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bettyfrommars · 1 year

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I'm on Fire

biker!Eddie Munson x fem!reader

Part 3

🚨18+Only, biker!Eddie, tow truck driver!Eddie, adult themes, mentions of smut, angst, mutual pining, slow burn, cheating (not on reader), alcohol consumption, flirting, mention of biker!Steve Harrington, 90's music & nostalgia, mention of a loved one with cancer, self-deprecation, eventual smut. Reader and Eddie are late 20's-early 30's

Word count: 5k

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🔸Reader and Eddie are pining for each other in secret, and reader takes bold initiative to bring Eddie a gift. The two of you keep crossing paths as this crush intensifies and complications arise.

A/N: Always look forward to hearing from you all, what you thought, or what you'd like to see happen 👀

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Steve called a day or two after the initial meetup, but Katie was headed to a conference out of the state, so they didn’t make any immediate plans. The conversation started in the living room where she first picked up the phone; she made a wild hand gesture, arm pivoting from side to side at the elbow, mouthing his name to you so that you would know who it was, and then she switched to the phone in her bedroom. They talked for over an hour, and he told her he’d check back in when she was back from her trip.

“Okay, so Steve thinks that Eddie has a little crush on you,” Katie told you when she came back out to give you the recap. “He said you might have to make the first move, though.”

Your heart fluttered, but you tried to play it cool. You looked up from your magazine. “Please tell me you didn’t spend the entire time talking about me?”

“Oh, of course not,” Katie shrugged. “Only a half hour or so.”

“If I were Eddie, I’d be pissed if my friend spilled the beans like that,” you said with a tilt of your head.

“I told Steve I wouldn’t tell you he said that,” she countered.

“Well, that makes it better.”

“Steve is a really…” Katie hesitated, trying to find the right descriptive as she plopped back down on the couch. “...intelligent, charming guy. I don’t know, maybe I’ll go out with him when I get back. If he asks like a gentleman.”

“Maybe?”

“Probably.”

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The next week came and went. You were busy, so you didn’t have much of a chance to think about the possibility that Eddie might have a crush on you.

No, that was a lie: you thought about it a lot. The bad part was, this whole feeling a chemical pull towards him was a distraction that you didn’t need in your life, and it made you do creepy, irrational things, like driving by Munson’s Garage one day after work just to see if you could get a glimpse of him.

The good part was, it had you feverishly painting until after midnight a few days in a row. You were feeling inspired for the first time in months, and even if you still had to be at work at 9am looking like death warmed over, it was worth it.

On Thursday afternoon, you were at the gallery preparing a huge piece of art to be shipped out of the country when you heard it: the unmistakable purring growl of a chopper gunning down your street. You let the corner of the box fall to the ground with a heavy thud, eliciting a horrific yowl from your assistant who had been helping you wrap it up meticulously for the past hour, and sprang to the window like a little girl at the distant tinkle of Santa’s bells.

There were three of them atop their menacing leather and chrome beasts, but they were already disappearing around a corner at the other end of the street by the time you got there. The next thing you knew, you were out on the sidewalk with your hand up to block the sun, squinting, trying to see if one of them had long, dark hair. The high pitched whine of a car alarm shrilled in the distance, and a woman pushing a baby stroller had to go around, eyeballing you with disdain as she went.

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Meanwhile, Eddie was seeing you in the face of every woman he met, and simultaneously looking forward to the day when that was not the case. He didn’t have the energy to pine over someone, let alone have issues performing in bed because the woman wasn’t you. Having sex with other women was starting to feel like cheating, and that was an icky, embarrassing truth that he would never confess to one of his buddies.

“Oh? You can’t stop thinking about her when you fuck other women? Damn, that pussy must be tight.”

You were basically a figment of his imagination, and he was having these really gross daydreams about just….holding your hand and shit like that. Not cool, not bad ass. Jerking off to a porn or the idea of some nameless, faceless mouth on his cock was fine, but doing it to the idea of tasting your cum while his mouth was between your legs made him want to lobotomize himself with Jack Daniels.

This was dangerous, bitch-boy territory, and he honestly couldn’t say he’d navigated it in almost a decade. Maybe he’d been hanging out with Steve “Loverboy” Harrington for too long, listening to him get all goo-goo ga-ga over some new chick every other week. But also, he envied him; Steve didn’t just sip the juice when it was good, he let himself drown in it, over and over again.

Eddie shrugged it off and acted like he didn’t care the day Steve told him that he talked to your roommate, but then he came back around a few hours later and asked him if he was planning to meet up with her again. “You should call her friend,” Steve told you. “She digs you, Katie told me.” Katie told him no such thing, as she had a very strict girl code, but Steve couldn’t help himself.

So yeah, Eddie drove by your work on Thursday. Innocent enough, but the part of town where you worked was very high-end, and nowhere near the place him and the boys were headed, but nevertheless, he gave the signal and they followed. One of his buddies ran with the Coffin Kings---a bearded monster they called Tank----and he got a kick out of rumbling his hog close to the expensive cars parked along the street to shake the foundation and make their alarms go off.

He didn’t even turn his head to see through the glass storefront and check if you were inside, that wasn’t the point: he just wanted to be in your orbit, to drive down a street that you parked on every day.

Holy shit, Munson, why don’t you just put your tap shoes on and break into song about it?

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On Friday, you left work early, announcing that you had a very important appointment, and then you went and sat in your car around the corner from Munson’s Garage for a half hour. It took you way too long to work up the courage, listening to an album by the band Hole, specifically the song Violet. A gang of bikers rolled up to the stop sign across from you, and you did a comical job of sliding down in your seat so they wouldn’t see you.

Once they were gone, you looked down at what you had in your lap; a gift wrapped up in brown butcher paper and tied with jute string. “This is so stupid,” you told yourself, putting your car in gear to drive away, but then you flipped it into park again with a pensive groan.

After a dramatic pause, cursing as you went, you circled the block one more time and then entered via the open gate at the side entrance. The main garage and supposed clubhouse for the Coffin Kings---the spot where you had dropped the boys off the week before---was to your left, but ahead of you was another garage, and the wide expanse of a junkyard full of wrecked cars behind a fence. Your eyes landed on the black tow truck that Eddie drove, giving you hope that you hadn’t missed him. A row of motorcycles were lined up in the middle of the pavement, and then to the right there were angled parking spots under an awning, and that is where you went.

Your stomach bleated its discontent when you saw that there were at least 10 or 12 guys in biker cuts hanging outside near the grill, flipping burgers in front of the main garage, blocking the entrance to where you would most likely find Eddie. They all had the Coffin Kings insignia placard on the back of their leather vests, and they were tossing back beers and taking shots. After you parked, you craned your neck to see if Eddie was one of them, but there were a few obscured by one of the pillars holding the roof up. Surely, he would’ve spotted your car as you inched along at an elderly crawl.

You took a minute to fix your hair and makeup in the visor mirror, practiced stretching your lips in a grimace smile a few times to make sure there was no lipstick on your teeth, and then made the leap.

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Eddie should’ve been down with the guys getting hammered, or having a game of pool in the club house after a long week, but no. He was on the second floor in his apartment, getting in some bench presses before he showered and continued on with his evening of laundry and trying to get to bed at a decent hour for once. He was listening to Slayer, but the widow was open and he could hear them all giving each other shit down below.

In between songs, at the end of a set, he heard a different type of ruckus going on outside and it made him sit up, sweat dripping into his eyes and down his neck. The guys were giving wolf whistles and saying something about “look at that fine piece of ass” and Eddie didn’t know why, but he felt like he needed to go down and investigate.

That was when he opened the door and saw you making your way across the parking lot. You were carrying something flat and square in your hands and you looked like you were cautiously assessing the scene, like maybe you should return to the safety of your car, and he didn’t blame you.

“Cool it, fuckers,” Eddie told the guys as he pushed by some of them to go out and head over to meet you. But he could still hear them saying things to each other under their breath, whispering about you, and how good you looked.

He didn’t want you to be there, in that moment. Not because he didn’t want to see you, but because he didn’t want the other guys to think you were just some whore he was fucking, or worse yet---he didn’t want any of them to think that they could fuck you. He tried to walk toward you at the right angle so that you would be blocked from their view, inadvertently squaring his shoulders and asserting his dominance as he went.

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You had a feeling this was a bad idea, but you had no idea how bad until a dozen pairs of eyes were turning to stare at you, narrowing on you, and unabashedly so. You were too far away to hear what they were saying, and there was heavy metal music blaring from inside the building somewhere. You planted your feet, looking around, wondering what you would do if Eddie wasn’t there: hand over the cutsie little gift to one of his biker buddies? You didn��t want to embarrass him.

But then, the door opened and there he was, frowning at you like you were the last person on earth he wanted to see. It was more of a scowl, actually, eyebrows knitted together and upper lip rising in an abominable snarl. He said something to the rest of the guys, and a few of them seemed to snap back to reality, but he couldn’t wipe the pissed look off from his face as he made his way over to you with an air of reluctance.

He had on a white wife beater and jeans with his boots unlaced. The front of the tank was damp and his arm muscles were especially defined and swollen. You could see that he had some kind of huge, tattooed chest piece that came up to his clavicle and stretched over his shoulders. Various other ink decorated his arms; the one on his forearm being the most faded of them all. Your pussy fluttered at the sight of him, even though he looked like he was ready to put his hand around your throat. Or maybe because of it?

“What are you doing here?” He barked in a voice low enough so that only the two of you could hear it.

His attitude was not your favorite. “Well, hello to you too, grumpy.”

Now you wished you didn’t have the stupid gift in your hand. Couldn’t you have left it in the car and waited to see if he was here first? No, you had to bring it with you, and now it was too late, dummy.

Eddie glanced over his shoulder at the guys, jaw muscles flexing, and then he gestured for you to walk with him over to where your car was parked, under the awning, out of the overcast but bright sky.

He put a hand at your elbow and maneuvered you so that you were facing away from the riff raff, the view of your backside blocked by your car. There was a matte black Chevelle parked in the slot next to you, and he leaned back against it, crossing his arms at his chest.

“Sorry about that,” he told you. “We usually keep them locked up during the daytime.”

At his joke, your shoulders softened and you exhaled, flexing your fingers on the package. The movement caught his attention and his cocoa brown eyes shifted to the gift.

“You said to come by whenever, but I should’ve called,” you hadn’t planned out what you would say, but now you wished you had.

“No, no,” he assured you, crossing his feet at the ankles. “I promised you a spare tire. I haven’t forgotten.”

Truth, you had totally spaced that he said he’d give you a free tire, which was no small expense, but it was a much better reason than, “I made you something because I can’t stop thinking about you,” or “here’s a gift, now let’s kiss.”

“What’s that?” He asked the dreaded question, tilting his chin at the package and meeting your eyes down the end of his nose.

“Oh this?” You asked cheerily, feigning mock surprise, as if it slipped your mind that it was in your hand. “This is nothing. Just a thank you for...the tow and the tire. I made it, it’s no big deal.”

“You made it?” His voice flew to a higher octave than he was comfortable with at that revelation, and an invisible warm hand wrapped around his heart.

Scratching your eyebrow, you passed it to him. “You don’t have to open it here,” you added, hoping he wouldn’t.

He held it in both hands, strong fingers curling around the backside as his thumbs stroked the front of it to feel the texture of the paper. It had been a while since he’d received a thoughtful gift that wasn’t booze or scratch tickets or a Hickory Farms sausage and cheese platter.

Overall, he was speechless, but one thing that did come second nature to him was offering acts of service as a way of showing his appreciation. “Let me take this up to my place, and then I’ll get you that tire. Can you wait here? I’ll just be a second.”

He was already on the move, but you stopped him. “I can’t sorry, I have to go. Rain check?”

You put your hand on the crook of his elbow without thinking, to stop him, and then all you could think about was the heat of his skin, the way the hair on his forearm tickled your finger. His eyes went to your hold on him and his Adam’s apple jerked in a quick swallow.

You lowered your hand. “Maybe I’ll surprise you again one day,” you were blushing now and you moved your chin to your chest to try and hide it. This was feeling less and less like an interaction between two grown adults, and more like some high school crush that you giggled about to your friends and wrote little hearts around each others name in class.

Over your shoulder, Eddie could see that Wayne was coming that way with an invoice in his hand, probably to ask him a question about one of the pickups that day. He looked a bit pale and peaked, and even though Eddie begged him to take the day off work whenever he had chemo treatments, the old man refused to listen.

“Okay, so, I’ll see you around then,” Eddie heard it come out of his mouth and he wished he could take it back. The tone was off; he sounded like he didn’t care if he saw you again, but that was the furthest thing from the truth.

“Okay, bye,” and you were back behind the wheel of your car, panting, wishing you had a paper bag to hyperventilate into. In the rear view mirror, you watched an older man with gray hair meet up with Eddie. His clothes were baggy, as if he’d suddenly dropped a significant amount of weight. Eddie clapped his free hand on the older man’s shoulder and they walked back to the garage together at a slow pace, your gift in his hand swinging level with his wallet chain.

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After finishing up for Wayne and demanding that he go home to get some rest, Eddie was finally alone again in his apartment. The string you used to secure the package might as well have been steel bars with how tight it was tied, and so he reached over for the butterfly knife on his nightstand and popped it open with a few flicks of his wrist. He sawed the string with caution, careful not to puncture whatever was in it.

His heart was racing and his palms were a little sweaty, and for some reason, the rising of sweet emotions made him angry. Just settle down there, bucko, the voice in his head told him, she probably gives gifts to anyone who does anything remotely nice for her; this doesn’t make you special.

He touched the black painted edges first, realizing it was a canvas, and then the back side fell open to him first: To: Eddie, my hero, and then it was dated and had your name signed on the wood cradling.

Turning it over, he had no idea what to expect, but as his eyes took it in, a quivering sigh escaped his lips.

It was a piece of art depicting the sunset exploding from beyond the low hills in Hawkins; the view you see from the freeway from the exact spot where you had blown your tire, the spot where the two of you had met for the first time. It wasn’t just a standard scenery painting either; it was abstract and full of texture, with tiny bits of paper collage added in. Bright, bold colors, with tiny hand drawn details.

He took down his framed Dio poster so that he could hang your 12x12 painting across from his bed where he could see it from all angles of the room. He puffed his cheeks out and blew air from his lips to make a low whistling sound as he stood there admiring it, wishing he would’ve opened it in front of you, so that you would know how much he cherished it. You might never know how much a gift like this meant to him; it was immediately one of his prized possessions.

Absently, he crumpled the wrapping paper and string up in his hands, pounding it into a compact ball, so that he could make a jump shot for the trash can, and then made it in with a swoosh.

What he didn’t see crushed inside the ball was the square, pink piece of paper with a little note on it that said: “I know Steve has this number, but I also wanted you to have it. Call me sometime.” and then your phone number in cute, block digits.

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Another week went by, and you had officially resigned yourself to the fact that you would, indeed, die alone. Putting yourself out there, even as infinitesimally as you had with Eddie, almost killed you. Getting excited every time the phone rang, hoping it was him, had you regretting the choice to ever make a move in the first place. Besides Katie, you were the only single person in your friend group, and that’s just how it would stay until Keifer Sutherland proposed.

Steve called Katie though, and even though she had the feeling he was a bit of a player, the idea of jumping on his cock had her chomping at the bit.

“Are you sure?” Katie asked as she dowsed herself with hairspray in the bathroom mirror, an L7 cassette in the tape player. You were just behind her in the hallway, and you leaned back to avoid the fumes. “I can hang out with Steve a different night, I don’t want you do go to Marysville alone.”

Marysville was a town down the road, not fifteen miles away, and there was a huge gallery opening in an old airplane hangar, and as the manager of Moon River Gallery, you were forced to attend.

“That’s sweet of you, but Jeff will be there.” You held your breath and waved your hand in front of your face. “But I’m counting on you to get laid for the both of us.”

“Oh, don’t worry, I’m going to let Steve know what a deadbeat his buddy Eddie is for not calling you to even thank you for that gorgeous painting.” Katie was using her protective mom voice.

“Please don’t,” you begged her. “He just didn’t want to see me again, and that’s fine. I don’t need someone to call me out of obligation. Really, don’t mention anything to Steve or I will turn to stone and crumble to pieces.”

Katie went into your bedroom instead of hers, and held up a certain shirt, asking if she could borrow it. “That’s actually yours,” you told her, waiting on the bed as she changed.

You were putting your arms into your jacket, just about to head out the door, when Katie came around the corner holding up flavored condoms and Magnums in each hand. “Do you want to take any of these with you? Plenty of cute guys in Marysville.”

“No, thank you,” you assured her politely, fixing your collar. “Besides, I’m sure Jeff will have a stockpile with him.”

But Katie threw one at you anyway, and you caught it with a slap to your chest. “Here, just take one of these Magnums, for prayer’s sake.”

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The airplane hanger gallery was situated near the lake, and it was an unarguably stunning venue full of massive artworks and expertly blown glass. You and Jeff arrived together, but went your separate ways initially, both stumbling upon friends from other galleries you knew, and you sipped some expensive champagne while you mingled. You were bent over, reading the details about one of the paintings, when two of the new people arriving caught your eye.

Fantastic, it was Eddie and Charlene.

Charlene looked like she was a movie star about to walk the red carpet and Eddie looked as good as ever. From the waist down was dressed like normal: jeans, boots, and wallet chain--but he always put a nice dark red or black shirt on for the events. Three buttons undone down the front to give a peak of that chest tattoo, sleeves rolled up to the elbows, a little earring dangling from one ear, and those chunky, silver rings on his hand. Obviously the two of them were a couple, regardless of the fact that she was married, and regardless of the fact that Eddie referred to himself as being single.

He escorted her in with his arm linked in hers, and you could tell he was about to fall back and head outside to wait, but then his eyes locked on you. You turned your back on him, guzzled your champagne, and then headed over to where you could get a big glass of wine, thirstier than you’ve ever been in your life. Jeff had volunteered to drive you both back, and you had just decided in that moment that you were going to let him.

You were a couple of swallows in when you felt the front of his warm body press up at your side, against your arm, hands in his pockets, and then he leaned his head down closer, wavy dark hair skimming your shoulder, to whisper in your ear. “Your art should be in a place like this.”

“Oh hiiiiii,” you turned, pretending to be shocked to see him. “What a nice surprise. How are you?”

He backed up a step to give you some room, not checking even once to see where Charlene was or if she cared where he was; his eyes were intent on you.

Jeff, was off to the side, flirting with one of the guys on the catering staff, when he glanced over to see who you were standing with, and his eyes bulged wide.

“You clean up good,” you told Eddie, getting intoxicated on how delicious he smelled. Almost two glasses of alcohol in, you were already getting ballsy, and you reached up to brush his hair back from his shoulder and straighten his collar. “You look like you could run for mayor.”

He glanced down at himself, and then met your gaze from under his lashes, full pink lips curving up on one side. “I was going for Colombian drug lord, but I guess I missed the mark.”

Okay, so he made you laugh and he was sexy. So what.

Someone you knew came up to hug you and say hello, and you expected Eddie to take advantage of the moment and make a getaway, but he stayed.

“Can I get you another one?” He asked, gesturing to your almost empty glass. Never mind that everyone was glancing over at him, asking themselves with shifting eyes who the hell let the scary biker dude in to mingle with the rich people. The irony of a bunch of art snobs recoiling at someone who brought something new and different to the table was not lost on you. Sure, he made them uncomfortable, but who would be the one to ask bad boy biker Eddie Munson to leave? Eddie could flick his lighter open and set one of the paintings on fire, and still no one would question him.

“Aren’t you here with someone?” You asked, glancing around for that big gold explosion of wealth that was Charlene.

“No,” Eddie said initially, but then. “Well, I drive for Charlene from time to time but we’re not...together, if that’s what you mean.”

Eddie could feel Charlene giving him the evil eye from across the room, but he didn’t care. He stopped having sex with her two weeks ago, but he wasn’t ready to give up the extra cash working as her personal escort service and hired muscle.

Staying sober for the night, he brought another glass of wine over to you, and then he started asking you questions about the artwork and the artists as the two of you walked.

“Isn’t that Charlene Gregson’s boy toy?” Manny, one of the caterers, asked Jeff as they watched the two of you flirt with each other.

Jeff nodded, a smile creeping across his face. “Oh, this is going to be juicy.”

There was a snap high on the back of your shirt, and you could feel that it had come loose, so you beckoned for Eddie to follow you to the walkway just beyond the paintings, into the shadows, so you could put your glass down on the cement base of one of the pillars.

“Could you...help me with this?” You turned your back to him and pulled your hair to the side. “Fasten this for me, please? I can’t reach it.”

Eddie licked his lips as he closed in behind you, enjoying the proximity of it, and moved his fingers to your neck, callouses from his fingers grazing your smooth skin, taking an audible, deep intake of breath as he caught a whiff of your shampoo. When he was done, his hand slid down your back, indulging himself, letting it land at the curve of your hip in a slow circle. “All good,” he said in a low whisper.

You spun around to face him with a crooked smile, the alcohol in full affect, and your eyes fell on a loose thread that had escaped and was resting on his crisp, dark red shirt, your eyes lingering on the black ink of the tattoo underneath.

You brought your hand up to pick the thread off, but then he caught your wrist, your palm sinking flat to his body, melting, right at the epicenter of his life blood; his heart racing. You shifted your gaze from his grip to meet his eyes, pupils dilated, and your breath caught in your chest; your fingers started stretching out and back against him in an alien form of physical communication.

His lips parted, gaze flicking to your mouth, holding your wrist with a grip that was firm but tender while his other hand rose to cup your face. Rough fingertips grazing your throat until they curled around the base of your head, metal rings clicking together, and then his thumb brushed across your jawline.

You bit your bottom lip softly, delirious need pulsing in your core.

“Why didn’t you call me?” Your voice was tiny, and his eyebrows knitted together, confused. You could see he was just about to say something, but then:

“Eddie,” the unmistakable voice of Charlene Gregson called to him from the other side of the gigantic painting you were both doing a poor job of hiding behind. “It’s time to go. Please pull the car around?"

She was looking directly at the two of you from only a few yards away, with her hands on her hips, but still he held your palm to his chest and searched your eyes, trying to understand. After a beat, he cleared his throat and said, “I’m sorry,” under his breath before turning on his heel to go and play chauffeur again, shoving one hand in his pocket to get the keys as he went.

Charlene stood there and stared at you for a bit longer, her eyes taking you in from head to foot, probably trying to understand what you had that she didn’t. But it must’ve occurred to her that she was the one he was going home with and not you, because then she flipped you a little sly smile and puffed a laugh out of her nose as she turned, shaking her head.

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Part 4

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gallifreyanhotfive · 4 months

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Random Doctor Who Facts You Might Not Know, Part 20: Academy Era Edition

Please note that some Academy Era info is dispersed throughout the other parts as well; I just wanted to make one dedicated to these nerds. I am not repeating stuff from other parts (purposefully, there may be some accidents, but I'm trying not to repeat things like Koschei teaching Theta hypnosis or like the hyperball team) or including some basic info I think are decently well known (like Torvic or the Gallifrey Academy Hot Five). ;)

The Master's real name is 32 letters long.

As students, Theta and Koschei enjoyed building time flow analogues to mess with each others experiments.

Koschei once gave Susan a toy which was actually a communication node that he could use to find the Doctor and Susan if they ever left Gallifrey.

Theta and Koschei also used to sneak out of the Academy to drink with Shobogans. On one such occasion, Koschei picked a fight with six drunk Shobogans.

Theta's name day and Otherstide are on the same day.

Koschei often hypnotized people as a joke. He was never punished for it.

Drax had a home-made skimmer that he would often use to go to his House rather than stay in the Academy dormitories. He'd also give Jelpax rides home because they lived close by.

Koschei was in charge of organizing the end-of-term parties, but the Eighth Doctor remembers that they weren't very good.

While at the Academy, Theta and Koschei traveled to Gallifrey's past in search of Valdemar, an ancient entity and Old One, but they found nothing of Old Ones. Theta was horrified by Valdemar's power while Koschei was fascinated.

When Vansell broke his leg while climbing Mount Cadon, Theta created a localized time bubble with a sonic wrench and two lengths of twine. This accelerated the healing process, and it was healed in two minutes.

Koschei and Theta also once traveled to Machasma and used sonic agitation to get out of a tight spot.

Theta Sigma came fourth place in the Time Lord Academy Sprint Championship.

Millennia had a natural gift for temporal engineering, and Theta believed she would one day make great intellectual achievements.

Tebediatroculozan attended the Academy at the same time as the Deca. He was incredibly clever but also envious of the Doctor for the adventures he had. The Eighth Doctor helped him move past this jealousy.

When Koschei stared into the Untempered Schism, he noted with much contempt that the Time Lords who had taken him there all refused to look at it themselves.

Mortimus is likely about 50 years younger than Theta Sigma.

The Second Doctor recalled that Koschei enjoyed being scared of the dark too much.

The Toymaker had Theta play Capture the Flag and thought that Theta had cheated.

When the Toymaker was using Rallon's body, Rallon had enough influence over his personality that the Toymaker had a sense of "good and evil." When the Toymaker went against the Fourteenth Doctor, he was no longer using Rallon's body, so this was not the case.

Theta was Borusa's teacher's pet, and Borusa favored him over other students. Later on, the Doctor would believe this was why the Master was bitter towards him.

In fact, an unproduced story's original script originally had the Doctor’s grandfather be named Borusa, but it was later changed to Pandak.

While at the Academy, Koschei befriended Salyavin and manipulated him to gain access to the restricted libraries. He wanted to steal The Worshipful and Ancient Law of Gallifrey but could not find it, and Salyavin took the blame for his wrongdoing.

Part 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21, 22, 23, 24, 25, 26, 27, 28

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ozwriterchick · 1 year

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Pursue your happiness

Part 2 - The first steps

Characters: James "Bucky" Barnes; Steve Rogers, OFC (Ruby); Other random Avengers

Content warnings: Talk of cheating; angst; abandonment; Pregnancy

Summary: When Ruby flees to her parents house for space

Part 3

Masterlist

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Ruby

When I left the compound, I was mentally lost. How had this happened? When did our relationship become not enough that he had to go behind my back and start seeing someone else? Why wasn’t I good enough for him?

I had nobody locally that could help me but I was lucky that I had some savings to get me somewhere, anywhere, else.

I jumped in my car, heading off towards Boston, where my parents lived. I figured that would be the best starting point for this journey. I didn’t think I would stay there long as Bucky knew where they lived and I didn’t want him subjecting my parents to any sort of harrassment. Not that I really thought he was going to follow me, but when I stopped for fuel I checked my phone and saw that I had 12 text messages and 20 missed calls from him.

Steve had also joined in, I had several missed calls and text messages from him as well. Surprisingly, Nat or Sam hadn’t tried me, but maybe they didn’t know I’d left yet. I just wanted to get as far away from New York and the 2 of them, all of the Avengers really, because they all seemed to have knowledge of what was going on, as I could tonight.

I turned my phone off deciding to deal with the calls, messages and voicemails tomorrow. I drove directly to my parent’s house where I sat in the car to gather myself before I went in. It’s almost 11pm and the lounge lights are still on, so they’re still up. I'm sure he’s already called them and I’m walking into a Spanish Inquisition.

I grabbed my bag off the back seat and headed to the front door. Before I could even knock or reach for the door handle, the door flew open and my Mum was throwing her arms around me in a typical Mum hug.

“Oh Ruby, my baby” she said, despite me being nearly 30 “James called looking for you, what happened. He said you just left your place?”

“Mum, it wasn't my place, it was his. Look, can I just come in and sit down first?” I asked “I’ll tell you what I can.”

“Of course darling, do you want a cup of tea or a coffee or something?”

“Just a glass of water please, thanks Mum”

I walked into the lounge to see my father standing up, clutching the back of one of the chairs, his knuckles white. I could see he was angry, like he would place the blame for what had happened squarely at Bucky’s feet, regardless of what I told him. He was ready to throw down with a Super Soldier for hurting his daughter.

I went over and gave my Dad a big hug “It’s ok Dad, I know you’re angry even though you don’t know what’s happened yet, but I’ll be ok. Maybe not straight away, but I’ll be ok.”

“I know Bee” this was his nickname for me since I was little and it made me feel safe and loved.

I sat on the couch and Mum brought in a glass of water for me, carefully putting it on a coaster on the coffee table - she’ll never change.

“So Ruby, are you ok? Are you going to tell us what happened?” Mum asked.

I took a big gulp of the glass of water and hesitated. I’d already pretty much decided how much I was going to tell them, but it was where to start.

“Well, I’m not ready to share everything, suffice to say, some things happened which made me question whether James loved me the way I love him, and it was necessary for me to leave. It wasn’t one thing, it was a few things, and I just need space from him and I had nowhere else to go in the city.”

I had decided not to tell them I was convinced he was cheating on me. I also wasn’t going to tell them the extent of my leaving was permanent. Who knows, I might return to New York one day, once my broken heart was mended.

“I hope I can stay here tonight, I’ll be moving on tomorrow because I wouldn’t put it past him to come here and I don’t want to see him or talk to him right now. So I hope you can respect that and if he calls or comes here, tell him Im not here please?”

“But Ruby, he’ll see your car, he’ll know we’re lying. Just tell us what did he do?”

“Mum, it’s not always black and white that one person did something, sometimes it’s just not enough to love someone, sometimes relationships just don’t work out.”

“Ok love,” she said. “Why don’t you go upstairs and take a bath and I’ll get your bed ready for you to just jump in.”

I lay in a lavender scented bubble bath for way longer than I should, my hands and feet were pruny and the water was barely warm, but my whole body was now relaxed. I got out, drained the bath and put on my warm pyjamas and fluffy robe and headed into my old room.

Mum was in there fluffing the pillows and she’d turned down the bed. “Thanks Mum, I appreciate you letting me stay and respecting my decisions about my relationship, or rather the end of it” my voice cracked a little and this was the first sign of tears in all of this.

I knew being here would bring on the waterworks, specially when Mum sat beside me on the bed and put my head on her shoulder and stroked my back lovingly.

I sobbed for probably half an hour on her shoulder. “I’m sorry Mum, your all wet from my tears and now I'm all red, puffy and snotty”

“No worries at all, I hadn’t got ready for bed yet so I will just put these in the wash. You know you always have a bed here, no matter when or why or just for no reason.”

I gave Mum another hug and closed the door behind her as she left. Snuggling under the blankets, I tossed up turning my phone back on but thought I’d be too tempted to read the myriad of messages from Bucky and Steve, so I decided to leave it and not turn it on until the morning.

I didn’t need the alarm, and I knew mum would wake me with a cup of tea at about 7am. I had nowhere to be in the morning so I could afford to sleep in a little.

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Bucky

Steve checked the garage and told me her car was gone. At least I knew she was safe in the car.

I sat on the edge of the bed wondering where this all went wrong. What did her goodbye letter mean - she said she hoped I’d find what I was looking for in life and that maybe I already had. I knew I’d been a bit secretive with her lately, but I was pretty subtle about it all so I didn’t think she’d found out what was going on, but what if she had? That could totally explain her leaving and the things she said.

But how would she have found out unless someone had said something. I needed to speak to everyone who knew what I was doing to make sure none of them had let it slip before I could tell her.

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I hope you all don't mind me tagging you, I just thought I'd do it for this 2nd chapter, you can let me know if you want me to leave you on the tag list or add you if you're new :)

Taglist: @cjand10 @angstysebfan @psychictazzy76 @lovely-geek @samanthaneedsanap @kentokaze @void-imaginations @iheartsebastianstanstuff

#Steve Rogers #Bucky Barnes #James Buchanan Barnes #OFC (Ruby)#Angst #Abandonment #Talk of cheating #Possible Pregnancy #ozwriterchick #Avengers

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bunnygirl678 · 6 months

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20 questions for fic writers

i felt like doing one of these lmao

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

30! Which most of them are for Nameless lmao

2. What's your total A03 word count?

304.751, about to go up again lol, probably another 80k in this month, 268,863 have been in 2023, lol. I spent a large portion of time not writing, but after my breakup this year I've started writing frequently again.

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Right now really just pokemon, if something else comes to me I'll write it, I'm working on a dragon ball z fic, but I don't touch it a ton.

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

This is sad for me cause they all suck. I wrote them late high school early college, and they're all based on the Avengers movies (although one i think may have been the comics) it's a huge fandom, and I've had them up for 10 years so (god it's been that long already???) All of my good marvel 616 fics are missing, buried in a discord that I don't have access to anymore and word docs from a computer long since recycled

But in order, I feel Salem, Astronaut, Almost Honest, Wicked Games, The Whole World Was Moving But I was Standing Still (God what was with my names then lol)

Please don't read them haha

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I try to! Sometimes I miss them, but I try to respond when I see them, even a few weeks/months later. I really appreciate comments, and I feel like I've made some friends through them, or at least they comment on stuff I write, and I can reference my other fics to them lol, though they can totally make friends on here or discord, happy to talk to anyone. I've had people tell me I inspired them to write which is seriously the highest honor.

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

ummmm prolly the one where Tony dies after Steve cheats on him, I think that one is 616 based, but don't quote me, or go read it, the writing is...undeveloped, I think at that point I just started writing them, my characterizations weren't great, they got better but none of that is available lol

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Ummmmm maybe Ode to my Soulmate? I can't do sad endings for the most part, my philosophy is real life sucks so I always try to make happy endings, Frank Left has a nice ending, that one gets almost no love, but I adore it.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

I'm not good enough/big enough to get hate, lmao. Smaller fandom now, i think there might be some negative comments on the marvel ones but I haven't read those in yearsss.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

I'm trying, Oral Fixation is my most recent published, but I'm working on one where Green gives Red a blowie in his Neo Champ uniform from masters, i've been writing that since the neochampion uniforms came out months ago ahha. I'm not great at smut, but I'm practicing, fun fact I learned how to give a bj through fanfics, and used to get compliments all the time in my younger sluttier years lol (Pre-kid haha)

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

Not anymore, I used to do 101 dalmatian crossovers lol, i doubt any are published, maybe on fanfic.net but i don't even remember my username haven't touched that since like 2011, i used to do x-men crossovers where various characters would have mutant powers, but i doubt those are published either.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

I don't think so? I'm probably too small to get that kind of notice. I always welcome people to steal my aus and write their own fic with it (not copy paste my stuff, but write out the au the way they come up with with their own words)

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

I doubt it, but anyone can, I might end up translating one or two when I finally start learning a new language, or maybe improve my output on spanish (i can read it but not write/speak/listen well lmao)

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Yeah but this was high school and I don't think we ever posted them, again might be on fanfic.net, but like I don't even remember my username

14. What's your all-time favourite ship?

I don't have a favorite, maybe reguri, or 616!stony which i don't read much anymore but will always hold a place in my heart, my oldest ship is probably rougexgambit

15. What's the WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

Blood Bank- but only because there is no ending, I'm going to continue that thing for the rest of my life, (at least quarterly updates lol although working on a new chapter now), there's also a reguri one that i wrote like 10k words on after i first started writing again, but it sucks ass, I don't love the plot to rewrite, I've written a lot more better stuff for them

16. What are your writing strengths?

I feel like I do pretty well with hints/twists. Certain characters I'm really good at writing, feel like I've gotten really good at world building, and coming up with off the wall aus. IDK i'm not good at pointing out my strengths.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Everything not listed above? Lol. No, probably missing edits and not noticing them until I'm reading the fic months later, I'm getting better at pacing and general flow, sometimes I overdo it on dialog, and leave out movement. Smut too, but i'm working on everything, the key is to just keep writing, also too many fics going at once,

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

I typically don't do it unless I know the language, I'll just put it in english and say they said it in whatever lang. So like for Kalos I just say they're speaking Kalosian lol

19. First fandom you wrote for?

I used to tell stories with 101 dalmatians, but the first I ever actually wrote was from Stargate SG-1, I was like 10ish, I didn't post it, it's long since been trashed, but I was obsessed with Carter/O'neil and wanted them to adopt Cassie (i think that was her name, it's been years since I watched that show), first published is probably x-men i remember writing phoenix's force fics and posting on fanfic, might have done a ginnyxdraco for harry potter. These would be on my old fanfic.net or possibly livejournal, i don't remember,

20. Favourite fic you've ever written?

I write all my fics for myself, so i really love them all, and go back and reread them often lol

Unfinished, Under the Alolan Sun and Blood Bank, those are my passion projects, I have fun writing them,

finished, either The Most Expansive Collection of Champion Red Merch in All of Kanto (probably one of my least angsty lol) or How to Beat Champion Red at Something (my silly little ficlet about Red being a picky eater, i just giggle when i reread it)

Ode to My Soulmate is also up there.

#bunny writes #this was fun #i like to pretend it's a panel and i'm being interviewed

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femmesandhoney · 11 months

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your grandfather reporting news in the navy is a lot different to a woman who is a radfem choosing to cheat with a married military man and then marry him herself. the military is how her family still receives money. there is nothing less radfem than the military. might as well let men identify as women at this point. radical feminism isn't a popularity contest where you defend a women you've built a parasocial connection with because of her follower count on tumblr. it means something. women are allowed to call out contradictions.

anon have you considered youre just a dumbass hypocritical little shit? you state like a million lies about her as if there's truth to em just because you want to hate on her, including you saying her family leeches off the military. kelly is literally a nurse you fucking asshole, she supports her own family.

and my anecdote about my grandfather isn't really different at all. my cousin also was in the military, even went as far as to go for ranger training. he's literally a republican. he now is in his mid 20s in "retirement" and lives off government checks. i haven't sworn off speaking to him, i don't revolt at the dinner table when i see him and start fights. he's just my cousin, i act friendly towards him when i see him. i love my grandfather, i'm very friendly with him. most people in the military aren't combat soldiers shooting people. literally many women have male and female family and friends who happen to be in the military/have been in the military. it's very unlikely all of them are gonna swear them off and think their personal relationships to someone in the military will reflect on them, because it doesn't lmao? it's called living in reality and being realistic, many people know and are friendly or date or marry people who have been in the military. it's a very big institution that feeds on the poor or those who feel they have no other options in life because the US makes people think it's either college or military at 18 years old. so yeah, a lot of people get sucked in. the institution is shit, war sucks, violence sucks. harping on her husband's past is just weirdo behavior and again lying about her shows more parasocial behavior than any of us.

anyways since you wanna be an asshole and act like you're some high roller with a mighty sword calling out "contradictions", get your ass back on the ground and remember every woman is human and none of us are ever gonna be a "perfect" feminist in practice. it's very odd to repeatedly comment on her family and spread lies about it that shit is so old be normal about other women anon seriously. if you weren't on anon and sharing your opinions and shit on tumblr too, i'm sure others could find contradictions in your own praxis again just be normal dude.

#also not her follower count on tumblr lmao anon are you a reddit user or something none of us know each others follower count #you cannot follow someone based on 'wow they're such a big user' literally its just vibes and guesses and personality that create a blog #spreading lies to justify your weird hate towards her is pathetic btw #just say that you think straight women cannot be feminists apparently since that's really what you're trying to achieve

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How do people Stan another person? Like I am very confused you know. When I see apo Stans or mile Stans or bible Stans or other such fandoms I get very confused. How do we as a person love another person so much when we don't even know them. Like I don't get how people get involved in Selena Gomez vs Haley bieber fights. I don't know how the whole kpop fandom functions. I don't know if this happens with sportsmen and athletes too. Like I understand being very very appreciative of a person's craft. Their talent. But to obsessively talk about people and not characters all the time...people who are prone to change, to growth, to beliefs different than our own. How to love them when you don't even know them? You can't read about them from a book. They aren't contained within boundaries...so how?

Putting on my multi-stan cap from my kpop days.

Stanning someone is the same as stanning a fictional character. You might not know everything about them. You might not even know their favorite breakfast cereal. But there is one key component that stanning a fictional character has with stanning a real person: you like what you see.

I mean, you only like certain fictional characters based on what the characters have done in canon and what you've read or watched about them. I'm not going to go into the morality of liking evil fictional characters, versus liking actual evil human beings. That's not what this post is about.

I'm just saying that people stan real people based on what they've watched or read about them. It doesn't take much. Hell, I've stanned an entire group based on ONE THING that I saw ONE MEMBER do during an interview. From that moment I was like, yep, I'm a fan of the group. And from then on, I made it my life's mission to ignore every red flag contained in the group because of that one thing I saw.

It's as simple as that.

You see something you like and you choose to support it.

The thing about supporting real people that we don't actually know isn't weird or strange. It's the same as liking characters we don't really know. You've watched a 20-hour show about a character that has lived for decades and yet you're in love with the character. How is that any different from following someone's progress for years, watching them grow and become better at their craft, especially when their story is grass-to-grace. Most of it is just as scripted as fiction, but... we eat it up regardless.

We like what we see... until the moment we start seeing what we don't like.

As for the issue of liking people that could one day fuck up, *sigh* I believe our brains accept this in the same way we choose to date people that could one day cheat on us or hit us or lie to us.

People take chances. Sports fans do the same thing. Pop star fans do the same thing. It's as close to worship as we'd ever get in modern day because we place these people on pedestals.

It's been a practice of mine not to do it anymore because I got so tired of the disappointment. But let me just tell you that my life had MEANING when I was a kpop stan. (I'm not saying it doesn't have meaning now) I loved loving someone who was unattainable and perfect and could do no wrong.

But alas, that was a lie, in and of itself.

No human being is perfect. Well-behaved celebrities are just celebrities with well-protected skeletons in their closet.

As for your comment about boundaries. That is actually very interesting. It took me a minute but I eventually came up with an explanation.

People think companies will vet their artists and therefore only elevate or promote kind-hearted, sensible people with clean pasts. That's the boundary. The same way we know that fictional characters are operating within the boundaries of created canon, we believe that companies will create a boundary for us.

This is very false, of course, but we still somehow believe it. Because everytime a new person comes out, we hear things like, "look at how she bowed so low. She must be humble," or "he always let's his co-star go first, so he must be a gentleman," or "they've been in the industry for years. We would have heard something was wrong if there was anything to find." Even though we know a person couldn't possibly be perfect, we falsely trust companies to do their due diligence, believing that other things don't play into a person's rise to stardom like nepotism, or talent or proximity to casting directors.

At the end of the day, we're all just playing Russian roulette with our feelings and hoping that when we wake up in the morning, that wouldn't be the day that our favorite actors/idol cause an unforgivable scandal.

#kinnporsche #vegaspete #mile phakphum #apo nattawin #bibble sumettikul #mileapo

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↳ i got that can’t stop, won’t stop in my veins

i. phenomenal - eminem // ii. headlines- drake // iii. heart of a champion- nelly // iv. remember the name - font minor // v. a cut above - avery watts // vi. mirror - lil wayne // vii. vices - ludacris // viii. right above it - lil wayne // ix. live forever - liam payne, cheat codes // x. take me back to london - ed sheeran, stormzy, aitch // xi. home -bebe rexha, mgk, and x ambassadors // xii. wavin’ flag (coca-cola celebration mix) - k’naan // xiii. come on england -442 // xiv. you’re welcome- dwayne johnson // xv. hard - rihanna, jeezy // xvi. all i do is win - dj khalid xvii. fight back -NEFFEX [LISTEN]

that’s why they can’t stop, won’t stop screaming the name↵

beware: my unnecessary commentary below xD

i. phenomenal - eminem however long that it takes, I'll go to whatever lengths, It's gonna make me a monster though

this song represents the lengths ethan is willing to go to turn his career around not to mention the fact he does actually think he's phenomenal. i'm also a giant sucker for some monster vs man parallels and him grappling with what makes a good man. and finally, this song is numero uno on his before match pump-up playlist.

ii. headlines- drake I might be too strung out on compliments, overdosed on confidence, started not to give a fuck and stopped fearing the consequence

this song represents ethan currently. he thought he was untouchable and was finally going to realize his dreams, but he let his temper and his fame get the better of him and now he must dodge the headlines and rehab his image in small town USA.

iii. heart of a champion- nelly I got that can't stop, won't stop, in my veins that's why they can't stop, won't stop, screaming the name

this one emphasizes the heart of a champion and the hard work it took for ethan to become a successful athlete. i also like the whole heart comparison because i like to think that ethan has a good heart beneath the muscles and 99% of the time he means well (even if his methods are unconventional). this is also on his personal locker room playlist.

iv. remember the name - font minor this is 10% luck, 20% skill, 15% concentrated power of will, 5% pleasure, 50% percent pain, and a 100% reason to remember the name

ethan was born into a soccer royalty (think beckham level). his surname is both a blessing and curse and ethan wants nothing more than for people to remember his name apart from his family and to prove himself worthy of it.

v. a cut above - avery watts what it looks like (looks like) being the best what it looks like, to be a cut above the rest

for no other reason than the fact that ethan really is that good on the pitch, like ronaldo level skills. but ofc being "a cut above the rest" isn't always enough and also does come with responsibilities off the pitch that he's still working on.

vi. mirror - lil wayne lookin' at me now I can see my past, damn I look just like my fuckin' dad

this one goes out daddy dearest, someone ethan always used to look up to until he practically disowned him for messing up at the world cup. they no longer talk, reminding ethan that he needs to take a long, hard look in the mirror and pave his own way.

vii. vices - ludacris from philly to the bay, the only loyal b*tch I know is a loyal b*tch named tanqueray she gets me right everytime it ain't never no fussing or fighting

obvi ethan has his vices. he likes to go out, party, drink, hook-up, but never commit. therefore his longest and most loyal relationship is with a pretty little bottle of tanqueray. whoops.

viii. right above it - lil wayne & drake life is a beach, i'm just playing in the sand

a nod to life before the world cup. he was living a lavish lifestyle with parties, money etc. and enjoying his success a little too much until it all came crashing down. i just imagine this being the song in the background to a partying montage lmao. ps it was so hard to just pick one line to highlight, and this is totally on his personal playlist too.

ix. live forever - liam payne, cheat codes reckless, restless I let it get so hectic all the way up with my head in the sky, too much, too gone, too many, too fun I don't know how but I got out alive

fun fact: ethan's first fc like ten years ago was liam payne, so this one is selfishly for me since i just had to throw him in here somewhere. BUT this is another nod to him losing sight of the bigger picture and getting too reckless. it also touches on everything changing when meeting someone special who can make you want to let go of your old ways which is something i truly want for ethan.

x. take me back to london - ed sheeran, stormzy, aitch I hit my friends up, go straight to the pub 'cause I haven't been home in time..so take me back to london

despite losing the world cup for england, ethan still loves everything about his being an englishmen and his home town. he just honestly just wants to go home, get back on the pitch, and grab a print with his buddies. he won't admit it, but he misses how things were before cape may.

xi. home -bebe rexha, mgk, and x ambassadors Now tell me, how did all my dreams turn to nightmares? How did I lose it when I was right there?

ethan felt like he was on top of the world and then it came crashing down. suddenly nothing makes sense anymore, and everything he's ever known isn’t quite right.

xii. wavin’ flag (coca-cola celebration mix) - k’naan see the champions take the field now you define us, make us feel proud

S/O to the little kid that ethan lost sight of, the kid with big dreams of scoring in the world cup just to make his dad and country proud. i like to think this is a song that reminds ethan of watching his dad play in the world cup and knowing that one day he'd be out there, too.

xiii. come on england -442 one-nil, two-nil, three-nil, four-nil, FIVE! keep this country's dream alive

a song/chant dedicated to all of ethan's hero's growing up, one's he's probably met and even played with at some point now. ngl he's probably been remixed into a song like this too so also a nod to that. plus, this one SCREAMS country pride.

xiv. you’re welcome- dwayne THE ROCK johnson i know it's a lot the hair, the bod when you're staring at a demi-god

I chose this song not only because ethan is full of himself like maui BUT because this grown ass man absolutely loves the movie moana and has no problem belting it at the top of lungs. I like to think it’s gotten to the point where it’s been remixed into one of his footy chants whenever he scores a goal. Half the crowd : What can Wood say except… The other half: You’re welcome! All together now: YOU’RE WELCOME! YOU’RE WELCOME! YOU’RE WELCOME!

xv. hard - rihanna, jeezy They can say whatever, I'ma do whatever no pain is forever, yup, you know this

to me, this song has a message of strength and perseverance especially when it comes to gossip and the media which is something ethan struggles with. also, ethan's ultimate celeb crush is 100% rihanna. like he had a poster of her on his wall growing up and everything.

xvi. all i do is win - dj khalid all I do is win win win no matter what, got money on my mind I can never get enough

this song is dedicated to ethan's brothers. at one point before they stopped being so close, they deemed this their song. they had this silly little dream of being on same team together and just dominating the competition, but ofc life happens and this dream was never realized but the song still makes ethan think of his bros.

xvii. fight back -NEFFEX don't tell me you believe that, are you just gonna take that? or will you fucking fight back?

this is the song i imagine plays in the background whenever ethan gives into his temper, doubts himself (yes, it does happen on the rare occasion lol), fights, and gets real angry. it's also not lost on me that this is the last song on the playlist and "phenomenal" is the the first song because i just adore the juxtaposition of the two songs. his confidence vs that little voice in his head that tells him that maybe, just maybe (if you squint and tilt your head the side) he's not good enough.

k im done. god bless if you read all that <3 if anything this makes for a pretty fab workout/ pump-up playlist imo.

#cape.task:001 #playlist #tw: explict

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75 Hard (okay, more like medium-well)

So, I'm freshly postpartum (nine months is still fresh, right?), and I've just ordered a bunch of clothes that fit my right-now body because I've given up on the idea of losing weight before I go back to work as a teacher in the fall. I'm breastfeeding six or so times a day, can't imagine putting on anything but a lounge bra at this point, and know for a fact I won't be counting calories anytime soon, if ever again. We're down to one feeding per night, but there's still no such thing as a stretch of sleep longer than six hours (and those are real hard to come by). I dropped my scale off at a thrift store when we moved into a new apartment a few weeks ago, for goodness sake. All of this to say, I went to bed last night fully intending to embrace my body as it is, enjoy my new clothes, go for stroller walks with my little one, and focus on getting unpacked in this new place.

...then I found growwithjo on YouTube this morning and had so much freaking fun doing her Do This Every Morning 20 min (low impact) full-body workout that I am JUICED. Y'all, I'm jumping straight into 75 Hard. Screw all my plans to settle into discomfort and continue to feel meh about my body. I'm starting today. 75 days from now is July 31. That means we're having a... Hot Mama Summah. Here we go!

A couple things about me, I've dealt with disordered eating, obsessive calorie counting, and major shame about food in the past. One incredible thing that came with getting pregnant last year (actually it was 2022, which is insane!) was an almost immediate shift in my mindset about food and my ability to enjoy food without guilt. As soon as I knew I was eating for two, a switch flipped and those 32 years of food shame just went away. Knowing that my body, the body I've lived in and, at some points, truly despised, my whole life, was creating a little human?? Dang, that changed me. I'll dive deeper into that another time, but I'm including it here to explain that I won't be counting calories during this adventure. I'm nine months into breastfeeding and know my body needs extra calories to feed my girl, so I'm going to continue to eat until I'm full and enjoy my sweet treats. I also won't be weighing myself due to the aforementioned thrift store drop off as well as an obsession with numbers and addiction to weighing myself before and after every workout when I'm deep in weight loss mode. I will share that the last time I checked, I hadn't lost any weight since an initial ten pounds the day my baby was born in August 2023, and at that point I was at 235. I'm 5'2.5" and carry my weight in my chest and belly right now. Perhaps I'll have a doctor's appointment in a couple months and be able to give an update using their scale. We'll see!

Let's dive into 75 Hard. If you've been around the internet in the last few years, you might have heard of this mental discipline challenge created by Andy Frisella. For 75 days, you must: drink a gallon of water, do two 45-minute workouts (one must be outside), follow a diet plan of your choosing with no cheat days, don't consume alcohol, read 10 pages of a self help or educational book, and take a daily progress picture. As I've made clear, I have a nine-month-old, so I'm not going to do every element, but I'm not quite doing a "soft" version, in my opinion.

Mama Cat's 75 Medium-Well Plan:

Eat 2 fruits and 2 veggies

Drink a gallon of water

Do a 20-minute workout and at least 45 minutes of walking (can be split into multiple walks based on what baby will tolerate)

No alcohol

Take a daily progress pic

As you can see, I'm skipping the reading and shortening one workout to 20 minutes. I am a big reader, but it isn't something I've gravitated toward for relaxation in motherhood, and I honestly don't want to use up what little time I have during naps to read when I could be completing all my NYT word puzzles (and updating this blog)!I'll make another post later wrapping up Day One with a list of what I ate and how I moved my body. I'll try to update daily but might do a few days' worth of posts at a time if taking time to write it all out gets tough. So far, I've already done my workout video, 45-minute walk, eaten two fruits, and enjoyed an hour of snuggles while baby girl contact napped. I've also nursed three times, and I'll never stop feeling proud and impressed by that, so I'm going to celebrate it daily! I have a lot to say about my breastfeeding journey and look forward to making a post about it eventually.

Wish me luck. Let's hope this motivation high lasts and I don't give it all up tomorrow!

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39.

1. Did you wake up cranky?

No, I struggled to wake up but felt surprisingly fine once I did.

2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now?

Nah. They're waaaay too young.

3. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys?

I don't really care, but I've always had more girl friends. I guess I just relate to them better.

4. Would you ever smile at a stranger?

Yeah, why not.

5. Can you commit to one person?

Tbh, I definitely have some commitment issues. Not so much in a sense that I need to be with more people at once, but rather that as soon as things start looking serious (even with friends), my avoidant attachment kicks in.

6. How do you look right now?

Just as I always do when I'm sitting around the house.

7. What exactly are you wearing right now?

Black leggings, black socks, and a black Christmas sweater with a deer on it. Yes, I'm aware we're waaay past Christmas now.

8. How often do you listen to music?

Usually I listen to it in the car.

9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more?

Jeans, but lately cargos are my go-to.

10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2014?

Lol damn. Well, I don't think my life changed dramatically then, but it did in 2014.

11. Are you a social or an antisocial person?

I'm not either, I guess you'd say I'm a bit asocial. But I'm not actively antisocial.

12. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?

Well, nothing. I mean, what can I do? I'd just accept it and try to move on.

13. Are you good at hiding your feelings?

A little too good, I'd like to unlearn some of that.

14. Can you drive a stick shift?

Yup.

15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?

Sure, I don't think anyone enjoys when other speak badly about them.

16. Are you going out of town soon?

Probably, yes. To this big teambuilding event.

17. When was the last time you cried?

I know for sure I cried on Tuesday.

18. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?

Hmm, you could kind of say so. I never really expected to consider dating a girl.

19. If you could change your eye color, would you?

I like my eye colour, but sure. Wouldn't hurt to try a different one.

20. Name something you have to do tomorrow?

Tomorrow will just be a day for seeing people I haven't seen for a while.

21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having.

My day was actually perfectly and then I suddenly started feeling so restless at 12 AM and had no idea what to do. That happens so often, like everything's just fine and then my brain goes like "But aren't you enjoying yourself too much?" Like, leave me alone, man.

22. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex?

Another difficult question, so I'll say kinda. And I think that same friend liked me back at the time.

23. Are you nice to everyone?

I try to be, but tbh, I wish I wasn't really always.

24. What are you sitting on right now?

The couch in my living room.

25. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?

Cheating would not be the issue at all. The issue would be if I'm able to not get spooked by feelings and run away. I used to be better about this, but I feel like I've definitely regressed in this department.

26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?

Not really.

27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?

I think my cat lol.

28. Do you get a lot of colds?

Not normally, but in the past few months I did.

29. Have your pants ever fallen down in public?

Nope.

30. Does anyone hate you?

I don't know. I can think of one person who might, but I'm not sure even she does either.

31. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?

Kind of, but I'm not sure I could tell everything to anyone.

32. Do you like watching scary movies?

Yess, my favourite genre.

33. Are you a jealous person?

Not normally. But I've had my moments in the past, when I was much younger.

34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?

I don't think I'd delete any of them. Even 2020 and 2023, both of which absolutely sucked, I'd still keep.

35. Did you have a dream last night?

I did but I completely forgot what it was about.

36. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to?

Again, I do think there are people who would listen and not judge, but the problem is literally just in me and my need for privacy.

37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?

No. I have no interest in marriage.

38. Do you think someone has feelings for you?

Idk, I rarely assume that. The friend I mentioned before, I'm not sure if he still feels that way and I'm also not sure how serious another friend is when he jokingly talks about us dating. But I'm always inclined to say no.

39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?

I doubt it, it's late and most people I know are asleep.

40. Did you have a good day yesterday?

It was good, actually.

41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship?

Nope.

42. Is your life anything like it was two years ago?

In some ways it is, in other ways, it's completely different. My living situation is largely the same, but I feel like I've totally changed as a person in the past few years.

43. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now?

I don't have such a person.

44. What’s the best part about school?

When you're done and you can go home.

45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook?

I deleted my FB.

46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school?

We did pass notes sometimes, and then later we transitioned to texting.

47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head?

Often. Way, way too often.

48. Were you single over the last summer?

Of course I was.

49. What are you supposed to be doing right now?

Nothing really, thank god. I'm so so tired of work.

50. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive?

She's cute.

#personal #surveys

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Taylor Swift and Joe Jonas Masterpost (Toe/Jaylor)

Before dating (May 2008)

We start with the Taylor lookalike

In May 2008 the Jonas Brothers are filming their music video for Burnin’ Up [x]. Joe’s love interest in it is played by a blonde girl who looks quite a bit (and she’s also styled) like Taylor Swift, for reference, this is the music video that has Selena Gomez as Nick Jonas’ love interest.

As far as we know they hadn’t even met so we don’t know exactly what this was supposed to mean, maybe Joe had a crush on Taylor or maybe it’s a coincidence.

We do know that Nick and Selena were dating when this was filmed and that by the time the MV was released (July 4th, 2008) Joe and Taylor were officially dating.

Toe is alive! (July 2008 – September 2008)

On Tour

Fans claim to have seen Taylor around the tour in early July, which matches with Taylor’s lyrics in "Last Kiss".

Last Kiss. Taylor Swift.

I do recall now the smell of the rain

Fresh on the pavement, I ran off the plane

That July 9th, the beat of your heart

It jumps through your shirt

On July 14th, Taylor and The Jonas Brothers perform “Should’ve Said No”[x] from her debut album, and this performance now forever exists in their 3D movie (a classic), a cute fact is that some fans have said that Taylor tripped when she first came out, so they had to repeat it for the movie.

On July 20th Joe flies to Wyoming to watch Taylor opening up for Rascal Flatts, and they flew back and she was spotted at the Omaha show.

She’s seen in a couple shows more and she joins the stage again for their Madison Square Garden shows in August [x]. They sing “Even now just looking at you feels wrong”.

They’re together but they’re not together.

For more context, we must remember that Taylor was a very new artist from a small label and The Jonas were pretty much at their peak and Disney’s biggest act, and they were managed like crazy and could never even think about being seen with someone in a romantic way. Any rumors were denied so fast, and Disney did the absolute most to keep it secret. So according to everyone they were just good friends, at the time both Taylor and Selena were annoyed by all the secrecy.

Now back to the timeline:

Taylor is backstage of the tour A LOT for the next couple of weeks right next to the other not-girlfriends Selena and Danielle.

She films a cameo for the “Love Is on Its Way” [x] video for the concert in New York. She was said to be only interested in hanging out with Joe and they were seen hugging *gasp* I know it doesn’t seem like much now but back then this was the hottest gossip and again the Jonas were not supposed to breathe near any human of the opposite gender.

Taylor and the Jonas were staying at the same hotel a bunch of rumors ensued, but I will not talk about the whole Olympics and Toe locking themselves in a room at midnight thing. If it’s real, we really needed to touch some grass and stop staying outside of people's rooms all night.

On August 17th Joe goes to Ryan Seacrest's show and denied that Taylor is his girlfriend in the best way a corporation like Disney can train you to deny something that’s true. Saying Taylor is “a great girl and I think anybody would be lucky to date her. I think anybody would love to go on a date with her.”

And Taylor tells People Magazine “He’s an amazing guy and anybody would be lucky to be dating him” Cinematic parallels.

Taylor is spotted in the back (in a mirror) of one of the Jonas youtube videos [x]. Basically, we all knew they were together.

The Central Park date (August 28th)

Now if you were a fan of either the Jonas Brothers, Selena, or Taylor you know this next part and it the iconic triple date of Central Park.

Again, this is kind of famous at this point and Selena has been quoted saying how awful it was because the boys were not allowed to be seen with them so they all went to Central Park (Selena’s first time in Central Park) and Taylor and Selena walked about 20 feet of distance from the guys so nobody would think they were together but we all already knew because it wasn’t like they were that good at hiding it and there are pictures of them together that night (the clownery of it all).

These backstage tour adventures are the reason Taylor and Selena are friends today and in Selena’s own words the best thing to come out of those relationships.

VMAs (September 2008)

With how many pictures of them together that night [x] [x] [x] exist you would think they had gone together as a couple but no just two besties! The 2008 VMAs are so the show where Russell Brand mocks the Jonas Brothers and their purity rings and Taylor publicly defends them.

Toe seems happy for the rest of September but as we know now the end is near.

The Break-Up (October 2008)

Social Media was different back then and Taylor did what every teen girl with a broken heart did in 2008 and she went to myspace with an edited post to make a statement about the Toe current situation.

Post-Breakup

The 27 seconds Joe Jonas will regret for the rest of his life.

Taylor went on Ellen and I don’t even think I need to say much this interview is THAT iconic she sat on that couch and told the world exactly how Joe had broken her heart in the following two quotes:

“There’s one that’s about that guy, but…that guy’s not in my life anymore unfortunately. That guy…that’s an ouch.”

“I’m not even gonna be able to remember the boy who broke up with me over the phone in 25 seconds when I was 18…it was like 27 seconds, that’s got to be a record.” [x]

She also went on Ryan Seacrest’s and when asked about the perfect guy she saw an opportunity and took it, saying “I used to always say sense of humor, but I think that it’s important to have the same kind of sense of humor. I have a really dry, sarcastic sense of humor and if somebody doesn’t think that my sense of humor is funny, then that’s not something that is good. Um, so sometimes you know, that can be a wrong match. If they’re not allowed to go in public with me, that’s sort of an issue too.” [x]

Bonus the amazing youtube video Taylor posted with Joe’s Camp Rock doll and how he comes with his own phone to break up with other dolls [x]. Taylor eventually went full out and cited Camilla Belle (then girlfriend of Joe) as the reason for the breakup. And you know someone at Disney’s PR office wanted to die when this was going down.

So finally, Joe was forced to acknowledge the whole situation with a Myspace post:

"I never cheated on a girlfriend. It might make someone feel better to assume or imply I have been unfaithful, but it is simply not true. Maybe there were reasons for a breakup. Maybe the heart moved on. Perhaps feelings changed. I am truly saddened that anything would potentially cause you to think less of me. For those who have expressed concern over the "27 second” phone call. I called to discuss feelings with the other person. Those feelings were obviously not well received. I did not end the conversation. Someone else did. Phone calls can only last as long as the person on the other end of the line is willing to talk. “

Forever & Always

Now this song is known as THE Toe song and it was born out of the end of the relationship when she felt Joe was getting distant, but she couldn’t do anything to help it, it was made really late into the production of Fearless so she had to rush to finish it in time (so no other breakup songs are about Joe in the original album).

Forever & Always Was I out of line? Did I say something way too honest, made you run and hide Like a scared little boy I looked into your eyes Thought I knew you for a minute, now I’m not so sure

In the 2009 Grammy's Taylor and Miley (insert The Ex-Girlfriends Club Theory here) performed Fifteen (obviously not about Joe) and the Jonas were in the audience. I believe this is probably around the time Taylor writes Mr. Perfectly Fine and You All Over Me, which we know get to have thanks to Fearless (Taylor’s Version) 13 years later.

You All Over Me

The best and worst day of June

Was the one that I met you

With your hands in your pockets

And your 'don't you wish you had me' grin

But I did, so I smiled, and I melted like a child

Now every breath of air I breathe reminds me of then

Mr. Perfectly Fine

'Cause I hear he's got his arm 'round a brand-new girl

I've been pickin' up my heart, he's been pickin' up her

And I never got past what you put me through

But it's wonderful to see that it never phased you

In November of 2009, she also goes to SNL and mocks Joe in her monologue. "You might think I'd bring up Joe That guy who broke up with me on the phone But I'm not gonna mention him *rolls eyes* In my monologue [Spoken:]Hey Joe, I'm doing real well, tonight I'm hosting SNL [Sings:]But I'm not gonna brag about that In my monologue [x]"

To make things even more dramatic and very awkward The Jonas Brothers, Demi Lovato, and Taylor Swift spent NYE together watching the ball drop on TV and this was probably not how they wanted to start their years. [x] [x] [x] and a video [x]

Now let’s discussed some of the songs that came out at the time. The Jonas response to Forever & Always was Much Better. Nick described it as a song that was very personal to Joe and Joe went on to say that it was based on his very interesting year. They also at some point wanted to pretend the song was about their love for their fans but come on. Joe also changed the lyrics from ‘superstar’ to ‘country star’ and later changed it to ‘movie stars’ when he broke up with Camilla who is the ‘Much Better’ girl from the song.

Much Better - Jonas Brothers

I get a rep for breakin’ hearts

Now I’m done with superstars

And all the tears on her guitar

I’m not bitter

But now I see

Everything I’d ever need

Is the girl in front of me

She’s much better

Taylor’s iconic response in Better Than Revenge seems to be more of an attack on Camilla. She’s spoken about her regret for this song since then and hasn’t played it in years and Camilla seems to be ok we never forgiving her for it [x] [x]. Regardless this song remains a staple of the genre ‘Feminism OFF, Bops ON’.

“I was 18 when I wrote [“Better Than Revenge.”] That’s the age you are when you think someone can actually take your boyfriend. Then you grow up and realize no one can take someone from you if they don’t want to leave”. - Taylor 2014.

Better Than Revenge - Taylor Swift

Let's hear the applause (Come on, come on)

Come on, show me how much better you are

(So much better, yeah?)

See you deserve some applause

'Cause you're so much better

She also released "Last Kiss" about the nicer part of their relationship, and some believe other songs such as If This Was a Movie, Haunted (Speak Now) and Jump Then Fall (Fearless) are about Joe. From the Jonas, the other song believed to be about Taylor is Paranoid (Lines, Vines and Trying Times).

Jump Then Fall

Well, I like the way your hair falls in your face

You got the keys to me

I love each freckle on your face, oh

I've never been so wrapped up, honey

Probably a song was written about and in the early days of their romance and the long hair freckles [x] thing definitely fits 2008 Joe.

If This Was a Movie

Baby, what about the ending?

Oh, I thought you'd be here by now

Thought you'd be here by now

According to some this song is a sister song to "Last Kiss" in the same album and that is confirmed to be about Joe.

Haunted

Come on, come on, don't leave me like this

I thought I had you figured out

Something's gone terribly wrong

Won't finish what you started

This song would be a sister to Forever & Always since Taylor described both to be about a relationship that was fading in the end and that she was confused as to how they got there in the first place.

"‘Haunted’ is about the moment that you realize the person you’re in love with is drifting and fading fast. And you don’t know what to do, but in that period of time, in that phase of love, where it’s fading out, time moves so slowly. Everything hinges on what that last text message said, and you’re realizing that he’s kind of falling out of love. That’s a really heartbreaking and tragic thing to go through because the whole time you’re trying to tell yourself it’s not happening. I went through this, and I ended up waking up in the middle of the night writing this song about it.” Taylor

Friendlier days are coming (2010- )

I guess time can heal a lot of wounds and Toe is seen hugging and on friendly terms at the Clive Davis party on January 31st of 2010 [x].

The world was so shocked when we realized that Joe went to see her perform in a couple of her shows in September 2011 [x] [x], and in here Holy Ground is born about her new evaluation of their former relationship rather than the bitterness of the breakup. The lyrics' secret message is “when you came to the show in SD” and the potential parallel to "Last Kiss".

Holy Ground - Taylor Swift

We blocked the noise with the sound of ‘I need you’

And for the first time I had something to lose

And I guess we fell apart in the usual way

And the story’s got dust on every page

But sometimes I wonder how you think about it now

And I see your face in every crowd…

… Tonight, I'm gonna dance

For all that we've been through

But I don't wanna dance

If I'm not dancing with you

Last Kiss - Taylor Swift

I do remember the swing of your step

The life of the party, you’re showing off again

And I roll my eyes and then

You pull me in

I’m not much for dancing

But for you I did

They're seen talking in the MTV's EMA's 2012 [x].

From here they seem to be friendly and in May of 2015 after the Billboards. They even go on a double date later that year with Gigi Hadid, Calvin Harris, and Karlie Kloss (this picture feels so cursed). Nick and Joe get invited to Taylor’s 4th of July party and they seem somewhat distant after his split from Gigi.

Present (2020- )

In 2020, we got the amazing surprise of folklore with the song ‘Invisible String’ that makes a reference to Taylor’s past songs about exes being harsh and how she sent Joe and his wife Sophie Turner a present for their baby girl’s birth. In 2021, she has now released the re-recordings of Fearless and we are all reliving the drama and enjoying the chaos of Taylor’s and Sophie’s friendship not letting Joe know peace for those 27 seconds over a decade ago.

Invisible String

Cold was the steel of my axe to grind

For the boys who broke my heart

Now I send their babies presents

#Taylor Swift #fearless #fearless (taylor's version)#forever & always #mr perfectly fine #you all over me #last kiss #toe #jaylor #joe jonas #jonas brothers #folklore #invisible string #paranoid #much better #lines #vines and trying times #better than revenge

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1-70 for Lust

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alright...let's do this. they're going under a cut because there are so many

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents?

Not in the slightest, they ran away when they were a teenager and that's when they were taken in and began working for Queen Sofia.

02: Who did you last say “I love you” to?

I'm pretty sure the last person they said that to was Asher.

03: Do you regret anything?

Oh boy they regret so many things, but I don't have enough time to write out THAT list. so we're just gonna go with, they regret leaving the King's Guard. since them leaving is the reason milo and vi died.

04: Are you insecure?

No, Lust has confidence in spades. They might be a bit insecure with their emotions, but with everything else absolutely not.

05: What is your relationship status?

They're currently engaged to Asher~

06: How do you want to die?

they'd never admit it, but they would either want to die protecting someone they care about or they would want to die as retribution for all of the shitty things their actions have caused and the things they've activly done.

07: What did you last eat?

Probably bread, they like bread. or pizza.

08: Played any sports?

They used to do competitive swimming, but that was years ago. They keep up swimming they just don't compete anymore.

09: Do you bite your nails?

Not anymore. They usually get them done up so they feel like they CAN'T bite them because they spent money on them

10: When was your last physical fight?

Oh boy, that depends on when their last job was in canon?

11: Do you like someone?

Yeah, their fiancée xD

12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours?

Oh absolutely. they've done it multiple times probably.

13: Do you hate anyone at the moment?

Damien, uhhh Damien, hhhmmm Damien, maybe Christian a lil bit. Cora. and probably quite a few other people. Theirself

14: Do you miss someone?

Milo and Viktoriya.

15: Have any pets?

They used to. They kept Aggro for a few years after Milo and Vi died but eventually asked Marie to take him because seeing him just made them sad. They do miss him.

16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment?

well considering nothing is currently going on in the Imperium. they probably feel pretty damn good. Not gonna last long tho.

17: Ever made out in the bathroom?

oh absolutely. probably multiple different bathrooms. They've also definitely had sex in a bathroom too.

18: Are you scared of spiders?

Not particularly, but they will avoid them. They let spiders stay in their house since they kill ants and other bugs that Lust is allergic to. But if it becomes an infestation they're callin it and killing the spiders.

19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?

The answer used to be yes without a second thought, but now they would probably hesitate and be unable to decide. Because they would want to save Milo and Vi, but they aren't the person that they fell in love with anymore and now they have Asher and they wouldn't want to hurt him like that.

20: Where was the last place you snogged someone?

Probably their bedroom.

21: What are your plans for this weekend?

either to get laid or to work. Unless Asher has some surprise planned for them.

22: Do you want to have kids? How many?

Absolutely not. 0, they want 0 kids. ever.

23: Do you have piercings? How many?

They had a few on their ears, an one on their eyebrow.

24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)?

English, and History.

25: Do you miss anyone from your past?

Technically this was a question already asked, but yes they miss Milo and Vi

26: What are you craving right now?

Pizza, or a kiss from Asher. they're not picky.

27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart?

Oh without a doubt. there was an almost 7 year gap from when Milo and Vi died before they got with Asher and during that time they were "helping" people. some of those people got attached.

28: Have you ever been cheated on?

Nope

29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?

oh boy yes, a lot, they were not a good person or partner to Asher when their relationship started.

30: What’s irritating you right now?

Nothing at the moment, but give it time.

31: Does somebody love you?

Well Asher says he does, and they're pretty positive he isn't lying to them

32: What is your favourite color?

Blue

33: Do you have trust issues?

Oh absolutely, trust issues out the ass.

34: Who/what was your last dream about?

uhhh, fucking fruit loops taking over the world?

35: Who was the last person you cried in front of?

Either Asher or Pride, i can't remember which.

36: Do you give out second chances too easily?

HAHAHA No, absolutely not.

37: Is it easier to forgive or forget?

Neither, they remember every slight and they don't forgive.

38: Is this year the best year of your life?

No??

39: How old were you when you had your first kiss?

16, and it was Viktoriya.

40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked?

Yes, without a doubt and without shame during the years before they got with Ash it definitely happened at least once.

51: Favourite food?

Pizza? if they had to pick.

52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason?

Unfortunately yes

53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?

had some fun times with Asher.

54: Is cheating ever okay?

they can't really comment on this because they definitely helped people cheat on their partners back in the day. So if it ever happens to them they'd just say they had it coming.

55: Are you mean?

Oh yeah, they're a mean person.

56: How many people have you fist fought?

Too many people.

57: Do you believe in true love?

No, Love is something that has to be worked at. True Love doesn't exist.

58: Favourite weather?

Rain, but not storms. they hate storms. but like a light rain they like.

59: Do you like the snow?

No, fuck the cold.

60: Do you wanna get married?

They're indifferent. They've been married before and it didn't feel any different than just being in a relationship? So if their partner does then they'll get married but they're not going to be the one to suggest it.

61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?

oh hell yes

62: What makes you happy?

Lots of things, their friends, Asher, food, sex, video games.

63: Would you change your name?

Already been there done that~

64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?

Considering it was Asher, absolutely not hard at all.

65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

Well they're non binary so there isn't really an opposite gender of that lol. But if it was their best friend that would be Wrath and they would be hella confused because Wrath is practically obsessed with his HUSBAND lol. so they'd think that Wrath was body swapped or something.

66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?

Again there isn't really an opposite sex for Enby's. but they aren't gonna be friends with someone if they can't be theirself around that person.

67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?

same as the last two~ So the last person they spoke with was probably Asher or Wrath.

68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

Pride? or maybe Asher? or Wrath? can't be too sure tbh

69: Do you believe in soulmates?

No, like with the true love thing, you've gotta work on love it's not just gonna be something the universe gives you.

70: Is there anyone you would die for?

Wrath, Pride, Asher, Collins, and Marie.

#ask games #im bout to make it a rule you can't send every question x.x #max 4 #cause dear gods this took forever

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