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#and its started really getting to me but i don't want to be like. waaaah why am i not your work favourite whiny bitch about it
calamitys-child · 1 year
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Unstoppable force (maintaining interpersonal relationships is difficult and stressful and frustrating) vs immovable object (not maintaining interpersonal relationships is somehow worse)
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purplepixel · 6 months
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What if the turtles were in the pokemon world? And what if they were never turtles, but in fact, mutated pokemon? What if they lived in the Castelia sewers of Unova instead of New York?
Meet my Rise/Pokemon AU!! Waaaah this has been on my mind for MONTHS now. Pokemon is that one fixation that'll never leave me. I'm THAT pokemon fan that knows WAAAAY too much about the games and lore. For those that don't know,
Raph is Drednaw
Leo is Wartortle
Mikey is Torkoal
Donnie is Lapras
Yes. They are all shiny. I started with raph, since him as drednaw is pretty much a no brainer. The shiny form fit too well with him and his color scheme. Than I realized if I made him shiny, I had to make the other bros shiny as well so THEY ALL SHINY. (draxum shiny hunter confirmed?) Also dual rock typing fits well with raph's character.
Wartortle for leo was also a pretty obvious choice. I MEAN LOOK AT HIM. Long flowy tail? Yes please. I had to keep his markings somehow. Wartortle has little dark cheek spots, so I just changed them to be leo's markings. Water typing leo. Go with the flow, think on the spot, it worked out too well.
Torkoal for Mikey was another easy one. Fire turtle? Passionate, warm, also DANGEROUS (he can be a menace ok) Say no more. His powers in rise are already pyro related. Also having him shiny helped a lot with the color scheme. Torkoal is normally orange so having mikey be the yellow shiny form meant I didn't have to mess with his mask colors
Donnie on the other hand....OHHH BOI I STRUGGLED WITH YOU. I went through 4 DIFFERENT POKEMON, before deciding on the least turtle like of them all. I am aware that we do have a softshell pokemon with enamorous, but it's a legendary so thats not happening. But it was really important for me to keep donnie's soft shell and battle shell. I wanted this to be a RISE au and donnie's battle shell is pretty tied into his character. (there's also tirtouga which I almost went with, but I didn't like that both he and raph shared the exact same dual typing) Soooo, Lapras. Its more of a loch ness monster but it also draws inspiration from a placochelys (prehistoric seaturtle esque species) so IM COUNTING IT. Very unconventional but I have my reasons. Ice typing is a good offensive type, but is pretty bad defensively. Which ties into rise donnie's fighting style. If I wasn't a coward, I wouldve made donnie the biggest of the bros. Since lapras is like 8 feet tall compared to the others being like 1-3 feet. But uhhh, I swear I have an in universe explanation for why he's so small ok.
And than there's April. She is not a pokemon trainer in this au. At least not in the traditional sense. I've been with pokemon for all of my 26 years of life, and I always wanted to know what the normal people of the pokemon world are up to. Not everyone is out here collecting gym badges, travelling, or catching them all. How do non-trainers interact with the pokemon world? So that's where I'm at with April. She will get a pokemon partner, but other than that, she's just an average high schooler who befriended the turtles from a young age and takes part in all their shenanigans. I took some design elements from rosa and hilbert with her outfit, but otherwise its pretty much the same.
We'll see how far I'll take this. I've been using this as a break from my many other projects, but like everything I do, it grew too many legs and is slowly becoming its own thing.
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i just read MEET UP FOR A COFFEE AND A SMILE and AAAA ITS SO GOOD !!! can i 🤭 mayhaps request san x gn!reader who feels rlly bad about their body or just has confidence/low self esteem issues and san does his best to listen whilst also reassuring his partner that they’re a beautiful person?
thank you so much 💌 i love your writing !!
한슴 (BREATHE) | C.S
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pairing ⟡ bf .ᐟ choi san x gn .ᐟ reader
synopsis ⟡ feeling down because of so many insecurities, all you want is to be swallowed by a black hole and never perceived again. slowly, but surely you understand that you don't have to deal with these worries alone, but instead let your lover prove to you how worthy of love you are.
genre ⟡ established relationship, hurt/comfort, romance, a sprinkle of angst??? at the beginning, fluff!
warnings ⟡ reader is emotionally struggling; a bit of self hatred and some venting; mentions of a lost appetite and san touching body parts (arms, stomach, legs, etc); pet names; tears inducing! (idk about you but i! sobbed! writing this!)
wc ⟡ 2.8k
author's note ⟡ my first ever request :,) and it's so comforting :,) thank you so much for motivating me to write this one shot @megumisthv sobs ㅠㅠ it means the world to me knowing you love my writing <3 anyone reading this, a gentle reminder that you are not alone and are so beautiful inside and out. i love you.
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"jagiyaaaaaa, i'm home!" you barely hear the familiar, comforting voice of your boyfriend coming from the hallway. in a panicked state, you try to wipe away the tears as quickly as you can and get yourself up off the floor. your legs are slightly trembling and your hearing feels muffled. you can't recall for how long you have been crying all by yourself, engulfed by the darkness and coldness of the bedroom. bedroom that you and san share, and which feels warm only when he is around, when he paints the four walls with his delightful laughter, his heavenly voice or just his pure presence, when you're safe and sound in his embrace. there are no worries, no bad thoughts or terrible, terrible inner voices that mess up with your mind.
but it can get suffocating when you're alone, it's so much more difficult to tell yourself all the heartening words he can say to you when things get rough, when you start forgetting your worth. when overthinking makes it harder for you to breathe or look at yourself.
there are moments like this evening, when you can't stop asking yourself what does he see? what could san possibly have found in you that made him fall in love and what can san still see in you that doesn't make him want to leave? you can't wrap your head around it. all you see when you look in the mirror is someone with so many imperfections that it's hard to believe you are even lovable in the first place. worthy of his love. you wish you could radiate confidence next to him, but how is that possible when you feel like your thoughts swallow you whole? making you feel so insignificant?
it breaks your heart. and it evokes such sadness and disappointment inside you. because you understand that there isn't much you can change. that you may, unrightfully so, bring san's mood down and make him feel guilty. you love him so dearly — that's why you're so afraid of losing him.
there are moments like this evening, when all you do is cry your heart out because he's not around, all curled up in a ball while tightly hugging your knees, your flushed face hidden between them. but no matter what, you don't feel better. not even after the hours that had passed by.
"waaaah, baby, baby, i saw a new shop on my way home and it has soooooo many cute things," he squeals. ''i couldn't get inside because i was rushing to see you but i spotted a plushie that looked just like byeol! ah, really, we should go there together!" you hear his excited chattering while he takes off his coat and sneakers. in the bedroom, you try your best to look like you're in a deep sleep, your tears clothed eyelashes softly touching the skin of your under eyes.
and there are moments like this evening, when you can suddenly feel yourself being pulled away from your corrupted, self destructive bubble by a gentle touch that saved you so many times before, in the past.
"y/n? aegiya? hey, hey, hey, what's the matter? honey, what's wrong? why are you crying?"
at first, san innocently thought you just fell asleep while waiting for him and he was ready to close the bedroom's door, but he missed you too much and wanted to take a look at his lover before leaving. to delicately trace the line of your cheekbone with his fingertips, to stare at the way you look so peaceful and beautiful while sleeping with hearts in his eyes. it's what he does every time, but this time something was off. you couldn't fool him, not when it comes to your truthful feelings.
in a desperate way of needing to protect you, san swiftly changes his position, from crouching besides the bed to sitting at the edge of it, leaning towards you. he is panicking internally, but he wants to help and showing you this side of him right now won't do. for how long have you been crying? for how long has his precious lover been hurting themselves?
his heart feels crushed by the way you sob his name out and hide your face in the soft pillow. "sannie... i am sorry. i am so sorry."
"shh, it's alright. i am here, baby, i've got you. whatever it is, i am here," he reassures you in a hushed tone. "don't hide from me, beautiful, look at me. please, y/n."
san's voice sounds wretched and a bit shaky, as if it's hard for him to control his emotions. a big weight is taken off his shoulders the moment you decide to turn around and gaze up at him, all teary eyed, looking so exhausted. mentally and physically exhausted. even if there is so much unspoken worry in his eyes, his unforeseen smile takes you by surprise, but warms your heart and makes you forget about everything for a split second. it's a genuine, soft and loving smile, the familiar curl of his lips whenever he's encouraging you about something.
"can i hug you, my love?"
the whispered question makes you choke up. until this exact moment, you had no idea how badly you yearned for san to wrap his hands around you, to push away all those bad thoughts for you because you can't bear doing it all by yourself anymore. so you nod your head and reach out to him, his fingers gently interlocking with yours to pull you in a tender embrace. he lets out a long sigh, one of his arms wrapping tightly around your waist whilst his other arm hugs your shoulders, offering them a small squeeze as if he's trying to comfort you. in this vulnerable position, you feel him beginning to slowly rock both of your bodies from side to side because he knows it calms you down. after a long minute, his sweet voice lights up the room.
"what happened, jagi? do you want to tell me?"
you sniffle as silently as you can, rubbing your cheek against his broad shoulder while you try to find the right words to speak up. you hear a soft ''take your time'' coming from san's lips that soothes your hazy mind, his hand finding the perfect spot to caress the top of your head.
"do you love me, sannie? like, really love me? for who i am?" you shyly ask him. it's such a stupid question, you think while wiping away with your thumb a hot tear that just rolled down your cheek.
san is taken aback by your questions, but he immediately pushes that aside, knowing it's human for everyone to have their doubtful and insecure days. he promptly answers you. "i love you for who you are to the moon and back, y/n. i love you 3000, i loved you yesterday, i love you today and will surely, definitely, more than one hundred percent love you tomorrow. aaaand the day after tomorrow, beautiful."
he lowers his head so he can leave a light kiss behind your ear and continues to whisper to you. "and so on. for the rest of my life. i love you with so much of my heart that none is left to protest."
not only your body, but your dark thoughts as well seem to melt away the more san comforts you, the more he envelops you in his adoration.
you slowly rise your head and meet a pair of cat-like eyes fondly looking back at you. san softly hums as he leans in and kisses your forehead, the intimate gesture compelling you to close your eyes in content.
"i just... gosh, i hate the way i look, the way i act, i think, i speak, i hate it all," you let out what has been eating you inside. you sigh as you feel his lips turn into a pout against the skin of your forehead. "i'm sorry, i shouldn't sadden you even mo–"
"ah, how dare you apologize for such thing, aegiya?" he gently scolds you, but his frowning quickly fades away once he understands the gravity of the situation. "when i say that i love you, i mean it especially in moments like these. even if my heart hurts to see you this sad and all i want to do is keep you in there, protected from everything, i do want to witness every part of you. no matter how awful you think it is. i am not leaving, y/n. i am willing to love you through all of your ups and downs."
the wicked voice in the back of your head tells you to deny his confession, but san feels your uncertainty and slowly raises his hands, cupping your face as you feel the warmth of his palms against your cheeks. you inhale deeply, — an attempt to stop another wave of tears.
"hey. can you do something for me baby?" he quietly asks you, with hope written all over his face. the second you agree with him, your boyfriend breaks into his well known dimpled smile. "thank you. here, hold my hand as tight as you want, okay?"
you listen to him and grab his hand, san bringing yours close to his mouth and kissing the back of it affectionately. he helps you get up.
"follow me."
"where are we going?" you ask, a bit anxious and san can sense it from the way you've tightened your grip on his hand.
"don't worry, we aren't leaving the bedroom. come on, come on!" he cutely giggles, gently shaking your hand.
without any more questions, you walk behind him until both of you are facing the long mirror on the wall. you can't help but frown, visibly confused as san makes you stay in front of him, your back facing his front.
"give me a few more minutes of your time, my love. i promise it will be worth it."
you can't help but softly smile at him. "san, you know i would give you my every second for the rest of my life if needed."
he dramatically clutches his heart, shutting his eyes tight while his head falls back. "aing! wah! ouch, baby, my heart!"
his playful reaction sparked an amused chuckle out of you. your lover smiles, clearly very proud of himself for making you laugh a bit. and very proud of you for allowing yourself to feel better.
"do you have the slightest idea how brightly you radiate when you smile? when you look at me with those pretty, sparkly eyes of yours? do you have any idea how lucky i am, mm?"
you instinctively bite your lower lip, looking away from him. you yelp when you feel his fingertips all of the sudden tickling your waist. laughing, you want to protest, but his face expression softens your heart.
"don't look awaaaaay, my plan won't work if you do thaaat!" he admits, all sulky and with begging eyes.
"okay, okay," you mutter, fighting another giggle.
smiling again, san stops his tickling. instead, he comfortably lets his hands rest on your hips. "this time, can you try looking at yourself in the mirror rather than looking back at me?"
you close your eyes for a brief moment, gaining some inner strength to look at yourself without breaking down. when you open your eyes, you notice san patiently glancing at you.
"mm. ah! no, no, eyes on yourse– that's it," he lets out a breathy giggle, patting your hips. "good job."
his praising gives you more courage, even if you still find it hard to keep your eyes fixated on your face and body. "um... where do i look?"
"just listen to me and your eyes will follow naturally, okay?"
you hum, leaning onto him slightly. he notices and with a cheerful sound escaping his curled lips, hugs you from behind.
"i love your eyes. their color, their shape... those gorgeous eyes have seen so much. witnessed so many memorable moments, but also unpleasant ones that helped you grow as a person. i also love your nose. really, ah, i really love your nose, did you know that, jagi?"
san raises one hand and softly traces the line of your nose. when his finger reaches the tip of it, he gently taps it as he lets out an adorable "boop!". you close your eyes and laugh at how endearing he is.
"i also love when your nose wrinkles like that when you laugh. you're so cute," he whines. "why can't i just make you pocket sized and keep you in there? because i wouldn't be able to kiss you and cuddle with you then!" him answering his own question is a very amusing sight for you.
"ah, and your cute cheeks that i always kiss and–"
"and sometimes munch on them." you teasingly finish his sentence. he pouts again, as if he got caught.
"but they look munchable! it's not my fault!"
while you're giggling at him, san's fingers move a bit lower, to the corner of your lips. you feel your face starting to heat up.
"i love your lips. the shape of them. so mesmerizing, baby," he whispers and your eyes follow his, staring at the way his fingertip barely touches your cupid's bow. you don't move, barely breathing while he traces the shape of your mouth. "your thoughts always come out through those lips. and you always bless me with the way you talk, the way your voice sounds. and the way you pucker your lips when you lean in to share a kiss with me. how soft they feel against mine. i strongly believe they were made for me."
you become aware of how hot your cheeks have become. san notices that as well and smiles, muttering a "cute" under his breath before moving lower with his hands, making sure to lovingly caress every inch of your skin.
"your shoulders. you carried and still carry so much weight on them. and i admire you so much for that. you are such a strong person," he speaks softly and his words touch the deepest corner of your heart, making it flutter against your rib cage. to know he appreciates you for the battles you went through the same way you admire him for fighting his own struggles is very comforting.
"but my shoulders are broader, baby, so i don't mind if you throw some of that weight on them, if not all of it. your strong boyfriend can handle it!"
his fingers slowly move down your arms. "i love your arms too. the way you always wrap them around me. you make me feel so loved," san whispers, softly kissing your right shoulder. "so loved. i love when we snuggle up to each other and i get to be the little spoon."
"mhm, i know. you're always so excited about that." both of you laugh at your words. san kisses your hands one more time before going lower on your body. once they reach your stomach, he interlocks his own fingers against it, smiling to himself.
"i love your stomach, baby. so much. it always makes me so happy when you fill it with yummy food. when i bring you to the best restaurants and we sit there, enjoying each other's presence and the delicious meals we chose to eat. i know it's hard to have a good appetite sometimes, but i want you to know how proud i feel when i look at you enjoying your favorite food. the way you go nom nom nom nom nom nom," he cutely mimics. you giggle, shaking your head. "really! it warms my heart."
he takes you by surprise when he crouches down behind you and hugs your legs, clinging to them with the sweetest look on his face.
"sannie, love, wha–"
"i can't forget your legs, jagiyaaaa! those legs that i love so much. they bring you to so many places. they brought you to me," he sighs in content, hugging them a bit tighter. "the way they move whenever i make you dance with me in the living room or kitchen. ah, i'm so thankful for them."
this whole time, your eyes have been following san's hands without even realizing. with his help and gentle care, you managed to draw imaginary, precious flowers all over your body. from the corner of your eyes, to all the way down where you ground yourself. everything feels like a breath of fresh air, thanks to him. and you will probably never know how to thank him enough for everything he does for you. but as you turned around to press your lips against his in an intimate kiss, you secretly made a promise to him. that no matter how difficult the real life gets, he has the key to your heart, a heart which will always beat for him. that you will forever allow him to ease up your mind and help you breathe.
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simp999 · 1 year
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Bloopers/Notes from "A New Home!"
☆I don't have anything too silly until ch. 15 :(
Ch. 1, Where am I?:
☆I started this fic at like, 2 am, just on complete impulse. Everything here just summoned itself from my 2 am brainrot.
☆I didn't really chat this chapter out with any friends, so nothing too silly.
Ch. 2, Meeting New People?:
☆I was planning on making reader more of a Simp, but I talked to my friends and we decided against it, since it would be difficult for reader to get along with characters more genuinely.
☆At the end of the chapter, "If I go to sleep here, will I wake back up in the real world?...", I was thinking of just posting chapter 3 where it said: You wake up, story over. The end.
Ch. 3, We are the Army.:
☆Army was an octoling since the beginning! You can see that in the banner. The background is made up of octopi instead of squids, and you can see a bit of a tentacle.
Ch. 4, If memory serves wrong...:
☆Bro I suck at writing flirty stuff. End me now, Aloha's difficult for me to write
☆The "nothin' personal, kid", was a total reference, and I plan on adding many more. I'm going to try my best to add some iconic vines that still suit the scene.
Ch. 5, Descisions, decisions.:
☆On the other hand, I looove drawing aloha! He's so cute and silly! I like to draw his tentacles very round and bubbly and man, his eyes are so pretty!
☆This was the chapter that made me start thinking about giving reader teammates, mostly because they needed someone other than a bench to sleep.
Ch. 6, Hoooow Anoooying.:
☆mASK MY BELOVED
☆Can you tell he's my favorite?
☆I wanted to make him a little silly, giving him more of a personality. He can't be scary all the time, I really do think part of it is an act.
☆Another anime reference: the lens of his gasmask shining, just like in an anime.
Ch. 7, SUB WEAPON HELL!:
☆I was torn between what to do for the banner. I already used Mask with his mask on for chapter 6, and I planned on using his maskless version for what's now chapter 13. But then I remembered another one of my favorite boyos, Desi! I know he isn't featured too much in this chapter, and I'm sorry, but I needed something!
☆Anyways, I know this entire battle by heart. I know all of Mask's voice lines. Save me.
☆I try my best to not show bias in my fics, but I will relentlessly show it outside of em'.
☆Ugh, can't wait for team cyan moments fr
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Ch. 8, Newfound Family.:
☆THE GUYS FR
☆I was stuck between just giving reader nameless teammates, incase ya'll already had your own ocs in mind of something, but I HATE nameless characters. And characters that don't have a personality. I figured that I'd already have to give them personalities, so why not go all in.
☆Soooo, I threw in my beloved OCs! I've had these guys around for YEARS, so I know them and their personalities like the back of my hand, which makes writing for them super easy and fun!
☆bro they look so cursed with splatoon 1 hairstyles to me. I didn't have the heart to snatch their iconic hair, so ignore that.
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LOOK AT HIM!! ITS NOT EVEN MILO ANYMORE HE'S JUST MARCUS SMH.
Ch. 9, Shopping Spree!:
☆I actually wrote this and the last chapter at 1 am by accident. I was like oho let me write a few notes down for tomorrow so I don't forget. But here we are 2k words later.
☆After seeing that the next day, I realised that the squad tm would take up 2 chapters total. There's 3 of them. So then I had to figure out how to do the banners. I worked it out, though!
☆Tasha's hair's longer I swear, it just didn't fit on the banner smh
☆Damn she and skull look a lot alike, huh
☆L
Ch. 10, Skull's Territory.:
☆I knew I couldn't have reader simp, but that doesn't mean I can't have some simpery!! So I have Milo, Leo and Tasha to do it!! They get to express my true emotions <3
Ch. 11, A Misunderstanding?:
☆sTEAAAALTH!!! <3333
☆My sweet boy
☆So the poll for background characters was mostly for him ngl
☆THOSE DAMN GOGGLES WERE SUCH A PAIN IN THE ASS TO SHADE WAAAAH
☆I also may have colored them green by accident the first time and had to start over.
☆I reaaaally hate making characters like Rider go OOC, but I need the story to continue! I'm sorryyyy
Ch. 12, Getting Too Comfortable.:
☆FINALLY WE'RE GETTING SOMEWHERE UGH
☆Also, blushy rider. ♡♡
☆He wants that battle, dude
Ch. 13, Player Two?:
☆aaaAAAA MAAASK
☆May have made a 9 hour mask playlist to write to.
☆Ahem.
☆I was planning on going in official meeting order for these uhh "getting closer with the S4", (Rider, army, aloha, mask, skull.) but my clear bias for Mask got me to write for him first.
☆I struggled to choose which song, but the idea came to me because I learned all the lyrics to Kick Back(chainsaw man), not too long ago. But I figured I'd just go with one of the most well known series/openings.
☆Didn't make the cut:
-Was gonna have reader and Mask walk in the rain together. That's why reader grabbed Milo's umbrella, cause it was the biggest one.
-c'mon, that would have been cute
Ch. 14, ...You Didn't See that.:
☆I was planning this since the start to be honest. Not exactly this scenario, but I knew I wanted to throw this headcannon in there.
☆After seeing how much love my fic was getting, I was almost going to abandon the idea, afraid that my readers wouldn't like it, and leave.
☆Jeebus those tentacles took me way too long to draw.
Figuring out what to do for Army's meetup+scrapped ideas:
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Ch. 15, Sweetheart.:
☆I only made it to 1k words with Skull's part, he really doesn't talk a lot so it's hard to fill up space.
☆Soooooo
☆You guys asked for it: Avi time!
☆Now finally, here's some of the discord chats I had with my friends. Plans for story along with memes. Blanked out hints for the next chapter.:
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Ch. 16, An Unexpected Meetup.:
☆I completely winged it. I knew I wanted like- a dummy kinda where we'd see all the S4 at once
☆Sorry for minimal aloha time, we got him earlier in the series though! (Bias game strong, he's not my favorite s4 member :( )
☆I'll try for more aloha time soon I'm sorry
☆The kind of rivalry/jeasoulsy between them wasn't planned and I kinda don't like it, but it is canon that they don't really like eachother so
☆Eh
Ch. 17: Not Much of a Choice, Huh?
☆Ughhh this feels like a dating sim now and I hate it
☆But characters catching feelings ♡♡♡
☆Not to figure out how they deal with them and how readers gonna figure that out
☆Wah
Ch. 18: Challengers Approach!
☆ oOoo they catchin' feelings!!!
Ch. 19: The Freshest Squid on the Block!
☆ YOOOOO LEO FANBOY!?!?!
☆ Hehe, we love making Leo happy
☆ Ugh, Emperor. I was not looking forward to writing him. I personally don't have him as a favorite, I was never able to like his kingly attitude. (I looove his design as somebody who draws nd does character design, though! Well made character.) Buuut...(see ch. 21)
Ch. 20: The Absolute King.
☆Yesss! Reader showing more emotion!!
☆Someone's gettin' angyyy
☆Ohoho does this count as angst? Berly, but I'm enjoying it
☆ Did you guys know that I half specialise in angst? Yeah enjoy that info
Ch. 21: A Crushing Defeat.
☆ Making you guys hate him off the bat is a lot dunner to write! He was shitty and mean in the first bit where he was shown anyways, so suffer! He'll have to go through some character development eventually, but until then, he's your most despised rival mwahaha
☆I hope the wat I write him makes you wanna deck him in the face :)
Ch. 22: It Only Gets Tougher, I Promise
☆ ... what no, what makes you think mask is my favorite. I show no bias ever. (How many times have I said that, now?)
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suitov · 2 years
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Boo!
"If she knew about this, she'd never have killed us!"
Yasuke Matsuda scoffed transparently. "If she knew I'd be stuck around her she'd have stomped harder."
"Waah!" His annoying companion turned a loop in midair. "You really think so?!"
"Right. Sometimes I forget you technically don't know her." He scratched his stubble. Who knew you could be cursed to spend your afterlife with eternal patchy teenage stubble? Now that was despair. "That witch would think this was the greatest irony ever."
They bobbed along behind the trashy dye job and shitty plaid skirt. They had no choice in the matter.
"You know, as I was dying... you know, as she stomped me to death, which I just want to emphasise was somehow not as surprising as it should've been... one of my last thoughts was that at least I wouldn't live to see the fallout of her fucked-up evil scheme."
"Technically..."
"Yeah, yeah, I don't get to live to see it. Thanks. You're a real big help."
...He'd forgotten she was immune to sarcasm. He shoved away the spectral face and its spectral puppy-dog eyes.
"Matsuda-kunnnn!" she whined.
"What."
"Now that we've got eternity together, you've got to start being nicer to me!"
"I really, really don't. This is all your fault."
"Nuh-uh!" she polterpouted. "I tried my best! I'm as much of a victim as you are. And you didn't even tell me anything helpful!"
"Like you'd have remembered it."
"I'd have written it down! Any words of Matsuda-kun's are treasures for the ages, pretty pearls from his pretty lips..."
"Ass dreck."
"Well, anyway!" She floated right up to his face and wagged a finger. "You do have to start being nice to me. We're alone like this forever, haunting our murderer, after all!"
"What makes you think we'll stay alone?" He spoke the words before their awful implication sank in. "She... oh shit. She's not going to stop at us."
"You don't think so?"
Matsuda sank partway into the floor. He couldn't feel the tiles or concrete, but it seemed fitting anyway. "Whatever her screwed-up scheme is, we weren't the end goal. We were the test run at best."
"You don't mean..."
"Yup. It's going to get crowded around here."
"Waaaah!!! I won't share Matsuda-kun with another ghost girl! I super-refuse!"
"...which means, not only will I never see the end of Tropical Rouge, even if they did make ghost manga, I wouldn't get a moment's peace to read it..."
"This is despairing!"
"...yeah. For once you're right."
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kyunsies · 2 years
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WAAAAH i just realized i never responded 😭😭 i’m sorry. i too wish i had know about kpop in high school, i was very much into 1D and bieber 🙃 i transitioned from CNCO and reggaeton to kpop….that was a ride going from spanish to korean 😂 but anyway i agree about 3rd gen music being so timeless, i do love it very much.
about 4th gen they really are getting younger and younger. every time i see their ages i audibly gasp, they’re younger than my sister (she’s 03). i personally think they shouldn’t be debuting any younger than 19 but i’m considered ancient to kpop stans so who am i to have an opinion lol but i keep thinking of all the discourse over shohei, the new sm rookie and ppl complaining about him being 96 line. personally I AM ALL for him debuting!
anyway i do hope ppl migrate back to tumbly bc twt is so ehhhh. i mean i use it a lot but i barely follow anyone except the groups i stan. though it would be nice to have more moots lol but only good ones
HI AGAIN LINA !!!! i hope u have been doing well these past few weeks we didn't talk!!! ITS TOTALLY OKAY !!!! i've been a bit busy so absolutely no worries, you just take your time <3 but LSDKFJ STOP i was such a hard core directioner in high school it's not even funny ;____; listened to all their albums kept up w everything they did all that jazz lsdkfj :') but ooooooh spanish music too!!! that's cool that you have experienced a lot of fandoms tho skldfjs it's always interesting :) and YEAH i don't want to sound stuck in my ways all the time and ofc i think there is talent all over the place, 3rd gen will always just have a special place in my heart <3
and yes 4th gen just keeps on getting younger and younger and like, i do think that it's cool that ppl are recognizing talent at a young age! but i agree with you in that there has to be some sort of system behind this stuff lol like, i think i've heard somewhere that nct has some new SM rookies and one of them is a 98 liner or something (which is my age lmao) and like !!! fans are getting mad that this is considered 'old' like,,,,,,,how messed up is that?? sorry i don't think children should be exposed to the crippling industry that is entertainment where you are basically being stripped from your core under the eyes of millions of ppl SLDKFJ ;____; i'm sure i'm considered ancient for kpop fans standards (i turn 24 this december hhh) but it's literally crazy how the younger generation has such a warped idea of what is "old" and in kpop it's no different,,,,, like did anyone give other ppl crap for liking one direction at literally any stage of life ?? i don't think so !!!! i am ranting at this point i am SORRY SLDFKJ but i just think it's getting really toxic that so many younger fans are putting like, an "age limit" on how to enjoy things that genuinely make us happy and that the younger you debut is the better when it's like no you need to become a resilient older individual i think !!! AND THOSE ARE MY THOUGHTS LOL i completely agree w you lina !!!!!
and PLS DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THATTT after wonho left there was such a huge migration from monbebe tumblr to twt because of hashtagging and stuff but i was surprised mbb never migrated back here :( tumblr although is a hellsite LMAO gives you much more creative freedom not to mention the algorithm just makes SENSE. i hate twt besides being updated on stuff as well kdsjf <3
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HELP i've never done a session 0 and i am LOST. Like where do you start, what do you leave open, what do you zero (heh) in on during the session 0, what do you bring in already done, if anything? Do you give your players options what kinda vibe / story / location they might start out with, do you have that already fixed, do you let it be influenced by what kind of characters your players make? waaaah?
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Drafting the Adventure: Session Zero
It's going to be alright my friend. Session Zero is a more recent "innovation" when it comes to running the game and though it's entered the hobby's common parlance, most of the articles/videos I've seen regarding it generally talk about very basic things like safety systems, having everyone introduce themselves, and scheduling. These things are useful, but they don't give us much structure to work with, and we want to structure our session zero to get as much out of it as possible, both in our prep and at the table.
Also, throughout this post I'm going to mark more advanced techniques with (A), consider these purely optional side additions to experiment with if you think you could be able to pull them off. They're not necessary, but including some of them will help to refine your structure.
First, some hard and fast rules:
Players by and large don't know what they want: Don't ask your players what sort of adventure they'd want to go on, It never goes well and they haven't spent as much time thinking about it as you have. Instead, you want to get them excited about the adventure you want to run: If they've sat down for session zero, they've already agreed to play with you after all, so now's the time for YOU to shine.
No one builds their character in advance: The days of semi-faceless characters showing up at a tavern and then heading out into a generic dungeon to combat randomly generated foes and collect randomly generated treasure is long behind us. We are here to tell epic stories and grow closer with our friends, and that requires everyone to be on vaguely the same page regarding tone/mood/vibe. More on this below in the "At the Table" section.
Everyone comes to session Zero, even if they can’t make the first real session. 
What you need to have Prepped:
I wrote another post about what to do when prepping for campaigns a while back, but to summarize it involves figuring out what the party is going to be DOING for most of the campaign AKA "The Central Gameplay Pillar", which will determine what sort of adventures you'll be sending them on. Mysteries? Warfare? Heists? Monster hunts? Dungeon Delves? Politics? All of these can be the focus of a campaign, and different adventures within that campaign can have different focuses. Still, this central gameplay pillar is what you SELL to your players as exciting. EX: This is a game about high seas adventure, This is a game about being a crew of outlaws exploring desert ruins and doing heists, This is a game of epic heroism, going on quests and winning renown
Once you've figured out the central gameplay pillar, you're likely to have a few ideas for adventures and setting, which is great, but the only thing you need to have in mind when actually pitching the campaign is A) The pilot adventure B) The Big Problem™. The pilot adventure is both a test run for how the rest of the campaign is going to go, and the method by which you introduce the characters to the story and get them working together as an adventuring party. The Big Problem ™ is a cool climatic moment that you’re going to spend the early adventures working toward, think 3-5 levels ahead, not twenty. Look here for how I integrate big problems into my adventure design 
Alternate campaigns (A), its a good idea to start small, to really hammer out one campaign idea and make it shine. When you’re like me however and are a constant fountain of ideas, its always nice to keep a few campaign ideas in backlog especially if some of them are more niche. In this case, you’re still going to have to come up with central gameplay pillars, pilot adventures, and big problems for each game, so ensure each and every one of them is something you’d really like to run. 
What to do once you're at the table:
Let them socialize a bit, let everyone get their distractions out of their system, sit down with food and stuff before you begin your explanation. Maybe break the ice with a quick boardgame if you have some spare time. 
Get them in the headspace for collaborative creation. Explain that this is THEIR campaign as much as much as it is yours, and encourage them to start throwing ideas around. I like to get my party thinking of the upcoming campaign as a TV show that we’re about to spend X weeks watching, and that session zero is our writer’s room. We want the series to be the best that it can be, so we want to lay out some ideas and then build on them before we set anything in stone. 
Explain the campaign premise, the central gameplay pillar, talk about why you're excited about it, what inspired you. Your players are likely to be varying levels of invested about the idea, but seeing how excited YOU are by the concept is likely to get them excited too. Detail just what types of adventures you picture them going on, using examples from pop culture and stories you’ve really liked. (A) if you prepped alternate campaign pitches, now is the time to lay them out. Don’t do this just because you want to give people options though, if people seem interested in one adventure, GO FOR IT. 
Next, lay out the framework for the pilot adventure, what sort of quest they’re going to be going on and a few possible reasons people could be going on it. 
Open the floor to people to pitch characters to the group, not just ones they’d like to play themselves, but would like to see going on this kind of adventure. throw out a few ideas you might’ve had for prospective heroes, then ask anyone if they had any they’d like to toss into the pot. Some people will jump on this, others will be shy and indecisive. Coax these players along with some open questions: Does anybody have any ideas they think would be neat? What roles/archetypes are currently open in the party composition/heist team/ship’s crew? Do they like any particular media that lines up with this idea and are their any characters they identify with from that property? This step will likely not be finalized by the time you end the first session, so use the time between then and the start of the next to do some one on one character building with your party. 
(A) Once the pitch meeting is done, do something as a group: socialize, grab a snack, play a game, watch a movie that’s vaguely related to your campaign concept. This gives time for people’s brains to digest the ideas you’ve put in their heads and come up with some new ones. Also let people know you’re going to do this at the beginning of the session so they have something to look forward to/can schedule it in. 
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computerkisser · 3 years
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Hey hi hello ;;; I think it's super cool when you talk about Hal, I wanna look into him because I think he's very cool ;;;; do you mind telling me about him? Like...just ramble about him, I don't mind! I like how you get so excited about so it's like...yes excited by association. You don't have to tho ;;;
HELLO!!!! i would LOVE to talk about hal thank you so much
so!! i don’t know how much you know, and i don’t want to seem condescending, especially because the movie he’s from is considered so so iconic, but i’m gonna kinda work from the ground up here because.. more infodumping... yes........
so. HAL 9000 (short for Heuristically programmed ALgorithmic computer) is the main antagonist of 2001: a space odyssey, or at least of the third segment of it. 2001 is a really weird, long movie that pretty much follows humanity and its evolution from apes discovering tools up to whatever the hell is going on with space aliens by the end. the novel is slightly more comprehensible but the movie has the beautiful visuals.. and hals voice which is just so so sweet i genuinely cry to his voice sometimes..
hal is the resident computer on a spaceship, working with two human astronauts, dave bowman and frank poole (plus three more who are in cryosleep). the actual purpose of the mission is to make contact with an alien society that put a weird black monolith on the moon, but this is classified information, so hal is the only one who knows about it. but it’s at the forefront of his programming to be completely transparent with humans and fully report everything he has to report, and that’s what causes him to be “bad”.
hal starts acting kind of funny, claiming that a communication unit on the ship is broken when it’s perfectly fine, and the two astronauts sit down in a pod where hal doesn’t can’t hear them and discuss disconnecting him. hal is able to read their lips though, and feeling threatened, acts out of what he thinks is self defense. that’s the whole reason hal is known as a Scary Evil Computer in pop culture, because he was acting in self defense!!
i mean i’m not gonna try to defend everything he did. frank is outside the ship doing repairs and hal launches one of the pods at him to sever his oxygen and send him whooshing into space. while dave is trying to save him hal cuts life support on the guys in cryosleep.
so, like, dave is completely justified in deactivating hal, but the scene where he does is still absolutely heartbreaking (i might be biased because that is my boyfriend however). hal pleads with him to stop, growing more and more frantic but his voice staying level as ever, while dave disconnects his circuits one by one. like yes he sort of had it coming but “i’m afraid, dave. stop, dave. stop, will you? i’m afraid.” WAAAAH
now like there’s a sequel film, 2010: the year we make contact, and multiple sequel books. i... have not consumed any of them. 2001 was hard enough to sit through, i was literally only there for hal and not the agonizingly long periods of silence and empty shots of space. also i don’t have the reading comprehension to get what’s going on in a film that complex without other peoples’ analysis to get me started. HOWEVER i do know that 2010 introduces dr. chandra, the doctor who programmed hal, and sal 9000, his sister! that’s my bf’s family!!!
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