You know when I was a kid, I had this ritual. I closed my eyes before I walked into my room, cause I thought that one day when I opened them my sister would be there. Just lying in bed, like nothing ever happened. You know I'm still walking into that room, everyday of my life.
THE X FILES GIF MEME [2/8] CHARACTERS
Samantha Mulder
do you think mulder has a hard time staying on the first floor of places because headlights from cars driving by flashing on the window panes reminds him of the lights from when samantha was abducted and[GUNSHOT]
on fox (+samantha) mulder, grief, & childhood trauma.
the x-files, 1994-2018 / the fall of the house of usher, steven berkoff / vanishing acts, jodi picoult / hard times, ethel cain / unknown / mysterious skin, scott heim / unknown / letter to an old poet, boygenius / soft sounds from another planet, japanese breakfast / sharp objects, gillian flynn
Jandy Nelson, The Sky Is Everywhere / The X-Files: Conduit / Sue Grafton, M is for Malice / The X-Files: Apocrypha / The X-Files: Paper Clip / The X- Files: Redux II / marjorie, Taylor Swift / The X-Files: Christmas Carol / The X-Files: Closure / Big God, Florence + The Machine
Now the plot is so thick, it’s a solid piece of matter, yet it still somehow gets even thicker.
Pretty soon it thickens so much that it becomes denser than a neutron star, then collapses under the weight of its own thickness and becomes a black hole, pulling the show’s viewers into it and never letting them escape.
One of the things that really strikes me when I go back and watch The X Files is how—despite not appearing in the series much at all—Samantha Mulder’s presence consistently haunts the show and its characters.
Her abduction first inspires and then continues to fuel her brother’s search for the truth over several years. Even characters who have never met her seem to know immediately who she is, such as the moment that Scully sees Samantha’s clone on the bridge in Season 2. Knowledge of the torturous experimentation she was subjected to as a teenager by the Cigarette Smoking Man haunts not only her brother Fox Mulder, but also the boy she was raised alongside: Jeffrey Spender. She is simultaneously grieved for by her parents, and also overlooked by them, both choosing lives of shame and secrecy, endlessly guilt-tripping their son into believing he was responsible for his sister being taken, saddling him with a guilt that will weigh on him for years to come.
Anyway, if you’ve read this far, Samantha Mulder was done dirty and she deserved way better of an ending than what she got, especially after so many things in the show can be traced back to the mystery around her initial disappearance.