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dalkyeom · 10 months
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omg pls do talk abt Shua with me!! I've only been a carat for two months and there is so much i still get to discover!! Tell me about your favorite somewhat insane thing Shua has done? Tell me which Shua fit has had you in its clutches ever since you first saw it? Tell me about your favorie Shua smile? What's your favorite thing to draw abt Shua? I am here for anything you'll give me!!!! ✨🥰🌸
I hope you have a lovely day!!
a baby carat?! Welcome to Caratland, nonnie!! enjoy your time here!
How did you get into them? who’s your bias/bias line? 👀 also mood bc I remember when I became a carat last year and it was like 7 years of content to discover 😭 there’s always something new to learn about them also this might get long so—
BSBDD THE SHUA INDULGENCE! amg so out of all the insane things Shua has done, the one thing he did that made me laugh super hard was the suction prince, Shua! segment from One Fine Day 😭😭😭 it surprised me so much like I don’t think any Shua moment can top how funny that was. In the clip, I think it was their free time and some members were trying to make each other laugh. While they were going back and forth, Shua took a bottle and started inhaling it and it was so funny bc it was so random 😭
(it’s at the 37:00 minute mark like istg it’s so funny me describing it won’t do it justice)
other than that, tbh Shua is such a funny dude like his humor is top tier
As for Shua fit— amg nonnie idk what to tell uou bc that man can walk around in the most ridiculous outfit and I would still think he is the most handsome man to make the world his runway.
But if I have to choose it would be the 2021 KBS Song Festival fit like my brain goes insane! HE LIVES FOREVER IN MY HEART! He looks so good in the deep red and the gLOVES. OH MY GOD THE GLOVES THE EVERYTHING HE CAN MARRY ME RN! JSND&2$,!
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Tbh Joshu in gloves…. is my kryptonite. It weakens me bc he looks good with gloves on.
My runner ups would be: Hanbok!Shua from Super mv, Groom!Shua from the FML (Carat ver), his BeTS prince fit (especially the white variant from their Japan leg! Tbh one of my fave looks for ot13)
🥺 shua’s smile is sooo cute tbh! Like especially when he goes nyorong bc I love eye smiles so much. He looks so soft and cute like I want to hold his face in my hands 😔 and we can ✨🌸(nvn)🌸✨ together
as for drawing amg— so tbh, Shua’s my ideal type to draw bc he has very gentle features. Like this man is not super angular (I have Dokey for that. Man is sculpted like a mortal god).
Shua’s facial features is very soft and ethereal so I love drawing and studying him the most. He is very compatible w/ my art style so overall I love drawing his face 🥺 but my favorite part to draw is his eyes bc his eyes are the most striking/key feature of his face. I find the shape unique!
Tysm for letting me indulge in Shua talks, nonnie!! Like tbh he is just so 🥺💖 I love talking about him (and svt in general lol they are my sun)
I hope you’ll have a great day too!
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powerofelvis · 1 year
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Home Sweet Memphis
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Pairing: Elvis Presley x f!reader
Word Count: 3.5K
Summary: You haven’t heard from Elvis ever since you ended things back in California. He wants you to come visit Memphis but you couldn’t imagine the things he had planned for the two of you.
Warnings: Big Daddy!Elvis, fluff, Elvis takes you out on a cute date, smut, car sex, daddy kink, vaginal fingering, unprotected sex
A/N: This was requested by an anon. Nonnie, I hope this finds you well! I also hope that this is the fic that you asked for. This is the last fic for Daisy’s 1K Celebration! I want to thank everyone for sending in their prompts and emojis to celebrate with me. I hope this fic is also special for everyone being that this is the last fic of the celebration! I hope everyone enjoys some Big Daddy to end it all! ;)
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You weren’t familiar with Memphis in the slightest, being that you were a California girl at heart. You were beckoned down to the town by Elvis himself, not having heard from him since he left California to move back home to Graceland. You had to admit that you were once ashamed that you were sleeping with him, knowing that he was married to someone else. The thought ate at you causing you to distance yourself away from him, but all you could think about was what it would be like to see him once more. Your thoughts were answered when you got a phone call after your return from your job down at the local news station. 
“Hello?” You answered as you slid off your heels, grimacing as the pain shot through the heel of your feet, massaging it with one hand while balancing the phone that was up to your ear with the other. “Baby.” Your breath caught in your throat at the southern twang that made your world spin. It was Elvis and he was calling you on his own, not sparing the aching feeling that was in your chest as you nearly dropped the phone. “Elvis?” Your breath shook with nervousness as you sucked it back into your lungs, holding your breath slightly as you waited for him to respond. “It’s me, darlin’. How have you been?” He chuckled, knowing that you were holding your breath, but he knew that you were waiting for him to call you. 
“I’ve been good, just been busy down at that station. What can I do for you?” You asked as you sat down on the futon that sat near the phone, holding the phone with your shoulder as you played with your fingers, wondering what he could want from you after a couple of years of not hearing from him. “I wanted to invite ya down ta’ Memphis. I missed ya terribly, darlin’, I want ta’ see ya. Would you come to me?” He spoke with gentleness, making your body melt against the futon as you bit down on your bottom lip. “I’m sure that I can come down, I don’t have anything going on. When do you want me to come down?” You asked, nibbling at your bottom lip as you waited for his answer. You were beside yourself, knowing that you did have something going on at your job but in the back of your mind, you were willing to put all of that to the side to be by his side once again. 
“Could ya come tomorrow? I’ll send my jet down to pick ya up.” He said, his southern drawl had a hint of longing in his voice. As long as you knew Elvis, you knew that you would come to regret it if you turned him down because you weren’t sure that you would ever hear from him again. “Alright, I’ll be ready tomorrow.” You spoke, keeping things short and sweet as you were surprised that you were hearing from him in the first place. “Sounds good, baby. Look, I have to go. The damn Colonel is on my back again, but I can’t wait to see ya again, mama. I love ya.” You let out a slight gasp as you gripped the phone in your hands as you hummed. 
That night, you spent packing everything that you could in your suitcase. It was needless to say that you also didn’t get any sleep because of the butterflies that fluttered in your stomach. Elvis told you that his jet would arrive promptly at 9 AM, so you made your way to the airport thirty minutes beforehand. Your nail polish was chipped as you spent the morning picking at your fingers, the nerves picking up as you noticed that his jet was arriving. The flight back to Memphis went by without any hitches and you managed to repaint your nails as you knew that you had to look presentable for him. Soon enough, you were pulling up into the gates of his sacred home, the butterflies picking up with each passing moment as you neared the front door. 
Elvis opened the door, a smile on his face as he watched you exit the car. His arms stretched out as he beckoned you to him, dropping your suitcase as you ran to him. “Oh baby, it’s so good ta’ see you. You still look beautiful.” He whispered in your ear as his arms squeezed you tightly. You could have melted on the spot, his scent lingering in your nostrils as you nuzzled into his chest. The last that you had seen Elvis, he told you that he would still be waiting for you if you wanted to leave your life behind to be with him in Memphis. You knew that you couldn’t be with him while he was married, not wanting to be the other woman while he had a wife and child waiting on him at home. However, things are different now. His marriage didn’t work out and now Priscilla and Lisa were living in California, not far from you but you tried not to think about that at this moment. 
The only thing that you could think about was how you were back with Elvis again, in his arms at his home. He led you inside, shouting over his shoulder at one of his men to leave your suitcase outside of his bedroom door. Things were really different now, you were going to sleep in his room. You tried to keep your cool, walking beside him as he showed you around, introducing you to the staff that he quoted ‘keeps my house intact while I’m gone’. While you were sitting at the piano, Elvis came up behind you, wrapping his arms around your body as he nuzzled into your neck. “I want to take ya out tonight. Just the two of us, show ya some of my favorite places that I used to go when I was a kid.” He whispered. 
You nodded, pressing the keys on the piano gently before turning around to face him. “I would be honored to be your date tonight.” You giggled as your eyes lingered on his face, taking in every crevice of his beautiful features. You spent the day with Elvis, taking in the sights of Graceland before it was time for you to get ready for your date with him. You decided on a nice blue turtleneck with your corduroy dress and black heels. You stood in his bathroom, pinning your hair up as you hummed tunes. You didn’t notice that Elvis was standing at the door, watching you with longing in his eyes until his voice made you jump. “You look beautiful, darlin’. You always looked so beautiful.” He chuckled, your body turning to face him as you blushed. 
He made his way over to you, pushing a loose strand of your hair behind your ear as he captured your lips in a gentle kiss. “You always looked like a doll, baby. I always wanted to keep ya protected and safe, but I know that things were a bit complicated. I’m sorry that I put ya through hell because of my own selfish needs.” He whispered, his eyes holding sincerity as he held your face in his hands. Your heart jumped into your throat as you held your breath, looking into his cerulean hues as he pulled you into his arms. “It’s okay, Elvis. I’m sorry for leaving your side. I knew that you needed me, but I couldn’t stand being the other woman when you had a wife.” You tried to explain yourself, but Elvis placed a finger to your lips. “It’s quite alright, darlin’. You’re here now and that makes it much better. Are ya ready to go?” 
You nodded as his fingers laced with yours, leading you out of his bathroom through his bedroom. You were in awe of his home, taking in pieces that you didn’t notice on your way up the stairs as you made your way back down to the foyer. He grabbed his keys, taking your hand once again as he led you out of the house. The sun was still up, but you could tell by the colors that littered within the clouds that the sun would soon set. He opened the passenger side to his car, you managed to utter a simple word of thanks as you got comfortable in your seat. Elvis got around to the other side, starting the car before placing his hand on your thigh as he made his way out of the gates of Graceland. 
Elvis would make his way through Memphis, pointing to different landmarks that he frequented as a teenager, telling stories about things that happened to him. One of the landmarks was Sun Records, but the story was something that everyone already knew. He was only a 19 year old boy, nervously wanting to put his voice out there. He didn’t know that it would change his life significantly, but you couldn’t help but think that if he had never stepped foot into Sun Records, he wouldn’t have come into your life. You squeezed the hand that never left your thigh, rubbing your manicured nail across his knuckles as you listened to him reminisce about his early days. 
He even took you to the drive-in that he would go to with his friends, where you both ate burgers and fries with a peanut butter and banana milkshake that he claimed was the best in all of Memphis. He would ask you about how your life was going after he left, listening intently as you told him about how you had gotten the job at the new station as a news anchor. “I’m proud of ya, doll. You seemed to have everything that you had ever wanted, that’s good to hear.” He spoke, his eyes still holding that look of sincerity that was in his eyes as he watched you in the bathroom. “Ya know, mama? I could only hope that you would come down to see me, all I could think about was you. How I was a fool to think that I could move on with my life with ya in it.” He moved his hand back to your thigh, his thumb moving up your leg. 
You shivered, biting down on your lip as you watched his thumb moving along your skin. “Let’s get out of here, darlin’. I have one more thing ta’ show ya.” He whispered as he threw away the wrappings of your food. He made his way to a meadow, the sun now set and the moon shining bright. You could hear the water moving down the stream that sat in the middle of the meadow, the rocks shining under the moon’s beaming light. “It’s beautiful here, Elvis. What’s the story behind this place?” You turned to face him, raising a brow as you noticed that he was playing with his long fingers, his eyes burning a hole into your gaze. “This place is just where I can escape from all of the responsibilities of my life. I would come here when things got too tight with the colonel houndin’ me about what I could and couldn’t do. But I wanted ta’ bring ya here because I wanted to tell ya something.” 
“What is it, Elvis? Is something wrong?” You asked, tilting your head as you watched him, his body scooting closer to you as he pulled you into his arms. “I asked ya to come down here to Memphis because I love ya, doll. Ever since ya left me, I haven’t been right. You are the only thing in my life that makes sense. So, I want ya to move down here with me. I want ya to be my girl. Would ya?” Elvis asked, his hands still roaming along your thighs as he waited for your answer. You weren’t thinking about your career back in California or anything else for that matter as you nodded your head eagerly. “Yes, I’ll be your girl, Elvis. Of course, you didn’t have to think otherwise.” You whispered as you pressed your lips to his, tears falling down your cheeks as you realized that it was all that you ever wanted to be his. 
As you and Elvis were tangled in a passionate kiss, his hands roamed up your thighs before they pushed your dress up. “I’m gonna make new memories here with ya, darlin’.” He whispered in your ear as his fingers moved further up your legs before resting on your clothed core. You shivered as you felt his cool fingers rubbing circles over your quivering vulva. His lips were nipping and sucking at every inch of skin that he could get to before he pulled away, unsnapping your dress before pulling it over your head. You followed by pulling your turtleneck over your torso, your hair falling in your eyes. “You’re still so beautiful, doll. It’s like you’re made just for me.” He whispered as he unclasped your bra with ease, placing his hands on your breasts as he pressed wet kisses on your skin. 
You gasped as you threw your head back, rubbing your thighs together as his hands roamed along your body. “Oh lord, darlin’. You’re so wet already, only by my lips, hm?” He taunted you as he hooked his fingers along your panty line before yanking them down your legs with ease. There you were once again, naked in his eyes but he didn’t have any of his clothes off of his body. You giggled, pushing his jacket off of his shoulders as you hurriedly tried to get a glance at his body. Elvis raised a brow, noticing that your fingers were shaking as you unbuttoned his shirt, pushing it off of his shoulders. His body glowed under the moonlight, causing a shiver to glide down your spine. 
“You’re the beautiful one, Daddy.” You uttered, your eyes gazing over his torso, taking in every strand of his chest hair that littered his skin. He followed your lead, hurriedly unbuckling his belt before pushing the button of his trousers open, before unzipping the zipper. Your mouth was watering as his hardened cock was present in your gaze, biting down on your bottom lip as he pushed you in between the front seat, urging you to get comfortable in the back. “Call me Daddy again, darlin’. Say it.” His deep voice filled your ears, your thighs rubbing together once again for some sort of friction. “Daddy, please touch me.” You whispered as he crawled on top of you. His thumb traced your jaw before rubbing across your bottom lip. You opened your mouth, allowing the digit to enter as your tongue wrapped around it. 
Elvis groaned, removing the digit from your mouth before he placed it on your clit. You gasped, arching your back as he began rubbing circles on the quivering bud. “Daddy is gonna treat ya real nice, darlin’. Like you deserve to be, my lil’ doll.” He whispered as his finger pushed inside of you. “Oh! Oh Daddy, Oh!” You shivered, your pussy clenching around the digit as he rubbed the digit along your walls. He stared down at you, his cerulean hues burning behind his glasses as he curled his finger inside of you. Your toes were curling, goosebumps forming on your skin as he added another digit inside of you. “I’m gonna get ya prepared for me, darlin’. Are ya ready for Daddy?” He spoke as his tongue licked along the shell of your ear. 
You could have come right then and there, his wet muscle sending another shiver down your spine as you nodded your head eagerly. “I’m ready, Daddy. Please, I need you.” You weren’t lying, you needed him and you knew that he knew the same. He removed his fingers from you, watching with adoration in his eyes as he noticed the glistening on his digits. “Mmm, I’ll give ya what ya need, darlin’.” He whispered as he lined himself with your entrance before pushing inside. Your breath hitched in your throat, sucking in a breath as he filled you to the hilt. You wrapped your legs around his waist, pushing him deeper until the tip of his cock hit your cervix. “You fill me so good, Daddy. Please.” You whined, eyes rolling into your head as you held on to Elvis tightly. 
Elvis chuckled in your ear as his hips began moving slowly inside of you. “Is that right, doll? My little doll takes care of her daddy so well, mm.” He moaned as he placed his lips back onto yours, his tongue pushing past your lips as it tangled with yours. You moved your hands into his hair; tugging on the raven colored locks, whining against his lips. Your life in California couldn’t compare to the feeling of being in Elvis’ arms again, his cock buried inside of you. You missed him so much, but you never would have thought that he felt the same about you. At that moment, Elvis pulled away from your lips as his fingers tilted your head up to look at him. “Keep your eyes on your daddy, little darlin’. Watch how good I make you feel.” He whispered, a slight smile on his lips as he sped up his thrusts. 
You gasped as his cock slammed inside of you, hitting your cervix with each stroke. Your nails dug into his skin, eyes never leaving him as his hair flopped on his forehead. His medallion resting in between your breasts as he grunted on top of you. His hips moved smoothly into you, whispering sweet nothing in your ears as he made love to you in the backseat of his car. As this was nothing new between you, it was new as you were in his hometown and he had just officially made you his woman. You couldn’t fight the tears that fell down your cheeks as you watched Elvis bring you closer and closer to your peak. The slapping of skin, the sweat dripping from his body were driving you crazy. His grunts and growls were like music to your ears. “Oh sweet baby Jesus, Daddy. I’m gonna cum.” You whispered, tugging at his hair once again as your orgasm crashed over you. 
Elvis smirked, taking his bottom lip between his teeth as he caressed your jaw. He fucked you through your orgasm, pushing your leg up until it laid beside your head as he ravished your body with each hard thrust into you. The car shook with each connection, your body shivering as he hit every spot inside of you. “Oh fuck, little doll. I’m gonna-,” He grunted as he spurted inside of you, coating your walls with his warm seed. You whined, digging your nails into his back as he collapsed on top of you as he struggled to catch his breath. Your leg rested on his shoulder, causing a little ache from the stretch but you were so happy that you were tangled into his arms again. Elvis opened his eyes, your hands reaching up to pull his glasses off of his face so that you could gaze into his electric blues. 
“That was amazing, Daddy. I really missed having you inside of me.” You giggled as you pressed a heated kiss to his lips. “It was the same for me, little doll. I love ya.” He spoke with such conviction as he pulled his flaccid cock out of you, eliciting a hiss from you from the friction of his cock rubbing against you. He pushed himself up, pulling his trousers back up over his hips, tucking his cock away before helping you up from your position in the back seat. As you put your clothes back on, Elvis never left your side almost clinging to your body as if you would disappear. “I’m not going anywhere, baby. I’m your woman now, so I think we can make this change work.” You giggled. “Would ya want to maybe move to Memphis then?” He tilted his head to look at you, your jaw dropping as you thought about your job and your life back home in California. 
You would have to quit the news station and sell your condo, but you were willing to do anything to be by Elvis’ side once again. “I don’t see why not, Elvis! What else could go wrong?” You giggled as he peppered kisses along your face, helping you out of the car. He led you over to the stream that you noticed when you first arrived, his arms wrapping around your waist as he hummed in your ear. “I’m so glad that I got ya back, mama. I’m never letting you go again.” He whispered. In the first time of your life, you were sure that he was being truthful and he would work just as hard as you would to ensure that you both would never part again. Goodbye California, but you had a new life to look forward to. Your new life with the man that you loved so much was beginning and you couldn’t wait to see how it would develop as Memphis became your new home. 
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wonusite · 4 months
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Jeongcheol anon here. Would like to officially be known as 🥀 nonnie if it's not taken. Also I was worried that it was too long?? idk but I'm happy you found it good. Also here's another thought thot :
Jeongcheol telling you that they want to try something new - tying you up. You agree without a second thought. Being restricted while two hot men have a heavy makeout session on top of you...who'd reject that offer. So you lay there, naked and tied to the bed post with silk ties. You know the safeword but you trust them to know your limits so you don't think you'll use it.
Hannie and cheollie are both naked. Cheollie looks like a Greek god with his delectable muscles and jeonghan just looks etherial. They're on their knees beside you, jeonghan leaning over you shivering body to hold cheol with both hands and kiss him. A trail of spit connects the two and you can see their tongues fight for dominance. Cheol grips hannie's shafts and strokes and strokes and strokes. You're getting hotter and wetter by the second. Hannie trails a hand down cheol's body, it's as though his memorizing each and every ridge of his body. Soon they're both stroking each other and you're moaning like crazy, begging them to touch you too.
They break apart. Peck each once more before cheol demands that you open your mouth, you do, and he spits. Jeonghan smears cheol's precum on along pussy before placing his head between your legs and eating you out like it's his last meal. Meanwhile, cheol adjusts his position so that he can comfortably kiss you and play with your boobs. Your body is shaking furiously, unable to take the pleasure you're receiving and cheol breaks your kiss to whisper every so softly, "come on hannie's tongue baby"
You let go, never one to defy seungcheol, and jeonghan laps it all up. He crawls towards cheol and kisses him so that eldest can taste your sweet nectar.
"you're devine" but you're unsure whether cheol was talking to you or hannie.
"you've been such a good girl for us, angel. Want me to untie you," hannie asks and you babble yes. Neither of them has come yet and your sure they're going to use you to get to their own release.
Heaven's truly a place on earth.
the emoji is all yours ❤️ and once again you ate omfgggg 🥵🥵🥵
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raitonsfw · 2 months
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will be posting the rest of my anon thirsts and hcs today! (probably)
also wanted to make it known to my anons that you're more than welcome to pick an emoji out if ya want - just so we can communicate better while you also remain anonymous! let me know in my ask box obvi lol.
currently the only assigned emoji i have is for my 🕊️ nonnie, hehe. the rest are up for grabs!
i keep all of the assigned emojis in my about me so you and myself are able to keep track of which ones are taken.
i also keep my tags, taglist, and just fun facts about me there too.
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wooahaes · 9 months
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hi! (first time sending an ask so pls lmk if anyone has this emoji but-) i completely agree w/ u that writers should put a warning or smth that the fanfic will be catered to a certain body type as ive read fanfic w/o that and have felt insecure. not saying these writers are intentionally trying to make ppl feel bad, but they need to realize that sometimes their works do cater to thin/skinny body types and letting readers know that rly isnt a big deal. ty for always speaking ur truth! - 🐱 anon
hi nonny! im gonna answer all ur asks in one go <3 (no need to apologize for spamming! i had a moment of 'oh fuck did i say something wrong' but thats just anxiety brain speaking haha)
honestly! i genuinely don't mind if writers wanna intentionally write works for a thinner reader, it'd just be nice for them to write in a little warning at the beginning of the fic <3 i write chubby readers and mark 'em with chubby!reader so my audience knows, nothing wrong w doing it the other way around!
i also wanna say, i remember looking up "seventeen x chubby reader", "svt x chubby reader", or smth along those lines on tumblr but just knowing almost nothing will pop up 💔. until i saw a little fanfic called "tiger stripes" and was baffled that someone actually wrote something that had someone like me in mind. i remember feeling and being so happy about it. just thank you for your svt x chubby reader works because u make us chubby carats feel so seen 🫶🏼 - 🐱 anon
aaaa ty lovely!! im a chubby gal myself so i love writing chubby!reader fics from time to time when inspiration strikes <3 usually i try to keep everything body neutral so that anyone can enjoy my fics (even in my chubby reader fics, i try not to specify how big reader is so that anyone bigger can enjoy them), but sometimes i just gotta aim something for the chubby gals out there <3 tiger stripes is one of my most beloved fics and it genuinely makes me happy to think of my own stretch marks as tiger stripes hehe <3
ah anyway !! hope im not a bother w/ my asks !! i just wanted to tell u this despite my shyness bc idk, i rly feel like u needed to hear it 🙏🏼 anyway, i also wanna add ur a rly good writer and keep on doing what ur doing 👍🏼 - 🐱 anon
u are 100000% fine!! i love talking to anons and ur always welcome to pop into my inbox whenever you feel like it <3 + it does always help to hear that other chubby carats enjoy my work!! mwah mwah ur so sweet
tw fatphobia mentions (nothing explicitly fatphobic tho) // omg though.. i remember finding this [redacted] x reader fic and bc it appeared under the [removed] tag (smth like that) and i assumed that it was catered to fat ppl. but unfortunately it turned out to be incredibly fatphobic w/ it's themes, plot, + y/n. im not saying u have to be fat to write "x fat reader" fanfic but perhaps step away from writing for ppl u have no understanding of if ur gna write stuff like that.. - 🐱 anon
redacting the guy + the tag from your ask purely to try and avoid anyone tracking down the writer by any means! i trust my followers to not do something like that, but i'd feel better reducing that risk in any way <3
oh yikes! i think like... its worth it to sometimes address fatphobia in writing, but that kind of stuff 100% needs a warning! one of my current fic ideas involves a reader who is confident in her body but kinda relapses back to a previous mindset of 'maybe i Should be ashamed of it' after being fully insulted for being a bigger gal and the fic would absolutely have a warning.
i do agree that you def do not have to be a bigger person to write chubby/fat reader fics, but its definitely something you need to be mindful of when you wanna handle the heavier topics. im always happy to weigh in with my own thoughts + experiences, and im sure other people would be, too! no shame in trying to address it in themes/plot, but there's def a difference between endorsing those ideas and discussing them (and i'll say i have no idea which was being done in this fic)
(btw: no one go looking for this writer to say anything to them btw, we do not promote harassment on this blog--anon ur 100% fine to express ur opinions since i've seen fatphobia in reader fics, too, and it's okay to express discomfort with the idea. i'm always open to discussing things as long as they don't point too directly to anyone's work--and i'm equally open to taking down anything that pinpoints a certain writer.)
anyway ur 100% fine to send as many asks as u want!! im always happy to talk to people esp abt topics like this (or in general too!) <3 ty for being polite tho mwah mwah ur v cute
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garoujo · 2 years
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hello! if it's not an issue can i be an anon? idk i just like the concept of it
also! is it okay if i sometimes bring my thots (thirsty thoughts) and thoughts (non-thirsty thoughts) here to you?
hiiii ! omgosh ofc u can be an anon u don’t have 2 ask ! if u want a particular emoji like ‘🧸 nonnie’ then let me know wen ur on anon n i can tag u as tht (ღ˘⌣˘ღ) ur thoughts are always welcome here so absolutely feel free <3 !
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marc-spectorr · 2 years
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Hey babe 😍
anywayyy, hey! if you don’t mind, can i ask three random facts about you 🥺👉👈. no pressure ofc! totally cool with it if you don’t want to :)
You can ask me anything sweetheart. Ok let's see what could I tell you... 1. I'm a pretty huge Harry Potter Fan (Potterhead if you will). I grew up with it and it's my childhood and I'll die with it in my heart, that I'm sure of. (I'm a Hufflepuff by the way) what's your house, if you know? 💛⚡ 2. I'm blonde and I actually have the nickname "Sun" from a friend. And one of my sisters calls me "sunshine." So when you called me Sunnie the first time, I thought it was the coolest thing in the world.🌞 3. I decided for the 🌻 emoji because they're my favorite flowers. Whenever I see sunflowers, no matter where I'm smiling. Bonus/4. My favorite color is yellow. (I love all colors but yellow somehow for me is the one that I feel a connection to.) Maybe it's because yellow is the color of Hufflepuff, sunshine, sunflowers, spaghetti? I think it makes sense in a way 😅💛
Btw I'd really just reveal myself to you and talk with you throughout DMs but I fear that it takes the magic away. And I've made bad experiences with that here in tumblr... but I love you and I hope you know that. Your blog is my comfort zone here. You are amazing and I love writing to/with you. 💛💛💛
Have a great day sweetheart.
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ahhh oh my gosh, thank you for sharing sweetheart!!! it honestly makes me happy getting to know you a little bit more (same goes for the other lovely nonnies we have here!)
ok i feel like i’m the only person on this planet who has not seen a single harry potter movie 🥲 again, i just never got around to watching those films :(( i did go to the hp world at universal studios a couple of times and was totally enchanted by it haha. but according to my friends, i’m a slytherin (?) not really sure what that means tho 😵‍💫
oOo fellow blonde here too!! well, not naturally lololol. i’ve been blonde for several years now and even though the maintenance is a hassle, i just love the look hehe.
yellow is such a happy color omg and it’s so cool that it’s your fave one! and sunflowers are so beautiful, i cant wait for september bc there’s this cute farm that has sunflower picking events and it’s just a fun activity to do in a really pretty place :))
also, there’s no pressure to reveal yourself! anon or not, i looove having you here bestie and just the fact that i get to talk to you is truly more than enough for me! you’re such a wonderful person and i get so excited every time you send a message 💗
hope you enjoy your day sunnie!!
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hotsugarkrp · 1 month
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jumping on the bandwagon to say i agree with the other anon post and their concerns. i’m reaching out as a mun whose muse has talked to the majority of the rp but only has a handful of dms and interactions weekly. i’ve also heard the same feedback from the few people my muse has talked to, so this may be an issue many are relating to.
i know there isn’t much the admins can do when a lot of socializing happens in DMs; you all are doing the best you can do and i see that and appreciate everything you’ve been doing thus far. from what i’ve been hearing though, it’s pretty daunting to reach out to the admins regarding one or a group of people they may believe are bubble rping because of a lack of proof to back up that claim besides “this person hasn’t replied to me in days but i see them actively posting on their story, main feed, and group chats.” you also don’t want to seem like /that/ person who doesn’t respect a mun’s time while they’re online.
additionally, i don’t know how plausible reaching out about a specific muse is if only one person is reaching out about them. it’s also not like members can reach out to other muses/muns about it either because then that’s gossiping. this is all to say that calling out a person or groups may not be something everyone is comfortable doing. on the other side of the spectrum, some muns may feel overwhelmed with the amount of attention their muse(s) receive, so wagging a finger at them may do more harm than good.
a potential solution could be encouraging mun’s to be more communicative if they’re swamped with interactions, or making a new system similar to the ‘emoji after 3 days for response’ method since many feel a little embarrassed to reply after ghosting for so long, and others do not feel comfortable double (or often triple) replying.
it is such a let down and a huge kick to the confidence when your muse tries to socialize but no one gives them time to get to know them, especially if they don’t have a group to fall back on. so rather than targeting specific people, it might be beneficial to create a system everyone can utilize to avoid people feeling overwhelmed or lonely at hot sugar.
Hi nonny.
Reaching out to us about something like bubble rping isn't as scary as you might think. We as a team are here to listen to you, and we genuinely care about the health of this community. If you think someone is engaging in this sort of exclusive behavior, chances are we as admins have noticed it too! But we like to give people the benefit of the doubt, so unless it's obvious that someone is face hogging or bubble rp'ing, etc, we don't usually initiate an investigation unless one or more of our members reports it directly to the mod account. Because even though we do our best to talk to everyone in the community that we can with our own muses, it very well could be that maybe our muses just don't vibe with theirs or they're interacting with a group of different muses we just haven't gotten a chance to yet.
Which is why we ask our members to come talk to us and report something if they notice it. When we investigate, we look at their public interactions first, like posts, comments, and any presence in public chats. And then, if those give us cause for concern, we approach them and ask them to provide proof that private interactions beyond their group or ship are happening. If our investigation shows that bubble rp'ing is not happening and they just might be behind on their dm's, that's fine! No harm done. Your report will be kept confidential and we can all move on.
At the end of the day, we are a large community and we expect our members to engage with that community in some capacity. Whether it's privately in dm's with people outside of your muse's assumed circle, interacting in public group chats, making genuine comments on posts (more than what's required for your ac), hosting/joining hyperbeams or listening parties, etc. What we're looking for here is the effort to interact with the community. We know it can be daunting for members to reply to a community of over 200, and that's not what we're asking for. But if you're making a genuine effort, we see and encourage that.
We do hear your suggestion, and we always want to encourage our members to be communicative about their ability to interact with others. If you're overwhelmed or just busy irl, post a checkin! If you feel the need to reach out ooc after ghosting for personal reasons, do so! 9/10 times, our members are understanding and happy to move past any awkwardness with a quick and simple apology. But at that point, it's on you to take some responsibility for how you're engaging in the community.
The mod team does what we can to be encouraging, but after getting a wide assortment of asks and messages about selective rping and face hogging, we have to do something about it to keep our community healthy. Unfortunately, that does mean removing some people who aren't interested in being or able to be a part of the community. But if you have ideas on how to encourage members to be more communicative and welcoming, we're all ears! ❤
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madame-fear · 8 months
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https://www.tumblr.com/blog/view/madame-fear/727678834410995712
BABY SHAVING 💀💀💀💀😭😭😭 I imagine you like this: “ayo 📸🤨 who’s buzzing?”
I always thought babies that grew their hair out pretty quickly and had to be shaved was because they would grow healthier hair after that, I didn’t know it was because of infections but tbh it makes sense since they’re so sensitive and the skin gets irritated easily (at least from what I know) it can cause some problems so better be careful
Also I wanna be 🔎 anon pls, I find this emoji really cute so I wanna use it
CHEUKDKDKS I was angrily crying out when getting my hair shaved, LIKE BITCH THIS LOOKS GOOD ON ME WHAT DO YOU MEAN I NEED TO SHAVE IT??? I was born petty because i remember how much i FROWNED and disliked the moment afterwards 😭
It also is because it helps them grow healthier hair, but I also had sone placental tissue (??? ykwim, like some sticky liquids from being born😭) on my hair and they didn’t want that to cause an infection so they immediately had it removed.
But from my baby understanding (zero LMAOO) they just shaved it bc they wouldn’t let me be and none could stand my shiny bby hair👺 SO ALL MY NEWBORN PICTURES ARE WITH ME ANGRILY FROWNING, CRYING, SHAVED AND WITH LITTLE ROUND GOLDEN EARRINGS BECAUSE MY MUM BROUGHT WITH HER TO THE HOSPITAL A WHOLE SET OF CLOTHING FOR ME AND EARRINGS 😭😭shaved but not defeated, i slayed on my own way
Also THANK YOU FOR IDENTIFYING YOURSELF AS AN ANON <33 I love that emoji so i know who i’m talking to. Ily already nonnie 😭🥴💖
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gorejo · 2 years
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(new anon here!) RIN you eavesdropper tell your woman that she’s the most talented fic writer I have ever stumbled upon. I genuinely haven’t felt so deeply and indulged in fics like I have with hers. did you know she also archived her other blog?? i was the shocked pikachu face for a solid 2 mins this morning LOL but ik she’ll post the pieces she wants to again so my heart is still happy knowing they’re not gone forever. p.s. give me your hand in marriage pls rin can get in line ;) - 🐋🦈🐋🦈
aw wait )) : you’ll be my first emoji anon for this blog !! YAAY (*´▽`*)
And oh my… you are too kind with your compliments nonnie thank you sighhhh 😭 But rip yes, I left fairly abruptly but!! Glad to see you here with me again !! I’ll be reuploading my fics slowly, so if there’s a particular one you want to see again just let me know !! Happy to have you here with me 🐋 🦈 nonnie ^^
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raitoclouds · 2 months
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i go by aeris and or lighte. though on this blog, i sign my name as aeris in my tags.
i go by they/them pronouns but i'm fine with gendered pet names (just don't go overboard kay?)
genderfluid & somewhere on the ace spectrum.
this is not my main blog! so when i follow & like certain accounts & posts, look out for @/katicature instead.
i also run a y/n reader blog, by the sister name of @raitonsfw.
my profile picture is bijou from hamtaro! (matching pfp with my other blog haha)
my star sign is virgo. my moon sign is cancer. my rising sign is sagittarius.
i like coffee, tigers, books, the moon/sun/stars/universe, cosplay, video games, & black/white aesthetics.
i dislike messy spaces, loud-mouthed people, fandom arguments, illness, & abhorrent behavior.
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𝕣𝕒𝕚𝕥𝕠𝕔𝕝𝕠𝕦𝕕𝕤 ☁︎ | marked on every post.
𝕣𝕒𝕚𝕥𝕠𝕔𝕝𝕠𝕦𝕕𝕤 𝕣𝕖𝕓𝕝𝕠𝕘𝕤 ❥ | reblogs of exquisite works.
𝕒𝕖𝕣𝕚𝕤 𝕚𝕤 𝕚𝕟 𝕥𝕙𝕣𝕖𝕒𝕕𝕤 ˚₊‧꒰ა ☁︎ ໒꒱‧₊˚ | my threadfics.
𝕒𝕖𝕣𝕚𝕤 𝕠𝕗𝕗𝕖𝕣𝕤 𝕕𝕣𝕒𝕓𝕓𝕝𝕖𝕤 ʚ° ☁︎ °ɞ | my drabbles.
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𝕒𝕖𝕣𝕚𝕤 𝕒𝕟𝕟𝕠𝕦𝕟𝕔𝕖𝕞𝕖𝕟𝕥𝕤 ➥ | regarding important posts.
𝕒𝕖𝕣𝕚𝕤 𝕤𝕡𝕖𝕒𝕜𝕤 ✧ | stupid shit i talk about.
𝕒𝕖𝕣𝕚𝕤 𝕒𝕤𝕜𝕤 𝕪𝕠𝕦 ◇ | voting polls/questions.
𝕒𝕖𝕣𝕚𝕤 𝕙𝕒𝕤 𝕤𝕠𝕞𝕖 𝕙𝕖𝕒𝕕𝕔𝕒𝕟𝕠𝕟𝕤 ࿏ | my headcanons.
𝕒𝕖𝕣𝕚𝕤 𝕝𝕚𝕘𝕙𝕥𝕖. 𝕟𝕒𝕧𝕚 ⚲ | navigation posts.
{emoji} nonnie | assigned emoji anons.
𝕒𝕟𝕠𝕟 𝕖𝕞𝕠𝕛𝕚𝕤
if you want a specific emoji assigned to you so it's easier for us to communicate, let me know when you send an ask in! i will post it here so no one else can use it and to remind me.
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bucksfucks · 3 years
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who am i?
my name is eleanor (or nora) and i’m 22 years old. my star sign is a virgo and you can follow my astrology account @awitchyvirgo for more! i go by she/her pronouns & i am still learning about my sexuality — from what i’ve learned, i consider myself to be pansexual.
do i take requests?
the short answer is no — but the long is answer is sort of? i like to write what you guys want to see, so you’ll see that we brainstorm a lot over here! but, i cannot write every single concept unfortunately, so please remember that <3
what do i do?
i’m currently a full time graduate student working on my masters. that’s all i am comfortable with revealing, but if you need any tips or advice on school needs, just send an ask!
fun facts!
i speak a lot of languages & i love to travel. i’m a vegan who also loves to bake and hike! my guilty pleasure is youtuber drama and my comfort shows are bones, the office, and friends (amongst many others)
will i ever do a face reveal?
no. the internet is forever and unfortunately, not everyone is nice in this community and that’s just simply not something that i want to risk. thank you for understanding <3
my asks are always open:
i’m here for you and we’re all friends! if you ever need advice, someone to talk to, or just have some horny thoughts—i’m here! (please note that my asks have been buggy!)
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WEEKLY AU’S ;
[ 𝐫𝐨𝐨𝐦𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐞 𝐦𝐨𝐧𝐝𝐚𝐲 ˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ ]
[ 𝐝𝐢𝐥𝐟 𝐭𝐮𝐞𝐬𝐝𝐚𝐲 。:°ஐ ]
[ 𝐝𝐚𝐝’𝐬 𝐛𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐟𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐝 𝐰𝐞𝐝𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐝𝐚𝐲 *⑅୨୧* ]
[ 𝐛𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐟𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐮𝐫𝐬𝐝𝐚𝐲 ღೃ* ]
[ 𝐩𝐨𝐫𝐧𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫 𝐟𝐫𝐢𝐝𝐚𝐲 ♡˳·˖✶ ]
[ 𝐚𝐧𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐠𝐨𝐞𝐬 𝐨𝐧 𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐤𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐬 ✩⡱]
𝐞𝐥’𝐬 𝐚𝐝𝐯𝐢𝐜𝐞 𝐜𝐨𝐫𝐧𝐞𝐫 ⋆*✩⑅◡̈⃝* ⟶ this is how i tag asks that may be useful/offer advice!
bucky barnes/steve rogers/chris evans/neighbour!bucky/etc.... ⟶ i tag all au’s & characters & actors <3
𝐫𝐞𝐭𝐢𝐫𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐚𝐠𝐬 ; (if you’re ever curious)
𝐛𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐟𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐝’𝐬 𝐝𝐚𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐮𝐫𝐬𝐝𝐚𝐲 ༉‧₊˚✧ ⟶ WEEKLY AU
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𝐥𝐢𝐛𝐫𝐚𝐫𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐮𝐫𝐬𝐝𝐚𝐲 ˘͈ᵕ˘ ⟶ WEEKLY AU
𝐩𝐨𝐫𝐧𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫 𝐟𝐫𝐢𝐝𝐚𝐲 ੈ♡˳·˖✶ ⟶ WEEKLY AU [see updated tag]
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frogtanii · 3 years
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Wind anon’s reaction to “xxiii. exiled” in PF! Two days late; but here! Okay, I’m just gonna dive right into it
Iwaizumi starting off strong with a “anyone mind telling me what the (fudge) just happened” (yes, wind anon tries not to curse. It’s a thing). The irony is that he was there the entire time. So he may have saw YN barge into Meiko’s room. He may have heard YN call Meiko a female dog. But he also heard and saw Meiko slap YN first. So it’s honestly amusing that he’s the one asking what happened. I guess he’s in disbelief sure... but is it rude for wind anon to like him not knowing what’s going on? Because this means he has to know what happened before YN got slapped. What caused her to be so angry at Meiko? What did she whisper to Meiko? Iwaizumi is in the best place to get on YN squad right now and that is the most ironic thing I’ve seen so far. But moving on...
Meiko... you made it physical first... YN’s been carrying the entire house so hard that there is no way she isn’t strong as heck. Suga’s POV was indeed simping for YN but I might write another poem just on YN’s eyes. Every day we are reminded of YN Supremacy. But back on track, Meiko’s text really does match the fact she had mascara running down her face and she is a mess. I’m impressed by her usage of the emoji actually, because I didn’t think she would be able to see well enough to type up messages in her state. Oh wait, is that too mean? Wind anon always has underlying salt...
YN!! Our queen, angel, love of our lives, you make us so so happy— her messages...from “funny you would bring up that word” to “it’s a promise”—YN is so hot. So cool. As a villain, she would steal the show. YN as a villain would be millions of times more attractive than Meiko— YN with smoky eyeshadow, sleek eyeliner, and mascara, with reddened lips—please, she would be too dangerous for our hearts I cannot—
Okay, I could go in forever with YN appreciation but I already wrote... what is this, 3 paragraphs on just the first image so wind anon has to move forward haha. Osamu telling Atsumu to “put yer girl on a leash” and I’m like, eyebrow raise and scoff, because Meiko has leashes on all of you and you shouldn’t have leashes in a mutual healthy relationship because you should have equal power, agency, and rights— cough cough, but Osamu did say YN was Atsumu’s girl so that’s amusing to me. I think it would be interesting to see his reaction when the whole truth comes out. He will feel inadequate compared to Atsumu surely. How...heartbreaking it would be...
Atsumu is number 1 YN supporter and it really shows. First, defending her autonomy and ability to do what she wishes, while also mentioning he is behind her, supporting her, and defending her. The back is an important place because if someone is behind you, it’s hard to see and defend. Atsumu being at YN’s back shows trust and reliability. YN believes that Atsumu will protect her and have her back.
Kenma’s snark with “u have eyes don’t you”. This connects back to the beginning with Kenma telling Sakusa about how he thought he was cool that way—really shows how they have grown from interacting with each other, you’re absolutely brilliant fr0ggy, imagine being able to convey this much character development from 5 words—you’re so cool!
Okay, Meiko being suspicious part... 21 or something. She is so obvious I cannot. She bring up calling the cops first, and now she is like “nope, no can do, let’s just keep it all quiet, nothing, no cops” I am baffled. She is...not slick. Not smooth. But I give her the benefit of doubt and just say that she was too beat up after YN because I cannot believe her idiocy and I need this for my own sanity.
But I see Oikawa...I see him looking for logic. That’s good, very good, I’m excited. And Meiko’s response... how brash.
YN’s crew being all chill. Feeling myself be quenched. YN chooses violence and walks away beautiful. I bask in her glory. And Meiko trying to defend herself but YN really did hit her a lot so I don’t know how she can say that when there is evidence (her face) of her getting hit multiple times.
Daichi being “I’d love to see if YN’s reasoning for attacking you has merit” and I am like, tilting my shades down to be like “do you even see this?” I am... okay, moving on—
Sakusa! Omi! Sakkun—I love him so so much. I wanna trace all his moles and see if they can make constellations. Just imagine him tenderly holding your fingers in his hand while he dabs at your bruised knuckles.
Okay, I don’t want to get into the BS that is them deciding to exile YN to her room. There are ways to schedule for them not interact. Just give them different blocks for kitchen/living room or whatever. Meiko has a consistent schedule for her YouTube. YN has a decently flexible schedule. Iwaizumi is a hecking manager, there is no way he cannot plan this, and if needed Meiko or YN could get someone else to get them food or something so they don’t interact with each other. Oh well.
Meiko is like TNT...she blows everything up...kaboom. Her existence causes her own destruction... I am almost...awed? I also might make a poem involving YN’s past with Meiko and the psychology of Meiko because it is fascinating how she operates.
Blowing up at Iwaizumi and Oikawa who are part of your greatest supporters...she amuses me. Like a clown. A fool. But even jesters and fools require brains for jokes. I like seeing her get kicked off her thrown by YN.
Okay, this is it for my reaction to exiled, moving on to the next one rn!
wowie!! i gotta say, i now ship wind nonnie x yn, ur so v eloquent when u talk abt her it makes me so happy hehe <333
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lqtraintracks · 3 years
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Asks: 1, 11, 21, 31?
Hey Anon! I did number 1 here.
11. vague about your crush(es)
Absolutely stellar writer.
21. is there a song you can’t handle listening to, even though you like it? Definitely. After a really painful break-up last year, well... so many songs have been off-limits because they hurt too much. Too many to name here.
31. how easy is it for you to be honest? Wow, you're really hitting me here. *sweat smile emoji* This is a pretty complex answer. When I'm not feeling threatened, I'm deeply honest. I'm honest to the point of being bare. If I run up against something, though, that tickles the old PTSD response, I go in the opposite direction (or have). This is something I've learned (painfully) over the last three years. If I'm unhappy but I don't want to hurt someone, I have instead hidden. Hidden and shut down. I was in an abusive relationship years ago, and she taught me that the only safe thing to do in that situation was to hide and lie. I didn't think that programming was still in there, but you can't see what's there while you're happy and in a good space. That shit only shows up when things are hard. This is something I've been working on for over a year now... processing that trauma and my own trauma response to the extent that it's no longer my go-to, that I can pause, recognize it, and not act on the anxiety and what the trauma says I must do. Not act at all. Just... be. Just notice it. Just let it go.
I don't know if I should say it's ironic or fitting that three years ago I started a story where Harry is cursed to only tell the truth, and that now that I've been going through my own reckoning with how I tell the truth or how I hide it, that story has posted, and my relationship to truth, while writing that story the whole time, has shifted dramatically.
I want to say thanks for the Ask, and yes, thanks for the Ask, lovely Nonnie, but also... :eyes emoji: :sweat emoji:
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theyarebothgunshot · 3 years
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Hey, longtime lurker, first time anon.
This is like weeks ago but I don't know what to do with it and just need to throw it out to the void.
During the Oscars I told my husband (who normally watches them and knows everything, but not this year) that it was on, and that I knew it was on because Misha Collins was there as Darius' date.
(He has watched a couple of spn episodes. he knows the characters and actors to a degree. He's gleaned from co-workers and me + my Nov 5th on breakdown a working knowledge of Destiel and GISH at least)
He says "oh, is Misha gay?"
My brain stopped. I said "...well he's married and has two kids. But his wife Vicki wrote a handbook on threesomes and they're probably poly in some way - I'd say labels don't apply". Meanwhile I'm trying to not talk about anything cockles related. "Also he shared this photo so it's an easy assumption" (the one with Misha hanging off Darius' side looking up)
Meanwhile all I can think of is the pages and pages of cockles content I've consumed on the regular since being reactivated like a sleeper cell Nov 5 and trying not to bring that up quite yet.
Anyway I'm like full parasocial krushnic derangement mode (I have shared that part with him) but I don't want to be perceived when it comes to cockles quite yet, you know?
(I'm going to use a cat emoji :)🐈‍⬛)
hi there cat nonnie!! thank you for stopping by <3
i am LOVING this! i totally understand not wanting to tell your husband everything cockles related quite yet, but....... if you are a little bit like me, chances are the more you consume the more you want to vent about it sfhsjhh if you do decide to share it with him, pleaseeee let me know his reactions!!
i was talking with somebody else about this yesterday, but i would absolutely love to hear more thoughts about how jensen and misha interact and how they interpret this from men who are not involved in the supernatural fandom. i am dying to know what they would make of *twirls hands* all of this. 
so yes in conclusion: i get you, but i hope you do tell him, and if you do, that you share his response with me shfdshh
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