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teyvat-imagines · 3 years

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Hihii just recently found your blog and I love your writing!

May I request Kaeya x female! S/o that self harms? Or something along the lines of her trying to overdose?

If you are uncomfortable with such themes just ignore this ask!

Hiya! Welcome to the blog! :D Thank you so much for the request!!

I'll be touching on some dark topics that can be pretty triggering for people, so this one's going to be tucked away under a readmore!

For anyone who sees this (both my followers and those in the genshin x reader tags) please please bear the warnings in mind and don't read this one if you think it could trigger you, okay?

TW: Self-Harm, Suicide

Kaeya With an S/O Who Self-Harms - Fem!Reader

Honestly, it was days like today that being an honorary knight had it's advantages. After all, fighting monsters day in day out, it gave you an excuse whenever a civilian spotted the old scars and fresh cuts that littered your arms. A curious child staring at you wide eyed with concern, an older couple fussing over you and your injuries, the other knights, it didn't matter who it was. The lies came to you so easily, just as they always had.

"A hillichurl got too close."

"Oh, some treasure hoarders caught me off guard!"

"Ah, well, the old ruins can be dangerous."

It's all too easy to brush everything off with a well-practiced smile and excuse. And it was enough to get people to stop asking. The concern would soon turn to relief, jokes that you should be more careful and hearty laughter. All the while you knew the real reason for your marred skin. For the bandages you wore.

You couldn't bring yourself to talk to anyone about it. It would just burden the others... And really, who would you even talk to anyway? Jean? No, she was far too overworked. She didn't need to waste the little time she had on you. Lisa? No. The two of you didn't really talk all that often, and while you were sure she was nice enough, why should she have to deal with your problems? Amber? Oh Archons no. The girl was too sweet, too hopeful. You couldn't ruin that for her.

"Hey, what's got you so deep in thought princess~?" You jump, an almost guilty look on your face as you realise Kaeya's come to see you. He's looking at you with open curiosity, and you force a smile to your face again.

"Nothing much, I'm just a little tired is all." You make a show of yawning softly to add to your lie. You can tell he doesn't quite believe you, but he nods slowly anyway, moving to wrap his arms around you and pull you close.

"Mm, as long as you're okay love." He's smiling at you and you can hear the hint of concern in his voice. It's enough to make your stomach churn in disgust. Kaeya was so good to you. Too good for you. He was handsome, strong, smart. He was incredible. And you were... Well, you were you. Pathetic, worthless, damaged goods. You were just holding him back, weren't you...? He didn't need someone as weak as you in his life... Yet he wouldn't just leave you. For some unknown reason, he stayed with you... You knew you were holding him back and you knew he was too nice to let you go. You were so selfish.

"Kaeya, I've gotta do something real quick." You moved your hands to his shoulders, wincing a little at the pressure on the cuts on your wrists. "It might take me some time, so no need to wait up okay?" You smile again. Humourless and empty, a well-practised mask. You can see the confusion in his eye and you move away before you can chicken out. "I love you." You say with a wave before running off.

He watches you go silently. A horrible nagging feeling in the back of his mind that something wasn't right. That you may not be coming back. That he was going to lose someone else he held dear.

"Sorry love, but I'm not letting go that easy."

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You had to get away from him. If you'd stayed in his arms for any longer, you would have chickened out. But you were alone now. Locked away in your room. Blood stained the sheets on your bed, your arms felt heavy and sticky and wet and you knew you had to act quickly. Letting your dagger drop to the floor, you moved on shaky legs to the bedside cabinet. Albedo had gifted you with a potion of his own design to assist with pain. He had gifted some to each of the knights and even the honorary knight was no exception to that.

"Please keep an eye on the amount you've taken. The side effects of taking too much can be... exceptionally severe."

You remembered his words, clear as day. Honestly, there wasn't a time when you didn't think about them. It was always there, calling out to you in the middle of the night as you tried your best to sleep, tempting you to do it. To give up.

You'd spent so long fighting it... And for what? For a man who deserved so much better than you. A man who could do so much more without you. Your cheeks were wet, and it was only as a strangled sob escaped your lips that you realised you had started crying, hands shaking as you picked up the bottle.

It's all going to be over soon. The pain. The heartache. The suffering. Relief was here and you couldn't be more thankful. The evening air was oddly still for the city of the Anemo Archon, as if Barbatos himself was bidding farewell to you. You brought the bottle to your lips, when you heard the door to your room open, and you whipped around, eyes wide with fear and confusion.

Kaeya stood in your doorway, his shoulders moving with every shaky breath he took. You could see the sweat on his face, and you figured he must have ran all the way here. You wanted to move. To look away from him. Away from the pain and betrayal you could see on his face. You wanted to just swallow down the potion in it's entirety and be done with everything. But he looked so hurt. And it made your heart ache. You loved him so much. You didn't want to hurt him but you wanted the pain to stop too.

Fate made the decision for you. Your body swayed and the grip you had on the bottle loosened, just enough for it to fall and shatter. Your vision was fading, and you realised dimly you must have lost more blood than you thought. Kaeya moved before you could hit the floor, his strong arms enveloping you and cradling your body close to him as he screamed for Jean, for Barbara, anyone who could help patch you up.

You wouldn't get to hear it, as you slipped into a dreamless sleep, but Kaeya screamed until his throat was raw. He held onto you even as others worked to patch up your wounds. And he stayed awake even as you slept, watching over you, determined to see you wake again.

You would wake up, still in his arms. You felt cold, and sore, but alive. You knew you wouldn't be able to hide this from Kaeya anymore, he wouldn't let you. He wasn't angry. He was hurt yes, but most of all, he was willing to listen. To support you.

"I can't begin to understand what had pushed you so far, my princess. I want you to know, I'm here to listen to you. I can't promise to take your pain away, pain that deep does not just disappear because your loved ones say so after all. But my love I am here with you. Every step of the way through your journey I will be here. Holding you even when you're too weak to stand."

Recovery will be a long road. There will be steps forward and steps back. Achievements and relapses. But Kaeya will be true to his word and will catch you when you fall.

#tw // mental health #tw // suicide #tw // self-harm #genshin impact #genshin x reader #genshin impact x reader #genshin impact kaeya #kaeya x reader #kaeya alberich

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cooloddball · 3 years

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Hi! I just recently (re)watched all of the JIB10 panels and there's so much going on there...

What's with Jared making all these sexual jokes about Misha? I know that they tend to be like this, but in previous years it was more them both having their minds in the gutter while this time Jared seems to be the one who goes there. First there's some weird implications during the giant gummy bear question at the end of the Jared+Misha panel (I'm not 100% sure I get what that was about). Right after that there's the mortar thing, "Misha can take a good pounding". And, of course, there's the remark of Misha being the only one who didn't flinch when they were shot at with the water guns during the J2M panel.

Maybe that's just Jared and Misha being Jared and Misha. They are chaos after all ;) But I really enjoy hearing your take on things so here we are.

On a more serious note, what was up with Jensen before his panel with Misha? I couldn't find much on that, especially not in jenmish positive spaces. Someone said that he threw up?

Either way, I thought he did a good job with that panel even though he was visibly tired. (And we got some amazing moments between him and Misha, so there's that.)

Hey Nonnie.

I just watched the panel and it was like watching a commercial break that was kinda funny but not really.

as you said, there were a lot of sexual jokes from JP.

More under the cut. (18+ only)

Mishalecki Panel

The first time it happens when Misha explains that Busty Asians porn magazine has an actual porn magazine so when you open it up you go "ahhhh" and JP asks "is it that fast for you?" implying that Misha comes fast.

Then a fan asks JP how long it would take for him to eat a giant gummy bear. They talk about it some and there's an implication of there being a giant hole in it. JP says that Misha would love that so long as the hole is soft. You can't waste space in a gummy bear? WTF? I don't know what that means tbh. But to me, it sounded like some sort of an anal sex joke?

Then there's the whole if you were a kitchen appliance what would you be and JP says Misha is a mortar because he can take a pounding.

There was also an influence joke at one point. I honestly don't know .what's up with JP and the sex jokes tbh. Maybe it has something to do with Jensen and Misha looking frazzled that day, Jensen didn't even have products in his hair. Misha also changed his shirt somewhere between the Mishalecki panel/the cockles photo ops and the cockles-J2M panel.

Cockles Panel

Jensen also wasn't happy with the way JP kept talking about how people were talking about how he was mounting Misha weeks after. His reaction tells it all. JFC. Help-

And when Misha requests a fan to ask a question so they can move on from that, JP keeps talk about how Misha didn't fight really hard and he says how he told Misha "shut up bitch!" and Misha shakes his head to indicate that JP was lying. Jensen shushes JP and even facepalms himself. He's literally the facepalm emoji.🤦🏼‍♂️ Jensen was really frustrated with him tbh if his reaction was anything to go by.

Misha scratches his ear and looks at Jensen I don't know if they were communicating something or it was just an ear scratch but after that Jensen calmed down.

Jensen was so done with Jp and his jokes after a fan asked what they would write about if they were in charge of everything. Jensen mock imitates him. He was pissed.

When Misha asks Jensen to tell his dream then JP says it's getting romantic. Like it's so weird but it makes Jensen look at Misha and smiles for the first time since JP joined them. Did he know that the implication that Jensen and Misha were a couple irl would make Jensen smile? No, I'm not reaching it literally happened.

He also made fun of Jensen's boner a lot especially when he used the balloon to pop a boner and gave it to Jensen and Jensen said, "y'all are fucked up."

Look at Misha's face here it's literally the cringe face emoji 😬Jesus.

I don't know what was going on on this panel after JP showed up but I'm with Misha when he said "is it possible to time travel to the end of this panel?"

Jensen was so done he literally told JP, "No! We are done after JP tried to make more jokes.

After that, I don't think there are any more sex jokes because I think he could tell Jensen was pissed.

However, it was short-lived because someone sprays Jensen with water and Jensen says "I got wet." The way he says it is so adorable, it's like he was in a daze. Anyway, JP takes it and runs with it.

The way Misha moves to placate Jensen after he's been sprayed with water is adorable because Jensen is laughing I think after that because his body is shaking.

Of course, JP couldn't miss another chanceand he had to make a sexual joke about Misha being bukkake'd (if you don't know what bukkake is please don't google it, it's NSFW) Misha is not happy about that implication because he frowns at first then he manages a somewhat weird smile. Jensen is not amused either. Can we talk about how Jensen looks at Misha here though. Damn son, I now know why they went to the loading bay to take that selfie.

But then Jensen looks away and this time he looks annoyed and sits down. Misha scratches his forehead and looks uncomfortable while JP scoffs. When a fan says Jensen started it (I think the water spraying, I'm not sure when he did that) Jensen asks, "I don't know, did I?" He is not happy.

After that, the panel goes on well but still cringey, I guess. I have more to say about that panel but this is not the place for it. This was about JP's sex jokes.

All in all, to date, it's still cringey to watch jib10 tbh. I can't look most of the time.

I don't know about Jensen puking o anything like that since they didn't mention it in the panel but if anyone knows what happened with him before the panel let me know. I personally have my own theories as to why he was late and why he didn't have any product in his hair but that's a topic for another day. However, I will say it may or may not have something to do with him flirting with Misha about not wearing any pants.

I hope I answered your question and thanks for your sweet words about how you like hearing my take on things.

#asks #anon #jib10 #jib10 mishalecki panel #jib10 cockles panel #shut up jp #jensen was pissed #no one gets to ride misha but jensen #cockles #mishalecki #misha is the mortar because he can take a pounding #that was so cringe to watch #jib10 mini analysis

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wonglix · 4 years

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➺ ᴛʀᴀᴘᴘᴇᴅ ɪɴ ʟᴏᴠᴇ

⤷ y/n x jeno (+ best friend!renjun)

⤷ you and jeno have been endlessly flirting with each other for months now, neither of you taking the next step of officially asking the other out - and it’s driving everyone around you insane. imagine renjun’s frustration when he gets stuck in a broken elevator with you two lovebirds for hours on end.

⤷ fluff

⤷ 2.0k words

⤷ warning: cursing

"y/n, you're here to visit me, your best friend, not that little loverboy of yours," renjun groaned after you asked him if jeno was around somewhere as well. a small chuckle blew past your lips, and you lightly smack renjun's arm, the boy looking at you with an unamused expression. "he's not my lover boy, injun." he looks at you with raised brows, "but you wish he were, and that's the point you thirsty little shit." you gasp, both of you bursting out in laughter. renjun wasn't wrong, quite the opposite actually: it's clear to most people at first glance that you and jeno are very much interested in each other. no one knows why you two don't just finally start dating; the constant shy glances and flirty conversations getting on everyone's nerves.

"are you two ever going to get together or am i damned to listen to your stupid flirting for eternity?" renjun mumbles out between bites of watermelon, the teasing smirk on his lips aggravating you only the slightest bit. you let out a hum while thinking about it, the question making you think for a bit. shrugging you look at renjun, "honestly? i don't know. i guess we both enjoy the chase. what if it gets weird between us once we start dating you know?" renjun nods and seems to seriously think about what you said, a small sigh leaving him, "you've known renjun for as long as i have, i'm pretty sure you two would fit together quite well," he chomps down on another piece of melon, giving you some time to think about his words. "also, i'm pretty sure the two of you wouldn't turn down other people if it really was about the chase."

you furrow your brows in confusion and renjun takes it as his cue to elaborate, "there were a few people that asked jeno out, and he turned down all of them. well, and you turned down those two guys from your history class too, didn't you? i'm pretty sure if the two of you only enjoyed a good chase, you wouldn't turn down people to mingle with. you two genuinely like each other, i'm sure of that. and as much as the two of you flirting annoys me, i just want you to be happy," renjun finishes, leaning over to steal a few pieces of melon from you. it's like renjun opened your eyes for you, the realisation that you're genuinely, completely, absolutely infatuated with lee jeno making your ears burn up.

renjun chuckles at the redness of your ears and the look of realisation on your face, "now you only need your loverboy to realise the same thing." you blink at him, and suddenly you feel helpless; it has been so easy to enjoy your back and forth with jeno, the flirty remarks and teasing touches always were easy to reciprocate, but now? now that you were aware of the weight of your feelings for him you felt like you've wasted so much time just idling about, so much time you maybe could've already spent in his arms.

renjun had stolen the rest of your fruits at this point, but you couldn't find it in you to care - your fingers were itching with excitement at the prospect of seeing jeno, the thought of spending any more time apart from him making your head spin. luckily for you, you agreed to a movie night with the rest of the dreamies. while you were on your way to the elevator to head to the dorms, you were trying to come up with a smooth way to open up about your feelings to jeno. renjun was rambling on about something you didn't really pay attention to, thoughts of jeno clouding your mind.

it's like fate decided to play cupid for the day because right there in the elevator was standing jeno, the surprised smile on his face quickly turning into a flirtatious one once he spotted you. "well hello there, precious. going up or down?" renjun let's out a whine, pushing past you to get into the elevator. "listen, i don't care what you two do once we're at the dorms, but please, please spare me until then. i don't think i'll survive that disgusting flirtatious bullshit." jeno snorts at that, throwing his arm around renjun's shoulder while you're getting in the elevator, pressing the button to get all of you to the ground floor.

"would you rather i flirt with you, jun?" jeno's voice was disgustingly sweet, and renjun shoved him away from himself, both you and jeno bursting out in small giggles. renjun grumbles annoyed and presses the button, the doors of the elevator closing smoothly. the elevator barely started moving when it stopped abruptly, the lights flickering above you. the three of you stayed silent for a second; waiting for the elevator to start moving again. it didn't.

"uhm..." jeno started, not really knowing what to say. turning to renjun you let out a shaky breath, "what do we do now?" renjun shrugged before experimentally pressing the emergency button, a loud sound ringing through the small lift. it took a few seconds until a voice spoke up, inquiring about the emergency. "yeah, uhm, we're stuck in the elevator." the lady on the other end hummed, faint typing being heard in the background. "alright, there's good news, and there's bad news. the good news is, don't worry, you're safe. don't panic and just sit it out until emergency services arrive," her voice was calm and comforting, though what she said next did anything but comfort you, "the bad news is that it's probably going to take a few hours until you're going to get out of there." it was silent for a second, jeno suddenly piping up, "a few hours? isn't there a janitor or something that can let us out?" the lady sighed, "no, i'm sorry. it's a bit more complicated than that. there's nothing we can do, so i suggest you get comfortable in the meantime. i'll make sure to contact the company that there are three people stuck in the elevator."

here you were, sitting on the elevator floor next to renjun, jeno sitting across from you. you had been talking about whatever came to mind for the past hour, the three of you slowly running out of topics to discuss. "i can't believe we're stuck," you whined for the approximately sixth time, head buried in your hands. "well, at least i'm here. it'd probably be even better without jun, like some prolonged game of seven minutes in heaven." jeno snorted at his own remark, renjun only grumbling out a small "more like hell."

after endless rounds of rock-paper-scissors and somewhat passionate discussions about whether water is indeed wet or not (which it isn't), the three of you reached a point of silence. it wasn't uncomfortable, but you wouldn't call it comfortable either - you were kind of just sitting there, and you were slowly starting to drift off. your head fell onto renjun's shoulder, renjun shifting a bit to make it a bit more comfortable to you, the boy already had gotten used to it over all this time as your best friend.

judging by the deep frow on jeno's face, he didn't seem to know that things like that were quite common for you and renjun. you were long gone at that point, sleep tugging on your conscience and dragging you into a deep slumber while renjun had to hold back from snickering at jeno's unhappy expression.

jeno was nearly burning holes through renjun at this point, "are you really jealous even though you two aren't even dating?" renjun had a teasing grin etched onto his face, jeno not being able to answer in more than a few stammers for a second. "w-what?" renjun snorted at the reaction, rolling his eyes at his friend.

"cmon, id be dead if looks could kill jeno. it's clear you two like each other so please just get it over with, i can't deal with two lovesick idiots at once." jeno was about to protest renjun's teasing until the words registered in his mind. "wait, two lovesick idiots?"

renjun can't help but let out an annoyed groan, "oh please! you can't tell me you're that dense, the two of you are so in love with each other its actually disgusting," you let out a whine when renjun gestures with his arms wildly, the movement momentarily ripping you out of your slumber.

jeno's silent for a bit, his gaze focused on you and your sleeping face; if there's anyone that should know how you're feeling, it should be renjun, right? jeno gulps, his gaze drifting back to renjun, "and...and how should i go about it? just, i don't know, ask them out or-" "YES!" renjun couldn't take it anymore; no one was leaving this elevator until the two of you finally sorted your feelings for each other out.

you're startled awake by renjun's outburst, tired eyes looking around in confusion. your eyes meet jeno's, and he feels his heartbeat ring in his ears, cheeks heating up and without much thought, without any plan on how exactly to go about it, jeno suddenly blurts out: "i like you, y/n."

confusion and sleep were still clouding your mind, so your first reaction was to stutter a bit, a frown on your face. "y-you- you what?" renjun sat next to you awkwardly, his eyes drifting back and forth between you and his friend. jeno cleared his throat, his nerves making his throat dry up, "i-i like you, and-...uhm, and i'm pretty sure you like me too."

you blink at him, a soft blush spreading on your cheeks; the sudden confession catching you off guard. you're stunned into silence, your brain still not working on its full capacity. "come on, answer him. don't make him wait, that's just cruel," renjun chimes suddenly in like some sort of referee, making you blush even more.

"uhm, y-yeah. i do, i like you too, jeno." you spluttered out, renjun mumbling a small "finally" you decided to ignore. jeno suddenly breaks out in the brightest smile you've ever seen and leans forward, his arms wrapping around you as he pulls you over to his side. "now you can sleep on me, where you belong."

"guys please, i got you together so please stop with the disgusting flirt talk or whatever this is supposed to be. please, until we're out of here, i beg you," renjun whined at the two of you, jeno grinning triumphantly as he wraps his arm around your shoulder and pulls you closer.

"jun, come on. did you expect us to stop once we're dating?" "we're dating?" your teasing made the cocky look on jeno's face drop, big eyes looking back at you in confusion. "uhm, yeah? i thought you know since we both-"

jeno was just too cute for his own good at that moment, so you lean forward and interrupt his defensive rambling with a soft kiss to his lips. it shuts him up and makes renjun let out a disgusted groan, small giggles escaping you. "i was joking, jeno."

the boy lets out a sigh of relief at that, elbowing you lightly, "don't play with my feelings like that!" giggling you nuzzle further into his side, "never, jeno."

it took another two hours until you were finally rescued, renjun letting out a giant sigh of relief after finally being able to leave the two of you alone. it's understandable; the poor boy had to listen to you and jeno's new-couple-talk for the last hours, the sweet compliments and cute giggles making him want to throw up. instead of joining the others for the planned movie night, you and jeno decided - to renjun's delight - to retreat into his room to spend some time together and finally take each other up on the flirtatious comments you've thrown at each other for the past months.

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holywankenobi · 4 years

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SW fandom rant

To be honest, I don't really know how or where can I start talking about this. If you aren't interested in any of the Star Wars drama that is going on then skip this post, cause its gonna be long... these goes for the SW fans we are concerned about the whole situation itself. I barely have the strength to do this and exposing my opinion about certain things makes me uncomfortable but it's been a long while since I'm keeping things to myself. There's much information I have to process so please be patient with me since I barely know how to express my emotions in the right way (that's why I'm holding myself back a lot here: it will seem I'm calm... but I'm not. I'm angry and tired at the same time).

DISNEY CANON

We all know where it all started. The Force Awakens premiere in 2015. We will start from there.

As ANY star wars movie, there will be people who liked it, people who loved it and people who hated it. And there is where some fans clash with the others. Fans who enjoy practically every movie or SW related things and those fans who demonize every movie (specially the ones from the new Disney canon) and the only thing that matters for them are the episodes IV, V, VI and the Legends canon (some of them also defend the prequel episodes I, II and III, fact which I'll talk about it later). And they bash against everyone who likes the Disney sequels.

BOI IM SCARED OF TELLING PEOPLE THIS WAS MY FAVOURITE SAGA SO FAR. And I already had problems with Legends hardcore fans.

Let me tell this straightaway... Star Wars are movies for kids. They've always been. George Lucas said it. They seem to be thirsty for feeling again what they felt when they were kids whenever a SW movie comes out but they always exit the cinema with a feeling of extreme disappointment.

I was talking about the last movie with my co workers at the beginning of the year and they complaint it was "too Disney". And that's precisely what I'm trying to explain! It's ok whether you like the sequels or not like them. Everyone has his own taste. I just find funny complaining for a whole saga originally made for kids for being "too Disney". I dont know if you get my point here.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uEsOqEpNF0k&list=PL8SlwcJuVWR2FNtL-6Wo5QUP6LMjpNJUA

LEGENDS CANON

Then there's those who hated the prequels, that said there was nothing worse than the phantom menace, those who hated on George Lucas for doing such a crap, but now praise the prequels because Disney is satan for them and they want the old canon back. George Lucas ended up selling SW to Disney because, he ain't no fool, he knows this fanbase is one of the most toxic and ungrateful that has ever existed. And he saw it with the prequels feedback... Then they now have the guts to demand him to continue the old canon? Smells like hypocrite-crying fanboys to me.

My whole point is....It's ok if you are a new/Disney sequels fan, it's ok if you are a prequels fan, it's ok if you are a SW original movies fan, Legends canon fan, OG fan, casual fan, hardcore fan... as always you understand that not everyone will agree with your point of view, not everyone will like or think the same way as you do, or live SW the same way as you do. There's a difference between respecting and agreeing with, concepts which sometimes get mixed and taken as the same thing, which is not. Respect other fans mean "I don't agree with you but I know how much this means for you, so I won't intentionally mock you" WHICH THING LEADS US TO THE NEXT TOPIC:

JOHN BOYEGA

*takes a deep breath*

Man. I dont know. He's a full grown up man and he's behaving like a 5 yo on his social media...... John is the actor who gives life to Finn (the ex stormtrooper). It all started with this sexist comment he responded to a fan in his IG.

Then people (naturally) got offended, specially reylos. But instead of apologizing he kept on going, remarked what he said and also did a video to mock the reylo community.

You think I'm only defending a ship here but no. Its bigger than that. He has the right to feel left out in this saga because I agree with him IN THAT FACT. He is probably the actor which is more into the SW world, he was always a big fan (of the whole cast I mean). Thats why fans love him do much. And I did love him too. And he (naturally) wanted to have more spotlight on this saga ( I think Finn was one of the most wasted characters of these movies tbh) But instead of taking it the mature way he's having a tantrum on his IG because Finnrey did not become a real thing, he's trolling reylos and encouraging SW haters and antis to bully them whose are already having a hard time with TROS end (which I'll talk about later because I dont like their attitude about it either).

And it's not just raise the hate on shippers thing dude you could just apologize because you said something sexist and offended a lot of people who ship reylo and really means a thing for them. The whole thing that the greatest achievement a man can have with a woman is sex is just DISGUSTING. Rey kissed Ben but now he's gone Finn has the road clear and can fuck her? BRUH.

This is all so wrong and he was the one who started it.

ADAM DRIVER

I'm really relieved Adam does not have any social media because omg I would be suffering so much rn...

I honestly have never emotionally connected with an actor so much as I did with him. His whole acting is so good and I could really notice on this last movie. I'm starting to watch his other movies. And not just his acting, he's so professional off camera too.

I'm really happy and proud of him for his Oscar nomination, he really deserves it TT

But I'm worried this whole John Boyega thing affects him. Idk how I would feel if I were in his shoes, if my coworker was saying those things on social media and then smile at me like nothing is happening. But honestly what hurts me the most is he's having a worse time with "reylos".. I think the rumors of him having an affair with Daisy Ridley was what messed things up. I honestly dont know if its true, I've got some info but it's hard to believe. Because there are so many haters manipulating fake info that I dont trust anything and anyone anymore.

And this is where I talk about:

REYLOS AND DAIVERS

BOI OH BOI

This is gonna be hard....

First of all, I don't consider Daivers (Daisy x Adam shippers) as part of the reylo community. I'm sorry. But its fucking disgusting you going to demand Adam to divorce from his wife, abandon his son and then start dating Daisy because of this rumor or because you can't separate fiction from reality.... I read he even recieved death threats ARE WE NUTS??? They (Adam and Daisy) having a good chemistry working together doesn't mean they are in love, kids...

Driver has an awesome wife and a lovely son. Daisy is currently dating someone.

Infidelity is gross. No more. And I would be so disappointed at them if this turns out to be true. But seeing all what's happening around the actors and specially having all this haters out there... I'll say this was all false information.

Daiver is not real and won't be. So stick only to the fictional ship.....

About Reylo itself. I find REALLY funny how people who dont know shit about what this ship means say it's an abusive relationship. Bullshit. I wouldn't be shipping them if so.

Also the people still stating it's not real/canon hiding themselves behind the "Ben solo is dead lol" argument. Do you stop loving someone when they die?

Yes, they love each other. No, it wasn't always reciprocated love. They started being enemies in the force awakens, friends who understood and cared for each other through force dyad in the last jedi and ended up being lovers at the end of the rise of Skywalker. Rey wants to revenge her family (her falling to the dark side) but also wants Ben Solo back, and he wants to be the most powerful leader on the galaxy and still being kylo ren. But they eventually meet in the middle between light and dark and Leia finally reaches out to him to make him turn to the light.That's their fight. That's the angst. That's the tea. "No one is ever really gone" there's always hope. Star Wars is centered in HOPE. And their story represents it at its finest.

NOW. The reylo community.

Despite you liked it or not the end they gave to the saga... I think JJ Abrams doesn't deserve all the hate he's receiving... he probably did a lot of things wrong but seriously... just stop. Not only from reylos but the whole fandom.

Sending hate won't lead to anything now...

I enjoyed The rise of Skywalker. Indeed I spent half of the movie crying and I loved it.

You can cry as much as you want the loss of Ben (although I have hope for him still being alive in a way, there are plenty of theories) but that doesn't give you the right to death threat JJ. And I think I'll stop here cause I'm already tired.

Everyone has their own taste, preferences, favourite characters, ships, whatever. I pray for people stop judging others for their tastes, specially in this cursed fanbase. Sorry if I ever misbehaved trying to defend what I think or like. I just want this place to be supportive and safe for everyone and everything what's happening is not helping... We are all SW fans and that's our connection point. Dont discredit others for having another point of view...

I'll leave it here, but I'm open to debate or talk about anything I said in a respectful way.

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