#Soul Drivers
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Missed Connection Section of the NRC Gazette (Floyd, Leona, and Ruggie)
While cleaning the Ramshackle guest room, the prefect occasionally finds items that remind them of their guests. Sometimes that is because those items actually belong to them and need to be returned, other times it's just a happy coincidence. Either way, the item needs to be delivered, might as well invite them over again? Or just chase them down, whatever is most convenient.
notes: they/them pronouns used for Yuu, Yuu is implied to be short, based off the personal items you can find in the guest room and a line from Floyd's dormwear card, title inspired by a country song that has nothing to do with the subject of the fic. I got a request for the 300 followers event, but since it's closed and I had this kicking around for Floyd anyway I added the other two requested characters. If you liked this you can read my other fics here.
Grey Scarf
"Floyd." Azul has a boring look on his face, all grimacy and angry and not worth Floyd's attention. Unfortunately he is very close to his face making it a tad impossible to ignore. "Where is your scarf?"
"Dunno." He says. "I ain't wearing it."
"I can see that." Snaps Azul. "You need it for your shift, you look sloppy enough as it is. You scarf is a part of your uniform! How can you be so careless with it?"
Because it's ugly. Sure, it matches his dorm uniform kind of but his socks get to be a snazzy purple with a cute octopus pattern, why'd the scarf have to be such a boring grey? Rules are rules though, and he does need it to work so he drags himself back over to his room and starts looking around. Normally, he would just steal Jade's and wait tables until he figured it out and forced Floyd to take the kitchen off his hands, but Floyd really didn't feel like cooking today. He didn't feel like waiting tables either, but money was money and Azul paid well. Only if he could find his stupid scarf apparently which was nowhere he could see, and he was far from happy about physically looking. Jade opens the door as he's halfway through emptying his bedside drawer on top of his bed, alongside all the laundry he'd had scattered across the floor.
"Looking for your scarf?" Floyd throws a pillow at him which is quickly returned with a pointed look that dares him to escalate things further just obviously enough Floyd doesn't want to do it. Instead he falls face first into the pile of laundry and nick nacks he'd been sorting through, making Jade sigh in disappointment.
"'s not here." Floyd grunts, muffled by an ok smelling t-shirt.
"Have you tried retracing your steps?" Jade is saying it just to be annoying but it is ok advice. Floyd tries, he doesn't usually wear his dorm uniform outside of school stuff, so it would have to be somewhere on campus. He hauls himself up from the pile and shuffles past his brother, the walk out of the mirror and towards the main campus passing by in a blur. There's a vague memory of club practice, but that could have been from any day this week, and it's not like he wears it to classes. Floyd chews on his lip in annoyance, he feels like he remembers where the last place the scarf was, but his bad mood is keeping him from sorting through his memories intellectually. It also keeps him from looking where he's going, smacking him directly into a very tiny, very familiar looking person who pointedly ignores his angry snarl to shove something in his face. Something very familiar, very boring, and very clearly the only reason either of them had left their dorms this evening.
"Seriously," the little shrimp has to stand up on their tip toes to throw the scarf around his shoulders "you have got to stop leaving your things at my dorm!" He thinks they're angry. That would explain the look on their face, but it's making his heart do weird flips between his chest and his stomach that keep him from thinking straight. A smile finds its way to his face, wide and unbidden coupled with outstretched arms that can't catch them fast enough, like he's reaching through honey even though he finds his mark and tugs them thrashing into his embrace.
"Awww," the words that come out of his mouth don't really feel like his "was little shrimpy wooooried about me?" He should say thank you. That's what Mamma Leech would say, and it's not that he doesn't want to, it's just there's a weird weight to the words he can't quite figure out. Something that wants to be said, but not just yet. They deserve a better tone, a better mood.
"No!" Yuu yells, muffled by his squeeze and unaware of how struggling is only going to make his hold tighter. "You just always burst in and whine about being bored-" Floyd nuzzles his cheek against theirs, trying to ignore the pushing against his chest as he sets them down.
"It's ok little shrimpy, you don't have to be so modest. Good shrimpies get rewards, I'll make sure to bring you something after I get off work, make sure to leave the door unlocked for me~" Or maybe don't, he could find his way in anyway he's sure of that but there's something about the fantasy of them wanting to see him (it's not a fantasy, they've invited him over before he knows that they don't fear him as much as they should) after work that's going to get him through the shift. Maybe he'll ditch the scarf again and make them come running after him on purpose this time, he thinks to himself with an uncharacteristically gentle smile.
Grand Wallet
Contrary to what he would say out-loud, Leona does think that the Ramshackle Prefect is quite smart. You do not survive as a magicless student from a different reality without some flexibility and raw intelligence. The consistency with which they could pick up on things and see through concealed intentions demands respect. But, he supposes as he idly thumbs through his bill fold disappointed to find it just as thick as when he left it, they are also... he decides to go with nice. The concerned way they stare at him is nice, Leona likes positive attention. He just wishes it wasn't from the nicest person he knows, is it so wrong to wish he had some reassurance that there was someone willing to be only nice to him? There's an ugly sort of suspicion they might have refused to steal from him out of fear, he's certainly more of a threat to them than he is to Ruggie.
"Well I guess I owe you a reward huh?" They jump, not helping the accusation (unvoiced) that they're only doing this out of fear.
"No?" Yuu says, looking around them probably to make sure that bratty cat monster isn't within earshot. Leona doesn't care about rewarding Grim, this is between him and the prefect, not some gluttonous bastard who is half the reason he was expecting to be stolen from in the first place. "You- Just stop forgetting things at my place!" He smiles slightly at that choice of phrasing just as they cringe at it. It almost makes him sound like a normal guy, if a Prince was leaving things around someone's place that would invite speculation; and Leona knows better than anyone that speculation invites scandal.
"Real shame no one ever does things out of the goodness of their hearts these days." His voice drawls as embarrassment settles over their face. They look almost mouse-like, if they try to speak Leona just knows they'll squeak and they clearly know it too. "You're really twisting my arm here, pretty shameless, prefect." That does it, the deep breath they take does nothing but really accentuate the harsh contrast of the squeaking to their normal voice.
"I did not," Yuu is so mortified they can barely get the words out, if he can't be the only recipient of their kindness he will satisfy himself with batting them around in his paws until they can pull together some nerves and force him to stop "return your wallet just for a reward. It's yours it belongs to you and now it is back where it belongs. Which isn't my guest room on top of a fucking couch seriously Leona-" Mice still have claws, even if the dent they leave is just a little scratch to such a big cat, he finds himself pleased with the annoyance of Yuu finding their voice. "It was like you were practically begging to be robbed. What if one of the Leech twins found that huh? Would you be getting it back?"
"Only after I paid the finders fee." He can ignore the tickle caused by the unsavory image of an eel inviting itself into your personal space. "Which is what I am doin' now, you're demanding it remember?" He tunes his ears to their footsteps as he walks towards the cafeteria, content with how quickly they jump to follow. The typically steady beat of their heart is skipping in tune with the directions of their thoughts. Good, the mouse is smart contrary to what the trapped lion thinks, so let them; they'll realize the hold they have over him soon enough.
Empty Lunch Box
This was really starting to annoy you, but no matter how much you turned the whole thing over in your mind you couldn't figure out why. You had been tempted to try and ask someone about it, but you could already tell what the general reaction to the situation would be.
The "situation" being that simply put, Ruggie liked to hang out in your guest room. That wasn't the issue. You liked having Ruggie over, it's actually really nice. Sometimes he brings small projects from some odd job or another and you'll work on them together while having a chat. He likes to ask you things about your world, it started as just small talk about the sort of jobs you'd had in your world but evolved into much more meaningful talks about your hobbies and the family you missed. You had even had a lengthy conversation about death and the difference between cultural beliefs about where you go after you die. Yes it was very nice and domestic even but then you made the mistake of trying to be nice.
Ruggie liked to bring a lunchbox with him when he visited. Sometimes it had food in it, and while he hadn't shared it with you at first, but then you started talking about your families and he had slightly warmed up to the idea of sharing snacks. You hadn't taken anything from him until he explicitly offered, and when he forgot the now empty lunch box you had pulled some of your personal savings to get him something from the Mystery Shop. It was supposed to be a cute surprise for him to find when you returned the lunch box, and it worked. Granted you had intended for him to find it after he got back to his dorm, but he had sniffed it out as soon as you handed it over. His reaction was cute, he was cute, it was almost like he thought he was dreaming with just how excited he had been to receive some packaged pastries. When he came over later in the week and left the lunchbox again you had done the same thing. Fair is fair, he gets you jobs and shares his food and you give a little food back in return. Lately though something has been different. Ruggie has still been coming to hang out, he still brings work, you still talk, and he still leaves that damn lunch box. But he hasn't been sharing anything, meaningful; personal information or foodwise.
Maybe it was the death conversation. If you had revealed you were an orphan and that you never knew your mom to someone you had a crush on (not that Ruggie like likes you no matter how much you might might want that) you would be pumping the breaks too. But it still kind of hurt, it felt like a rejection of something that you knew hadn't existed in the first place.
"Y'know you don't have to give me stuff." Ruggie had come over today too, with shitty plastic garbage that needed packed into boxes. He's either read your mind or noticed you brought the remainder of the packaged goods out to snack on while you work. You try to asses him from behind your pile of card stock, he's overly focused on his task. Reflective maybe? He is almost pouting.
"I wanted to." You decide to stick with honesty, sure Ruggie might be sneaky but he deserves that much, doesn't he? "You share with me, I share with you. Fair's fair, right?"
"Right." Ruggie says, audibly disappointed to your confusion. You have never seen him so... gloomy over the concept of someone owing him a favor. Especially one paid back in food. "You do that for everybody, yeah?"
"Yeah?" You say, pausing in your work for just a second to try and collect yourself. Up until a few seconds ago you had been under the impression that had been one of your better qualities.
"So like," he isn't looking at you and his ears are saggy, tugging at your heartstrings painfully though just a tiny part of you is starting to hope- "if Leona left no that doesn't make sense. If Jack left his lunch box here and it was empty would you buy him a snack?" You think for a second.
"Did he share his lunch with me?"
"Yes." Ruggie's looking at you again, like he has a bone to pick.
"Maybe." You don't really have to think about the answer, as much as you like returning the favor Jack would probably just be happy to find his lost item and leave it at that. "If we were hanging out and he wanted something from a vending machine I'd spot him."
"But you wouldn't go out of your way to get him something?" Ruggie's stopped working now, he's really staring at you almost like he is trying to sus you out as if he hasn't been friends with you for a while now. As if he doesn't know more of your secrets than anyone else.
"I-" for some reason what you want to say gets stuck on your throat, maybe it's because Ruggie leans across the couch to get a bit closer to your face. Maybe it's because you are suddenly a lot more aware of what your little actions might have meant to him as your previous conversations play over in your mind "no. You're the only person I've really gone out of my way to get food for. Well except for maybe Grim but he doesn't really count..." You both let out sharp breaths, your eyes fall down to your work, hands going back to the task out of habit and desire to distract yourself.
shishishishi
Ruggie is silent and back in his perch across from you once your head snaps up to look at him. His small grin is intoxicating, his tail is swishing in pride like he's just won a great victory in some war you had no idea he was fighting. It is a smug look, too smug for someone who just put you through a few days of mental torture.
Maybe you'll make him some food next time, you'll see who is smug after that.
#twisted wonderland x reader#twst x reader#floyd leech x reader#leona kingsholar x reader#ruggie bucci x reader#when i realized leona leaves his whole ass wallet at your guest room i screamed#the soul of ruggie bucchi became my stand#and we had a spiritual experience with the amount of horror we felt at the idea of a fucking PRINCE LEAVING HIS GODDAMN WALLET#WAS YOUR DRIVER'S LICENSE IN THAT LEONA? EVER THINK OF THAT#FORGET THE CASH AND CARDS YOUR FUCKING LICENSE??? LEONA???
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I don't need a vacation, I need a sabbatical, where I go live in an abbey in switzerland for six months where I read and garden and study and stare at the sky and learn about birds and make some art and write a lot and help feed the nearby village with the garden crops and there are no ads or algorithms or tv shows or fastfood restaurants and I walk into town once a week for phone and internet to check on friends and family and then I go away again and preferably there are cats and goats and those soft brown cows and one shaggy dog and I learn I have a new favorite constellation and type of flower and shade of green.
#ragamusings#anyone else?#had to drive v carefully around a phone-distracted driver on my way home and i wanted to shake him by the shoulders#had someone want a refund from their show bc they didnt like it (we didn't have enough cast members apparently???)#and i watched horrific news unfold#and i'm so angry and tired and frustrated#i took a week-long staycation and only began to feel like myself again on the fifth day#anyways you can reblog this if you relate it's not just a private ramble#but idk if it is relatable or not i just want it deep in my soul#but alas i have no money and sabbaticals cost money ironically#and who would take care of my cats
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✨CHOOSE YOUR FIGHTER ✨
F1 Mechanics Edition ❤️💙🧡
#Ferrari serving cuntiness#Redbull being chaotic and completely unserious#Mclaren’s just here to have a good time#forget the drivers the mechanics are truly the soul of the teams 😌✨#charles leclerc#f1#formula 1#cl16#ferrari#redbull#rbr#mclaren
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I like to imagine that on long G.U.N missions Shadow gets so focused that he forgets to take care of himself. So often G.U.N will assign an unlucky intern to bring food to him and try to get him to eat and to sleep in the same like room or place with him and try and convince him to get some sleep.
#and then what if one of those times instead of an unlucky intern it’s Sonic#cue one bed trope hehehehhehe#and then what if one of those nights Shadow has a nightmare#sorry not sorry nightmare hurt/comfort plagues my soul#I definitely didn’t just have an awful nightmare and this is my coping mechanism#it’s 4 am and I have my drivers test at 8#shadow the hedgehog#sonic the hedgehog#sonadow#sonadow fanfiction#sonic fanfiction#sonic
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Au where Harrow is a NASCAR driver and her moniker is the Revving Daughter
#Or should I say yasscar driver?#I thought of this pun and immediately went to make this post as though I was possessed by the soul of Gideon Nav#On a serious note I think one of the most important aspects of any au is having Harrow trying to follow in her parent's footsteps#Ex: her parents were famous racers before her and got several drivers killed by sabotaging a car to ensure their victory#Harrow's parents would make great twist villains in a Scooby Doo movie. Harrow is the red herring and Gideon is the helpful one.#the locked tomb#Tlt au#griddlehark#harrowhark nonagesimus#Gideon Nav#Gideon is in her pit crew (unwillingly) and the cast of GtN are rival drivers obviously
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gang gets stranded in the woods is a hysterical episode for a lot of reasons but the whole premise of the episode being mac crashed the car because there was a squirrel in the road really makes it. i can think of 20 reasonable options for car trouble that could open the episode or even avoiding a deer in the road (which can happen in rural jersey) but. mac grabbed the wheel to avoid a squirrel.
#YES I KNOW THE EPISODE IS ABOUT ANIMAL RIGHTS HENCE THE SQUIRREL OPENING#but it is sooo funny when you think about mac's character#he crashed the car-was not even the driver- for a SQUIRREL#i think sunny is my all time favorite show because it is never ever predictable#when i look at some of the writing choices i'm like that is the LAAAAAST thing i would have come up with#it is so fucking funny the ideas they come up with like i just never in a million years would come up with any of this shit#frank saying THE RABBIT HAS HIS SOUL#SPLIT ME OPEN LIKE A COCONUT???????#it's always sunny in philadelphia#iasip
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Does Swannie ever think he's Odette? Or does he know he's a separate being from her?
Donnie occasionally thinks he's Odette, though it's more common for the lines to just kind of get blurred between the two. Overall, he's not really aware of Odette's existence, at least not all the time or in a very concrete sense. He may think or feel things that are Odette's influence, or she may occasionally be 'in the driver's seat,' but if you asked Donnie about it he wouldn't be able to tell you what was happening or explain it, if he was even aware it was happening at all. He doesn't know why he has memories or feelings that aren't his, largely because he's often not aware that they're not his own in the first place. Now that his family has this information, he may be able to become more aware of it with their help.
#in general he is not aware that there is a second soul entangled with his#the memory loss contributes to this#as well as the fact that if odette is 'in the driver's seat' or if donnie thinks he is odette#he will not tolerate his family's presence#he will chase them off#meaning his family doesn't really have access to a lot of odette's memories or information abt her#because odette doesn't know them and can't recognize them and therefore has no reason to all them entrance to her lake#asks#swanatello asks#anon
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Hero of drivers license
#I’m playing spirit tracks for the first time and I’m not going to apologize for the person I become while I’m obsessed with it#it will happen again. also makes me think they will make link a 12 year old who drives a train instead of saying he’s aged up#i guess it would fuck it with ppl because wind is also 12. but i love the idea of a 12 year old with a drivers license so whatever lmao#If this link comes right after wind it makes me think about how link would have some sort of resemblance to his previous incarnations#like. we can safely assume tetra is spirit tracks Zelda’s grandma because spirit tracks is 100 years after wind wakes#so I’d like to think Zelda has some of wind and tetras genes. but link can look like whatever since I’ve always thought of it as his soul#changing bodies and then zelda is like always royal blood because they’re descended from hylia#this would probably be better explained if I drew out how I see ww link and st link#ALSO I LOVE HOW U CAN PLAY AS ZELDA AND TALK TO HER.. she is so sweet u guys#apparently if u whip her when she’s a phantom it makes her walk faster but. i don’t want to hit her :(#my art#myart#doodles#legend of Zelda#loz#loz spirit tracks#spirit tracks#loz st#hero of trains#loz link
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I love Charles. He’s like don’t put those other bitches on level ever again. Pierre is number one first only period. the rest of them? hey i’m a nice guy! but that’s my man
#Pierre and other nameless faceless drivers :*#he said: they don't have the LORE#obsessed#he's like yes they beg me to golf with them and I. a kind generous soul. so graciously accept#perfect.#mwah
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f1blr is soo funny to me bc you go on someone's blog and there will be post after post that reads like "did you see the way his eyes crinkled? the way his lips wrapped around the water bottle? did you see the way max verstappen's tits bounced when he walked back to garage? god my pussy is trembling 😵💫😵💫😵💫" and then you exit off and click on the next person you see and their pinned post will be something like "max verstappen is a hideous beast. i pray his engines explode. may god give him p20" where else can you get this experience?
#genuinely sooo funny to me#like what a wide range of emotions and it's like this about literally every driver!!!#except for charles. i have not seen anybody dislike charles.#ig his pretty boy looks have bewitched all of us body and soul#i personally am neutral about mv33#but with the 22 second lead in bahrain.... i am leaning towards god blowing up his engines#nothing against you max. i just need charles on all the podiums for 2024#f1#max verstappen#that tag is just for me when i inevitably remember this post like 6 months down the line but cant remember anythg other than 'mv33 is in it#introspective.txt
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Mutual is available 🤪 💓
#psych usa#truckers#us politics#us army#usa today#usa#usa truck driver#use my pussy#eat my pussy#soul eater#lick my pussy#wet ass pussy#needy pussy#hot as fuck#so hot 🔥🔥🔥#so fuckable#fuck my body#fine as fuck
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man i am Glad i took my real age out of my pinned and bio.. i mean if someone Needs to know i dont mind answering it privately but man its just nice to hand wave it off as an adult and make sure people my Self age is the more important one
#wishy speaks#eh..besides legal stuff i guess#self age is a weird term but like. soul age sounds kinda weird?#to me at least#brain age is a nintendo game#mind age...still weird#self age sounds the least weird 2 me. bc the body and self are pretty different things for me#the body is just kind of along for the ride#it used to be the other way and that the body made rhe rules#not anymore bitch!#im the real taxi driver#i dont care that i don't have a license#idk where im goimg with this#all you need to know is that im legally an adult but im actually 12 again and will always be
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Everyone before testing: reminder that testing is never accurate as teams are trying out different things on the track at once
Also everyone during testing: OMG AN OVERTAKE ALREADY IT’S SO OVER
#like pls. listen to ur own advice#lestappening is happening leave them be#they are just being silly#this is like when they were racing during free practice in vegas#charles leclerc#f1#formula 1#cl16#lestappen#max verstappen#1633#also can we just normalize letting everyone hype their drivers up??#the fun police on f1twt just sucks the soul out of everything
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1x07 Reflections - Dean Picks “As Time Goes By” and “Can’t Find My Way Home”
To reflect is both to mirror and to meditate/ think upon.
Dean, Dean, Dean... this story continues to be filled with reflections in Holy Ghost Narrator Dean’s mind, about matters of his own heart.
Honestly, when read on this level, The Winchesters is the most bittersweet of meditations.
Firstly, the characters keep saying all the emotionally meaningful stuff to each other which Dean himself needed to hear or to say:
Notice how we can read this as a reflection for Dean’s relationship with his own father (remember when he knew Azazel was possessing John, because the demon told him it was proud of him in in 1x22 Devil’s Trap, whereas his Dad would have “torn him a new one”), AND we can read it as a reflection of the moment Dean lost Castiel for the last time. Henry, like Cas in 15x18, is saying “I love you” here, as he fades out, back to another dimension. AND we can read it as a reflection of Dean telling Sam he loved him and was proud of him, whilst he lay dying on the rebar in the barn in 15x20. Henry speaks both to a lover (Millie) and to a son (John) allowing all these subtextual reflections (Dean-John, Dean-Cas, Dean-Sam).
The music Dean picks this week is all about love and longing.
Can’t Find My Way Home can be read as Dean’s reflections on his soul leaving his own body in death, with the lyrics singing to his beloved, Castiel, about how much he wants to find his way back to him, but he can’t find him (because he’s lost in The Empty):
Can’t Find My Way Home
Come down off your throne and leave your body alone
Somebody must change
You are the reason I've been waiting so long
Somebody holds the key
[Chorus]
But I'm near the end and I just ain't got the time
And I'm wasted and I can't find my way home
[Verse 2]
Come down on your own and leave your body alone
Somebody must change
You are the reason I've been waiting all these years
Somebody holds the key
But I'm near the end and I just ain't got the time
And I'm wasted and I can't find my way home
[Outro]
But I can't find my way home
We could read a Dean-longing-for-Sam reflection here too, although all the other reflections in the SPNWin 1x07 narrative point to Cas (John and Mary’s situation locked in the room with no way out, as the Akrida bear down on them, prompting John to declare his feelings with a kiss, being a strong reflection for Dean and Cas locked in the bunker with no way out, and Billie bearing down on them in 15x18 Despair, prompting Cas to declare his feelings).
As Time Goes By, Millie and Henry’s love song, is a classic made famous because of its role in the wartime star-crossed lovers story Casablanca (1942)
And Millie and Henry’s back-story, wherein we learn this week they fought a lot, because Henry was always leaving (and keeping Millie in the dark about his MoL work) because he was trying to protect her and young John, has echoes of the many times Cas left Dean (often to protect him, e.g. in Purgatory) when all Dean wanted was for him to stay.
And John was so angry he broke the musical box which played the love song. Sad echoes here, of the Dean/ Cas break-up.
“You must remember this
A kiss is just a kiss
A sigh is just a sigh
The fundamental things apply
As time goes byAnd when two lovers woo
They still say "I love you"
On that you can rely
No matter what the future brings
As time goes by”
Holy Ghost Narrator Dean sure is dreaming of a kiss:
#Supernatural#The Winchesters#SPNWin 1x07#Reflections#The Winchesters meta#Holy Ghost Narrator Dean#Dean's soul in the Bardo#Driver picks the music#And the music is filled with loss and longing
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Asian Men 2023 - Unholy [kdrama actors + Mackenyu]
Dramas: Alchemy of Souls 2, Black Knight, Crash Course in Romance, Dr. Romantic Season 3, Island Part 2, King the Land, Moving, One Piece, Revenant, See You in My 19th Life, Tale of the Nine-Tailed Season 2, The Heavenly Idol, Taxi Driver Season 2, The Glory Part 2, The Killing Vote, The Worst of Evil.
#video#fanvid#kdrama#asian men#mackenyu#alchemy of souls#black knight#choi chi yeol#dr. romantic#king the land#moving kdrama#roronoa zoro#one piece#revenant#see you in my 19th life#tale of the nine tailed#the heavenly idol#taxi driver#the glory#the killing vote#the worst of evil#so hot#jdrama#Youtube#happy holidays#merry christmas#merry xmas#happy new year
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i have this terrible habit of comparing myself to artists who've had success when they're still young, like how fall out boy had four studio albums before any of them had turned 30, patrick stump released soul punk when he was 27, ben platt won a tony when he was 23, you get it, right? but lately i've been thinking about interviews where patrick talks about not being able to imagine doing anything else, because music is what he loves and what he's good at. the work i do right now isn't what i have a degree in, it's not what i want to make a career out of, i'm still using a license i got when i was 16 (which makes it almost ten years ago, and also begs the question why i was allowed to do this as a literal child?), and god it's so easy to get down on myself for not being able to break into the field i want to, to still be out here doing the same thing, but when i take a step back i realize i'm really good at my job, and from the beginning it has never been about changing the world, it's about making individual moments better for individual people, one at a time. and i am good at that. i am an important part of the team for that.
#ramblings#fall out boy#fob#patrick stump#soul punk#ben platt#i dont even know if you can get your cna at 16 anymore?#it's one of those things that i mention and people go “you can do that???”#gifted burnout kid#i looked it up pretty sure you have to be 18 now#i got my cna license i think a full month and a half before i got my driver's license?? maybe longer?#for context i had to be 16 to start clinicals and get 100+ clinical hours on top of a full course load and extracurriculars#drivers license was 16 and a half#it's crazy how full circle things have come because i was sixteen and wanted to work in the er (couldn't -- was literally a child)#and when i was 19 i volunteered in an er while i was pre-med#and now im 25 and working in an er in a body that feels familiar with people who call me by a name that makes sense
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