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ummyesisthisjasongrace · 1 year

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Did I ask for Bagginshield in my life? No.

Do I need Bagginshield in my life? Absolutely.

#look #I'm not saying I was having a lack of gay angst in my life before them but I also don't mind a bit more of that #and by a bit i mean loads #bagginshield #thilbo #thorin oakenshield #thorin #bilbo baggins #bilbo #the hobbit #your honor they're in love #as am i #with them #oh my gosh #we're just not talking about what they do to my mental health

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an-established-butt-dent · 3 months

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At home in the shadows. Forgotten dreams.

Solas: Dragon age

Ink on paper

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dontfindmeimscared · 9 months

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absolutely hating the similarities between Draxum's weird messenger thing and the future Krang dogs

#i might be super late to the party on this one lol #but DAMN I wanna think about this too hard #i mean Draxum's has the horns and the dogs looks a bit more robotic??#like Draxum maybe making them to fight the Krang #then the Krang takes control of them and makes WAY TOO MANY of them #bc there's loads of them in the future #idk i was watching warren and hypno and then went... wait.

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chamerionwrites · 6 months

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Aimé Césaire saying that colonization works to decivilize the colonizer truly lives in my head rent-free

#this is the essence of the v problematic anticolonial critique in so much 19thc literature (eg heart of darkness) right?#(and also its more modern inheritors eg apocalypse now and the Doing An Imperialism Makes Our Soldiers Sad genre of war story)#it glosses right over the crucial 'systems of rapacious cruelty are bad IN THEIR OWN RIGHT BECAUSE BROWN PEOPLE ARE HUMAN' bit #but in that one limited sense - that cruelty also brutalizes the perpetrators - it is very much the same critique #anyway i guess my brain continues to find ways to circle back round to discourse on colonialism no matter the initial topic #lit tag #no more war #imperialism #imperial violence always comes home #cultures of dissociation #aimé césaire #i am also choosing to tag this #sherlock holmes #as like solidly 98% of the stories in which the murderer is a former colonial officer or official are ROILING w this exact anxiety #(especially the hella racist ones. lol.)#i mean loads of authors in that time period are doing it but i have a tag for acd so.#my posts

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eff-plays · 4 months

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Yes yes women writing Astarion with women isn't inherently homo/bi/panphobic but he's not bottoming enough in your fics and I'm tired of it.

He deserves to get dicked down. I have not once seen a fic where he bottoms. Do I have to do everything around here myself 🙄

#however i have seen fic where he remembers how being with men was all traumatic and being with female tav feels pure and good and like #i get what you're trying to say but it does feel a bit loaded doesn't it #bg3 #astarion #there's also a lot of like ...#'topping means he's reclaiming himself! means he's in control!!'#it's a little weird ngl ngl #same with ppl conflating topping with domming like those are different #and being penetrated means he's submitting and/or losing control #and that makes him more feminine somehow??#idk man even well-meaning astarion stans step into some weird shit every now and then i feel #anyway ... hira's gonna polymorph and lay some mad pipe #it's what he deserves<3

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clonerightsagenda · 16 days

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I was thinking that people saying Marcille's relationship with Falin is the driving force of so much of Dungeon Meshi were overselling it a bit, since Marcille's original desire driving her to the dungeon (and eventually becoming its lord) is equalizing the races, but even if she noticed tensions between human species before, iirc Falin was her first real friend, so that's probably the first time Marcille really had skin in the game (besides the loss of her father, but he's already gone). So it does come back to Falin after all, and it's even more appropriate that Marcille makes it to the bottom of the dungeon chasing her.

#kat reads dungeon meshi #perpetual perpetual ladies night #rip falin you are everyone's Load Bearing Backstory Dead-ish Girl #trying to see how I can connect Laios chasing her with chasing his desires the dungeon brings out in him #the union of human and monstrousness?#his one uncomplicatedly positive human connection?#a bit of both?#and if Falin represents their desires and the dungeon's draw on them...#what does that mean for how it will end for her #guess I'll find out #based on spoilers I've seen it seems like... weirdly... fine?

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leslutdepointedulac · 7 months

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Lestat begins to make so much more sense when you remember that he's the youngest child out of 7 children who was kidnapped and turned into a vampire against his will at the young age of 20 who has also been through waaayyy too much trauma for me to reel off now and he's originally from the 1700s and the definition of a bisexual disaster and french and...

#i mean can you really blame him for being the way he is after taking all that into consideration?#being a 20(0+)yr old bi disaster from the 18th century with a shot load of trauma is bound to fuck you up a bit imo #he's so dear to me #lestat de lioncourt #vampire chronicles #tvc #my vampire chronicles

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factorialsotherfandoms · 2 months

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Prompt by @rabbit-harpist - Chayanne and Tallulah finally meeting in person. (Also @becauseplot as I saw you were also thinking of this one). I hope this is fine. I rotated it a few times too many oops.

Mention of injured child, but it's just the comfort that comes after.

Chayanne only sits still because Papa has him trapped. Dad isn't here, but his closest sister had updated him on that. She is here now, he knows that, her reaching out every few minutes to check if something scaring her is actually dangerous or not.

None of it has been; Chayanne is still a bit uncertain about some things here, but Dad is with her and would never let anything bad happen to anyone ever. So, he promises her it's okay, that he'll see her soon, that she just has to let Dad and the Doctor look after her and then they could see each other. That's what Papa had said, and Papa does not lie.

(It does not change the fact that he wants his sister /now/.)

She updates him on the other children she was with, too, just like she always has - and just like he does for her. He worries about all of them - Bobby and Pomme and Richarlyson and Trump and Allie and Dapper and Ramón and Leonardra and all his siblings without names - but he worries about her most of all. He can talk to her, and has been able to talk to her since the day she was dragged into life, listless and not yet screaming. He remembers things she cannot, and that he never wants her to, and now he finally, finally gets to see her!

Chayanne asked, once, what she looks like. She didn't know, and he doesn't know either.

Finally, finally, she lets him know that the Doctor has told her she can leave. There's more that she doesn't understand, and if she doesn't understand then she cannot explain it to Chayanne either, but what she does know is that Dad has picked her up, and is bringing her to see Chayanne.

Papa cannot keep Chayanne any more; he squirms his way out of Papa's arms, dropping to the floor and running.

"Chayanne!" Papa calls, also standing up to chase.

Chayanne is little, but he is fast. Papa is also fast, but Chayanne has the head start and knows where he is going; out the door, down the stairs, cross the balcony over the "subsidiary power generator", then-

He does not make it to the then. In the little walkway between that room and the next, he collides with Dad.

Dad only laughs, and ruffles his hair, and yells, "it's okay, Missa! I caught him!"

Chayanne does not have attention for his parents, though; he stares up at the little girl being carried on his Dad's hip.

She is much smaller than him, but then he knows people grow and that she has only been alive for half of his life. Curly brown hair, glowing yellow eyes, a patch on her cheek and neck where dark skin fuses with grey-purple insect shell. She is dressed in one of Pomme's dresses - one of the simpler ones, left open at the back so that little blue wings have the freedom to move - a little loose on her, but also too short.

Under it, Chayanne can see bandages - they make a thicker patch, and poke out of both the sleeve and neckline of the dress. He shudders, remembering the agonising pain from when she was shot.

She stares at Chayanne, before turning to Dad and tugging on his arm. He laughs, and Missa scoops up Chayanne, and Dad says, "I'll let you down once we get to the common room, okay Tallulah? It's still a bit dangerous here."

Chayanne can feel the warning in the back of his mind. He would sulk at being picked up again, except that Papa is picking him up, and Chayanne will never actually refuse him.

Instead he rests his head on Papa's shoulder, ignoring the way his parents talk to instead watch his sister. With one hand he waves to her, and she smiles back - fangs and all.

"/Is Tallulah your name?/" he asks her, in the same way they have always talked.

"/I think so!/" she replies. "/Do you like it/?"

"/It's pretty/."

"/So are your arms/!"

Chayanne looks down to where the glowing patterns on his arms are providing a low light. Wanting to make her happy he pulls up his sleeves, showing off more of the intricate - if random - designs.

He doesn't ask if she is hurting, because he knows that she is. He doesn't ask if she is okay, because he knows that she isn't. He doesn't ask about their sisters, because he knows the two Tallulah came with are safe, as are the ones already here, and that the rest of their siblings are dead.

Instead he shows off the patterns, and points out people they pass, and tries his very best to entertain her.

Eventually they make it to the common room - Chayanne's parents are always slow when they decide to walk and talk, no matter how impatient Chayanne is feeling - and set the two children on the floor.

"Chayanne, this is-" Dad begins.

Chayanne does not listen to him. Instead he runs across the room, and pulls his little sister into a hug.

"Careful!" comes the warning from both parents, one in English and the other in Spanish.

Tallulah is in no more pain from the hug than without it, so Chayanne does not let go. He tucks his precious sister close and he knows he cannot protect her, that the hurt is already done, that he could not even save Bobby when he was right there beside him.

But...

She's here now! Dad actually found her! Helped her! She's safe, and she's okay, just like he promised and promised that she someday would be.

He did not know what a hug was until Papa gave him one, and Tallulah is still a little unsure. Carefully he explains, in that silent way which comes most naturally to them, and she hesitantly wraps her arms around him too.

Carefully, he leans down and taps their foreheads together - the gesture of welcome, of comfort, of family that they eggs developed for themselves, before the adults of The Order came and taught them what hugs are.

That's when the tears spill. Not just Tallulah's, but Chayanne's as well.

"/It hurts it hurts it hurts/," Tallulah whispers into his mind. "/Big brother, I'm scared./"

"/You're safe/," he promises back. "/You're safe, you're safe, you're finally safe - I will protect you now. Together, we're together, we won't ever be apart again. You're home now, this is home, nothing will ever hurt you again, Dad and Papa won't allow it./"

Tallulah does not know what /home/ means, but that's okay. Chayanne is going to teach her.

And that starts with letting go, but holding her hand, and dragging her to the box of children's toys and accessories to pick out the first thing that she will ever own.

#qsmp fanfic #qsmp x xcom #qsmp au #qsmp chayanne #qsmp tallulah #tallulah doesn't even have her hat yet #it's what she'll pick from the box #(when he was first awake after being rescued chayanne woke to find the adults had gathered loads of kid stuff)#(and the first thing he took for himself is his ducky)#of the other two with her... tilin is in one of leo's shirts belted at the waist to make a tunic #and flippa is too tall for that but too short for pomme's dresses and so in some of richas' clothes #tallulah got to escape the infirmary first because the big obvious wound on her shoulder meant she got her checkup first #she has a hearing test booked for a few days and they're working on making her inhalers #the other two are still having things like basic blood tests and lung checks and all that #tallulah would have stayed with them except she wanted to meet chayanne #they'll be along together in a bit #chayanne is supposed to be in class with the other eggs but couldn't concentrate with needing to guide tallulah through being rescued #so missa rescued him from school for the day #i say school #i mean the adults take it in turns to teach them bits of what they know #niki was teaching a cooking class! where its more she makes bread or cakes or cookies with them than directly teaches #and with some help from other adults because many kids near ovens #styled much more like baking for fun than a class #but still important lessons!#anyway stop rambling now #back to op for me

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definitelynotshouting · 8 months

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(About hunger au) Thinking about the gift fic Divergency you got from Raichett and rotating how it meshes with the current story

Thinking about how Grian could be doing this at least a little due to the guilt he has from being born the way he was

He didn't have a choice but to kill and cause pain when he was born and now he's using his control over his life to cause pain to himself and die. Oughhh

Raichett's fic is so near and dear to my heart, i'll never get over how incredible it was to receive that. Frankly, its canon to me-- that is exactly how it went for poor Grian. And the circumstances around his birth as a Watcher were so objectively tragic... i think the guilt honest to gods just eats him up inside. In his head he's sorta mentally separated them into the Good (past) Grian and then Himself (aka the Bad Grian), and now he just feels this constant weight about killing that original version of him. I think what he's doing now definitely has that desperate bid to atone in it, and not just for hurting his friends, but for killing Player!Grian as well.

Its genuinely heartbreaking tbh, like i know im the one doing this to him but i feel for him so badly about this in particular, because its such a horrible thing to be convinced you're a monster for something you had literally no control over at birth

#shouting speaks #asks #hunger au #he is 100% doing this to punish himself #[pulls the thread of load-bearing grian neuroses] my gods theres self-flagellation in there #anyway all this to say u are so fucking right anon like u are right on the money #and it's also so deeply about control too #grian has had no control over his situation since he was born a watcher and this is him exerting a TINY bit of it #<- which is smth i plan to explore more in the fic btw. we understand why he's getting dragged back to HC ofc #but that doesnt mean there aren't lasting consequences about it for all parties #the last time grian felt trapped and confined was with the watchers. so theres some trauma there to be explored #just smth to let you guys simmer on... :)#thanks for sending this anon im always weeping over hunger grian's neuroses over here #txt

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mattodore · 7 months

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scrapped pose from theo's birthday edit

little koala 🐨

#river dipping #theodore doe #matthias evanoff #echthroi #a burning house to live in #ts4 #blender #...that's just my general tag for pics of their sims but this is them in blender so it feels weird to use that... oh well lmfao #i'm waiting for sim ripper to load one of the outfits i need for this pose i wanna make so. i'm just in blender spinning mattodore around #i could start working on the pose now and apply the armature later but i'll just wait #ignore theo's weird knees btw........... it's just blender the pose looked fine in game when i tested it originally #do NOT ignore matthias's pancake ass tho! for some reason these slacks just do that to his ass. it's sooo criminal!! he has a bubble butt!!#anyway... theo is like. openly sobbing but his face is literally buried in matthias's shoulder so you can't see his expression #he's so wounded here... i mean obviously since this was originally gonna be in the edit but........ :/#yk that bit from the caption on the edit where theo gets flashbacks and describes the breeze and the looming darkness.....#and then to have matthias see it all... like that recognition of a part of theo's self that he doesn't even turn his own face toward... ugh #he needed that comfort yk... and he needed to be held. at every age.#UGHHHHH okay okay i'm letting myself get emotional here let's go back to thinking abt matthias's pancake ass in these pics haha funny #insert that screenshot of roman texting ''i am going to kill myself'' to gerri

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hella1975 · 9 months

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yes this is a natural series of events when you've worked at the same place for over a year and it also happens to have RIDICULOUSLY quick turnover where very few people wind up staying on consistently, but ive become one of the Experienced Waitresses That Knows What They're Doing at my job and we very suddenly have a lot of New Teenagers That Have Never Done This Before and it's just. insane to me. bc when i started my job i was SO intimidated like it truly is a big very fast-paced place where everyone has to pull their weight (ie you need to be able to do the coffee station and work the floor and run food and help on bar) and the customers are particularly wankerish so the more Experienced Staff that had been there for a while were like mini gods to me. like truly i thought they were so cool and smart and unbothered and now that's me. i have a gaggle of 17 year olds constantly asking me how to do things and I KNOW THE ANSWER. on a government wage no less

#like it's a BIT annoying bc this is just not the kind of place that should be hiring teenage first-time workers #but the catering industry is doing BAD atm and my manager got told off by head office for spending too much on wages #so he's hiring a load of young people bc guess what! young people have lower minimum wages! some of them are literally on fiver an hour #i genuinely think when i turn 21 my hours are gonna PLUMMET but that's a future me problem #but yeah it means there's like. ten of us that have been working there consistently for months to years at a time #and the rest of the staff are just completely new. like everyone i was working with yesterday were college kids #that had been there a handful of weeks. and im someone who still regularly needs to ask management questions #bc for starters that never goes away like truly u do just need help but also bc I NEVER GOT OFFICIALLY TRAINED #EVERYTHING I KNOW I LEARNED ON THE JOB. DO YOU KNOW HOW STUPID THAT IS #so i have these teenagers looking up at me like 'how do i do x thing' and im like idk either babe. let's quit together #hella slaves to capitalism

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magdalune · 7 months

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ur sims are darkskinned but their features are completely white 🤨 nothing wrong with that, just wanted to point out that they could've had a skintone suitable for their race

anon, to you, what makes a black person black?

#📬#sims 4 #this ask to me just feels so loaded.#tinged with a bit of prejudice? mayhaps?#as a darkskinned woman myself never have i ever looked at another human being and chalked their “blackness” to features #especially since genetics determines most of that shit #what makes me black is not my “flat nose”#my “big lips”#or my “kinky curls”#my skin is what makes me black #my mother father aunts friends cousins uncles even my siblings could even have attributes that you may deem “white”#be it how 'dark' they are #genetic features #or even the way they dress or talk #this does not negate their “blackness”#whatever tf that means.#i don't even feel my sims look that similar sooo what abt each of them gives "should be white” to you? curious #i could MAYBE understand if my black sims all had light coloured eyes or tiny button noses… but they don’t.#also this is the sims 4 i beg you move😭

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leavemetoplaythesims · 9 months

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she's short, irritable, a little scary, loves anything magical (especially on the little darker side) and secretly into getting bitten by astarion.

#her name's nadya and i love her #she's also very loyal and likes animals a lot #i love the braid cause it sometimes gets caught on her shoulder and idk i just think that's neat #i'm trying to come up with a bit of a backstory for her #the first time astarion bit her she killed him and i was shocked cause i didn't think she could kill him like that so i went back #i just thought they were gonna fight a little and then get to an understanding #like when you first meet him #but no brutal death #i feel like i'm cheating cause when i roll bad on something i really want to succeed in i load a quicksave and do it again #i mean what else are quicksaves for?#bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #my screenshots #video games

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vampiremansionpoolboy-moved · 1 year

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going insane over the fact that happiness and care and concern and love is underneath every interaction between newt and hermann in pacific rim

#HEAR ME OUT. they’re introduced and newt and being a groupie and behind him hermann is all huffing and rolling his eyes and shaking his #head but he’s Not Angry. no. he jumps to defend newt albeit in a somewhat mocking and sarcastic way BUT THE THOUGHT IS THERE. and then when #hermann is rambling on about numbers being the handwriting of god newt is in the background smiling and laughing and making silly #hand motions and yes the hand motion was a bit mocking BUT THATS THEIR WHOLW THINF. anyways i’m not done. when newt drifts with the kaiju #and pentecost is there talking to him and hermann and newt r yelling back in forth u can hear the unease and shakiness in their voices and #especially the frustration in hermanns. he’s frustrated abt newt risking his life and is worried abt that which translates out in anger.#and yeah maybe he’s salty abt being proven wrong too lmao. BUT CONTINUING ON. stacker could have just told newt to go to hannibal chau and #he would have done it. but instead they watch the film of him on HERMANNS computer as HERMANN controls the computer to look at the film. if #thé film was shown it was for a reason. newt doesn’t seem like the type to need reassurance abt chau before he goes. he was willing to die #for his trash drift. and stacker gave him the card and info so there’s no need to do anything else. the video is most likely there for the #viewers but it needs a reason to be there in the show. hence my reasoning that HERMANN asked to see it out of concern for newt who would be #doinf this alone. hermann demanded to see some proof to reassure himself. stacker having the card on him makes sense. him having that bulky #tape doesn’t. meaning hermann pressured him into leaving getting the tape and coming back to show him. anyways one more bit. so the drift.#hermann is clearly scared out of his mind and thinking abt the impending triple event. yet he still drifts with newt he does it to protect #him to take part of the neural load. and it takes a toll on hermann it makes a big enough mess of his brain that he ends with him bleeding #and shaking and sweating and coughing and throwing up. and he knew it would take a toll. he knew it would be a lot he’s seen the jaegers.#he’s seen what happens. he knows it will be rough. he knows it’ll be much worse for him who wasn’t drifted then for newt who has. yet he #still does it to help newt and to show his care and trust and concern and love and THEYRE DRIFT COMPATIBLE U DONT UNDERSTANDABLE HOW #EMOTIONAL I AM OVER THIS FUCKING OVER THEM #anyways one last thing. the way that they full body slapping each other on the back bear hugged when the throat collapsed (they were behind #herc and tendo so it was a little hard to see. i missed it the first time) in pure adrenaline happiness before we see the quiet tender hug #when they know everything is over for good (for now at least) when it’s time to celebrate when it time to think abt their drift and their #bond and their relationship and their LOVE. i’m so ok abt them rn actually #toad.txt #i wish i wrote this in a keep reading bit and not the tags now. anyways #pacific rim #pacific rim spoilers #newton geiszler #hermann gottlieb #newmann

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bigmammallama5 · 1 year

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Put the last mushies on the rack to fire (still waiting on a few more pieces), then spent the whole studio time getting what I do have bisqued cleaned up and waxed and ready to apply slip and glaze. I did (mostly) decide what to do so I just have to follow my notes.

#arting #pottery #still waiting on the paten plates the two brown cups and the two spoon rests too #and those two cups and the potential bird bath #though a lot of people said pie dish #so uh #that one might stay with me as a pie dish but we'll see #those plates are from the december kiln #they didnt fit #so i washed the glaze off and im hoping to just stack them #but if they dont get in again whatEVER #i mean i would really love for them to get fired but we'll see #i did request the day off when we start loading #so im hoping to actually help out a bit and get to see the process #since i didnt get to last time #like ive loaded a lot of bisque kilns and a few glaze kilns #but this will be different #ANYWAYS im excited and im hoping to get a chunk of this slipped and glazed this week #but i have plenty of time #also that naked drink is a protein thing and it was AWFUL negative two stars

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ivomartins · 5 months

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Haven't played HS2 yet but I'm starting to lose hope. The final season only has 9 episodes and we're already on ep3. As someone who's romancing Hunger I'm really disappointed. I knew we'll only have crumbs compared to the other LIs but in this update you dont even get crumbs. It's disappointing.

oof it's a good thing i decided to save hs2 for the dr then because honestly i would have been super disappointed too to play and spend a fuckton of diamonds and not even get any hunger content at the end of it

i'm really sorry that you didn't enjoy it because of that anon :( i feel you

that really sucks that we don't get anything with him in the update because it felt like we got very little in the last update too. i hope the plot developments were at least fun for you to read :/

#romance club #heaven's secret #shut up jen #conversations #this is why despite how much i like hs2 i genuinely don't consider it a good book or worth the hype #because it's unbalanced as hell and i don't think alice should have introduced any new LIs #if she wasn't gonna balance things out at least a little bit #i mean the main LIs have been around since s1 with loads of scenes so i think it's a bit unfair #that she's still prioritizing them over the ones introduced later on

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