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I really wanna manifest a new love interest but like I feel not good enough. Like ik im pretty (which I’ll work on more) but I just feel like I’m not enough and that they won’t like me and that I don’t deserve it. Do u have any tips for this?
you feel like your not good enough because you feel lack within. your self concept is low. self concept is your concept of self so how you view yourself, what you assume to be true about you so clearly you dont think highly of yourself. this is why fulfilling yourself is so important. satisfy yourself in imagination! what do you want to experience? being w this sp but more importantly, feeling secure in yourself and knowing you are good enough. give yourself the feeling of being secure. realize you hold the power at every given moment and you can decide you are now that person who knows they are good enough. deciding takes 1 second. great now its done. now that you are this person whos self concept is on 100, you can have fun in imagination and actually experience anything you want (-> gets you into the wish fulfilled if you havent gotten there already thro deciding).
you can imagine whatever you want that implies this confident version of you. i can give you some ideas: you can visualize a scene where you are looking at yourself in the mirror and you are loving what you see (it doesnt matter what you visualize, its the feeling it gives you so whatever scene that gives you self confidence is good). same with other techniques (affirming, scripting, inner convos, etc -> they should give you the feeling. its not the techniques that manifests, the techniques are only changing yourSELF and its SELF that manifests). anyways, when you visualize your scenes or affirm or do whatever, focus on actually satisfying yourself in imagination. what actually makes you feel “good enough”? play around with this and know a confident version of you already exists. your only job is to embody that version and decide thats you now.
someone who has a high self concept is someone who knows they are top tier and they always get what they want, etc. embody this version! from here do whatever you want: techniques or no techniques, you are being this person in imagination. with techniques, you experience what you want for fun while knowing or with the intent of knowing (getting into the state of the wish fulfilled) that its done. with no techniques, you just know/decide its done. your goal is to hold this high concept of self by satisfying yourself aka accepting/assuming it.
once youve felt this confident feeling and you can confidently say: “i know i am good enough” or if you just decided you are good enough, its done. continue being that person in imagination since thats who you are now. if you fall out this state, just get back in when your ready and know you are always perfect ! 🎀
to add: working on self concept means: you are no longer the person who thinks theyre not good enough -> you know ur good enough, (like duh). you are no longer the person who’s sp doesnt like them -> duh they like you because your literally perfect. change those assumptions on yourself. and i make it clear that getting into the state of the wish fulfilled does all that for you.
#ask jani🎀#law of assumption#loa blog#manifesting#loassumption#neville goddard#edward art#imagination creates reality
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I am madly in love with your artstyle and its been a big big inspiration for me as of late. Also, what are your thoughts on Jane and Bonnie? Do you like them or not
AAA thank you so much thats so flattering to hear 🥺💕!!
my feelings on jane and bonnie are nuanced just like my opinion on many of twdg characters. but i love twdg for all its messy fucked up characters :) its fun :) so while i dont hate either of them they definitely still do things that piss me off
in janes case, i think her mentorship/sisterhood with clem came more from her guilt about her sister than actually wanting to have this 11 year old around. so while she would teach clem important survival skills, she was also always quick to leave or act selfishly (clems "i thought you believed in me 🥺" always makes me sad). and this is just solidified by her actions in her S3 flashbacks. i do think she TRIES to work with the group, but she just gets in her own way and is never able to fully integrate, especially since the S2 cast is a fucked up mess in and of itself so its understandable. her actions at the end of S2 are born of pure selfishness, leaving a newborn infant in a random freezing vehicle so she could "show clem what kenny was really like" when clem is WELL AWARE of the thread this madman is hanging on to (having already faced the brunt of his frustrations MULTIPLE times at this point, and is desperate not to lose anyone else). she wanted a fight and she got one. i think maybe she told herself it was about saving clem, but honestly i dont think that was really ever her goal. again i just think a lot of her motivation comes out of the guilt of leaving her sister behind, so she saw clem as a second chance to make things right. but depending on clems actions, she can end up on her own without either of them, and jane can be the sister left behind to die. its interesting to see clem kinda pick up janes personality in the first half of S3 now that shes also at a point where she has no one and trusts no one, and is deep down lonely and longing for community. the difference is clem is not selfish (while still caring about self preservation), and actually likes being able to help people when she can. shes more so just afraid of caring for people again to protect herself from what she sees is the inevitable pain of losing them, as opposed to janes "theyre all just gonna bring you down so you should be on your own instead" outlook. but i definitely saw jane (and luke) as a bigger mentor/big sister(/brother) figure to clem than kenny was to her. jane actually taught her how to take care of herself. kenny was just someone from her past she didnt want to let go of
in bonnies case, she can be really horrible to clem if she listened to luke and stayed back instead of trying to grab him, so i'll literally try to save luke just so i dont have to hear it 😭 but also i like the convo her and clem have on the steps if you tried to save him. its an important character moment for clem, being asked what SHE wants instead of what the people around her want, and that she should start thinking about that, which is formative to the decision she makes (or fails to make) at the rest stop. the way bonnie is initially dismissive of carvers behavior i think is supposed to mirror the way clem can be dismissive of kennys behavior after leaving howes. will they come to see the man they once respected is becoming someone unstable? (i used to be in the "kenny might be going crazy but he'd never hurt clem" camp UNTIL i picked the "lee shouldnt have tried to save me 😔" option in the car and kenny threatened to smack her for it AFTER giving it a moment of hesitation so he KNEW what he was saying there. my jaw was dropped. but kenny is just another interesting flawed character in a game of interesting flawed characters (although they Heavily backtracked on the kenny/carver parallels in the S3 flashbacks. you can make the argument hes happier now but idk he cant come back from the threat for me he MEANT that)). bonnie leaving with mike is fucked but understandable, and she can show real concern after clem gets shot before getting chased off by kenny. i hope her and mike are still out there somewhere i dont hate either of them, even tho it was horrible of them to steal ALL of their supplies when they knew they were leaving TWO children behind. like cmon. but overall i liked bonnie :) shes a bit of a mess but i like her for it
in the end i am a twdg woman character forgiver :) i do love all the fucked up ladies its refreshing let them do dumb shit and make mistakes!!! i love mess :)
#replies with lexi#plamglam#twdg#all the misogynists in this fandom GET BACK these female characters are refreshing for being so fucked up#if your fucked up fave men are “understandable” you can understand the fucked up women too 😐
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Smiling Critters AU: Catnap's Psyche
NOTE: THIS IS NOT RELATED TO CANON IN THE SLIGHTEST. An accurate description of this au is that I took every playtime.co poster art and promotional material from the game and lit up the rest of canon in a bonfire. Meaning that EVERY character is part of one big cartoon. Thats it. No bigger bodies project, no child souls, no experiments, just a depiction of a cartoon. PLEASE do not ask me to do anything suggestive with anyone.
OK so catnap in an interesting case,
I will be referencing events from my masterpost, but if you want to read like the bare minimum, then his backstory is here because attempting to re-write it here was a chore
I've sort of made him the introvert, but the more I write about him, the more he seems surprisingly adept at reading emotions, and I like it so we're rolling with it. I like to think he felt alot of emotions during his homelessness period, and references his own pain to inquire what others are feeling, and apply a comforting technique based on how he moved on and how they might feel about the situation. If dogday is inspiration and happiness, then catnap is melancholy.
Now I wanna go over his situational mutism, as it's pretty important and affects most of his interactions with the others. First I'll say that I have done some reading but this may still be somewhat inaccurate, and please tell me if I'm way off base so I can edit it if you have better info.
It started during his homelessness, and being uncomfortable around anyone and everyone due to the fact of him literally being a stray cat as well as living alone for 8-9 years didn't really help. Eventually his voice just wouldn't work when interacting with anyone so miming and over-exxagerating facial expressions (to the best of his resting bitch face can allow) is his way of communication. He still ends up wishing he could, but what's done is done. He doesn't know sign language as no one was yk... there to teach him.
I also want to get into how dogday is his closest friend when because in practice, it should be bobby. Picky was kind of put about the whole 'forest cabin kid' thing, but Bobby was understanding and even gave him food, but in terms of interaction, it was just awkward. Both felt bad in different ways, Bobby a little upset that the communication barrier is blocking her from truly being able to help him, and catnap being sad that this the first person his age that willingly wants to talk to him in years and he can't even muster a few words. Even his facial expressions weren't quite working, and their "convos" were more like peaceful interrogations.
Thankfully, she put dogday on the case, and interacting with him was a whole different story. He didn't immediately get awkward when catnap didn't respond to a question and mimed about his situational mutism, instead treating him as if he was talking to someone normally, with a few minor modifications Questions wouldn't require an answer, he would just study his gestures and infer a response, or when he was rambling he wouldn't stop to check if catnap was listening due to his silence, he treated him like he would with anyone else. Maybe he was oblivious to what he was doing right, maybe not, catnap appreciated it either way.
So imagine his suprise when he realized that in a way, Dogday was just like him in a way.
The slip-up in dogday's words revealed he lives in an orphanage, and he doesn't really know his parents as he was abandoned. But his excitable demeanor just didn't make sense to him. It's only when dogday accidentally breaks into a tangent about how his situation isn't bad and that it's okay, and he's okay does catnap realize the subconscious mental limiter dogday's placed on himself. Catnap sees himself in Dogday, but instead of riding all his emotions out, Dogday has suppressed everything, in hopes to make everyone, and to an extent himself, happy. He couldn't just let him continue that, and in some way, that familiarity broke through the uncomfortability as he told dogday that it's alright to sulk. Something that wasn't told to him before.
I like the parallels I made with him and dogday and the backstory I gave him, so that's why I chose situational mutism instead of just being mute. The rest of the critters haven't met catnap yet because that happens during the summer arc so I still have to plan that out.
This psyche series is my way of reminding myself how they think, so if you did read or end up reading my other posts, I would appreciate if you could point out inconsistencies!! Ty for reading this
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6 and 7 for casey and also 20 :)c
Ask game
6. What catalyzed their introduction to the plot?
True to her rotten soul, she was summoned to the plot in vp by discourse and disorder in the family. She comes around during a point when Michelle is starting to get sudden positive public attention as goldstar, and since boosters been mostly out of public eye since starting to be the silent protector of the time stream, she’s treated as something of a big new breakout sensation (they’re bored as fuck in metropolis)
Michelle is dealing with some inner turmoil and fighting with booster which she’s been keeping under wraps cuz she’s gods strongest soldier but she sees the attention on goldstar as a way to break away from it all and gain some independence and also as a sort of petty bite back at her brother who is being very annoying at the moment warning her about the dangers of stardom. As if he’s so smart. DIE. She starts spending more time as goldstar the superhero and less as goldstar the time master and is fighting a lot with booster, so she starts looking for her own place and wants to start at university and do all these things for herself (we’re so proud of her. I mean I am. FUCK BOOSTER GOLD) and CUE….. CASEY WILKES
Michelle is enrolled in uni, but she’s still living in the time lab and her brother is driving her fckn crazy every time she’s home. And she’s having trouble adjusting to sxhool life (I imagined she didn’t attend college like booster did, and just kept working out of highschool all the way up till she was dragged into the past) And as if drawn magnetically towards someone else who wants to kill MJ Carter, she and Casey have a chance encounter at a cafe near school and they chat a little. Casey tells Michelle she goes to the university near here too. That’s crazy. We have so much in common! Eventually while talking it turns to venting cuz Michelle was looking a little miserable before they started talking and she accidentally lets boosters name slip in convo. And Casey’s like 🙂 oh thats 🙂 that’s an interesting name. And btw you look. A little familiar? [MR KRAAAAABS I HAVE AN IDEAAAAAA] so from then Casey latches onto her like a leech and eventually gets the confirmation this was destiny and I can’t believe this is BOOSTER GOLDS (I THOUGHT SHE WAS DEAD) TWIN SISTER. AND SHES MAD AT HIM? THIS IS PERFECT
And then.. well that’s more middle of the story stuff. And this was asking about her introduction! (Her relationship with Michelle is interesting to me because aside from the friendship betrayal stuff it’s a rare case of her being weirdly friendly- at least by her standards)
7. What attribute of them (some facet of their personality, their history, their look, or whatever etc) would you find most important to somehow preserve if they were transplanted to an AU fanfic?
This is something Marty and I entertain ourselves with a lot actually wondering what fandom perception of Casey and nell would be… in a series bible id include things like… she’s genuinely not insecure. Like at all. Her attitude isn’t masking a tortured soul inside she’s just like that, she’s selfish and thoughtless and delusional. Her childhood was objectively difficult but she really has no complaints about the way she was raised or with her mother. She has her problems sure but they’re in other areas.. you’re looking in the wrong place! She also doesn’t really get .. sad? Often or at all? She’s more likely to feel anger than sadness. And also o feel it’s important to realize how monumentally difficult it is to form a relationship with her IF THATS SOMETHING YOU WANTED FOR SOME REASON. Literallt every relationship she has has been based on her thinking she could manipulate the other for something and then it either morphed into Ok I don’t hate seeing you even without anything to gain or morphed into attempted homicide. The illusion of free choice
20. Free Space #2: Which of your OCs would you most like to meet in person, if they could become real (or you could visit them) for a day?
Oh god. Not Casey. All my ocs are kind of annoying in some way.
Maybe Cain cuz he’s a normal polite boy. I’d ask him to show me his pop two extra arms out of his ribs trick and then id go ewwww lol and ask him to leave
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okay, im working on one of those video essays and its NOT the one i wanted 2 make its so much more important. however. i need to know, just as a general thing for my own interest
im not gonna give my whole essay here i just want a vibe check.
TO CLARIFY:
-this isnt a discussion about fandom racism, thats a monster of its own. this is about the on screen interactions between ponies and other species in their world as well as between the pegasi/unicorns/earth ponies themselves
-this isnt specifically about the mane 6, more about the general Pony Culture
-this also isnt about whether or not you think the show writers are racist/what their opinions on racism might be as interpreted through the show
-literally just about the horses in the show (and maybe the comics) and how they act/treat each other
-also not trying 2 cancel the show or start shit, really just curious abt the general convo around that whole thing
-this isnt serious but also im not joking
#saddle says#polls#mlp:fim#my little pony: friendship is magic#to further clarify: i also think its really funny in a stupid way#why was that one horse so hardcore against desegregating horse schools#why was their answer to find a loophole instead of changing the eea accretitation rules#im not going to examine the pony government system for this one bc i dont understand why two princesses cant overrule the school board#but i also need 2 rewatch the episode for this so maybe ill answer some of my own questions b4 im done#either way its-#like this isnt something im pullin out of my ass#i swear i have multiple examples#just wait til u hear my thoughts on spike
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lately ive been going through my google history when im bored (which is so incredibly entertaining btw. highly recommend) and apparently, after double-checking my camera roll that date & finding proof to support this theory, i did indeed first watch hlvrai on november 4th of 2020. absolutely insane. i thought i hadnt seen it until mid-2021 at LEAST.
shoutsout to my friends who i watched it with at the time half of which i dont talk to anymore... i owe u for getting me into funny half-life series. thank you oomf
WARNING !!! below the read more is a long fucking list of funny* things i found in my camera roll from the week i first watched hlvrai. like not the images themselves just me talking about them. i dont know why i thought that was a good idea but alas i already spent 90+ minutes writing that all out and tbf i did have a good laugh looking at that shit. anyway the warning is because its long as fuck and i'm willing to bet not at all interesting to anyone who isn't me. i think if i talk any more i will ramble for fucking ever so ill shut up. WARNING OVER !!! miami make some fucking NOISE. dj tsumugi.
*please note these were funny to both me in late 2020 (age 15) and me now (older but not at all wiser). what im trying to say is read at your own risk because 90% of this is unfunny as fuck but it could be worse. it could be shit from when i was 12. That would be really bad i think
anyway here are some highlights from my camera roll from like the day before, the day of & the day after "the incident" (me watching hlvrai):
a ridiculous amount of terezi pyrope pictures. i had not (and still have not) ever read homestuck
at least 30 pictures of hugh o'conner. probably more if im being honest with myself
the same few pictures of kokichi ouma? for some reason?
like a lot of pictures of nagito komaeda. there is at least one screenshot where my discord pfp is nagito. Something Happened
vriska and nepeta also make an appearance. the former more so but not nearly as much as terezi for some reason
a lot of screenshots of discord convos involving various hughdebeste aus. some favorites are the homestuck au, the peabody & sherman au(???), the meet the robinsons au(??????), splatoon au
blu and red scout tf2 they have taco bell and kfc shirts respectively?
professor sycamore from pokemon and professor sycamore from layton. there are multiple images of each and theyre right next to each other
screenshots of the homestuck wiki. Concerning
a screenshot of an email i got from nintendo about the special edition fortnite switch releasing
like a lot of screenshots of alfendi layton from when i was playing lbmr. not surprising but theres kind of a ridiculous amount
a picture of alvin (the chipmunk) that just says "WE DID IT"
screenshots of me talking in ridiculous 13375P34K on twitter and being accused of kinning from homestuck. quite frankly? i deserved that
hatsune miku makes a few appearances
many tumblr post screenshots. However i did not take these myself i just saved them from reddit. really ashamed to admit i did this for literal years even when i used tumblr at the same time
picture of professor layton standing in that one pose in that one picture i dont know how to describe it. the "you know i had to do it to em" one
that one bugs bunny suit meme and it says "i wish all boobed men a very pleasant evening". this was apparently important enough for me to save twice like an hour and a half apart
many screenshots of me on discord AND twitter posting quotes from hlvrai as i watched it. this includes on my masked disciple roleplay account
a picture of my danganronpa trilogy for ps4 copy. but its one of those live pictures so when i click on it i get attacked (i had the flash on because i took this picture in the dark)
that one really terrible picture of tommy coolatta thats like the first non-fanart picture of him on google images. thrilled to announce i think thats been the only image on his wiki page for years now
picture of hime & mikoto meika's mmd models. i think they had recently released or been announced at this point
catboy apollo justice & wolf boy klavier gavin gacha life gifs. i think my friend made this (if it was in fact my friend and not someone random this was the same friend who streamed hlvrai and thus changed my life forever btw)
that old meme about not passing [xyz] the aux because theyll play [abc]. it says "Do NOT pass the kinnie the aux / They'll just playin 'Alvvays - Archie, Marry Me (Official Video)'"
screenshots of calendar events i set up celebrating the anniversary of two dgs characters' deaths (genklimt fans rise up!)
screenshot of my real kinlist on my real carrd from 2020. i can tell it was just edited because this screenshot has scribbles on it (i circled the latest addition to my kinlist which is in fact "dr. coomer")
screenshots of me and my oomfs on this one specific anime rp roblox game that i WISH i could remember the name of. it let you import pngs of any character you wanted so we had pictures of ace attorney guys hanging out with madoka girls at some point. this specific instance includes klavier gavin, baby trucy wright, rosie from animal crossing & a blue orb thing(??). we are all incredibly small for some reason
john cena suit gangnam style depression. this is saved multiple times. does anyone else remember this post i used to be obsessed with it for some reason
picture of a historical moment in my life (the day i changed my ps4 username to "TheKokichiOuma" which i have regretted for years now. in my defense it did actually use to be worse than that im so serious. 2018 was a dark time why did i pick the name "DabWeebPolics". Horrific!
screenshot of a string of tweets between me and a friend at the time. the tweets arent actually important except for the first one which reads "these gummy bears taste british i cant explain it". this is only important because i remember these fucking gummy bears and they DID taste british in like the same way heathrow airport feels british you know
this one picture of my chemical romance in a forest(?) but bob looks like my fucking dad at a quick glance and it scares me every time i see it. i saved this multiple times over the course of that day
various pictures my friend made of jove justice being set on fire
the really short businessman with the fuckass bob from the lorax but my oomf edited him to look like kazuma asougi
picture of byakuya togami which is only funny because it has text on top of him that says "I. DO. NOT. GEC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
a single screenshot of a tumblr post about the events of That Day (destiel putin election day.) the only other thing referencing this in my gallery is a screenshot of the trending tab on twitter (the trends are, in order. 1. #TrumpMeltdown 2. destiel 3. #ElectionResults2020)
two paper mario character pngs followed by that one misha collins picture. you know the one
various screenshots of a mishapocalypse happening on twitter
more super paper mario pngs
im going through pictures slightly further out from nov 4th now (i think after i look at nov 2nd & nov 6th ill call it quits). first image i see is that "gay people i respect vs. gay people i dont respect" image and i dont know why i saved that nevermind i scrolled and immediately found i made a dgs meme out of that
phoenix wright BASED ON GAY MANGA?
went through the ace attorney mamboleo person's deviantart that day i think so i have various funny works of theirs saved. i think the average person actually would know them as the stamp on the ground animation person so. Thats them too. on a side note watching that video after you got into metal gear is fucking insane
that mom against cat boys tshirt
a lot of unnoteworthy professor layton & ace attorney & dgs images
ben shapiro on the ace attorney witness stand?
oh im finding out i got really fucking mad at william petenshy that day. iirc i got so fucking annoyed at this case i didnt even finish it i just. skipped it. i wasnt even playing it i was just watching it???
one of those "tag yourself / which mutual am i" posts but all the options are characters from my kinlist. one of the titles is a jfk clone high reference
screenshots of dms to klimt van zieks begging him to drop a kinlist
a screenshot of a friends reply to my tweet (hi doop) which did just remind me of my "damon gant is apollo justice's grandpa" theory. this tweet manages to tie yanni yogi into the family tree
screenshot of a discord music bot playing a youtube video (remember when they could do that?). the video is titled "henry ledore does his taxes for 10 minutes asmr"
apparently i looked at characters i share a mbti with that day. highlights include souseki (the dgs guy. no idea about the real one), ron delite, flora reinhold, pyro tf2, agent 8 (splatoon), n harmonia & my goat DERPY HOOVES
screenshot of part of twitter's trending page. it says that trending in the united kingdom, with at least 3,610 tweets, is "Homosexuals"
screenshots of multiple tweets in a row from me. they all involve me frantically talking about how i really want to kin nagito komaeda even though i know fuck-all about him
various pictures of markiplier (both in real life & in fma)
real screenshot of me unironically saying "mental illness innit" in reference to myself. this was in my twitter dms with my friends klimt van zieks roleplay account which is even worse
original gina lestrade & egg benedict image made by me. if you know the apollo gant image its basically that
okay i lied i went back to nov 1st and i think i'll check nov 7th afterwards. one full week of nonsense. this proved to be a good idea because i immediately found a screenshot of a text to my mom asking her if she kinned gnomeo from gnomeo and juliet. she said yes
possible origin of why i own a boss baby poster: oomf kin-assigned me the boss baby
possibly my favorite example of the twitter feature where it shows you the original tweet and then the last two replies on a long thread of replies to that post. the original tweet is me saying in all caps "i care him so much he is so small" about luke triton (what a 2020 sentence!). the last two replies are from me and then my oomf but i think only the first of the two needs recounting. it says "do you really want to explain vore to your teachers". i know i say i want context a lot but i genuinely do really want context for this what the fuck happened here
oh good! boss baby update: theres a screenshot of my ebay purchase of "BOSS BABY Poster A5"
im on pictures from november 7th now. i think i went through a figures bot that day because i have a frankly ridiculous amount of figures (mostly nendoroids. mostly miku nendoroids.) there's also the default hime & mikoto png in the middle of these
twitter notification screenshot. apparently kristoph gavin ace attorney followed me that day
i think i went and looked through a christian memes subreddit or twitter account or SOMETHING i dont know where else these all came from. this is followed by a staggering amount of facebook minion memes
side note: does anyone else remember the aatwt (ace attorney twitter) & puyo puyo twitter crossover event in the michael's customer service chat incident? that feels like a different universe
this one is really nothing compared to any of this other stuff but i do have proof of me saying "pog" unironically
grand finale to this saga is actually from a couple days after (nov 9th 2020) but after seeing the staggering amount of death the kid images i had saved over like two days (i had watched a couple episodes of soul eater with my pals) i felt compelled to dig up my "death the kid get wifi anywhere you go" fancam. i might post it later cause its a classic (only to me)
thank you all so much for watching remember to like and subscribe and whatever. thank you for reading this if you read it for some fucking reason. i spent just over an hour and a half looking through this shit & typing this but it was a nice walk thru memory lane tbh! im gonna shut up now before i start rambling. feel free 2 ask for the images or context to any of these i literally love rambling. peace and love on planet earth. LOVE YOU ALL!!! GOODNIGHT NEW YORK CITY
#muffin mumbles#and in cass anyone wanted something to do. feel free to give me a date from any time after like christmas 2013#and i will dig up an old search or video i watched or email or image from my history#its so entertaining to me. DONT FEEL PRESSURED TO THOUGH!!! the option is there if u want it but it is NOT mandatory#so again i say... goodnight new york city. (i take a bow and walk off stage)
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OMG im very sorry about that ask being deleted😭😭 it was me who sent it and im ngl i forgot what i requested in there🥺 bc i have shit memory
but if i can request again for the college au, would it be okay for it to be about where hange and reader meet in college but have different majors, though they have a big mutual friend group and thats how they met, but i do remember it was hcs of reader and hange being in college together and just being a cutesy couple <33 (i think..) if im wrong then this is embarrassing but please do write what makes you comfy! i’ll love it either way 🫶🏼🫶🏼
hange meeting their lover at college hcs
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okay so i feel like she'd be the outgoing nerdy person
hange was REALLY into her studies, she barley went to parties, trips, practically almost didn't have the college experience bes school was more important
she definitely majored something involving technology or science, maybe like computer science, chemistry, physics something that peaks her interests. she had very few friends, associates yeah a lot, but she wasn't like super popular and stuff. either way she's very sociable and friendly which is very good, very nice. moblit, erwin and levi would probably be her only friends and like tbh it looked odd to others. (there were definitely some rumors at once 🫣)
anyways one day she met you through a friend that you both knew. you went up to her bcs you just saw her doing her work at a table in the cafe on campus, you initiated the convo by asking where she came from, her major so on and so forth. lowkey you were slick with it too, bcs deep down you desired to know more about this mysterious hange, it was planned from the start, you even asked your friends for advice.
anyways she talked with you and ended up spiraling about endless nerdy stuff and you just admired her while she talked about it. you were lowkey intrigued. she eventually apologized, then you found the right way to get her number.
"we can continue this convo another time, here's my number" you smiled she was vv happy about it because she finally had another friend! no more of the same 3 men everyday! yay!
this was the start of something wonderful, quickly you became her best friend (sorry moblit :(. ) you guys did everything together, you visited her at her job as a lab assistant and she’d visit you at your job as a cashier at a department store. you two would go hang out at the arcade, local restaurants. she'd take you out to the beach, you'd help her study, you guys would play videos games together. literally everything, you guys were the best of friends.
everyone was literally so surprised when they saw she had another friend that she was oh so close to. they were happy for you guys though!
one day you came to terms that maybe you liked your bestfriend in more than a friendly way. and it ATE YOU UP. you didn't know if they felt the same way, you didn't know if it would screw things up. you were so scared to even look at hange :(
she noticed and got worried one day and asked you if you were alright and if you wanted to stay at her apartment and study. you obliged obvi but was still shaking in your boots. you complimented her over and over and she kept saying "aww thank you, i love you so much too” and it finally became your last straw and you told her how you felt. how you actually felt. she got really flushed and explained how she felt the same way but just didn't know how to tell u. it ended with you guys sharing a sweet somber kiss and making your relationship official! you also stayed over her apartment ;)
you guys told everyone about it, your friend groups basically combined lowkey. you guys still studied together. hange would always surprise you with dinner after a long day of classes and you guys would head straight back to her apartment to chill.
she'd take you out on sweet dates, she even goes to parties now just for you.
she literally loves u so much and wouldn’t change what college she goes to for the world.
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a/n! sorry this wasn’t really in hc format or wtv, also it’s all good anon! i liked writing this one, and you guys can request as much as you guys want. i LOVE writing, im not in a creative writing class for naught ><
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also to add on to your "destiny dying long live destiny"
its the Monday after a holiday weekend for the states. people are exhausted and probably going back to work or trying to down tune
also also its the holiday week where a new mainline Pokemon game just released. regardless of your opinions/the quality of it its still a brand new Pokemon game. thats gonna pull ppl from anywhere.
Yep! It's really interesting how November without an expansion in Destiny has been low two years in a row. And incidentally, both Novembers, there's been a Pokemon and Call of Duty release (on top of other major releases).
I know Aztecross said "don't tell me it's because it's Monday, it's Monday for other games too and there's 34 games above Destiny by player count." But it does matter. Those other games also probably have fewer players than they do when it's not post-holiday Monday.
And ofc, not all games are tied to seasonal cycles. People know there's nothing left to wrap up in Destiny so they moved to other games that they may have been neglecting during the Destiny pinnacle grind. I've neglected other games for Destiny this season and I've been catching up with them now that Destiny's season is ending and I have nothing left to do. If I have to choose what to play on a Monday before the new season, it won't be Destiny. Cringefail confession, but I spent this Monday catching up with levelling my battlepass in Overwatch. Yeah it's Monday, but I have things left to do in Overwatch and none in Destiny.
If Destiny is someone's primary game, they'll prioritise it in the first two months because of the pinnacle grind. I have to get my power level up so I can do GMs. I always prioritise Destiny first. So when I'm done, last month of the season, I play less because I have to go back and do stuff I neglected in other games. It's really simple. The fact that it's the final week of the season is crucial context.
And it's really hypocritical of these content creators to do this after they spent months farming negative attention and bad press for the game. Maybe fewer people are playing because you convinced them that the game is shit? They never seem to like taking credit for the negative, just the positive. You influence people's opinions! When you post the newest god tier build, everyone and their grandma copies it. When you shittalk the game for months, your fans listen to you. I don't know why that's difficult to understand.
There's obviously legitimate reasons for everyone to personally dislike the game! I have my gripes too, everyone does. I think we could have really important convos and feedback with Bungie about the issues we have. But this specific way of doing it? Constructing outrage by using "numbers" stripped of all context to "prove" that the game is objectively bad? It's sleazy. And it helps no one. Worst of all, it results in really awful online behaviour under the guise of anonymity and perceived justification: "bad devs ruin the game, we have the right to complain!"
Bungie knows the numbers better than any of us. If they're concerned, they will deal with it. And ofc, we'll see the numbers skyrocket in December. And then drop in January. And then skyrocket in February. And so on.
#destiny 2#bungie#community#ask#its so easy to just see a bad number and call it a day#it took me two days to make edits for that chart#its a lot of work to consider five different outside sources and connect it by month across 3 years#its so much easier to say 'pvp is bad now to me and clearly im the center of the universe and i have proof im objective'#also please. even people who are just into the lore have issues with this season#I've had extensive discussions about how disjointed and cramped this season felt#people tuned out and are waiting for greener pastures#this idea that every season has to beat the previous record is some capitalist bullshit mindset#some seasons will be less interesting. it is what it is. we've all been there#thinking that each season will beat the last is an easy step towards crunch#im personally okay if some seasons are 'mid' to use twitter lingo#im okay with reused assets. im okay if devs take shortcuts sometimes#im okay with less engaging periods. its fine. i still have criticisms but ultimately its fine#all media is like this. i feel like people playing are literal babies sometimes#they never seen a mediocre season of a tv show? or a mediocre movie sequel? bro#give your feedback and move on. no need to create an entire personality out of it
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alright im half way thru and here are my thoughts so far:
1. I truthfully don’t know any of the controversy around joe rogan, i just know he’s hella popular for being controversial and he’s someone i’d be on edge to have a convo with bc what i have seen is he questions everything and he isn’t afraid to let you know he doesn’t agree. but snc seem to really like him and vibe with him and it does seem super out of the blue for joe to want ghost hunters to come investigate his place (I hope this isnt a set up). either way, sounds interesting.
2. that contract from o-park mall is challenge worthy. they spelt colbys name entirely wrong (misspelt his last name and used his nickname and not his legal name) making it null and void from my understanding. i would also say the same abt sam as they used a nickname not a legal name. A good lawyer could wiggle them out of that if they cared.
3. loved hearing colbys take on religion. im the same, i’m not so much religious as i have a relationship with God. i think thats way more important than being in a religious community. and i also feel the same way about just knowing there’s something else out there. also interesting he was the only one on the table who doesn’t have dreams of dying. chop that up to trusting in God and not being afraid bc he knows God has the perfect plan and everything is in control, or just generally not afraid to die for other reasons, who knows. definitely fascinating, either way.
alright i’ll be back in 1.5hr hours with part 2 comments. I probably missed a bunch of stuff i could’ve commented on but these are my standout comments.
- aussie anon
I finished the podcast late last night and then immediately went to bed without really doing a deep dive into my thoughts on the whole thing (aside from a few choice areas that stuck in my brain and had to be discussed in dm's last night lol), so I'm going to use your reviews to sort of start my own review, and then will probably finish up with an additional post later on side thoughts - cause I have a lot lol.
1, The thing with Joe Rogan is that he kind of plays both sides of the fence, in terms of not just politics, but pretty much anything going on (he will have on conservatives and liberals, will have on atheists and people like snc, will have on scientists and then people who believe in UFOs, etc) and so he tends to be very controversial because of that. I don't listen to him, his viewpoints on certain things aren't really my cup of tea and he has in the past said some stuff in his pursuit of riding the fence that was not good and gross and everything, so this is not me defending him or whatever - but at the end of the day, he has the most listened to podcast on earth and love him or hate him, is a household name. Them being invited on his podcast, being treated very well by him, and then him keeping in touch with them and inviting them out to his comedy club is objectively a big deal for them and their visibility and they aren't going to turn that down because twitter - who has pretty much made it clear they lowkey hate snc anyway lol - have an issue with the collab.
I actually found that part of the conversation interesting, because the whole thing came about because his daughter was a fan of theirs, which I just find kind of hilarious and random. Imagine how many people of notoriety and fame they meet or could potentially meet because those peoples' teenage children are fans.
2, I don't think they would actually get arrested for showing up at that mall at this point in their careers, anyway - most malls do not have the uumph to take shit like that truly seriously, and both S & C have made it public that they've been back in there since (one time right after the release of their book, Colby went into their Barnes and Noble with his mom and illegally signed a few of the books on the shelf and posted about it all over his instagram lol). But it is objectively kind of hilarious that they are "banned" from entering the mall and yet they've had consumer products in three of their stores (B&N, Hot Topic and Zumiez), and have had their faces on the store fronts of two of those three.
3, I strangely found that interesting as well, and I normally tend to zone right the fuck out when people talk religion (sorry, all). I was raised Catholic but am not religious these days in my own life, although I certainly do believe that something else has to be going on, hence all the ghosts and stuff. But for whatever reason, hearing others talk about religion always makes me feel wildly uncomfortable - I think it's just feeling like that's something personal and so different from person to person and I just don't like feeling like I'm intruding on their privacy by hearing it (even if they are offering it up freely), if that makes sense? I don't know, I'm just weird about those conversations in general.
But I find it interesting when these two talk religion, firstly because of the content they make and how it would tie back into their own personal belief system, but also just how interesting it is that this is one of those areas where they kind of balance each other on opposite sides of the scale, and yet somehow come together perfectly at the end. It's an interesting phenomenon with them.
Also, all of them talking about dying in their dreams and Colby just piping in with "I've never died in my dreams 😃" like go off, you sweet little just happy to be there king.
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In regards to that convo with that lady about aborting male sons >>>
I think when it comes to sons, If you want to have a daughter, your son is a risk to her safety. Most sexual misconduct with children comes from inside the house. The way i see it: in order to protect the daughters I hope to have, the most effective step is to minimize their private interactions with males as much as possible. So having sons throws That right out the window. Also if My hypothetical son was a misogynist, i wouldnt love him right. I wouldnt be able to take care of him like a child (of any age) needs to be taken care of by their parent, and thats a reality i would like to skip altogether.
When it comes to male partners, its take it or leave it for me. Getting knocked up by a man is free compared to buying sperm, and there's millions of men happy to knock a woman up and then never be involved in that child's life. So that's one option I'm willing to take in the event that I don't meet any man or woman who wants to coparent with me the way i want to do it. Personally, having daughters is more important on my bucket list than having a life partner, so any man or woman is take it or leave it imo. I am not really worried that a woman will trick me into a long term relationship to gain access to and abuse my child, so my main concern regarding lady lovers is whether or not she Wants to have kids at all (most women my age don't want motherhood for their future so that narrows my dating pool a bit). As far as men go, I suspect that there are some men out there, somewhere (probably?), who have no interest in abusing children or myself. So if a miracle happened and I met a man who made me feel safe enough And who was okay with me aborting male fetuses, I might take that risk and let him into my daughters home. So that's my reasoning for why I would decline to have any sons. Don't know if everybody sees it that way, but the safety of my daughters is the bottom line for me.
i agree w u with regards to male children, i don’t want to give birth to begin with but i cant in good conscience bring a male child into the world knowing there’s a good chance he’ll turn into a misogynist due to how misogynistic society is Or he might turn into a rapist or sth else which i honestly don’t know how i’d react to. i would hate to be one of those mothers with a rapist son who then like justifies him or believes him over the raped girl, i dont Think i’d be like that but as his child i’d still feel awful either way that i brought someone into the world who ended up doing that. not to say there’s no chance of a daughter being the same, but at least there’s a lower chance of that and society isn’t teaching her she’s entitled to other women and it’s women’s fault if they get hurt by her or sth.
when it comes to just having sex w a guy to get pregnant bc it’s cheaper than using sperm donors, idk much about this stuff but i do worry the former could have potential risks for u that would not exist if u get a sperm donor. idk if for example the bio father would have legal right to a relationship with the child, for example. or the risk of STDs. i’m sure there’s stuff that im not bringing up here too but that does sound like it comes with some risks so if u do end up doing that, be very careful and make sure ur aware of what the worst case scenarios are in such a situation.
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Chapter 4
no picture this time bc i dont feel like it deal with it!!!
- WHAT ARE ATERMIS AND PERSEPHONE TALKIGN ABOUT??? i wish we could actually see their convo bc we barely see them interacting. i dont rlly like Artemis tho so i dont care that much
-why does Artemis hate hades? my optimistic side thinks "oh hades has a bad reputation because ruler of dead blah blah blah" but like... everyone hates him?? tbh at this point it just feelings like a hades thing.
-also that kinda makes me think of the Olympus relationship with UW, like are gods scared of UW and look down because they dont know death and death is scary?? and wow im really making up meta for LO, bc ik she didnt think of any of this while constructing the story but whatevss
-Poseidon actually seems a lot less silly?? in the earlier chapters, hes a darker shade and in the later chapters his scar just disappears.. i always how greek myth retellings ignore Poseidon its so annoying
-their plan is actually sooo well i have thoughts
-on 1 side they seem like evil, liek these creepy ass 2000 yr old man is distracting this girls friend so he could talk to her alone
-but also tbh it seems liek something me and my friends would do
-so tbh its just a matter of perspective but given the situation and hades behavior in general its just yikes dude
-OMG I WAS JUST PRAISING YOU FOR MAKIGN POSEDION SERIOUS!!! AND NOW HES COMIC RELIEF SCREW YOU!!!
-what story is Artemis telling? she just punched him??? more Artemis being a cool glamourous girl
-ZEUS COMPLEIMENTING ATERMIS FEELS SO WEIRD KNOWING HES HER DAD
-bro nothings happened at this party its so shit -why is Persephone having that weird side eye?? is she annoyed at zeus for interrupting their convo? hmm
-EROS IS SUCH A CREEP THIS IS SUCH A WEIRD PLANN
-"hey kiddo" OMG UGHH SHES SO YOUNG PLZZ PROTECT HER -whys he so mad about not being able to find her? what would he even do if he found her? just hook up or sm? hes so pissed off, its kinda insta lovey but thats literally all my fav romances so i can excuse it lol
-I FEEL SO BAD FOR THIS GIRL SHE JUST GOT ROOFIED SEN HER BACK TO HER MAMA
-looking at Persephones thoughts it just seems a lot more complex?? like she has clear desires
-she doesnt want to be seen as clingy, shes the new girl, "I thought meeting all these new people would make me happy" omg I never bought into p being a cinnamon roll but geeez ;-; -and ik this is supposed to be parelled with hades making her happy but i just want to scoop up early Persephone and protect her
- WHY ARE THEY MAKIGN EROS SYMAPTHETIC?? HE ROOFIED HER!! SHUT UP
-tbh i wish Aphrodite was a lot bigger of a rival/villain and had more of an important role
-something i find interesting is how Persephone constantly talks to herself and its something that makes her different from minthe and hades where Persephone talks to herself because she's always HAD companionship, and shes used to sharing everything with everyone and now it just shows how alone she is -and it also parallels her to minthe and minthes bf
#anti lore olympus#lore olympus#lore olympus critial#lore olympus criticism#lore olympus critical#antiloreolympus#lore olympus analysis#lo reread#no screenshots srry#and im going to keep using the lo tag because its not#full critical#unless sm complains
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once again an episode that made me absolutely lose my mind!!! kp are so in love and they finally said it!! although, i would have liked it better if they said it to each other in private first but oh well can't have everything. and porsche is officially a stay at home wife i love that for him. the scene when p was drying kinn’s hair though, it was the softest shit i have ever seen in my life <3 i also loved the scenes with taytime they are always so good i wish they had more screen time. 1/4
and we got the kimchay breakup :/ i was expecting it but it still hurt. I still have hope that they will end up together. however, the most important part of this episode (for me) was vegaspete!!! god these two make me go insane. the way we went from sadistic torture to that convo at the end. bible and build's chemistry is actually unbelievable i can't get enough of these sick motherfuckers. and don't even get me started on the cinematography like the lights and the shots and just the whole atmosphere it was so good and so sexy and I’m gonna need 3-5 business days to recover. that preview was the final nail in my coffin i don't think i can wait a whole week for more. I’ve read some metas about them but honestly I don’t even care if vegas changes for pete or not. their relationship is so fucked up on so many levels that I don’t think it can really be redeemed. certainly not in 3 episodes. and honestly does he need to be? can’t he just stay the fucked up villain that he is? I wouldn’t mind. I’m just here to enjoy some toxic fictional men be sexy and gay and so far they did just that so I’m satisfied. I can’t believe we only have 3 episodes left T_T I don’t know what I will do when this show ends. (I hope you’re doing well )
omg my kp anon i've missed u so much!!!!
for me i'd always had a hc that kinn had a hard time saying ily to anybody bcs he'd been burned by love in the past so he hated saying it but this show roundhouse kicked that in the face and left me obliterated at the scene this mf is out here shouting it from rooftops to anybody who'll listen good for him
god you know what sends me absolutely feral? kinn casually mentioning his mother to porsche. her death must still be a sore subject for him, nobody talks about it we've hardly had any mention of her and for him to just be like "my mother used to do this for me" god how long has it been since someone's taken care of him like that? and now here's porsche the biggest caretaker in the world just so ready and willing to do everything he can to take care of kinn bcs thats his love language and he loves him sm i just y'all mind if i break the fuck down real fast
pls the kimchay break up!!!! like kimothy i get why you did what you did but that doesn't mean me and tankhun won't beat your ass for it bestie 😔😔 you made the baby cry. like he's literally alread living at the estate, he can't get anymore involved with the mafia, but i guess kim was literally just faced with the reality of porchay being kidnapped because of his ties to the mafia through his brother, and he's probably thinking about how much worse it'll be if he's tied to the mafia through HIM, he's probably thinking about all their enemies and how much of a target it'd make him so he's being a self-sacrificing little shit about it god tankhun needs to hit him with a tray and knock some sense into him
i haven't been that eager about the vp arc yet, im betting that'll probably change in today's ep and next weeks ep 👀 just wanna see pete humble that man so bad, and i dont want vegas to stop being a bad person just bcs he gets with pete ykwim? he's interesting because he's a villain lets keep it that way besties. i do bet he'll get a redemption arc, i've mentioned this to a few people i talk to but with the way things are going it made me wonder if the big shootout at the major family house in the promo where vegas is framed as a big bad is actually misleading and vegas'll be there to help kinn and the major family and maybe put a bullet in his dad's head i just wish him a very big die even if i will miss the dilf 😔
pls dont mention that we only have 3 episodes left pls dont mention that theres only 2 more weeks of kinnporsche or i'll start to eat glass
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heres my personal question/reflection. growing up post 9/11 i rmr a lot (& i mean A LOT) of sentiment surrounding the concept of assimilating to the west, being the "good immigrant" and still being fucked by institutions. in line w that was a lot of feeling on how tiring that felt, how exhausting, n like, would we ever be accepted? this isnt an accurate timeline but i would say say this shit peaked in mainstream culture w yt ppl in 2016 (hamilton i think is acc a really great pinpoint of this) and then this energy i would say imo kinda died down throughout trumps presidency (which i personally think has to do w the fact that sm yt liberals were firing up for poc so arguably this was the time institutions were pretending to make "amends". actually. liberals & instutions were maybe trying to make 'ammends' a bit before 2016. maybe since 2014? timeline is rough on this but for sure they were Very Sorry during trump...)
anyway. 2024. in the imperial core of america alone i would say theres *at least* 4 genocides happening (& thats prob me undercounting !) simultaneously. there is currently a very overt livestreamed genocide of palestinians. it is VERY much impacting ppl in the imperial core in the sense that the facade of liberalism is so plainly falling away, institutions are very explicitly engaging in islamaphobia, antiblackness, n anti-palestinian sentiment, etc. and like i obviously think its important to document bc every form of fascism is important to note but i also feel like we're kinda back to convos we've had before of 'omg been SUCH good immigrants n *this* is how they treat us??? oh my!' n like i understand the feeling of betrayal but i wonder how much interrogating is going on beyond the betryal. to sum degree it feels like the way ppl engage w covid in the sense of...im wondering how much of what ur experiencing is actually radicalizing u that america even in its most liberal form should not exist - exactly like israel - n how much of what ur experiencing is like...shock that it could happen to u & the ppl u care ab (vs the....'unimportant/undesirable ppl). like yes its awful campuses are so blatantly engaging in islamohobia. but shouldnt we be reconciling more, as a community that we need to create a world w.o colleges n shifting the importance *away* from unis (esp in a time of shitty economy?) rather than reconciling w like...the betrayal of a institution preserving imperial interests? like how many times are we going to keep learning this? what are we benefiting from having this same shock over n over again? who is it serving to keep experiencing this? feeling similar to this campaign of voting 'uncommited' like who does this serve? dems dont acc care if they have office or not and theyre very clearly ok w losing. they dont need the presidency fr - if anything hey want to lose so they can punish ppl more for not shutting up. so like when we extend energy on the uncommited campaign, who is it serving? what purpose is it filling (& i do believe it is filling a purpose for some ppl. i think for lots of ppl it fulfils the very real emotional need to do *SOMETHING*, to move, to exert the tension n energy we're feeling n thats a correct emotional response! but how u spend ur energy DOES matter bc part of fascism is to literally divert energy so u DONT take up arms. like imo america is not at a place culturally for any sort of violent revolutionary resistance (organized or not) ! like we're just not! but the most explicit nonviolent form of resistance is not being uncommited to voting for a party that is relying on not having electoral offices but rather an actual coordinated strike. THAT has purpose no?)
#idk id k idk. im not trying to demonize any organizers or activists or anything#but really sitting w the concept of defanged movements that still are trying to pserserve liberal fascism#the thing ab liberal america n perserving it is the same as perserving liberal israel n its easy to criticise israel esp now bc theyre youn#but the parallels are there w america so explicit. if we cannot stand w something w isarel u fundementally cannot stand for it here in usa#ither#but i feel like so much defanging has happened to movements that the ppl left to pick ip the torch rn are like...younger inexperienced#activists who have a lot of aderanaline n little political radicalized compass n experience#n its like...showing#also i cannot stress enough how cruel it is to have taken away so many black organizers#to sum degree i also wonder n think ab nonblack cowardice n how its showing up here. like. almost waiting for black ppl to take the burden#of escalation so if it succeeds yay we as nonblack poc take credit n erase but if it fails they get blamed#idk idk i just think antiblackness is really so pervasive - obvi everywhere but i can only talk ab it here in the imperial core#idk. i just feel...idk. movements are defanged n i think the way its going to be inevitably escalated#is going to like...throw a lot of 'organizers/activists' off unfortunately
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I don't know every now and again I just get in the mood to put my thoughts down big or small topics and this is one of them lol. I really wanna get shit down and off my chest, reflect on it then move on from it depending on whatever it is.
Earlier this week I was just so taken by such great news in my group and that one of my boys and first of the group is engaged! I was getting home from work & checking my IG..
[quick aside] I redownloaded the app just because out of nowhere and the grace of God that my computer finally let me back my phone up!? So, I got hella space back (finally!) and so I got tired of responding to messages or opening links to it via. safari or whatever and I like what I get from my reels as far as interests and whatnot so thats why I'm back on fr. I'm gonna try to post more fr.. lol not completely sure but we'll see.
Anyways, I so outta my mind to see that Femi had proposed! I don't know it was just one of those things and moments that filled my heart with so much pride and joy as if I was lol. I stopped everything and sent congratulatory messages & voice notes and it was a really wholesome and amazing moment to share with him then the convo in the group. I remember when he moved into the neighborhood, each of us grow up, go our own ways but staying in touch.. I'm just so proud of him & his future wife! Thinking about it gets me hype all over again and its nothing but love for my boy!
Solar Eclipse Day, about that... boy did that shit miss me lmaoo! Like absolutely no like thoughts. It was like another day because I didn't not care but I'd heard about it, but I had more important things I had that day. So when I got to work I was SUPER confused why it felt like I was looking at a filter then my sister reminded me that it was the Solar Eclipse doing its thing and I was happy for people who enjoyed it and took really pictures/videos of it all.. I appreciate y'all for that.
That day was also one of those days I think about in my maturation process (that remains constant). It was one of those back to the wall/do or die moments where if I don't say anything then it becomes an internal question of "am I who I act or say I am?" and in those moments throughout my life is where I find the most comfort. I'm nervous, afraid and don't wanna do it, but if I am who I say I am and want to be where I see myself then that moment right there is the moment to do it because there won't be a second chance to do it. So I did what I always do and meet people where they are, and going in.. I knew I wasn't going to change their mind but I needed them to understand why I stood opposite of them.
I'm alot of things to alot of people and I can't ever let them down by not trying or speaking on their behalf and so I went in.. shaky at first (just the nerves & resetting because what I was going to say was brought up and don't wanna repeat that message) and in these moments I have to get to my second wind... quickly to feel comfortable but it wasn't coming and I thought I was done then !boom! it was on. It was longer than I wanted because it wasn't some town hall where everyone speaks lol (just me & them) this was me getting my shit off and moving on and the moment I relented and allowed it... I was justified in my points. I challenged their personhood because my pov was to protect just that but if you won't accept that best believe you won't be becoming to me all sad and whatnot. Because I understand why they want to do that but for their own dignity and self respect they shouldn't but we'll see. At the end of it all I can hold my head up high because I was defending those who didn't have the same voice I do and they can continue to trust that I'll always do right by them no matter what and to me thats what is most important to me. I put my body on the line and sacrifice so that they can come to me and know that someone cares and willing to do whatever it takes for them to be free.
I knew what I wanted to say it but it was rough early with my notebook with points I wanted to hit with a text of notes to ref if I needed lmaoo
A day after I'm asking myself if what I do and is doing the right thing even worth it (no relation to eclipse day but overall)... because there are ways to do things and for a person to let their ego dominate them like that it makes me question who they are.. no matter how close you are to me.
This is my final point I think and its a very important thing I wanna say but careful in how I word it because its one of my biggest irks at the moment. I always try my best to understand people and in moments meet them where they are because that's how you reach people and get to the bottom of things no matter the situation. People kekeke and think I'm playing but I'm elite at that and I know who is and who isn't good at it. So when there's something wrong with me I know that I like to just do a personal reassessment like nothing big but I replay the situation or the day and ask myself questions for and against myself. So when it comes up its not a shock to my system, but when you tell me that you one of them ones and the moment presents itself and you have no clue then what does that tell me? And so with that I think its time for me to sort of move on from that issue with the understanding that it won't come up how I thought it would. Not that theres a specific way to do it but that it'd be brought up in a serious manner (at any point) but it hasn't and that sucks but what can I do? beg lmao. So its not some type of tantrum its just disappointment because I move on quickly but and makes me reset and recalibrate how I am when it comes my feelings and what people I expect what from.
All in all I think this was a productive week and after I turn somethings in then hopefully get some even greater news. That lets me be more social with my boys, more dates and all that. This week we won some and lost some, finished and started some books, watched some movies and ate some good food with good music playing. Gonna have a great Friday and let the cards fall where they may. At least I'm here to tell that tale and so we move.✌🏾.
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In what world was Ali’s episode lacking depth???? Football is more than just shop talk, of course tactical conversations with Jill and Laura were super super interesting but the human element that Ali brought and the struggles that female footballers face are just as important to address? Weirdest take ive seen so far
i agree and i also think those authentic conversations are something that tc also want to showcase the tactical convos are great but its not like tc and haven't been having those thats really want the daily discussion has been so i really dont get all this criticism the eps are getting but it it what it is everyone's a critic and you cant please everyone
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episode 1, part 5
the hidden family treasure isnt real, it cant hurt you
thats one hell of a bombshell to just drop and then leave the room without any elaboration. but i had been expecting the "six" mentioned to die in the riddle to be the older siblings and their partners. minus rosa maybe. idk. she seemed in a special position both because she is not as shrewed as her other siblings and because i expect the maria population to be affected by her death.
and i fully expect maria to be important later on due to her unique relationship with beatrice.
but well. thats not what happened later on.
anyway. rudolf, this isnt about you, first we need to look at my favourite wet dog of a woman, natsuhi.
damn girl. i promise youre not just a childbearing multifunctional screwdriver.
and of course not only does that mean her husbands status as the future family head is endangered, and her late childbirth "caused" that, he also didnt deem it necessary to mention the gold actually exists to her. she spirals so beautifully and painfully. all she ever wanted was to be useful and be a support tool and to make "her" family prosper. the family she left another one behind for. damn girl thats a sad unhappy marriage you got there. is the golden cage comfortable enough to endure it? are they feeding you good food through the bars? are they dusting you off on that high trophy shelf of yours? she has been made to understand that she has no worth on her own and she will Never be a real part of the ushiromiya family. later on we see her sad little room with her sad one person bed. its dire.
natsuhi would be a different person, had she been born in a position with more power. as a man. as an ushiromiya.
and he really just said "no you cant lol"
while krauss fails to comfort her and is, frankly, just kind of a prick, its understandable he doesnt want to involve her, i guess.
its very interesting that this seems to be a cycle too, she is trying to secure a good marriage for her daughter as well, who she believes has no value of her own (bad grades, rowdy character.... undesirable leader and wife material), much like how she had to marry into this family too.
damn, so same as rosa perpetuating the physical violence.
its very touching to see natsuhi and jessica try and be nice and understanding to each other for Once. they really have to force themselves. its a lot of emotional labour that goes into it and its not perfect but there is value in it. even if ultimately i think it just brings up and enforces how big the chasm between them is. even though they are both in a similar position, strained and controlled by expectations around them, they cannot muster up the strength (and agency) to help each other and find happiness. sad!!!
its the undiagnosed narcolepsy.
and just like natsuhi, rosa has a short moment where she gets to express her apologies about pushing her trauma on her daughter. and much like natsuhi too, the message cannot reach its destination, no matter how good the intentions were.
speaking of fantastic healthy enviroments
even so, the evening goes well for shannon, i would say. in fact well enough to be a flag. the furniture plot thickens and, if she can survive the death flag that was just placed on her for longer, shannon might be graced with the chance to join the ranks of People. even if that does not necessarily equal being a Better People (=ushiromiya family member, as discussed above)
and yup. sure enough. shes nowhere to be found. instead natsuhi remains, protected by the charm perhaps. (this is my beatrice respects marias ambition to become a witch theory. dont interfere)
its unfortunate.
the funniest possible way to lead the convo about how you appreciate your daughter in law
i really hope kinzo saying this to natsuhi made her feel somewhat appreciated bc god knows she needs it. where did that come from though. will he need a favour of her later? does he wish for her to succeed as an heir? since his children all only seem to wish for financial gain... while natsuhi cares about name and outward appearances. there is absolutely manipulation involved, even if it makes natsuhi feel good. and now she is powerful. at least for a while. and she shall be mean and evil towards others again. yay!
maybe im too obsessed with the gender politics of it all but it feels so significant that this was how kinzo decided to initially phrase it. he too sees that natsuhi would be a different person, had she been born in a position with more power.
well, its the morning of october the 5th. where is the dangan ronpa crime scene i had been expecting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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