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echo-stimmingrose · 1 month

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Polites and Odysseus’ mum were singing their final thoughts before they died

Fuck you, get off my blog/j

#actively SOBBING this is NOT OKAY #jorge AND you better pay for my therapy #answered asks #epic the musical #polites final thoughts still being optimistic breaks my fucking heart #dont even get me started on the DEVASTATION that hit the second i hears Ody say “mom?”

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mooseonahunt · 8 months

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What the hell is in the air why are all my pals getting emotional

#I say as I am actively sobbing #ugly sobbing even #crying in the club #is everyone okay why are we all pouring our hearts out #moose and pals #moose posting

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zukkaoru · 3 months

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the disparity in kudos between a skk fic and a fic for literally any other bsd characters/ship :/

#like okay i get it skk is the most popular bsd ship by a longshot #but it does kinda suck that my skk fics will always end up being more popular than literally anything else i write for bsd #when i have way better fics tbh #okay i'm unleashing this from my drafts lol #like i get it kudos/hits/bookmarks counts aren't telling of how good a fic is #but out of my last five fics. my skk one has ONE HUNDRED kudos more than the next most kudos #and idk it also sucks that i know my skk is better than 90% of the fandom but. even my skk fics get significantly less kudos/etc #than big writers in the fandom who AREN'T EVEN GOOD #or are like. mid at best #i know in theory that the bsd fandom doesn't care about characterization but like. not only do they encourage bad characterization #it feels like sometimes they're actively against good characterization #even in j.jk and a.tla where there are major issues with bad characterization #more people seem to at least appreciate the good characterization. (even if they aren't good at it themselves.)#but i swear to god no one in the bsd fandom cares about anything besides whether dazai and chuuya are kissing. it begins and ends there.#it never ceases to amaze me (derogatory) how a fandom where the source media draws So Much inspiration from classic literature #can somehow have NEGATIVE media literacy skills #why don't you guys take a break from your edgy dazai x softboy chuuya fics and you fems.kk with dazai in skimpy clothes and your #beast chuuya sobbing and killing himself over dazai's death #and go read some of the books by the actual authors. and then write me an essay about the themes that has nothing to do with shipping.#and THEN you can come back to the fandom.#listen i love skk but oh my god sometimes the fandom makes me hate them.#anyway one of these days i'm going to get anon hate for complaining about the bsd fandom so much but that's fine #at least i know there are characters in the show besides dazai and chuuya. and when i do write skk AT LEAST I DO IT RIGHT.#hello grace here

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baeshijima · 6 months

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its 5 am, i am barely alive but i am kicking my feet bc today is my last day until i go home on saturday for a month of winter break and also:

look who came home in 16 pulls 😩

#tears of sophie ; not themis #okay but ngl that week break i took from socmed in general was a nice reset #also bc i have 3 assignment due in early jan so i should be working on them #and also sm has happened like i still need to watch gensin livestream or at least the trailer and hsr livestream later today ?????#AND THE FACT THE NEW TOT UPDATE HAPPENED LIKE A COUPLE HOURS AGO #sobs #ill be active again either later today or on the weekend tho !! we just have to see when i have the energy after i finish packing some stuff #anyway i need to sleep now bc i have to get up in a couple hours…. haha…..

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gay-arsonists-lullaby · 8 months

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Welp. The finale... happened. How are we doing, fellow members of the lgbtq+ community? {*hysterical sobbing*}

#i for one am actively dying #i hate this #what even is happiness #DAVID HOW COULD YOU #THIS WAS SUPPOST TO GET RID OF MY GOOD OMENS TRAUMA #omfd #our flag means death s2 #our flag means death #´I wanna go´#i mean... at least the rest of them are okay {* more hysterical sobbing*}#izzy hands #this is so sad alexa play ´la vie en rose´#omfd spoilers #they really pulled a ´shane from the spirit animals book series´ on me again huh

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hershelwidget · 1 year

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DHMIS week day 3: Love/Family !!!

I’m never drawing Shrignold ever again /j also excuse me while I cry over how CUTE THE TWINS LOOK IN THOSE FITS AUAUUUUUUGHGH

@transgenderduckguy

#dhmis #dont hug me im scared #dhmis week #dhmis fanart #dhmis shrignold #dhmis twins #dhmis lily and todney #HEAD in HANDS THE TWINS TH TWINS THIS IS THE BEST I'VE EVER DRAWN EM #THIS WAS A NIGHTMARE TO COLOUR BUT GOD IT WAS WORTH IT AUAUUUGUGGHHGHGHG #GRABS THE TWINS AND HUGS THEM HOLDS GENTLY THEY'RE SO ADORABLE HERE IM LAIJNGTKNBHBHsIDHAFUhfFFHFHFHHH sobs #ok im good now. no im not im never gonna be okay about this i've never activated Big Sister Mode so fast #on a similar note shrignold is their adoptive strange older brother no i dont take criticism #also shrignold's wings are not undecorated because i gave up. no thats not true i simply took an alternate route which is ''fuck it''

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crimeronan · 1 year

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god nothing comforts me like that "i'm a therapist for uber-rich people and they really are all as miserable as the succession characters" article. every time i'm in unspeakable amounts of pain i just think about the number of billionaires who miserably helplessly pathetically shuffle through each unhappy day desperately dissatisfied and praying they'll someday gather up the courage to put a gun in their mouth. and it brings me SO much calm and peace and joy. 🥺💕🙏

#autoimmune tag #<-bc i'm inflammation and migraine posting #i can't be the only one right. i know i'm a special kind of low empathy but surely some of you guys also feel this #like dont you ever think about a man sobbing in a 20k suit in a ditch and #want to sweetly ask if he's okay and flutter your hands over him protectively and then kick him so hard in the ribs you feel bone splinter #just think about it. just think about getting to be the ghostly devil on an uber-wealthy person's shoulder #so gently so calmly so soothingly whispering 'everyone hates you and youd be better off dead'#'shhh honey thats it thats good. theres a cliff right up ahead. now what youre gonna want to do is floor the gas-'#man typing those tags out legit activated my parasympathetic nervous system i'm super relaxed now. on the cusp of nap #zzzzzz.#suicide ig

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ivy-is-fine · 8 months

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watching Disney movies until my cat dies 🤭 ✌️

#shitpost #screaming crying sobbing #sobbing #aaaaaaah #im okay I swear #he’s not tho #he is like. actively dying #istg

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arthur-r · 8 days

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updates on this:

started testosterone already (may 28)

demo recording is going awfully, but the more i realize i’ll be free of my voice soon the more i realize i might not have all that much willpower to preserve it like that

i will be going to alaska for the first half of july so be prepared for that….

all of those events are going to happen at some point. including visiting campus in a week maybe but otherwise waiting for another month and a half. we’ll see.

i’m reading sula and loving it. stayed up filling my sideblog with quotes actually

i’m not making money, or staying healthy, or sleeping, and i’m really struggling to hold onto who i am. so that’s unfortunate. i guess i’ll have to start with keeping a diary. but there’s not a lot to write down i just feel sick and awful. and that’s just kind of been the main idea of the summer so far

#WHY DID I START HAVING A DEPRESSIVE EPISODE JUST AS I WAS ABOUT TO START T #THIS IS SO FUCKING UNFAIR. SUPPOSED TO BE THE HAPPIEST OF MY LIFE RN #but honestly i feel so dysphoric about the fact that nothing has changed yet. like at least i didn’t used to be ACTIVELY TRYING #but it’s whatever. i’m taking gel. it goes slower. it’s whatever. i’ll get there #anyway i have no fucking idea what’s wrong with me but this is where i’m at #MAYBE ITS CAUSE IM OFF MY BIRTH CONTROL. maybe i should start that again even though i’m on T now #just cause i have awful pmdd and for all i know that’s what’s been happening to me #i dont know. the fucking tragedies in my midst can’t be helping anything. would be maybe fucked to be doing okay rn #anyway idk. im gonna try to sleep. but ran into this list #fuck i miss my bed. having my own room that was MINE even sharing it with aaron was fucking beautiful honestly #and something awful has happened and i dont think i’ll ever be able to feel that peace in my new room next year #anyway i need to sleep really badly i’m going to sleep now. but yeah idk. there’s a lot going on #and i am not even as screaming and sobbing as i should be #anyway im around if anyone needs anything. though right now im sleeping #and i hope everyone has a good night #me. my post. mine.#delete later #ask to tag #vent cw

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mccoys-killer-queen · 1 year

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#no i'm not okay this song makes me cry every time and i CANT EXPLAIN WHY #it just makes me wanna ugly sob #scream-sob to tommy's harmonies #it just makes me so heartsick for something i'm never gonna have i guess #like i am actively sobbing over this song as i'm posting this #damn yankees #i wanna scream this at all the hot old men i'm hopelessly in love with

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toastsnaffler · 2 months

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every morning I'm like wow.. birdsong and sunshine.....hm.. u know what. maybe there is hope in the world. and everything will be ok :3 and every evening I'm like I Hope A Meteorite Crashes Through My Window While I Sleep Hitting Me On The Head And Killing Me Instantly. and I switch between these multiple times throughout the day and alsosometimes they happen the other way round and theres no sense or reason or order or pattern just the labyrinth forever. yeah I'm good why do u ask

#girls will play videogames to chill out and then 10 minutes later will be hysterically crying in the bathroom brushing their teeth #i dont know whats wrong with me anymore i give up trying to figure it out. thats a lie i wish i could give up but my brain will never-#exit the ouroboros spiral of trying to figure it out bc SOMEone broke the switch for reptile brain pattern seeking activation #i dont even know how i feel right now im either fine or im going to start sobbing again #does anyone know when this ends its not fun anymore and i need to go to sleep :-(#vent post one million and one.......... im fine guys i just like to fantasise that someone i care about reads these and thinks yikes!#and doesnt even acknowledge it irl or do anything except put on performative sympathy when talking abt me to other ppl #bc theres nothing anyone can do and at its not their problem and thats ok i dont begrudge them for it ill keep ventposting forever anyway #but at least maybe a real person HAS read it. so how i feel does actually exist in a witnessable form somewhere. anyway goodnight #dont send me asks this is a VENT POST sorry and thank you okay bye #.vent

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ntls-24722 · 4 months

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oh my god comet and fritz need to be. rehomed. they need to be taken from my custody bc i am a BIOHAZARD with them as my ocs DEAR LORDDDDD

#SOBS LOUDLY #i didnt do something traumatic to them I'm just. realizing something about them #CLAWS AT THE WALLS #ntls-24722 #comet #fritz #tl;dr #Comet: “Not everyone is out to get you Fritz. I really am trying to be your friend. You can trust me”#Fritz: “Really? Okay” [trusts comet]#Comet's biology: [IS NOW ACTIVELY OUT TO KILL FRITZ]

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brokerkisser · 6 months

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They let me hold him up for a photo, not pictured: me practically smiling ear to ear 😭😭😭😭😭🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹 I LOVE YOU SUSANNN;!!!!!;?!:+'+"-*7$#6&(

#I WISH I DIDN'T LEAVE EARLY I WANTED TO PUT A BIG BOW ON HIS HEAD #FUUUCKKKKKK #i didn't do the activities bc i was embarrassed at how autistic i was bc uhm 18 yr old 😭😭😭😭😭#okay. (autistic regret)#I DID HAVE FUN LOOKING AT EVERYTHING #loud sobbing #missing link 2019 #missing link laika #susan link

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astrxealis · 1 year

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good morning 🥺

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚#sorrey ... not active ..... lots going on but also not (?)#IDK anyways i've reconnected w an old friend who's a childhood friend bcs shes the daughter of my mom's friend ^___^#she said she's gna get into the 1975 more !! but she's alrdy going to the arctic monkey's concert soon which is super cool #and i rmbr our mom asked me and lune if we knew them too <3 but we didn't know there was a legit concert SOBS #yeah miss her a lot and it's sweet how wnvr we do reconnect a bit it always so happens we're into the same thing of sorts :((#AND THEN! wow idk i've grown a lil less hesitant. somehow. idk. literally replied to the story on ig of a guy ik but haven't talked to in ag #ages* purely bcs he kept posting like woaaa based game and then ff6 best ff so i was like SO TRUE but have u played 14 #and he has NOT but does want to and then wow we could have had a lil convo but i left to watch a movie sorry bro <//3 #what else ... hmm ..... WELL. an old friend from all the way in 6th grade. okay so we often message each other a bit just like 'hey wna be #grpmates' or smth like that and that one time where they gave me a lil help for the chem grp work and i'm like. just comfy talking like #myself fr BUT THENNN messaged me sometime last week bcs. like smth w a grpwork and they got anxious they did smth wrong #bcs no one in the gc replied to them (sorry i didn't either SOBS) T___T ended up turning the convo to 'hey wt abt i finally try to talk w u #properly more' and HELL YEAHHH we both r the kinds that talk/type a lot but sometimes dip and disappear how lovely /gen LMAO <3 #idk. uhm. with the school fair we have booths and shifts for the booths and my group is the one with uhh the 4 kids who i'm often groups #with and they're all the. yk kids. ppl who i'd get along w and i've been classmates w all of em b4 but you see they're a grp of friends now #RAGHH ONE OF THEM IK LIKES PERSONA (MULTIPLE?? IDK. they once were like yo apollo u seem like u like persona lol #IDK WHAT THAT IS SUPPOSED TO MEAN but yes i do have akechi and ren charms on my backpack for school #AND THEN ONE is into like gi pjsk a lot of rhythm games and gacha mobile but all like uhh. yeah? tot love live bandori ... still cool fr tho #she's rlly nice tbh lol ^___^ wait tbh all of them are HELP but uhm idk but it's nice when ppl r nice to me #tbf that's literally how i got my first crush BUT WE DON'T TALK ABT THAT !! yk sometimes i unconsciously wonder abt her or look for her and #then i did see her again after a few months since seeing her early in on the school year bcs shes in basketball and i hung out at the uhh #covered court w my best friend whos in another varsity bcs we stayed late at school that day to help out w fair preparations!#i refuse to like her again but i realize i like that familiarity with feelings and uhmm yeah shes cool ig i kinda wish i was less. uhm. shy #back then? you see i barely cld talk to her ... LIKE. she'd be like. heyy! and do shit sometimes and i WOULDN'T TALK or just smile and #mumble RAFGHHHFHFHDHH but she'd say hi to me and include me in things and jokes and it made me rlly /@!(@/'dmdkzn okay #AND sometimes when i do talk back I am SOOOO GODDAMN AWKWARD GOOD GODS anyways now i'm like. less awkward. or maybe i've just accepted it n #i'm cooler now B) and a lot more confident zEjfhejdjsnk. yeah. and uhmm yeah that's it #BUT YEAH nice classmate she asked me for a hug once lol and i notice she's affectionate w her friends n it reminds me of m y own bestie awhh #she sometimes talks to me which i rlly appreciate even if it prolly seems like i hate her sorry i just suck w talking

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kittlyns · 9 months

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EW NO??????

#I mean I know we're not but come on!!! ew???? no?????????#I'm over here giggling and kicking my legs and twirling a lock of hair and etching K + T inside a heart on a tree and oh you want to go to #the circus Karlach? okay let's go to the circus Karlach! oh no you got turned into a cheese wheel let me reload my save so you're not a #cheese wheel anymore Karlach #of course I'll help you get revenge Karlach I'm here for you any time Karlach - every time she speaks!!!#and she's gonna say EW NO?????????#Gale. activate the orb.#canonically my Tav in this moment excuses herself to the nearest bathroom and screams and sobs at the mirror for 10 minutes straight #bg3

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ryusaidate · 1 year

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ok what i actually need is to figure out how to draw faster or something because i've got too many ideas and i'm dying from lack of brain space. may be the only person on planet earth who's otp is ryusaito but i've got infinite fans worth of mental illness about them! god has cursed me for my hubris and my work is never finished

#have i posted yet about how i used to actively complain that all the ships i liked were super popular #and now i'm here.#*SOB*#My Birthday Is On The 22nd By The Way-#okay i'm done for tonight. probably.#i'll be back soon. with more ship art.#stupidposting #can't believe i got accused of doing this for clout

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