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noxtivagus · 2 years

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i wna write a story about myself

#🌙.rambles #i can see the kind of main character i can be #like if i romanticize my characteristics and make me a fictional character #but like. HMMM IT'S COMPLEX #if it says anything yk i'm a scorpio sun/capricorn moon #and i'm definitely like both #but i'm more kinder that you'd expect them to be idk #bcs i have been told i'm intimidating at times. n i can see myself unintentionally coming across as dry or cold #but at the same time yk i'm not perfect i can really be an angry bitch at times but mostly when me or ppl i love have been wronged #i'm like the water. sometime's i'm gentle but other times i'm a tsunami #looking at my notes sometimes i write about really soft stuff but #there's also a monster in me i suppose. i'm a bit insane and definitely weird 🤕#in the end i don't really care about what others think of me. i'll be myself and live the life i want #i swear whenever i'm on my period my mood swings are on a whole other level 😭#bcs i'm extra dramatic n confident like rn yes but pull me outside of the house or smth n i'll be shy 💀#but yk it's quiet 'unassuming' ppl like me that i love the most! they have several universes in their heads #makes our lives much more colorful. and i consider myself an artist of different forms of art after all #i have this ideal version of myself n as a writer the reaosn why i can imagine them #is because they reflect on me after all! so i'd consider these as parts of my identity as well #my main problem is connecting w my reality i think. bcs i'm rlly comfy being alone.#normally that'd be fine but as humans we can't really be alone. n therein lies the dilemma!#i have the strength to aim towards what i know i want and deserve but i don't want to burden others #if i can do this all alone then i would. but i can't.#but the difficulty lies in that the perfectionist in me is still there despite my growth mindset #i'm still young. when i'm older i know i'll have the success to match my ambition and passion #but here and now what i really need is company. but idk how to do that #at the same time i know there are people that genuinely care for me but i wonder about how it'd last. and if it's real #who's to say that it's only the image they have of me that they're drawn to?#or perhaps it's to fulfill something of themselves that they want #i know for a fact that i acknowledge and accept each individual i know for who they are

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lucyvaleheart · 4 months

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lil secret desire of mine is like. i hide my face a lot and I fucking dream about being forced out of that; someone pulling my hands away, or grabbing my chin and making me look at them, or otherwise not letting me hide away

sexually or not that shit slaps so good every fucking time 😵‍💫

#fuckin. soft or violent both are so amazing #sexually context is great #but it's also so fucking good when like. you're sad and want to be comforted #that idea that they still wanna see your face they want you to stop hiding enough to pull you to them #oiughjgg #hi I'm normal and definitely don't have any trauma what are you talking about

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foxtrotsicrra · 1 year

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not romantic not platonic but a secret third thing ( aggressively codependent yet emotionally unavailable )

#this is definitely about #malevolent #arthur lester #john doe #but i'm sure applies to a wide range of blorbos #basically idc WHAT their impetus is #as long as they're both out here willing to do Literally Anything for each other #maim kill enter into dubious contracts w ancient evils #just to have each other alive and safe ♡#as a biromantic asexual #i'm always see-sawing wildly btw #'portrayals of intense platonic love are so important!!'#and 'but also i'd like them to kiss.'#thanks for coming to my ted talk #foxtrotsicrra.txt #someone added griddlehark and YEA YOU GET IT

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saltpepperbeard · 8 months

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gnawing on my arm because i think there's something to be said about how stede not only dreams about himself with a beard, but ed with his full beard back too. like, the dream seems to be riddled with imagery that he thinks ed would want.

and i say this especially because of how stede reacted when ed had to shave his beard. he freaked out on his behalf. he shrieked in horror whereas ed was entirely unbothered. he feared he had ruined him, had dragged him down to some despicable level, when in actuality, ed was completely content to shed that part of his persona.

and then there he is dreaming about ed with that part right on back.

so there's very clearly still a part of his mind that's convinced that's what ed wants. because why wouldn't he? everyone else seems to. and why would he want the softness and femininity stede had been bullied for his entire life?

which in turn plays into his own imagery too. bearded, masculine, fiercesome, rugged...

because how could someone love what everyone has hated him for? how could someone want what everyone has tried to quite literally beat out of him?

#OFMD #OFMD Season 2 #OFMD S2 Spoilers #Gentlebeard #Blackbonnet #Edward Teach #Stede Bonnet #Revenge Rambles #ALSO #I SAY ALL OF THIS TO SAY #I really REALLY hope they have a conversation about it #Because Stede clearly has some issues going on with his self-worth still #He's getting BETTER #But he's definitely still having issues #And I really hope I'm on the money when it comes to that one shot where Ed seems to be looking at him drinking/partying in Spanish Jackie'z #And is looking TROUBLED #I keep envisioning an exchange where Ed is like 'Well this is...different'#And Stede cheerily goes 'Ah yes. Trying something new! Do you like it?'#And Ed looks him dead in the eye and goes 'Do YOU?'#Also it kills me how they're both sort of having the same issues just in different fonts #Ie Ed worrying that he's unlovable how he is #And Stede ALSO worrying that he's unlovable how he is #They both want to change parts of themselves/shy away from parts of themselves #When in reality both of them love each other for who they really are #AND I HOPE THEY HAVE A CONVERSATION CENTERED AROUND JUST THAT #I HOPE THAT'S WHAT AAAALLL OF THIS IS BUILDING TO

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 9 months

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Alternative form of 'Hitting Wangxian with a Catboyification beam'

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #I don't have much more of an explanation to this other than 'i was struck by the vision and needed to create it'#They are both catboy coded. To me. On slightly different alignments of catboy but still.#LWJ is catboy: Fussy + bites and WWX is catboy: Stinky #Neither of them take well to being moved from their nap spot.#I love reading lying on my stomach and my cat just loves it. Hates being moved. We are locked in combat post any cuddle sessions.#I am a cat lover. I love them. They are Rotten little Stinkers. I love them #LWJ is like. *the* definition of 'cat that only likes those its in a bonded pair with.#The kind of cat that screams if it sees any neighborhood cats wandering outside.#wwx is a 'outdoor cat that wandered inside and became domesticated but NOT owned' kinda guy.#he is a menace on the local bird population and the only reason he's not dad to all the kittens is that he got fixed young.#UNLESS: the golden core transfer here was the balls (?) Animal control took JCs balls and WWX gave his up (????)#((I Also Don't Know What I'm Saying))

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contrappostoes · 1 year

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Nana x "Where is My Place in the World? Early Shōjo Manga Portrayals of Lesbianism" by Fujimoto Yukari (tr. Lucy Fraser)

#augh #nana #upl #queue #when I first read this article I thought of them tbh like...they both come up against the ideas here in their own ways #hachi trying to moor herself & achieve maturity by pursuing relationships with men #nana wrestling with how she feels she can't succeed if she's tied to ren/managing feelings abt wanting to keep hachi close #a future with each other is not an option - both in-text and in a genre/meta sense - bc there are no men in that roadmap #nana feels so self aware in this way. like especially with hachi: by all external measures she 'grows up' - but it leaves her isolated #& still yearning for that connection she had with nana...but it's not possible within the confines of their stories and the genre #anyway i'm aware there's lesbians in shojo but the point of the article is examining why this is an anomaly. definitely recommend reading!

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captainhysunstuff · 1 month

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22 more images (with some saucy shenanigans and immature "seduction" tactics towards the end) below the cut:

Ryuk makes his grand return and is brought up to speed with Light and L's immoral union. The date seems pretty successful~.

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#drawn by me #my fanart #my fancomic #Death Note #The Chain #lawlight #Light Yagami #L #Ryuk #smooch #saucy shenanigans #suggestive dialogue #Ryuk third-wheeling~#L meets Light's quirky-deadly roommate #henh not much to say about this one. basically a continuation of the previous entry despite the absurd update gap.#I've lost the ability to keep anything brief anymore~#L seems a bit out of character with his willingness to go with the plan huh? And don't you think he'd have gotten used to Light's teasing b #now? Maybe it hits a little different knowing for a fact that it's coming from Kira's mouth directed towards him of all people~#Also the picture where Ryuk is saying he'll scram when things get heated is probably my favorite drawing of him that I've done!#he was so intimidating to draw especially over and over in comic form. such a far cry from my usual human style #but like all things I gradually became more and more comfortable drawing him. I'm very happy about that! :)#I have a dumb idea/headcanon concerning the nerds' first copulation attempt~.#if I decide to include it here I will definitely try to age restrict it even though it won't necessarily be graphic.#don't wanna get in trouble lol #I have more trouble drawing spicy scenes than I do with shinigami subjects XD #tw: food issues #they both eat the sketchy 'apple' to prove they're not cowards... despite it not being the smartest idea in the world. >_>

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jeeaark · 3 months

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I wish the emperor in bg3 was as cool ( and hunky ) as you make them out to be, how you portray the gang and greygold is all so sweet 😭😭😭 but after finding out what he did to Duke stelmane... I'll just pretend your version is canon instead. I love your art!

Right, so originally I wasn't gonna abroach that topic with a 13½ ft pole, because sensitive subject, but gonna have to roll up my sleeves and acknowledge it was very much indeed a topic that Greygold had to consider and formulate their own conclusions on. Sure even though Greygold didn't find out the be-hella-mean way, there were concerned friends with mindful observations that had Greygold confronting the possibility that the Emperor and Stelmane's secret underground business practices might've had some uh...Problems!

The conversation went a lil everywhere BUT in short-

Greygold's philosophy is to hope for the best, but always prepare for the worst.

Case in point: Greyg's team. Maybe not everyone did shitty things in their past, but they certainly had ample opportunity to do shitty things on this journey that Greygold had to veer them away from. As Greygold sees it, if their teammates can change for the better, hopefully the Emperor can and will too. Everybody is capable of being awful, but also being awesome kind, so gotta give the squid a chance.

#bg3 spoilers #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #wyll #the emperor bg3 #duke stelmane #greygold #bg3 fanart #Instead of “Wrath” and “Ruin” solving problems through orcish means #Greygold's new “Friendship” and “Intervention” fists lock you in a bear hug until you do the right thing #I will say finding dirt about Stelmane afterwards did ease MY mind a lil #but yeah I'm remaining neutral about Stel until I get some RESPECTFULLY acquired unbiased direct facts #but even gameplay-wise Greyg was hoping with enough time and energy and a positive influence in Emp's life #the morally-purple-grey squid would find itself enriched by some POSITIVELY HEALTHIER character development #I can't deny Astarion was a bad influence on Greyg at times though #The power of friendship is indeed a neutral power #that can be used for both evil and good #like love #I got a lil fervent with the stelmane thing but I do appreciate that you're enjoying Greygold's adventures!#But. Even silly (hunkyIguesstoothankyou???hfghfghsdfg) Emps is definitely. hrm. -Complicated-

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willowser · 9 months

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getting to a point with nerd bakugou where you're not even playing games online together anymore, you're just — chatting, all day 🥺

and you've gotten close enough that you'll send him a mirror selfie and even if your phone is mostly covering your face, he's ZOOMING IN ON THAT BABY and over-analyzing the hell out of it 🥺 trying to figure out what you look like 🥺 and every single photo he sends in return is assessed for a minimum of 20 minutes, because he wants to make sure his reflection isn't showing anything or his body doesn't look weird, that his posture is right 🥺

and the first time you send something back like, "you look nice today 😊🩷", even though he's just showing off his shirt from a movie you both like — he's having to put his phone down on his desk and put his hands over his face because he feels so airbruqoabdka about you !!!!!

#WAAAHHH HE MAKES ME NUTS I SAY #sorry yeah no i'm gonna keep talking about this yeah definitely #just !!!! liking someone and wanting them and you !!! just know them online !!!! 🥺#pls he's spending FOREVER in the mirror making sure there's nothing on his face and that his hair looks alright and that his glasses —#— are straight #just to hids majority of it with where he's holding his phone LMAOOO #a dork i'm wrangling him i'm chomping him #and kaminari gets all 'who's your friend ?? 😏😏😏'#and bakugou is like 'WE JUST PLAY STUFF TOGETHER SOMETIMES GET OUT OF IT'#and you two actually havent played anything in weeks bc you've both been busy but you're still messaging all day every day LOL #WAAAHHHHH #blast from the past: q #* just to hide #✿ willow writes #✿ thoughts: bakugou #✿ theme: nerd bakugou

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merakiui · 6 months

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thinking,,,,,,,, darling who has a cryptic pregnancy....... [insert twst character here] reacting to it,,, maybe you and floyd and you're both a little dense because neither of you could have ever guessed. T_T

"what do you mean you were pregnant this whole time???? i thought shrimpy just got softer. :D" - floyb mindset.

in floyd's defense, he has no idea how human pregnancies work. he slept through that part of land boot camp!!! fell asleep the minute the professor started droning on about how humans don't lay eggs like mers do. jade can only chuckle (maybe he knew, but in classic jade fashion he won't tell because it's much more entertaining to sit back and watch everyone slowly figure it out) and azul is shaking his head in disbelief. had he known, he would have prepared well in advance to lend a helping hand. and you're just so amazed because maybe you were told you're unable to get pregnant, but somehow it happened and you had no idea all this time.

thank you to floyd and his mer virility for doing what was thought to be the impossible!!!!!! <3

#meraki mumbles #tw: pregnancy #conversely this happens with rollo and he's convinced it's a gift from god LOL he feels very blessed <3 #OOOOO THIS CONCEPT WITH CATER #i need to write something with cater....... he gives me many thoughts but i never write any of them >_<#WAIT. CATER BEING SOMETHING OF A CRINGEFAIL #he kinda sorta sucks at adulting but he's trying and you're his roommate and you're not in a relationship but you fuck #and cater's okay with it because it's easier when he's not attached #but then cryptic pregnancy happens and now he's hit with the weight of: 'wow..... i'm going to be a father'#cater definitely goes to trey for advice #omg cater inviting riddle and trey to breakfast and being like 'sooooo what if i said cay-cay's gonna be a dad? :3'#he catches both of them so off guard...#AAAAAA SORRY FOR RAMBLING IN TAGS OTL

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automatonknight · 9 months

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here's the prick i was talking about^ i have so many thoughts and notes about him but they're mostly incomprehensible so when i organize maybe them i'll post them who knows

#art #oc #id in alt #um ummm #idk. if you have any questions as always feel free to ask #ANYWAYS. geez making him has been so fun i love this asshole so much i'm going to put him through the horrors #salute to you Kordian if you see this if you hadn't shown me stalker i probably wouldn't be running in circles about patches now #more notes. i actually have no idea how magic works in-universe i just thought it would be cool. he's not good at using it he sucks. he's #shocked himself so many times probably. will that stop him? no #he practiced fencing for a few years so he actually like. knows how the fight flows or whatever. i think he definitely picks out targets wh #don't get their bearings quite as well and dances around them and shit like that he just likes to be mean i guess #idk idk. also he joins the lovelies at one point. that's like. semi-canon. it's sorta like with triumphant and normal walenty to me. like #they both exist but the. so to speak. evil one kind of doesn't in a way if you get me. i mostly thought it would be a fun thing to think #about. and also patches would do that and then he'd freak out like what the fuck am i doing and leave #another random thing about his pronouns. well i mostly use he/him for him. that 'any' is more in a way that if you referred to patches as #she or they or it or anything else he wouldn't care #but he usually doesn't mention it and stuff

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me-sploh-rada-imas · 8 months

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livestream 12/09/23

#joker out #nace jordan #jan peteh #jance #i swear i'm not overanalysing LOOK AT NACE'S FACE #he's holding back a massive smile look at those dimples #jan is holding his hand???#join me in my delusion everyone #this might actually be my tipping point lads like literally look at their faces i want what they have #and like... they are definitely trying to be subtle here but they both have massive grins and literally look ecstatic #literally this is not platonic i'm sorry #sorry these gifs are bad i got excited #nat's gifs

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hrokkall · 11 months

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What's gabriel in this au?

Some loser, probably.

#Gabriel Ultrakill #Rain World Ancients #Ultrakill #Rain World #I CAN POST THIS NOW THAT THE FULL ATTACK IS DONE. NICE pose referenced from Act 1's ending cutscene if that wasn't blatant already #He's as of yet unnamed but I'm working on it. And also somehow not dead. Debatably. It's a crossover AU it's not adhering to RW canon #Anyway very cool style rain world has for its murals! Tried to match it to the best of my ability but my own style definitely bleeds throug #-in places. It happens #ANYWAY the reason why he's an Ancient is just because there seem to be a lot of parallels between Angels in UTKL and Ancients in RW #Both are societies obsessed with remaining free from earthly desire and keeping order; one wishes to ascend and one has already ascended-#-and has to keep it that way lest they feel the wrath of a long-absent god #Looking at the karma murals that represented the deadly sins (ish) kind of solidified that #Plus it means I don't have to take off his helmet which is always a bonus; I don't like unmasking helmeted characters #As a bonus ancients sort of seem birdlike to me? They're meant to look vague but at least two had bird feet so hell yeah. Bird time.#Enough tag talking. Here's the actual sorting tags:#Re: Inbox #Re: Anon #RW UTKL #Hrokkall Art

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agrebel18 · 1 year

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I saw this last night and thought “hey maybe Twitter isn’t THAT BAD” but anyways, here’s for the people that like parallels (me)

[ID: three screenshots of a tweet that says “the category is blonde boys who are controlled and manipulated by a ‘family member’ who is technically not even related to them but their first true friend is a small cute creature that gives them magical powers and +” which then show two pictures of Hunter from The Owl House and Adrien from Miraculous Ladybug.

the second tweet says “their beautiful blue haired girlfriends is one of the most sweetest beings in the world <3″ which then show pictures of Willow from The Owl House and Marinette from Miraculous Ladybug. Then there is an addition to the tweet which has a picture of Hunter and Willow holding hands in their timeskip designs, and then a picture of Adrien and Marinette holding hands at their school. Then it shows a close-up picture of Hunter and Willow holding pinkies and Marinette and Adrien holding hands.

then there is another tweet which shows a picture of Hunter carrying Willow bridal-style, and another one of Cat Noir holding Ladybug bridal-style. Then it shows a picture of Hunter reaching out to Willow in “For The Future” and then shows Cat Noir reaching out to Ladybug in “Miracle Queen.”

The last tweet shows a picture of Hunter giving a dirty look at Flapjack, and then a picture of Adrien glaring at Plagg. The last pictures show Hunter laughing and talking to Flapjack, who’s on his shoulder, and then there is Adrien smiling affectionately at Plagg and hugging him with his hands. END ID]

#miraculous ladybug #the owl house #ml #toh #adrien x marinette #adrienette #huntlow #willow x hunter #parallels #I like both BUT I'm definitely biased towards Huntlow because I'm more attached to them and both of them AS INDIVIDUAL CHARACTERS OFC #but Adrienette is cool too plus they were one of my OG ships lol #ONE LAST THING: IF YOU'RE GONNA BE HATEFUL TO ANY OF THESE PAIRING OR CHARACTERS PICTURED ABOVE THEN PLEASE LEAVE #i DO NOT wanna have to block more people or take off comments or tags #aggie posts

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celestialrealms · 1 month

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I just noticed Mephisto matches with Barbatos (who is matchy with Diavolo) in the anniversary outfits in his SSR memory card

These three were also the only three who had half masks in the masquerade event!!!

Anyway, The Royals with Mephisto chat group when? We got one for Purgatory Hall with Raphael..... it's just fair !!

And one for Mephisto and Diavolo as well, but also one for Mephisto and Barbatos too. because you can't tell me their relationship isn't deeper than the devs portray when Mephisto has lines like this about Barbatos's room:

#also obviously chat groups like thirteen + solomon or thirteen + barbatos (+ solomon) as well!!!#but i was pointing this out teehee #..........................Anyway I feel like if I were going to make a meta post about Barbatos at this point #it would definitely involve his biggest flaw being his past self-isolation #+ diavolo being the one to break it (and later mc) means he prioritizes diavolo(+mc) over everything/one else #and it's very clear he has difficulty getting close to people #i usually think it's funny tbh #but i think the context it makes me the saddest in where i'm like... momma go to therapy....#is the obvious distance between him and mephisto despite being around as an adult in both his + diavolo's childhoods #while mephisto was being groomed to be diavolo's protector or whatever #i just feel like there's so much room to develop these threes' relationships #but the devs just don't want to do it because it interferes with the brothers getting all the screen time for no reason #+ how they only seem to want to make jokes about mephisto and diavolo's relationship 90% of the time #also just saying..... this being a flaw of barbatos's is also a reason i want him to interact with thirteen more #+ to know more about their relationship #because frankly she is a LOT like that too what with how she opens up exclusively to mc #......................... sowwy about the tag rant #i am simply cherishing and holding them autism style.#obey me barbatos #obey me mephistopheles #obey me diavolo #obey me #obey me nightbringer #obey me shall we date

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parasolemn · 8 months

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[Image description: In the first image, Encyclopedia from Disco Elysium talks directly to the viewer, hands raised. He says: "The sound outside -- you recognise it. It's a Coupris Kineema motor carriage..." In the second image, Harry, standing in the middle of his broken room, asks "WTF do any of those words mean???" A blue thought orb responds, "LOL". End ID.]

SKILLTOBER DAY 2!!!!!!! LOVE IS REAL AND BEAUTIFUL originally I was gonna do the bit with The Greatest Innocence but @/spilledkaleidoscope did that (and it was soo pretty!), and my second choice for encyclopedia went to interfacing instead. so i did my Third choice which is this line at the start of the game :)

please don't mind the messiness and general weirdness I didn't do a sketch before I drew this today wkhshs. anyways as promised a few other encyclopedias I have drawn (EDIT: the one I did for the prompt format thing died so im putting it back in ! hooray)

#i have no idea why that first image came out so pink btw but I'm not retaking it #also DEFINITELY not every encyclopedia I have ever drawn. but the ones I like most. I don't want to take up more space than this lol #disco elysium #skilltober #skilltober02 #parcark art tag #by the way both those images are right above one another but I couldn't get a clear picture with both of them in the frame at the same time #for organization ->#harry du bois #encyclopedia #the skills #described

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