i was talking to my therapist last week about how i'm kinda excited but also equally apprehensive about starting grad school this fall because yes, i so so desperately needed a gap year otherwise i think i literally would have killed myself and/or had a breakdown big enough to land me in the hospital, and even beyond that i just needed to figure out a more concrete plan of what i'm going to do with my life in general -- while all of that is true, and i'm glad i took the gap year for it, i'm also apprehensive because i genuinely feel like an entirely different person than i was even at this exact point in time last year, nevermind anything earlier than that. it's only been a single year of me being out of school but my life has changed so dramatically, mostly for the better, and my whole personality has flipped on its head, it's just going to be so fucking weird going back to the same school, the same campus, potentially seeing my old friends around. augh
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someone remind me to post a really bizarre comment i got on ao3 here bc im reeling but first. one thing i like abt college (at least my college experience so far) is truly nobody gives a Single Shit. like my textural issues and picky eating made me nervous that ppl would be weird but like no we make light hearted jokes about me eating a full plate of plain pasta. i can experiment w new things and if i dont like it thats okay. i just made myself plain pita bread and my roommate saw me and i was like oh shit do i have to explain and so i told her a bit abt it and shes like no thats so real im heating up a popeyes leftover rn. like nobody cares about what i do and don't eat and if they invite me somewhere w food i dont want i can just decline and Oughhgh i fucking LOVE college bro
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When Jaskier is left alone to his own devices in Kaer Morhen he plays with the fantastic acoustics of the old keep. He wanders the cold empty corridors and rooms with high stone ceilings, singing and listening to his notes echoing back at him. On long sleepless nights he can be found alone in the great hall, his melodies surrounding him like a ethereal sirens song.
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coffee always tastes bad so im not too pressed when it sucks - tis its nature after all - but its always such a betrayal when hot chocolate sucks. im drinking chocolate. it should be impossible to fuck that up. and yet,
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There's a girl in my class who I study with/hang out with sometimes and today she showed me the books that she likes to read which are just booktok smut. She asked if I like to read them and I said that no, I’m not into them. She asked for an explanation and I said it’s bcuz I’m acearo so I rlly don’t get anything out of smut books and that a lot of them are not very well written imo. I could tell that I kinda annoyed her so maybe I shouldn’t have said that but like!! She asked me!! She wanted to know what I read and I proceeded to pull out my thrifted nasty yellow copy of When World's Collide and she goes “oh…”. 😭😭
Later she said "I like pretty little liars, the summer I turned pretty, and the Mindy Kaling show. What do you watch?". And I was like ummm, hbo Oz, the Sopranos, the Wire, bcs, etc. and she was like oh, okay...😭😭😭. She's never heard of the Sopranos or Oz so she googled them and said that everyone is ugly😭😭. I tried to explain the significance of Oz and the Sopranos and she stared at me like I was insane💀.
The whole time she was kinda implying that I’m pretentious/making her feel dumb and it’s like!!! I’m not trying to be pretentious!! I genuinely enjoy classic sci-fi and annoying drama shows sorry💀💀. If you like romance shows and ya books that’s fine omg, I simply do not for the most part lol. Not to mention that I’m literally stupid like ijbol. I told her multiple times that what she likes is perfectly fine and that it’s okay for us to like different things. I even gave her some kdrama recommendations but she was still being rude.
Later I told her that I have a blog where I Oz post and showed her the length of some of my posts and she said “why can’t you just be normal” 💀💀💀.
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