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prince-liest · 4 days

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First off; I LOVE 666!!! 'Multi-series hard kink/edge play pwps (though I'm with you on the 'without plot' being a total misnomer) that are actually in depth psychoanalysis of characters and complicated relationships' is one of my favorite parts of any fandom ( I'm being specific with that because no really for years in a lot of fandoms there's been that one ((or 2)) series that like. Will stick with me forever and make me think about sex/intimacy/myself differently. And your fic is 100% that for HH). I have a lot of squeeing about a lot of it that I hope to be able to coherently comment about at some point but for now!!!!

I was wondering if there was specific purpose behind where certain scenes take place? Like if they're at 'Vox's place' or 'Alastor's place'? because I thought there was a pattern of when Vox is (or ends up) subbing it's at his place (where he would feel safer and therefore more comfortable being vulnerable maybe) and vice versa with when they're at the hotel. But looking back at it to write this maybe I'm making that up? Because they just mostly do take place at somewhere of Vox's? Because I guess Alastor did end up 'going home' at the end a lot. In which case is there specific reasoning behind them not being at Alastor's place as often? (Does he just have less privacy at the hotel lol?) Idk I thought I was getting something, especially with that 'we're at the heart of your territory' line in part 8??? The more I type into this rambly chatty ask the more I think I was just overthinking. But it stood out to me anyway. ANYWAYS. *Finally pauses to breathe*

I really appreciate your series and I love your interpretation of these two weirdos relationship!!! Every snippet and every update I see drives me crazy!!! Thank you so so much for all your work!

Ahaha, I'm so glad to have written that fic for you in this fandom! Someone left a tag on one of the art posts for 666 recently that said "can't wait to see what emotional revelation unsafe kink will lead to this time" and it's. Pretty on point for the series, ehehe. With the likes of Alastor and Vox, it's really hard to dive into any form of intimacy without, like, emotional repurcussions, and that's my favorite thing to write! Thank you so much!

As for your question: To be perfectly honest, there's no specific pattern behind which location I choose for a fic as far as their roles are concerned! They mostly take place preferentially at Vee Tower because Alastor doesn't want to invite all the fuss and bother of Vox's...everything...to the hotel until much later in their reacquaintence. It's much easier to decide that he's done with whatever's going on and to dip out of Vee Tower than it is to have to remove Vox from the hotel (or, well, at least in theory: he portals Vox back into his own bed pretty easily after their night of drinking, haha).

Alastor inviting Vox over for drinks is a sign that he's actually, like, opening up a bit in certain ways by actually inviting him into his living space. Previously they'd mostly only been at the hotel transitionally, and during the second time they slept together, which is also the first time Alastor actually slept with Vox for reasons other than "for the meme", and was looking for a more comfortable, controlled environment to try this new thing in. (And also gave fewer shits about kicking Vox the fuck out without a second thought.)

In a way, the locations follow the general pattern of Alastor's emotional evolution throughtout the series: he's fine with it being at his place at first because he feels more secure and doesn't give a shit about Vox; then he transitions to being more careful and shutting Vox out of his personal space; and now he's slowly gotten to the point where he's comfortable inviting Vox in on occasion.

Alastor's opinion tends to matter more between the two of them as far as location is concerned, so it's mostly down to that, plus occasionally me thinking, "Hm, this episode would be cool to do in blue shark tank mood lighting," hahaha.

#ask #personal #callmeicarus #666 live on air #my writing #hazbin hotel #t #long post

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rollercoasterwords · 9 months

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Hi! I found your blog through the female rage substack article that you posted and I’m curious about a couple things (so I hope the tone of this ask will read as genuine/non-confrontational etc).

I really liked the article and the anti-gender essentialist content, so I looked through the others and eventually found your jegulus article (which I read and also liked) but I was sort of surprised to see that you are a part of the hp/marauders fandom. For me personally, everything related to that franchise has just been tainted since the whole jkr terf debacle really took off. I was big on hp when I was younger and wolfstar is a ship/dynamic that I enjoyed back then, so I’d probably like your stuff if I were to read it. But I decided some time ago to give any and all hp content the chop, because to me it didn’t feel right to engage with it anymore. So I was just wondering how you feel in that regard, if you don’t mind sharing. I don’t have anyone in my internet content circle that still actively posts about hp and if irl friends still enjoy it then it’s not something we talk about, so I’d just like to know how you juggle the ‘two sides’ in that sense of your trans-positive/anti-essentialist beliefs and fandom content that’s still so intrinsically connected to jkr and her politics. (Also, sorry if you’ve answered a question like this before. I scrolled through your blog a bit, but if yes then not far enough.)

Anyway, hope you’re well and I’ll probably keep an eye out for any future essays on your substack even if I don’t follow you on here. cheers! (and thanks for the “playing the whore” book rec, I’ll be looking into that. a rec from my end would be paul b. preciado's "can the monster speak". it's the written version of a speech he tried to give at a Freudian psychoanalysis conference about the position trans people occupy in psychoanalysis before being booed off stage. it was short and pretty intriguing, in case you're interested/haven't heard of it yet.)

hi! happy 2 hear u enjoyed the female rage essay--i wasn't expecting it to spread as much as it did + had to turn off reblogs for my own peace of mind 2 keep terfs away from my blog, but it's nice to know there are still people getting something out of it. also appreciate the book rec--that definitely sounds up my alley + i'm excited to check it out!

and i'll do my best to answer your question about hp, but i'm gonna put it under a cut because i know this is a contentious topic + i have a feeling my answer's gonna get long--so if anyone doesn't want 2 read abt my conflicting hp-fandom thoughts, just scroll away please xx

so, quite honestly, i'm in agreement with you that the entire franchise is tainted by jkr. the truth is that it was never really my intention to join the fandom--i read a single fic because it went viral on tiktok, then decided to rewrite the fic from another character's pov just for fun. at that point, i hadn't read any other hp fic and had never been involved in any kind of online fandom space, and although i'd read the hp books + watched the movies growing up i hadn't touched them in years + was so far removed from the franchise that i vaguely remembered hearing jkr had said some terfy stuff, but wasn't aware of the extent to which her politics were like. actively and significantly causing real-life harm.

anyway, i'd done a rewrite for fun of another story i liked and had posted it on ao3, and that had received a handful of people commenting + talking about the story with me as i wrote but had remained pretty self-contained + small. i was expecting the same sort of thing with the hp fic i rewrote, but instead someone posted about it on tiktok and it went viral, and then suddenly there were thousands of people reading every ch update and hundreds of comments. like i said, i had never been involved in an online fandom space before, so i sort of awkwardly stumbled into it and tried to figure out what i was doing as i finished up writing the fic. this was at a point in my life where i'd recently moved to a different country and had to go back in the closet after being publicly out for years, and this online fandom space became my only queer community and a bit of a lifeline in that way. i started making actual friends and talking to people + getting more deeply involved in the community aspect of things.

at the same time, i started actually educating myself on jkr + her politics + her impact, and the more i learned the more uncomfortable i became with being part of anything hp-related. now, i've been writing hp fic for almost two years and 'active' in the fandom for ~one and a half, and despite being grateful for the friends i've made and treasuring the space i've been able to cultivate, i've become increasingly disenchanted with 'the fandom' as a whole and have increasingly found it to be a hostile space, so i've sort of taken a step back from broader engagement and more + more have limited my interaction to just my mutuals here on tumblr. unfortunately, i think many of the 'bad parts' of this fandom are somewhat built-in because of the source material; there are a lot of people who agree with jkr's politics to varying extents and that can make it kind of a miserable place to be sometimes. i know many people insist that hp can be completely removed from jkr, but i don't think that's the case, and i've talked on my blog before about the fact that her politics are built into the very foundations of the text, so i think it's necessary to acknowledge her influence if we want to actually engage with hp at all in a way that isn't just perpetuating her politics.

all that being said, the point i'm at currently is that i'm not really sure that this fandom is a space i want to be a part of forever. again--i understand how it can be lifeline for some people and a queer community they might not have elsewhere, because that's been the case for me. but for me personally, as much as i value my own carved-out space, it doesn't completely outweigh the negatives that i have found myself coming into contact with more and more in this fandom. writing hp fic is also something that i keep strictly separate from 'real life,' contained solely in this online space, because i know that any engagement with hp is a red flag for many, many trans people and i don't want to bring it outside of this space. within this online space, i don't keep it a secret that i write hp fic; it's right at the top of my blog so that anyone who wants to can easily block and unfollow me. i only post my fics on ao3, where they are clearly tagged as harry potter fanfiction, and i only post about hp fic + fandom stuff on this blog, which was specifically created for that purpose. i've requested that people no longer post about my hp fics on platforms like tiktok where the algorithm could send it out onto anyone's fyp, and that request is also in my pinned faq. keeping my hp fic as contained as possible to only people who are already engaging with hp fic is one way that i try to mitigate any harm that might be caused by my fics contributing to hp's ongoing popularity.

the other ways i try to mitigate potential harm are by actively discouraging people from giving any financial support to hp + jkr and by being very vocal about my politics on this page, so that anyone who is following me will be getting pro-trans and anti-gender essentialism politics along with any hp engagement. i also don't engage with hp uncritically; i am specifically critical of the shitty politics in the books both in my posts on this blog and my fics themselves. i don't make it a secret that i think the books are politically rotten all the way down through to the foundations.

none of this is to say that there's, like...a Right Way to engage with this content or a set of rules that, if followed, Absolve All Shittiness. this is just an explanation of the personal evaluations i've had to weigh when it comes to deciding how i'm going to interact with content that is fundamentally opposed to my own politics. and again, i don't blame people who think that any amount of engagement is morally untenable and completely block it out. this is a growing source of cognitive dissonance in my own life, and i'm increasingly considering whether/for how much longer i want to continue to write fic + be involved in hp fandom. but for the time being, i'm still here + still writing fic, and i guess my feeling is that any harm that fic causes is a drop in the bucket, and even if i were to stop writing it wouldn't necessarily have a huge impact either way. i'm just some random guy online like everyone else; even though i talk about politics, that doesn't mean that i'm asking to be held up as some sort of moral standard, nor do i think anyone should be expected to be 100% politically perfect in every action they take--like, for me, writing hp fic kind of falls into the same category as like...eating mcdonalds even though i think factory farming is fucked, or buying + wearing makeup sometimes even though i think the beauty industry is fundamentally corrupt, or paying to see the new guardians of the galaxy movie in theaters even though i think marvel movies are us military propaganda. i don't think "no ethical consumption under capitalism" is an excuse to completely abandon any attempt to mitigate the harm our actions might cause, but it does matter to me the way in which someone is engaging with a fundamentally broken/corrupt piece of media beyond simply whether or not they're engaging at all. at the end of the day, it's up to everyone on their own to evaluate where they draw the line on hp, and i am not looking to make that judgment for anybody else considering that my own thoughts + feeling about it are still changing.

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bonecuisine · 2 days

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Coughs pinned post/intro?

Hi! My name is Ziggy, people also call me Z or Zig (along with a bunch of other nicknames) I'm fine with either! For those who are wondering I go by they/she :)

. . .

I'm an artist, somewhat, and I tend to draw charaters/fandoms om fixated on or interested in.

Along with art, I do rambles/rants on specific things of the stories. Hell, sometimes I wanna get a psychoanalysis on the characters I'm fixated on..

- Other stuff -

• I don't have a specific dni list? Mainly the basic stuff. no interacting whatsoever if you're racist/homophoic/transphobic/ableist/antisemitic/zoinist/etc.

• I don't really care what age you are - I physically cannot stop you from interacting with my content. As long as you aren't creepy or weird, you are chill with me!

^ Add on to this, This is not an NFSW account, nor do I post any NFSW content whatsoever. I am underage, and in general, I have no personal interest in that content. Nothing against anyone who is or does post it to clarify.

• I have points where I get on a post rampage, post regularly, or go silent for a few months or days sometimes. It just happens, and we all have our own personal lives.

- Socials + Tags! -

Charlie tag!

^ One of the science teachers at my highschool has a bearded dragon named Charlie, I'm one of her best friends, and I post about her often ^

Art tag! (Old art warning ahead..)

My stupid rants/rambles tag! (idk who would wanna see this?)

Insta (I'm somewhat alive there-)

Tiktok (Kinda active?..)

X/Twt (I barely post art here. Wanna see me post random stuff? Go ahead.)

. . .

That's mainly it! Post may be updated in the future.

#intro post #pinned post #zigs doobles #zig rambles

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hilarychuff · 5 months

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20 questions for fic writers

tagged by @2btheanswertothequestion. ty for thinking of me!

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

rn i have 23 but i have number 24 going up soon 😈

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

202,248

3. What fandoms do you write for?

rn i'm in my chrissy cunningham phase (stranger things) but i'm still in my overarching sansa stark phase (asoiaf). i have been known to do a rewatch and dip back into my jemma simmons phase (agents of shield). and i'll always sort of be in my lily evans phase (marauders).

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

i carry it in mine (asoiaf, jon/sansa canonish soulmate au)

all the best people see you (all the best people know) (stranger things, chrissy/robin s4 au)

i remember (i remember) (asoiaf, jon/sansa canon drabble)

in any world (in any way) (asoiaf, sansa-centric au graphics collection)

the royal records (asoiaf, jon princess diaries au)

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

usually!! i really like getting comments and i guess i have assumed that having someone respond incentivizes them so i always want to incentivize comments!! i think it is i polite to say thank you also. and i mean i love to talk about my fic so i'm always like "oh y'all tryna chat????" but usually nobody is trying to chat back ahhahaha. sometimes i hide from comments if i'm feeling guilty about not updating something but i always appreciate comments and they're usually p motivating to me

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

hmmm. most of my fics are like alternate media-based au concepts or lil oneshots or stories that are yet to have endings, so hard to say exactly which is angstiest.

i think my angstiest story is a pre-hydra reveal agents of shield one i did as a secret santa for someone where fitz was dead(?!!?!?) and grant ward showed up to bring jemma simmons back to the team and that was yeaaaaars ago but whenever i think of it i'm always like ok wow i hope that is what that person wanted. what bold choices to make in a gift for a stranger!!

other than thaaat i do think of i carry it in mine as a fairly angsty fic but it's intended to have a not so angsty ending so

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

well please trust that any princess diaries or miss congeniality au is going to end up with the main ship getting together, presumably happily for the rest of their lives!! desert hearts (aka all the best people see you all the best people know) is heading towards a happy ending. howl (sansa-centric scream au) i think will have roughly as happy an ending as any horror movie final girl can hope for.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

ummmm not really. i definitely have but the only time it felt like anything other than a one-off was when i essentially started tumblr beef by wandering into the wrong tag. and that was not fun and people were hating on their own blogs for a min BUT it died down and nobody really went out of their way to bother me directly about it after that, so it was not ideal but it was fine. tagging etiquette is tricky!!

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

hmmmmmmmm historically no. but i have outlined smut!! and i'm thinking about actually writing some maybe even soon!! it's interesting bc i've discussed smut with friends and edited for them and used to roleplay and write smut scenes and that all felt fine but i haven't yet wrapped my head around the idea of being like "this is my little smut scene i made up all by myself and now i'm broadcasting it to the masses." feels like i'm opening myself up to psychoanalysis!! but also maybe once i actually write the smut scene i'll be like oh. no biggie. ok post. so we'll see hahahahah

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

not crossovers in the traditional sense but crossovers in the sense that i pick up my little blorbos and cast them in other tv shows/movies/etc, yes, constantly.

i mentioned howl above but i love that one, my sansa-centric scream au. i love jon snow mia thermopolis princess diaries hahahahah. i think it's cute and funny. i love using robin and chrissy from stranger things to make miss congeniality gay. the fic i'm posting in a few days for the stranger things rare pair big bang is also about robin and chrissy in a lil reality tv verse, so that one is really fun and silly and sweet too i think.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

i don't think so! the only time anything like this has happened to me was like a tumblr rp blog misunderstanding a long time ago.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

no but that would be cool!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

no but i started writing mainly through role playing! so that was co-writing just in a different sense, and i miss that. it's also just really fun to talk about ideas and stuff with friends and then not always actually have to write them. i do play around with concepts a lot with @mistysharks and @beholdthemem for chrissy and the stranger things teen crew, and @cellsshapedlikestars and i also help each other brainstorm sansa and jon related asoiaf stuff which i always super appreciate

14. What’s your all time favorite ship?

i'm more of a favorite ship per fandom kind of gal than a favorite ship over all, but i'm also a multishipper in that i can kind of get into my main blorbos with anyone. i'm super still in my chrissy phase rn and i love writing her with robin, but also in a lil steve/chrissy/eddie ot3. that said i feel like i mainly read hellcheer!!

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

i hope it doesn't surprise anyone to hear that i DO have designs to finish i carry it in mine!! and howl. and desert hearts. like i have specific enough endings in mind that i am working towards for all of those.

the wip that i wish i could finish but know i never will is my marauders mediator series au based on the meg cabot books where lily can talk to ghosts and james is a ghost. i started writing it like back in 2015!! and then even started rewriting it in 2020. and i still love it. but it would be a big project to take on and one that would take a lot more work to figure out, let alone just write, and i don't really see it happening. that said i will always love it!!!

i also started a resurrection au marauders story where lily etc all start coming back to life when harry is like 24 so seven years after the end of the books, and i always thought the like emotional drama in that was so slay too. but the resurrection show itself never really had good answers for the paranormal plot/how it would play out and so i didn't have anything to crib off of lmao. and i never really invested much thought into figuring it out myself iirc. so i never really knew like plotwise where i wanted it to go so much as i was just like "how would the characters react if this happened" but i did like that thought exercise. maybe i would've written more if it would've felt like that would be satisfying to read for other people without actual like. plot.

16. What are your writing strengths?

ummm i'm really interested in like. character profiles. so i think i tend to gravitate towards that sort of story personally. a character figuring themselves/what they want out.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

low key i just like almost never write physical description stuff into my stories?? like it's all fanfiction so i'm like ok first of all you already know what everybody looks like. it takes a lot more active effort for me to be like. does the reader need to know what the character looks like right now?? does the reader need to have a clear vision of where the characters are?? what the room looks like?? i could probably afford to do that more but i find that i tend to skip it a lot

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

hmmm i really only have one fic where that might apply i think. i'd probs try to do it minimally bc i wouldn't want to do a bad job but if it's just one line i could see myself just, you know, doing google translate if i don't know a speaker i can run it by

19. First fandom you wrote for?

harry potter!! i found my way to marauders era pretty quick.

20. Favorite fic you’ve written?

i have a lot of love and tenderness in my heart for desert hearts and i carry it in mine. so far those are like my heart-squeezey fics imo. but i also love howl!!! a combination of some of my favorite interests and stories. i feel like these are my main three wips too so i gotta just keep tinkering away until a new chapter falls out. hopefully sooner than later for desert hearts and i carry it in mine, which i have in fact been reorganizing a lil lately!!

anyway!!

ty again for the tag @2btheanswertothequestion!! if you want to do this: @cellsshapedlikestars @mistysharks @beholdthemem @chdarling

#my writing #my fics #tag meme

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rosalyn51 · 1 year

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GOODE News!

𝒮𝑜𝑜𝑜𝑜𝑜𝑜 𝒽𝒶𝓅𝓅𝓎 for our Goodey xxx

Anthony Hopkins, Matthew GoodE Photo: Getty/Mike Marsland/WireImage

DEADLINE

Sony Pictures Classics Pre-Buys Matt Brown Film ‘Freud’s Last Session’ Starring Anthony Hopkins As Founder Of Psychoanalysis

by Matt Grobar Nov 2, 2022

Sony Pictures Classics has pre-bought rights to the drama Freud’s Last Session, starring Oscar winner Anthony Hopkins (Armageddon Time) and Emmy nominee Matthew GoodE (The Crown), from Westend Films.

SPC will distribute the pic directed by Matt Brown (The Man Who Knew Infinity) in North America, the Middle East, India, Eastern Europe (excluding Russia) and Turkey, and on airlines worldwide. The deal follows SPC’s successful partnership with Hopkins as the distributor of his 2021 drama The Father, for which he picked up his second Academy Award, and with Westend on films including Ralph Fiennes’ The Invisible Woman and Joseph Cedar’s Footnote.

Based on the play of the same name by Mark St. Germain (The God Committee), Freud’s Last Session picks up with Sigmund Freud (Hopkins) on the eve of the Second World War and the end of his life, as he invites the iconic author C.S. Lewis (GoodE) for a debate over the existence of God. It explores Freud’s unique relationship with his lesbian daughter Anna, as well as Lewis’ unconventional romance with his best friend’s mother.

St. Germain adapted the screenplay. Alan Greisman (The Bucket List), Rick Nicita (Hacksaw Ridge), Meg Thomson (Siren) and Hannah Leader (Gosford Park) will produce, with production set to kick off in the UK in late January 2023.

“We are so excited to have Sony Pictures Classics on board our film,” said Brown. “They have a long history of supporting independent filmmakers’ visions and offering audiences dynamic stories told from a global perspective. I am thrilled to be working with them on FREUD’S LAST SESSION from such an early stage.”

“Another fabulous role for Anthony Hopkins as Freud in London during WW2 locking horns with C.S. Lewis (Matthew GoodE). The talented Matt Brown has surrounded himself with the best design team and cinematographer working today,” said Sony Pictures Classics in a statement. “FREUD’S LAST SESSION promises to be a major movie. It is also great to be back in business with our friends at Westend.”

“This very human story about two world-renowned ideological giants deserves to be brought to a wide audience,” added Westend Films’ Managing Director, Maya Amsellem. “We could not wish for a better partner than SPC to bring their passion and expertise to FREUD’S LAST SESSION.”

While negotiating the Freud’s Last Session deal with SPC, Westend Films made deals in Australia (Sharmill Films), Italy (Adler), Portugal (NOS), Israel (United King) and Greece (Spentzos).

- Deadline

🚨 According to TheWrap "Production is set to begin in the UK in late January 2023." This is different from what I’ve been reporting in previous posts. Glad to have a update.

#matthew goode #anthony hopkins #freud's last session #sigmund freud #c s lewis #brilliant actors #matthewgoode #henry talbot #downton abbey movie #the crown netflix #matthew clairmont #a discovery of witches #independent film #movie news #goode performance

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goodkwuestion · 2 years

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Hi, Kay! I saw the post you rebblogged about writers and how they made a living while writing for years and... It really got me thinking. How weird it is that some people just can't even see their privilege. So, I'm from Argentina. We got some public colleges here (people from other countries come to study here because of that). They are really GOOD, but the only public place that offered the Psychology career (I don't even know how to talk) was all psychoanalysis oriented. And I wanted an updated education. Anyway, so... My parents are paying a private college for me (you can do that in my country without dying paying for it, but it is a privilege). And people DON'T understand when I say that I don't have money. I do work, but that's barely enough for transport, food (I live far away so I'm always on the bus for hours a day) and necessities. So it's basically "hey I can't go out this weekend cause I don't have any money". I do know and I am very aware of my privilege cause I've been poor before. And because I know that I couldn't do everything I do without my parent's help. So... All this to say, I really appreciate when you put this types of themes in your stories too. I didn't want to talk about Gallavich but those are the stories I know you from. And I really appreciate that you explain Ian and Mickey's background all the time. People who had been poor manage money in a special way when they do have it. Financial stability Is a huge privilege and it's not taken for granted. And I adore that you take that into consideration. I just keep finding things I love about your art, thank you. And sorry for he whole long text

💗💗💗

#money matters #especially when you're used to not having it #meta #good question #asks #thank you bb

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m0nost4tic · 5 months

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hello, traveler!

do feel free to stop and stay awhile. i've no doubt your journey has been tiring . . .

◇ this blog is run by mono !!

. . . i use she/her and he/him pronouns, and ask that you refer to me by feminine and masculine terms. no neutral ones!

☆

i'll mainly be talking about octopath traveler ii, but you might also find posts about...

journey to the west,

lego monkie kid,

original characters,

character psychoanalysis,

goofing around,

anything i spontaneously get into (and get out of a week later)

don't be scared to leave asks and/or replies! i absolutely love discussing writing concepts and reading others' thoughts on them

◇ if you'd like to know more about me;

my favs are hikari ku, partitio yellowil, throné anguis, sun wukong, & mk

i study psychology! this can occasionally show in my writing

i'm generally okay with just about anything. if something is ever uncomfortable, i'll be sure to mention it

i have six cats. i can and will post pictures of them if anyone asks 🫶

you do not have to ask to take inspo from me. just please make sure to credit!

☆

i unfortunately don't have an ao3 account right this second - i'm awaiting an invite currently - but i'll update this with the account link the very second it's made!

## mutuals can ask for discord, where i'm most active

. . . it's time you go now, traveler; though i'm certain our paths will cross again someday.

safe travels!

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frenchly-anxious · 4 years

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Actual quotes from my psychoanalysis teacher

Some made me laugh hysterically (ah! hysterical? of course, I’m a woman), some made me so angry I might have physically hurt the guy if we weren’t doing the classes online (but I guess my anger actually come from a transfer of my relation with my father, or something)

Enjoy (or despair) with me:

“Children, they’re like feces”

“Rape, it’s the love of speed” then realizing he didn’t want to fully be responsible for that one “...according to the surrealists”

(after we asked if there was any scientific proof of all the sex related things he was telling us about:) “Well, there’s a study that showed that women during their ovulation got more tips from men at bars, because during ovulation, their hips tend to widen. Men would look more at their butt, and women would look more at their waist. It shows there’s still something related to an 'instinct', like animals. The larger the hips are, the better at giving birth and being a potential ‘mate’ she would be.”

My class, full of women: “Hm... Isn’t it actually because that’s what society teach us? Like, for men 'a woman is hot if her butt is nice to look at' [insert here all the magazines for men and pornography] and for women 'you’re supposed to have a slim waist to be attractive' [insert here all the magazines for women, all the clothes/fashion/TV industries]. But sure, go on telling us your interpretation of it is actually scientific or something.”

“Obsessional people who are miserly are also constipated. They keep their money just like they keep their... you see what I mean.”

“People who collect things, it’s kinda like they’re collect their feces” (talking about anal stage)

“A congressman once said in the middle of the Assemblée Nationale ‘we must harden the sex’ instead of ‘we must harden the (legal) text’. So I let you imagine what his problem in life was.”

“People who are excessively nice, it’s very often hiding a nastiness, a sadism”

“If you lack creativity, it’s because you’re repressing your sexual drives. But if you have creativity, it’s because you transform your sexual drives through arts”

“Freud was never interested in children - especially not his, except maybe Anna who took care of him” (me in the margin: ‘which to me, says a lot about the guy’)

“The ‘cures’ (apparently that’s what a psychoanalytic treatement is called) perfectly completed can be counted on the fingers of one hand, even for experienced psychoanalysts” (still in the margin: ‘so it’s basically bullshit or what?’)

“Parents who lost a child generally go over the top with everything they’re doing after: creating associations, becoming activists,...” (margin: ‘I mean yeah, fuck their grief and the good they’re trying to do with it’)

“The eucharist is cannibalism”

“Spanking has been prohibited in France, but you know, I’m personally not against it. Because a spanking erotize the child’s butt; there’s a part of pleasure with the pain. Same for the suppository.” [me gagging in the background]

“The clitoris is like a small penis for the woman”

“Even if women want equality between males and females, we still see there’s some differences, like there’s no female exhibitionist. Or at least not in the same way”

Me and my class on the messenger chat during the class: Did he just refute equality between men and women because women are not exhibitionist? This might be the first time this argument has been used, ever.

“Homosexuals are either in deny, or it’s perversion where they get sexual pleasure for acting that way”

“To make a couple last, it’s important to keep a part of mystery. Women are quite good at that.”

“I had a female patient telling me about her husband, ‘He doesn’t know how to take care of the children, he doesn’t know how to talk about his emotions,...’ Anyway, she was blaming him for being a man. Then she came back a few appointments later saying 'I know now why I was acting that way towards him, it’s because that’s what my mom was doing with my father’. So she realized she was simply imitating her mother’s behavior” (so as I was saying before, nooo it’s not possible that it’s because her husband is as much of an asshole as her father was)

#psychoanalysis #freud #I'm so conflicted about this class #I'm so angry all the time #but I'm also deeply amused by what he says sometimes #I'm actually disappointed we're doing those classes online because some of my classmates woulnd't have been that quiet #the debates would have been awesome #and quite outrageous #sorry the post refuse to put more spaces between each quote and I don't know how to change it since the update on computers

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fma blogs to follow?

Ooh I've actually been planning on making this post for a while too!

Art blogs that ID their own posts that you should follow

@morningsaidthemoon - does ids in alt text! I really love their pieces - they're kinda soft in like. color and lines? and tender if that makes sense. Multifandom, they tag fandoms.

@mildly-artsy - @mildly-nerdy's new art blog! also does them in alt text. Her lines are so clean and I love how people look in her style. Mostly FMA.

Other blogs that write IDs and/or look through the notes for IDs (that you should follow and reblog the IDed version of posts)

@liathgray - they're the author of Blackwell Springs, an extremely popular fic I have not read yet, and the A Hop, Skip, and a Jump series that I'm very much obsessed with. Multifandom, they tag fandoms.

@nerdywriiterchild - bro I love their xerxes fics so much 😔 Multifandom.

@xingeseprince - IDs almost everything. Good descriptions! Sideblog, all FMA.

@princess-of-purple-prose - the meme ID person! (They're one of the people who started a huge doc of ID templates for memes to save people spoons, which is cool.) Multifandom, tags fandoms, mostly not FMA.

Other art blogs I love

I wish I could tag like. every one of my art mutuals but alas I'd be making color of the sky 2.0 😔 So sorry if I didn't tag you, I'm kinda just scrolling through my following list and picking urls at random here, all of you guys are amazing!

@chewytran - their royai college au!! is so cute!! All their royai stuff is just. chef's kiss. Art sideblog, mostly FMA. Other fandoms are tagged.

@wawayu - their use of light and colors man!! Art sideblog, majority FMA. (Also. check their notes when rbing their art because I rb and ID like. everything they post lol)

@neorei - their homunculi art!! Wish I had art-critic-training (is that a thing) so I could properly express the emotions that their art invokes. but. ahh it's so melancholy and kinda abstract, the kind of art that you could find different meanings in. Sideblog, all FMA.

@fmamangacaps - Photoshop counts as art. Their cleaning up of manga panels and tagging system is a godsend.

@humming-fly - you probably already follow them but their team greed comics are just so funny!! I always have at least one of their pieces in my drafts that I'm procrastinating on IDing lol. Multifandom.

@pumi-envy - just. lots of art of Envy. Sometimes I'm looking through the Envy tag and the majority of it is me and this artist. I love that for us. Their style's super cute. All FMA. (again. check the notes on their art 'cause I reblog and ID everything they put on my dash)

One of those Royai writers whom posts from me and my positivity blog mutuals always seem to make it to

Don't ask me why this is a category, it's just funny to me when my positivity blog posts or posts from my positivity moots make it to Royai tumblr.

@firewoodfigs - Xingese squad!! Her prose is beautiful. So poetic and meaningful. And her poetry?? is gorgeous. Ownvoices Xingese Roy content 💚 Mostly FMA.

@lantur - wrote delicate. Go read it right now if you haven't (but also tw for parental abuse and older military officers taking advantage of mentally ill young women while they commit genocide together) Multifandom, fandoms are tagged.

@hanamuri / @royriza - literally the sweetest person and runs like 4 blogs which is iconic. Her psychoanalysis of FMA characters is super interesting. All FMA.

Other writers I love

I have a habit of reserving way too many books from the library meaning that I haven't gotten around to reading most fanfics yet, oops. That's on me.

@ta1k-less - I adore her writing style!! Fun fact, one of her atla fics was probably the first multichap fic I had finished in roughly five years. She's very funny. Love how she fleshes out Ishvalan culture. Also draws sometimes and has started IDing her own art. Mostly FMA, multifandoms, tags fandoms.

@edisacornball - boomer he knows Edward very well, if that makes sense. Like, reading his fics I can tell that he understands Edward as a character very well. His Edwin fics are great. Has been in the FMA fandom for 15 years or something, which is crazy to me. Multifandom, mostly FMA.

@calangkoh - metas count as writing. So not a fic writer, but their 03 metas are wonderful. Obvious spoilers for 03 if you haven't seen it yet. Sideblog, all FMA.

Well fuck, now I'm realizing that I haven't gotten around to reading any fics from the vast majority of the writers I follow. Y'all are such lovely people sorry I still need to read your fics!! I gotta update this list once I get my act together and clean up my AO3 marked for later list, lol.

#fullmetal alchemist #fmab #fma 03 #masterpost #ask #anon #aure speaks

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verifiedaccount · 4 years

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More movies (and a tv series) on youtube to keep you busy

List 1 / List 2

Here’s a third update of movies that you can watch in full on youtube since you’re stuck inside

Documentaries about movies:

Visions of Light: The Art of Cinematography (1992): Featuring interviews with more than two dozen major cinematographers and a ton of clips, this is a useful and enjoyable primer for anyone interested in learning what a DoP does

Vittorio Storaro: Writing With Light (1992): This is a shorter (40 minute) television doc focusing on one specific cinematographer, Vittorio Storaro, famed for his collaborations with Bertolucci and for shooting Hollywood movies like Apocalypse Now and Reds

The Epic That Never Was (1965): In 1937, Josef Von Sternberg started shooting an adaptation of I, Claudius starring Charles Laughton as Claudius. Dirk Boagarde hosts this lively documentary examining why the film was never completed, featuring the surviving footage from the 1937 shoot.

Hollywood: A Celebration of the American Silent Film (1980): Kevin Brownlow and David Gill’s 13-episode miniseries about the silent film era is considered the gold standard for documentaries about film history, but the impossibility of negotiating the rights to all the clips used at a reasonable price has kept it off of dvd or blu-ray. Luckily, that didn’t stop someone from putting it on youtube, although episode 12 has in fact been blocked due to a copyright claim.

Buster Keaton: A Hard Act To Follow (1987) Part 1 / Part 2 / Part 3: Another Kevin Brownlow and David Gill miniseries, this one, as you’ve probably guessed, covers the life and films of Buster Keaton over three episodes.

More movies:

Powell/Pressburger: Michael Powell and Emeric Pressburger, aka the Archers, were one of the greatest writer/director teams in film history (and a favorite of Scorsese, who seemingly made it his life’s mission to ensure that their films were restored and available), and three of their incredibly charming, magical movies are on youtube. Of the available ones, I Know Where I’m Going! is probably the best to start with.

I Know Where I’m Going! (1945): Dave Kehr on the film: “Michael Powell's 1945 film resists easy classification: it opens as a screwball comedy, grows into a mystical, Flaherty-like study of man against the elements, and concludes as a warm romance. Wendy Hiller, in one of the best roles the movies gave her, is a toughened, materialistic young woman on her way to meet her millionaire fiance in the Hebrides; Roger Livesey is the young man she meets when a storm blows up and prevents her crossing to the islands. Funny and stirring, in quite unpredictable ways, with the usual Powellian flair for drawing the universal out of the screamingly eccentric.”

A Canterbury Tale (1944): The Criterion jacket copy: “Michael Powell and Emeric Pressburger’s beloved classic A Canterbury Tale is a profoundly personal journey to Powell’s bucolic birthplace of Kent, England. Set amid the tumult of the Second World War, yet with a rhythm as delicate as a lullaby, the film follows three modern-day incarnations of Chaucer’s pilgrims—a melancholy “landgirl,” a plainspoken American GI, and a resourceful British sergeant—who are waylaid in the English countryside en route to the mythical town and forced to solve a bizarre village crime. Building to a majestic climax that ranks as one of the filmmaking duo’s finest achievements, the dazzling A Canterbury Tale has acquired a following of devotees passionate enough to qualify as pilgrims themselves.”

Gone To Earth (1950): Made under unhappy circumstances (David O. Selznick producing), this is a gorgeous technicolor romance starring Jennifer Jones as a nature loving young woman forced into a choice between two “civilized” men, with tragic results.

Straub/Huillet: If you’re looking for something easy and relaxing to watch during the quarantine, I’d recommend literally anything else other than the films of Jean-Marie Straub and Danièle Huillet. J. Hoberman on the couple: “Straub-Huillet, as they preferred to be called, are cinema’s conscience — an antidote to all the junk movies you’ve ever seen. Drawing on Kafka, Cézanne, Brecht, Schoenberg and Malraux, to name only some of their best-known sources, Straub-Huillet films are meant to raise ethical questions on subjects as varied as proper camera placement and the appropriate political approach to the subject.“We make our films so that audiences can walk out of them,” Mr. Straub once said, perhaps not altogether in jest.” Of the available ones, Class Relations, their adaptation of Kafka’s unfinished novel Amerika, seems to be agreed upon as the easiest place to start as it’s the closest to a straightforward narrative, although History Lessons has also been recommended as a relatively easy starting place by some people. Not Reconciled, which compresses an epic Heinrich Boll novel following three generations throughout multiple timelines into 52-minutes, is not recommended to start with. MUBI did a retrospective of their works and had essays commissioned for each one to help viewers out so I’ll link those with each film. Hit Closed Captions for subtitles.

Not Reconciled (1965): Here’s a 10-minute video essay by critic Richard Brody that will help you have a slightly easier time with Not Reconciled if you decide to give it a try. Here’s the MUBI essay

Othon (1970): In the 17th century Pierre Corneille wrote Othon, set in ancient Rome. Straub-Huillet’s adaptation is shot in the actual ruins of Roman palaces with modern buildings and cars visible in the background. The MUBI essay

History Lessons (1972): An adaptation of Bertolt Brecht’s The Business Affairs of Julius Caesar. From the MUBI essay: “In the film, an unnamed young man tours Rome and conducts interviews with toga-clad members of ancient Roman society on the subject of “C,” meaning of course Julius Caesar. It plays like Citizen Kane shorn of any of the flashbacks that bulk out that film: here, it is all exposition, reminisces, impressions. Interspersed through these sedentary discussions are a series of randomly protracted car rides through the city, all recorded in unbroken takes from the backseat of the young man’s Fiat 500.From this brief description alone, I’m sure you can see why structuralist-minded academics in the seventies had a field day.“

Fortini/Canti (1976): From the MUBI essay: “In Fortini/Canti, the Italian Communist writer Franco Fortini reads aloud from his Dogs of the Sinai (only recently translated into English for the first time), a memoir of his life as an Italian Jew and an extended reflection on the aftermath of the Third Arab–Israeli War of 1967 and its representation in the Italian media and by the political class. [...] Like all of Straub-Huillet’s movies, this astonishingly combative film follows an internal rhythm born out of the particulars of landscape, of speech, and of the physiognomies of its actors. It begins with an extended recording of a television newscast about Israel/Palestine (thus distancing the audience from the warped words and images on screen), a quotation from Fortini that connects like a punch in the jaw (“People don’t like having to change their minds. When they have to, they do so in secret. The certainty of having been tricked turns into cynicism. Gain for the cause of conservatism”), and then alternates between short jabs like these and more sustained verbal and visual attacks.”

Too Early/Too Late (1982): Serge Daney on the film: “No actors, not even characters. If there is an actor in TOO EARLY, TOO LATE, it’s the landscape. This actor has a text to recite: History, of which it is the living witness. The actor performs with a certain amount of talent: the cloud that passes, a breaking loose of birds, a break in the clouds; this is what the landscape’s performance consists of. This kind of performing is meteorological. One hasn’t seen anything like it for quite some time. Since the silent period, to be precise.” The MUBI essay

Class Relations (1984): The aforementioned adaptation of Kafka’s Amerika, often recommended as a place to start with Straub/Huillet. The MUBI essay

Hitchcock: Back to fun stuff, three Hitchcock classics.

The 39 Steps (1935): Dave Kehr: “As an artist, Alfred Hitchcock surpassed this early achievement many times in his career, but for sheer entertainment value it still stands in the forefront of his work.“

Shadow of a Doubt (1943): Kehr again: “Alfred Hitchcock’s first indisputable masterpiece. . . . Hitchcock’s discovery of darkness within the heart of small-town America remains one of his most harrowing films, a peek behind the facade of security that reveals loneliness, despair, and death. Thornton Wilder collaborated on the script; it’s Our Town turned inside out.“

Spellbound (1945): No one would argue it’s Hitchcock’s best and the psychoanalysis is very dated but with Gregory Peck, Ingrid Bergman, and Dali-designed dream sequences there’s still enjoyment to be had.

Ozu: One of Japan’s most beloved and revered filmmakers, he’s primarily known for his post-WWII family dramas, but his career stretched back to the silent era (although most of his silent films are lost). I Was Born But... is a good place to start but it’s not representative of the style he’s known for. Late Spring is where his later style fully emerges, and it’s a good place to start, so you might want to go in chronological order with these (Tokyo Story, widely considered one of the greatest films of all time, is also not a bad place to start).

I Was Born But... (1932): Jonathan Rosenbaum on the film: “One of Yasujiro Ozu's most sublime films, this late Japanese silent describes the tragicomic disillusionment of two middle-class boys who see their father demean himself by groveling in front of his employer; it starts off as a hilarious comedy and gradually becomes darker. Ozu's understanding of his characters and their social milieu is so profound and his visual style—which was much less austere and more obviously expressive during his silent period—so compelling that the film carries one along more dynamically than many of the director's sound classics. Though regarded in Japan mainly as a conservative director, Ozu was a trenchant social critic throughout his career, and the devastating understanding of social context that he shows here is full of radical implications.“

The Only Son (1936): Criterion’s jacket copy: “Yasujiro Ozu’s first talkie, the uncommonly poignant The Only Son is among the Japanese director’s greatest works. In its simple story about a good-natured mother who gives up everything to ensure her son’s education and future, Ozu touches on universal themes of sacrifice, family, love, and disappointment. Spanning many years, The Only Son is a family portrait in miniature, shot and edited with its maker’s customary exquisite control.”

Late Spring (1949): Ignatiy Vishnevetsky: “Each shot in Late Spring is striking on its own; the mature Ozu belongs to that rare category of filmmakers whose work can be recognized from a single frame. But together—with all their abrupt shifts in visual perspective and time—they become a mosaic, deeply poignant and ultimately mysterious in the way it envisions a relationship between two people trapped by how much they care for one another. There are domestic dramas, and then there’s this.“

Tokyo Story (1953): Dave Kehr: “The film that introduced Yasujiro Ozu, one of Japan's greatest filmmakers, to American audiences (1953). The camera remains stationary throughout this delicate study of conflicting generations in a modern Japanese family, save for one heartbreaking moment when Ozu tracks around a corner to discover the grandparents, alone and forgotten. A masterpiece, minimalist cinema at its finest and most complex.“

Early Spring (1956): Ozu on the film: “I wanted to portray the life of a white-collar man — his happiness over graduating and becoming a member of society. His hopes for the future when he got his job have gradually dissolved and he realizes that, even though he has worked for years, he has accomplished nothing worth talking about. By delineating his life over a period of time, I wanted to portray what you might call the pathos of the white-collar life...I tried to avoid anything that would be dramatic and to accumulate only casual scenes of everyday life in hopes that the audience would feel the sadness of that kind of life”

Equinox Flower (1958): Vincent Canby: “One of Ozu's least dark comedies, which is not to say that it's carefree, but, rather, that it's gentle and amused in the way that it acknowledges time's passage, the changing of values and the adjustments that must be made between generations.“

Late Autumn (1960): Peter Bradshaw: “Another gem from the Ozu canon, a masterpiece of tendernesss and serio-comic charm, as tonally ambiguous and morally complex as anything he ever made.“

And the tv series:

The Armando Iannucci Shows: You may know Armando Iannucci from his films, In The Loop and The Death of Stalin, or from some of his other television shows like The Thick of It or Veep, or from his involvement in all the Alan Partridge series with Steve Coogan. You probably missed The Armando Iannucci shows, his stream of consciousness sketch comedy that ran for one season back in 2001 (it didn’t help that it debuted in September of 2001), but it’s probably the most purely funny thing he’s ever done.

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Weekly Writing and Reading Update

I swear every dang year I remain convinced that I actually really love grey skies and rain and The Long Dark doesn’t affect my mood at all and then we get the first sunny day in weeks and it’s like oh. Oh, this is what it is to not be depressed. WHO F’ING KNEW. (I mean, I do love grey skies and rain but apparently not for, like, four weeks solid.)

Anyway, I actually walked in sunlight today and it was wild, and I feel rather better than I have in awhile. (Also Hell Week at work seems to be fully done so I can maybe not be crazy burnt out now.)

Writing

Yeah, not much, what with Hell Week and writer’s block and shiz. Maybe this week will be better?

I know my own heart: Femslash February 2021 Collection : updating every day, whooo.

A Duet for Making Love : A new, very porny, Bike Girls story.

What Inheritance Is: I finished the next chapter for this, but I’m not in love with it. I’ll work on editing this week, and then hopefully can post it soonish, and work more on chapter 3. This story is hard to write, but I think it will be worth it.

Reading

It was graphic novel week, apparently!

I read The Prince and the Dressmaker and y’all it is SO CUTE. Such a cute story! I loved it! Is there anything else really to say? It is precious.

I also read Fun Home and Are You My Mother? to keep the Alison Bechdel trend going. Fun Home always makes me feel so much smarter than I actually am; it’s solid and clear and so good, bittersweet and truthful. It’s good, but Mother is...something amazing. I’ve read this once before, and for some reason had remembered it as really relying on To The Lighthouse to unlock a lot of the story. And now that I’ve read TTL, I wanted to re-read it, and it, uh, really doesn’t. Other than the whole theme and overarching story of the book kind of being Bechdel’s TTL. Woolf wrote it to...put her mother to rest, in a way. To write out both her parents, but Mrs Ramsay suffuses the book the way Helen suffuses Mother. The parallels are clear; Lily/Virginia tries to understand her parents, especially her mother through the book, and Alison tries to understand her mother through her book. It’s technically a very tricky book, and is not as tight and clear as Fun Home is, but I think it’s wilder and deeper and stranger and more lovely.

When Woolf finished To the Lighthouse, she said she had stopped being haunted by her mother (who died when she was quite young). I hope Alison isn’t haunted by her mother and her childhood; I saw on Wikipedia that her mother passed away a year or so after publication. Anyway, this book convinced me that a) I’m really not that fond of the whole process of psychoanalysis specifically but also b) I need to go back to therapy. It was revelatory and weird and I loved it.

(Also I’m really itchy to see what Bechdel does next!)

#weekly update

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laventadorn · 3 years

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Hi this is a follow up to my writing struggles question. I’ve been writing for the past 2 years pretty regularly and updating my Fic every 3 weeks or so. In the last couple months I feel like I’m having a hard time getting back into regularly updating my Fic. How do you push yourself consistently? I want to finish my Fic but I don’t know how to keep up with character development at the pace I’ve been at. Specifically with the two Characters in my romantic plot line

Ok, I see!

To be perfectly honest, I’ve never been able to push myself consistently. I’ve never been one of those “write every day!” people -- in fact, I find that advice counterproductive because it turns writing into a chore, which then feeds my anxiety, which then feeds my depression.

cf. Some people set word count or time goals -- like, they write 100 words a day, or write for an hour every day. That doesn’t work for me, but it does for a lot of people.

Now, when it comes to finishing stuff, I’ve managed to do that a couple of times, and these were the ways:

1. Bang out the ending, not fussing about the “quality.” You just finish it, maybe set it aside for a bit, then come back to it later and fix the problems you ignored while drafting. This is what I did with the only two standalone fics I’ve ever completed. The important thing to me was that they were finished, and there was a resolution to the plot and the characters.

2. Map out what you want the ending to be, for however many plots you have going on. This is what I did for TNER. Now, I was working off an existing plot for GoF, so I had that little cheat, I just had to figure out what I wanted to do with it. The story is about Harriet and Snape; specifically about the way their relationship grows; so how were the end events of GoF going to affect that? I was coming to a big stopping point; what was going to make it meaningful and momentous? I asked myself stuff like that.

And although consistency is NOT key in Laventadorn Land, psychoanalysis is. “What’s wrong with me??” I love to ask myself. So here’s some ideas in that vein:

There could be a lot of reasons you’ve slowed down. A professional author (maybe Philip Pullman?) once said, in a NaNoWriMo email my friend got one year, that at about 70k you start to hit a wall. That’s for a 90k novel; so at about 3/4 of the way through any story, this will probably happen. The ending looms. You’ve been working on it for a long time. You know endings are important. you start to doubt that you can pull it off, maybe, or you feel it’s too far away, or your zeal for the story is starting to dry up like a crusty sponge. Lots of things could be and are going on in that little creativity brewery, and outside things just... stop. This is natural and understandable.

So I think it’s important to note that it’s okay for you to slow down. Writing is hard; keeping up with a story is difficult and tiring, especially when it spans months or years (congrats on 2 years!!!). That’s apart from any life issues that might be impacting you.

I read a post the other day that posited that what some people call “inspiration,” others of us call “spoons” -- you know, that whole “I just don’t have the spoons today.” This could be another reason you’ve slowed down and are having a hard time picking it back up, but of course I don’t know your situation.

So now here’s my new age-y pep talk:

I think the main thing is to ask yourself why you’ve slowed down and why it’s hard for you to get back into it, but not to judge or beat yourself up over the answer (if you’re inclined to do that). What you’re experiencing isn’t a failure; it’s simply a change. You might not like that change (I didn’t when I started to slow down), but there’s a reason it happened, and I feel that until you find the answer, you’re still going to have trouble getting over that hump. Basically, be kind to yourself! :)

OK, that’s all I got and my eyes are starting to cross sfsgs. If anyone else has any ideas, please chime in if you’re feeling it!

ETA: And if this didn’t answer your question, feel free to ask for elaboration on any point. cf. I know “map out your ending” is vague.

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Music reviews by Laurent Fairon, September 2020

Glands Of External Secretion – Do Not Disturb (July 2020) Christina Vantzou – Multi Natural (July 2020) Mouchoir Étanche – Kommuniqué Zéro (July 2020) Mark Leckey – In This Lingering Twilight Sparkle (August 2020) Lucrecia Dalt – No era sólida (September 2020) Staraya Derevnya – Inwards Opened the Floor (September 2020) . . . . . . .

Glands Of External Secretion – Do Not Disturb (Butte County Free Music Society) https://glandsofexternalsecretion.bandcamp.com/album/do-not-disturb The music on Do Not Disturb is made of stuttering interview excerpts, media audio detritus, spoken word, musique concrète, non-descript electronic sounds and loops, plus backward playing guitar or what sounds like studio outtakes. Californian duo of Barbara Manning and Seymour Glass (Bananafish magazine founder), Glands Of External Secretion build their tracks from bits and pieces of found sounds, without progression nor development but with frequent U-turns and aimless sound collages. The collage for them is not so much an avantgarde artistic gesture, as a means to make sense of sound scraps and aural leftovers. They're carving a freedom niche for themselves where they can progress inside a track with a frolic of their own but no apparent logic. Part of the pleasure derived from listening to Do Not Disturb is to experience this freedom other bands usually deny themselves. Glands Of External Secretion are part of this US libertarian tradition including Los Angeles Free Music Society or early Idea Fire Company, the duo of Scott Foust and Karla Borecky.

Christina Vantzou – Multi Natural (Edições CN) https://edicoescn.bandcamp.com/album/multi-natural Full disclosure: I have a soft spot for psychoacoustic sounds – give me howling wolves, children at play, female laughing or sea surf and I'm carried far away from the contingencies of ordinary life. So I might be partial to Christina Vantzou's new album, which has plenty of that. Multi Natural is a collection of remarkably evocative aural miniatures built with the simplest of means – natural found sounds, lonely acoustic instrument or spoken word, associated with basic, reverb-coated synth pads. These are elusive tracks coming out of a haze as inchoate thoughts just before waking up, exploring the liminal state between dream and real life, like Maya Deren's Meshes of the Afternoon movie. Akin to lucid dreaming, the music invites free associations in the mind of the listener as does psychoanalysis or Surrealism. This kind of effect couldn't be achieved with mere ambient music, which tends to focus the mind of the listener on (pretty much) nothing. It requires a talented composer to come up with an aural equivalent of a Dream Machine – just spinning around and creating images in your head. That's what Multi Natural does for me.

Mouchoir Étanche – Kommuniqué Zéro (Dekorder) https://blacktocomm.bandcamp.com/album/kommuniqu-z-ro Mouchoir Étanche [waterproof handkerchief] is a side project of Hamburg-based, German composer Marc Richter, better known as Black To Comm and Jemh Circs. As Black To Comm he released 2 superb albums on Thrill Jockey in 2019. This one-sided 12inch record has one 11mn-track which style is actually typical of previous Black To Comm's loop-based music. In Kommuniqué Zéro, samples of orchestral classical music are looped and left to accumulate over a slow, pulsating rhythm to create a fascinating repetitive, gloomy atmosphere, complete with operatic vocals and spoken word. The entire track can be considered both an homage to, and an update on, Holger Czukay's legendary Boat Woman Song, recorded in Köln in 1968.

Mark Leckey – In This Lingering Twilight Sparkle (Boomkat Editions) https://boomkat.com/products/in-this-lingering-twilight-sparkle https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PsFqzj45Llo There's nothing like collage music done right – unrelated sounds bursting out of your speakers at strange angles, inexplicable transitions, sounds jumping from place to place yet not really progressing... what's not to love in this cornucopia? British composer Mark Leckey does it brilliantly on this 32mn album. Using amateur-ish music excerpts, found sounds, street recordings, internet aural detritus, as well as great found vocals by actors, children, video game soundtracks and the likes, all exploited with appropriate sound processing and dramaturgy. There's no irony or mass media criticism in there, just a feast of sounds collected from various sources. The human voice is omnipresent throughout, confering the album a very moving, gripping atmosphere, unusual in collage music.

Lucrecia Dalt – No era sólida (RVNG) https://lucreciadalt.bandcamp.com/album/no-era-s-lida This album represents a kind of departure for Lucrecia Dalt. Gone are the niceties of Anticlines, her previous acclaimed album – gone the sexy voice, the sweet synth sequences and reassuring song form. As far as I'm aware of, No era sólida is her darkest effort to date and her most experimental release, likely to sound rather impenetrable to many. Mostly composed of short, skeletal tracks, the album actually plays like one long suite with seamless transitions and great cohesion throughout. The music is build on simple synth sequences and carefully crafted sound textures with that Lucrecia's sound signature: synth sounds with unstable pitch, like a detuned computer left to rot on loop mode. Except for the concluding track, the music is wordless, but occasional, processed vocal samples emerge here and there. Other than that, this is rather abstract music – no melody, no rhythm, no lyrics. Yet the album is also a reacquaintance with her native tongue for Lucrecia – she once told me she was at odds with Spanish language these days, but here track titles are in Castillan and the last track is a long spoken word piece in that language, delivered over a mesmerizing hushed voice loop. The next moment it is gone, and you're left at a sensory threshold between hypnagogia and bewilderment, with no solid ground beneath your feet – No era sólida, indeed.

Staraya Derevnya – Inwards Opened the Floor (self release) https://starayaderevnya.bandcamp.com/album/inwards-opened-the-floor-2 British-Israeli collective led by Gosha Hniu recorded in both countries with local musicians, some from Russian origin. Staraya Derevnya are allegedly around since 1994, but it's the first time I come across their music. Songs are build on collective live jams performed on traditional instruments like dulcimer, double bass, kazoo, synth or sampler, with homemade percussion, toys and found objects. These are then reworked and expanded in studio to create intense Surrealist excursions propelled by weird arrangements. Occasional vocals by Hniu include lyrics in Russian from the poetry of Arthur Molev, but most of the time consist of spoken word, wordless chanting, shouts or invented language. Staraya Derevnya inhabit a territory between 1980s post-punk and Rock in Opposition, with echoes of Red Balune, UR Kaos, Psi Vojaci, SRP, Metabolists or Zamla Mammaz Manna. Great album.

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