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kanatashinkaifr · 9 months

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going to talk abt obey me and how they are all extremely neurodivergent!!! gonna go through my thoughts on each characters who stands out to me in one way or another.

Lucifer- he has NPD. dont even try to argue with me about this. from the way he holds himself to an extremely high standard to how hes LITERALLY the avatar of pride, hes just a total narc and I love him dearly. I also consider him to be autistic. half bcuz he shows some signs half bcuz I'm autistic and love projecting onto characters. I think that the way he is so strict and finds being on time so important is extremely autistic of him. he follows a very specific routine, and if said routine is messed with, he is unapproachable for atleast the rest of the day. this is shown in likee late lesson 24 or early lesson 25 I forget. he also has issues with emotions. both showing and I think even identifying them. autistic man. ALSO ptsd. duh.

mammon: adhd. he has adhd. he doesnt have npd, HOWEVER, he totally shows symptoms. he acts like hes on top of the world but the second a minor inconvenience happens he is just. reduced to nothing. I also like the hc of him being dyslexic.

levi: AUTISM AUTISM AUTISM!!! yeah that ones obvious like extremely obvious. stg autism runs into the family or smth cuz it feels like mammon and asmo are the only allistics in that mf house. dont need to explain why Levi is autistic. its obvious. if you really need an explanation just ask. but I also think he has severe social anxiety. like to the point that he gets extremely sick at the thought of social interaction. over the years, and with lots of trial and error medication, he can sort of deal with it now. still freaks him out though.

Satan: I think he takes after his father. like. A LOT. he is so npd and so autistic. I think that he really prides himself on his smarts but like. if he were to fail/get an average mark on a test (especially if lucifer got a high mark) he would disintegrate out of pure self hatred. if lucifer is better than him in any academic topic, you can practically feel the envy and rage coming from him. lucifer understands how he feels, and always tries to help him with his npd issues, but that just upsets him tenfold. "you think that *I* need *YOUR* help??? disgusting!". he has such issues I love him so much. not much to comment on his autism. also quite obvious, especially in nightbringer.

Asmo- I KNOW SO MANY PEOPLE THINK ASMO HAS NPD AND LIKE I GET THE IDEA BUT NO. HE HAS HPD AND I WILL FIGHT TOOTH AND NAIL OVER THAT HC.

beel: autism. binge eating disorder. ptsd.

belphie: autism. BPD!!!!! B!! P!!! D!!!!!!!! I will scream it from the roof tops THAT MAN HAD BPD IDC WHAT YOU SAY!! impulsivity (especially when angry), unstable relations (mostly hc), uncontrolled anger, chronic emptiness (hc), self destructiveness, fear of abandonment. you look into the DSM-5 and there is a picture of him there. I think that. he might have PTSD too.

diavolo: autism. I dont care what anyone says I think he is an autistic woman who was just forced into masking. c-ptsd due to mainly emotional neglect.

solomon: autism. no canon reason to support this I'm just projecting. c-ptsd. he has very complicated feeling surrounding loneliness and abandonment due to his childhood.

simeon: autism. C-PTSD!!!!!!! I think that. there wasnt nessacarily anything that could generally be considered traumatizing. but a lot of things in his early days were extremely stressful for him. I think that hes always questioned the word of God just a bit. he made sure nobody ever found out, but he always had doubt within him. this has always eaten at him, as he is supposed to be an angel. Angel's do not doubt the word of their father,, so, why does he?

ermm okay I think that's. enough ranting for today...

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transmasc-wizard · 8 months

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i'll ask u about your blorbo connections if u ask me abt mine <33 (i was tagged by someone else </3) Very curious about crowley in particular

YAYAYAYAY also I just realized we were tagged by the same person whoops. anyway

this is going to be just like heavily implied traumadumping on main btw but I've been in various stages of a breakdown for over 6 hours so i deserve it actually :3

BLORBOS:

tim stoker: anger issues. has lost some shit in the past. dresses atrociously. uses humour to mask how genuinely dysregulated they are. cares so deeply for people it drives them up the wall. bisexual

nico di angelo: happy queer child thrown starkly awake by a traumatic truth at a young age and becomes closed off confused manipulated and angry for several years only to find good supportive people who help him back on track (but he is still ill) (and that will probably not go away). also I took his name

eleanor shellstrop: sooooo scared of being left behind. so so scared. also, not entirely sure how to be a good person, but she wants to. kind of naturally mean and prickly and insults people out of love but is working on being nicer. (also side note I'm SOOOOO chidi coded too)

carlos: I have autism I like science he probably has autism (to me he does) and likes science and also we are both very quick at adjusting to weird shit if we find it interesting

L: why he talk like that. why he sit like that

michael shelley: trusted the wrong people 👍 changed a lot 👍 became a little fucking UNHINGED ! afterward 👍

crowley: it's the "let's leave behind everything else. I don't give a shit about the world I only care about you. we are on our own side against everything. we're a team. i love you, i dont have to say it, you know. you dont have to say it, i know you do too. please please please let me protect you please don't let them hurt you like they hurt me. wait please don't leave me why are you leaving me why are you choosing them. we're a team. I love you. i say it. say it back. why aren't you saying it back. why do you only want me how i used to be. I've changed so much. it wasn't on purpose. please love me this way. i love you. please. woah silly fashion sense :3" for me <3 does that satiate ur curiosity

martin: there is this pit of loneliness deep in your chest and it has probably always been there but now it will not go away and it consumes you, it swallows you whole. you are surrounded by people and surrounded by love but that pit has teeth and it tears you to shreds and all anyone else can do is watch. and yet, the love helps. it helps enough to hold on. that pit is inside you but it is not you. it hurts so much. it hurts because you're still alive. also bullshits skills and no one notices + homosexual + glasses :]

jinx: abandonment issues, anger issues, social awkwardness, intense mood swings, needs to be good enough to keep, unnatural hair colours <3

#asks #me #luce!!

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rivastraut · 3 days

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aaand either of the birthday cakes? :D

Ask game!

🌟 - what does your f/o do to help comfort you about your insecurities? what do you to do comfort them about theirs?

Mike reassurances me a lot... like saying I am perfect just the way I am if I feel insecure abt how I look or my identity etc... and I comfort Mike by saying i unconditionally love him even if he thinks he's a bad person or undeserving of love u-u

✨ - share some headcanons about your f/o! this can be visual headcanons, sexuality or gender, disabilities and neurodivergencies, etc!

Hehe yes I have many Mike hcs. He's cis man leaning agender but he's 65 with a job so he doesnt gaf abt that right now, demi bi but if you ask him he will just say he likes who he likes (Kleon/me), he has a glucose intolerance, he has ptsd/depression, & maybe a little autism bc he has his comfort food

🎂 - how has your f/o changed over the course of the relationship? how have you changed? do either of you miss past things about the other?

I think overtime when Mike is dating Kleon he becomes more happy, like he's less lonely and has someone who he can depend on and confide in and just be a light in his life. Mike is so sad but Kleon comes into his life and brightens it up and saves him in a way... Mike saves Kleon as well and makes him more happier, like Kleon may seem fine on the outside but deep down he harbors a great loneliness so having Mike in his life really does make him feel happier and gets him up in the morning :}

as for missed things umm i guess they end up missing the amount of time they used to be able to spend together once their jobs start becoming more busy and theyre assigned on different missions more and its sad bc they cant see each other as often :[ (dont worry they end up getting their happy domestic ranch living life in alaska where they can see each other all the time with no worries for stressful drug empire jobs :})

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cheesy09 · 2 years

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Hi!! I've had this question since a long time and i finally decided to ask it now that i found someone who looks like knows a lot abt Kiro haha. So, i've heard many players say that Kiro is autistic and always has been since his early age but where was that mentioned? It's so nice to finally see a thing that doesn't make autistic people stereotyped so i'm really interested as to how it was brought to players! Thank you for all the Kiro contents you post~

Hi Nony! Hope you're having a good day/evening wherever you are ~ヾ(・ω・)

Yes, Kiro was an autistic orphan when he was a child. You'll find it mentioned in his R&S: Top Experimental Subject!

There's actually a collection of Rumors and Secrets that never made it to the EN server, so not many people know about Kiro's past (I cry about that every single time T-T). The reason why they never showed up on the EN server is because there were some issues with the event on the CN server. But since the devs have recently revived it on the CN server, it should come to EN at some point (thank goodness)!

Aside from the Rumors and Secrets though, Lucien also hinted at it in S1 Chapter 5 (tho you probably wouldn't realize it unless you read the R&S first):

Kiro's what you would call a musical savant. Despite his autism, he had a great talent for music.

But Kiro didn't become just a musician. He became an actor as well. An entertainer.

Also, there's something very important that MC mentions here:

The reason why I say this is important is because Kiro is often referred to as "a child of the stars"; stars also being one of the main motifs of his character. And he is often alone - Loneliness being a strong theme with his character as well. One of his future S2 karmas is even titled "Lone Star". You'll know the meaning of that title once the Chapter comes out, don't worry (ಥ﹏ಥ)

Besides that, this chapter also plays a HUGE PART in Kiro's Astral Date - a date that has been released on the CN server and will come to EN in a few months. Which is why knowing Kiro's background is important, because otherwise the date won't hit as hard.

‼️SPOILERS BELOW‼️:

The Date starts off with Kiro and MC attending a charity concert held by Madam Seidel Eve (one of Kiro's benefactors) in France.

This concert was held for the benefit of the autistic children, especially those with a talent for music. And Kiro happened to be one of the sponsors for these children. The inspiration for the concert came from a program that Kiro himself developed for the sake of these children. (Though he never revealed the fact that he was the one who developed it to anyone other than MC).

Here's a snippet of the conversation that Kiro and MC have within the Date about the show that she made in S1 Chapter 6:

MC: I told you before, I once did a program about children with autism.

Kiro: Was it "Children of the Stars"? I've seen it.

Kiro: I think you did a very good job with that episode.

Kiro: Really. How should I put it... it just resonates very much.

Kiro: You did not sympathize and alienate them, but treated them as independent individuals to face and accept.

Kiro: As a viewer, I saw their shining points, not the pitiful side of them as autistic patients.

Kiro: That's great.

Kiro's tone was extremely sincere, as if... he had watched that episode many times.

This is just a small part of the conversation. In the date, Kiro and MC talk a lot more about this topic and how they want to help these children in whatever way they can. And you'll realize just how important and serious this is to Kiro from his expression, demeanor and tone of voice.

A little something he mentions when MC asks him about the autistic child he helped out earlier at the concert:

MC: Is your help to that kid today considered as a light projected for him?

Kiro: Maybe.

Kiro: But such little light is definitely not enough. People with autism need a lot of sunshine and a lot of love.

Kiro knows what he's talking about because he empathizes with those children. After all, he had been in their shoes once upon a time. And it's obvious how much of an impact his words have on MC seeing how determined she was to play a role in this after hearing these things from him.

I once mentioned before how Kiro inspires MC to become a light, and this is exactly how - By lighting the way for others.

Anyway, thank you for the ask, nony! It allowed me to ramble about Astral Date there for a bit. That date will forever remain one of the best Kiro dates ever released imo.

Also asdfghjkl thank you for reading my Kiro content posts! (/▿＼ ) Istg I'll never get tired of talking about this boy, ever.

#nony asks #cheesy replies #mlqc #mlqc cn #mlqc spoilers #mlqc kiro #i didn't expect this to turn into a ramble post when i first started writing it lmao im sorry nony

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bittersot · 4 years

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2020-07-28

Yesterday I went to bed once again crying about how lonely I am, about how badly I wish to have friends I could trust and hang out with to do casual fun things like kareoke(was listening to vocaloid songs and my fear of seeming predatory because of my attraction to women lol) or playing through my favorite video games. I fell asleep thinking abt how difficult it is to find people who don't judge you for being autistic and how much of a hard time I have functioning without people in my everyday life due to adhd.

Tonight I'm once again crying because I was thinking how my school years went, and how again my loneliness is connected to my autism and adhd. From daycare to 6th grade the majority of my classmates knew me since I was an annoying 5 year old, and whenever I acted neurodivergently I was "excused" and they still saw me as a friend, a bit weird and non-girly, but still a friend.

Then in highschool I slipped out of touch with everyone because here there were cooler people who thought I was a freak and a nuisance, I didn't feel comfortable actively seeking out friendships and I couldn't communicate well with the one childhood friend who always stuck with me, I didn't want others to know of my anxiety and depression, I might myself not have known that's what I was deal with, but she would tell others what I told her so I just ended up not telling her anything. Then we slowly slipped apart and I still feel bad about it, cause she meant well but I didn't know what I was dealing with and neither how to let her know what I wanted to stay between the two of us.

Then in gymnasiet I just never got close to anyone, there were a few openly lgbt kids I believe I would've gotten along with, but a passing "retard" comment made me keep my distance, I also couldn't talk to them openly either.

Im so desperate for any contact with people in this country outside my family rn, but I don't know where to go to find it, esp since I am still "picky" for my own sake, I want friends but I can't devalue myself enough to hang out with ableist and lgbt phobic people, that's never worth it in the end.

I am looking up lgbt clubs in stockholm, but the only "fitting" one is a dance club for women of all ages, and I don't think that's for me, at the very least, not if I were to go there alone.

I don't know what to do.

#ghost #journal

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