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faejilly · 10 months

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i absolutely love your sh meta so i was wondering what are your thoughts on Alec’d relationship with his sexuality bc i always sort of read it as him knowing that he was gay but absolutely not saying it out loud

absofuckinglutely nonny

There's an excellent post by amorverus that I cannot find the original of so have my reblog HERE that articulates it really well

I even wrote a fic about it! #shameless self promotion [tumblr / ao3] (That is, in fact, one of my favorite things I've ever written.)

I do strongly believe that Alec knew that he was gay, and felt no shame about that in and of itself. He is not offended by Magnus flirting with him, would not, I think, be offended by anyone else flirting with him, regardless of gender. (Tho prior to Magnus I also think he just... wasn't interested, but that's a separate conversation.) He knew, however, that it was not allowed in his culture and it would hurt his family and not just him if it came out.

(This is why Izzy makes me so uncomfortable in s1 regarding Alec, tbqh, because she lives there too, but refuses to see the danger to herself and, more egregiously in Alec's mind, because obviously she can chose to risk herself for him if she wants, for all he doesn't like it, but she's causing risk for their little brother if Alec is outed, and that's unacceptable. Even if I'm quite sure Max would agree with her priorities.)

I do, however, think Alec felt a lot of shame regarding his attraction to Jace. Jace was hurting and was supposed to be his brother and yet... Alec felt an attraction that he knew Jace wouldn't return. So he's got all the societal pressure on him not to be gay, and all this personal pressure not to manipulate or abuse someone in a vulnerable situation (because Jace was, even if he wouldn't admit it), PLUS all the normal human issues with feeling attraction for someone who is important enough to you that you can't lose them, and you can legitimately be terrified that if you can't get it under control you MIGHT... (Even more so for him than a mundane romantic vs platonic situation, obviously, because there's questions of command and exile and punishment, not just ruining an interpersonal dynamic in a way it never quite recovers from.)

Plus Alec's kind of also Jace's commanding officer which is yet ANOTHER unequal power dynamic, and he's supposed to be protecting an entire Institute, not just this one person, but he can't stop thinking about it because it's fucked up and he knows he should stop and he can't.

(Because, he realizes with the benefit of hindsight after he meets Magnus, by fixating on Jace he was safe, he was never going to fall in love for real with someone he might have a chance with, would never have to actually choose between his culture and his personal desires, while still telling himself that he already had, that he'd chosen his family and it was fine, he was FINE.

(He was so not fine.))

And so, even though he truly believes there's nothing wrong with being gay in general, he does believes there is something Very Wrong with him specifically being gay.

But he still never has any doubt about it. He never tries to project heterosexual interest in anyone, is very up front with Lydia about the terms of their engagement. (It seems clear, even if we never see that conversation, that they're both aware that their marriage would never be romantic or sexual unless they mutually decided to go the so-called traditional route for children.) And she agreed to it! She, unlike Jace & Izzy, had zero illusions about her relationship with Alec, and I ADORE HER FOR THAT.

And I've totally lost the thread of this rambling, I'm not sure I have a conclusion for you? 😅😅😅

Alec is, imo, refreshingly self-aware about most things, and many of his issues are legitimately external stupidity punishing him into a life of self-recrimination rather than him having internal bigotry or biases against his own sexuality in and of itself.

#jilly answers #Anonymous #the saga of #alec lightwood #honor vs duty vs shame #is really his life pre-canon #he throws away the shame tho #and I'm very proud of him for that #shadowhunters #my sh rambling #sh meta #queer as in #fuck you

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readerconfused · 3 months

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look at my son pride is not the word i'm looking for

#i lie i love him and i'm very proud #percy jackon and the olympians #percy jackson #pjo series #pjo tv show #pjo #percy jackson and the olympians spoilers

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aunmenosheteroenespanol · 22 days

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2.12 Chimney Begins - 2.09 Hen Begins - 2.16 Bobby Begins Again - 7.04 Buck, Bothered and Bewildered

Tommy's family arc

#911 #911edit #911 abc #911 show #911 spoilers #911 season 7 #tommy kinard #evan buckley #evan 'buck' buckley #kinley #bucktommy #kinkley #tevan #pick a ship name you guys and thanks for picking tevan the most correct name #anyway analysis time!#looking back with Modern Knowledge tm about why tommy acts the way he does in the past... babygirl you were so closeted I'm so proud #babygirl was back there getting into narnia #he was so resistant to letting go of the pseudo-family he'd found at the 118 in chimney begins #even tho it was a good old boys club that he knew he really didn't fit into he was making himself fit because at least it was something #but then he let chimney in and then hen came around and he saw a very queer person being openly queer and not giving a fuck what they think #and I think his behavior in that episode was trying to support hen as much as he could without outing himself #because like. how do you give up years of relative safety with people who do care about you they just won't like you anymore if you're *you #then he meets buck in s7 which is like 10-20 years later timeline is fake and he's like oh. this is what unconditional family is #and he's like oh. maybe I can come back. maybe I can be part of this again somehow. maybe we've both grown enough #or at the very least he'll be close to something he never believed would really happen for him #rant over tevan my beloved tim minear pillow cold both sides god bless #my edits

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gabe-lovebot · 1 month

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councilor 3D model

i learnt 3d modelling from the ground up to bring him to life. he's yours now. do whatever you want with him

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please credit me if you make something using the model (or even ping/link me to it, i would love to see what you made!)

currently available as a .blend, .fbx and an SFM port.

#hello councilnation i'm finally releasing him to the wild #have fun playing toys with him #ultrakill #councilor #councilor ultrakill #3d stuff #obviously with the councilor having just 1 full body image of him means that some stuff i had to improvise on #so you get to enjoy my headcanons on how he looks #(like obviously the wings & halo)#(but also the chestplate design)#but did you know that the councilor's canon design has subtle engravings on his forearm armor pieces?#i only barely noticed them when painting textures and i was floored #i had to add them #to the sfm anon and whoever else wants to use this for sfm stuff-#i did my best with a port for sfm and i'm quite proud of the result #but please be aware i have never used it before so if you find that something doesn't work as it should please please let me know!!#gonna pour my heart out in tags as always so close your eyes if you don't wanna see me being sentimental but #i'm not kidding when i say i learnt 3d modelling from the ground up for this #i have meddled with blender before but never actually came close to finishing a project #and i don't know how i did it and how i kept going #(i do know) (it was my friend encouraging me every time i showed him progress)#this was like 1 entire month in the making #but i'm so fucking proud of this and how it turned out and people's tags in my act 2 render genuinely were such a huge confidence boost #so thank you guys for liking it <3 #i'm still very much thinking of doing a version with just his bloodied head #but it might take a while because i want a break and i want to play warframe

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idk-bruh-20 · 9 months

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Irondad fic ideas #151

There is a LOT of Iron Man merch out there. One day, Stark Industries comes out with a line of Iron Man themed night lights that look like arc reactors. The marketing? "For kids who are scared of the dark: Iron Man will protect you."

In completely unrelated news, a whole bunch of child abusers across the country have recently been arrested as a result of anonymous tips to local authorities.

Bonus:

It's an open secret at some point. Teens who are being abused start buying the night lights. Hell, adults start buying them. Charities pop up to cover the cost for anyone who needs it. Kids who are newly safe often send their night lights on to others ("I'm not scared of the dark anymore," they say).

Even with all of this, nobody snitches to the media or government. They all know grown-ups tend to complicate and ruin precious things.

It helps that the night lights clearly can distinguish between different types of situations. Kids whose parents need mental health or addiction support suddenly find they're being contacted by free services that actually help. If ICE is a concern, the people knocking on the door are not cops but immigrant rights activists. Kids who are hungry get food. Families who need housing support coincidentally find it.

"Iron Man will protect you," indeed.

This fic idea was inspired by this post from @fotibrit!!

#tony: see kid I can be a vigilante too #tony: just your friendly neighborhood iron man :)#peter: and I'm very proud of you but did u have to go THAT HARD OMFG #tony: gotta look out for the little guy :)#peter: ACROSS THE ENTIRE WORLD?!#irondad fic ideas #irondad and spiderson #just to be clear peter loves the night light idea and obvs loves the results lol #it's just tony did kinda one-up him at his own game just a Little bit #tony 'dramatic and excessive' stark #tony stark #peter parker #iron man #iron dad and spider son #abusers get rekt #queueueueue #weekly reminder that i love you all but am too busy to be human :)#fic ideas still postponed but you can send asks if you want i just won't see them for a while #see announcements

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ineed-to-sleep · 5 months

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THEY BROUGHT BABY TO THE BATTLE?? THEY ARMOURED BABY??? THEY EXPECT ME TO SEND BABY TO FIGHT?????

^ my face when I discover they expect me to send baby to fight

#NO. NO #YOU SEND BABY BACK TO CAMP RIGHT NOW #bg3 spoilers #bg3 #I understand he's all grown up and he's an owlbear and wants to fight and kill and maim etc I'm very proud of him #but in the middle of all the MIND FLAYERS?? with the NETHERBRAIN???? no. just no #he'll lose health and die so so fast and I will simply enter into a bottomless pit of depression. we can't have that #oc.nawen #sleep.txt

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astronomodome · 1 month

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how much effort can you put into an ironic AU before it stops being ironic...

anyway uh... team ZITS-focused hermitcraft warrior cats AU, anyone?

#hermitclan AU #astro speaks #hermitcraft #i wrote most of this at like 3 in the morning so if it's bad that's why #bonus points to whoever can match each cat to the hermit they are- i indicated most of them but there are some that are tricky #why is cub named cloudscorch? idk. the firework stuff from this season came to mind and i liked the name cloudy for him #to me that's the least obvious name in this list #i'm actually very proud of this

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maxsix · 3 months

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Song Mingi | FIX OFF: Tunnel (2024)

#yes good #song mingi #mingi #ateez #ateez gif #mingi gif #maxsixgif #finally a gif set where the lighting is not fighting me #this whole project is a mood #whatever his intent was? i want to tell him that it was realised #maybe it would've been more strong if the song was longer #but i feel we have been told something very important about him #i say that's my baby and i'm real proud #from the Tunnel mv

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angelcake-222 · 3 months

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these photoshoots are going to be the fucking death of me

#THE ROSES HELLO??!!?#i am LIVING for the nick content lately #i can't wait for my space camp lip balm i'm so excited #so very proud of him 💖#sturniolo triplets #nick sturniolo

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dead-girl-tells-stories · 3 months

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I have another idea for a story, but I once again don't know what to write, so I'm building a skeleton.

It's a DC x DP x ML crossover. Damien, Marinette, and Danny are triplets born into the LoA. From birth, they were taught to not see each other as siblings but as rivals for Ra's attention. When they were five, they were dipped (more like dropped) into the pits for the first time. Danny never comes back out. The second time was when they were six. Damien and Marinette came back from a mission gravely injured. Marinette doesn't come back out. Damien becomes the sole heir.

As one can imagine, Danny and Marinette aren't dead but simply taken to where they were needed at the time. That being said, things for these two characters go mostly according to their respective shows after they integrate into society. With the exception that the two of them are more competent and don't fight like rabid raccoons. But things take a dark turn when they turn sixteen.

Marinette

. After finding out that his father is Hawkmoth, Adrien is unable to carry the weight of being the holder of the cat Miraculous, as he doesn't want to fight his father and gives it to Ladybug. He promptly moves to the States to further his modeling career. Marinette, unable to find someone else worthy to be the holder of the cat Miraculous, stores it away and becomes the sole hero of Paris (with occasional helpers). But because of this, her two lives get more intertwined, and she is forced into a corner where she has to choose between being Ladybuy or Marinette.

. But she doesn't get a chance as Hawkmoth is dethroned and replaced by an even greater threat. She is forced to take on the persona of LadyNoir. Her life crumbles as she tries her hardest to balance her life as a hero and a person. She tries to save everyone but someone always ends up getting hurt. Whether it be her as Marinette, clinging to what little of her life is left. Or her as LadyNoir, with no choice but to watch innocent civilians die because she couldn't think of a better plan that could've saved everyone.

. It gets to the point where she makes an unforgivable wish. But every wish has a cost. She only finds out the price when she is forced to stand behind an invisible wall and watch as her life replays before her eyes, the film slowly burning away till there's nothing left. She cries as she falls into an ocean of familiar Lazarus green.

Danny

. Danny's life is also crumbling around him as he struggles to separate his human life from his ghost half. But after becoming the Ghost King, things only became more complicated and even more dangerous as more ghosts started coming through the portal to challenge him for the crown. And while he would really love to give it away, the guys that kept fighting him for it are very clearly evil. So he has to keep fighting, winning, and solidifying his position as the King of the Infinite Realms. But with every win comes a newfound power. Power he doesn't want. Power that scares him.

. It gets to the point when Danny has to drop out of school. He wasn't even scoring double digits anymore so what was the sense of keeping him? But Danny couldn't stay home either, it was too dangerous as his ghost and human halves were slowly becoming one. And his parents' obsession was slowly becoming a threat to him. He thought he had the solution. He was going to shut down the portal and leave Amity Park.

. It was perfect really, as no ghost portal meant no ghost. And he couldn't be vivisected if neither the GIW nor his parents could catch him. He talked the plan over with team phantom and they reluctantly agreed. The ghost portal is destroyed, and Danny leaves Amity and files over Elmerton and a few other towns. But after flying for a while, Danny gets to a sort of border where nothing meets... NOTHING. On the other side was just an infinite void. Nothing.

. Danny slowly realizes that in this world, all he knew was Amity Park. He never actually traveled or went on field trips. Never went to visit extended family nor did any visit. No one 'new' ever came to Amity Park because they were all just nearby. He learned no relevant history besides Amity Park because there was nothing outside of Amity Park. When the realization had finally set in the world began to crumble into the void and it became a race against him and the void.

. Danny knew that he was fast but the void was faster, and before he knew it he was back in Amity. He was going to warn them and try to save as many people as he could. But saw something in their eyes. They already knew. Danny watched how teary eyes and big smiles, everyone and everything he loved crumbled into the void, fading into nothingness.

Scientists across the galaxy, the universe even, often theorize about how everything came to be. Well, it didn't start with a bang, that's for sure. 'Well then how did it start?' you might ask.

Well..., it started with some tears and a scream.

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cheesecake801 · 5 months

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It's been a while but have drawings I made of @cupcakestreets marvelous designs for Ingo, Emmet and Cilan ! I love them dearly 💖

#submas #pokemon subway boss #subway boss ingo #subway boss emmet #nobori #kudari #cheesecake801art #my art #pokemon cilan #gym leader cilan #ingo and emmet #traditional art #i'm really proud of the 1st one #ngl Ingo is so beautiful in that outfit #I feel like I could just kis-....I-I MEAN UH #NOTHING #i'm very normal about him #also remember Novembmas ? yeah I give up on that haha it was fun so far tho !

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catabasis · 9 months

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the crossover episode between Strange New Worlds and Lower Decks is THE BEST STAR TREK EPISODE since the best episodes of Deep Space Nine. extremely hilarious and moving and an absolute delight. Jack Quaid and Tawny Newsome are BRILLIANT; Jack Quaid especially took the whole 'playing an animated character in live-action' to a whole new level, he was perfect and delightfully cartoonish in the best way. they both ARE Boimler and Mariner, they are and always will be as iconic as the rest of legendary and classic Trek characters

#star trek #strange new worlds #lower decks #brad boimler #beckett mariner #jack quaid #tawny newsome #strange new worlds spoilers #snw spoilers #THEY ARE EVERYTHING TO ME!!#this episode made me immeasurably happy #it's everything i wished for and more #also it was a fun whiplash to see jack quaid yesterday in oppenheimer and today in star trek; i'm very proud of him!#tim.txt

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hoofpeet · 1 year

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pbbt

#hoof draws #replacement ingo au #spice spends 20 (zoroark) years hating and resenting humans for causing untold generational trauma on his species #finally has a human apologize to him . realizes that he's never fully realizes he wanted someone to be sad for him #[ingo voice] you're a very strong boy and i'm proud of you but i'm sorry you had to go through that and i'm going to keep you safe now :]#[spice voice] cool. check out how hard i can cry real quick

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doodle17 · 6 months

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I am enamored with drawing this goofy ass man

#*Old grandma voice*:#What a handsome young man #I like drawing his hair and nose #I always do a little fist pump when I get em just right #I think those are the ones I have a hard time getting right #So when I do get them right I'm happy #I think the nose and hair really make him actually look like “Raz but older”#Maybe the eyes too #But mostly hair nose and headshape #I'm very proud of how these turned out anyways #They'll be part of a bigger illustration I might complete later #Doodles rants #psychonauts au #psychonauts #psychonauts 2 #razputin aquato #psychonauts future

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somegrumpynerd · 7 months

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My idea for how Killer got his first cat while living with Nightmare

Text under the cut in case you can't read my writing:

Killer: Pleeeeeeaaase boss?

Nightmare: You want to bring another destructive creature into my home Killer: Not as destructive as me!

Nightmare: Where did you even find this thing?

Killer: It was on our last exploration run

Killer: He must have been the only one left...

Killer: ...all alone in an abandoned au...

Killer: It seemed like he needed a home

Killer: I couldn't just leave him with nobody like that

Killer: ...cause I know how that feels...

Killer: Sorry for not asking first boss

Nightmare: You will be responsible for any damage it- Killer: WAIT REALLY??

Killer: Thank you boss!! I promsie I'll feed him and train him and only let him bite Dust and make sure he never goes out without... Nightmare: I have gone so soft...

#UTDR #UTMV #Killer Sans #Nightmare Sans #Dadmare #Bad sanses #Dadmare's heart strings are very easily pulled on the more mortals he takes in #Maybe Killer will become more mature and less of a menace now he has this responsibility?#(Narrator voice: he does not.)#He does take good care of the cat tho and names him Freddie Purrcury #I spent so long tweaking this to fix things this is like the fourth version I've drafted #But I'm super proud of it so here we go!!#My Art

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fawnnbinary · 2 months

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Roronoa Zoro - the Demon

#miles.art #digital art #op zoro #pirate hunter zoro #enies lobby #one piece #op fanart #fuckin finally done with this Istarted it WHILE watching this scene and now I'm in dresrossa months later skdjhfskdjgh #now I don't have tofeel bad about him sitting in my folders as a sad wip sketch dkshskjgh #very proud of him tho

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