I can't fucking do this anymore.

Ellie taking care of lidl’ ol’ feverish Joel in the abandoned house

if they remade breaking bad in 2023, there would be a plot point where jesse used fake instacart accounts to buy the good Sudafed and bypass the maximums law

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had a little moment of (BAD) introspection while I was at the bus on my way to work early morning and had to spend the whole day doing the face (:]) otherwhise Id cry and then omw back home I lost my keys and then I did the maths and realized how much debt I owe and then I checked what my current weight is and then I had an energy drink and then I started catching up on 11 days worth of late work and nOW I HAVE A HEADACHE and the coffee we have tastes like cardboard and Im not thinking of [redacted] I promise but like. yk? :]

Nothing more than I want other than to go home, shower, and be in my bed and read my book.

Nothing encapsulates my changed reality more than the suggested tags that pop up when I reblog or make a post these days.

'Bridgerton' now has 'breastmilk' attached to it like a humorous side-car and I had to have a giggle about it internally because I had a baby sleeping on me at the time.

SPREADSHEET OF PALESTINIAN ESCAPE FUNDS‼️TIME SENSITIVE

Operation Olive Branch is a continuously updating spreadsheet of Palestinian escape funds where progress towards their goals is being tracked. As of right now, there are over 100 funds listed there.

Any amount of money can make a difference. With their recent decision to bomb Rafah, the only remaining “safe” territory in Gaza, Israel has forced Palestinians into a corner by giving them nowhere else to go. The international community has given Israel the ability to act with impunity - it is long past the point in time to rely on those in power to hold Israel to any standard of compassion.

Today, I want you to look at this document, choose a fund, contribute to it, and share it. The people in Rafah are living on borrowed time. Free Palestine.

USO DAA!!!!!

Having a cat in winter time is very very dangerous they don’t warn you.

“It’s cold.” I knew that part. I’ve been through 27 “it’s cold”s in my life. “It’s cold AND there’s a soft little cat asleep on my bed with me”? Dangerous. Absolutely dangerous. You will never ever get up again.

getting older can be so amazing? you get more familiar with yourself. learn tips & tricks for troubleshooting your own brain. trial & error helps you build routines that minimize discomfort, maximize reward. your preferences/interests don't get set in stone, but you do find out which ones are going to stay with you in the long-term, and which ones are fun but transient joys to appreciate in the moment.

you learn that the world is so much more complex than you were taught, and that that's okay, and that there's an endless supply of things you can learn or watch or experience or think about if you want to. if you're lucky, you loosen up, stop putting so much pressure on yourself. if you're lucky, you learn to recognize that negative inner voice, and whack it with a baseball bat until it hushes up. if you're lucky, you learn to treat yourself gently, not because you are fragile but because you are worthy of gentleness. (i hope you are lucky.)

and some things will change. some things will get better. some things will get good. and maybe you start to recover from the dehumanizing stress of childhood/education. maybe you learn the power of your own autonomy. maybe you learn how to walk away from bad situations (which is a superpower even if you don't realize it yet). and you get to choose your own clothes. and your own food. and which relationships to pursue! and what you do with your free time. and with your life (but don't worry you get to choose that gradually). and that's crazy! and sometimes scary. and extraordinarily, indescribably precious.

i wish i could look at this… and feel Normal™️

I FINISHED MY ASSIGNMENT!!!!!!

Now time to go get a wonderful restful 4 hours sleep and get up at 5 am to work on group work that I haven’t even started yet… kill me lmao

Clingy