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REMINDER THAT BELIEVING MALE VICTIMS OF ABUSE DOES NOT DISCREDIT FEMALE VICTIMS. BOTH EXIST AND DESERVE EMPATHY AND SUPPORT.
thank u
#johnny depp#amber heard#i support johnny depp#can’t believe this had to be said but the amount of ‘if u believe Depp you’re saying you don’t support female survivors’ posts I’ve seen-#absolutely illogical#pure shite reasoning#they are not mutually exclusive
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When Eddie is introduced to Jonathan, they both give each other a look that says “if you say anything, you’re dead” and naturally, Nancy clocks it immediately.
“What was that?”
“Nothing,” they said at the same time, only growing the suspicion.
“Seriously? Do you know each other already?”
“No!”
“Yes, but-“
They glare at each other, but Eddie speaks up again.
“He bought from me a couple times. No big deal.”
Nancy looks between them, shakes her head. “There’s something else going on. But we’ve got bigger problems.”
And they did.
For months, their problems seemed to get worse by the day. It was a great distraction.
But honestly, anytime Eddie spent more time with Jonathan, it got harder not to say how they actually knew each other: a make out session in a bathroom at a party when Jonathan was yearning for Nancy.
He told Steve eventually, had to with the way he kept finding ways to avoid being around Jonathan and Steve got suspicious.
“If he said something to you about us, I’ll take care of it. He doesn’t get to say shit about what makes us happy.”
And Eddie couldn’t have Steve lose another fight, so he told him.
“So wait. You and Jonathan…”
“Made out. Yes.”
“Like…with tongue?”
Eddie rolled his eyes. “Yeah, I remember tongue being involved.”
“And hands?”
“They were there too.”
Steve puts his hands on his hips, lifts one to wipe over his face, then settles it back on his hip. “And you liked it?”
“Considering at the time my options were Jonathan or the girl in Hellfire who insisted I wasn’t gay because I looked at her during campaigns, yeah. It wasn’t the worst thing I’ve been through.”
Steve huffed. “Yeah, but like. Compared to me-“
“Oh my god.”
“What?!”
“I cannot believe you’re jealous of Jonathan Byers. Again.”
“I’m not! I’ve never-“
Eddie raised his brows. “Never? Not once?”
“That was different!”
“That was worse.”
“I dunno, finding out your boyfriend has made out with the only other guy in Hawkins who’d be up for it is arguably worse.”
Steve pouted for hours. Eddie let him.
It was cute, alright?
And when he got over it, they made out for hours in his bed.
Steve, of course, was the one who told Nancy.
In his defense, he was very high, and Nancy had been pushing him all night, from the moment she caught wind that he might know how they knew each other.
Eddie went inside to grab them all water, and she pounced.
By the time Eddie got back, Steve was half asleep and Nancy was smirking at Eddie.
“You could’ve just said.”
“He’s never getting high for free again.”
“He’s your boyfriend.”
“He’s back to being a paying customer, too.”
Nancy laughed, startling Steve into opening his eyes. He smiled up at Eddie, no clue he’d just given up one of their secrets.
“Hi, baby. You know Nancy didn’t know about you and Jonathan?”
Eddie glanced over to see Nancy rolling on her side, laughing hysterically.
“Yeah. I’m sure that was on purpose. How about we get you to bed, superstar?”
He managed to get Steve onto the couch, where he immediately passed out.
Nancy hugged him, kissed his cheek, like she always did before leaving.
“It’s not a big deal, you know. He’s mentioned that he isn’t only into women. We’ve talked a lot about the Argyle situation.” She walked towards the door. “Steve will get over the jealousy eventually. It’s not like Jonathan wouldn’t have made out with him if he could have.”
She left before Eddie could respond.
Eddie suddenly understood exactly what Steve was feeling.
“Not gonna happen,” he mumbled to himself before joining Steve on the couch and pulling him close.
#eddie munson#jonathan byers#nancy wheeler#steve harrington#steddie#stranger things#sorry but it’s a very funny thought to me that Eddie and Jonathan made out once and Steve gets jealous#and it’s way way worse than any jealousy he had over Nancy#it’s also absolutely hilarious to think of Eddie getting illogically jealous in return#it’s just a silly brain worm#it took up 10 minutes of my day so now it can take up 5 of yours
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im so Normal. totally not shaking and crying rn
#its nice to be this excited about something again! to the point of nausea!#and i Mean That#this is the good kinda stress. tis a welcome break from the usual brands#all week i've been having moments of 'ohhhh god New Information Incoming' and i have to sit down every time#and measure my breathing to chill tf out#is this unhealthy! maybe! i am trying to keep it Contained!! tightly leashed if you will#BUT OH FUCK ITS ALMOST HERE AGH AGH AGH#absolutely unprompted#welcome home#i will probably be unable to discover secrets bc i am bad with computers and the like#but hey! ill try!#if there's like... a spoiler tag yall want from me ill make sure to tag any Update Posts with it#then again wh is a unique scenario of like... Are there spoilers#bc it feels like a 'a couple people uncover stuff and then show/tell the rest' thing#but what would i know! this is kinda the first update!#LETS GO GAMERS I HOPE THE NEW STUFF IS TRAUMATIZING FOR BOTH US AND THE CHARACTERS#alright im getting to excited again im gonna go lay down#gonna be refreshing pages every ten seconds even when its completely illogical and meaningless to do so
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just an fyi, and it feels like it needs to be said here: your blog is your own space and you should be able to say whatever the fuck you want. if you’re sad? vent. get sad. maybe put it under a cut, definitely tag it, but get sad. if you feel like you need someone to talk to? drop a freaking message about how you’re feeling like you could use a buddy, or anything randomly engaging. if you’re having a hard time, you should feel safe and okay to talk about it in your own space. we’re writers and we’re people and while there’s a lot to be said for how engagement outside of oneself is necessary in rp (and really really needs to improve), i think there’s a lot that must be said about people reaching out to others. it’s become so solitary here — the whole ‘reblog from source’ thing when it comes to shit like about and musings is absurd. the whole refusing to like things is ridiculous. yes, curate your space, that’s important, but curating your space into a studio apartment only you live in doesn’t make this a community anymore, it makes it a studio apartment you live in.
just be yourself here. do whatever you want. but i’m always saying: remember you’re not alone, and don’t let yourself feel that way.
#ooc. o kaptain.#[this is illogically worded and after an argument I’m already upset but I just felt like this has to be put here. it’s been sitting on my#brain for so long and it’s something i just wanted to discuss. the way the rpc has become not even an echo chamber just… a shitty ny#apartment only one person lives in that can fit your fridge and your bedroom in the same room. the way literal fandoms have divided each#other through nothing but massive senses of entitlement and so much gatekeepy fucking language. it’s exhausting to watch this happen#literally all because i have no idea where interaction went and yes I’ve been virtually inactive for months now but. it absolutely isn’t for#lack of trying to come back. it’s hugely due to a lack of interaction whenever I reach out and then the feeling like I’m being either#entertained or dismissed. this is a social space and we’re people and everybody just needs to recognize that. like. last week my introverted#broski started discussing how as he’s older he feels loneliness more tangibly but he hates people and i looked right at him and said …yeah#dude. that’s natural. we’re humans. we need each other to live. we need spaces we create and communities we make. but like. there need to be#interactive people in those spaces. we’re social creatures. i love you guys and this is a ramble but… it’s been on my mind awhile. and#frankly? feels kinda good to finally speak my mind.]
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Distractions [1/?]
Wolfwood would absolutely resort to violence when flustered.
Anyway, I made an embarrassing amount of these crack comics so here's the only one I actually made presentable lol I may post more but probably not
#It's wild what absolute nonsense my brain cooks up at 1AM#It was also a lot funnier at 1AM too#trigun brainrot#trigun maximum#trigun#I'm so normal about them#Please forgive my completely illogical layout#I don't know the first thing about comic design#stampede saturday
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I got potential news (not happy, but I mean not sad). Latest justice in the dark (rumor) updates: was taken down due to legal issues (likely copyright) and they do plan to re air from the beginning at a later date once issue is taken care of and cdrama airing timing is right. Rumor is actors were requested to rake down their farewell letters. Meaning... the show is back in hiatus. Like the past several months. Except now the 8 episodes can only be watched on unofficial sites in the meantime.
Schrodingers cat isn't probably the right comparison but like. It's the potentially perpetual unknown status show. ToT
Anyway I saw 2 posts on weibo which were rumor only, mentioning airing later, and one post on weibo mentioning the reason for taking the show off was copyright issues.
On mydramalist comments someone mentioned a Twitter thread on why it was taken down, but I can't see shit on Twitter right now so im just going by what the comment said. The Twitter thing they quoted: Cao5903 (@cao5903) Staff Youku said: "Due to some unexpected reasons that could not be controlled in time, we had to take down #JusticeInTheDark to handle it. Wait for it to be okay and then replay it from the beginning."
#rant#justice in the dark#modu#so 1 i am literally going to WILL this show to finish airing or fucking leak full drop like joy of life did#i mean it i will make the universe. im like#im over the WALL my favorite priest novel got ALL this quality only to be unseen. FUCK#2 i maintain (very illogically and based in absolutely nothing) that the shows i want to air#will air when i heal. so by that metric? jitd will air possibly within a few months#since i can eat bread again and am starting to sprint again#assuming i get a solid month of better health the outlook is good (i sound so random lmao)#and hyx will likely air september to january (if ever) if im Optimistic that i can start lowering my medicines this fall#and an aside i Wish someone fucking leaked hyx just dropped the whole thing joy of life style#the script already got leaked for fucks sake#(i have a copy if u want to read it i guess?)#but like the studio made hyx to be the Biggest danmei of all time and then missed the#hype train ans word of honor took the crown#and now who knows if hyx will ever be SEEN
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Can someone please either validate me or send me to the Corner of Shame? This is very silly but I'm wondering.
So. I was talking to my sister the other day about movies and such, and she told me of one she recently watched with this one actor. And I casually mentioned how much I hated him. Not in a "he's a bad actor" or "he's a bad person" way. Nothing to do with whether I find him attractive or not. Just in a "he looks the most punchable guy on earth and I have this irrational rage against him" way, to the point that I just can't watch movies with him without being annoyed.
My sister looked at me like I was crazy because, "what do you mean you hate the guy". And I told her yeah? That's normal? Don't you have at least one person you can't stand for no reason?
Sister was like 😬😬😬 No??? Which is wild to me, because I could easily name 50 (which I did - not 50 but we were getting close to 20 before i got too annoyed lmao).
Now she thinks I'm slightly insane (/j) (I made myself angry and may have referred to a few individuals as "stupid" and "obnoxious"), and I kinda don't believe I am the only person alive who feels this way. But also she's an incredibly empathetic extrovert, while I'm a very low empath socially anxious creechur so. There's that?? I guess ?? Idk.
Can anyone relate to this? Or am I the weird one?
Also wait. Little disclaimer: I am not generally a violent person AT ALL. Do i get annoyed and angry easily? Yeah. Do I feel like bitch slapping someone right across their stupid face? Yeah, sometimes, sure. Do I do something about it? Not really.
I can be real bitchy and extra sarcastic and petty SURE, but that's the most I'll do if I am legitimately angry. Mostly I just go to my room and cry 🥺 (crying when angry yes it me). So yeah. Before yall think I have unsolved anger issues.
#if you're curious. the guy in question is Thimothée Chalamet#look. from what i've seen he's good at his job and he seems a genuinely nice guy#nothing against him at all like. you go timmy 🙂👍#i do however have an illogical boiling rage against him#i don't know what it is but i genuinely feel like punching his face everytime he pops up#maybe in another universe we were arch enemies. maybe i was his school bully. maybe HE was my school bully idk#obviously i would never do anything like that but if there's one person that looks like it could use a wedgie is him#and don't get me wrong. i DO feel about about it cus it's not like i'm choosing to be irrationally angry#and this goes for a bunch of other people#i just!!! 😡😡😡#seeing him (as in his vibe and general presence. nothing to do with physical appearance)#is the equivalent of trying to use cling film while it keeps sticking to itself#you know that one family guy scene with Peter and the cling wrap?? YEAH. THAT. genuinely so annoyed#i've always assumed this was a common thing. as in. there's always at least one person that gets on your nerves for absolutely no reason#but i guess maybe not???? *am* i a hater???#and btw this ONLY happens with either celebrities (in various degrees)#or people irl i've had some close proximity to <- and in this case it's always justified. i don't generally hate irl people out of nowhere#(okay there is ONE person in specific BUT i do feel slightly justified IMO. and in any case i always make sure to be as nice as possible)#(because poor girl didn't really do nothing wrong. i just have never vibed with her. i tried!! but yeah)#idk where i'm going with this lmao i might just ending up deleting it#whatever. don't worry guys you're all safe i love you very much and wouldn't slap any of you (unless asked you little freaks 👀)#darya talks to herself
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K I’m not too deep into voyager yet but I always imagined T’pel as having the same kinda fanatical religious streak as Tuvok. I think they both go weak in the knees for the teaching of surak in a very unlogical way you know? I imagine her as a Vulcan whose maybe too enthusiastic about being one. She’d go on and on to whoever would listen in a monotone voice about how great logic is and excuse it by saying she’s teaching them or something but she’s just really passionate about it lol. Her and Tuvok go on dates and just do Vulcan Bible study for five hours.
From the little of her I’ve seen in the show I think of her as being heavily invested in Vulcan culture and tradition as well, again to the point of it being less logical and more emotional. Like she’d do something in a way that was super tedious just because she wants to do it in a traditional way to preserve and experience history.
also she’s got a lot of that tuvok hater streak in her. She will be petty about how much more she knows about certain topics!! She will gossip about how illogical other Vulcans are being!!
He wants a church girl who goes to church aN readsER Bible!!!
#Girl who only reads the surakian texts: This reminds me of the surakian texts....#you know this T'Pelhehhe HATES the crew of Voyager....#I love her so much...I agree with everything she says even when it's snarky and used against me <3#T'Pel: You will NEVER believe how illogical a colleague of mine was being v_v <- absolutely in the wrong#Tuvok on Voyager glances to the side to share a snide look with T'Pel only to remember she's not there....sigh....#also YES I'm glad someone else is acknowledging Tuvok's religious streak bc my guy really programmed a whole TEMPLE to go to#which to me reads as more dedicated and religious than other Vulcans we've seen who are content to meditate in their quarters#You're not far enough into Voyager to know this so I won't spoil it butlike...the only real piece of info we get about T'Pel fits#this interpretation very well <3#WELCOME to temple study we're all children of Surak...kaaaiiidith m'lord.....#I can picture this T'Pel storming down a hall expressionlessly on her way to inform Tuvok of something...young people can be SO impertinent#these days!!#She'd absolutely view Tuvok's lapse in logic but subsequent return and strengthening of it to be SO inspirational <3<3 lovebirds#bee doodles#Q&A#anon#Tuvok/T'Pel#heretheretpels
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once again sorry to everyone for bringing this to your dashboards. but some of you are like, genuinely delirious. not even in a funny way. & i hope you die. i hope we both die. hand in unlovable hand etc etc
#Just so fucking bizarre to me how people can be Like This. there has to be something so wrong with your brain on a fundamental level#i can’t even laugh about this or anything because i genuinely feel pity for these people. it’s so sad to me how you’re gonna be like 20#and then go in a niche tumblr community and create drama over Nothing. over Thin Fucking Air#like do you not have a life? do you not have college? or a job? doesn’t it get tiring? don’t you ever feel ashamed about all this#and the fact that they go and complain about the shipping and the ‘fandombrained’ people as well…. oh my god#how are you going to be TWENTY. and DO THAT. are you seriously sick. ? do you need help#just say you are homophobic and that you hate kids and go. it’ll save everyone a bunch of time for sure#anyways. as someone who has been a rain world fan since 2018. i love you embracing canon. i love you changing canon. i love you disregarding#canon entirely. i love you ships that make sense in canon & that make absolutely zero sense at all. i love you fancharacters that don’t#follow canon rules. i love you ‘cringe’ fancharacters and self inserts. i love you self shipping. i love you oc x canon shipping.#and i love you taking inspiration from designs. i love you community & i love you artists & i love you art#i love you borrowing elements and being inspired and referencing something because you liked it.#are fandoms perfect? GOOD GOD no. is every Fan perfect? no. am i also sometimes annoyed or irrationally pissed off over a ship that#i think is stupid and is illogical. Yes! i’m only human! but i can still love and appreciate the whole CREATIVITY of it all. and the whole#Fun that people are having. i love you having fun. if i don’t like it or if anyone else doesn’t like it they can just Cope#instead of hateposting about it on main and indirectly bullying people who are most likely children. or lgbt. or both#anyways. please continue doing whatever you want. The world is your oyster and you only live on earth once#everyone else can fuck off
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uhh 27 with the little robot guy and the old one from the retirement home that u told me about
i took care of a TASK and now i can WRITE! liz i love you thank you for referring to chetney as the retirement home one <3 it’s what he deserves <3 27 is the modify memory spell!!
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Modify memory is a 5th level enchantment spell on the bard, warlock, and wizard spell lists.
You attempt to reshape another creature’s memories. One creature that you can see must make a Wisdom saving throw. If you are fighting the creature, it has advantage on the saving throw. On a failed save, the target becomes charmed by you for the duration. The charmed target is incapacitated and unaware of its surroundings, though it can still hear you. If it takes any damage or is targeted by another spell, this spell ends, and none of the target’s memories are modified.
While this charm lasts, you can affect the target’s memory of an event that it experienced within the last 24 hours and that lasted no more than 10 minutes. You can permanently eliminate all memory of the event, allow the target to recall the event with perfect clarity and exacting detail, change its memory of the details of the event, or create a memory of some other event.
If a suggestion is illogical, the target’s mind smooths out any gaps. This effect can be ended by a remove curse or greater restoration spell.
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Chetney really thought ignoring that demon would work, but eh, whatever. He tried. They won the fight. Whatever the fuck it was, it’s gone now, and he and Grass are striding behind the rest of their friends, lagging a little because this stupid forest didn’t seem to take their wheel and his old-ass joints into account. Which is fine, because at least they’re still walking together, so if anything pops out at them, Chetney can stab it immediately and F.C.G. can alert the others. If they even need to be alerted. Not many things can withstand the ol’ one-two from C-POP himself.
Chetney glances to his left, where F.C.G. was just rolling, and does a double take. The chipper yellow robot is gone.
Fuck. Ashton’s gonna string his guts out and wear them like a necklace.
Chetney spins around, scanning the mildly terrifying underbrush for any glinting metal. He’s not gonna call out for anyone else just yet, in case it’s a false alarm (and because he likes his guts right where they are, thank you very much), but he’s preparing the breath to do so.
A twig snaps off to his right.
Chetney whips around to face it, scrutinizing the impenetrable shadows. “Grass?” he hisses, hopefully not loud enough for anyone else to hear. “That you?”
“What was that, Chet?” Orym calls. Chetney flinches, glancing to the halfling currently leading the party’s trek. Of course Orym’d hear.
“Uh,” Chetney says, “I’m not really super sure where F.C.G. is.”
“What?” Imogen says. “Weren’t they just walking—er, rolling, next to you?”
“How do you lose a robit?” Laudna asks incredulously.
Fearne mumbles something like, “you forget to cherish them,” but Chetney’s preoccupied, because—yeah, Ashton’s going to murder him. They shoot him a truly terrifying look, no hint of their usual mirth when threatening him, and start calling for their friend, caution thrown to the wind.
Chetney turns to keep searching with the rest only to spot a glint of familiar yellow and silver farther back on the path.
“Grass!” he yells, taking off toward the figure. “Hells, don’t scare us like that, man, we thought—“
His words trail off. F.C.G.’s eyes are the closest to unfocused they can get without pupils, their little hands preoccupied in nervous fidgeting. His body almost seems on the verge of those jitters he gets when he freaks out and goes all murder-y.
“Hey, hey,” Chetney soothes, staring up into his friend’s lenses, “what’s wrong? What happened?”
“I have to leave,” F.C.G. says, and they truly sound petrified, conflicted. “F.R.I.D.A. messaged, they sent a sending, they’re in trouble—“
“What? Already? Really?” Chetney exclaims, perplexed and concerned. “They—they did?”
“Yeah,” he says, sounding on the verge of robot tears, “they—they said they needed my help, that Deanna had been hurt and Prism didn’t know how to fix it with the spells she had, and—and they needed me to get there fast.”
“Shit, Letters,” Chetney says softly. “Okay, we can tell the others and talk about how to get you over there. I’m sure Imogen could use her new staff, right? Did F.R.I.D.A. say where they were?”
F.C.G. shivers. “Yios, somewhere in Yios. I gotta—I haveta help them, Chetney, I—“
“I know,” Chetney says, “yeah. We’ll get you there. C’mon.”
Chetney starts towards the others, but he hesitates for just a moment. “Isn’t sending still malfunctioning?” Chetney asks, his brows furrowing. “And—F.R.I.D.A. can’t cast sending, can they? They’re not a spellcaster.”
F.C.G. nervously rocks back. “Huh. Yeah. Well, sending must be working again, then? We could have gotten lucky. And—and Deanna must have sent it then—or, F.R.I.D.A. had that telepathy like Imogen, right? That could have been it.”
Something’s weird about this. Chetney frowns. “Imogen’s telepathy has a short range on it, and the only sending spells we’ve been able to get through have been close ones. They’d have to be really close by for any of this to work, definitely not in Yios.”
“I must have misremembered, then,” F.C.G. responds faintly.
Chetney doesn’t think they’re trying to lie to him. F.C.G. isn’t the best of liars, and he’s not sure what they’d get from it. They want to help Keyleth and the injured Ashari as much as everyone else. But something’s going on, here—something must have happened while Chetney had his back turned.
There are all sorts of weird creepy-crawlies wandering this fucked up forest. Something could have grabbed Grass and messed with his wiring in the minute Chetney wasn’t looking.
“Hm,” Chetney says, “F.C.G., you got a spare spell?”
“Sure, why? Do you need healing? Are you alright? D’you think—oh, you must mean for F.R.I.D.A., they’re gonna need all the healing I can give them, and what if Deanna and that shady elf are hurt, too—“
“Slow down,” Chetney says, gently taking their fidgeting metal hands in his. “I’m gonna have you cast something on yourself, okay?”
“What? Why?”
“Just humor me,” Chetney says, “I have a hunch. And my hunches are never wrong, are they?”
He waits for the impending dissent. It, surprisingly, doesn’t come. He shrugs. “Right. I need you to do a greater restoration on yourself. Just to remove anything that mighta fucked you up while I wasn’t looking, okay?”
“Okay,” F.C.G. says, “but what if I need the spell for F.R.I.D.A. or Deanna?”
“Fearne can help us out, then,” Chetney says firmly. “You saw what she just did to that shadow thing. She’s kicking ass out here.”
“Okay,” F.C.G. mumbles, placing their hand across the coin inlaid in their chestplate, “okay.”
Their hands glow softly, eyes flaring a holy white, as they mutter an incantation reverently, and it does warm Chetney’s heart slightly to see them so comforted for a split second in commune with their goddess before their eyes blink back to their usual bright blue.
“So?” Chetney prompts. “Anything weird happen?”
“What?” F.C.G. stares at him. “What’d’you mean? We’re just walking through the forest.”
Chetney pumps his fist through the air. “Yeah, baby, I’m always right!”
“The fuck are you doing over there,” Ashton growls from behind him, “where’s Letters?”
“Found ‘em!” Chetney crows proudly, skittering to the side to gesture to his robot friend. “Something weird had tried to mindfuck him into leaving. I saw right through it, of course, but the rest of you’d better be careful! Can’t have another slip-up like that.”
Imogen frowns. “Weird. You two’d better walk closer to us, then. Don’t want anyone getting abducted like that again.”
Chetney nods and joins the group, F.C.G. wheeling close behind him. The urge to be a little shit about this is very present, but for once, he suppresses it. He’s not going to be rude about F.C.G. being subjected to something so stressful as thinking their loved one was in danger. If he hadn’t seen through the weirdness of their account, he might have been similarly freaked out about Deanna, honestly. So, for once, Chetney keeps his mouth shut, and they continue their way through the forest.
#cr#cr3#chetney pock o’pea#fcg#fresh cut grass#literally always forget which tag i use for hom#AH WELL. he deserves two anyway#roll performance#charisma save#spelling disasters#i thought it would be interesting to do this scenario#since fcg probably wouldn’t think too hard about the illogical bits of the memory#they’d panic#but chetney would absolutely think about those things first and foremost#so. fun little loophole there. tell a friend about your new implanted memory of your boyfriend’s distress signal
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the problem with not having any new fics to read bc they havent been posted yet is that when Invisible Tigers Are Hunting You, there is no distraction
#this Baseless Fear that sometimes strikes me#reminding me of my mortality and making believe it is deeply immediate despite how illogical it is#Is Getting Real Fuckin Old!#i gotta grip onto the reminder that i am Only Twenty. i have my whole life ahead of me probably.#there is Time. things will get better. someday i will Accomplish Things.#i will turn around and wish i could visit past (current) me and say It Does Get Better And You Will Not Only Exist But Live. I Love You.#but for tonight i feel very small and scared#and i am using the company of videos and stories to soothe the Invisible Tigers#i think i will.... reread some fics.... perhaps...#i havent reread stamps yet.... ill go do that#get my laughingstock crumbs#ill put on birdsong in the bg#im borrowing my friends lovely headphones. i Need some of my own. earbuds just dont do it anymore#especially since theyre noise canceling. Yummy#theyre helping immensely i think#absolutely unprompted#sorry for once again Venting on Main#i am very tired and have no other outlet <3#its 4 am. i have to get up in 7 hours. i am still too terrified to sleep#but its okay its Fine this night will Pass#thats half the fear but all the same. there are Good Things in my future. i have hope theyre there. theyre waiting for me.#ill figure it out Ill Figure It Out.#we all will!#we'll all get there. someday before the end.
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Crack AU, when Sam opens his mouth to sing at the tower in Return of the King, instead of his humble song what comes out is: Ho, Tom Bombadil! Tom Bombadillo!
#lotr#tom bombadil#sam gamgee#absolutely ridiculous and illogical but i'm laughing okay#i just want to see tom straight-up blasting sauron off the face of the earth like sambrog in lotro
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I need to remind myself often it's okay to take as long as I need to work on projects/drawings
#dangerous grind mindset territory >:(#i get so weird abt wips like#unless its extremely relevant no one is gonna care rly how long it takes#like if someone shared a wip with *me* and they took a while to finish it or never finished it#id still be like ahhhh so cool#but then i get into a weird mindset of like: you need to finish this TONIGHT#and then it never happens lol#as i said its only random occurrences when i can sit down and finish smth in one night#i need to remind myself: these things take time#i think my brain is sometimes running on a deadline that doesn't exist#theres a weird point btwn:#enjoying encouragement bcs it makes you feel more motivated to finish smth#but also feeling this odd sense of guilt and obligation#i draw for myself but literally for my whoel time drawing i often feel obligation towards a nonexistent audience#some imaginary force thats gonna be disappointed if i dont finish smth in [illogical period of time]#its good to have some sense of motivation obv bcs how would you ever finish anything#but its weird to start feeling the same thoughts abt schoolwork for your hobby#basically: I hate setting deadlines for myself bcs it just never works out#if i say 'you must work on this tonight!' i will absolutely not be working on this tonight#funny feeling when you start being like 'aaaahhh everyone is gonna hate me if i dont post this soon'#i think its nice when i can post smth i talk about in a quick turn-around#but rationally i know that if people are interested they wont care how long it takes <3 bcs id feel the same#also i guess i get put out some times seeing how fast other people can create :/#catie has 3 moods(for creation):#a. complete and utter burnout#b. not burnt out but finishing smth takes more than just one day. maybe a wk or more#c. can finish a piece in one day or even one sitting. often draws several things right after the other#C is truly the goat 🙏 i feel blessed when i get into that mindset#blah blah blah please stop feeling beholden to something that doesnt exist. thanks catie.#catie.rambling.txt
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So another i hate america moment, turns out my insurance won't cover the inhaler i need to y'know, breathe, unless i get a preauth for it (proooove, prooove to us u cannot breathe without this special powder) so tonight we are drawing gojo while being so short on breath it's dizzying and my head a lil numb
#mildly pissed at my friend who is going back to canada#and i was like can u please bring back my refill for me like it's already packaged and everything#and she just No.#no bc what if they check and ask for a prescription#and I'm just sitting here dying like......OKAY WELL I GUESS THAT'S FAIR#maybe I'm too ride or die like it's an asthma inhaler#its not a prescription drug like xanax geez girl#and i literally bring my drugs back and forth they have never once questioned: hey is this actually urs#bc wtf it's AN INHALER IT LOOKS LIKE AN INHALER#IT DOESN'T LOOK LIKE DRUGS IT LOOKS LIKE THE POOR LIFELINE OF A DYING WOMAN#she's acting like I'm asking her to smuggle 100 kilos of cocaine#IT'S AN ASTHMA INHALER#and then she was like can u just come back to Canada too#like????#girlie could u save me the 1.4k trip to see a family i rather do not want to see and a flight i absolutely panic over#AND JUST BRING ME THE INHALER#anyway reddit aita idk i think this is stupid#maybe I'm just losing my mind over this like#infinitesimally small chance they will check#like it's borderline illogical#the idea that tsa who screens thousands of ppl a day#is now taking the time to verify drug ownership#when they don't even like it when i take more than 2 seconds to take off my coat and put it in the bin#I'm getting too pissed about this i shall step back
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Holmes getting SO pissed at Watson for registering them with the Private Investigators’ Organization that he commissions a bus bench with her face on it and puts it in the living room is really a perfect demonstration of why Elementary is the best modern Holmes adaptation
#absolute funniest part of the show is Sherlock facing a minor inconvenience and taking it to COMPLETELY illogical lengths#elementary
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Did you all know that I Love Her More Than Anything Ever. I think about her every day. Shoutout to Mami for being The Character Ever <3
#I would do absolutely anything for her#and I gave her scars!#because why wouldn't I#yeah sure she can heal herself with magic#but scarring is a natural part of the healing process is it not#shut the up your mouth#I do not care if it is illogical!#i want her to have scars!#besides#she is my favorite character so why would I ever want the best for her /j#also#blood tw#lol
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