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saturday was overall abysmal from start to finish, and the rest of the week prior wasn't any better.. sunday won't be enough time to recover from it all (plus this now two week ongoing cold) before having to do it all over again on monday.... so tired of this cycle ffs.
sometimes i wish the ground would just swallow me up in my sleep, cause im damn tired of doing this shit every day. i don't even care about the future, dunno why i even bother. irl has been super disappointing for so long now that looking back on it sometimes im just like... wow how has every bleak day felt the fucking same yet years have gone by now ...that's crazy. anyway not to be all depressing on main but i needed to vent into the void for a min bc i can't even drink on these fucking meds but i can't manage any sleep cause of my stress. and since my days have been ruined by people lately, ive kind of undergone that tvd humanity switch thing and no longer have the desire to be social or my bubblier self.. so even media that revolves around (gasp, you guessed it) 🚫 People tm 🚫 has me mad annoyed. im probably so pissed/stressed rn that just someone breathing (loudly ig?) would be the straw that broke the camel's back..... and mind you, i am back in therapy, have been back for awhile, and yet........ i seem to keep repeating the cycle of mistakenly trusting and opening up to those close to me (or just the family fighting again) and then just deciding ive given up on humanity as a whole and that i regret ever being born bc i literally never, not once, asked for this shit. i have, however, repeatedly asked any deity out there to do me a solid, and yet.... no help in making things better or doing me off in my sleep. anyway i'll probably be back to my regularly scheduled personality that was carelessly collaged together over the years soon, but ive been tossing and turning for hours with all of this shit just going at it in my head nonstop, so i needed to vent. tldr; fuck everything.
#/neg#all sorts of tw ig idk anymore#vent/rant#delete later probably#tldr; fuck everything#tired pissed stressed and just overall done with life and work and people#this is 100% about irl stuff btw#not out here vagueing moots and shit. find that kinds ridiculous esp if you word it all 'oomf' .... like just stfu honestly. dramatic af#but i did fr just really need to try and send this energy outta my head for long enough to try and unwind#bc i need to get some godforsaken sleep. this fucking cold and all these meds are driving me (even more) insane.. ugh#//personal
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Idk how tumblr works so, apologies ig this isnt a request place.
But i was thinking poly johnny cage and kenshi x reader, where its just fluff with johnny and reader helping kenshi get dressed, bc hes blind, or something like that♡
Gods im soft for this poly relationship😫
Nahhh you getting something because ashslnsl this shit is cute as fuuuuck
Little Wonders
Kenshi x Johnny x Reader
TW/CW: None!
A/N: This is what I was talking about @crimsonbubble lol
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Yet again, Kenshi ripped the shirt open to try and rebutton it. He had been at it for almost twenty minutes, now; having to undo the pearl baubles and slip them back into their holes again.
Only to find that this time, he was not one--but two buttons off and the shirt was still lopsided.
He let out a frustrated hiss and yanked the buttons free, this time snagging one so hard the little object popped out of its stitching and skittered across the bedroom floor.
Hanging his head in defeat, Kenshi felt around until he found the foot of your ridiculously large bed, plopping down and sinking into the downy soft mattress with a hefty sigh.
Kenshi could easily call Sento to him; use the magic sword to grant him his sight so he could see enough to map out the buttons, to get dressed by himself like a grown adult should be able to do.
But without Sento, he was as blind as a newborn kitten. And Sento wasn't a crutch. Kenshi needed to learn how to do things without his eyes, to adjust. Because it's not exactly subtle or publicly acceptable to carry a goddamn katana with you to a red carpet event. Which is what he had been trying to get ready for. He just wanted to wait until you and Johnny were preoccupied with swimming out some of your pre-event jitters in his pool to try, to get some of the privacy he needed to spare his dignity. He needed to learn how to do this, how to cope...
He couldn't walk around like you or Johnny without some sort of aid, couldn't dress himself properly anymore... he was damn lucky he could still feed himself without assistance.
"Oh, Kenshi..." He heard you sigh from the threshold of your bedroom door. You and Johnny smelled like the chlorine from the pool; your bathing suits had been stripped away and you both wore your plush bath robes to ward the chill off your naked bodies.
"If you'd asked us, we could have helped you, Ken." Johnny replied as well, moving to sit next to him as you began to gently unbutton the expensive silk blouse.
"You shouldn't have to." He retorted, "I should be able to do it--"
"Hush." You say to him gently, your fingers gently touching his lips to quiet him. Johnny slipped a hand around the back of Kenshi's neck, kneading the thick knots of tension he found there. His mouth twisted briefly into a slight frown when he felt just how tense he was.
"C'mon, babe!" Johnny said. Kenshi could practically hear the cock-eyed smirk Johnny had on his face. "You know we don't mind. Though, taking your shirt off is more fun than putting one on--"
"Oi! Shut it!" You snort, swatting at him before putting Kenshi's popped shirt on the dresser before pulling out one of Johnny's to put on him.
"Abuse! Abuse!" Johnny laid across his lap dramatically, feigning injury. "Oh, oh my god! Kenshi, do you hear how our lovely partner is treating me?! I swear, I should have you locked up!"
He can't help but smile, despite it all. It never failed. Whenever he was down in the dumps, dealing with his new "handicap" as he so deprecatingly referred to it as, the two of you swooped in to cheer him up, pulling a smile out of him when he thought there was none to be had.
"Hah! Like they'd believe you, you drama queen." You scoff, flicking him in his nose. "Now get up, you cry baby!"
Johnny snickered and laughed as he sat up, crawling onto the bed so he was sitting behind Kenshi, his legs spread to wrap around him from behind casually as he leaned back on his hands.
"Kenshi, hands." You hum to him, brushing a hand through his short dark hair, bringing your hand down to touch his cheek, your thumb caressing the corners of where his eyes used to be, feeling the cratered scars left behind by Mileena's sais.
He complies, his body posture softening as you and Johnny help him slip into the soft, buttery smooth shirt.
Johnny buttons his cuffs while you button his front.
"I..." Kenshi tried to find the words; anything to say to the two of you about why you shouldn't be helping him, that he needs to relearn these things on his own.
Johnny interrupts him first: "Nope." He hums, burying his face in the crook of his neck, breathing in the mixed scent of his own shirt and Kenshi's favorite body wash that still lingered on his skin.
"Can already hear those gears working on your head, Ken. Stop it."
"We're a team, Kenshi." You say to him, cupping his cheeks in your hand as Johnny effectively becomes a human koala bear.
"And we aren't going to let you struggle on your own. It's not weakness to ask for help from those you love. A strong individual knows you can't survive without it."
"Without what exactly?" He sighed, relaxing into the two of you.
"Love, you fuckin' goober." You snicker, leaning down to kiss him, his stubble brushing your face softly.
If he could, Kenshi Takahashi would have cried.
#🌙 answered#mortal kombat 1#mortal kombat 1 x reader#kenshi takahashi x reader#kenshi takahashi x you#kenshi takahashi#johnny cage x reader#johnny cage x you#johnny x kenshi x you#johnny x kenshi#johnshi#johnny cage mk1#kenshi takahashi mk1
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okay so I’m the anon with that fic I’m not likely to finish so. here it is ig. <3 came to you because it felt as if the nsfw part might be up your alley lol <3 and if it’s not or if any of this makes you uncomfortable just. ignore it, that’s totally cool!
tiny tws before I get started: pregnancy, cheating, slight dubcon (but it’s more just John talking it up), slight feminization (?)
so. listen. John and Gale haven’t talked all that much since they both got married because they both have jobs and wives and families that haven’t seen them for literal years. there’s also that sort of “maybe he doesn’t need me anymore” and “I’ll just remind him of the awful things we’ve been through” thought pattern coming from both of them, so. they just. stay the fuck away from each other for a hot minute.
Marge notices that something isn’t quite right with Gale, and notices that he doesn’t talk to Bucky on the phone and that there aren’t any letters coming in from him, and gently suggests inviting him and Josephine to dinner sometime, especially now that they’ve got exciting news to share. Gale reluctantly agrees, and it takes some time to figure out a date that works for all four of them. 4th of July is a Thursday and John manages to get the Friday off, and they all decide that it would be nice to spend the weekend together considering they live so far apart, and it’ll give Gale and John ample time to catch up.
July is still a few weeks off, and they don’t talk any before they meet, which makes Gale pretty nervous to see Bucky again, even though it shouldn’t. No matter how long they’ve been apart in the past, seeing each other again has always felt as if they’ve only been apart for a few minutes, but this time feels different.
so, the day arrives and Gale is in all sorts of shambles. he tries to convince Marge to let him help in the kitchen, and eventually she sends him to set the table in the formal dining room because she’s tired of his constant hovering and his nervous energy, and he does it without protest. It feels a little clumsy and he’s entirely sure Marge will fix it before the guests arrive anyway, so when he’s halfway done with it he just. tells her he’ll get them a bottle of wine instead and ducks out of the house for a minute. he does find a bottle of wine that’ll work okay with the food and when he gets back he hops in the shower just to keep himself busy.
by the time he’s ready (or as ready as he’ll ever be), Marge really has fixed the table setting and the food is ready and the next hour or so is spent pacing and picking at things in the house that makes no difference whatsoever. John and Josephine won’t care that one of the pillows on the couch isn’t entirely straight and Gale knows that, but he allows himself to do what he needs to do, anyway.
John and Josephine arrive on time, and while Marge pulls Josephine to the kitchen to show off the brand new stove (or something, idk what girls in the 40s talked about) Gale offers John some whiskey and hopes that’ll be enough to soften the blow of the “exciting news”.
they eat, drink the wine Gale got and catch up. Josephine and Marge get along swimmingly, because of course they do, and it’s not until they’re halfway through dessert that Marge leans closer to Gale and asks if they should tell John and Josephine already, and after a moment’s hesitation and making sure John is pleasantly tipsy, Gale agrees. it’s Marge that tells John and Josephine they’re expecting, and that they’re making the home office into a nursery and for the rest of the meal Marge and Josephine talk about the baby and the nursery and what things they’ve already bought, but John is uncharacteristically quiet and downs another two glasses of wine.
When Marge finally asks Josephine if she wants to see what they’ve already done with the nursery, she agrees and the two disappear. Gale takes the moment to ask John if he’d like to see the new car (because of course they got a new car, they need something baby safe and family friendly), and even though he doesn’t think John is interested in the slightest, it’s a way to get John alone, and, sure enough, it works. they don’t say much as they go to the garage, but as soon as the door is closed behind them, John asks something along the lines of “what the fuck” and “you don’t think it’s a bit early? It hasn’t even been a year” and eventually he spits something like “did I mean that little to you? did we mean that little to you?”
Gale is absolutely gobsmacked by that, because it’s not as if they could ever work out (that’s what he tells himself, anyway), and he does really love Marge, he just very much happens to love Bucky, too. he tells Bucky off, tells him that he’s drunk and to get his shit together, because Gale isn’t the only one who’s married, and John scoffs at that, says that at least Gale loves his pretty little housewife (yeah, he’s condescending because he’s upset and he’s had way too much to drink for a dinner party) and, oh, boy, Gale absolutely does not eat that shit up. He grumbles and asks “why can’t you just fucking pretend, then? Josephine is perfectly lovely, and she loves you”
and. idk how but they end up messily making out because they’re both worked up and it’s been, what, ten months since they got their hands on each other? and, look, John hates the new car and he definitely says as much to Gale when he bends him over the hood, and maybe Gale would’ve had a clever response if John wasn’t grinding against him the way that he is. It takes some time getting anywhere, because it’s been so long, but by the time John finally gets to push inside Gale is a mess, and the only thing holding him together is John’s hands. and, look, John is definitely still upset and if he was quiet before it’s as if he can’t shut up now.
very much like: “pretend? you want me to pretend when she has soft curves and doesn’t feel like you do? doesn’t sound like you? do you have any idea how long it took for me to convince her to let me fuck her ass? you’d think a hole is a hole, but no. no, not even her ass feels like you, buck.”
it’s definitely doing something to Gale to be compared to John’s wife, because he’s whimpering and clenching so hard around John that John sees white, and now that John knows he hasn’t overstepped any boundaries he definitely can’t shut up.
“wish I could put a baby in you”, he’d say. “I’d give you everything Marge can’t, Buck. Would take you to bed every night until I knew it’d take. Fuck you as soon as we wake up, and maybe I’d bend you over the kitchen counter as soon as I get back home from work, just to really make sure of it.”
and even when Gale finishes and is sobbing from the overstim, John doesn’t stop. murmurs soft “you can take it, doll” and “just a little longer”.
and. uhhhh. Gale has to spend the remainder of the evening sore, fucked out and with John’s fucking cum up his ass and has to pretend it’s nothing, and it’s not until much later, when Josephine and Marge have both gone to bed that John goes to find Gale again and asks him if he’s okay, because this isn’t exactly anything they’ve done before. sure, sometimes the sex gets a bit messy and sometimes it gets a little rough, but not like this. it’s mostly fine, Gale just can’t shake the thought of Bucky not actually loving Josephine and is scared John is miserable and they talk to the early hours of morning, and when Gale is so exhausted he can barely keep his eyes open, John pulls him into a hug and they spoon on the couch the way they always did in the stalag, and it’s the first time either of them don’t have nightmares since they both got back.
so. yeah. I think that’s it. Thank you for listening. love your blog love your writing dog coded Bucky has literally altered my brain chemistry thanks x
DUDE i literally read this while waiting at a bus stop and my eye was twitching trying to keep my expression neutral HELLOOO.
first of all i promise you like next to nothing makes me uncomfortable, i have so few hard nopes when it comes to writing so don't stress, all of that was CHEF'S KISS. one of the few things i don't personally read/write is actual mpreg (or any pregnancy. i am not an enjoyer of kid fics or parent fics etc i'm so sorry </3)
BUT when they talk to each other like that as if they can actually get the other pregnant? the feminization, the malewife–ification LOL, breeding kinks, possession, all that jazz– i eat that UP. ur mind!!
second, i know you said you probably won't finish it, but this is such a good concept, this sort of exploration of post war feelings, conflict, miscommunication, how their relationship would evolve with time etc is always so fascinating to read/write about, and i genuinely think a LOT of people would be so excited to read a fic like this! (as much as we all adore marge. it's fiction for a reason ok we love you sweet girl)
but i know it's rly rly hard to find motivation to write sometimes, especially if the muse for an idea fades, or you jump to a new one, etc, so i totally get that. just had to tell you how fast i and so many others would eat this shit up just in case it does help to motivate you at all lol <3
thank YOU for sending this in!! it was a joy to read even if you don't ever finish it, and thank youuu omg?? i'm so sorry but also we are suffering together bc dog coded bucky has absolutely altered my chemistry as well and there's no escaping from it shdkgj <33
#GOD#this reignited my Need to write a breeding kink or forced/voluntary feminization pwp oneshot at some point tbh#it's unavoidable it'll happen eventually i can feel it#johnslittlespoon asks#johnslittlespoon spicy#buckbucky
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Ahh so, lately, I've been slowly (emphasis on slowly) working through another animatic.... so while I'm doing that I thought it'd be fun to share some thought processes i had while making Juliet (which you can watch above)!! I'm obviously not gonna analyze all of it, as a lot of the lyric matches and like, color meanings, for example, you can understand just fine on your own, but some stuff maybe might not be as obvious? So yeah, this is just gonna be me inanely rambling, in case anyone is in the market for thinking too deep into symbolism and character analysis hdgdhd
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Starting off with the intro, the big flowers here are hydrangeas :) I intentionally tried to pick a color between blue, pink and purple, as the meanings for all three apply here. Blue hydrangeas symbolize understanding and gratefulness, and remorse and apology, sort of as 'I understand where I went wrong, and I'm sorry for not treating you fairly". I think this would fit well with Shigeo's feelings towards Ritsu,, pink, however, symbolizes heartfelt emotion, romance, and true feelings, which I thought was great for the Tsubomi side of things, especially in regards to the last arc. And purple symbolizes understanding, and gratefulness, without as much of the negative connotations. Sort of like a positive inverse of the blue ones' symbolism - a 'thank you for sticking with me'. Which is relevant for all the platonic relationships in his life, all the friendships, and, well... as I see it, also his relationship with himself - between Mob and ???% :')
Also I think the other flowers were lilacs, but. Tbh, i don't remember anymore.. their symbolism wasn't as relevant in my mind i think hdhfg (though i'm sure you could still extrapolate something from them if you really wanted to (which, in my country, they're often associated with students and graduation, so like, learning and new begginings/endings.... also i carry many memories of trying to find 3 leaved buds in them, for good luck, so take from that what you will ig! ^^;))
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0:15
Here, I intended to use a dark red outline as to not make it immediately clear that Shigeo was dripping blood. As when you hear the lyrics "I need to cry," one would immediately picture tears, right? I'm not sure if I succeeded (especially with the blood tw right before), but that was the idea. Along with how then, of course, the lyrics continue with "but I can't get anything out of my eyes," and the gruesome scene reveal, making it clear it's not tears at all... yeah. Also, I just want to mention the lyrics "did I die?" because they make me emo. In a way, a part of Shigeo, the old Shigeo, did die that day....
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0:46
not as much to say here, though I definitely drew this with the feeling of stagnation in my mind... like. Mob is growing physically, yes. But emotionally? He's festering, and only growing more, and more, stuck.... notice how the color dims. Blue is a sad color. But at least it is a color at all.
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1:14
Oh boy, lots.... of things to say here. Or, well maybe not say. Idk how to explain the symbolism in this one? It was more subconscious... Something about Mob trying to reach out and understand himself, only to get distracted by Tsubomi, and set his eyes on her instead. And ???%, in the mirror, turning to him judgementally... I think it's reflective of how Tsubomi also was part of the reason for the split, and how, in his yearning for Tsubomi, what he was seeking after the most was acceptance, even if he couldn't see it.... something along those lines <3
(Also, god it bothers me that i messed up the lighting in his reflection's hair hghdgd,, might fix that someday)
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1:56
"With two corks in his eyes", the two corks in this case being a dumbbell, and a book on social cues (which, btw, he canonically has).... I wanted to portray the things that he finds lacking in himself, and thus makes into roadblocks towards his path of self acceptance. Thinking of that line said by ???% about how, in his effort to join and train with the body improvement club, he was really just 'trying to make a new self', and wasn't really 'seeing' ???%. Trying to escape himself, the part of him with powers... and then s1 ep3, and how in it, Mob implied that he and his autism (dunno how else to put everything about that djghfh, it was just.. autism) are destructive... Yeah.
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2:00
"and a bully in his head"
Just want to note... obviously, the lyrics imply that ???% is the bully here. But, if you pay attention, ???% here actually looks rather.. anguished. And Mob looks almost angry... just thought I'd make it clear the situation is a little more gray than that! :)
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2:19
While drawing for this part, I couldn't stop thinking about this one analysis in youtube comments I had seen about how s2 ep1 was crucial in Mob taking that first, real step towards opening up emotionally, and how in the process, he's exposed to a much wider world morally as well. That's why I put the ghost family scene directly after the scene with Emi - he's beggining to consider his emotions, all the 'colors' he hasn't allowed himself to see, and that leads to him realizing his own autonomy, which leads to him considering his decisions more, which leads to the ghost family scene, where he's starting to consider the autonomy of spirits as well, instead of blindly following Reigen on these matters (who, as we know, doesn't know shit about that side of the world, and I would say... kinda allowed Mob to separate himself from his psychic side even more, with him mindlessly using his powers as a tool for work and nothing else). "I wanna be so much more."
I... actually have a lot of feelings, on Mob and his relationship with spirits and how that intertwines with his powers, but that's something to write it's own post about, not ramble about here, so I'll leave it at that i think jfgfh
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2:33
The relevancy of the lyrics very much stretch on into the instrumental for this one.. "I hope that she looks at me and thinks, "shit, he's so pretty." Something I can't believe," And then him flashing to blood on his hands, and a sequence of moments he's probably felt not so proud of,,, just wanted to note that in case it wasn't obvious. Also, I have feelings about hand symbolism in this show, too, especially when it comes to moments where Shigeo has looked at his open palm, but that's also a post for another day just as in the previous point jdgdhh (in short: all of those moments can be traced back to how he views the power he posseses)
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3:46
The two corks, in this case, are the spirit world, and the human world ^^ also notice how one of the figures among the spirits wears Mob's uniform... is that lord psycho helmet, or ???%...?? idk!!! You decide :)
Also the "bully in his head", this time, becomes not ???%, but the trauma of the incident... just wanted to bring that back to front and focus before the final chorus. Cause,, that really was the even that kickstarted it all, huh?
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4:00
Not an analysis, just wanted to say, I greatly enjoy the juxtaposition of "but i'm really just a kid," laid over top Shigeo bleeding on the ground. Mmmhmmm,,,, pain.
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4:11
I knowww I said I wasn't gonna be talking about the color meanings, but I just had to for this one. Obviously, I portrayed ???% menacing here, as they are menacing in this arc, but... notice how their aura is rather pink? I had finished this before the finale aired, so I didn't know it would be red in canon, but even knowing that, I would have returned to this. Because, with the pink... well, red does fit them better overall I would say, but in this case, I wanted to take the obvious choice, the color that is so commonly associated with danger, and... shift it to left a bit, make it a little softer. To emphasize the affection ???% holds for Tsubomi, the protectiveness they hold over Mob, the gentle side they show to Ritsu. And to bring us into their point of view even more, the red is instead relegated to the edges of the frame... a creeping vignete, that represents how they view the world around them is the dangerous part in all this. ..I hope all of that makes sense ;^^
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4:07 and 4:22
Anddd the two corks become the seperation between Mob and ???%, and Ritsu and Tsubomi... those really were the focal points in this animatic, the building blocks for who Shigeo is, as I see it.. and how reconciling with both Ritsu and Tsubomi, leads to him being able to reconcile with himself, too. Of course, there is Reigen as well... but I just wanted to focus on these 3 for this one. Also, I just wanna say that the panel of Ritsu, Shigeo and Tsubomi holding hands in the air is one of my fave panels ever and I loved being able to depict it.. it just makes me feel things. The yearning for childhood, and connections, and the feeling of being whole again of it all,,,, augh
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And. To end this sleep deprived ramble....
Notice how the animatic became more colorful over time? :)
Of course, part of that is just that I improved my style along the way, but... it was also very much intentional. A sort of reflection of Shigeo's journey, and how he rediscovered those colors along the way. Also was very much intentional from me for the final 2 frames to be the only ones where Shigeo's colors are actually accurate instead of just being symbolic - and that was to symbolize that,,, he was finally grounding himself in reality, and seeing himself for the whole, real person he truly is :')
The flower imagery wasn't as planned however, I decided on it as to make it match the intro that I made later and thus for it to come full circle, and I think it ended up adding to it!! Think of it meaning something along the lines of,,, just as in happiness, so in sadness, the flowers bloom. Or something like that.. idk jhgjdhgh
So yeah!!! Dunno who even read this far, but if anyone did, thank you for listening to my brainrot, I hope it was relatively interesting!! aanndd with that im also going to sleep, buh byeee u_u have good days/nights everyones <3
#mob psycho 100#mp100#kageyama shigeo#animatic#meta#video#kageyama ritsu#tsubomi takane#art#my own art#late night rambles#my own post#someone sent an ask about juliet and it reminded me that i had this whole ramble prepared lmao#so im finally posting it#sorry for how long this is ;^^ as you can probably tell i poured a lot of brainrot n feelings into this animatic#also the new one won't be as ambitious? in like the scope of it at least? itll be a more niche one#though more.difficult to execute in some ways#hint: itll be mogami arc related.... :)#that is. at least if i dont give up and its the next one i actually finish out of the rest of my animatic ideas lmao#anyways. actually going now soz. zzzzzz#Youtube
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tw/cw for vague abuse mentions, just to be safe, sort of just a big ramble
so like starting to question whether I am synpath or kin with Quackity, either way there's something going on with that but like seeing the different phases he goes through is like kind of making sense with how it mirrors my self and what I've been through
for me the manburg arc feels very cold and dry, idk how to word it but ig in my reality c!Schlatt abuses c!Quackity, and that mirrors my own experiences
and then the las nevadas thing is two things for me, one, it's this like very isolating period, las nevadas feels empty to me, there is no one there, if you were to walk the streets in the evening you wouldn't see a soul, and that mirrors the isolation I was dealing with after I'd split from my abuser but before I'd managed to reconnect with my friends
but two, there's a sort of confidence and freedom to it, especially in casino settings, being a sort of safe space to let loose and, as the owner, have some control
and I feel weird about it because if it's kin, all of my kins are psychological, so it's not as if this is a past life, it's not as if these are memories (at least I don't think), yet these themes feel so intrinsic to the way I relate to c!Quackity, whatever way that may be, and my reality of things as Quackity is pretty canon compliant but there are small outliers and trying to 'rewrite' them to be in line with canon feels wrong and not like myself anymore
- Q💫
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#parallel life maybe? - mod g#dream smp kin#dsmp kin#dreamsmpkin#mcyt kin#dsmpkin#mcytkin#dreamsmp kin#kinsidering
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Edgar Allan Poe Murder mystery fanfic!!
Greetings!! 🤗
This is only an announcement post
Idk how to start off saying this lmao.. uH
so I have this really good fanfic idea… it’s kind of like a Poe x Y/N type of scenario? Ig? At least later on it is.. sort of..
Anyways..
The description of the fanfic
I started this as a joke but it turned into smth so serious so I have to share it with y’all omg I literally cried while making it
Ranpo Edogawa was murdered in cold blood.. everything is silent, the world falls to despair.
Who the hell could’ve killed the greatest detective?!?
That’s a question remained unsolved.
You go on your journey of solving the most difficult case ever.. you’re teamed up with one of the second top detectives, Edgar Allan Poe, to solve this crazy mystery.
TW:
THIS FANFIC WILL HAVE TOPICS OF: SUICIDE, GORE, ABUSE, ALCHOL ABUSE, DEPRESSION, etc.
Your days are counted with despair and grueling moments of hell and outbursts and there’s days of rest and ease, calming reassurance, (we all know Poe would need it.) as you discover the truth… and without the greatest detective… who knows what troublesome things may come your way.
(Writing this fic.. I will refer to (Y/N) as one of my Oc’s Yuri. It’s much easier for me to write like that but if you’d like you can do a self insert or however you feel.. I don’t mind.
Also this is my first time writing a fanfic so please.. don’t yell at me. :(
I will turn this into chapters.. or a series in this case, since tumblr’s word count is kind of short .
I was going to write it on wattpad but then I figured nobody really uses it anymore.. so..)
I will start the first chapter probably tonight! I look forward to your thoughts.
Please share this! I’d love to get more people to read :)
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Heyy! So, I really dunno if I’m the one who’s lagging on some brain cells but just hear me vent something out. {idk what tw is exactly applicable but ig toxic fandom?tag should be okay}
So, I have a couple moots who are all bookworms like me, and since we’re dedicated armys, we usually lookout for fanfics and basically recommend fics of our choice on an ig chat(sort of a book club activity you can say). Now here’s one thing: a moot shares a profile of <mystical princess> user from wattpad and it creates a sort of havoc in our gc: mostly as in, it’s hyped as if it’s a breaking news or something. Later I get to know that this user happens to be an account owned by aespa’s giselle in her predebut years. It recently got much attention because somebody leaked it apparently, and here’s where the actual problem is. I know some moots on that gc are toxic armys - the army who shared the profile happens to be one too. She said very demeaning stuff about giselle and even said it’s such characterless attitude to maintain wp account if you’re a celebrity - like??? I don’t stan aespa alr, but I’m pretty sure giselle never knew she was gonna become an idol from the beginning. Also, what’s wrong in maintaining a writing page? She did that stuff as a child, and leaking away this info about her account is like breaching her privacy. Moreover, using this as a means to spread hate only because of that one controversy for which she apologised (the racist slur one) is ridiculous imo. I can’t really say anything to them because most of them happen to be older than me but I think what that moot pointed out was blunt hypocrisy. Someday some fanfic writer from tumblr happened to become a popular writer and their tumblr profile is leaked without their knowledge, won’t they face hate too? What’s the point of spreading such hate when you could be peacefully binging on fics instead?😕 I think I spoke a lot anyways, it kinda feels better to have written this out because I was feeling heavy the whole time with this piling up in my head 😅 you’re a good human who listens to others rants without being much judgemental so I just blurted stuff out here, sorry if I had been rude at some point!!
the tw is okay !! thank u so much for adding one <3
hmmm, yeah that does not sound healthy. judging celebrities – or people in general – bcos of such a thing is definitely unsolicited. fanfic writers are just people, too 😭 no one would criticise professional writers either – i don't know aespa or giselle, or anything about the slur controversy (have just heard of aespa), but the fact that her wattpad account caused such a controversy is such a stupid thing lmao that's as if they're cancelling her for being a celebrity's fan pre-debut.
i agree with u, one should just read fanfics in peace 🥲 and ahh, honestly, that's probably just me, but in such a situation i just say nothing; bcos it's a conflict that can be avoided! unless it derails !! 😐
but i mean the main advice i can give u is to definitely leave the group – sometimes, when u feel bad about smth, things just get worse and then blow up someday. i bet it'd be better for u if u didn't have to deal with those things anymore, since i can see that it's affecting u. i hope u do what's right for u tho; and i hope things get better in that group soon 💕
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man holy shit some people (TW: shitty opinions ig)
some people are so fucking annoying like
idk if it’s just me who’s just been done and annoyed with everyone lately but like everyone’s so annoying, thinking they have the definitive take. Some has the same shitty cut paste opinion, always unwilling to be proven wrong. I’m just tired as shit man, everyone is so stupid and annoying.
the left is fucking stupid, the right is fucking stupid. At this point I’m starting to not care for Palestine or victims of whatever trauma anymore. Fucking shut up like actually.
no one’s allowed to be slightly unhealthy, no one’s allowed to have any sort of flaws, we all must conform to mental “wellness”
“Can’t you just be better?”
do you want to help me or not? The door is right there.
and then they’ll complain about that shit on TikTok with those stupid cat things.
you’re choosing to put yourself through this.
leave me alone damnit
Oh but when I say this, I’m apparently the ANNOYING, emo one.
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*A rant of sorts about personal shit, feel free to skip, or feel free to read as well if you want to cause I love feeling heard or whatever*
TW: mentions of emotional abuse.
Uh so... as some of you here may know, I'm in recovery from emotional abuse from my past relationship, wherein I loved my then partner deeply, and she always claimed (I think I believe as well) that all her somewhat cruel or manipulative behaviours towards me were completely unintentional. She's a wonderful person with a heart of gold, but she has issues which cost me a whole lot of tears, sleep, peace and self esteem.
So, there was this other couple back when my ex and I were together, let's call them A and B. They were both "best friends" of my ex's and acquaintances of mine. I liked them, I thought they were cool, but my ex used to always hit me up with tea about how toxic their relationship was, how B had tactically isolated the A from all their friends so A would have no choice but to fully depend on B for all their emotional needs, and that way A would eventually fall in love with B. This was just one of the many concerning tea stories, and while I didn't believe my ex completely, I didn't eggzactly not believe her either, it was more like a "what would I know, she's the best friend ig" situation.
Anyway, A and B had gotten together March of the same year that my ex that I had started dating, in January. Cut to today, it's their first anniversary, and she's not friends with the couple anymore, she and I are obviously not together anymore, what's worse is that she's still my friend, and she still tells me "I love you", or idk... lowkey flirts with me like friends do with each other, but I try to stay sane by actively choosing to not believe her while simultaneously trying to convince myself that even I might be someone worth committing to, someone who doesn't only deserve being disregarded, not communicated with, being ashamed of, or straight up getting crushed and thrown into the trash like toilet paper at every minor inconvenience.
In the middle of all this, I walk into insta today to find posts of A and B wishing each other happy anniversary. It... just hit me like a ton of bricks that the so called "toxic" relationship that my ex wrote essays to me about outlasted ours, and they're so clearly happy with each other. I AM ALSO EXCEEDINGLY HAPPY FOR THEM, cause as I mentioned, I think A and B are cool people and they deserve every happiness. Nevertheless, I cannot shake off the hollow feeling in my chest at all the realizations and bittersweetness hitting me, I just needed to dump it somewhere.
If you made it this far, thank you so much for reading.
Take love<33.
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Do you think that Tim saved Dick in a way? Because we see Dick getting better as he gets closer to Tim and healing and getting back into the family, and ig it’s Tim who initiated that.
I literally don't have a yes or no answer for this... like most things in the Batfam - it's complicated. (Following answer is informed by 90s-00s comics, i can't really speak for new52 because it just... has so many issues one of which being erasing the relationship between Dick and Tim for *checks note* no discernable reason other than possibly *checks note* Didio hates legacy characters and wants only bad things for them so he could have excuses to kill them off or cancel their comics... idk just a guess)
Warnings: for Bruce stans - just look away i'm about to bring up bits of canon you most likely don't like, for Dick stans - Devin Grayson's run is mentioned, for the lovely anon - i wrote an essay, hope you are prepared
Tim coming into the family gave Dick a reason to occasionally hang around Bruce and i'm not sure if this is an exaggeration or not but he did sort of save that relationship - but whether that was a good or bad thing at the time, i can't really say. For sure - it starts off good, Bruce is actually trying to be a good dad (he comes down to Blud to check on Dick, adopts him, trusts him with his own city, calls him for backup, etc.). But we also see throughout Bruce Wayne: Fugitive/Murderer how unhealthy the relationship between the two can be. Dick built his core values around Bruce - if Bruce had actually killed here it would have been devastating for Dick (he was pretty much on the verge of a mental breakdown simply because they couldn't find proof Bruce wasn't guilty). The two literally got in a fist fight during the arc because Bruce was being uncommunicative and Dick couldn't take it anymore, snapped, and punched him when Bruce said "Bruce Wayne is dead only Batman now" - this tied into Dick finally having the relief and validation of being adopted and he couldn't handle Bruce stripping himself (and by extension, his fatherhood of Dick) away. In this era of comics Bruce had gotten physical with Dick before (here's me venting like an annoyed loser), and here's a clip from Bruce Wayne Fugitive that i just, *sigh*, canon Bruce, my detested.
Now on the other hand - getting Dick involved in the batfam more doesn't just mean he was hanging out with Bruce. His relationship with Tim is pretty great and I can definitely see where it was healing for a while - but also - to give credit where credit is due, the healing he goes through during this era of comics can also be attributed to Barbara and the Titans (the fab five specifically). Wally literally joins the Titans to give Dick a "social life" (me - it's because he's gay and wants to spend more time with Dick, actually, screw you DC you know i'm right). Donna plays a major part in keeping Dick's emotional well being in check. So like everything was going fine - Dick was healing, spending more time with friends, spending a lot of time with people he loved, like Tim, except he was neglecting his health and not sleeping - but overall he was in fact, managing, and moving past the deaths of Jason and some of the other Titans. With the current Titans - he was a hardass (which like ~trauma~ so I understand), but like things were going relatively okay.
And then Donna and Lilith died. And hooof Donna dying was like really really bad for his mental health.
Teen Titans/Outsiders Secret Files (2003) #1
[Image ID: Dick sits in a room staring at a photo, the phone rings in the background, and he doesn't even acknowledge it, the voice mail plays: "I'm not here. Leave a message after the beep." The photo is shown closer in the next frame, it's of the five original Teen Titans - Roy kisses Donna on the cheek, tipping his hat his other hand making the okay sign, Donna has an arm around Roy, the other hand on Dick's shoulder, Garth proudly stands beaming with his hands on his hips, and Dick has both his arms around Wally's neck. Everyone is smiling in the photo. A voice plays over the answering machine: "Dick, it's Roy - pick up the phone... c'mon... please... I know you're there... just pick up. Dick, we need to talk... you can't just... please..." End ID]
For context - the previous page noted that this is Dick SIX WEEKS after Donna died. Usually Dick's the one who moves on quickly, but Donna dying broke him in a way nothing else had before - and that could be partly because he was still recovering from everyone else's death.
Up to this point, Dick had been healing and Tim was definitely a part of that, but then DC decided to throw the absolute book, bookshelf, and library at him. Reading Outsiders (2003) it's very clear he's very traumatized, and around the same time, Devin is literally whumping him like it's the whump Olympics, breaking him and Babs up, burning down his childhood home, blowing up his apartment complex (killing all but like two of his neighbors), he's literally sleeping on fire escapes using newspapers as covering because he has nothing, and the bad thing i don't like to think about (i'll let you know if you ask but that one needs lots of tw, but if you know where i'm going you know what it is already), Blockbuster is killed and he blames himself - and loses it over breaking Bruce's one rule, Bludhaven is nuked, and he pretty much tries to kill himself.
So basically, he was on the path to healing (with Tim as part of that) before he got absolutely destroyed (and almost killed off by Didio in one of the crisis). Tim in his own right, was also going through a lot in the meantime, his dad died, Steph died, Kon and Bart died, i don't remember what else happened and i haven't read that era of Robin yet. Things were good until they weren't anymore, and sometimes i think Dick would regret ever exposing Tim to the life they live, and questions whether he should have just sent Tim packing x2. They do get to spend a year together on a mental health cruise, but then Damian comes into the picture, Battle for the Cowl happens, and they have their falling out. But whatever happened on that cruise must have been really healing for Dick because he actually kind of rocks it in this era - he keeps things light with Damian, Alfred notes at one point how he makes things easy because he has lightness in him, and he patches things up with Tim - catching him in that panel of Red Robin - from there they kind of go back to normal, there's a lightness to the way they banter with each other (also here) and Tim returns the favor (from the Red Robin incident) by pulling Dick out of the water.
They've saved each other multiple times over (physically), and in both in the Black Mirror and Gates of Gotham, Tim helps out in a period where Dick is starting to fall apart from the pressure of holding things together for so long (something Tim might feel guilty for, because he did run away from Gotham on a wild goose chase for Bruce). In that period, it's really clear that Dick saves Tim (he reminds him in RR, that someone does actually care for him) and then Tim saves Dick from being torn apart by Gotham.
I should point out - Damian, while starting off as kind of a hinderance, does eventually start helping Dick as well. By the end of their relationship (before the New52 destroys everything i love), Dick has helped Damian grow emotionally, and through that process Dick probably finds meaning and value in their time together, probably a lot like he used to feel with Tim. And of course, physically, they've both saved each other multiple times by the end of the run.
So yeah. I think Dick finds meaning in growth in mentoring his younger brothers, and it's likely a healing process, that healing just has some twists and turns along the way, and sometimes, on bad days, he probably feels like maybe he shouldn't have intervened at all, but i think on most days, he's proud of what Tim's become.
...I hope this is coherent lmao
#the old: blame everything i hate about comics on Didio#thank god he got fired#tw suicide#i am so long winded oop#i'm in too deep#does this count as character meta?#maybe#Dick Grayson meta#Dick Grayson#Tim Drake#i'm kinda sad that Dick and Tim's relationship is misunderstood in a lot of fanon - because it's something that can be so personal#it's not as black and white as people seem to think#as in like... they're usually really good for each other and have a healthy dynamic#even in RR (I haven't read all of it) people take things out of context and just... ignore that Dick reached out to Tim afterwards#and like asked him to go to therapy (not arkham why are y'all obsessed with Dick throwing his brothers in arkham get help)#Tim also straight up throws Dick over his shoulder and starts a physical fight in that series#so... it can be a toxic relationship too but idk i like to highlight the good parts#i see a lot of - Dick begs for Tim's forgiveness for taking Robin away fics out there#but like there relationship isn't that simple#if they ever talked it out in canon - they'd have to address Tim lashing out physically at Dick (Dick would probably not be having it)#and the writers might then be like - hmm maybe we should address all the times we had Bruce hit him too#so like yeah i get why we never saw their reconciliation on panel (they just kinda were like okay we're fine now :D)#but still it's something i'd like to see explored from a more balanced perspective - instead of a - i project on Tim so he's always right#i probably also wouldn't be the best person to write it because i project on Dick too much#not that i would make Tim beg for Dick's forgiveness - Dick would forgive him in like .000001 seconds and def doesn't hold it against him#that's just how Dick is (he'd probably prefer if it wasn't brought up and they just pretend it never happened)#but also knowing Dick he probably feels guilty as fuck for the way RR went - which like *sigh* martyr#batfam#batfamily#batfam meta
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tbh,, i havent read the raws of the interview yet, only the translated ver from fan-translator and b4 i start, i think that this will be just me talking in circle and in no particular order AND a real mess (my brain does weird things after exams) but uhh here we go
gojou collects talented people, and by doing so he finds the people he can most probably relate to, except that he can't, not really, because something in the universe shifted when he was born. and it makes me think of how he's always known it, that he is special, and he's proven it, time and time again— he wants to take in talented ppl and he does, but there rly isn't much he can do for them. for they are talented, more talented than the world can understand,,
but they aren't gojou satoru
gojou took in megumi, bc he knew megumi was strong, and would grow up to be someone even stronger, but gojou can't facilitate or encourage his growth, bc for all they're similar, they are so fundamentally different. ALSO,, while geto was in his life, gojou rly judged everything according to his understanding of geto’s moral compass. gojou wears a human suit and geto is how he learnt to wear it well 🏃
the dragonfly analogy regarding to geto’s response to gojo, who was shown wearing a dragonfly patterned yukata in HI arc,, i’m trying to not think abt the fact that dragonfly symbolized victory in jpn....pain. i quoted from a web here for more explanation : In Japan the dragonfly is known as the "victory insect", or kachimushi, because of its hunting prowess and also because it is known to never retreat. Dragonflies are agile and fast fliers and can even hover, but never fly backwards
and bringing this up again, matricide and patricide are 2 of the 5 worst act to commit in buddhism, and it was said that if u commit one of those act u’re going to spend a real long time in the deepest pit of hell before continuing the samsaric cycle (higher chances to be born as an animal after that probs)— this might be geto’s divine retribution. held no power over his own body and could be considered that he’s the same as those “monkeys” 💀
ALSO the fact that sukuna's interest is "eating" rly drives home his hedonistic philosophy of seeking pleasure for himself. and he’s a cannibal...makes me think if he’ll just chomp on ppl with the mouth on his stomach
randomly, to date i think he hasn't really called himself a human, shaman, or a curse, and has held himself apart from all 3, and we've also the intro of the cursed wombs so i wonder if he’s trying to become, or is, a different entity altogether
so onmyoji got mentioned in the interview and what they practice is called onmyodo and abe no seimei and kano no yasunori were the notable practitioners,, and the kamo in jjk is the same as irl who served the imperial court back then
maybe i was right when i said that the relation between the govt. and jujutsu elders are similar to how the shogunate and imperial court work (ie, the former holds the actual power) but... lets see later,,
and i cant believe that i actually nailed it on the analogy of jujutsu practices by religion,,, so mahayana buddhism, shintoism, and taoism is present in jjk along with their respective jujutsu practices...but between the 3, it shld (?) be taoism > shintoism > mahayana buddhism (which could took a path to pure land buddhism)
it’s weird that the number of curses are supposedly higher in jpn comparable to other countries when taoism was brought from china....tengen sus
so the zenin family tree is sth like :
brothers: [toji's dad] ; naobito ; ougi
so toji, naoya, and maki & mai are cousins of the same generation
[toji's dad] → jinichi (probs) ; toji → megumi
naobito → other brothers, naoya
ougi → maki, mai
but yea i’d call anyone who’s within/close or below my age range as cousins and others above 30 as uncles/ aunts LMFAO,, i dont rly memorize my own family tree 😭😭 especially since most call the other by honorifics instead of names : aunt, uncles etc or attaching said honorifics at the end of a name for an older sibling figure/ older cousins [but like ppl in my country also call the other who are older with sibling honorific even if we’re strangers,,, rly similar to korea’s hyung/oppa—eonnie(unnie)/noona but some uses more genderless honorific] (1)
tw // topic of incest, mentions of abuse
if anyone got the wrong idea when reading this : i am not glorifying/ romanticising incest(uous themes),, i’m looking at this with absolutely no lenses of bias even tho im rly against it
初恋 = literally : first love, or puppy love
恋 = romantic love/ deep longing
i literally don't know how else to put this...🧍and with language barrier...using a western interpretation of the eng word "love" to explain a jpnese term is not quite that simple, unfortunately
that thread omg,, i rly do understand how exactly someone could associated kindness with love bc of my upbringing, it was when i was slightly older that i was just...oh so its not like that orz,,, so the most plausible explanation would be that
but the problem is that,, akutami never specify when exactly she had a crush on them,, and when megumi answered todo’s question she had a “♡” reaction 😶,, uhmmm there’s rly no way to look past this if its this way or be in denial
i’ve seen some of "why wouldn't mai react that way after hearing megumi say he'd like someone who's compassionate when she's surrounded by men like naoya",, well I MEAN,,, that, but also mai probs admires that megumi grew up so well out of the clan, regardless of the fact that he had the foundation (10 shadows) to do so. imo she seems happy for him the way she can't be for maki, bc maki ultimately had to leave her behind
hate to say it but yea,, the 3 clans most likely still practice inbreeding in order to preserve their power and presumably their wealth too 😀
i had an idle thought abt it at first but i filed it deep in the back of my mind asap,, bc i ont wanna jump to conclusion abt this out of all things too early. it’s probably not even in jjk, but all those elite clans in other ani/mangas that produce powerful heirs and whatnot also do the same,,, but this way of (my personal) thinking was influenced when i first got into tsukihime (type-moon),,, i read abt the nanaya family background and found out that they practice that in order to keep their bloodline “pure” (to keep it short : they have an optical power),, and i had this kind of assumption ever since so there’s that
i’m,, convinced the zenins' inbreeding made it more difficult for them to get powerful shamans bc they got 2 jujutsu technique-less children with heavenly restrictions in the same generation: toji & maki
even more convinced that maki might be a bit stronger than toji bc toji could see curses without aid while maki can't so the pay-off must be higher,,, SJJASN IDK ,,, plus naoya sort of implies his older brothers are nothing compared to him, and idk if we should take that as his arrogance or that his older brothers rly are weak/powerless. it would make sense as to why naobito had a lot of sons, ig, as head of clan
i feel so bad that if one of the factors that can caused heavenly restriction is inbreeding,, toji and maki and mai had no say in how they wanted to be born but are scorned for it,, typical asian families projecting their traumas and ideals onto their kids but get mad when they realize that those ideals are ugly...😁😁😁
since the zenin are conservative,, i wonder if they still hold onto old jpnese dining traditions. where in ancient jpn, hierarchical relationships were made readily apparent even within families. a dining table where everybody sat down and ate as equals would be unheard of. rather, each individual is given their own table that indicates their status,,, someone who is not considered “strong” according to the zenin’s views most likely have no place at the table, and probs eat when those who are “strong” finished/ serve them when they are eating
if toji was tossed into a swarm of curses,, i dont think abuse during said time is below them,,,
the zenin clan was already great, but they further amassed power and strength by, what i assume to be, marrying and adopting powerful individuals into the clan 🤔 ,,, i imagine they're like the hiiragi but without doing what they did to shinya (ons reference)
BUT after all that, i like to think that since akutami’s a big horror fan, jjk might be an outlet to explore said topics or even darker ones, so i wouldnt be that surpised abt it. given that there’s more than enough “red flags” before this was dropped : a reference to “tale of hikaru genji” when a grown woman asked for gojou’s number in HI arc (out of all things); granny who transformed into the man’s daughter, sat on his lap and man just touched her waist; mei mei and ui ui ; and...this (incestous theme is in the novel btw)
lets not start with whatever the fuck in kubo’s head in the interview otherwise i’m writing paragraphs with every curse words possible,, those big 3 mangakas are so— UGH,, a planet w out (cis) men like him sounds real good rn 😌 if one of yall out there decide to do it,, pls hmu rly cant do this shit anymore
akutami said i like my men pretty and i like women who will step on my neck and spit in my face (I REMEMBERED TATSUKI FUJIMOTO’S INTERVIEW WHEN HE WAS ASKED ABT MAKIMA AND IT WAS SO 😭😭😭😭) but ykw,, love that for both of them <3
when i said 3 : one piece, bleach, naruto. aside from the blatant depiction/ characterize of women in those 3,, idk if some ppl arent aware yet but oda is friends with two (2) convicted pedos,, man...the major disappointment and disgust when i first find out abt it
anyways this is just my 2 cents (which i think rightfully belong to the trash can) so pls just take this w a lil to no grain of salt - 🐱
YEAH THE ♡ LMFAO I THOUGHT IT WAS JUST A “good answer ♡“ heart BUT NOW IM RE-EXAMINING?????
honestly i wouldn’t be surprised if the three clans practiced inbreeding. but ik people are going to be 😡😡😡😡😡 about it when the queen of fucking england is literally married to her (something) cousin. i’m not justifying it but like....love the double standards, just as always with the west 😍
DON’T EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THAT FUCKING PED* LIST THEY SHOULD ALL BE IN JAIL. JAILLLLL. it’s all so gross. that’s why i fucking hate when people look towards manga for positive representation because the chances of that are super slim to zero, especially since the industry is saturated with misogyny and ped******* and a lot of other gross stuff.
i think ppl forget jjk is a horror manga LOL so obviously it’s going to confront darker themes. the question is whether it’s going to be done tastefully or not......
#honestly I don't have high hopes unfortunately 😭#but who knows I might be...pleasantly surprised#idk I don't have high hopes in manga nowadays so hmmm#anyway as always I enjoy ur thoughts <3 ❤️❤️#hope ur doing well!!!#and getting all those genshin impact goodies#🐱 anon#long post
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Fic Masterpost
♡- Fluff ♢- Angst ♧- Mulitchaptered ☆- Au ✎- Series
Fics are sorted newest to oldest, there's more on my ao3 i simply do not interact with the fandoms they are part of anymore and as such will not be linking them
DSMP
Glow Worms ♡; Moving slowly through the springtime air
Holding moments in the depth of care
exeunt ♢☆; exeunt (n.); used as a stage direction in a printed play to indicate that a group of characters leave the stage.
Tubbo takes Michael and makes himself a home far from everything he's ever known.
Exit Music (For A Film) ♢; tw: major character death, corpses, suicidal ideation (check tags for more)
Sing us a song
A song to keep us warm
There's such a chill, such a chill
Tubbo mourns. Spoilers for lore streams 11.28.2021
Me and My Husband ♡♢;
Me and my husband
We're doing better
Little Beast ♢; tw: implied child death, unrequieted love
I know history. There are many names in history
but none of them are ours.
george aches, and sleeps a lot.
eye for an eye ♢♧; tw: implied child death
(quackity nd tubbo angst)
Mars ♢♡♧ ; We were amateurs at war/Strangers to suffering
BEING REWRITTEN
Rot ♢♧ ; rot's my favorite word so i wrote smthn inspired by it
(ranboo & tubbo)
At long last, love has arrived ♡ ; And I thank God I'm alive/You're just too good to be true/Can't take my eyes off of you
beeduo enderwalk fluff :)
'Cause we could stay home and watch the sunset ♡♢ ; But I can't help from asking, "Are you bored yet?"/And if you're feeling lonely you should tell me/Before this ends up as another memory
tubbo and tommy talk
Before you cross the street ♡ ; Take my hand/Life is what happens to you/While you're busy making other plans
tubbo tells michael about l'manberg
You and me need never be lonely again ♡ ; Spin with me endlessly or at least until the end/Please never fall in love again
ranboo monologues about tubbo ig idk man
I still wanna be your favorite boy ♡ ; I wanna be the one/I might just be the one
bro idk they're just being soft platonic husbands, i wrote this as a gift NFHDSKJL love u cherry ur pog
'Cause I don't think that wasting (A second of this time) ♡♢ ; Would benefit the outcome/Of the life I had in mind/I'll refer to you as my special love/The one that set me free
Michael gets sick, Ranboo and Tubbo realize family life is harder than it seems
I can't be the only one who hears you ♡♢ ; Tears falling down at the party/Saddest little baby in the room/Fears, tell me fears, don't get me started
tubbo from ranboo's perspective
Life's too short to worry about things that we got wrong ♡ ; So hug all your friends and let them know/You're not letting go
sam helps tommy make a gift for tubbo :D
I will wait for this to end ♡♢ ; The back and forth; the battery/For you at last to comprehend/The kind of love of which I speak.
spoilers for the finale 1.20.21
we didn't start the fire ✎ ; Canon divergent au with semi-canon sbi family dynamic (Techno's relationship with it is. Complicated.) No L'manburg exploding, and Niki is here bc I love Niki :) It also starts at the first festival, nothing after that is connected to canon in any way.
tell me, atlas. what is heavier? ♢♡ ; the world or its people's hearts?
And if I could, I'd get you the moon c ; And give it to you/And if death was coming for you/I'd give my life for you
takes place a week after the first fic in the series, but can be read as a standalone piece!
BBC MERLIN
Wasn't it love as soon as we knew each other properly? ♡ ; Livin' 'bout half right 'til a certain person got to me/Nothin' is secret, everythin's sacred, how it ought to be/Under the moonlight on a clear night
merlin and lancelot being gay gay homosexual gay
Lungs ♡♢ ; He tried to push through, to make his aching lungs take in more air and keep going, he couldn’t.
At the edges of my fingers ♡♧ ; Never quite closing ‘round it/Oh, that peace like a river/Always going, but never getting
Merlin and Arthur but there's only one bed(roll)
A narrative waste of patches and light ♡♢ ; We grew up in the suburbs then we cut all our ties/Now just take a look at this through Gwyllian eyes/You're wrong my friend, the road, it bends a bit to the right
Slice of life merthur, i guess?
SHAKESPEARE
May their carbon given ♡♧ ; Be an echoing hymn/That goes on and on and on again/So long as I live
mercutio/tybalt
Am I still speaking? ♢♧ ; Yeah I’m long in the wind/I’ll go on and on and on again/If my chest don’t cave in
mercutio/tybalt
ORIGINAL WORK
We've got younger faces ♡♢ ; Than our hearts are letting on
Oc ficlet :]
Hanahaki ♢♡♧ ; ‘Anemone: Forsaken, forgotten love, affection.’
If it doesn't, it was never meant to be. ♢♡; Random oc angst
Ends of the Earth ♡;
To the ends of the Earth would you follow me?
If you won't I'll say my goodbyes to thee.
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Random Anime Recommendations bc im dumb:
Danganronpa: OK IM GONNA START BY SAYING THAT THERE IS THIS CHARACTER CALLED TOGAMI IS SO HOT AND HE IS BASICALLY THE LOST TWIN OF TSUKKI EXCEPT THAT HE IS MORE SARCASTIC PLZ. Ok now on a serious note, the anime is really good and I love the characters sm omg 😭 I would recommendyou tho to kinda search up a bit of the anime to see if it's of your liking?? (tw: it contains death, murder, kinda gorish but not really, a bad principal??? Great characters?? The VA for the character togami has a great voice- Idk what else to say LMAO)
Kakegurui: One word: ✨Iconic✨. OK ACTUALLY THO, it's genuinely one of the greatest animes ever tbh. The characters are really great, and everyone is just so amazing in general (except the guys, the guys kinda suck in the 1st season) (tw: umm idk mature content kinda??? G A Y- the girls are really pretty and badass-)
High Rise invasion: im barely in the first episode but I already love it sm BSHABAJAB (tw: umm well it contains guns??? Blood or something- Places that would literally make me have acrophobia)
Death Note: It's pretty overrated, I don't really like it tbh, the side characters kinda have more personality than the main character 😭✋ (that's my personal opinion im sorry LMAO), tho it's really great and it's amazing!! (tw: deathly notebooks, gods of death, great side characters who are better than the main??? Mentions and insinuations of death, suicide, murder, blood ig?? Idek anymore)
SORRY FOR THE SHITTY RECOMMENDATIONS BTW IM JUST BORED AND MY FRIENDS DONT LIKE ANIME LMAO 😭
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so many of my friends watched danganronpa like.. just before i left school and they all were talking abt it and i felt so left out bc i was too busy studying to watch it (don’t ask me why they weren’t studying- that’s their business lmao). the spoke really highly of it though so yeah, i think i’ll watch it :)) also all the characters have such unique designs :o
simply yes to kakegurui- i’ve not watched it bc ofc i know the basic plotline bc..pretty ladies 🥰
honestly i’ve never heard of high rise invasion but i’ll def add it to my watch list
bestie you’re giving me mixed signals🤨 FBRSYJWTYJ IS IT GOOD OR NOT LMAO :’) but yeah i’ve heard that the main character isn’t very likable so-
thank you so much for this 🙏🥺 i was literally running out of shows to watch that fit my taste but these all sound like they’ll hit :)) you and that one anon that sent my the mangas with dilfs are both the deities i pray to ERHRYJE tysmm!
also, there are some of my recommendations !! (all of them are comedies/have comedy elements btw)
1. Mob psycho 100: i watched it when it first came out which was a while ago. but if it’s as good as i remember, then i’d seriously recommend watching it! it’s one of those shows that make you ugly laugh one second then ugly cry the next. also it has a lot of supernatural powers involved which i thought was nice (tw blood, mob is constantly being ragdolled, death, too many weapons for me to even remember, demons, violence)
2. Daily lives of Highschool boys: honestly it’s so funny and it’s that sort of fast-paced, zany comedy that makes you wheeze. as the name suggests, it’s about these 3 highschool boys just having fun but it’s also got a good plot and the ending just- so many emotions. (tw violence)
3. Haven’t you heard? I am Sakamoto: basically, sakamoto transfers to a new school and everyone is just in shock bc he is just..perfect at everything. ofc it makes him popular but some ppl don’t like him bc he is so popular and shenanigans ensue. i was cackling until the last episode which just- hit hard. (tw violence, kidnapping, fire, blood)
4. Monthly girls Nozaki-kun: all the characters are extremely likeable, chaotic bisexual disasters. it’s just this on girl trying to get her crush to fall for her but unlike many other romance anime, imo, she doesn’t come across as obnoxious, just a simp. another comedy that’ll (maybe) make you cry 🤠👍
honourable mentions: one punch man, the disastrous like of saiki k, soul eater, ohshc, toilet bound hanako-kun, yuri!! on ice, my ordinary life & the promised neverland. (i just love comedies, ok? :’) )
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hello everyone !! i’m nat and i’m very excited i found this rp bc i believe my bby emma can fit v well here, i hope so anyway. i’m 20 and i’m a walking trash can, but at least i’m gay so it’s all good ig. if you’d wish to plot pls pls like this or just send me a message !! i’m down to most plots and don’t let my awkwardness fool u i want all them plots ! anyways now onto my bby em under the cut lmao.
ANNE HATHAWAY. 35. CIS FEMALE. SHE/HER. ↷ do you hear rebel rebel, by david bowie? that must be emma hyde. she has been living in san francisco as a veterinarian for thirty-five years. during that time they have earned the reputation of the hedonist. it makes sense you know, they can be bossy and overcritical. but let’s not forget they’re pretty determined and intelligent.
**tw death
*** tw depression
emma was born in san francisco california in 1982. her parents were high school sweethearts who had been together for years, they had her when they were around 26 and were a cute lil fam, everything was perfect but sadly it didn’t last long.
** tw death; when emma was barely 6 months old her mom passed away, on her way home from work she was simply at the wrong place at the wrong time and was mugged, she tried to fight back which was a bad decision which ultimately led to her premature death.
so ofc her dad was devastated and everything from that on was tough af but he did his best to look after emma. he was working double jobs and would take her with him bc he just wasn’t interested in leaving her with a nanny?? and overall was a great dad tru champ
bc of this growing up emma and her dad were close af, he was her best friend and they were literally always together. he never remarried and would barely ever date, and when he did he’d never introduce his gfs to emma, so she always missed out on a true mother figure which was just sad af
naturally she’d hang out with a bunch of men the whole time, her dad and his friends / coworkers who’d also look after her. so she kinda got into a lot of hobbies and things that were lowkey considered “boyish” back then.
despite this emma was a v girly girl though, and she’d get frustrated af when her dad couldn’t pull off those cool pretty hairstyles for her or when he’d pick out the wrong pair of jeans or shoes lol which happened all the time.
*** tw depression; so yes emma was pretty much her dad’s whole world and was always getting involved in everything she asked. he even coached her soccer team and all lol. bc he was always so upbeat and a playful dad, it wasn’t until she got significantly older that she started realizing her dad actually suffered from depression. ((nowadays she’s constantly checking up on him))
at age 14 she had a big ass crush on one of her teachers and this was when she started figuring out her sexuality, bc she’d always been so close to her dad she didn’t hesitate on coming to him first. at first he thought maybe she was just confused, maybe growing up without any women in her life had something to do with it ??? but sure enough that had nothing to do with it and it was something he learned eventually. it threw him off at first but he never made her feel wrong for it or anything. a+ parenting if u ask me.
her dad had saved enough money to send her to uni, but emma wanted to become a veterinarian which was a little more expensive than he expected, so she offered to work a part time job and help pay for her own studies.
when she was an intern right before graduating, some guys she used to hang with talked her into taking some supplies from the clinic and sell them it. it seemed like an easy way to do money and she really needed it at the time? so it sort of became a thing for her. this went on for a while, even after she was already an established veterinarian and didn’t really need the money anymore ?? it still seemed like a good and easy way to make some extra cash. this stopped a while ago tho after it got to be too much and she didn’t even need it anymore so ya know.
personality wise, she’s kind of a mix between eleanor from the good place and gina from brooklyn 9 9 ?? just a bit anyway. she’s very skillful and smart, mostly because of her dad who taught her a lot of things. she looooves classic cars and even drives one of her own (a 67 ford mustang) and also motorcycles ?? she probably has one idk i haven't made up my mind yet but she's definitely had one in the past at least
loves being a Big Lesbian and that’s like 90% of her whole personality. just very gay
will look good asf in suits and also in pretty dresses and literally anything. basically dressed to kill. a True Vers
grew up an angsty teen in the 90’s so obvs she loves anything from that decade. big fan of alternative rock. leather jacket lesbian, and obvs loves all animals but dogs have a bigger place in her heart.
has a dog, a brown labrador. he’s a Big Boy but he’s her baby. literally her child. his name is remi.
somE QUIck wc’s; coworkers maybe ?? someone she met at the bar bc she probs goes there often lmao. uhh another Cool Cars enthusiast she can gush about cars with lmao. clients ig ?? she’ll take care of y'alls pets. maybe childhood friends??. former flings/relationships. and uHhh idk anything else !!
this got way too long and it’s messy lmao! but yeah thats p much it for now and ily for reading !! Pls come plot w me !!
#rush.intro#rush.ooc#waddup im nat and i never fucking learned how to intro#also it's late and i dont have much followers rn but i just really wanna get started lmfaobghj#i only used this gif bc anne as selina was good asf and it's awfully underrated gjdhf
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faaya
“We'll buy back our own harm with what is most dear to us.”
― Euripides, Iphigenia in Aulis
tw mentions of puke, suicide
Space. Faaya was buying herself space. That’s all it was suppose to be. Just time to sort out her feelings and reevaluate her priorities. Bentley’s confession had made her afraid. Being frozen under the drakon’s gaze had made her afraid. Dayn’s hospitalization made her afraid. Fear was power and Faaya was spiraling, powerless.
The text messages with Luke wasn’t suppose to go that route initially. She had already bought their gifts and she didn’t want the obligations of giving them to weigh on her while she figured things out. She’d give Luke his gift, let Luke give her gift for Bentley as his, and she could step away from the holidays easily. Then somewhere along the way, Faaya thought Luke was going to feel the way she pulled back eventually and she didn’t want to have another talk about it, so she’d let him down on her own terms. While he took it as well as she could expect, the guilt still lingered. Thumb on her screen, Faaya scrolled through the texts again as she sipped her hibiscus tea. Then, she swiped back to mull over Bentley’s texts.
“Faaya?” Glancing up from her phone, Adam got her attention from his seat at the bar. “Not working?”
He was Dayn’s friend, though Adam was a quiet person. She didn’t know him that well, but she had nothing against him either. “Not really. I had to come in to fix something. I’m just getting a drink since I’m here. You don’t visit these parts often.”
Adam lifted his shoulders and spoke only after a moment, changing the subject. “I heard you were with Rune. During the snow in,” he clarified.
[6:01 PM]
It took a moment for Faaya to remember. Right. Son of Ares. “Yeah, he saved my life and was blessed by your dad.”
“He saved you?” The slight surprise on Adam’s face didn’t really make sense for what Faaya knew of Rune, but she guessed she didn’t know him that well either. She was biased too, anyway. “What happened?”
“You can ask him if you’re so curious.”
“Probably not,” Adam answered, oddly honest. “He did okay though? He was alright?”
“As far as I can tell.” Ice clinked against her glass as she stirred it.
“Alright, thanks.”
A simple guy, Adam paid and left, leaving her with half a glass of her drink left—A light shone from the ground—And his phone, apparently. Faaya was not a nosy person, she didn’t think, but seeing Dayn’s name across the screen along with hers in the message made her curious. He was typing something, but she scrolled up to get some context.
[6:03 PM]
Dayn Thompson: yea faaya came by once
Dayn Thompson: she was my emergency contact
Dayn Thompson: im changing that to you btw
Adam Hudson: so my phone’s never gonna stop ringing huh
Adam Hudon: how’d that go
Dayn Thompson:
Dayn Thompson: it was weird though
Dayn Thompson: i told her about siding with athena and that was fine but then she started crying and idk it made me super uncomfortable
Dayn Thompson: like were not dating and even if we were we just never did that stuff really
Dayn Thompson: i wouldnt want to start now
Adam Hudson: you guys dated for awhile. wouldn’t that come up
Dayn Thompson: yea but she kept that shit to herself and that was better
Adam Hudson: you sound like a dick
Dayn Thompson: hey if actually loved her then maybe i might feel different but not the case man
Dayn Thompson: yea id definitely handle it better if i like really really cared about them
Dayn Thompson: and faayas just not soft like normal girls it just doesnt look good on her
Adam Hudson: if you didn’t like her why do you keep getting back together
Dayn Thompson: because she lets me ig
Dayn Thompson: its just super easy to get back with faaya if i feel like it
[6:03 PM]
At some point reading the messages, her heart had dropped. Every fear she’d ever had about Dayn was true and Faaya felt sick. Deep down, she’d always known she was just some play thing for him to pass the time with. There was too much going on around her now. The music, the laughing, the dancing, the lights. She had to get out, it all felt too small. After dropping Adam’s phone off in the lost and found, she drove back home, feeling a numbing in her arms and legs.
Stumbling out of her car, she wanted to hurry up to her apartment so she could throw up the rock in her stomach . The drive had only made her feel sicker. But of course, it wasn’t over. Because there was Bentley standing by her building with his jaw locked and an unfamiliar anger set in his brow bone. It didn’t get better when he saw her approaching.
“Bentley, I told you I didn’t want to talk.” The strength in her voice wasn’t there. Maybe he’d try again later.
“You weren’t going to reply again.” It was true. “Check your phone, Faaya.”
There was no room to argue, so she did so gritting her teeth. A message from Luke with his Christmas gift to her. Why did everything have to be so hard and hurt so much? It was like there was bright and happy future that was out of reach, but beckoning her towards it. The problem was, it just wasn’t possible—Bentley was fragile. Luke was sensitive. And Faaya was afraid. Always afraid. She just didn’t realize how much until now.
[6:04 PM]
“What do you want me to do? Say sorry and go on the trip with you guys?” Faaya asked exasperated.
“I want to know why you thought it was a good idea to get Luke involved in this. Your problem is with me.”
“Luke’s in the middle of our problems whether we like it or not. I told you I needed space from you. I don’t know how long that is. Luke was bound to read the room eventually and I’d rather have it now than later.”
“Well that’s nice of you, Faaya. It’s super mature and thoughtful.” The sarcasm didn’t go unnoticed. “You know, you’re a real arsehole. I’ve bitten my tongue about it for years because yeah, sometimes the pros outweighed the cons and I used to think, you know what, ‘yeah Phobos made her like this.’ But we’ve reached the point where it’s all just you and it’s inexcusable.”
The onslaught from Bentley was harsh and only filled with truths. It left Faaya speechless.
He continued. “I can’t believe I told you I wanted to kill myself and instead of giving a shit about me, you’re just worried about how it makes you feel. You’re scared about living in a world without me? About caring too much? About you not being enough for me? Well it’s all true and it’s all your own fault.” Bentley was breathing hard, getting it all off his chest. A fist was clenched at his side and his scolding glower was burning holes into her. “You’re a bad friend, Faaya. You’re a worse person. I wish we’d never met. You’re not someone meant to have friends. You don’t have the heart for it.”
[6:04 PM]
“No, I don’t, Bentley.” Faaya’s eyes narrowed on him as she crossed her arms. As true as it was, attacks were the only thing she knew how to handle. Efficiently and devastatingly. “So don’t bother me again and I won’t bother you.”
Brushing past him, Faaya didn’t feel so sick anymore. She didn’t feel anything, and she wouldn’t. Bentley was right. Certain and solid, Faaya just wasn’t meant to care about anyone else, but herself. It was what she defaulted on anytime the choice had to be made. Siding with Ares had been for her own control. Stealing her biological mother’s abilities had been her own rage. Everything Faaya did was with herself in mind. Being vulnerable had only lead to suffering to her and those around her. There was no reason to fight it now that was clear.
[6:04 PM]
[ SCENE CHANGE ]
“My kid’s not that much of a bad influence.”
“Bad or not, he was still too much of an influence.” Phobos rolled his shoulder. It’d been a very productive afternoon. “Faaya doesn’t really do well being held back by shit like that.”
Deimos raised a brow. “She can’t be a ‘real natural’ if you have to get involved with her life so much.”
Phobos scoffed, shaking his head. “That’s what parents do, don’t they? Make sure their kids doing the best they can? Faaya wasn’t gonna get anywhere if I left her to her own devices. Besides, I let her have her fun. She’s gotta grow up now. Childhood friends have gotta go. Fuck sentimentality. And I’m bored of the Dayn phase. He’s with Athena now anyway. We just don’t need any of the useless shit.”
Kids always liked making their own mistakes and Phobos let Faaya make those for awhile, but she was better than that and she needed a little push. She’d already been fearing everything he’d showed her, he was just hammering the nail on the head.
“And have you considered the stars of your horror show making a real appearance and countering the events of all your hard work, Phobos?” Deimos asked feigning disinterest, but the slight curl to his lip said otherwise.
“Maybe if you spent more time with your children, you would know them better. Faaya really is a daddy’s girl.”
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