tbh i do feel like a lot of sport dog or general dog people's confusion regarding why certain gear not made for specific sports does not work for that said sport comes from a general lack of people who do not have a lot of personal experience wearing sport equipment or doing sports themselves.

Obviously people not having that experience is not a bad thing, we all learn and grow and it's great imo that people want to do active things with their dogs (any little bit you do is positive in my eyes). But it's just a fact to me that when you, personally, have experience with how YOU feel in different type of sports equipment, that knowledge certainly transfers to animal sports as well.

i wish we got more molly and will scenes. they have such a good chemistry together. the few scenes we have of them awkwardly trying to talk about their feelings and will unable to reach out and molly reassuring him however she can are so bittersweet. in the script theres WAY more small gestures of love between the two of them like will crying in her hands or kissing her face and molly complimenting him about his progress or calling him hotshot and sweet lol. i am one of those people that truly believe will loved molly !!!!!! of COURSE he didnt love her as passionately and as maddeningly as he loved hannibal. but i feel like he felt safe around her and found his sense of normalcy and soothing and secure environment that hannibal could have but never gave him. he needed that after so many years fighting for his life and everyone else’s. god i WISH we got to see those kisses or those tears from will crying at his own guilt for putting his wife and son in danger even with hannibal being out of his life. ( also molly is so pretty and they look so good together. and i love their little house.)

why do my dreams haunt me in ways that make me long so bad for shit I shouldn’t be longing for

Something that makes reading TOA so devastating is how fucking much Apollo feels about Everything. There’s so MUCH. Like I don’t even know how to describe it to you if you haven’t read the books yourself. He has so many complicated thoughts and emotions about just about everything and he cares about everything so much and there is just SO MUCH going on in his head. And yet none of it ever reaches his mouth!!

He almost never says what he’s feeling. What little comes out of his mouth about his thoughts barely even scratches the surface of what he actually means. Like he’ll be having a long ass monologue about how incredible someone is, showing a deep understanding of them as a person and empathizing with them so hard you’d almost think it’s projection but it’s not he’s legitimately just mind melding with this random person he met like a week ago and he’s thinking the softest, kindest thoughts about them like he knows they’re fucking incredible - and what comes out of his mouth is just like, “you’re a wonderful friend :)” AND ITS LIKE. THERES SO MUCH MORE UNDER THE SURFACE. the sheer admiration and adoration he has for everyone around him……… UGHHH!!! But he never VOICES ANY OF IT!!!!!! He never tells anyone about what Zeus did to him……. He never tells anyone except the reader about his realization that Zeus is abusive…. He never even tells commodus about how much he adored him, not then and not now… he refuses to tell anyone when he’s in pain or tries to justify the things he does when he actually had Decent Reasons for why he did something… I’m. I’M. AUGH. AHHHHH

HE DOESN’T EVEN TELL US ALL OF HIS THOUGHTS IS THE THING. THERES EVEN MORE THAT HE IS NOT TELLING US!!!!! THE FUCKING OCEAN OF FEELINGS AND THOUGHTS HE HAS ABOUT EVERYTHING IS THE CLIFF NOTES VERSION. I AM IN DISTRESS.

And YET…. Even what slips out of his mouth is so fucking devastating it is SO devastating. He’s so fucking kind and gentle with Harley and Meg and and other younger Demis and his kids… he’ll act like an obstinate idiot and then turn around say something that drags the core of the person he’s talking to into the light like nail on the fucking HEAD like he reached into their soul and gave them the words to express something that they were struggling to say aloud or that they didn’t even realize about themself. Around the 2nd book he starts putting voice to some of his feelings and thoughts about others and even that tiny fucking sliver is overwhelming to the people he’s talking to bc he’s SO. AUGHHHH

What would the listeners bring as a good to a party/potluck/bbq in my opinion:

Angel: David made Mac n cheese with bacon and baked cheesy potatoes. Angel brought napkins :))

Sweetheart: tater tot casserole and jalapeño poppers, milo probably had to make them stop eating them in the car before they were all gone

Baabe: veggie plate with GOOD dip and veggie kebabs, they strike me as a fellow cauliflower lover

Darlin: stale pretzels and vodka. Sam brought some Apple fritters too

Sunshine: lemon tarts, orange tarts with caramelized peels they are gone very quickly

Freelancer: baklava and caprasi salad, specifically pear and walnut baklava Caelum helped

Lovely: lemonades and cold chili tofu , also a cute cups of blood for the vamps :)

Starlight: deviled eggs and cucumber rolls, they don’t really seem like the person to bring meats and they prolly love cucumber

Smartass: the grill champion!!! Burgers, chicken, hotdogs! Yes they’re competing with Aaron for grill privileges

Honey: pizza obv, watermelon and honeydew cups as well it’s Guys favorite fruit

There's something about silly cafe AUs that soothes my soul so much

traitor to the cause forgets national holiday every year KILL HIM

trying to live up to a household of three people when disabled just so your dog doesnt mope that no one else is home....its definitely a choice ive made this week. anyway i took her for a walk but now im a fall risk.

Your f-cking!!!!!! YOU DID SO MANY THINGS FOR THIS SHIP... bestshot/edgejeanist/edgeshot x best jeanist. My sir I am eating the computer for your work. Best. Most content. I asked for a meal and you have feasts on your acc !! (srry for swearing again this happening a lot now)

1 - Congrats on your acca term end ! so many acca things happening for everyone

2 - I saw your collab w/ someone else, the rlly good writer. Pls keep it up there is not enough content! ! !!

3 - Pls tell me more abour your Pirate AU and your AUS, I love pirates

4 - Birthday art !! GORGEOUS GORGEOUS GORGEOUS GORGEOUS. Did not know who Ectoplasm was until this. Did not know he had a face and a boyfriend

5 - Your ART. F-king amazing. Thx u

ANON oh my goodness hello!!! Thank you so much I genuinely needed to hear this right now— this did startle me when it came into my inbox but you really made my day <3333

I am so glad you found us and that you are enjoying the content :D

(I’ve have been here making stuff for edgejeanist and ectoloader for over 3 years now and I ain’t planning on stopping any time soon so there will always be more >:D /lh)

But :D!!!!! In response to you:

1) I am not familiar with what that means or is but thank you (?)

2) yes!! I believe you mean @laughteronsilverwings, and the Therapy Fic we are working on together- don’t worry, there are plenty of potential other things to come I am sure

3) OOOH I have a post coming for this, a small doodle on the way soon 🫡 for pirate au though, summary: plenty of cursed treasure magical pirate shit with drama, fun, action and romance heheh

4) thank you! Yes! Ecto is wonderful and one of my favourite characters, and ectoloader is simply just one of the other ships that I adore with my whole heart (equally to edgejeanist at this point)

5) Absolute hearts and love to you, sweet anon, thank you so much.

But !!! Thank you for popping in, anon, you made my day- and of course, are welcome at any time to pop by whenever you would like to :] <3

Coming up with ideas for stories and aus is all fun and good until you realize that you don't have any actual story planned, just the concept, OR you're trying not to come up with new ideas because you already have so many goddamn aus, brain why are you trying to make that list longer???

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Thinking about. All of my blorbos in too big sweatshirts. Too big sweatpants. Rumpled and sleepy. Oh what a joyful image

MY SENSES OF SMELL AND TASTE NOOOOOO

THINKIN ABT. Ienzo. & his relationships. All of them. At once. But there’s nothin coherent it’s all just Noise while I toss him in the blender

love the fact that my sister is the kind of person who is both a minor impulse shopper, and also someone who is easily tempted by “fancy” or “odd” foods like pomegranates and dates and chocolate ants and fried grasshoppers and specialty olives and candies and cheeses or those whole foods veggies that not even the people at the register can identify. BUT she is also very much a meat and potatoes milk chocolate kind of person. the only vegetable she consistently eats is the carrot. there’s exactly one type of spaghetti sauce she likes. wheat bread is too exotic. off-brand cereal is intolerable. recently she was very excited because she tried a new juice (tart cherry) that she actually likes. when i saw a “new juice she likes” i mean she now likes exactly one juice. so you can see that she does not actually end up liking many new things. HOWEVER. the reason she feels secure to test new tastes is because i am the opposite kind of person. i like basically everything i try. i can list the things i do not like right now. celery. grapefruit. dill relish. sauerkraut. done. that’s it. everything else i can at least put into the “meh it’s okay” category.

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