hate love
“paige is in her room”
walking towards paiges room, nerves surprisingly aren’t present. i felt calm, normal
“who is it” paige yells, across the door
“bella” i say, yelling back
paiges pov
“shit shit shit” i say to myself, i look awful. i didn’t think she would actually show up
i’ve been crying for what feels like years, and i finally can get everything off my chest. but i’m more terrified than ever before
she opens the door. fuck
“hey paige” she says softly, i cant bear to look at her. i dont want to see how she has effected me
“paige look at me” she says, sitting down next to me, leaning over. hand on my knee
i look at her
shock plastered on her face
she says nothing, bringing me close and wrapping her arms around me, protectively
“im so sorry” i say into her chest
“paige its ok, im not mad”
“yes you are, i fucked up” i say, tears beginning to form again
she moves so we are face to face, her laying on top of me
“you dont know how bad i want you bella, but i’m, i’m scared” i say, i’ve never been this vulnerable with a girl before. i feel weak
“paige its ok, theres no pressure” she says, reassuringly
“i know you dont feel the same, thats why ive been so down”
“how do you know, paige” she says, sternly. contrasting her previous tone
“it’s obvious” i say. is it?
“no its not, i want you the same amount that you want me” she says, staring intently into my tear filled eyes, that are forming once again
“really” i say, genuinely confused
“yes” she says, slightly laughing
this cant be real, how, what, when, where, why.
after everything i’ve done, she still likes me?
“paige, you there” she says, commenting on my spacing out
“are you sure” i say, coming back to reality
she responds by gently pressing her lips to my own
this kiss was different than any others i’ve experience, its sweet, loving. reflecting of how i feel about her, and i guess how she feels about me.
#paige bueckers#paige bueckers x reader#uconn wbb#paige bueckers fic#paige bueckers headcannons#paige bueckers smut#uconn huskies#uconn women’s basketball#uconn#azzi fudd
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Yeah no, after that phone call...I'm realizing things
#like bestie cant wait to tell the lastest to their so...and im just the afterthought like yeah okay alright#besties like 'haha yeah ill bring this ii everytime we talk now' 'well guess i dont have 2 worry abt then bc we like once a month 😐'#orherperson 'aw why dont u talk to mx?' 'cuz depression and...'#mhm okay does depression stop u from talkimg 2 ur boytoy everyday? damn it doest? thats crazy 🤔#yeah i def need to...adjust things#cuz like why am i freaking out about being on the sidelines when u dont even care? no#and like it happens again and again and u know what? fine#i get it 'communication isnt ur stromg suit' or qhatever but i cant be the one putting in all fhe effort all the time!#so im out#emotional distancimg now
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《山河令》 WORD OF HONOR (2021) | Episode 20
Dear, the kiss that steals your breath
Will steal your soul instead
When night is all that's left
So wait, keep your heart inside
My hand won't keep it safe
I'll just feed on dreams and smile as hope slowly dies
–The Rigs, Run Baby Run
#my gif#okay so the way wkx doesnt think these times can ever return#not just that things change and will naturally turn into memory#but also that he feels like he won‘t ever get another chance at being as happy as he was then#simply because hes Changed now#and he knows Bad Things Happen (to him) (because of him)#it reminds me of the nails reveal scene (‚i found u bad its too late.‘)#only much worse because so much more of wkx himself is revealed#so the stakes are higher#and he and zzs are so much closer#he inevitably needs to reveal what happened to zhen yan#but how can he? when hes convinced zzs will turn his back#if he ever finds out The Other Side of him (master of ghosts)#hes like working with a deadline#hnnng#wen kexing#zhou zishu#zzs#wkx#gifset#word of honor#wenzhou#山河令#shl#shan he ling#also this is dedicated to Spare Me by staringatstars#which im currently rereading again and its having me Feel Things#about wkx & his yearning to sacrifice himself if the odds are against him#also: hii!!!!!! my first gifset!!!!! i know its not perfect but thats fine (tears of labour streaming down my face as i smile bravely)#priestnet
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little bit of modern au (SPOILERS for the zelda game.)
#witch hat tag#orufrey#zelda totk spoilers#thus ends the orufrey playing on their switches saga. oh modern au...the place where everything is pretty much ok. Yes i have joycon drift.#hey literally why do ppl leave private replies on twt. not priv qrts. that's like..fine. Whatever. but priv replies...who r u talkin to.#once i posted a comic about writing that went REALLY far before i deleted it and got 400+ qrts and someone left a string of private replies#Yeah go off king. What is the point#what does it mean. what does it all mean. <- me at all times looking at the internet in my puter and understanding nothing and just leaving#i'm obsessed with how i said that qifrey doesnt really 'identify' with link so it's hard for him to play games like this#but he cooks food and sleeps as if things are real. Oh what a mysterious fellow...my darling..meanwhile once again oru plays normally#qifrey: I don't really know who zelda is so... sorry that happened to her...bye.. Oh my stomach must be rumbling by now!#if you haven't seen the other parts to this saga he ended up caring abt zelda because he pretended to himself that she is oru. Princess Oru#i play more like qifrey btw. totk was really good
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hahaha hey you guys guess what. you'll never believe it. got the guy who's in charge of my fraud case on the phone and he was like "who'd you give one-time security codes to yesterday" and i was like "the guy who called me from the fraud department after they noticed a weird login in florida??" and he was like "that was the fuckin hacker. you got got. IDIOT!!!!!!!!!!" i handed my entire savings over to a fucking guy on the phone on a silver platter. like some kind of fuckin rube. bro
#IT IS OK THOUGH I HAVE BEEN SORTING IT OUT#account is LOCKED DOWN! card is DELETED! fraud paperwork has been FILED! i have requested a fraud alert AND credit freeze#from the NATIONAL CREDIT BUREAU!#a friend of mine is taking me to MAINE next saturday to go to the BANK! i sent an email to my landlord asking if i can pay rent by CHECK!#i went to my other bank and deposited my BONDS! so i have some MONEY! to pay RENT!#i also got a new debit card from them. and made sure i could use my old checks.#i also bought some STAMPS while i was out and a BIRTHDAY PRESENT for a FRIEND#now i am going to start switching over some auto deposits#so when i get my paycheck on tuesday i will actually get it.#i feel so STUPID but i think i have done all i can to fix this. i am feeling better about it#by next weekend i will have my money again. it's all fine#and hopefully next time i will not get got so easily. lol.#anyway dont get got by people pretending to be your bank i guess. i did think it was weird how many questions they asked but..#they ALWAYS ask lots of questions at the bank!!!!!#i got a text message FROM the bank saying they would be calling me soon and then the next call was from the scammer#and then like a half hour later got one from the bank and was confused bc they'd just 'called me'#anyway. it'll be fine. scary for a while but at least i have things i can do to make it better. it's all good#genuinely feeling like i ought to take out like a thousand bucks cash and keep it in my desk to replace my bonds tho tbh hahah#just in case something like this happens again. you never know. what would i have done if i DIDNT have those yknow#ok thank u all for being along on this journey with me
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#personal#keep being like. if Only i had talked to him sooner. if Only i had been Friendlier sooner. but its like#Realistically.... probably wasnt ready. and also like. itd have to happen after school was over anyway bc 1. um i need to focus on school#and 2. how Awkward if i asked him out n he said no. or say we broke up or soemthing#like there were weeks i saw him every day. aint no way... i could handle the awkwardness of that#so ok ok ok. everything is fine JFJFJKFKFKFMFMFMFMFMF#i just have to remember not to get in my own head about it#like if i wanna message him i just should.....#its just..... hhhhHHhhhhh whyd this have to happen to me at 29. i could have been a happy spinster thank u NFJFJFJFJJFJFJFJF#but now ik what having an actual crush is like and oh wow is it painful. but also beautiful n fun. i just...... and lets face it this is#more than a crush. like its definitely Like like but i dont wanna say the Real L Word bc it seems..... idk JDJDJJDJD#but ive definitely um.... fallen. ya. ew JDJDKDJKDKDKDKDKS#but im just gonna follow my gut or whatever the fuck has been guiding me bc things have worked out so far#and like it wouldnt have without his participation. like ya....#im just like... what if he Forgets about me or like everything fizzles out#but then its like i Know if i see him again itll all come back.#bc in the summer i tried so hard to get over him (and kinda succeeded)... only to see him again in class and be like oh fuck oh no and the#n That Dinner. that was the final blow. i was so overwhelmed i got lost on the way home#which... the restaurant we were at is less than 10 mins from my house so you can imagine the uh Overwhelmingness#i cant even remember the original point of this but. i think we'll find a way ....... i say we but i should say 'i' bc until he tells me#that he likes me im gonna have to like Not Assume. hhhh#it doesnt help either that ppl were bringing up 'hes just not that into you' on twt bc Now im like#oh God. am i in that kind of situation???? i doubt it tho. i think hes just reserved. GAH. whatever happens happens
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got a piece of glass stuck in my foot and my mother chose that moment to start yelling about how stupid and lazy i am like :) we're not taking customer feedback right now ma'am :) there is literally my blood on my hands can u please maybe wait :) and do this at another time :)
#for context the thing that broke was not even hers it was mine i ordered it for myself and she didn't tell me it arrived and just kept it in#her wardrobe#and then she asked me to fetch smthn from her messy asf wardrobe and she had kept it (made of glass) in the utmost corner of her very messy#and packed shelf#and obv one of the bottles in the shell was almost empty so when my hand brushed against it it fell and knocked down the glass bottle#bcz it was kept in the c o r n e r#but its ok it was an accident but still it was my accident so i just silently started clearing it up and she obv started yelling at me but#thats fine ive grown up in this household i know that when u do smthn accidentally its always bcz u are a dumb ho and when ur brown parents#do smthn accidentally then its fine bcz accidents happen and also that too is actually ur fault somehow bcz if u hadn't done xyz then 5 day#later this never wouldve happened#but wtv its fine wtv#and then i noticed the piece of glass sticking outta my foot and she watched me try to pull it out with my nails#and once i pulled it out it slipped from between my nails and fell onto the floor#and immediately she started yelling at me again saying i 'threw' it onto the floor on purpose like bitch I'm bleeding bcz of that thing why#would i risk bleeding again#and secondly i was literally picking up all the glass shards two seconds ago why would i throw this onto the floor on purpose when i litera#lly emptied the floor of glass two MINUTES AGO#and when i told her it just slipped and i didn't do it on purpose she's like dont argue with me i saw what happened like oh did u#im sure only u did its not like it was IN MY HAND I'm sure you had a better view than i did of what is in MY hand#this is such a stupid thing to rant about on tumblr but I'm just so tired#i literally had just woken up from a nap i was minding my own business trying yo make myself some coffee#this just irritated me so damn much like#if u really think im that much of a dumb lazy bitch then why did u ask me to do that thing for u in the first place ur literally sitting#in front of the wardrobe why didnt u just go and fetched that thing from ur wardrobe by yourself#ugh wtv this is ridiculous
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the eternal question: is scheduling w friends as an adult That Hard or am I just bad at it
#4 different people have left me on read today; 1 cancelled our plans 4 hours before we were due to meet#I've been sitting home alone for 2 days going insane. looking forward to One (1) coffee date & that fell through#idk why I'm taking it so hard this time I'm usually fine!! but I find myself wishing I didn't have the day off I wish I did have work :(#like it's tiring yeah but it beats sitting here not knowing what to do w myself#& I'm working all weekend & only leaving the house to see the doctor. oh joy#I've been productive ironing writing fixing the car. that's not the problem#I had 4 social plans this month. that's it#that's like seeing each friend once a month!! I can't keep this up!!#is this the norm for adulthood? :(#& on one level I don't want to bother people or be clingy#but on another level I'm baffled that they don't get lonely too#the news has not shut up abt the Loneliness Epidemic since 2021#but if it's true why do so many people take so long to reply when I reach out? if they reply at all#I'm not going anywhere w this. idk#just one of those days#everything so fuck everybody suck :(#boomers got it right w the whole showing up unannounced at people's houses for a social call with a pound cake#now I have to go through 5 layers of bureaucratic bullshit to see a friend#assuming they don't cancel the day of ofc (((((:#I just wanna be like hello knock knock I am here. tell me abt yr life today & listen to mine & eat this cake#& the worst is when people are like 'I'm cancelling bc I'm tired xx'#OK A) u knew we had these plans for two weeks#but B) I'm tired too! I still love u ur still my friend! let us be tired together!#'I won't be social today I'm tired' my love we could watch movies in silence we could knit we could ball yr socks. idc#'I have to do the big shop today sorry' so do I!!! let us do the groceries together!!!#every time I've pushed someone to come out when they felt depressed or to let me accompany them when they were doing chores#they were like u know what I'm so glad u did this. thank u. this is way better than how I had planned this night to go#& I'm like any time!! I love u!!#& then it just happens all over again next time oh sorry I'm cancelling I'm busy I'm tired#like did u forget what a nice time we had last time? what changed? :(
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Listen I’ll be back to my regularly scheduled programs with shoujo fan arts and (hopefully) some art fight art this month.
But for now, the green Finnish rapper man from Vantaa has taken over my hamster wheel of a brain.
#idk what happened#next thing I know Ive been fondly looking at pictures and videos of this guy and kicking my feet on my bed like a teenage girl#bless your heart Kärtsäri youve made me like goatee beards and wearing the color green again after i avoided those for years due to trauma#seriously i didnt expect to find art inspo from some random dude on Eurovision and then get so invested in his music that I wanna make art#not even Dadi Freyr gave me this energy and I listened to him for 2 years straight during the pandemic#(then again it mightve been due to him being my comfort artist so listening to him was my way of feeling normal in the world at the time)#(Dadi´s music back then was like a warm hug and a being told ´´its okay youll be okay you will be fine´´)#so yeah im quite surprised that käärijä has been my next big hyperfixation jfc#albeit to a modest degree because lets be real im not gonna be prying across another persons life i just want to see his concert clips#and the translated interviews people bring (thank u Käärijä Supporters in you we trust)#dia talks#käärijä
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y'all if you wanna unfollow me ?? or i follow first and you don't want to interact ?? for literally whatever reason ?? that's totally fine.
only thing i ask is that you hardblock me, especially if it's a follow first from my side. i understand if you don't want to interact, you're entitled to curate your dash to your own needs. but i don't wanna stand here like an idiot or seem obnoxious by following again after i've already been soft-blocked, because 9/10 i won't remember if i've followed you before.
and if you have hardblocked me and change your mind one day, wanting to interact ?? i'm cool with that as well. i won't ask questions. heck even if you shouldn't be feeling any interactions at the moment but want to interact at a later point, you're free to shoot me a dm or just follow back 5 years down the line.
#psa tbt.#it just frustrates me especially because tumblr is a 100% functioning website#i've had people reach out to me through mutual friends bc they thought i had softblocked them#and i usually don't cut anyone out out of nowhere if we've been friends/talking for a reasonable amount of time#because like i'd be confused and would want to know what happened in that case as well???#turns out it was just tumblr back at it again!#anyway yeah. my problem is usually w blogs i've seen before and been interested in interacting with#but sometimes i just don't follow at that point of time bc i feel too overwhelmed#so when i'm stumbling across those blogs again i'm just sitting there like a clown#wondering if i already got rejected or haven't even reached out yet#AND U KNOW ITS FINE. we cant/dont want to interact with everyone.#but yeah this is just me being silly but i kinda wanted to put this out there#if u read this whole thing ur a champ#probably lol
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Just got three more job apps out and on a list for employers to reach out to me if they think I'd be a good fit! (It had a lil essay spot to tell what u can do, what u like to do for work, etc and I think I did well in that spot!)
Got some filming done earlier so now all i need to do is edit that, post it, get the vacuuming done, do some Prolific, and figure out something for Housemate's bday bc Bday is coming up! (which is all I'm saying cuz i know ae will see this post. Not a huge surprise or anything but just A Little Something bc i want to 🫂)
I know im probably gonna drop tomorrow and get nothing done, but for today. For today, I am vaguely productive 🙌!
#text post#that said my legs are still v shaky post filming so i may have slightly overdone that but u know what? idc aksndjfng#my cane has shipped and should be here soon so I'll be fine even if the legs fuss for the next few days#the job apps are going out hard again bc the university isn't getting back to anyone on if they're keeping us employed for the fall or not#so i am Nervous! abt that and want to get ahead of a possible layoff as much as i can#which isn't much really but better than nothing lol#im not really ready for the fatigue drop to hit tomorrow but that's just How It's Been since i had covid this last time#and pretending it isn't happening hasn't been helping so like im not happy abt it but I'll acknowledge it at least aksndjfngj#enough typing tho bc laptop needs opening for posting and prolific!! so i can get to the vacuuming!
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#been sitting in my car for 30 min after clocking out then just making up errands to have an excuse to do smth#so i dont have to go home &be alone until i have smth to do again (go to work the next morning) :(((((#hate how u can go a whole day w out seeing someone &think ok maybe i can get a good nights sleep but then they show up#10 min before u leave for the day &then ur night is ruined bc u have trouble falling asleep#then have stress dreams when u do finally fall asleep#😞😞#ik its bc i havent confronted anything but i dont see myself ever doing it or rather initiating the confrontation bc idt it's my place#like what right do i have to disrupt what someone else has going to bring myself some ease#idk this probably doesnt make any sense i just need to vent bc i have cried in my car everyday after work for a month 😭#im ok ive just landed myself in a particularly shitty situation but only for me#everyone else is fine 🫠#&im a chronic overthinker so i have all these thoughts just swirling around &festering#im driving myself insane &then whenever im around.....the other ppl in this situation.....theres never a chance to let any of it out#im gonna explode at some point i know it &i dont want that to happen bc i dont want to be mean :(( but i also dont want to grow to resent#anyone bc this shit hasnt been properly dealt with :(((((#ugh .#changing of the weather isnt helping i feel like im 16 again in my dark bedroom driving myself insane 😭😭
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update i have to apply for my own job for the SECOND time in two years by wednesday and im taking my learners permit test on friday which means i have to finish absorbing the drivers manual by then. the way i am LONGING to walk into traffic.
#the driving thing is just extra stress but the applying for my own job AGAIN thing is making me absofuckingLUTELY insane. this process was#so psychically damaging for me to go through a year ago and the fact that exactly a year later i am doing it again and have to jump thru all#the same hoops and write a new cover letter and find new references and INTERVIEW with my colleagues and all that… like i appreciate this so#much bc basically what is happening is im getting a raise and will be converted to a regular employee (im contractual rn bc that’s all they#could do when i graduated). but like the fact that i am once again under the MORTIFYING psychic stress of my colleagues being the search#committee and me being u able to talk to them abt this or get reassurance and them having to treat me like they don’t know me and this not#being guaranteed and other people potentially applying and me having to compete with them… it is too much fucking stress for me to go#through. it’s just too fucking much. i am so mentally and emotionally exhausted and now i have to walk through fire AGAIN⁉️⁉️⁉️ i wanna KMS#like it’s fine. but also the existential dreaddddd the way i cannot bear to live through this one more time but i have to and im going to. 😍#purrs#delete later#like i get it and i know it’s to make it fair and equitable. but whyyyyy do they have to put me through this again have i not proven myself#time and time again is this job not QUITE LITERALLY designed for me to be in it. and it’s not merely an annoyance it’s like… actively a#stressor that is taking years off my life just like it did last year and the timeline is even more accelerated bc last year i had two weeks#to apply and this time i have FIVE DAYS!!!!! and i have to reach out to references and i can’t do that until monday bc it’s the weekend 😭😭😭😭#like LMFOAHDHSKDHSODHAJJB of course this is happening to meeeeee im going fucking insane. also i might have to do this a THIRD time someday#and i would have to get a masters degree for that too. so basically the only path forward is CEASELESS suffering and psychic agony. there is#no hope for women. fuck my stupid baka life. but also this is a good thing and also i have it sooooo good which is soooo unfair to everyone#else for example possibly wasting everyone else’s time who applies for this job. but also fuck my stupid baka life.#technically im applying for this job for the second time in 365 days. like it’s not even two years it’s that i did this a year ago and now a#year later im doing it again. LESS than a year later. it hasn’t even been a full year yet. help 😻👍#if february 9 2022 me fucking knew what HORRORS awaited her 24 hours from then and 3 months from then and 5 months from then and 15 months f#from then. she would have imploded LMFAOOOOOOOO
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