Consider this: What if the Wizard Kings got a second chance in life?

I like to think that Edward would later become a member of the Black Bulls. He vibes with them so much and is already ready to die for them. They really need a GILF grandpa figure. 👀

A3! Translation: Chikage SR Card “Endless Gaze” [ Rivals’ Fierce Marksmanship ]

Director asks Chikage out to win a very special prize for her.

Part 1

Izumi

… Looks like that’s all I have to buy.

(There are people in yukatas here and there. There must be a summer festival nearby if I recall correctly.)

Child

Papa! Thank you soooo much for getting me Kareko-chan~!*

Father

No prob kiddo. Just be glad your pops can work a shooting range like it’s nothing.

Izumi

(Kareko-chan!? Feels like I just received an anonymous tip…)

(I wonder if it’s a prize at the festival’s target shooting…?)

Chikage

…Director-san.

Izumi

W-woah, Chikage-san…! Are you on your way back from work?

Chikage

Yup. You had this funny look on your face all alone, I had to watch such a spectacle, but for your sake I thought I should call out to you by now.

Izumi Wait, did I look weird!?

Chikage

Just kidding.

Izumi

You’re on your antics again…

Oh yeah, Chikage-san. Wanna go to a summer festival with me? Chikage

Again with the sudden requests. Speaking of, you must be talking about the one near here.

Izumi

I heard that Kareko-chan was one of the prizes for the shooting game at the summer festival. I need you to fight for my honor with me.

Chikage

I’m sure the director doesn’t need me to win it.

Izumi

The odds would be better with more than one person. If you go with me, I’ll treat you to all the food stalls you can imagine!

Chikage

You don’t need to do all that, but you know…

The shooting match we had back then was pretty fun, I’ll keep you company.

Izumi

Alright, thank you so much!

Izumi

(If I’m going to a summer festival anyway, I should think about buying a yukata…)

(There’s a range of variety on patterns, and they’re all so cute, I’m lost on what to get.)

Syu

Yo, director.

Izumi

Ah, Syu-san, good to see you.

Syu

You looking for a Yukata?

Izumi

I’m going to a summer festival with Chikage-san, so I thought I’d wear one…

Syu

Heh….

Will Chikage wear one too, then?

Izumi

I’m not sure if Chikage-san will.

Syu

I see. …I have a small favor to ask of you.

Izumi

…?

Part 2

Izumi

*Knocks* Chikage-san, is now a good time?

Chikage

What is it?

*Door closes behind*

Izumi Actually, I got a yukata from Syu-san… Would you like to wear one with me together at the summer festival?

Chikage

A Yukata…?

Izumi

Seems like it’s from a kimono shop that Syu-san is associated with.

He asked me to have Chikage-san wear and promote it on the shop’s SNS account.

I’m grateful for all Syu-san has done for us, so I couldn’t get myself to refuse…

Chikage

If that’s the case, I don’t mind that much.

Izumi

You sure?

Chikage

I know how soft you are towards people.

Izumi

… Thank you.

[ Option 1: I’m sure we’ll get Kareko-chan! ]

Izumi

I’m sure we’ll be able to get Kareko-chan!

I’ll pull all the stops and go serious mode, make sure to do the same, Chikage-san.

Chikage

Alright, alright.

Izumi

And, once we get there, we have to try the candy apples, takoyaki and shaved ice!

And then after that…

Chikage

Looks like we’ll be busy.

[ Option 2: I look forward to the festival ]

Izumi

I’m looking forward to the summer festival.

Chikage

Don’t get too excited, I don’t want you hurt.

Izumi

I’m not a child…

Chikage

Haha. Still, to think I’d wear a yukata this way.

Izumi

It’s got a nice pattern to it, right? I think yukatas just get you in the right mood.

Chikage

Other than that, I’m looking forward to seeing you in one, Director-san.

Izumi

(I kinda feel embarrassed if you say that all of a sudden…)

Izumi

Chikage-san, you look really good in that yukata.

Chikage

Director-san, you look great too.

Izumi

The vibes here… It’s so exciting!

Chikage

There’s tons of food stalls around I see.

Izumi

Come on, let’s get shooting already!

Chikage

Aah… It’s like I’m with a kid.

Izumi

What’d you say?

Chikage

It’s nothing. I think the shooting stall’s over there.

Izumi

…There! Even Kareko-chan’s on display, there’s no doubt about it!

One round please!

Chikage

Same here as well.

Shopkeep

Thanks!

Izumi

(Steady your aim…)

Yay! I got it!

Chikage

Me too.

Shopkeep

You two are really good at this.

Izumi

There’s still a few more left, let’s keep going!

Chikage

Sure.

Izumi

Another hit! Next up…

Shopkeep

Stop! Wait a minute.

If you two keep this up, I’ll be run dry…

Whaddya say I give you vouchers for Ramune and you two can leave for today?

Izumi Ah! My bad, I overdid it…!

Chikage

We got carried away.

Shopkeep

You’re pretty skillful. I’m glad you had fun.

Child A You guys are so cool~!

Child B

So many prizes too! Izumi

(So many kids gathered around us before we knew it…)

I only wanted the Kareko-chan plushie, the kids can have the other prizes.

Chikage

I agree. There’s way too many sweets.

Izumi

Everyone, do you wanna have these prizes?

Child A Can we?

Child B Yippee!

Izumi

… We got 6 ramune bottles in total.

Chikage

Can be souvenirs for everyone in Spring Troupe.

Izumi

(Chikage-san, even now you’re still thinking about Spring Troupe…)

Chikage

…Director-san, you’re looking funny again.

Izumi

Fufu, I don’t mind looking funny.

Chikage

Here, Ramune.

Izumi

Eh? But, there won’t be enough for you, Chikage-san…

Chikage

It’s fine. Besides, you’ve already spent enough.

Izumi

…I’ll return the favor with curry-flavored Ramune next time.

Chikage

No thanks.

Izumi

Ahaha, too much?

Then, let’s take a last picture to send to Syu-san and go home.

The summer festival has been so much fun, let’s come again!

Chikage

Yeah… I’m down.

Story Clear!

———- t/n: ———

Kareko-chan is basically 'Curry' + 'Ko' (usually a suffix used for the girlies or to make a name sound cute) I had some names I wanted to use instead of Kareko-chan (Stephanie Curry, Pretty Curry, Curry Ko) but I wanted to save you guys from my corniness

IMPORTANT HEADCANONS TO CONSIDER

CAN THEY USE CHOPSTICKS:  YES of course. learning new cultures and how things are done within them were part of her upbringing.  WHAT DO THEY DO WHEN THEY CAN’T SLEEP:  read. study different forms of sciences.  WHAT WOULD THEY IMPULSE BUY AT THE GROCERY STORE:  desserts. any kind of desserts. pastries, candies, ice cream, chocolate milk, etc anything that she should not be eating so much of WHAT ORDER DO THEY WASH THINGS IN THE SHOWER:  she usually has a treatment set in her hair so she does her face first, her body, shaves and then her hair is last WHAT’S THEIR COFFEE ORDER:  different things all the time. she likes mixing it up always but she loves vanilla bean everything WHAT SORT OF APPS WOULD THEY HAVE ON THEIR SMARTPHONE:  SO MANY. texting, socials, video apps, video editing apps, photo apps, language apps, business apps, reading apps, gambling even tho she doesnt know how, dating apps just to make up fake profiles and laugh with Birgitte about it, slang translators so she can come up with new cussing lol HOW DO THEY ACT AROUND CHILDREN:  ELAYNE LOVES KIDS even if sometimes they confuse her she loves them so much and she always wants kids too so !!!! she doens’t coddle them tho NOPE. she’ll give them tasks and give them ridiculous rewards WHAT WOULD THEY WATCH ON TV WHEN THEY’RE BORED AND NOTHING THEY REALLY LIKE IS ON:  BAKING SHOWS because she wants to watch the food. or cultural programs.

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Have you ever lied to a person of authority? What did you say? I’ve lied to a teacher once or twice, but not anything more severe. Doesn’t matter if it’s a person of authority or not; I just hate lying. What’s your favourite type of pie, either sweet or savoury? I love chicken pot pie lol < Oh gosh yeah dude. Savory pies are the shit. I find that most sweet pies have fruit in them and given that I hate fruits, this is an easy choice for me. Do you have a Netflix subscription? Yeah, we have a family plan that my dad pays for. Have you ever parked in a disabled parking space even if you aren’t disabled? Nope. That sounds awful. How long does it usually take you to get ready in the morning? Depends on how late I’m running. If I started preparing early I can give myself up to an hour but if I’m late as it is, I can take 10 minutes to shower, get dressed, prepare my lunch, and get in the car.

What colour is your favourite shirt? My favorite top at the moment is a multi-colored striped spaghetti strap. If I remember, some of the stripes are white, maroon, olive green, dark blue, etc. When was the last time you saw a photo of yourself? Today. I took a dumb selfie for Angela. Does your laptop ever overheat? It doesn’t overheat but the fan tends to get louder when I do video calls on it, so I never do them on my laptop. Are you wearing a dress today? I am not. I’m up on the rooftop and it’s pretty cold tonight, so I have a large hoodie on, and also a hoodie wrapped around my legs so that I don’t get bitten by mosquitoes. Do you use your phone during class or at work? I use my phone in classes where the profs aren’t as strict. OMG I miss going to class :( How many times a day do you check Facebook? Countless. It’s where everyone hangs out to communicate, or do work, or share announcements, or post memes, so I’m almost always there. Do you hate it when people on airplanes recline the seat in front? No one’s ever done that to me before so I wouldn’t know if it would bother me. Are you the type of person to press a button just because? I would only get the urge if I knew it doesn’t work anymore or if it’s unplugged. I wouldn’t press a button that I know would do something. Would you ever volunteer in the case of a natural disaster? Yeah, but tbh I’m more likely to volunteer for orgs that help out stray animals  affected by the disaster, like for PAWS. I know for sure I would have volunteered for them after the Taal eruption, but I couldn’t because our house itself was affected by the ashfall. Do you check your emails daily? NO. I’m definitely not checking them during the lockdown because I want my break to stay a break. Are you inside or outside at the moment? I’m technically ~inside the house but I’m in an outdoors part of it. Why did you last have to see a doctor? I needed to have my left eye checked because it’s been acting up for a while. Have you ever been pulled aside for a random bag search at an airport? Nope. Are you happy with how much you weigh? Sure. I’ve never really paid close attention to my weight and I’ve always been just passively content with it. What’s your favourite flavour of Jell-O? Ughhh I hate any kind of jelly, I find the texture disgusting. I dunno if we have Jell-O here but we have local brands of jelly that I’ve never thought of trying. Do you pick your nose? C’mon, be honest. Yep, but only if I’m by myself or with my girlfriend. What was the last thing you bought from a supermarket? It’s been months, but if I remember correctly it was ice cream that my mom had been craving, and she asked me to buy it because I went out that day. Do you know anyone who is highly allergic to anything? Yeah, Tina is allergic to seafood and Kate is allergic to seafood, chicken, and eggs. When was the last time you had a nap? Just this late afternoon. I fell asleep at 4:30 and woke up for dinner, so I’ll probs be up really late again tonight. Are you hot, cold, or just right at the moment? I was cold earlier but I put a hoodie on so now I’m feeling just right. Do you have a Spotify Premium membership? If not, do you want one? I technically don’t, but Gabie has one and she let me log into her account a long time ago. What’s your boss’ name? I don’t have one. Back in my internship days – again, because this is really my only ~job experience so far lol – the boss’ name was Dessa, but I was under a supervisor named Therese. Have you ever eaten caviar? Yup. Are you a nervous type of person? Yeah, I generally am. Do/did you collect anything currently or in the past? I used to collect receipts from my dates with Gab, but I’ve completely stopped doing that. I keep telling myself on these surveys that I’m gonna start collecting again and it just never happened, so now all there is to say is that I entirely stopped lol. Other than that, I don’t collect anything else. On average, how much money do you usually put into savings every week? Depends on how much is left over by Friday; I don’t have a set amount. The left over from my allowance can be anywhere from P100 to P1,000. Do you prefer sweet or savoury foods? Savoryyyyy. Do you have any games on your computer? Which ones? No, not on my computer. What are your three favourite fruits? I hate fruits. Have you ever received a speeding fine? Nope, I don’t even think that’s grounds for being fined here. I’ve seen people drive like maniacs on highways, and yet they’d get pulled over because they illegally changed lanes or did an illegal u-turn. When was the last time you shaved any part of your body? This evening. Have you ever had a cramp in an odd place? Mmm no, I’ve only gotten cramps where it’s common, like my legs and neck. Would you ever go overseas for cheap medical treatment? No. It doesn’t make sense to me – the airline ticket would bump up how much I would need to spend anyway. The only times I see the sense in traveling abroad for medical reasons would be if the treatment/surgery/medicine/facility is only available in a certain country, or if the best doctor in a certain field is in a different country. How many hours did you sleep last night? 8, I think. Are you good at writing stories? I’ve never been good at writing stories. I liked reading them as a kid, but I never succeeded in writing my own. What have you eaten today? I had eggplant stuffed with meat, fried egg, and fried rice for brunch and Mang Inasal takeout for dinner. Do you watch House of Cards? Nope. I want to try watching it but I feel like it’s too dialogue-y for me. Plus Kevin Spacey is there for like 5 out of 6 seasons I think, which would really ruin the viewing experience lmao. Did anything exciting or interesting happen to you today? Nah not really, much like the last three weeks of the lockdown. What’s your favourite type of fish to eat? Raw tuna. Who else is in the building you’re in right now? My family and dog.

150 Random Questions

1.) What’s better, having high expectations or having low expectations?

 Low lmao

2.) Would you rather go without junk food for a year or go without TV for a year?

 junk food

3.) Describe your perfect man/woman.

Tall, funny, weird, silly,serious,optimistic,driven,adventuous, list goes on

4.) Thoughts on school dress codes?

they’re honestly stupid and degrading but some are necessary

5.)Any strange phobias?

Not that i can think of

6.) At what job do you see Donald Trump best fit?

6 feet underground 

7.) Who was your first crush?

NIck Jonas lmao

8.) Who was your first best friend?

Girl named Morgan don’t remember her last name.

9.)What is one weird thing about you?

I hate when I have an uneven amount of tattoos.

10.) Top 5 TV shows you like to watch?

11.) What are your favorite boys names? Degrassi, Greys Anatomy,TVD,Black Mirror

12.) What are your favorite girls names? Marley,Tasha idk i dont really have any lol

13.) Do you have any tattoos? If so, what are they? Yes, there’s too many to name each one lmao

14.) Do you plan on getting (more) tattoos? If so, what do you want to get as of the moment? yes many mor, next one is an alien head with a space ship and UFO.

15.) Do you have any piercings? Do you plan on getting more? i mean just my ears and eh maybe

16.) Do you like hugging people?

eh i could live without hugs tbh lol

17.) Think of ANY person on earth right now.  Who did you think of? you don’t want to know (CB)

18.) Do you have an iPhone? yes iphone 8 plus

19.) What is the worst thing that could happen in your life right now? losing one of my jobs lmao

20.) Do you watch anime? no

21.) What brings true happiness? music,traveling,friends,concerts.

22.) What is the most expensive thing you’ve ever paid for? honestly, i dont know i dont remember

23.) If you could have any job in the world and get paid millions of dollars a year for it, what would you be and why? tour manager or selling merch for a band

24.) Do you want children? If so, how many? honestly no but if i had to have children probably 1 or 2

25.) Name and describe someone who you feel most comfortable around. I’ll just name them, Pape, Chase, Michele, Destany,Chris,  Zion, Mary,Tori, Alyssa

26.)If you could invent a holiday, what would it be? Corbyn Besson Day just because LMAO

27.)Would you rather have summer weather or winter weather all year round? This isn’t a choice but spring weather

28.) If you could make an alien race, describe what they would look like. they would look like an alien racing, obviously.

29.)  What was the first thing you learned to cook? Grilled Cheese

30.) Describe your sense of humor. I’m funny as fuuuuck. I’ll send memes, stupid random shit i can think if, anything.

31.) What is the key to happiness? Surrounding yourself with positivity, and trying to find the positive out of anything negative that happens. Not worrying what other people think of you except yourself. Surrounding yourself with good people

32.) How many phone numbers do you have committed to memory? Whose numbers are they? One of my sisters, both my parents, thats about it lmao

33.) Name three songs that make you want to dance. Dazed adn Confused-Jake Miller, Mojo-Round2Crew,something different-wdw

34.) What job did you want to have as a child? Vet Technician

35.) Do you have any talents or skills? My talent is getting all the rings in the ring game on toontown

36.) What was the worst punishment you’ve ever had? I got grounded for a month-dont remember what i did tho

37.) Did you ever do anything weird as a child? Oh im sure i did.

38.) What is your dream car? a car that doesn’t break down

39.)  Describe something that made you laugh this week. probably something corbyn did or sue or my friends

40.) Did you have a dream last night? If so, describe it. Yes and i”d rather not lmao

41.)  Do you ever have repetitive dreams? Describe it/them. oh yes and u don’t want to hear that either

42.) Describe the worst/ scariest dream you’ve ever had. I’ll always remember this--I was younger maybe like 11 and it was that my dad went psychotic and my sisters and her friends snuck outside and tried to get away but he found us, threw us in his car and had my neighbors at the time help him kill us idk bro it was wild. thats the short version.

43.) Describe the best dream you’ve ever had. there’s so many and no thank you

44.) If God himself gave you a choice of either having unlimited money for the rest of your life or finding your one true love starting tomorrow, which one would you choose (keep in mind, you are still able to make a ton of money if you choose love, and you are still able to meet your soul mate if you choose money)? probably finding my one true love-thats worth more than any amount of money

45.) If you could do anything (and I mean ANYTHING) right now without consequences, what would you do and why? honestly i dont know

46.) Do you have any recipes that you know off the top of your head? What is it/ what are they? yes, how to make whipped cream lmao 

47.) Do you have your license? If so, do you have a car? no

48.) Have you ever had a near death experience? yes

49.) Do you personally know anyone that has been to prison? yes

50.) Have you ever been in a physical fight?

yes.

51.) When you get out of the shower, do you towel dry, blow dry, or air dry your hair? depends, if im not leaving the house i towel dry and then air dry but if i have to look good i blow dry.

52.) When you go to the movies, what snacks and drinks do you take with you? candy, popcorn, soda or an icee

53.) Do you like going to the beach? If so, do you like to stay dry or go in the water? If not, why? i like goigng to the beach adn going in the water, i hate sand

54.) Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?

sometimes.

55.) If you could have a superpower ASIDE from being invisible or being able to fly, what would you have? reading minds.

56.) If you were able to live for however long you wanted to (i’m talking thousands of years without aging), when would you choose to die? in this moment tomorrow lmao

57.) What do you think happens after you die? the light you go into is really the light when ur leaving the womb and your soul goes into a baby just beig born

58.) Do you believe in aliens? yes

59.) Do you believe in ghosts? yes

60.) Do you believe in spiritual things like ouija boards, tarot cards, and crystals? Do you believe they are portals for evil entities to enter the mortal world? yes

61.) If you could make one mythical being real, who/what would you make?

i dont know

62.) Do you get tan, or do you burn? the first time i tan, i burn the rest of the time i tan

63.) Describe your shower routine. I get in, shampoo, shave, rinse, conditioner, exfoliate sometimes, and body wash then rise hair and get out

64.) Do you enjoy school? Why or why not? Im not in school

65.) In your opinion, what is the worst way to die? struggling 

66.) Do you get carsick, sea sick, or airplane sickness? no

67.) What’s one memory that you wish you could live again and again? probs seeing one direction lmao i miss them

68.) What were some of your stuffed animal’s names from when you were a kid? scraper-he was a dog i still have him

69.)Do you have any pets? no

70.) Describe your daily wardrobe. homeless

71.)  Describe what your daily wardrobe would be if you were rich. beautiful,with the trends

72.)  Create a character right now.  Give them a name, age, and character description. Jessica Arkansas from Ohio, 22, makes youtube videos, fun when drunk,funny,works alot, drinks alot, smokes weed sometimes, love making people happy.

73.)What was the last thing you bought? Aromatherapy sleep lotion and shower gel from bath and body works.

74.) Have you ever bought a CD? What band was it for? uh yes I have many CDs, jonas brothers

75.) Describe your perfect ice cream sundae. the traditional one

76.) If you could make ANYTHING happen right now with no cost, trouble, or obstacles, what would you do? make corbyn besson fall in love with me

77.) What are some of your favorite physical activities to do? hiking, walking, going ton the gym

78.) What were some of your favorite shows as a child? Dragon tales, The Amanda show, hannah montana, thats so raven, wizards of waverly place, jonas,little bear, oswald. theres much more

79.) Describe how you would survive the zombie apocalypse. I wouldn’t

80.)What are some things you shouldn’t say at work? anything unprofessional

81.) If you were told that if you killed someone, you would save 100 people, would you do it? depends who the person im killig is (if its ****** or ********* then absolutely)

82.) How’s the weather right now? cold

83.) What is the background on your cell phone right now? its flowers that gnash tweeted one time when he released the broken hearts club

84.)Is it better to work at a job that you love or a job that pays well? a job you love.

85.) What do you have within arms reach of your bed? my stuffed giraffes.

86.) Have you ever been fired from a job? If so, why? no

87.) Have you ever won a trophy, prize, or medal? If so, for what? yes many, for soccer

88.) Do you have any posters, pictures, or art hanging on your walls in your room? If so, what are they? I have 1 poster and its corbyn and then i gave 2 2019 calendars one is jake millers and the other is a friends tv show one and i have hats on tacs hanging, poloroid pictures and a giant s for my name

89.) Are you afraid of the dark? If so, why? yes, because the dark is mf scary

90.)What is something that you’ve never done but would like to try? sky diving or parasailing

91.) If you could choose three famous people or characters to be friends with, who would you choose and why? wdw bc why not and they cool, the cast of friends because they are me and i love them, niall horan bc hes the loml

92.) Do you smile at strangers when you pass by them on the street? sometimes

93.) Do you have a favorite TV commercial? If so, what is it? no

94.) Do you like your handwriting? no

95.) Cable TV or Netflix? netflix

96.) What are your favorite smells? beautiful day from bbw

97.) Do you consider yourself physically strong? no im a weak ass bitch

98.) Describe a time where you said something really rude or mean, whether intentional or not.

oh there are mnay times im a bitch

99.) Do you ask strangers to pet their dogs? yes

100.)What is your most embarrassing moment?

wasn’t even my fault but when a group of drunk girls mauled me down a flight of stairs in front of people and DIDN’T EVEN NOTICE LMAO also whe I tripped at my high school graduaton going to get my diploma.

101.) Has anyone really close to you ever died? If so, who was it and how did you handle it?

yes, my uncle and i did not handle it well.

102.)  Describe your plan of action if you were home alone and you heard someone break into your house.

Lock myself in a room and call 911 or fight them lmao

103.) If you were to be born again, would you want to be born male or female?

probs male

104.)  What shampoo do you use?

the cheapest one i can find

105.) Guess the meaning of this word: ulotrichous.

I dont even know where to start lmao definitely a phobia for something maybe

106.) Do you let messages (phone, email, text, social media, etc…) build up, or do you have to look at them right away?

texts i let build but everythig else i dont

107.)  Where is the nearest McDonalds to your house?

on the other side of town like 5 mins away

108.)  If you had $1 billion and you had to spend it in exactly one week, what would you spend it on?

makeup, concerts tickets, plane tickets, clothes, alcohol,food.

109.) What is the best thing you’ve ever eaten?

pasta for sure

110.) If you could go on a trip around the world with up to three people, who would you bring (they can be people you know personally or famous people).

Michele, Zion, thats about it lmao

111.) What expletive/ explicit phrase do you say most often?

fuck off i guess

112.) What is your personal definition of success?

happy with yourself, your job, your life as a whole

113.) How was your day today?

it was good, tiring.

114.) What is the closest Big City you live by?

hartford or probably new york

115.) Have you ever been in a car accident?

no

116.) Do you hide anything from your parents?

yes

117.) If you could possess one talent, what would you be able to do?

sing or dance.

118.) Ugly and smart or beautiful and stupid?

ufgly and smart

119.) What is the worst thing you’ve ever seen in real life?

i dont know

120.) Use only 3 words to describe how you want your future to go.

happy, imperfectly perfect and promising.

121.) QUICK! give me a few things a brick could be useful for

hitting myself in the head

122.) If you could make a dream society, describe it in great detail where it would be, who would be in it, and what rules there would be?

somewhere warm, my friends/favorite artists, no negativity, everything is free, the artists who live there HAVE to perform every other weekend.

123.) If you could make any animal miniature, what would you make and why?

giraffes so in can have one as a pet,

124.) What are your favorite candle scents?

salted caramel, flannel, vanilla bean noel, champagne toast, hot cocoa and cream,endless weekend

125.) If you HAD to have one plastic surgery, what would you get and why?

something to make me skinnier

126.) Do you prefer to hang out with the same sex or the opposite sex?

opposite--less drama.

127.) If you could make a charity, what would the profits go towards? How would you raise money for it?

animals,homeless people, children

128.) Describe the body you wish you had.

just a flatter stomach and thinner thighs

129.) If you were a famous director, what would your next movie be about? Describe the plot, characters, and possible title.

probs a romcom or a romance movie--to tired to make a plot

130.) If only women were to rule the world, how different would the world be by 2050?

very probably better tho

131.) What is your favorite alcoholic drink?

jack and coke.

132.) Do you have a problematic friend?

doesn;t everyone?

133.) Are you more spontaneous or more of a planner?

spontaneous

134.) If you could change your full name, what would your name be?

idk

135.) What is one song that describes your life?

probably wait for you by jake miller or invisible by anna clendending

136.) What is one show you’ve been meaning to watch but can never find the time for?

all of the ones in my list

137.) Do you find it easy to drop toxic people from your life that you’ve known for a long time?

yes

138.) Do you like children? Why or why not?

yes bc they’re cute af and funny and honest

139.) What is your zodiac sign?

pisces

140.) Do you like to dance? Do you dance often? In front of other people?

when im drunk

141.) Name some of your favorite colors.

blue

142.) Have you ever shoplifted? If so, what was it?

yes random stuff from walmart lmao

143.) If you could speak three additional languages, what would they be?

spanish, italian and french

144.) Have you ever been in legal trouble?

eh

145.) Have you ever had surgery?

yes twice.

146.) If you could change 2 things about yourself, what would you change and why?

my body and my face bc uglyand fat

147.) What do you want done with your body after you die?

cremated

148.) What three physical features do people compliment you most on? What do they say about them?

my hair, eyes and outfit sometimes.

149.) If you could have your own business, what would you do?

something that requires me to travel

150.) What current friend do you have that you’ve known the longest?

Angelica--known her before we were born 

Survey #470

“how can you choose to let the blind see better than you?”

What was the main character called in the last film you watched? Dewey. What would you name your pet snake if you had one? It would depend on its appearance. The snake I have now is named Venus because of her coloration. Do you like peanuts? Only if they're covered in chocolate or in granola bars in small portions. Have you ever gambled? What was your biggest loss/win? No. What was the last movie you watched? Who did you watch it with? Girt and I watched School of Rock together. What do you eat for breakfast? Excluding the rare occasions my mom cooks something, usually cereal or a sandwich. Do you have a Flickr? I do, but it's abandoned. Anything exciting happening in the month of September? No. When was the last time you had an ice cream sandwich? Oh man, it's been too long. I really want one now. Do you eat breakfast daily? Yeah. What was the last thing to scare you? "Scare" is a strong word, but I was very, very nervous to hear what weight I'd gained since my last doctor's appointment. Do you like mustard? Yeah, I do. Do you have a desktop computer or laptop? A laptop. Do you like to play Jenga? I guess? I don't really have an opinion on it. Do you like Fresca? Not very, but I'll drink it if I really want a soda and it's the only option. How many towels do you use after a shower? Just one. Would you ever flash a cop if you knew you'd get out of a ticket? Um, no thank you. What is your favorite thrill ride ever? I don't like those. I'm afraid of puking or fainting. Biggest irrational fear? Truly irrational, probably whale sharks. Favorite movie sequel? Hm. If you had endless funds, where would you buy most of your clothes? Cloak and Rebel's Market. How many jobs have you had? Three, technically. What is your favorite thing to do in your city? Oh hun, fun doesn't exist here. This place sucks. Have you ever gone strawberry picking? Ha ha, yes... but I was a little kid that absolutely gorged on the strawberries instead of putting them in my basket. The person that worked there didn't make my mom pay for what I did or anything, but they made a joke about weighing me to check the damage I did, ha ha. My face was COVERED in strawberry juice. I wish I could actually remember the occasion, but I was too young. How many times have you seen a doctor this month? It feels like a lot. >_< I had to get blood drawn for two different things on separate appointments, I had a follow-up appointment with my primary physician about my weight, I recently spoke to my therapist and psychiatrist... Could you pull off orange hair? I've actually considered like, a light creamsicle orange. I actually edited a photo of me with my current hair style trying different colors, and that tint looked pretty cute. Do you shave your legs? It sounds dumb, but yes, now that I'm in a relationship. I feel obligated to at least try and be attractive by societal standards. I know it seriously doesn't matter, but I would be so inexplicably mortified if he saw my unshaven legs kalsdj;flkasdjwe What type of weather is your favorite? Snowy! Coolest place you've ever been? Disney World, probs. Do you like corn on the cob? Yeah, man. Have you ever waited tables? No. Build your favorite pizza. Soft pan crust, your average amount of sauce and a good amount of cheese with various meats on it. What did you last get fancy for? I wouldn't say I got like, super fancy, but I wore a nice shirt and a necklace when Girt came over for the first time as a couple. I thought we were actually leaving the house to go out to dinner, but the plan was actually to have Buffalo Wild Wings delivered. It was totally fine by me, I'd just misunderstood. Dream pet? A female Brazilian Black tarantula named Black Betty. :') Do you tend to get clingy in relationships? I know I do. What is the last horror movie you watched? It's sad that I don't know. :( Would you be grossed out if your best friend mooned you? No, I'd just be extremely confused lmao. What is the last thing that you drank? Milk. Currently popular song that you can't stand? I have zero idea what songs are popular right now. What is the weather like right now? Too fuckin' hot to be mid-September. Do you have favorite type/brand of pen? I mean, I like the feel of gel pens. I don't know about brands. What is your go-to snack at the convenience store? Some form of Reese's. Popular drink that you dislike? Coffee shocks the most people. What TV show are you waiting on to return/create a new season? None. What is something you currently want but cannot afford? Oh, dear. -_- Do you have sensitive skin? Very. How many toilets are in your house? Two. Do you have an older sister? Three that I know, one that I don't really count because I know nothing about her and have never spoken to her. What color is your mum’s car? White. Do you live in an apartment? No. Cats are usually cuter than dogs right? Kittens are generally cuter than puppies, imo. Where do you keep your kitty litter box? It has to stay in my bedroom, which I hate. Mom insists on in being in here so I don't forget to clean it. My memory is awful, but I'm preeeetty sure I'd remember to give my cat a clean place to use the bathroom if it was kept in the spare room by the door... Are you rude to little children? No; even if I don't really like kids, that is something I definitely avoid. Kids should never lose their hope in or love for humanity, and I would absolutely hate to be one of those people that makes the human race appear unpleasant. Are you a lighter complexion than your father? BY FAR. He's a mailman so is out in the sun nearly every day, so he's pretty damn dark to be Caucasian. I wouldn't be surprised if by his complexion he's ever been mistaken for being Hispanic, because the color definitely fits. Do you like apricots? No. Are banana chips delicious? Ew, that sounds gross. Do you like kinky sex? I wouldn't know, my dude. I've never really explored outside of pretty vanilla stuff. What is one thing you will never do again? Rely solely on another person for happiness. Would you rather be twice as smart or twice as happy? Twice as happy. That's not even a competition. What would your parents be surprised to learn about you? I very legitimately wonder if I would be disowned for how fucked up some of the shit I write is, ha ha. Mom would probably cry if she saw some of even the milder stuff and force the topic to come up in therapy. If you could have been a child prodigy what would you have wanted to be skilled at? Maybe painting? If earth could only have one condiment for the rest of time, what would you pick to keep around? Hmmm... I suppose ketchup. Do you think it’s important to stay up to date with the news? I think it is, but I don't. .-. What is the best present you could ever receive? An all-expenses-paid trip to South Africa to visit and tour with the Kalahari Meerkat Project to meet and photograph the meerkats. :''''''''''') Would you give up one of your fingers if it meant you’d have free WiFi wherever you go, for the rest of your life? Nah. That's what data is for, lol. If someone told you you could give one person a present and your budget was unlimited–what present would you get and for whom? A new car for Mom. Giant house in a subdivision or tiny house somewhere with a view? Oh, that is SO easy. Give me the view. Well wait, HOW tiny is the house? My answer would change if it was one of those truly mini houses that would make me feel claustrophobic as shit. What was your favorite Disney movie as a kid? The Lion King. Still is. Do you brush your teeth in the bathroom, or do you get bored & roam around? I roam around. Does your city/town have a little festival/carnival every year? Yes. I never really pay attention tho 'cuz I never go. Have you ever been to an apple orchard? No, but I would love to go. Were there any cartoons your parents didn’t let you watch as a kid? Except "adult" cartoons obviously, no. Could you handle motherhood? No fucking way. Being entirely serious, I think I'd either end up dead or horribly depressed, and the kid psychologically damaged to some extent from having an unstable mother. Like do not get me wrong, I'd try very hard, but I know I couldn't stay sane and happy as a mom. Have you ever touched a squirrel? No. What's better, candles or incense? Incense. What movie did you see the most in theaters? I don't watch movies in theaters twice. It's expensive to go even once. Who played the best Batman? Idk. I didn't watch all the movies. Who’s the best American Idol thus far? *shrug* What’s likely to happen next in your family - wedding, funeral, or birth? Uh, I suppose a wedding? None seem likely any time soon. Do you like hot, cold, or lukewarm showers? Hot. Have you ever taken part in a threesome? No, not my jam. Do you plan on having both your parents at your wedding? Yep. Which movie’s musical score is truly memorable? Tarzan came to mind very quickly. What’s your favorite scene from the movie Titanic? Idk, I've only seen it once. Which TV show theme music do you remember most? That '70s Show. Have you ever bounced any checks? ... I don't even know what that means. :x Have you ever been snipe hunting? I will never in my life hunt in any way, shape, or form. Do you try to be politically correct? For the most part, but I do believe it's gone too far. Generally though, I try to conform to the "rules" to avoid offending someone. What’s your favorite kind of sea critter? Bottlenose dolphins, various types of whales, sea turtles... I don't think I could pick one. Have you ever tasted locally-made honey before? Does it count if it's from a honeysuckle flower? Do you like to wear toe socks? No, they're mad uncomfortable imo. Have you ever worn bright red lipstick? Yes. Do you think raccoons are adorable, like I do? BABIES!!!!!!!!!!!

MY BFF TAGGED ME SO I’M DOING THIS, I’M NOT TAGGING ANYONE, DO IT IF YOU FEEL INCLINED xoxo

WHAT WAS YOUR…

1. Last beverage: cherry sprite

2. Last phone call: summit, for like four hours bc life’s been crazy

3. Last text message: to my mom, from konner

4. Last song you listened to: she - dodie clark

5. Last time you cried: the other day bc i watched moana and got emotional?

HAVE YOU…

6. Dated someone twice: yee

7. Been cheated on: what fool would cheat on perfection?

8. Kissed someone & regretted it: uhm...oh...yeah.

9. Lost someone special: of course

10. Been depressed: WELCOME TO JESS

11. Been drunk and threw up: no bc it doesn’t look like fun

LIST THREE FAVOURITE COLOURS:

12. BLUE, always blue

13. purple

14. orange

IN THE LAST YEAR, HAVE YOU:

15. Made a new friend: yes and i love and appreciate them all

16. Fallen out of love: finally yes, and fallen more in love with myself

17. Laughed until you cried: like seventeen times today alone

18. Met someone who changed you: everyone has an effect on me, so yeah probably

19. Found out who your true friends were: yeah i have like two constants and everyone else is expendable lol

20. Found out someone was talking about you: i’m not that interesting so no

21. Kissed anyone on your FB friend’s list: i kiss my pals when i drink, i also friend them

GENERAL:

22. How many people on your FB friends list do you know in real life: i have met all of them at some point, but i certainly haven’t talked to most of them in years

24. Do you have any pets: i have friends who have pets so i steal their pets

25. Do you want to change your name: yes.

26. What did you do for your last birthday: took care of my drunk roommate, went to class, ate some ice cream cake

27. What time did you wake up today: uh....sometime 

28. What were you doing at midnight last night: with my friend at the hospital making sure she isn’t pregnant lol 

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: see my family, an apology i’ll never get, a fucking nap

30. Last time you saw your Mother: september third, and i miss her a fucking lot

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: feeling valid in every part of me.

32. What are you listening to right now: asmr videos bc i was gonna sleep

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom?: uncle tom, what a dude. also my brothers’ dad. also a dude.

34. What’s getting on your nerves right now: my roommates for various reasons but i also love them a lot

35. Most visited web page: facebook

37. Nickname: blue, does jess count if that’s all i go by? (literally don’t call me jessica tho lmao)

38. Relationship Status: what is that?

39. Zodiac sign: virgo

40. Pronouns: they/them. gotta start making that clearer rip

41. Elementary: rockway public school

42. High School: eastwood collegiate institute, integrated arts program (strings + drama)

43. College: sault college, nsw

44. Hair colour: BLUE and also brown shaved sides

45. Long or short: short

46. Height: 5′6 and a half

47. Do you have a crush on someone?: lol yeah constantly fml

48. What do you like about yourself?: resilience i think.

49. Piercings: i’m sure my ears have closed up by now. i want more but my face disagrees

50. Tattoos: treble clef, some of a space sleeve, everything, way more in my head; 4 stick and poke in memoriam 

51.Righty or lefty? lefty and proud, but gdi it’s a struggle

FIRSTS:

52. First surgery: wisdom teeth I guess. 

53. First piercing: ears, age seven

54. First best friend: molly. i miss how simple things were then

55. First sport you joined: softball. still love it

56. First vacation: uhm...no idea the first. my parents always took us all sorts of places and made us appreciate every experience they gave us

58. First pair of trainers: pink shoes that tied up that i could not tie up. the frustration

RIGHT NOW:

59. Eating: nothing

60. Drinking: nothing (wow such health)

61. I’m about to: hopefully sleep for a sec before doing some chapter notes

62. Listening to: still asmr. i am obsessed 

63. Waiting for: shit to stop being crazy so i can focus on school again. fuck

YOUR FUTURE:

64. Want kids?: fost/adopt prob

65. Get Married?: YEAH i fucking love love

66. Career?: i just wanna help people in any way i can

WHICH IS BETTER:

67. Lips or eyes: eyes

68. Hugs or kisses: hugs

69. Shorter or taller: both are great. you look good

70. Older or Younger: either within reason

71. Romantic or spontaneous: spontaneous romance? but also just romance, ugh i’m so gay

72. Nice stomach or nice arms: seriously, you look good and you also have a stomach and arms and both are nice.

73. Sensitive or loud: sensitive. i’m loud enough for seven people

74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship goes back to that loving love thing

75. Trouble-maker or hesitant: uhm idk?

HAVE YOU EVER:

76. Kissed a stranger: nope

77. Drank hard liquor: yeah boi loves the hard shit

78. Lost glasses/contacts:constantly omg

79. Sex on first date: not for me

80. Broke someone’s heart: yep.

81. Had your own heart broken: yep. broken my own heart too.

82. Been arrested: that involves doing shit

83. Turned someone down: i actually don’t know, don’t think so

84. Cried when someone died: yes

85. Fallen for a friend: YEP

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself: trying my best to. ask me on a good day

87. Miracles: i don’t know, haven’t thought about it too much

88. Love at first sight: omg i’m the worst, yes absolutely 

89. Heaven: i really really want to

90. Santa Claus: no but i will sell it to the children

91. God: i believe in something.

92. Angels: i don’t think so.

well this has been a blast, thanks clare for making me do this at 3am bc who needs sleep lmao. do it if you want to, i love reading more about people and i hope you enjoyed getting to know a smidge about me

tag game thing that i’m doing the whole thing instead of just the ones i get in asks cuz wooo

1: name: kaiden 2: age: 15 3: 3 fears: the ocean, being left alone, and uh basketballs (those r terrifying you’ve gotta admit) 4: 3 things i love: drawing, the cold weather, and pastel yellow 5: 4 turns on: people with eyes, people with a heart, people with a brain, and people who are nice (do u rly think i’m going to say NOT SAFE FOR WORK THINGS ON MY TOTALLY SAFE FOR WORK BLOG pshh what r u on about) 6: 4 turns off: rude people in general, too much sarcasm, does ~drugs~ (the illegal shit), very judgy. 7: my best friend: MY LITTLE BLUE HAIRED FUCKKKEERRR, or just my cousin lol 8: sexual orientation: pansexual with a preference for bois 9: my best first date: uh we went to go get ice cream and then went to their rooftop asdfghjk i haven’t been on many dates 10: how tall am i: 5″6 11: what do i miss: my home town and the cold weather 12: what time were i born: 2 AM 13: favorite color: yellow or blue 14: do i have a crush: nah not for now 15: favorite quote: “existence, well what does it matter. i exist on the best terms i can. the past is now part of my future, the present is well out of hand”- ian curtis (lol not the most inspiring but i love) 16: favorite place: a small cliff behind a restaurant in my hometown. 17: favorite food: kitkats, or ice cream 18: do i use sarcasm: not really, no 19: what am i listening to right now: Kool Thing by Sonic Youth 20: first thing i notice in new person: their way of speaking, or their eyes. 21: shoe size: 9 1/2 22: eye color: brown :/ 23: hair color: brown again :/ 24: favorite style of clothing: the late 70′s- early 80′s punk outfits asdfghj i wish i was cool enough to pull that off 25: ever done a prank call?: ye 27: meaning behind my url: well right now it’s pumpkinspiced-aliens and it’s because it’s halloween and i love aliens asdfghjk 28: favorite movie: donnie darko, or maybe rocky horror 29: favorite song: can’t choose :( 30: favorite band: twenty one pilots and close second would be the clash asdfghjk what a nerd amiright  31: how i feel right now: 40% empty and 60% unaware of my surroundings and thinking about how useless life is ::))) 32: someone i love: my bro 33: my current relationship status: v single 34: my relationship with my parents: i guess okay? idk  35: favourite holiday: halloween and christmas (i already bought a christmas phone case i’m fuckin prepared) 36: tattoos and piercing i have: ear piercings, no tattoos yet 37: tattoos and piercing i want: probs gages, but not that big maybe the size of pencil erasers,, also a tattoo of a flamingo because reasons. 38: the reason i joined tumblr: because i needed something to do on the weekends and reason to get out of bed 39: do i and my last ex hate each other?: no we’re friends and hang out sometimes, i just realized that they’re not the type of person i like, so eh 40: do i ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?: i fuckin wish :’( 41: have i ever kissed the last person i texted?: uh yeah 42: when did i last hold hands?: today with my idiot friend nayla jkjk ily 43: how long does it take me to get ready in the morning?: like 40 minutes maybe 44: have you shaved your legs in the past three days?: :p 45: where am i right now?: at home 46: if i were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?: probs my friend caro cuz she would be there too 47: do i like my music loud or at a reasonable level?: depends,, if i’m angry or sad really loud, but when i’m ghosty and stuff at a normal level 48: do i live with my mom and dad?: yeah 49: am i excited for anything?: for the hiatus to be over asdfg jk but also moving out  50: do i have someone of the opposite sex i can tell everything to? : uh not really everything,, i don’t tell everything to anyone but yeah i guess i’ve got a few friends that i trust with some information 51: how often do i wear a fake smile?: more often than people think 52: when was the last time i hugged someone?: today  53: what if the last person i kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?: i tried to kiss my brother on the cheek and we accidentally touched lips but yee, um, i would be cheering that girl on 54: is there anyone i trust even though i should not?: i’m the most paranoid person about this stuff so no 55: what is something i disliked about today?: i had a science test and i had a panic attack at 3 AM 56: if i could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?: uh probs tyler and josh, or just my soulmate esrdgfhh jkjk 57: what do i think about most? now that i think about it, it’s either college or death 58: what’s my strangest talent?: i can hold my breath for 3.5 minutes underwater asdfg it’s not that long but it’s oky 59: do i have any strange phobias?: other than the ocean and basketballs? i don’t think so. 60: do i prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?: behind 61: what was the last lie i told?: this is gonna sound super fake and stuff but i said “i love you” asdfghjk 62: do i perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online?: talking on the phone 63: do i believe in ghosts? how about aliens?: ghosts? not really. aliens? damn right i do hmu if u want the full explanation 64: do i believe in magic?: nah 65: do i believe in luck?: maybe 66: what’s the weather like right now?: it was sunny a few minutes ago and now it’s windy like crazy idk what the fuck happened 67: what was the last book i’ve read?: stephen king’s “the girl who loved tom gordon” 68: do i like the smell of gasoline? fuck yeah 69: do i have any nicknames? not really other than kitkat or kai 70: what was the worst injury i’ve ever had?: my ankle snapped in half after being pushed to the bottom of a pool asdfghj it’s a long story 71: do i spend money or save it?: i spend it way too fast help 72: can i touch my nose with a tounge?: with A tongue? probs, not with my own tho 73: is there anything pink in 10 feets from me? yes my 3ds 74: favourite animal?: can’t choose but i love lizards 75: what was i doing last night at 12am?: showering fgh 76: what do i think is Satan’s last name is?: probs something super common like Johnson or Barkley or Trump. 77: what’s a song that always makes me happy when i hear it?: chills by down with webster lolol it reminds me of home 78: how can you win my heart?: being sweet and sending me good morning and goodnight texts 79: what would i want to be written on my tombstone?: “and a great succ he was....” and whatever else my family wants to write on it lolol 80: what is my favorite word?: plump 81: my top 5 blogs on tumblr: i don’t want to annoy them by tagging them but i love so many 82: if the whole world were listening to me right now, what would i say?: i would read every single one of my angry political letters and then tell them to fuck off. 83: do i have any relatives in jail? nah 84: i accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. they were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?: props invisibility or magic healing 85: what would be a question i’d be afraid to tell the truth on?: r u ok? 86: what is my current desktop picture?: the meme man 87: had sex?: asdfghjkljhgfdsfghjk,jhgfd no 88: bought condoms?: no but i got a bunch of them thrown at me once 89: gotten pregnant?: no 90: failed a class?: yee in like 6th grade 91: kissed a boy?: ye 92: kissed a girl?: ye 93: have i ever kissed somebody in the rain?: no but i wish 94: had job?: there are so many different things you could be talking about right now but yes i have had a working job 95: left the house without my wallet?: yeyeyey 96: bullied someone on the internet?: nope 97: had sex in public?: jcfghjghvewbdsjhwefhgv no 98: played on a sports team?: yee 99: smoked weed?: no 100: did drugs?: uh bad memories ascghj but technically yes and it sucked 101: smoked cigarettes?: ye like only a couple of timez,,, like 10,,,, i’m not addicted tho 102: drank alcohol?: ye 103: am i a vegetarian/vegan?: pesco vegetarian  104: been overweight?: nope 105: been underweight?: yep 106: been to a wedding?: yep 107: been on the computer for 5 hours straight?: yep  108: watched tv for 5 hours straight?: yep 109: been outside my home country?: bitch yes 110: gotten my heart broken?: kinda i guess 111: been to a professional sports game?: nah 112: broken a bone?: ye 113: cut myself?: purposefully, no. 114: been to prom?: well they’ve got “proms” at my school which is the entire high school including the seniors but like yeah i have 115: been in airplane?: too many times 116: fly by helicopter?: yee 117: what concerts have i been to?: so manyyy,,, tell me if u want me to say them all 118: had a crush on someone of the same sex?: i’m practically gay 119: learned another language?: i speak french and italian ~fluently~ 120: wore make up?: yes 121: lost my virginity before i was 18?: asdfghj no 122: had oral sex?: azsxdcfgvhbjbvgfhvewubcyfbkuycfuyqerliu no 123: dyed my hair?: eyeyyeyeyeeee 124: voted in a presidential election?: nope 125: rode in an ambulance?: yee 126: had a surgery?: yeee 127: met someone famous?: i met johnny cash,,, also his daugther 128: stalked someone on a social network?: celebrities yes 129: peed outside?: yee 130: been fishing?: yee 131: helped with charity?: yee 132: been rejected by a crush?: no 133: broken a mirror?: not that i remember 134: what do i want for birthday?: this year i only got 50 dollars haha i would like some clothes maybe and a ukelele 135: how many kids do i want and what will be their names?: i want 1 max 2 but idk their names yet,,, a girl i would name kayla cuz yeah 136: was I named after anyone?: nope 137: do i like my handwriting?: nope 138: what was my favourite toy as a child?: this little ballerina doll i had gotten in a mcdonalds happy meal 139: favourite tv Show?: “that 70′s show” or stranger things 140: where do i want to live when older?: toronto, montreal, or ottawa 141: play any musical instrument?: guitar, piano, and clarinet 142: one of my scars, how did I get it?: instead of using a plate to cut my sandwich in half while camping, i put a paper towel on my thigh and sliced a 1 cm cut into it lmao  143: favourite pizza toping?: pepperoni  144: am i afraid of the dark?: eh not really 145: am i afraid of heights?: not at all 146: have i ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad?: i got caught by my dad trying to steal a beer for my cousin,,,  147: have i ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end?: on literally every test i’ve ever taken 148: what i’m really bad at: texting, being supportive, sharing food, physics, and general emotions 149: what my greatest achievments are: probs getting 1st at a national competition for a sport which i am not going to tell you 150: the meanest thing somebody has ever said to me: that i don’t have any friends and that i should drink bleach while jumping off the CN tower :) 151: what i’d do if i won in a lottery: donate a quarter of it to charity, giving another quarter to sick family members, and the rest save for my education and my brother’s. 152: what do i like about myself: i’ve got nice eyelashes i’ve been told 153: my closest tumblr friend: idk... 154: something i fantasise about: having a nice romantic relationships

THERE DONE BJKHSDAKUJSDXKHJEKYGUYHWERUHIFR

How are you doing?

this got super fucking long so i’m putting it under a read more

i’m pretty good! i’m just sooooo ready to start rehearsals (but also really really really nervous) so that happens next week. i’ve decided to use one of my absences from group so that i can go to the whole first rehearsal bc that may be when they’re assigning the chorus lines and i would love to be there so i can get as many lines as i can.

i’m probably going to alumni group this weekend and then seeing wicked with bri and i’m so so so excited.

i booked my flight home for labor day weekend and i’m already excited for that even though it’s so far away lol.

i don’t think i’m gonna be able to go to nyc with my mom to see dear evan hansen bc of the vacation schedule at W - basically we can take four week-long vacations per year and a vacation is the only way you can miss house meeting (unless like you’re sick or there’s a one-time thing happening that you have to go to) and since rehearsals will be on tuesdays in august, i’m taking two weeks of vacation right before the performances which means i won’t have any vacations for going to nyc so i’m sad about that but i also feel glad that i have something (besides treatment) that is a priority and that i’m excited about.

tuesday’s session with brandon was hard but i’m really glad i texted him my thoughts (and he texted me back). i was proud of that and also how hard i worked on grounding skills that day (can’t remember the last time i did ice diving! actually it was probs at mnlh).

kellie yesterday was good. weight is stable. she’s a little concerned that my weight has literally stayed in a one-pound range (so like not even a range lol) every week since the weight loss in iop and she’s like “ginny you should be having fluctuations. the fact that you have stayed within a pound makes me think you’re being pretty rigid about your intake” and i was like yeah… so we talked about some ways in which i need to practice flexibility (including the possibility of needing two separate snacks in between mealtimes if i’m hungry or the schedule is weird). i’m also supposed to work on spending less time at the grocery store comparing labels and such. the chocolate croissant goal stayed the same bc i didn’t do it last week BUT i did do it yesterday after our session and it was really fucking hard and i felt so shitty and guilty (and tbh i didn’t even like it that much) so i’m glad that’s done. my other goals are to try toast and butter (i mentioned that butter really scares me), decrease calorie counting including not looking up the info for new foods, eat out at a restaurant with bri before the show (and maybe order dessert), and to keep track of hunger/fullness.

today i had liz and that was good. we talked about a lot of stuff, including the dinner/dessert possibility before wicked and my fears and anxieties around that. i also talked about how, when i’m at the grocery store and i’m passing the bakery section, i think “i wish i could try that muffin” or cookie or whatever but they’re all in four- or six-packs and the idea of that kind of food just sitting around at the house makes me really nervous. i told her that, even though B/P’ing was not a part of this last relapse, i am always terrified that i will go back to overeating, that that part of me is still in there, just waiting to come out. so i try to have mostly healthy food at W (except for ice cream lol i always have ice cream) so i’m not tempted to overeat. and liz looked at me and said “do you have a razor?” i smiled and said “yes”. she said “are there knives and scissors there that aren’t locked up?” and i said “yes”. she said “ok, so was there a time in your life where you would not have been able to stand having razors and scissors and knives just lying around for you to use whenever you want?” and i was like “uh yeah, at 3East and most other programs” and she was like “right! you had to beg staff to let you use a razor and they stood outside the door while you shaved, right? but now you have these sharps out and i’m guessing that cutting doesn’t cross your mind every time you see them, right?” and i was like “yeah, you’re right”. she said “ok. the muffins are razor blades.” so i liked that point bc it’s so true that i have desensitized myself to having sharp things around. so i went to the grocery store again (twice in two days oops) and i bought a six-pack of muffins on a whim and sent liz a picture of it, saying “fuck”. she responded “You. Are. A. Rock. Star.” i said i was scared, and she responded “well, maybe you start by having them around. you don’t have to eat one (or part of one) today. save them in the freezer if you need to.” so it’s really about exposure right now - that i can have a pack of muffins on the counter without overeating just at the sight of them.

i made cookies tonight (another challenge!) bc i wanted to bring some to the firehouse that is close by W. it’s a smaller house and i’ve been wanting to stop by with something to say thank you (partly from watching chicago fire and seeing that people drop off cookies and stuff, hopefully in real life too not just the show lol, and also partly bc my nanny’s husband is a firefighter so i spent some time in their firehouse and even did a ride-along when i was 18 and i loved being in the firehouse). so i awkwardly walked in (the big garage doors were open) and this guy waved at me so i came in and was like “hi um i live down the street and i made some chocolate chip cookies but i wasn’t sure how many people were here…” and he said “there’s 17 of us” and i was like “oh shit… i brought 12…” and he was like “i’m just kidding. there’s 3 of us.” haha. they seemed really grateful and two of them were like “oh did you just move in?” and i was like “no… i’ve been here about a year” [whoops i’m an asshole and haven’t come until now lol]. but anyways, i like doing small good deeds like that bc it makes me feel better about myself. 

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Jesus, okay, let’s go: 1: Name: Madolyn but many just call me Maddy
2: Age: 20
3: 3 Fears: birds, outside, squirrels 
4: 3 things I love: cuddling with my kittens or like anyone I guess, the sound of harsh wind against a building, and anything Legend of Zelda 
5: 4 turns on: collarbones, I really love collarbones, I like when people can keep up with me when I’m joking, manners, eyes
6: 4 turns off: people who think too highly of themselves, people who don’t respect my privacy and anxiety and take it personally, people who make fun of others and call it ‘funny,’ and people who are rude to others like servers, etc.
7: My best friend: Grace and Hannah 
8: Sexual orientation: Probs pan but I don’t label it so 
9: My best first date: I’ve only been on like three? But one time we just drove around the hills of a small town and talked for hours and I had a good time.
10: How tall am I: 5'3
11: What do I miss: I miss my favorite English teacher at my highschool back in my hometown. 
12: What time were I born: no idea 
13: Favorite color: gray 
14: Do I have a crush: kinda but like its a distance crush, I don’t actually know anything about them and amToo nervous to talk to them 
15: Favorite quote: idk
16: Favorite place: my bed 
17: Favorite food: ice cream or pasta 
18: Do I use sarcasm: literally all the time 
19: What am I listening to right now: the kooks
20: First thing I notice in new person: manners 
21: Shoe size: size 5 or a kids 3
22: Eye color: blue 23: Hair color: brown but I dye it
24: Favorite style of clothing: socks idc about anything else 
25: Ever done a prank call?: nope, considering I can barely call my mom, I’ve never tried.
27: Meaning behind my URL: I have a past with self harm, and ramblings imply a sense of unimportance, so I think it sums me well. 
28: Favorite movie: Aristocats and Boxtrolls 
29: Favorite song: really into Naive by the Kooks 
30: Favorite band: Arctic Monkeys 
31: How I feel right now: pretty nauseous 
32: Someone I love: Grace and Hannah 
33: My current relationship status: single as hell 
34: My relationship with my parents: not great, but we try 
35: Favorite holiday: Christmas because it’s the one day my family is somewhat normal 
36: Tattoos and piercing i have: ears pierced, septum pierced. Back tattoo, a tattoo on my thigh, and a semicolon on my inside ring finger 
37: Tattoos and piercing i want: have my entire body planned for tattoos, except neck and face, and I wanna get a triple forward helix 
38: The reason I joined Tumblr: no one irl likes me and I felt so alone and was so tired of pretending to be okay 
39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?: I’m not sure, I think he hates me 
40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?: yes
41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted? no
42: When did I last hold hands: December after a date 
43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?: if I’m doing makeup, 1 and half hours for everything Otherwise I don’t do anything except put a bra on so 5 mins 
44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days? Yes
45: Where am I right now? Home 
46: If I were drunk and I can’t stand, who’s taking care of me? I don’t drink so no one has to worry about this 
47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? I have very poor hearing so Probs louder to lost but reasonable for me 
48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad?No 
49: Am I excited for anything?I’m excited to get my PhD and meet Hannah and Grace 
50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?Yes, his name is Rayn and he’s incredible 
51: How often do I wear a fake smile?All the time 
52: When was the last time I hugged someone?Idk Probs like a few months 
53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?Good for him
54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?Yea 
55: What is something I disliked about today?Being awake 
56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?Kate Middleton 
57: What do I think about most?The future 
58: What’s my strangest talent?I have a really good memory so I know entire phineas and ferb songs by heart and can name season and title episodes.
59: Do I have any strange phobias?Birds. 
60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?Probs in front because I take makeup selfies
61: What was the last lie I told?Last night, I told my cousin I was Doing Well. 
62: Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?Video chatting 
63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?No to ghosts, yea to aliens. 
64: Do I believe in magic?No 
65: Do I believe in luck?Kinda 
66: What’s the weather like right now?Raining and wind.
67: What was the last book I’ve read?Heart of Darkness 
68: Do I like the smell of gasoline?No, makes me nauseous 
69: Do I have any nicknames?Tons 
70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had?Uh I have a bone disease so that, and I broke my kneecap, like completely split the back of it off
71: Do I spend money or save it?Spend, I’m the worst at saving 
72: Can I touch my nose with a tongue?Yea 
73: Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me?My sheets are a light pink 
74: Favorite animal?Sloth 
75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM?Watching Phineas and Ferb 
76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is?Trump 
77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?Chelsea Daggar (Fratellis)
78: How can you win my heart? Be nice, I literally don’t care about much but how you treat me and others 
79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?‘Finally'
80: What is my favorite word?Couth 
81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr@sickofbeingsuicidal@happilyheartbroken13@pain-with-no-gain@br0ken-and-lost@suicide-is-my-father
82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?Can we just be nice? 
83: Do I have any relatives in jail?Hm I don’t think so 
84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?Infinite knowledge 
85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on?I’m not sure, I’m pretty open.
86: What is my current desktop picture?My cat in Spokane sleeping on my bed.
87: Had sex?Yep
88: Bought condoms?Yep 
89: Gotten pregnant?No 
90: Failed a class?No 
91: Kissed a boy?Yes 
92: Kissed a girl?Yes 
93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? Yes 
94: Had job?Yes 
95: Left the house without my wallet?All the time 
96: Bullied someone on the internet?No 
97: Had sex in public?Sorta 
98: Played on a sports team?Yes 
99: Smoked weed?No 
100: Did drugs?No 
101: Smoked cigarettes?No 
102: Drank alcohol?No 
103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan? Vegetarian 
104: Been overweight?Yes 
105: Been underweight?Yes 
106: Been to a wedding?Yes 
107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?Lol, of course 
108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight?Yes 
109: Been outside my home country?Yes 
110: Gotten my heart broken?Yes 
111: Been to a professional sports game?Yes
112: Broken a bone?Yes
113: Cut myself?Yes
114: Been to prom?Yes
115: Been in airplane?Yes
116: Fly by helicopter?No 
117: What concerts have I been to?Bruno Mars, Modest Mouse, Black Sabbath 
118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex?Yes 
119: Learned another language?Yea 
120: Wore make up?Yes 
121: Lost my virginity before I was 18?No 
122: Had oral sex?Yes 
123: Dyed my hair?Yes 
124: Voted in a presidential election?Yes 
125: Rode in an ambulance?No 
126: Had a surgery?Yes 
127: Met someone famous? No 
128: Stalked someone on a social network? Yes 
129: Peed outside? No 
130: Been fishing? Yes 
131: Helped with charity?Yes 
132: Been rejected by a crush?Yea 
133: Broken a mirror? Yes 
134: What do I want for birthday?Socks, always socks

Boom, nailed it. Now you know how boring I am :)

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oh man oh man feel free to completely disagree with any of these xD

Disagreements:

Who is more likely to raise their voice? Prooobably Theo but immediately regrets itWho threatens to leave but never actually does? AryaWho actually keeps their word and leaves? Also Arya (Theo wouldn’t threaten to leave at all, and I feel like she would be 50/50 on the matter depending on how pissed she was xD)Who trashes the house? NeitherDo either of them get physical? No, I feel like any argument they have is going to be solely verbalHow often do they argue/disagree? Not often, but it happensWho is the first to apologise? Definitely Theo

Sex:

Who is on top? Mostly TheoWho is on the bottom? Mostly AryaWho has the strangest desires? Maybe Arya? Theo is too pure™ Any kinks? You know they’re all about the handcuffs ;)Who’s dominant in bed? Theo, but he does enjoy when Arya takes controlIs head ever in the equation? Of course. Always.If so, who is better at performing it? Theo. Sorry Arya, but you KNOW he’s the bestEver had sex in public? NoWho moans the most? AryaWho leaves the most marks? TheoWho screams the loudest? AryaWho is the more experienced of the two? Uh.........Probably Arya?Do they ‘fuck’ or ‘make love’? Booooth, but Theo loves to make love ;)Rough or soft? Also both, but he likes being softHow long do they usually last? Normal amount of time? Depending on the foreplay situation??Is protection used? HMMMMM IDK LET’S ASK ARYA >_> (yes & no)Does it ever get boring? Pft. NeverWhere is the strangest place they’d have sex? The kitchen?

Family: 

Do your muses plan on having children/or have children? Not at the momentIf so, how many children do your muses want/have? Theo would like 2; 1 boy 1 girlWho is the favorite parent? Probably Arya - I def feel like she would be the loosy goosy parent who is super fun and wants the kids to just live their life and Theo is just like STAY IN SCHOOL, FOLLOW THE RULES, AAAGH.Who is the authoritative parent? TheoWho is more likely to allow the children to have a day off school? AryaWho lets the children indulge in sweets and junk food when the other isn’t around? I feel like Arya brings them candy & lets them have sweets at home but Theo takes them for ice creamWho turns up to extra curricular activities to support their children? Both of them!Who goes to parent teacher interviews? BothWho changes the diapers? BothWho gets up in the middle of the night to feed the baby? Both. I feel like Arya gets woken up more but Theo offers to do it more so she can sleepWho spends the most time with the children? Both, but most likely Arya because of Theo’s jobWho packs their lunch boxes? TheoWho gives their children ‘the talk’? Oh dear god... ??? Probably one for each kidWho cleans up after the kids? BothWho worries the most? Theo. Is that even a question? lolWho are the children more likely to learn their first swear word from? Hmmm I think inadvertently Theo because he would fall asleep watching TV with them and something ‘adult’ would come on...

Affection:

Who likes to cuddle? BothWho is the little spoon? AryaWho gets naughty in the most inappropriate of places? AryaWho struggles to keep their hands to themself? BothHow long can they cuddle until one becomes uncomfortable? ForeverWho gives the most kisses? Theo (secretly kissing her while she’s asleep)What is their favourite non-sexual activity? Theo really likes to sleep because he can never get enough of it xD which includes cuddling...but probably just spending time together in generalWhere is their favourite place to cuddle? Bed? xDWho is more likely to playfully grope the other? Either one? Unless one is feeling naughtier than the other on that momentHow often do they get time to themselves? Most of the time they’re not at work

Sleeping:

Who snores? TheoIf both do, who snores the loudest? TheoDo they share a bed or sleep separately? Both, sharing mostly these days ;)If they sleep together, do they cozy up together or lay far apart? Snuggling all night long~Who talks in their sleep? AryaWhat do they wear to bed? Theo usually just wears boxers & maybe a shirt, Arya wears nothing or one of his shirts because she’s terrible and steals his clothesAre either of your muses insomniacs? NoCan sleeping pills be found by the bedside? NoDo they wrap their limbs around each other or just lay side by side? Entangled AFWho wakes up with bed hair? Arya cause short hair doesn’t get too wild & Theo sleeps like a damn rock in like one position all nightWho wakes up first? Depends, but probably TheoWho prepares breakfast in bed for the other? TheoWhat is their favourite sleeping position? bink or bink always cuddlingWho hogs the sheets? AryaDo they set an alarm each night? Not if they have the next day offCan a television be found in their bedroom? Not in Theo’s (idk about Arya’s?)Who has nightmares? Def Theo, probs bothWho has ridiculous dreams? Probably AryaWho sprawls out and takes up most of the bed? AryaWho makes the bed? No one, ain’t nobody got time for thatWhat time is bed time? Pft. Late af.Any routines/rituals before bed? Shower/etc.Who’s the grumpiest when they wake up? Arya

Work:

Who is the busiest? Hmm...probably Theo?Who rakes in the highest income? Probably Arya xDAre any of your muses unemployed? NopeWho takes the most sick days? Neither, maybe AryaWho is more likely to turn up late to work? Arya if Theo isn’t driving herWho sucks up to their boss? AryaWhat are their jobs? Theo is a detective & Arya is a dancer/bar tender/sexy mofoWho stresses the most? Theo. OBVIOUSLY.Do your muses enjoy or despise their careers/occupations? They like it even though both can be really shitty sometimesAre your muses financially stable? Yep.

Home:

Who does the washing? Both, though Arya has to do her delicates separately cause Theo has no idea about that shit & will probably destroy it allWho takes out the trash? Both, mainly TheoWho does the ironing? Neither? Who irons things anymore? Probs Theo cause he’s a weird lil guyWho does the cooking? Mostly TheoWho is more likely to burn the house down just trying? AryaWho is messier? Depends on what it is, Theo’s apartment is a mess of files & coffee cups but he’s pretty neat otherwise, I feel like Arya will just leave her UNDERWEAR WHEREVER SHE WANTSWho leaves the toilet roll empty? NeitherWho leaves their dirty clothes on the floor? >_> ARYAWho forgets to flush the toilet? No oneWho is the prankster around the house? Arya if I had to pickWho loses the car keys when it comes time to go somewhere? NeitherWho mows the lawn? There is no lawn, but Theo if there wasWho answers the telephone? No? One? Has? Landlines? Anymore?Who does the vacuuming? Theo’s place is hardwood, so neither? Arya if her place has carpet?Who does the groceries? Both, togetherWho takes the longest to shower? AryaWho spends the most time in the bathroom? Arya, unless Theo is shaving

Miscellaneous:

Is money a problem? Not reallyHow many cars do they own? OneDo they own their home or do they rent? RentDo they live near the coast or deep in the countryside? Neither? Coast? Idk?Do they live in the city or in the country?  CityDo they enjoy their surroundings? Yes (even though Theo hates EVERYWHERE because crime)What’s their song? *sweats* Your Song maybe?What do they do when they’re away from each other? Arya texts Theo & bothers him at work with trivial things like puppies >_> Theo just watches TV, sleeps, and probably thinks about her Where did they first meet? In the hallway lolHow did they first meet? They were both in the hallway...xD rando neighbor conversation - initiated by Arya, obviWho spends the most money when out shopping? ...Arya...Who’s more likely to flash their assets? If this is talking about body parts most def AryaWho finds it amusing when the other trips over stuff? Probably Arya, Theo just worries that she hurt herselfAny mental issues? ???Who’s terrified of bugs? Probably Arya, if anyoneWho kills the spiders around the house? TheoTheir favourite place? Home. Bed. lolWho pays the bills? BothDo they have any fears for their future? Pff. Dear god. I don’t really know about Arya, but Theo thinks about death on the dailyWho’s more likely to surprise the other with a fancy dinner? TheoWho uses up all of the hot water? AryaWho’s the tallest? Theo by 2 inchesWho’s more likely to just randomly hop into the shower with the other? Either oneWho wanders around in their underwear? BothWho sings the loudest when singing along to the radio? AryaWhat do they tease each other about? Literally everythingWho is more likely to cringe at the other’s fashion sense at times? Neither, they’re both hot babes who can dress wellDo they have mutual friends? Not in the sense of before they got together?Who crushed first? ARYAAAAAAAAAAny alcohol or substance related problems? NoWho is more likely to stumble home, drunk, at 3am? Both of them :DWho swears the most? Both? Depends on the situation I guess

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wow it’s been awhile since i’ve written one of these. i just realized that i totally didn’t write one last year. anyway i dont even know where to begin. 2016 has been an interesting year to say the least. i was rereading some of my old posts and i said omg a lot. the days just seem to go by in a blur nowadays, so i will try to recap 2016 as best as i can. i dont have a word to encompass this year though.

went to seattle in january. tried some really expensive sushi..twice..holy crap. the quality was a1 but man the bill was something else. seattle was nice though. definitely had a san francisco vibe to it, except for when you go to the waterside and look back at all the construction. i guess we kinda ran out of things to do bc on the last day we went to chinatown and the area seemed really dinky. also gained a ton of weight in seattle though u_u

in february we tried 5a5 steakhouse. and let me tell u. it is the best beef i have ever had. it is also the most money i have ever spent on a single meal. oh my god. i dont know if i'll ever be back, but i would like to, some day.

thus far, the semester was pretty okay. let's see..i had government accounting with a moody professor who would throw tantrums whenever no one participated. i also had business law with this old guy who was really lively and fun. i had strategic management with a bryan cranston look alike. the class was really interesting though and i learned a lot and it got me started on reading the economist lmao im so old. i miss having so much free time that came with school. 40 hour work weeks are not the life (even if i barely do anything at work).

went to LA during spring break. and at a good time too bc it was still the soft opening of harry potter world so the lines were v manageable. butterbeer was dope. the entire hogsmeade village just felt so real. had sooo much good food in LA omg. got to see some friends as well. had some of the best steak frites ever.

i cant believe i particpated in asu's talent show this year. much has changed in asu since i joined. it makes me wonder if i was behaving that way when i first joined. it seems a lot more clique-y and high school and drama filled but hey maybe it was that way when i was active but i just never noticed. had many fun lunches with my grand little but man there is a lot of drama in asu and im just glad i wasnt in any of it. i kinda miss the old asu days of staying out late to eat or do nothing at all but also i dont miss it bc i get enough sleep and im a lot more productive without asu lmao. finally ended things with tram for good. maybe things turned out the way they did for the better. the entire friendship was such a roller coaster. im glad its over.

the end of the semester rolled around!!! and i graduated!!!! :') attended my sisters graduation which was pretty boring bc high school students have such a narrow view of life (not to say that college students are any better). attended my own graduation. felt really fortunate to have jessa and anthony there. this one kid in my graudating class gave a speech about accomplishments...and he revealed the wrestling belt he was wearing underneath his graduation gown...and then he made the grads stand up and chant thank yous to the friends and family sitting behind us. it was so embarrassing and extra omg.

shortly after graduation i was on a plane headed back to the motherland. and let me tell u. i hated most of it. it was super hot and humid and my sister and i shared about 100 mosquito bites between the both of us. also. i know i shouldnt but..vietnam is so dirty. i know its not their fault that theyre a developing country but man there are exactly zero sanitation standards and i dont even know why we were there bc the water had recently been polluted so none of the fish were edible and my mom didnt trust the food stands to have clean food either. i guess i made some new friends and visited some cool places but at what cost??? also i think my entire fam got sick bc we slept with the ac on but either way, the meds i took made me lose my sense of smell i think and i couldnt taste or smell anything for two weeks. the ac air also dried out my nose and gave me a skin infection (which i will discuss later). during our trip to danang a small ferry got flipped on the big river and a bunch of ppl died and the government tried to cover it up bc bad publicity etc. they played it off as if only a few ppl died rather than most of the ppl on the boat. our tour guide in danang was in the know tho so he told us everything and w o w that really could've been us on that river bc it was a boat the left the dock about half an hour after our boat left. crazy.

after the long and arduous journey abroad i finally made it back home...and then headed to hawaii. hawaii was dope af. 10/10 would recommend, would go back. battled the tides when we went kayaking and sadly the tides won and i lost my hat but also almost lost my flip flops if it weren't for some kind random strangers who swam out to get my flip flops. we stayed on oahu and maui. hiked up a v steep mountain in oahu. lost my hat from kayaking. got caught in the rain when we went looking for a beach on the first day. had some of the best shaved ice ever. attended my first luau. fell asleep during the first part of a fire dancing show (bc the fire hadnt started yet). essentially pulled an all nighter to try oahu's famous bakery that opened at 3am. flew to maui but due to poor planning we arrived 4 hours earlier than check in lmao. the house we had in maui was so beautiful though omg. it was ocean side so we could hear the waves every night and it just felt so peaceful and tranquil to sit on the balcony in the mornings, just staring out at sea. in maui we went snorkeling. the last time i went snorkeling was like...10+ years ago...in cancun...and the water was freezing...and i also thought i was lost in the middle of the ocean on our way to the snorkeling location... but anyway! the snorkeling this time was so cool omg they had prescription swimming goggles so i could see EVERYTHING. they also provided lunch which was dope. it started raining on our way back to shore though lmao. the next day we drove all the way up the volcano in maui...to find that the top was foggy af and we couldnt see anything. the road up was pretty nasty bc super windy and 10000 ft elevation. it got really foggy after like 6000ft so we basically drove in all fog until the top which was still foggy but also like 20 degrees colder than the rest of maui. maui is super rural omg. we tried to find a place to eat after our trek but there were barely any food places in sight. we picked a random spot in the middle of nowhere and then decided to take the road to hana (which is on the opposite side of where we were staying, and was about 3 hrs away. and boy did we mess up. we took the alternate road there and it was scarier than going up the volcano bc 1) windy 2) small ass roads which were unpaved at certain points and 3) cliff hugging roads..i cant believe i made the drive there and back it was so terrifying omg. not sure if i would go back. at one point there was a big ass cow in the middle of the road. once we got to hana though, the hike was really nice despite the humidity. almost died crossing the river at the end to see the waterfall. all the rocks had big ants on them!!! how was i supposed to cross the river!!! we missed out on the wading pools though but we were so starving by that time. made the 3 hr drive back and everyone was dead. spent the last day on maui not doing much bc rainy and we were all so dead.

about two weeks after i got back from hawaii was training week in sac for my first big girl job. ngl but i felt super homesick that first night. idk why since i would be home by the end of the week anyway. probably just overwhelmed by how fast everything was happening. graduation and now transitioning into a full time job. scary stuff. but i did make a really good friend in sac so it didnt turn out so bad!!! training was pretty fun bc our presenter was pretty engaging. except when we went over the boring stuff and i was v close to falling asleep. did get to catch up with some of my sac friends though which was nice. went to the state fair for the first time as well. it was..exactly as expected but hotter lmao. my family went to san diego at this time bc my sister was going to comic con but i couldnt make it :(

got back from training and started my first big girl job. im not sure what i expected but it was easy but also hard? my first engagement i was only with one other senior and she was super nice and pretty and really good at lettering. i dont feel like i learned much? i only really did the tasks given to me but i feel like half the time i wasnt even sure what i was doing. i also hated the commute all the way back from walnut creek. the going there wasnt so bad bc i got a ride out to oakland but man it would take forever to get home. :'( my second engagement was just me and a partner and i feel like she expected me to know everything...but i didnt know anything...so i mostly sat around a lot??? esp bc she wasnt on site every day so i had zero supervision. :/ towards the end of the second engagement i got an email from the city saying that they were accepting me into their accounting position and i was like oh shit. i ended up taking the job, which gave me a week in between quitting the first job and starting the second, which i used to go back to LA lmao bc i had a season ticket to universal. actually ate at the three broomsticks this time. it was defs filling and i thought it was a good bang for buck. attempted to go to the walking dead tour..chickened out..twice. i probs would've died in there tbh. also went to disneyland!!!! that was lit. their macone-roni and cheese was da bomb. saw world of color for the first time except it was the 50th anniversary edition so it wasnt so great. bumped into the couple that was in jbieb's love yourself video. tried some new food places in LA and saw some old friends, again.

started my second big girl job. all my coworkers are super nice except the big boss is kind of crazy and anal. but we deal with it. my supervisor is so nice :'( work isnt so bad bc i dont do much lmao. the hardest part sometimes is just staying awake if im being honest. getting paid to do nothing is the life tho.

spent my birthday weekend in monterey. we were supposed to go atv-ing but ended up going wine tasting but also not really bc we liked the first wine so much we got a bottle of that to share. it was really cold that weekend surprisingly so we stayed in and then went to this spa place on a whim and it was definitely an interesting experience.

went as a rice bag for halloween and i think that was probably my greatest costume to date. except we ended up going to a party full of white ppl...and i was like the only asian there gdi

tagged along w my sister when she went to sd. got to see many friends!!! went clubbing as well and that was lit. took michelle clubbing for her 21st birthday, also lit. squadsgiving and christmas were super fun. got some supplies for bullet journaling so guess thatll be my new years resolution. but also to take more photos bc i didnt buy that camera for nothing.

okay so in conclusion. i did a lot of stuff this year. it feels like it was mostly all highs. or maybe i just block out the lows but im pretty sure there were way more highs than lows. 2016 was a great year tbh. oh yeah i also passed two of four parts of my cpa exam!!! woot. in 2016, i learned a lot...of accounting lmao. plus i ran my first 5k!!!!! oh yeah and i joined a gym and now im getting swole af. im not sure what my reflections are. i guess, if i were to compare 2k16 kim to 2k14 kim i've for sure come a long ways. i wasnt afraid to try new challenges and conquer them. i stepped out of my comfort zone multiple times, sometimes with the help of alcohol. i got my shit together and really focused in school (which got me a 4.0 during my last year of college). i also got my shit together and studied my ass off for the cpa (which is still ongoing i crey). i really wanna say this was probably one of my best years with everything i was able to do and everything i achieved. so here's to you, 2016, and may 2017 be even better!!!

Dear Anni ♡ ♡ ♡

I know that you told me to procrastinate on writing this and preparing your gift because you’re not done yet or something? But it’s going to take like maybe more than two weeks to arrive and I want you to get this soon! Ah, you must be surprised that I have this url, right? Well, apparently it wasn’t even taken! Now I have both celepuff and celepuffs. nani2k17 and nani2017 are still taken, though :(( Anyway, how are you doing these days? I know you’ve been busy and so have I (well, more like I’ve been lazy and sleeping and binge-watching ccs), so we didn’t get to talk a lot. I do miss you though!!! I hope you’re doing okay even when we don’t get to talk. Please take care of yourself and stay warm. I know it’s cold there and I wish I could give you something warm to wear but boi it’s gon cost a lot. There are a lot of things I’d give you but well... :< I wish that you still liked the gifts I sent you!

Honestly, I can’t even remember how we met? With some people, there were ones that I just went to them and said hi because they reblogged my stuff saying they liked it, or they’ve sent me asks, or they did the tag I tagged them in, and few actually came to me. You said that you came and talked to me first so I want to thank you for that!! I’m so glad that you did that bcs if not we wouldnt be here now. And I really don’t regret meeting you at all. I like that we’re friends. You always make me so happy, listening to me babble abt useless things, and greeting me with a smile every time you’re around!! Just!!! I’m so happy. I can only hope that I make you happy as well, even a bit. If we had the same religion and I was a boi I’d prob date you 12/10 yes

There are a lot of things that I want to say but now that I’m writing this, I can’t really think of anything. It’s alw like this. SikES. You know, let’s do our best to go through 2017 with happiness!! I wish that good things will happen to you this year, and that you’d get more rest soon (you really need some ;;; don’t overwork, okay?) I’ll try my best to avoid drama and become hardworking at writing fics so you do your best too~ And maybe I’ll get around to write that papa’s cooking au fic so you can actually draw them soon! But usually in that show it’s families so like a kid would be there as well. I don’t think I’ll make it est.rel so maybe I might or might not put a kid in there! 

Anni, I want you to remember that I’ll always be here for you if you need me. If you’re going about your day and you’re down, thinking nobody’s there for you, I’m here! In your kokoro (v romantic). And if we happen to not talk for like weeks, months, or even years, if you see me around, you definitely can come and talk to me anytime. We’d still be friends. I can’t promise anything but rn I care for you and I’d prob still care in a few years. I know it’s nani2k17 but honestly it’s naniforever tbh. *sakura’s voice* I want to be friends with you for a long long time! ♡ ♡ I think that you’re kind, sweet, hardworking and v cute!! Both irl and the internet. Ik you might not believe me but it’s true :~) 

I feel like this letter is so lame, so I’m sorry. Ah! Speaking of apologies, I’m sorry if I ever hurt your feelings. I know I reply late a lot but you know how lazy I am. And sometimes I just forget or I’m sleeping. Also I forgot to say thank you for all the arts you drew for me. Like I said before, the first time you drew for me, I didn’t expect it at all so I really loved it and I felt touched. Still do. I’ll treasure them a lot so thank you so much! I love your art. You’ve done so much for me and I hope that I can maybe write oneshots or draw for you more soon. From stalking your blog, it seems that you like fluff? So maybe I should write a fluffy oneshot ;_) Who knows???

When will I end this, you wonder... I don’t know either. But I don’t feel like shutting up even though I’m probably talking about the same things over and over again. Anni anni anni anni anniiii I hope that one day, we can meet each other. Whether you’ll come here or I’ll go there (miraculously. when’d that happen? it’s like-- impossible). I might be awkward but I think that it’d really be nice to hang out together and maybe have that breakfast date. or a late night snack date! Though going there seems more enticing since I like cold weathers and I’d like to play in the snow with you. Finally seeing and touching snow seems so nice. Maybe we can build a celepuff or jigglypuff out of snow instead of the typical snowman? But yes, we’ll make a snowman as well. Oh, and I’ll take you out to eat shaved ice with me if we meet! I think that’s so much better than eating alone sadly #me.

There are probably more things I want to say that I forgot abt but I’ll add more later when I remember, or I’ll write another letter for you in the future! For now, don’t forget to drink water, eat well, and actually get some rest. I know you have a lot of assignments and you have to study, but maybe it’d do you good to be lazy like me sometimes. You need some sleep. Chrome told me you didn’t sleep well before. So take care of yourself!! ♡ I’ll go now. I hope that this letter is okay? Thank you so much for everything, Anni! Ily. 

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(P/S: this is probably our official blog ok!! So give me your email soon? So I can invite you here and we can both post things on this blog.)

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