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carnivalcarriondiscarded · 3 months

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drawing Barnaby is incredibly Detrimental to my health because it consistently finds me like this:

#MY NECK HURTS <3 #i'll Realize. fix my posture #lose myself in the Love and then BOOM shrimping once more #i hunch over my tablet face To The Screen like some wild beast defending its kill #but with... Delight and Whimsy instead of bloodthirsty viciousness #shoulders hunched back Curled head down and jutted forward-#snf sob... love truly is pain....#absolutely unprompted #THERE'S NO NEED FOR ME TO SIT LIKE THISSSSSS #I JUST GET SO ABSORBED!!! HE'S SO!!!!#completely related but there isn't enough Handsome Barnaby art #well. every image of him is handsome in my professional opinion #but you know what i mean!!!!#i need to put him in outfits....#no. you know what i need?#a very very tiny pixelated image of him framed and hung on my wall #tiny frame. tiny barnaby. really just like. three blue pixels #that way when i wake up in the mornings i can look over and see The Pixels #and be filled with enough strength to Get Up #i need the motivation to get out of bed... i have been sleeping until 3 every day....#methinks. tis not healthy #but yes. tiny barnaby in a frame please and Thank You!

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starbuck · 2 years

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“Martha... How do you stop- How do you stop it?” “You don’t.”

Martha from Ravenous (1999) ~ requested by anonymous

#ravenous 1999 #REQUESTED OVER A YEAR AGO I SHOULD ADD #i am SO very sorry that this took so long #i wasn't in a ravenous mood when you sent the request and then various Unforeseen Life Circumstances got in my way #and then i procrastinated on getting the blu ray for a bit #but - if it's any consolation - this is a MUCH higher-quality set than you would have gotten if i had made it right away #i'm remaking all my old sets with the blu ray footage - i'm OBSESSED #and it's soooooooooo much easier to work with than the black sa.ils blu rays thank GOODNESS #so lots and lots more goodies to come!#but i wanted to start with this one because i've been meaning to do it for SO long and life just kept getting in the way #i love Martha SO much - i def would have done a set for her eventually request or not #truly i am keeping it together until Cleaves' coat and the purple stole... then i just lose it #like. she loses everyone she loves to imperialist violence and then is forced to leave her home for her own survival #it's so awful #i'm so glad she survives - but it's still absolutely a tragedy (both for her and in general)#kudos to Antonia for insisting on the inclusion of the final shot of her walking out though... it's such a powerful image #in a tragic sense of her being forced off her land with literally only the clothes on her back #and in a hopeful sense that she DOES escape and live on... she isn't devoured by the system #it's just A Lot #i'm have a few more Martha sets planned that i'm really excited about as well!#one of her and Cleaves (in which i will shamelessly reuse a few of these gifs)#and one of... well... You Will See! :))))))))))))))))))))#stay tuned!!

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fallen-goldfishcracker · 9 months

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Another day, another listen of the entire Amazing Devil discography while losing my honest to goodness mind.

#the amazing devil #Every single song they've ever made ever makes me completely feral #Farewell wanderlust? Screaming #Chords? My heart is shattered I am sobbing send help #Love run/ not yet? LOVE RUN/ NOT YET???? I CALL BEING BEATEN OVER THE HEAD WITH EVERY FEELING UNDER THE SUN #BATTLE CRIES???? FUCKING BATTLE CRIES???? YOU MEAN THE SONG THAT LEAVES ME IN A MILLION DIFFERENT PIECES HOLDING MYSELF TOGETHER WITH #THE RAW POWER OF THE LINE “WE WERE GODS WE WERE KIDS” HFKDHORJSKDBDIJDLRIS #THE OLD WITCH SLEEP AND THE GOOD MAN GRACE????? INKPOT GODS???? MARBLES????#PRAY???????????#IS ANYONE ELSE LSKTENING TO PRAY SND ABSOLUTELY LOSING JT????#“GOD MADE ALL MAN IN HIS IMAGE. HONEY IM- IM NO MAN. IM WHATS LEFT WHEN CHILDTEN GO TO WAR”#JFKRNKDNELMSKFBFKRJSKRO #i swear this band leaves me in shambles every single time #I love them so much #joey batey #madeleine hyland

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autistic-autumn · 10 months

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It would be so funny if the green grass comment in the newsletter was just papyrus not knowing what grass was and calling moss "green grass"

#undertale #ut/dr #toby fox newsletter #Seems extremely unlikely but I can absolutely image toby fox doing it just to annoy fans and having it as some fake out #he knows the fandom will lose it over green grass comment and is actively trying to cause a ruckus #Autumn's Thoughts

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dnangelic · 3 months

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i would never wave around 'he's just misunderstood </3' but like within canon he really.... literally is misunderstood. all the time. he just doesn't care about the fact.

#*･ﾟ⊰ 𝐎𝐔𝐓 𝐎𝐅 𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐃𝐒. ⊱ ✦ › OUT.#'but couldn't he explain himse-' he's not gonna do that. alskjasjlfkj #his self image is also poor he has no reason to defend himself. ever!#he is hurting people he does hurt people he is a curse he is a monster #he's estranged he's denied intimacy he speaks as if he's above everyone but is painfully. acutely aware of his being below and insufficient #but sometimes. just sometimes. he can be so kind. he feels grief when others lose themselves (hiwatari)#or die (the hikari overall. the artworks. innocent people)#he's legitimately COMPLETELY respectful of other people's agency and individuality #the chaotic good man #breaks the law over and over everybody's positive he doesn't care about anything but himself #and it's true.#but at the same time. all he even really. truly. literally has -is- himself. and his other self. his host! daisuke!#dark absolutely loves. but his is just. so distant. it has to be. he can't love anybody or the world in any other way #for all his flirting the most he can ever do is stand and watch the world while remaining a beautiful work of art

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dutybcrne · 2 months

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Kaeya is rather touch averse, cringing away from casual contact people give him under the guise of being distracted or idle movement. He's used to it, the Ragnvindrs and Adenlinde got him used to frequent affectionate physical contact, but it can still be entirely Uncomfortable if he's touched by someone outside those he is close to or someone he's otherwise Allowed to touch him.

#hc; kaeya #//Mentioned before; but am Elaborating on other aspects since Aven get brain juices flowing for this #//Unlike Aven; he's FAR more tolerable of people who touch him unprompted. & more willing to indulge for himself outside his comfort people #//Unless he himself had actively given the indication he doesn't want it; in that case THEN he's likely to anger & retaliate #//But yeah; his response is usually Discomfort & trying to get away from it one way or another. Can tolerate it to appear friendly; sure #//But would rather not want people to touch him so easily. Is decently okay with brief touches tho; like shoulder pats or the like #//Will actively lean into it & encourage further touching ONLY as a means to an end; adjusting any wandering hands only when going too far #//Esp if he can use that like a carrot on a string–if they concede to what he wants; they can touch him more. Maybe MORE than just that too #//He won't initiate any touch unless he deems it Absolutely Necessary; WILL internally scream if they Immediately reciprocate the contact #//Uses it as a 'reward' sometimes; a little pinch of the cheek; a hug; getting right into their space; if he sees they'll react favorably #//Maybe more if they have connection enough; like Huffman or one of his longer-running liaisons. Is p ok w/ sleeping w/ them as reward #//Sometimes he forgets some people don't like that he does this; like Rosie. Tries the tactic to get a favor then Remembers #//Absolutely apologizes; feels mortified when she scrutinizes him for it. Esp since she'd be one of few ppl who KNOWS just how Averse he is #to it in the first place. Him slipping up like that in front of HER is smth he'd STRESS over. She could hold over his head for all he knows #//How can he even joke abt it? Worse if she asks abt his way of doing things or indicate she doesnt Like that he uses himself as bait #//Has absolutely accidentally tried to seduce/bait sb like that who he absolutely should Not have. Like Jean. Ended up playing it off like #a joke between friends; but damn near had a panic attack from the guilt the moment he was safely in his office. bc Jean is SPECIAL to him #could he treat her like THAT? How could he almost let her SEE that side of him? His casual charm and facade are ONE thing #//But him actively doing something like THAT; esp for Jean of all people; is COMPLETELY off-limits; no matter his feelings #//Actually; especially BC he harbors feelings for her. Ppl like Lisa on the other hand; he is VERY comfortable doing this with/to #//She GETS the flirty habit & dishes it back without losing image of him in the way someone he regards at Jean's level possibly could #//And as far as Lisa knows; it's Only a playful habit; not a means to an end. The ones who prolly Know might be certain folks in the church #//But that's just bc he gets frequent checkups after every lil Rendezvous of his. Which is why he's got dirt on Every Single Person There #//Except Barbara; but he absolutely makes SURE she's not the one he's dealing with whenever he goes. Wants to spare her his messes #//Damn; veered a little but it's alright. 'A little'; HA. Nah; my tags are but the cluttered corkboard of my thoughts jhdbfjdf #//Diluc; Addie & Jean are the people he most Fears finding out abt his methods. Doesnt wanna THINK abt how they'd feel/regard him after tha #//Knows for SURE it'd be painful if the way they treat him changes even a SLIGHT. ESP Addie; he can bear the other two; but Addie???#//Nah; he'd be fucken DEVASTATED. That's the ONE person he knows hold true unwavering unconditional love for him; no matter what #//To do anything to damage that? He'd be so fucken GUTTED. He expects everyone to get fed up with/disdain him at some point. But not HER #//Keeps this shit on the down low by always having dirt on the people he gets Involved with; if not using keeping it up as an incentive

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britneyshakespeare · 4 months

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You know what. Despite it being against my doctor's orders I think I should rewatch Jane Howell's Wars of the Roses tetralogy

#the extent to which i enjoy shakespeare's history plays is condemnable.#especially the henry vi plays. ppl talk about those plays like they're the lowest thing shakespeare ever wrote #can't say i agree with that at all tbh. they're messy yes but they're GREAT #they are riotously entertaining and the conflicts are very engaging.#I JUST LIKE IT WHEN THEY KILL EACH OTHER WITH SWORDS!!!#SWORDS!!! SWORDS!!!!! KILLING!!!!!!! HEADS ON PIKES!!!!!!!!#like that's good old fashion entertainment to be honest. i can totally picture myself as an elizabethan commoner #losing my absolute marbles watching one of these in london #tales from diana #jane howell has so much power over me #i am so obsessed w her having directed the wars of the roses tetralogy AND titus andronicus.#some of the most patriarchal plays in shakespeare's oeuvre or at least the least-discussed-by-feminists.#im not really sure why when it comes to the wars of the roses plays tho. the female characters are so fascinating to me #joan of arc. margaret of anjou. anne neville. elizabeth woodville #altho i guess in terms of the real history those women tend not to be discussed as much as the men around them #(excluding joan of arc whose image is often stripped of historical context)#but shakespeare's treatment of them is well well well worth discussing more. idk #maybe it's just the problem of ppl's degradation of those plays! idk idk #me why me i can never be accused of not loving the wars of the roses tetralogy enough #me diana britneyshakespeare tumblr's no. 1 wars of the roses tetralogy stan #i also love circus (2008) most of all of britney's albums. im ok disagreeing w other ppl's fan favorites

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dragon-spaghetti · 6 months

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!!!!!!!! 🎂 🎉 🥳 💕💕💕💕💕

SHADOW BIRTHDAY HAT 💖 thank you guys 🥹

#drag replies #the 20th spawn day ✨#absolutely losing it over that image holy shit AHAHA

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strawbeb · 9 months

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see. the opening scene of barbie was literally how i played with those cursed baby dolls when i was younger. they annoyed the shit out of me

#idk why people kept getting them for me #it wasnt my parents because they always asked if i wanted something specific #and i was always like i want a toolbox! :)#or a spy kit #or a nerf gun or lightsaber #or those train sets you can. build #i had barbies which i made kiss each other before i knew that lesbianism was a thing #in real life #they also competed in like ninja warrior type things #which was me tying them to a string and throwing them down the stairs #i never had a ken but i had a prince charming with one arm bc my brother broke it #where was i going with this #idk #barbie #anyway this is one of several things i tell people when they ask me if i want children #ask me annoying questions and you get a horrifying image #of five year old me absolutely losing it over a plastic baby that shits and cries

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thebleedingeffect · 1 year

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Okay I remember seeing you rb a post saying cWilbur is a kid of death and bird hybrid. elytrian dude and ended up being just some dude. Yes cWilbur being just Some Dude is great but I think he should have this dark smoke coming out of his scars/stitches some artists drew him in

Idk I’m rambling but he should’ve gotten some stuff from Mumza after he was revived

HONESTLY?? YEAH. YOU'RE SO RIGHT. I'll admit that the joke that Wilbur is just, a normal looking guy with the actual embodiments of death being his parents is funny- but at the same time... the sheer creativity that you could put into his design by merging aspects of Phil and Kristin!

I think it would've been so cool if the longer that he stayed in limbo/stayed dead- he inherited more and more traits from Kristin until when he was finally revived, he truly did look like the goddess of death's son. Dark smoke billowing from inbetween his stitches even when he isn't smoking, his fingertips stained pure and utter black that travels up his forearms and no amount of scrubbing peels away. The smell of death follows him everywhere, little animals always seem to freeze in his presence for a moment before running away.

There will also be such a small part of me that would've KILLED to see Wilbur get wings after he was revived... just being reconstructed on such a level and reflecting so many aspects of death itself that it's so hard to recognize yourself in the mirror. You thought the end of your road would have been death, but staring at yourself in the mirror, looking more like your father and mother than you could've ever imagined? IT'S JUST-- GOD..... I think he should have the black smoke almost curl around his limbs, almost like it was living and breathing thing that cradled him so gently cause he is the child of death after all. Why would it hurt or torture one of its own? And Wilbur being so much closer to death and life itself that I lowkey like to imagine that you can hear echoes of Wilbur in each of the places where he lost a canon life :]]]

(Also I think he should've had brown featured wings that were pure black towards the bottom. Just thinking about Wilbur coming back and looking so unearthly but more alive than he's ever felt)

#JUST...MMMMM GOD....#wilbur has the potential to have some absolute BANGER designs we should all establish more Kristin traits onto wilbur #he's the child of death itself.... his mom is as big as a mountain WHY should he look NORMAL????#ty ty for the ask im. losing my mind over the mental image you've given me <3333 #thebleedingeffect talks

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jackgoodfellow · 2 years

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Today in "texts I have sent my partner":

[ID: A screenshot of a text message that reads, "And if there's one thing I want out of this life, it is to be a dark specter on the door of Eric Kripke's career". End ID.]

#eric kripke #the boys #supernatural #winchester #writing #I wish to be a grim portent of doom ever at the heels of his legacy #I wish to see a world in which so many marginalized people are able to tell their stories that #men like Eric Kripke fade slowly back into the irrelevance they always deserved #image description #see jack talk #your kingdom shall be mine. and I shall topple your great monuments to mediocrity and replace them with art that goddamn gives a shit #so say I to every cishet white man who has more than he has earned. go retire and enjoy your undeserved money. the real writers want a shot #all I want in this entire world is to help people and for other people to give a shit about my OCs #and whenever I see someone with a platform and an adoring fan base that they don't appreciate - it makes me want to explode #and should there come a day when I am successful in my goals. may I have the good grace to lift other voices up.#to never stop striving to be better as a person and a writer. and to never stop absolutely losing my shit over fan art of my characters.#I'm serious this is all I want in the whole wide world if I had a genie wish that had to be selfish that is what I would wish for #it would be like World Peace and Equality. and then a dedicated group of fans who care enough about my work to make their own fan work.#and then. presuming we are working by Disney Aladdin rules. I guess I would set the genie free!#and that is as much thought as I'm going to put into this until I find a magic lamp. or I will end up down a really long rabbit hole.#edit: just to be clear this is not a threat of harmful action against eric kripke it is just a harsh trashing of his work #I don't actually wish the man personal harm

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andthebeanstalk · 1 year

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Junji Ito makeup test #1

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Figuring out what I need in order to create a music video parody of the song "Gloria" by Laura Branigan, but make it about Tomie. I will be playing the part of a 1980s pop disco singer in the style of Junji Ito. This is high art in progress, people! 😘😂😅

photos of first test:

additional digital notes made using Clip Studio:

main takeaways:

So first off, where the fuck did my stage makeup go??? I had no idea it was missing until today!! I ended up using the makeup from when I used to perform as a mime. (Not a joke, but in a larger, cosmic sense, kind of a joke. 😆 I'll probably do it again sometime. I was adorable as a little soft butch gay mime!)

I now remember why I stopped using the dry cake face paint and switched to wet paint in a tube BUT I CANNOT FIND THE TUBESSS

I'm out of eyeliner in general, but for this, I need some kind of extra thin/fine eyeliner and preferably more than a thimble-full of paint for it.

Maybe I can thin out some matte black face paint and also get like a really nice fine brush? I guess it depends on if the paint is water-soluble.

I should probably check to see if I already have these materials, which would be SO MUCH EASIER IF I COULD FIND MY FUCKING STAGE MAKEUP--

Either way the lines need to be super thin, straight, clean, and parallel to each other. Or I could look at the rougher cross-hatching Ito sometimes uses, but I suspect tidier lines will look best with makeup.

Luckily, I already have an entire burlesque/drag act where I make myself look like a character from a black and white film. Between that and the mime thing, I theoretically have all the white gloves I will ever need lol. I guess I'm going to need white leggings, since the light gray ones won't work for this. Junji Ito is not generally greyscale as much as literally black and white.

Do I own makeup primer? I feel like yes. It definitely sounds like a good idea.

I KNOW FOR A FACT I DIDN'T THROW OUT MY STAGE MAKEUP because I had quality skin-safe glitter in basically every color, and only a FOOL would throw that out!!!!

Gloria is a song from 1983 with disco balls in the music video. Do I want to incorporate more style choices from 1983? Should I buy a wig? Something with shoulder pads maybe?? I guess that means I can keep the thick eyebrows...

Actually upon further research, I do need a sequinned shirt for this. Possibly a sequin leotard with a shiny belt. And leg warmers. OH! And a jacket with just the biggest shoulder pads I can find! Or at least the closest thing I can find to this outfit in one trip to a thrift store

Every 1980s music videos seems to have a person with their hair and clothing flowing in the wind. Now, I could buy a fan. But much funnier and cheaper would be a shot of my hair blowing in the wind that then pans to a friend furiously fanning me with a piece of cardboard or something. (Which means I'd need either two people helping with this shot, or I just have to accept that the shot's going to look kind of blurry by doing the zoom-out in post. Oh gods, I would have to write a proper shot list ahhhhhh--)

Honestly, blurry footage seems fine in some parts. I'm probably going to add some dreamy soft filters anyway to make it look like pre-digital 35mm film from an 80s vid.

I'm going to need some fake blood to splatter at me in the middle of the video. Obviously. So I guess that bit will need to be filmed outside.

The good news is the fact that the nearest easiest filming location for me is a alley full of dumpsters is actually really appropriate for this video. XD

Should I do the distressed eyebrows that a lot of Junji Ito characters have? Note to try that in the next test along with a The Crow-like smile. (My go-to high school Halloween costume. Damn, I have been painting my already pasty-pale face even whiter for a while now! 😅)

Other progress made on this project today:

I recorded myself singing a voice memo along to the rhythm of the karaoke version of Gloria that's on YouTube, but in it, I'm singing in the key that is appropriate to my voice. (A couple half-steps down, I think.)

Next step will be to load that clip onto my computer and adjust the karaoke version to match its pitch. And then like, practice the song with my new personalized backing track.

If i actually finish this, I'll have to re-record the backup vocals to say the right name.

Also the next step will be to see if my interest in this lasts long enough to at least get me to find my frickin' stage makeup.

Additional notes:

The original music video for Holding Out for a Hero is exactly the right energy for this, and now I absolutely need shots of me in front of (badly green-screened) flames, on my knees while singing passionately and directly at the camera and presumably wearing kneepads tbh

Omg what if I included a little "photoshoot" sequence and really fucked with the photos to make them all blurry-body-horror nasty as they flash by real quick?? Get like, a glitch effect in the mix hell yeah 😎😎😎

Edit: Omg i just remembered I have these short-shorts with a reanimator quote on the ass! ("Blasphemy? Before what god?") i know what shorts to wear for this now!!

Oh! Another idea! What if the video starts with me reading Tomie and then closing the book and picking up the nearest microphone-shaped thing and using that to start singing - and every 30 seconds or so of footage, it quietly changes to a different item (one of which is absolute the black wand vibrator that I have XD)

Note: I can easily shorten the song if I only have funny shots planned for like 2/3 of the song length. No need to get too repetitive.