I lived in a confession booth, listening to my own secrets, making my own sentences.

Benjamin Garcia, “The Great Glass Closet” from Thrown in the Throat

Benjamin Garcia, "The Darkest Lashes"

[Text ID: A wrought iron fence in her / gaze. She jumps it to save / ten minutes walking home // after work. I slip through the bars. / If you think she is a doe, don’t / mistake her for a doe. Don’t // forget, that is the summer / she would teach you to be the mother / of the baby chicks whose mother // we ate—grinding hard, raw rice / with our teeth, letting the young peck / from the tips of our own tongues. // She is tired from sacking potatoes. / School is out, I couldn’t be more / than six years old, tired of walking. // “Carry me,” I say. Her arm belts my waist, / pressed against her, hip to hip. She says, / “Así, como un costal de papas.” // The train-yard’s fence shrinks behind us / to the size of a man’s comb. I am ashamed / of eating potatoes and my mother, // an ordinary laborer. I didn’t know / what hunger was then. Memory is quick to /whip me for what I did and didn’t do. \end ID]

Thrown in the Throat, Benjamin Garcia (2020)

Huitlacouche

“Tongues make mistakes / and mistakes // make languages.”

favourite ouat scenes: 80/?

oh yeah last year i threw up a little poll like oh haha should i post all my death shroud thoughts as they happen or should i save it for the end in a big cohesive post teehee. no poll this year. you're getting broken fire hydrant-ed. there is no point in weighing up the question because the minute my art appears on stream i'm making the silent hill siren noise and not stopping for however many hours the radio show lasts

Kiss Me in Komorebi+ 🌸

[Ep. Twelve] Good Eats!

[henry, over the walkies] why am I hearing so much radio chatter? [camerman #1] (static) dan turned off his microphone! [henry] what!? [cameraman #1] i don't know!! i heard something about a llama, then they went outside and he turned his mic off!!! is he allowed to do that!?

The night was going smoothly (but for some hiccups with a few jokes that didn't land), right up until Ezra - in an effort for keeping up with his string of humor - implied that Daniel's mother was a llama. In-game, Dan cursed and stood up from the table - here, we see the exact moment that the smile dropped from his face.

The minute they got outside, Dan clicked his microphone off. Though we can't hear what exactly he explained to Ezra about why the joke bothered him, clearly it was enough to bring a Sincere Apology out of our poor aspiring star.

@kawaiishitty they didn't end on a poor note!! But Ezra's jokes definitely did a number to their bars. 🥺

[ Part 2/2 ] 🌹

I love drawing the big spooky Sea Dragons, so here's a Darkbreather.

+ bonus:

Whumptober 2023 - No. 5: “You better pray I don’t get up this time around.” Debris | Pinned Down | “It’s broken.”

Milo Ventimiglia as Peter Petrelli in Heroes (S03E03)

Can't wait till this blog is old enough so posts start showing in main tags, but for now, a salty lil rant

Shipping aside, I'm surprised by how Laios + Marcille even as friends doesn't get as much fan attention as I expected considering how heavily the series focuses on their development? I consider Laios to be the protag and Marcille to be the secondary protag but I can see the argument for the two of them being dual protags especially starting from around Thistle's house arc / Marcille becoming the dungeon lord. The protagonists are party members who bond over losing and finding a loved one. They save each other multiple times and live with each other in the end. They get copious amounts of screentime together and separate. They clearly care for each other and love each other (in whatever way). And there's no forced romance.

Before I read the manga, I saw all the yuri on my TL and was like YESSSSSS I'M READING THIS FOR THE YURI WOOOOOO and finished the Red Dragon anime episodes like "wow that was soooo good and gay. Let me go on Tumblr to see what people are talking about— people are shipping Marcille and LAIOS??? Probably annoying straight people who cannot conceptualize a friendship between a man and woman 🙄". So I started out with a squick for the ship. I think the fan perception made me believe F/M is canon and anything else would be like queer erasure? Except I later learned no ship is canon and was genuinely confused when the manga started giving us L/M crumbs (like the succubus chapter) because I thought the shippers were pulling this ship from thin air lmao.

The more I read, the more I was like.... "okay.... why are they kinda... okay I get it now... why am I.... oh shit... I'm really in it now" and I apologise because I really get it now 😭 and it baffles me to see people who have seemingly finished the manga going "Laios and Marcille have NO CHEMISTRY their only line of connection is through Falin". Like, okay, maybe that was how they were at the beginning (but I would argue they have chemistry even from the first few chapters), but that's the POINT and we get to see them evolve and get closer because they both love and miss Falin. Laios moves on from being "Falin's brother" and Marcille moves on from being "Falin's friend". L+M know about each other's deepest, subconscious desires. Marcille lives with the siblings at the end. No matter the bond, they are the two most precious people to her.

I was still squicky about romantic L/M even at the succubus chapter (which I know is probably the starting point for a lot of shippers) but THEN THE RABBIT CHAPTER. And after that when the Canaries found Marcille and she immediately jumped onto Laios I was like "Oh fuck. I'm really in this now fuck fuck FUCK". (Nothing makes me get into a dynamic more than having an initially squicky reaction because I'll need to have a strong enough conviction to overcome the squick LOL)

Anyways. Seeing people being annoying and pissy about L/M only made me like L/M more 🤡 because at least the shippers appreciate their bond. I'm a little desperate here. Even their platonic bond is kind of a rarepair in the English fandom 💀

I'm so glad the anime is going at the pace it is now because this is only the beginning of the L+M development!!!! The anime onlies will understand later!!! I made the same mistake and judged too early and I'm sorry!!!! So many anime L+M moments and panels and crumbs yet to be seen 🥺

Anyways. Laios and Marcille's bond is absolutely central to the plot and character development. But I wouldn't have guessed that if I didn't read the manga and just based it off fan attention.

THE SOLUTION TO AN ETHNIC CLEANSING IS NOT A RELIGIOUS CLEANSING!! YOU CANNOT PREVENT A GENOCIDE BY CHOOSING TO PROMOTE ANOTHER GENOCIDE!!

JEWS ARE NOT THE PROBLEM; ISRAEL IS!!

Jujitsu class got me showing up to work with somewhat suspicious bruising and a sore neck from being choked. 10/10 would recommend.

In order to breathe, you have to add the little snail of an e to the end of the word breath. Breathe. Is it not amazing that we are still alive?

Benjamin Garcia, “The Great Glass Closet” from Thrown in the Throat

The most disgusting fucking thing that zionists keep circling in response to palestinian suffering and people crying for an end to a genocide is the fucking cries about the thousand killed on october 7th

I don't care how many settlers died. I don't care. I don't care because 1,000 dead does not ever equate to 100,000 murdered and lost. It doesn't equate to all the horrendous suffering and the torture that Israel inflicts on innocents. It doesn't equate because human lives are not a fucking math equation and yet it becomes extremely fucking apparent that to these people it is because they view palestinian lives as so much lesser than those of the settlers that thousands of them cannot pay back the life of one colonizer

'Civilians shouldn't be killed' is the most neutral thing that can be said about a war and is IMPLICIT to saying that the Hamas attack on october 7th was poorly planned. But when israeli civilians are actively participating in the genocide of people they already were tormenting then it becomes really fucking hard to think of the people killed as innocents, and when they are being used as the justification to set military dogs on 4 year olds and to selectively target and destroy safe havens and ignore peace treaties then it is altogether. I dont care that nearly two thousand filthy fucking colonizers died because there is NO justification for the river of blood spilled in retribution, nor the painting of a race of people as terrorists despite only a scant handful of them being willing to bloody their hands in retribution for decades of torment

Being sick is so shit

Whoever the Roman of this new trilogy is, sliding into the Kirsches' DMs: "I, personally, wouldn't let that slide." 👀

I honestly can't remember the last time I wasn't nauseous. Was it five days ago? Seven? Who knows. Certainly not me.