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yolkyeomie · 4 years

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Iced Americano | lee jeno

summary — you don’t even like coffee anymore, so why do you have an iced americano in your hands now?

word count — 2k words

pairing — jeno x gender neutral!reader

genre — coffee shop + college au, my sad attempt at humor but really it’s just me kinda losing my mind in the middle of writing this

disclaimer — this was originally made for a close friend of mine so reader is heavily based off of her! also ignore any and all typos thank you

You'd like to say you’re rather good at talking to people

Sure you may have a rather small friend group, but still

The size of your friend group doesn’t equate to how good at socializing you are

Besides !!!

Everyone finds it really easy to approach you and you're really kind back to them !!

That is if they come to you with the right attitude

So it’s not hard to say you’re known very well throughout the campus of ur university

I mean you’re not like POPULAR POPULAR but you’re nice attitude makes people just gravitate towards you a lot

And you liked that!! The attention made you feel validated and loved

was today one of those days where everyone is just super nice to you?

Yeah !!

haha no it wasn’t really

you tolerate a lot of stuff okay

You juggle a lot of responsibilities on your back while still trying to keep in touch with your friends so they don’t feel like you’ve abandoned them or something

but it was REALLY hard tryna keep up with everything

especially when your close friend group was full of boys who didn’t know the exact meaning of organization

trying to keep them situated before they went and burned themselves out was HARD

and then trying to manage yourself at the same time??

sometimes you were ready to throw yourself off the top of fifty story building

and unfortunately for you

today was just one of those days

thankfully it wasn’t because your friends are a genuine mess but

Uni is HARD

as a college student you must put up with a lot of… stuff

I mean some professors can be,,,,, UNKIND to say the least

But usually they were rather lenient and understanding !!

Except for this one. professor.

They always seemed like they were on the verge of losing their mind

And toda must have been the perfect day for them to do that

because your professors summoned the LITERAL devil from within to torture everyon in your clas

But especially you

so let’s just say you’ve been scolded a lot and given wayyyy too much work for no absolute reason

you’re about this close to bashing your head against the wall but you gotta hang on

YOU'RE NOT IN COLLEGE FOR NOTHING AFTER ALL!!!

so you find yourself absently complaining about how much work you have to do today and your friends are like

“That’s tough,,, I’m so sorry [y/n]”

what else can they say really??? they aren’t in your major and they can’t really understand your struggles even tho they wish they could

Well scratch that

they don’t want to understand because that’s ANOTHER work load of information that would constantly be rattling in their heads

Haechan had decided to become a computer engineer when he decided to pick up a major, so his brain was just always fried

Jisung was still trying decide what he wanted to go into and chenle was very serious about becoming a business just so he could accumulate as much money as he possibly could

You always forget what Jaemin had decided to major in, but it wasn’t very interesting to you in the first place

And renjun had decided to major in some form of art, the easier out the four majors mentioned before

Or at least you thought they were easy

Either way TRUST AND BELIEVE if jaemin knew just a little about your major and was able to witness the unfairness in front of him

he’d probably get expelled

anyways renjun had noticed you just getting ready to cry in the corner about how overworked you were

and for once in his life decided to try and help out, not with work tho

why would he ever help with work

“do you want something to eat??? Maybe drink??? I know this place near us that we can go to”

“Thank you so much I’d love to eat and drink and pass out and do nothing about this work when I get home”

yes that’s exactly what you wanted to and nothing was about to stop you

anyways you two were hanging out with each other either way, so it worked very well in ur opinion

You walking down this street towards some restaurants and stores while you were chatting

trying to decide where you wanted to settle down and rest like renjun has suggested

but you uh

notice something strange

you’re passing all the places you usually like to eat at because

renjun kept saying no?

he didn’t want to go to ANY of your usual hangout spots?????

WHY IS RENJUN PASSING ALL YOUR HANGOUT SPOTS??

They were hangout spots for REASON.

good atmosphere, good food, nice people??? they’reperfect !!

so why was he declining every single one of them???

“Hey renjun,,,, where are we going”

“?? To get something to eat and drink??????”

“No like WHERE ARE WE GOING?????”

“TO GET SOMETHING TO EAT AND DRINK WHAT THE HELL DO YOU MEAN???????????”

you two started getting into a small argument, you being annoyed that he was declining every suggestion you through and him being annoyed that you kept question his choices

that was, until he finally stopped

“Oh perfect!! we’re here!!”

You turned to look at him and find that he’s standing in front,,,

,,,, a coffee shop

COFFEE shop????

you’re more of a SODA WATER TEA JUICE ANYTHING BUT COFFEE PERSON

well your parents drink coffee and all no doubt

and when you were a kid you used to drink coffee ALL OF THE TIME

you always had to get your own cup because you’d drink all of your parents’ under ten mins

but uh as you got older

it started to taste

worst?

you started to lose the taste for coffee as you got older and it was just downhill from there

*one sip* “THATSHS HORRIAVKE”

it really surprised your parents

and jaemin

but no one ever wants to drink jaemin’s coffee

please you watched renjun and haechan almost DIE from drinking it, coffee and choking and everything

when jaemin asked jisung to try it as a joke he bursted into tears

when chenle was presented the opportunity he cash apped him money and ran for it

please you almost PUNCHED jaemin for even thinking of making you try it

maybe it’s partly jaemin’s fault you can’t drink coffee anymore

“renjun uh,,,,, I don’t want coffee,,,?? You know I don’t drink that stuff. do they have like anything but that”

“yeah they have coffee coffee and coffee”

“literally,,, you’re the worst”

“No thanks :D”

yeah so you got dragged into the coffee shop

it wasn’t vsco girl Starbucks level inside

it was really small

only a couple of tables scattered about with white cloth covering them and little lights strung up along the walls to make the ambience of the room nice and cozy

There was a small chalkboard menu on the counter as well, with the day’s special and little drawings of flowers and animals around the words.

it was really cute you can’t lie

There was an even larger menu behind the really cute cashier at the cash register that detailed all of the drinks they sold as well

there was also— wait what

back track back track THERE'S A REALLY CUTE CASHIER AT THE CASH REGISTER

PAUSE BECAUSE YOU'RE ENTIRE BODY F R O Z E ON THE SPOT

“[y/n] you there”

“[y/n]?”

“[y/n] move you're blocking the door”

listen you’re not HORRIBLE at communication, it was definitely one of your strong suits in life

But this???

You were practically malfunctioning at this point

seriously you felt like you were in a romance show

you made eye contact with him and nearly tripped over your own two feet

how did you fall so head over heels for this guy so quickly???? He hadn’t even said a WORD

“Can I take your order?”

“Can you what?”

oh god oh god OH GOD HES TALKING TO YOU

wait he’s supposed to do that it’s his job

your eyes looked down towards the name tag pinned onto the apron he wore

lee jeno

wow… you could say his name for hours and never get tired of it

renjun is just kinda,,,, staring at you to get a move on

oh no did he already order

DID HE ALREADY ORDER WHILE YOU WERE ZONING OUT

NO YOU ARE NOT READY WAIT

WHAT ARE YOU GONNA DO?? YOU DONT EVEN LIKE COFFEE

“excuse me? are you ready to order?”

he gave you an amused smile and god it felt like the sun was shining down on you

Jeno was getting more ethereal with every word that came out of his mouth

but you couldn’t keep him waiting you were embarrassing yourself

you stared at the board above him and just blurted out whatever you saw first

“I-I I’ll have a uh iced americano…”

What's even in americanos?????

you hoped it wasn’t gross,,,

if it was it would REALLY awkward having to ask for a bunch of sugar packets to sweeten it

but then jeno smiled at you

“okay! can I have your name please?”

“,,, uh [y/n]”

“[y/n].... what a pretty name for a pretty person”

please god you are about to explode

HE CALLED YOUR NAME PRETTY AND YOU P R E T T Y AT THE SAME TIME??

anyways you’re losing your mind if you can’t tell

and renjun thinks your brain might be on emergency mode right now

and that’s not what youneed is it now?

so he decided to save you the embarrassment and pay for the drinks himself and push you towards one of the tables

you’re seated away from jeno so that you don’t melt into a little puddle if he catches you staring

which you did a lot more then you’d like to admit

“okay so he’s definitely flirting with you”

“AND THAT'S SUPPOSED TO MAKE ME FEEL BETTER???”

“uh yeah? you’re supposed to feel better after knowing someone is genuinely flirting with you”

“RENJUN.”

you love renjun but rn you wanna punch him because HNG YOU DON'T KNOW BOW TO HANDLE THIS RIGHT NOW

“please let’s not think about this right—“

“He’s staring at you”

“He’s WHAT”

please renjun is laughing so hard this is incredibly funny to you

no he wasn’t looking at you he was making someone’s coffee

perhaps your coffee???

or whatever the HELL renjun has ordered

but you saw jeno stop for a moment and glance at you

and the minute he realized you were looking at him too he started BEAMING

LIKE HE WAS OUTSHINING THE SUN

“RENJUN RENJUN RENJUN RENJUN—“

“I’m right here calm down”

“Miss [y/n]?”

PAUSE PAUSE PAUSE

your name sounds really nice coming from him

how did you not notice that before !!!!

“[y/n] your Americano“

“RIGHT”

you move like a robot over to jeno

are you so nervous???? AND YOU'LL PROBABLY NEVER SEE HIM AGAIN

UGH LIFE IS CRUEL

He’s all smiley and giving you the SWEETEST SMILE and jeno’s like “your americano !! I hope you enjoy it, I made it with a lot of love !!

someone send help right now

he made yours with a lot of LOVE

“ ahh !! Thank you!!!”

“I advise you to not drink americanos tho,,, they don’t suit you”

???? what does that mean

“You should try our caffe mocha, it’s sweeter than what you’re drinking now. Just like you !! I’m jeno btw”

YOU SLY BASTARD

I c what u did there

“AHHHHHH THANKS ??? I UH IM [Y/N] NICE TO MEET YOU”

you’re so stupid he already knows your name

well you already know his name you were staring at his name tag

but you’re having a sensory overload so it’s okay

renjun snickers from the back, tho highkey realizing he hasn’t received HIS DRINK YET AND MIGHT THROW A FIT

though eventually he got his drink so he was happy then, tho still a little annoyed with how love struck you were with jeno

you did have to drag him out of the coffee shop because he was going to make a complaint flirting cuz he was getting tired of it

oh and you?

After a few (many) visits you can say you definitely like caffe mochas now

but you did keep getting iced americanos every time you visited

the sweet boy who makes them the drinks always makes yours with lots of love

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taehyungsgrowl · 4 years

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SFW Alphabet for Nate

I think I did it wrong last time bc I was waiting for people to send me letters when I was just supposed to go down the list. But I’m a dummy so disregard half of what I say.

i hope you guys like them and thank you virgo anon for the input w these 🥺i love our baby 🥺

Here we go:

A- Activity (What is their favorite activity to do with you.)

-- i think he likes doing new things w you. and i know that sounds cliche BUT hear me out. duncan is a bit of a home body 🥺loves to be curled up w reader sharing kissies and cuddling. nate enjoys that too but i think trying new adventures w you is his favorite. i can see him being the type to like hiking dates!! (also lets not forget the tik tok videos you guys make together )

B- Beginnings (How do they act in the beginning of a relationship)

-- considering the beginning did start off as something kinda casual between him and reader, he kept it as such. but he’s such a natural charmer that even when he’s not trying, he just comes across as super sweet. they’d finish hooking up and he’d offer her to stay over or get them food (not bc he felt like he needed to but it’s just the kinda guy he is) i think he probably let his goofy side out right at the beginning as well. its what helped y/n open up to him and feel at ease w him 🥺

C- Communication (Are they good communicators? How do they normally talk about their problems or solve issues)

-- big sigh. nate? was the KING of communication!! hell! he was able to talk to duncan (who ISNT the best at communicating) when they weren’t even friends and helped him talk to dumb!reader. plus he’d always been open about his feelings. told y/n right away when he knew he was in love. (i only say he WAS bc he should have told y/n he was struggling before he ended up in the hospital 🥺)

D- Drunk (What are they like when they’re drunk)

-- koala bear cuddly drunk!! not just between him and reader! but he will love on anyone! (omg.. you know dunc was a little 😳when drunk!bro!nate started hugging him... hiding his face in duncs neck... telling he smells good... telling him how much he loves him... bros 👯‍♂️)

E- Emergency (How are they in emergency situations? You get hurt, they get hurt, someone is dying etc..)

— oh god. nate is the type to keep cool and collected in an emergency - even if he were the one having an emergency 🥺 like if reader would’ve been w him during his car accident, she would have been worried sick over him and he’d just be like, “hey, look at me. i’m okay, yeah? a lot stronger than i look, babe.” even if it hurt like hell because he doesn’t wanna worry her. if you were in an emergency or got hurt, he’d go into sexy doctor mode. “tell me where it hurts.” squeezing your hand to reassure you, “i got you.” also kissies where it hurts 🥺 and he’s such a good listener too wow we have no choice but to simp.

F- Free Spot (I’ll give you any headcanon I come up with)

-- i’m just gonna share one head canon that virgo anon tossed at me that really made me 🥺 baby nate 🥺 and how when he was younger he was always a nice boy 🥺 but wasnt the popular or “hot” one until he grew into himself in college 🥺 when he got maxie and it helped him manage his stress enough to be able to make connections 🥺y’all when she said that it made me heart 🥺 my sweet boy

G- Gifts (What kind of gifts do they give? What kind of gifts do they get?)

-- i think his gifts are rarely “over the top” but !! they’re simple and personalized!!! like a lil necklace w his initials / name 🥺or maybe he has someone make a picture of you two into an animation? like have someone draw you guys (do u know what im talking about?) as far as gifts for him, he enjoys like “interactive gifts” like sending him on a lil scavenger hunt (nate loves setting them up for you too 🥺) but if you set one up for HIM? god! he’d love you!

H- Hugs (How do they show affection/cuddle)

-- nate loves! loves! to give forehead kissies (not just because he’s tall fjhsjh) and being hugged (or picked up) in his strong arms!! loves it!! he loves being the big spoon 🥺i love him.

I- Irritation (What is something that irritates them? How do they show their irritation?)

-- that reader continues to choose duncan over him fkjsvsfkv he wears his heart on his sleeve so i think when nate is upset or irritated... you know.

J- Jackpot (How would they spend their winnings if they won the lottery?)

-- does nate have more $ than the shepherds? debatable. but he isn’t as... flashy w his money as duncan is. he’s a little more down to earth if that makes sense. BUT thats besides the point. he’d probably donate a lot to a charity of his choice than take you on a little get away. maybe a cross country road trip 🥺 or off to an island getaway. he’s flexible.

K- Kryptonite (What is their ultimate weakness?)

-- virgo anon made me 🥺when we were talking about this bc nate would do anything for the people he loves and 🥺that gets him hurt. especially when he feels like those people dont love him in the way he does them 🥺

L- Laughter (What makes them laugh?)

-- clown!! nate is the guy that always keeps you laughing 🥺and most times he cant even contain his own laughter omg i will cry im in love with one man

M- Morning ( How do they wake up in the morning? Are they a morning person or a morning grouch?)

-- he’s a morning person 🥺 likes to start off his morning with a run and protein shake SMH fitness KING.

N- Needy (When do they feel particularly needy? How do they show it?)

-- he’s so used to being the one who’s needed 🥺 it takes him a while to be comfy being vulnerable and needy. idk if there’s anything in particular that sets him off to be like this - but i’d like to think it happens at random. like youre on the couch and he just nuzzles his face on your tummy for you to pet his hair. he demonstrates it by wanting to be close to you 🥺

O- Oasis (Where is their happy place? Where would they go if they didn’t have anything holding them back?)

-- i think he’d be the kinda guy that enjoys the sun (not just bc he looks hot, shirtless on a beach) but yes. somewhere nice and sunny where he could have maxie w him 🥺if he could stay on the beach where he started falling for dumb!reader (with her) for ever he would 🥺

P- Pain (How do they handle pain? How do they handle when you are in pain?)

-- emotional or physical? jfgksjdgsdk but no i think if he’s well regulated, he can handle pain well - it’s when he’s not that it’s a problem (w emotional pain) he stops taking care of himself the way he should and really spirals into his head a lot you know 🥺i think he can handle others being in pain better than himself bc he loves a lot and its easier to focus his attention on trying to fix things for them (like we said his biggest weakness is doing too much for those he loves)

Q- Quote (What’s a quote that fits them and your relationship)

-- “loving is easy” fjskfsf not to be too corny but 🥺being w nate was easy... always on the same page.. and made her feel good. 🥺

R- Reunion (How do they celebrate seeing you after a long time of being apart)

-- lots!!! of kissies!! picking you up!! holding you close!!! physical touch is pretty high on his love language list i think 🥺(i think quality time or acts of service might be his top two though)

S- Stress (What stresses them out? How do deal with stress and how do they relieve it?)

-- i generally think duncan is more of a control freak than nate, but i do think to some extent, they’re similar that when things feel out of their control, it really stresses them out. i think it manifests at different times. i think for duncan its more trivial things whereas w nate, if he feels like he could be doing something to “fix” something and he cant do anything it freaks him out. hes a healer, you know. i think working out is a big stress reliever for him 🥺my strong baby!! that and goofing off w reader 🥺

T- Terror (What are they afraid of?)

-- this kinda ties into his weakness (and could be amplified by his younger years) but he’s afraid of not really being enough for those he loves. especially if he was teased as a kid 🥺maybe thats why in a lot of his nightmares the theme of abandonment appears a lot 🥺i made myself SAD 🥺

U- Unique (What is a quirk that is unique to them?)

-- i asked virgo anon for help on this one 🥺and i love her so much 🥺 nate tugs on his hair when he’s nervous 🥺 he gets a lil annoyed after he buzzes it off and doesnt have much to pull on 🥺he likes to hold hands when spooning. loves to sing along to disney movies (but lets be honest, he’s the real prince KING)

V- Violence (Do they fight a lot? Are they a good fighter? What is their fighting style?)

-- well... idk if it’s fair to say he fights a lot because he tries not to resort to that - especially grad school nate. mostly because he knows he’s good at fighting. omfg... boxer!nate.... may have all my rights. and he doesn’t really wanna hurt anyone. BUT if needed!!! he will throw down. (ex. when dunc wouldnt let y/n leave the house. and then attacked him!! nate had to stand his ground 😌

W- Wow (What do you do that really surprises them? What do you do that they really like?)

-- idk i think nate was probably really surprised when reader gave him that second chance at friendship in the bathroom 🥺didnt think she would. on a lighter note, surprising him w fresh cooked meals always make him 🥺because... he’s trying but hasnt mastered the cooking thing yet.

X- (Explicit headcanon. For all you degenerates)

-- he’s uhh packing 😳and it hits all the right spots, you know 😳omfg and lets not forget the dickscussion we had about his head game being stronger than duncans 😌

Y- Yucky (Is there something that grosses them out so badly that they can’t deal with it?)

-- i wasnt sure what really grossed out medical professionals (if anything djsfs) but we kinda head canon for him to be into family / pediatric medicine so anything w LOTS of blood loss probably freaks him out

Z- ZZZ’s (What are their sleeping habits? Both with and without you)

-- my baby. nate has really bad night terrors especially on bad(tm) days. it usually helps to have someone w him to be able to keep him calm when he wakes up 🥺if its not y/n you can bet maxie will be there for tons of kissies. he’s a sleep talker 🥺and when sleeping w you he loves being big spoon 🥺and when he’s alone, he kinda sleeps curled up and w a lot of pillows. comfort KING

#nate #dumb!reader #nate x dumb!reader #duncan x dumb!reader x nate #duncan shepherd

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mothmansbutt · 5 years

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i dont know why i got an anonymous submission of the entire script of happy feet but here we are

(SINGING) Once way was a way, to get back homeward…

(Are the stars out tonight?)

Once way was a way, to get back home…

I only have eyes

Sleep pretty darling, do not cry…

for you….

And I will sing a lullaby…

With the song in my heart

So, tell me…

Tell me something good…

Tell me that you love me

Tell me baby

Tell me something good

Only you…

Norma Jean: But how you can know for sure?

Can make this world seem right…

Norma Jean: Is there really just one?

I need your love…

Norma Jean: So many songs, but i’m feelin’ so lonely!

Where is the love?

Norma Jean (SINGING)

You don’t have to be beautiful..

To turn me on..

I just need your body baby

Other penguin: Hello…

Norma Jean: From tusk ‘till dawn..

(it is me your looking for….)

you don’t need experience

(take…)

to turn me on

(this broken wings)

you just leave it up to me

(let’s talk about eggs baby, let’s talk about you and me)

don’t have to be cool to be my pearl

don’t have to be cool to rule my world

ain’t particular song i’m more compatible with,

i just want your extra..

(STOP SINGING) boys, boys. Give a chick a chance.

(Memphis singing) Well since my baby left me

I found a place to dwell

It’s down at the lonely street, at heartbreak hotel.

I’m feelin so lonely baby

I’m feelin so lonely…

Oh i’m feelin so (Norma Jean) lonely… I could die.

(Memphis) don’t have to be cool to be my girl

(Norma Jean) don’t have to be cool to rule my world (Memphis) you rule my..

(Norma Jean) you’re the particular song i’m more compatible with…

I just wan’t your extra time and your kiss (Norma Jean and Memphis)

His mom and dad met in the usual way.

The song became love…

…and love became the egg.

Memphis?

-You got it, sugar? -Yeah. Oh, yeah.

Safe and warm.

Hold it tight, now.

Whoa, l think l felt a move in there.

And in the usual way…

…the moms left for the fishing season…

…while the dads stayed home to do egg time.

You gonna be okay, Daddy?

Oh, sure, honey. We’ll be waiting for you, right here on Lonely Street.

I love you more and more, tell me why

Bye-bye, now.

Goodbye, Norma Jean. Don’t you worry about a thing.

Don’t wanna let you go

I never can say goodbye, boy

When all others leave…

…we remain!

When the sun vanishes…

…we remain!

I’m feelin’ so lonely I’m feelin’ so lonely–

Heed the wisdoms, brothers! Make a huddle!

Warm thy egg!

Make a huddle!

-Share the cold! -Share the cold.

Each must take his turn against the icy blast…

…if we are to survive the endless night.

Raise your voices, brothers!

Give praise to the Great ‘Guin…

…who puts songs in our hearts and fish in our bellies!

Ain’t no particular song I’m more compatible with

Oh, baby, l think l wanna dance now.

No, no, no.

There is a wisdom, brothers and sisters…

…that stands above all others.

-Never, ever… -lt’s okay.

-…no matter what… -No harm done. See?

…drop your egg.

No, we’re cool. We’re cool.

Of the many thousands who sang through that long night of winter…

…it was Memphis who cried out most fervently…

…to turn the Earth and bring back the sun.

-lt’s a boy! -Hey, it’s a girl!

-What a peach! -What a bruiser!

-Come here, son. -Come to Daddy, there you go.

Son, you have made your daddy so proud.

lt’s all genetics, you know.

Memphis?

ls everything okay?

l don’t know. l can’t hear anything.

-ls it empty? -Honey.

-Can l have it? -Gloria.

lt’s okay, Maurice.

lt happens sometimes, Memphis.

Yeah.

Wait, you hear that?

-Yeah. -Hey, l can hear you, buddy.

Oh, your papa’s here, it’s okay.

Oh, he’s okay, Maurice. Whoa, there it is!

That’s his little foot there.

There’s his other one.

That’s different.

Hey! Come back here, Mr. Mumble.

Gloria….

She can call him whatever the heck she likes.

Whoa, little Mumble.

-Mumble? Mumble? -You okay?

Freezing. Freezing.

Oh, you’ll get used to it.

Come on. Come to your daddy.

-What do you make of that? -Little wobbly in the knees.

-ls he okay? -l don’t know.

What you doing there, boy?

l’m happy, Pa.

What you doing with your feet?

They’re happy too.

-l wouldn’t do that around folks, son. -Why not?

-Well, it just ain’t penguin, okay? -Okay.

Yeah. Hey, come on over here. Get under here. Get warm.

Watch the beak. Watch the beak– Beak!

The beak.

Okay, good boy.

So late. What’s keeping them?

Pray, brothers, the Great 'Guin does not test us with a lean season.

Why, Noah? Have we not all been dutiful?

So when you see your mama….

-l stand perfectly still. -You got it.

But how will l know which one’s my mama?

Oh, you’ll know.

She’s got a wiggle in her walk and a giggle in her talk.

And when she sings, it darn near breaks your heart.

Hey, wait. l see them. l see them!

You’re right! You’re right!

Wives, ho!

Wait, no. Wait, no, Mumble, get back here. No, Mumble! Get back– Mumble!

Mumble! Mumble!

Mumble!

Michelle? Michelle?

-Roxanne? -Michelle?

Alfie?

-Maurice! -Michelle! Michelle!

Mommy!

Oh, she’s so darling.

Excuse me. Pardon me, pardon me. Mumble? Mumble?

Oh, Mumble.

-Mama? -Mumble!

Mumble!

Mama? Mama?

-Mumble, boy, where are you? -Mama!

Memphis?

Oh, Mama. Oh, Mama.

-Oh, my. -Daddy.

So where’s the baby?

Well, honey, l’ll find him.

-You lost the baby? Memphis! -lt’s okay.

-Mama? Mama? -Stay!

-Come to Mommy. -No, Mumble.

Mama, Mama.

Hey, what’s wrong with his feet?

Oh, that’s just a little thing he’s got going. He’ll grow out of it.

Mama!

Oh, Memphis, he’s gorgeous.

-lsn’t he, though? -Look at you.

l got something for you.

Open up.

Oh, l love the way she does that.

W, X, Y and Z

Good morning, class.

Good morning, Miss Viola.

Right.

Well, today we begin with the most important lesson you will ever learn…

…at Penguin Elementary.

Does anyone know what that is?

Anyone? Anyone?

Someone? Seymour?

-Fishing? -No.

Mumble?

Don’t eat yellow snow?

No, that’s not it, no.

-lt’s our Heartsong, Miss. -Thank you, Gloria. Excellent, yes.

Without our Heartsong, we can’t be truly penguin, can we?

No.

But, my dears, it’s not something that l can actually teach you.

Does anybody know why? Anyone? Anyone?

You can’t teach it to us, ma'am…

…because we have to find our Heartsongs all by ourselves.

Well done, you.

lt’s the voice you hear inside…

…who you truly are.

Yes. Thank you, Gloria. Excellent, lovely, thank you.

So let’s all be very still now.

Take a moment and let it come to you.

-l got one! -Pick me!

-Pick me! Pick me! -One at a time. Yes, Seymour.

Don’t push me 'Cause I am close to the edge

I’m trying not to lose my head

Yes, l like that one. l could really get jiggy with that. Lovely.

l’m ready. l got one.

Oh, l thought you might, Gloria.

Midnight creeps so slowly

Into hearts of those

Who need more than they get

Daylight deals a bad hand

To a penguin

Who has laid too many bets

That’s as far as l got so far.

-Oh, yes, lovely. Really lovely. -That’s beautiful.

Well, Mumble, since you seem so keen to share.

Mine’s sort of a boom and a:

And another boom.

You heard that in there?

-Do you like it? -l’m afraid that’s not a tune.

-lt’s not? -No, dear. A tune is like:

Oh, okay.

Who is that?

That is the offspring of Memphis and Norma Jean.

The wee hippity-hopper.

lt’s not funny!

No. No, not in the least.

A penguin without a Heartsong is hardly a penguin at all.

l think he broke my ear.

ln all my years, l’ve never, l mean–

And you having such fine voices. Well, it’s bizarre.

Did anything happen, you know, during early development?

No, all fine. Normal incubation.

-Right. -Wasn’t it, honey?

Yeah. Yeah, it was a tough winter, l guess.

Right, right.

-He did hatch a little late– -Yes, l understand. Yes.

-To think he might spend his life alone… -Quite, quite.

…never to meet his one true love.

Oh, please, Miss Viola, isn’t there something we can do?

Well, there is always Mrs. Astrakhan.

Mrs. Astrakhan?

lf anyone can, Mrs. Astrakhan can.

Can’t sing?

Can’t sing? Rubbish, darling.

Every little penguin has a song.

When l have finished…

…your singing will be giving everyone the goose pimple.

Now, to begin. First, we must find a feeling.

Happy feeling, sad feeling.

Maybe lonely feeling.

You feel it?

Good. Now, let it out.

Be spontaneous.

That, what is that?

l’m being spontan-you-us.

Darling, you want to meet beautiful girl?

You want to make the egg?

Oh, yes.

Well, sing! And no jiggy-jog. Do not move muscle.

No moving!

Twinkle, twinkle, little star

Enough!

Okay. We go back to the top.

Forget body. Look inside soul.

Feel the feeling. Enormous feeling.

So enormous it fills whole body.

lt must escape or you explode.

-Now, open your little beak. -Come on.

Yes, yes. Lift up the head, that’s it.

Now…. Now….

Now

Disaster! Catastrophe!

l never fail before.

Never! Never!

-Well, l thought it was kind of cute. -But it just ain’t penguin, okay?

So what if he’s a little different? l always kind of liked different.

He’s not different. He’s a regular emperor penguin.

Hey, you know what? l can leave school.

l can go to work. The three of us.

Whoa, little fella. You ain’t going nowhere till you got yourself an education.

You get them singing muscles big and strong, you got that?

l’ll try, Pa.

You bet you will. The word triumph starts with try, and it ends with…?

-Umph. -That’s right. A great big umph.

l’m going fishing.

Oh, Mumble.

That first hard summer…

…while his mom and dad were working overtime…

…on the great commute to the sea…

…Mumble found a place away from disapproving eyes…

…where a funky little fella could be himself.

Hey, what you doing there, flipper bird?

Nothing. What are you doing?

Nothing. Just dropped in for a little lunch.

There’s food? Here?

Leg or wing?

Oh, no, no, wait. Not me, l’m a penguin.

Exactly. The flipper birds, that’s you, eat the fish.

The flying birds, that’s me, eat the flipper bird and the fish.

And lately, there ain’t a lot of fish.

-So…. -This time l’m getting the juicy bits.

-Me first! -Hey, you want a piece of me?

Hey, hey, hey! l’m trying to think about lunch.

Wait! Watch this!

Yeah, that’s weird, all right. Listen. For once, we’re gonna do this civilized.

-Now, get in line– -Hey! What’s that on your leg?

-What? This little thing? -Oh, no. Don’t start him on that.

Shut up! The little flipper bird asked me a perceptive question.

-A question like that deserves an answer. -Here we go.

l got two words for you:

Alien abduction.

-Oh, you had to ask. -Have mercy.

Quiet!

Now, little buddy, there is something out there.

Creatures. Not like us.

Bigger, fiercer, and smarter too.

-Ask me how l know. -How?

Because l’ve been captured by them, that’s how.

Unbelievable.

What do you mean unbelievable? lt’s true.

l’m sitting on a rock, minding my own business…

…when suddenly, they’re onto me.

These beings, like big ugly penguins.

Fat, flabby faces with front-ways eyes…

…no feathers, no beaks, and these– These appendages.

They probe me. They tie me up. They strap me down.

They take this pointy thing and they stick it into me.

And then, blackout.

Gosh.

l woke up and there’s this– This thing on me.

Every flying bird is dissing me, Hey, what’s happening, yellow leg?

lt was humiliating.

And then what?

lt was humiliating. What more do you want?

They could have eated you.

Yeah. Yeah.

l guess my pitiful cries for mercy appealed to their better nature.

Can l appeal to your better nature?

Nice try, kid, but no.

No. No. No!

What you doing down there, flipper bird?

Get up here.

Get back up here this minute.

Oh, great. You let him get away. Didn’t you?

All your screwy alien talk.

-Hey, l’m an abductee. -Abduct this.

-Don’t make me call Uncle Angie. -Oh, fine.

Where youse going? l’m an abductee!

-l don’t care what you are, l’m hungry! -Would you like to hear our specials?

How about fish? There’s no fish. How about penguin? There’s no penguin.

What are we gonna eat?!

There’s a world where I can go

And tell my secrets to

In my room

Paying no mind to his dancing heart…

…the kid saw out his school days at the back of the class…

…lost in his imaginings.

Now it’s dark and I’m–

What fabulous worlds lay out there, far beyond the ice?

–I won’t be afraid

Was there any place…

…where one small penguin without a Heartsong…

…could ever truly belong?

In my room

And so, a thousand generations ago…

…our forefathers forsook our wings for flippers.

You graduates going to sea for the first time…

…are to reap the benefits of their wise choice.

These are lean and uncertain times.

But by the power of the ancient penguin wisdoms…

…we, my brethren, will endure.

-Blah, blah, blah. -Norma Jean.

Who is he to say my boy can’t graduate? He’s not hurting anyone.

–true to our ways and you will always be worthy of this…

…our brave penguin nation. Excelsior!

Ocean, here l come!

You know what? We’re gonna have a little graduation ceremony of our own.

-You mean it, Ma? -You betcha.

-Excelsior! -Excelsior!

Keep it down.

-Pa. -Memphis.

-Go get them, tiger. -Thanks, Ma.

-Make every moment count! -Got you, Ma!

-Remember, Stranger Danger. -Yeah, sure, Pa.

And watch out for those leopard seals and them killer whales.

Mark this, Noah.

That boy was always a bad egg. l’m telling you, no good will come of this.

Guys!

Wait up!

What do you think?

-You first. -No, you first.

No. No, no, no.

Stop pushing!

-What was that? -l think it was the fuzzball.

See any blood?

What you waiting for?

Hey, Gloria!

Gloria, l adore-ia. l’d like to see more-ia.

Gloria.

-Mumble? -Gloria.

l’m sorry. l didn’t mean to….

Fall back, coming through!

Gloria? All my life, l’ve wanted to say that you’re so–

-Fish. -Yeah. You’re so fish.

No. Fish!

Fish!

Oh, that’s mine.

-That’s lousy. -You didn’t get one?

Sorry.

Gloria. You got one?

-Nope. Not this time. -You have it.

-Thank you, Mumble, but it’s yours. -l want you to have it.

-No. You caught it. You eat it. -l want you to–

Skua! You get back here!

-Come on. -Mumble! Let go!

Mumble! Let go!

You just let him get away!

-ls he breathing? -He’s certainly not eating.

Mumble? Are you okay?

Mumble?

Take the fish.

-What? -Take the stupid fish.

Oh, okay.

Thank you, Mumble.

You’re welcome.

–somebody to

Love

On this, our night of graduation, infatuation, illumination…

…top of the class, Missy Gloria.

Each morning I get up, I die a little

Can barely stand on my feet

Take a look at yourself

Take a look in the mirror and cry a little

Lord, what you doing to me?

I spent all my years in believing you

I just can’t get no relief, Lord

-Somebody -Somebody

-Somebody -Please

Can anybody find me

Somebody to love?

-She works hard -Every day

Every day

Oh, I try and I try and I try

But everybody wants to put me down

They say, they say, I’m going crazy

They say I got a lot of water in my brain

Got no common sense I got nobody left to believe in

What’s wrong with you?

-Mumble. -Yeah?

-lt’s better you just– -Yeah, l know.

-You listen. You know? -Yeah.

-Sorry. -lt’s okay.

-Sorry. -Sing the song.

You’re great. That was great.

Oh, baby, find me

Come on. Put your flippers in the air, now.

Find me somebody to love

l’m searching high and low.

l’m searching the high and low.

Yes, there’s somebody out there who needs to find me.

Somebody, anybody

l’m somebody.

I wanna love someone

Send someone over here

Can anybody find me

Somebody to

Love

Mumble!

-Who do you think you are? -Yeah, you’re spoiling it for everybody.

-Take a flying leap. -Yeah, jump in the lake.

Where is my baby?

Anybody find me, find me Find me, find me

Somebody

Okay, fellas. Cut it out.

l’m completely terrified.

Gloria?

Guys?

Get up here or l’ll come in after you.

-Safe! -Oh, yeah!

-You the bomb, bro. -That’s a 9.8.

-l give you 1 0. -Why?

Oh, no, no, no. Come on. Bring it. Bring it on.

-Kiss my frozen tushy. -Kiss it. Kiss it.

Come here, sausage. l take you with ketchup.

But first you got to catch up.

Oh, here he comes. You better move in a half an hour.

Let’s get out of here.

-Hey, amigo, do that again. -Do what?

-That thing with the– -The clickety-clickety.

-That. -Yeah, do it.

-Come on, come on. -Well, l just kind of go:

-Yeah, yeah, yeah. -Oh, nice.

And then this:

Way to go! lt’s amazing!

-Oh, the little whisker. -Look at him.

Oh, he’s leaving. Oh, no, that was his face!

Remember, dumplings, l know where you live.

Yeah, it’s called land, lard face.

Flop back anytime, rubber butt!

See you, fatty.

That’s cool. See you, fatty!

Did it take you a while to come up with that one?

All right, way to go, tall guy.

Give me fin, give me fin.

To the left, to the right I’m getting it, oh, yes

Look out, here I go

I got it, I got it, I don’t, I had it

Oh, my stomach hurts. l gotta pee.

Ain’t you coming, tall boy?

What, you got something better to do?

-No. -Well, then, come along, Fluffy, let’s go.

Hey, stretch, you like to party?

Party? l guess so.

Well, stick with us, baby.

Yeah, because we practically own the action here.

Mambo!

Everybody’s so…spontan-you-us.

Spontan-you-us!

And these are the bad times!

-Yeah, our food chain go loco. -Everyone a bit down.

But it ain’t gonna stop no party!

-Viva la party! -Watch me work.

Gosh, he’s eating rocks.

-You hear what he said? -Eating rocks.

But he had a rock in his mouth.

That’s no rock, hombre. lt’s love stones.

-For building the nest. -The one with the most pebbles wins.

You know:

You’re not interested in chicas?

-Hey, hey, hey. -You kidding?

Without us, the chicas got no boom.

-Why aren’t you collecting pebbles? -Pebbles, schmebbles, man.

We got personality, with a capital Y. Why? Because we’re hot.

Watch and learn, tall boy.

-Hey. Hey, baby. -Over here, mama. Chicky baby.

-Baby. -What are you looking at?

-You looking at me? -Come over here.

-Come on, mamí. -You see something you like, yes?

l don’t think so. Not tonight, baby.

Oh, don’t be so snooty, booty.

That’s the way…you like it, you like it

You want it, I got it Could’ve had it, you missed it

Look at the feet, huh?

-Where’d you learn that? -The big guy.

-He from out of town. -He with us.

-Do it again. -Do it, baby. Show me those flipping feet.

-No, no, no. Sorry, girls. -Some other time maybe.

You guys are soft in the head, okay?

Let’s go.

-Leave them wanting more, you know? -Hold back till the season.

-You show them what you got. -Either you got it or not.

-And the Amigos? -We got it!

You think l could get some of it?

Hombre, you’ve got so much already, you dangerous, baby.

You really think so?

You kidding? With moves like yours…

…you must have all the ladies drooling at your feet.

-l wouldn’t say that. -Oh, listen to him. He’s so cute.

Let me tell something to you.

Except for me, tall boy, you got the most charisma of anybody.

Put that ego away, Ramón, you’re gonna hurt someone.

You so jealous. Just a moment. l hear people wanting something.

Me!

-Mambo -Okay, you girlies, Mambo

One more time now, mambo Mambo, mambo, mambo

Mambo!

Your turn, your turn.

Oh, get down.

Man, this guy is so accidentally cool.

Okay, okay.

Mama!

Mommy!

Come on, Fluffy.

Oh, l love gravity.

-Oh, l feel like reminiscing. -Remin-icing?

-lt was too close. -Come on, come on.

Hey, guys! Where are we going?

-We relocating. -Placing ourselves elsewhere.

-But that thing, what was it? -How should we know?

-We’re penguins. -Very little penguins.

But where did it come from? lt’s so weird, so alien.

-What’s he talking about? -Some hombre called Elian.

l don’t know a guy Elian. l knew a guy named Estevan–

-Not Estevan, Elian. -Guys, we have a mystery here.

A mind-boggling mystery.

So? What are we supposed to do about it?

Amigos, we gotta get to the bottom of this thing.

Big guy, let me tell something to you. Come close. Don’t be afraid.

-You want answers? -Yeah.

-That’s all you need? -Yeah.

-Nothing else? -No.

Then this is very easy.

You go see Lovelace.

-Lovelace. -Go see Lovelace.

-Genius, Ramón. You are the man. -Thank you.

-l take a moment for myself. -Let’s go.

-Bow down. -You the man.

-That’s enough, l feel your love. -Who’s Lovelace?

-Lovelace is the guru. -Go see Lovelace.

-He got the answer to everything. -Everything.

-Really? -Ask him, he never wrong.

But first, you gonna need a pebble.

Hold it, y'all. I have a warning for the audience.

Ladies, please, avert your eyes…

…because I’ve been known to hypnotize.

You heard the voice, now you’re about to meet…

…the one and only Lovelace, in the flesh…

…right here, right on, right now.

The devotion, please.

Oh, yeah.

And now, your question.

Senor Lovelace…

…my wife has disappeared. ls she alive?

Is she alive now? Separate the truth from the jive

Speak to me, oh, mystic beings

Yes! She’s happy and you’re in her thoughts.

ls she with another male?

One pebble, one question. Next!

Oh, Serene One. Please ask the mystic beings…

…will l ever be as rich as you?

ln your dreams, Jean. Next!

-Go ahead. Go ahead. -Get up there, big guy.

-That’s it. Don’t be scared. -Gentleman, please! One at a time.

-We with him. -Yeah, we together.

-He got a beautiful question. Go. -Do it.

Just don’t look him in the eye.

Have you ever been abducted by aliens?

Excuse me? What kind of question is that? Next!

No, wait, senor.

l met a skua once, with something like that on his foot, said he was abducted by aliens.

This, friend, is my sacred talisman…

Talisman, talisman

…bestowed on me by the mystic beings…

Mystic beings

…during my Epic Journey of Enlightenment…

…to the Forbidden Shore.

Forbidden shore

Oh, say it one more.

-Forbidden shore -Oh, yeah

Wait, you saw mystic beings?

l hear them! They speak through me!

Oh, yeah.

There’s a power that makes me stand upon this tower!

Did they have front-ways eyes? Did they probe you? Strap you down?

Enough! Did they probe me?

Too many questions! You don’t have enough pebbles, fool.

You haven’t answered any of my questions.

-How many questions he got? -We’ve all got stuff to ask!

Enough!

You bring this stranger before me.

He doubts my powers. He compares me to a skua.

The voices are shrieking in my head.

They say, Lovelace, who is this fool?

Tell him! Tell him to go forth and multiply!

Come to think of it…

…why don’t we all go forth and multiply?

-Lovelace. -What he saying?

-lt’s mating season. -Already?

l will retire now to my couch of perpetual indulgence.

-Okay, ladies, who’s first? -Me!

One at a time. Don’t touch the talisman, baby, please.

Hey, wait a minute. Wait a minute. What about us?

Lovelace, Lovelace, Lovelace!

Hear me!

There’s not enough love in the world.

Turn to the penguin next to you.

Put your flippers up. Fluff him up a little bit.

And give him a great big hug.

Okay, ladies.

Oh, make that little noise again, girl.

Hey, what he got we don’t got, man?

-What you hugging me for? -He told me to.

-Get away. -No, you like it.

Get off him, Ramón.

Stretch, got any stones where you come from?

-We don’t collect stones. -You don’t? Why not?

We live on the ice.

So how you win the heart of the ladies?

Well, we sing.

-Stop! That’s crazy! -You’re kidding, right?

No. We sing to each other.

lf someone special likes your song, you know….

Oh, and you have someone special?

-A tall beauty in your dark romantic past? -Of which you never speak?

Well, sort of.

Hey, let’s go check it out. Maybe she got some friends.

l like them tall.

lt’s never gonna work.

-Hey, big guy. -lt’s the loving season.

All you gotta do is sing.

That’s the problem. l can’t.

-You a bird, ain’t you? -All birds can sing.

I don’t sing like the birdie do

All right.

Find me, find me

What’s he doing?

-l think he’s singing. -l know singing, that’s not singing.

l heard an animal once do that, but then they rolled him over, he was dead.

Yeah. And when she sings, it darn near breaks your heart.

You in tragic shape, man.

-Don’t worry. We can fix it. -We can?

-Absolutely. We can. We can. -We can?

-Really? -Yes! Let me tell something to you.

-Come close. Closer. You wanna sing? -Yeah.

-You sure? -Absolutely.

You making fun of me? Then this is very easy.

Really? Gosh, if l could sing, that would change everything.

You will sing. You just got to do exactly what l say.

-Okay. -Did l say okay?

-No. -No. What did l say?

-Do exactly what you say. -Exactly what l say.

Don’t push me 'Cause I’m close to the edge

I’m trying not to lose my…

Gloria

It’s like a jungle sometimes It makes me wonder

How I keep from going under

Midnight creeps so slowly

Into hearts of those Who need more than they get

Daylight deals a bad hand

To a penguin who has laid too many bets

I’ll make love to you Like you want me to

And I’ll hold you tight, baby, all…

Gloria

The mirror stares you in the face

And says, Baby–

Shake a bon-bon, Shake a–

It don’t work

You say your prayers Though you don’t care

Boys! Boys!

Boys!

Mumble?

Mumble.

Oh, hi, Gloria.

And this is you?

Sure, it’s me. You like?

Well, l would, if it were really you, yeah.

Well, it is me, sort of.

Yeah.

Turn around.

-Turn around. -Why?

-Well, why not? -Well….

-What do you know? -Yeah.

My way

-Gloria. -Mumble, how could you?

Hello.

l know size can be daunting, but don’t be afraid. l love you.

-Gloria, please. -l love you.

-Gloria! -Gloria!

-Please, Gloria, wait! -Please, Gloria, wait for me!

-Stop it! -Okay.

Mumble, what could you possibly be thinking?

l don’t know what else to do.

Oh, Gloria, no.

Gloria

Go up there, right now.

Daylight deals a bad hand…

Gloria. Gloria.

Sing to this.

Mumble, you’re embarrassing me.

Baby…it don’t work.

Baby

So slowly

So slowly into hearts of those

Who need more than they get

Daylight deals a bad hand

To a penguin that has laid too many bets

The mirror stares you in the face

You say your prayers Though you don’t care And says, Baby…it don’t work

You sing and you shake the hurt

Dance!

Boogie wonderland

Dance

Boogie wonderland

Midnight creeps so slowly

Into hearts of men Who need more than they get

Daylight deals a bad hand

To a penguin who has laid too many bets

The mirror stares you in the face

And says, Baby…it don’t work

You say your prayers Though you don’t care

You dance and shake the hurt

Dance!

Mumble!

Boogie wonderland

Dance, dance, dance

Mumble

Boogie wonderland

My brothers

You look so beautiful to me, baby

-Mumble. -Hey, Miss Viola.

-All the love in the world can’t be gone -Mumble!

-All the need to be loved can’t be wrong -Mumble!

Disgraceful!

Who do they think they are?

Where is Noah? This is getting out of hand.

Hey, Memphis. lt’s your boy, Mumble.

-Mumble? -Mumble?

No, no. No, it's Mambo. O!

Baby. They’re saying, Mumble.

Boogie!

Behold, Noah, look!

This was an omen from the start and now we have this uprising.

Stop! Stop!

Stop this unruly nonsense!

Stop it right now!

A little self-control, if you please!

You bring this disorder, this aberration, to the very heart of our community.

Have you lost your minds?

-We’re just having fun. -Harmless fun.

Harmless? lt is this kind of backsliding that has brought the scarcity upon us.

Excuse me, smiley. Can you speak plain penguin, please?

He thinks the food shortage has something to do with me.

Do you not understand that we can only survive here when we’re in harmony?

When you and your foreign friends lead us into your easy ways…

…you offend the Great 'Guin.

You invite him to withhold his bounty.

-He rules the seasons. -He giveth and he can taketh away.

Wait a minute. Happy feet can’t cause a famine.

lf thy kind of pagan display did not cause it, then what did?

l think it comes from outside. Way beyond the ice.

There are things out there, things we don’t understand.

-Mysteries. -Mind-boggling mysteries.

-Mystic beings. -Yeah, aliens.

-He’s mad. -No, aliens.

-l hear they’re smart. -He’s insane.

No, they might be smarter than all of us. Who knows?

He drove the fish away, now he’s ranting this rubbish!

-Hey, let me tell something to you. -Don’t touch me, you filthy vermin.

-Hey, watch it. -And so it follows.

Dissent leads to division and division leads us to doom.

-You, Mumble Happy Feet, must go. -Hear, hear.

Don’t you take one step, sweetheart.

You have as much right to be here as any of these daffy old fools.

Norma Jean, l’ll deal with this.

Pa?

Mumble, you must renounce your so-called friends…

…your peculiar thoughts, your strange ways.

-Memphis. -lf we are devout…

…sincere in our praise, the fish will return.

-But, Pa– -Listen, boy, l was a backslider myself.

l was careless and now we’re paying the price.

What’s this got to do with Mumble?

-lt’s why he is the way he is. -There’s nothing wrong with him!

-Face it, our son’s all messed up. -He’s not messed up, hear me?

-Believe me, l know. -How can you say that?

Because when he was just an egg, l dropped him!

Memphis.

Mumble.

Oh, my poor little Mumble.

But, Mom, l’m perfectly fine.

-No. No, you’re not, boy. -That’s right.

For all our sakes, you must stop this freakiness with the feet.

Your father speaks wisely. Heed his suffering heart and repent.

But it just doesn’t make any sense.

Then your arrogance leaves us no choice!

No, wait.

Please, son, you can do this. lt ain’t so hard.

Don’t ask me to change, Pa, because l can’t.

And that, my brethren, is the end of it.

You, begone!

-Mumble. -No, Ma, it’s okay. lt’s okay.

Let me tell something to you.

When l find out what’s happening to the fish…

…l’ll be back.

Let me through? Let me through.

-Mumble, you don’t have to go. -Let it be.

-Gloria. -No. No, Dad, this isn’t fair.

Gloria, listen to your father.

My folks were always putting him down

Down, down, down

They said he came From the wrong side of town

He came from the wrong side of town

They told me he was bad

So bad

-But I know he was sad -So sad

I’ll never forget him The leader of the pack

We sing the heart of our true friend, Mumble.

You are a nation of peeny-weeny, piffling, piccolini, piddly-diddly pouft!

Together, we prevail.

ln the wisdoms, we trust.

We trust.

Look out

Look

Don’t worry, tall guy. My father also called me a pitiful loser.

Look how l turn out.

You’re not helping, Ramón.

He gonna be okay. All he gotta do is find out what happened to the fish.

-How he gonna do that? -He think of something.

-The aliens. -What?

-l’m gonna talk to the aliens. -How you gonna find aliens?

-Lovelace. -He don’t like you. He don’t like you at all.

That’s okay. l’ll appeal to his better nature.

-How you gonna do that? -Cruel and unusual punishment?

-Unimaginable torture? -lmaginable torture?

-Your singing? -No!

Can anybody find me…

-You’re cracking the ice! -Avalanche!

Yes, okay. Thank you.

Lovelace. You there?

Lovelace!

Lovelace.

Lovelace?

ls this a bad time?

l know we don’t have an appointment, but–

Just one question and l want a straight answer.

Where do l find the mystic beings?

Why don’t he speak?

Lovelace, you okay?

-Boy, he’s possessed. -lt’s a seizure! lt’s a seizure!

-Open the beak. -Grab his tongue.

He’s choking. That thing around his neck, it’s too tight.

-Well, why didn’t you say so? -On three.

Stop! Listen! No! Amigos! Amigos! Stop!

-What? -You’re hurting him.

Any better?

Lovelace, how did you get that thing around your neck?

-lt was bestowed on him. -By the mystic beings.

-They didn’t bestow it? -No.

Oh, come on, he don’t know what he’s saying.

You were swimming and it just got caught around your neck.

Oh, no way. He the guru.

Lovelace, did you ever actually meet a mystic being?

Officially?

No.

l knew it! lt’s all a lie.

But this belongs to someone.

lf we could find them, l bet you they could take it off.

Show me where you found it. l’m sure they could help us. You and me both.

Two words, three syllables.

-What is it? -You’re dying?

No, no, wait. Past, past, your past life.

You’re passing gas.

Now he thinks he’s an elephant seal.

No, no, no. Go over the mountains.

-Go over the mountains! -Through the land of the elephant seals.

-Beyond the land of the elephant seals. -Beyond the land of the elephant seals!

-Wait. -What?

l hear voices.

-There is a voice. -Where?

-There’s a little voice on the wind. -Mumble!

-Mambo? -Mambo?

-Listen. -Mumble Happy Feet.

-Gloria? -Gloria!

Gloria?

Hey, you got a stalker. She’s obsessed with you, man.

l can’t believe it’s you.

Of course it’s me.

What are you doing here?

All the love in the world can’t be gone

All the need to be loved can’t be wrong

-Oh, my. -So which way, twinkletoes?

No, no, no. lf you come, you may never get back home.

Fine by me.

Gloria, you have a life back there. l don’t. l mean, we don’t. Not out here.

How can we keep an egg safe? That’s if we ever had an egg.

Well, l don’t need an egg to be happy.

You say that now, but what about later when all your friends have eggs?

Then l’ll have you.

Now he’s going to pledge his soul forever.

-Aw, Gloria. -Here it comes.

l’m a particular kind of guy, the kind of guy who needs his own space.

lt’s not you, it’s me.

l’m just not up for a serious relationship right now.

What he’s trying to do now is he’s pushing her away.

-Mumble. -Let’s watch.

No matter what you say or do, you’re stuck with me.

Oh, come on. As if you’re not totally thrilled that l’m here.

-Now she got him on the ropes. -See, right there is your problem.

You think you’re irresistible, don’t you?

l don’t care where you’re from, that’s got to hurt.

-Excuse me? -Gloria’s so gorgeous, Gloria’s so talented.

What?

Just because you can hit a few high notes.

You got a problem with my singing?

No, it’s perfectly fine.

-Fine? -lf you like that sort of thing.

-lt’s a little Nana Tootsie for my taste.

Ouch

What?

You know, showy, flashy, froufrou.

-Froufrou? -That’s right.

Ah, Coming from someone who thinks it’s cool to jig up and down really fast on the spot…

…like some twitchy idiot.

Ugh! You stubborn, hippity-hoppity fool!

Right back at you.

Ugh!

Amigo, that was a good thing you do.

She is going to be so much better off without you.

She is going to find a good, steady guy to comfort her…

…and love her up real good and raise a big family.

-Ramón. -And then she’s going to let herself go–

Ramón. He’s hurting. He’s hurting bad.

Oh, listen, listen, don’t hold it in or you explode. You got to let it out.

You just let it out. You let it out.

Everybody, turn away for a moment.

If she leave him now

She take away the biggest part of him

Ooo, ooo, ooo, ooo

Don’t, baby, please, don’t go

Please, guys.

No more singing.

Then she say to me, Enough, you are making me nauseous.

So l become silent, almost moody, and you know what she says?

You never share. You got to let it out.

-Ramón, come on. -Let it out. Let it out.

Stop it! Let it go.

-l never had a good relationship in my life. -Give him a hug. Give him a hug.

-l let it out! -There we go.

-l let it out. -l know. Get over it.

-Can you keep going? -Yeah.

-What’s that smell? -lt wasn’t me.

Hey, Fluffy, we’re following you. Get up here.

So these elephant seals, they’re not penguin eaters, are they?

l don’t know. l believe they are herbivores.

-What? -You know, kelp-suckers.

Here we go, Lovelace. Come on.

Jump in time. Jump in time.

-Okay, let’s do it. -Okay, okay, okay. Ready?

l can do this. l can do this. l got to trick myself.

Boy, look at that. What?

You blokes better be lost, because trespassing’s a crime.

-We’re just passing through. -Yeah. We’re with him.

Oh, You wouldn’t be heading over them distant hills…

…and through the blizzard country?

lf it’s the only way to the forbidden shore, yeah.

Crikey.

You might come face to face with an annihilator.

An alien annihilator?

Too right. Cut you up as soon as look at you.

Waste every living thing in their path.

Could they be annihilating the fish?

Every living thing.

Merciless, mate. Merciless.

Even if you’re a whopping great whale…

…they drag your sorry carcass ashore…

…dice you up, melt you down, and turn you into fun food.

One day you’re a big old whale…

…next minute…

…fun food.

Someone’s gotta stop them.

Oh, yeah? What’s gonna be your approach?

lf l could just talk to them.

Appeal to their better nature.

Beauty.

When that crafty little trick pays off, you be sure to let us know, won’t you?

All right, Lovelace, let’s go.

See you, Lovelace.

Your funeral, mate.

Oh, man!

-Push tight. -Okay.

Come on, guys. Let’s do it.

You can do it. Come on, push!

What’s that noise?

There’s no noise.

-No gasping. No wheezing. -Where’s Lovelace?

Sometimes a brave penguin will just slip away to die.

Do you think he went to a happy place?

-Probably. -No, no. l think he went this way.

Come on. Let’s go.

Lovelace!

Hello?

ls there anyone there?

-No– No need to shout. -Somebody might hear you.

His feet don’t look too good.

-He rested here. -Now he’s on his belly!

-No, this way. -You don’t want to know what he did here.

-You’re right. -There he is. Lovelace!

-All right! Lovelace! -Lovelace!

-Oh, look at Lovelace. -We’re here.

-Are you okay? -Come on, man. Hang in there, buddy.

What is it?

Oh, look. There’s one for everyone.

Hang in there, Lovelace. l know they’re here somewhere.

-Why would they leave all this behind? -l don’t know.

Hey.

-Tell them we come in peace. -We come in peace!

-Lovelace. -Lovelace.

-Lovelace. -Oh, buddy, come on.

-Are you okay? -Hang in there, buddy.

-Oh, that’s not good. -Stay calm.

-Stay calm. -That’s not good.

-Okay, don’t stay calm! -Panic!

Oh, no, no!

-Oh, they’re making us appe-teasers. -They’re appe-teasing us!

We’re all gonna die.

Whatever you do, stay out of the water!

-Stay out of the water. -Don’t go in the water!

Lovelace, don’t go in the water!

Lovelace, hang in there!

Hang in there!

Get your dirty tongue off him!

No, no, no!

Stay out of the water!

-Mumble! -Mumble!

-They playing birdminton? -No, it’s a show. Dinner and a show.

Lovelace!

Rejoice!

Lovelace!

-Help! -Reach out!

Thank you, my brother, thank you!

l wasn’t scared! l wasn’t scared!

Oh, my beautiful brother, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you!

-Go, Lovelace! You the man! -Go, go, go, go, go!

Enough!

lt’s a bad day for you!

You dealing with Lovelace now!

-And my man, Mumble, here. -You tell them, Lovelace.

Begone, demon fish. Adios.

That’s right.

You hightail it back to your mamas.

-How did he do that? -Don’t make me come in the water.

l’ll come after your sons and daughters.

l’m gonna give you the bad eye.

A whole bunch of them.

They gonna rule the world.

lt’s gotta be them.

-lf it is, l don’t wanna know about it. -They don’t even know we exist.

Let me tell something to you.

This is the end of the road. lt’s over.

You did everything penguinly possible.

-You found the aliens. -We gonna testify to that.

We’ll tell your whole laughing-boy nation they were dead wrong about you.

Now, let’s all go back home. Right now.

Right on.

-Could l ask a favor of you? -Sure.

-What kind of favor? -Could you make sure Gloria’s okay?

-And my ma. -What?

And if you see Pa…

…tell him l tried.

Okay, what you talking about?

l’m gonna stop them taking our fish.

How you gonna do that, Mumble?

Adios, amigos!

Amigo! He did it.

You believe that?

How we gonna tell his mama he bring us all this way just to kill himself?

No. He didn’t. Look.

He loco maniac.

First ever flying flipper bird.

How tall you think that tall boy was?

Who could say? Taller than anyone.

Hey, it’s me, Lovelace…

…formerly known as guru.

l’m gonna be telling your story, Happy Feet…

…long after you dead and gone!

Hey! Hey!

Enraged by their indifference…

…he followed them long after they were gone from his sight.

He ventured further than any of us had gone before…

…beyond all hope of return.

Swept up by the great currents…

…he was carried endlessly across vast oceans…

…to worlds unknown.

Excuse me. What is this place?

You’re in heaven, Dave. Penguin heaven.

ls it anywhere near Emperor Land?

lt’s wherever you want it to be.

Try the water, Dave. lt’s really real.

I heard tell, when he finally saw aliens up close…

…they were just as the skua had described.

Excuse me. Why are you taking our fish?

Big, ugly penguins without feathers on their fat, flabby faces.

Why are you taking our fish? You’re kind of killing us out there.

No! No, wait!

Oh, my.

Hello. Hello from Emperor Land. Good afternoon.

Why are you taking our fish?

l’m sure you don’t mean to, but you’re causing an awful lot of grief.

Am l not making myself clear? l’m speaking plain penguin.

Penguin! Don’t you understand? You’re stealing our fish.

Oh, please, anyone, talk to me!

For pity’s sake, you’re stealing our F-l-S–

After three days, he would lose his voice.

After three months…

…he would all but lose his mind.

So you found the fish, baby.

Ma?

-Hi, sweetie. -Ma.

Fluffy, no matter what they say or do, we never stopped believing in you.

So you’ll be back soon, right?

Hey, come on. Let him eat.

Go ahead, Dave. Don’t mind us.

But there’s plenty for everyone.

lt’s okay, sugar. We can wait.

No, no, Ma! Ma!

There’s lots here. Ma!

Ma!

-Kids, you gotta see this. -He’s on now.

Hey! Hello!

-lsn’t that the fellow with the wacky feet? -Looks like.

-What was his name? -l thought he was dead.

-Everybody– -Apparently not.

Everybody, listen up! l’ve got big news.

l know who’s taking the fish!

-Yeah, and they took his brain. -lt’s the aliens.

-l made contact with them. -The lunatic is back.

The aliens are taking our fish.

Someone ought to fetch Noah and the elders.

Hey, you.

Gloria.

Kind of weird, seeing you again.

Yeah.

-Everything cool here, baby? -You remember Seymour.

Yeah. Hi, Seymour.

Yeah.

So which one is yours?

All of them.

This is our singing class. He teaches rhythm. l teach the blues.

-So you’re not–? -l guess l never heard the right song.

That’s great! l didn’t mean….

l found out who’s taking the fish.

They’re big and kind of ugly, but, Gloria…

…the things they can do. They’re coming here.

Oh, is that so?

They’ll be here soon. l think they wanna help us.

So now you speak with them?

Well, they don’t speak penguin, but they seem to respond to this.

-What’s he doing? -You gotta be kidding me.

l suggest we all do it. lt really gets their attention.

And why would it do that?

Beats me, but it works.

-Hey, it’s the hippity-hopper. -Freaky feet!

Boys, boys–

-Fluffy. -Tall guy.

-Stretch! -Amigo!

So you dare come back?

He says he’s found aliens and they’re taking our fish.

He says that they’re coming and we all have to do this.

There be no such thing as aliens!

Mumble, turn around.

lt’s a disease.

ls that from them?

Yeah. But don’t be afraid. l think it’s a way to find me, that’s all.

You led them here? You turned them on your own kind?

Wait a second, you just said there’s no such thing as aliens.

Well, there’s not.

But if there were, only a traitorous fool would bring them here.

But they have to come.

They’re the ones taking our fish. They can do something about it.

None but the Great 'Guin has the power to give and take away.

The Great 'Guin didn’t put things out of whack, the aliens did.

A fool returns this day to mock our suffering.

We are starving and he wants us to hippity-hop.

So do we hold fast to our ways…

…or do we bend to the fetid fantasies of a dancing fool?

Say, how does that feet thing go again?

Yeah, show us, Mumble.

Oh, it’s really quite easy.

No, no!

No, you must resist!

That’s right.

-Pointless nonsense. -Resist! Stand your ground!

Stand your ground against this folly!

Raise your voices, brothers.

Cry out in defiance of this jiggity-joggity!

Show me what you got.

You got it.

Come on.

Work, work it.

Yes, yes! Call on the wisdoms!

Let the world tremble!

For when all others leave…

…we remain!

Mumble! Mumble!

Mama? Amigos.

-Oh, Mama. -Oh, my boy.

-My gorgeous boy. -Oh, Mama.

-Look at him. -You’re so dazzling.

-Oh, Fluffy. -We waited and waited for you.

-Oh, yeah. -Where’s Pa?

Believe me. You don’t wanna see your deadbeat dad.

-Your pa is sort of…. -What?

Come on, l’ll show you.

Memphis?

Pa?

Mumble?

ls it truly you?

Every last bit of me, Pa.

l thought….

Pa?

There ain’t been one day…

…not one day, that l done right by you.

Oh, Pa.

Dance for him, Daddy.

Dance with your boy.

You’ll have to forgive me.

The music’s gone clean out of me.

No, it hasn’t.

lt’s just like singing with your body.

Come on, baby. We can do it.

Oh, Mama.

lt’s just one big old foot after the other.

That’s it.

Yeah.

-Yeah, see? -Well, that feels good.

You don’t have to be beautiful

Yeah, Memphis.

To turn me on

Daddy.

I just need your body, baby

From dusk till dawn

You don’t have to be rich to be my girl

You don’t have to be cool To rule my world

Ain’t no particular song I’m more compatible with

I just want your extra time and your…

Holy flock!

Mommy, Mommy, Mommy.

l think you better dance now.

First, there was just one. Now there’s thousands.

-Are they trying to tell us something? -What’s the problem?

-We’re messing with their food chain. -We’ve gotta do something.

-We suggest a ban on all marine harvesting. -Too much money. Too many jobs.

Why should we do anything at all?

They’re just a bunch of flightless birds at the bottom of the world.

l don’t wanna live in a world without penguins.

What are we gonna do about it?

Bang up the sign No Fishing.

ls equal to the love…

…you make.

Oh, baby. Right on.

Looking back on when I Was a little nappy-headed boy

It’s like a jungle sometimes

It makes me wonder How I keep from going under

Bring it on! Go ahead!

Even though we sometimes Would not get a thing

We were happy with The joy the day would bring

I wish those days Would come back once more

Come back those days, those days Come back, don’t go

Come here, babe. Come on back.

Come on back

-Come on back -Come on back

I love them, I love them

Those days, those days Those days, those days

Those days

#submission #I have #no words???????#???????????????#WHAT IS HAPPENING #this is the most concerning anon I've ever received in my inbox #???????????????????

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lixbf · 4 years

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its midnight which means its time to be unnecessarily open and vulnerable about my feelings on tumblr dot com

#im not sure whether me being stressed and me being incredibly sad are canceling each other out or if im really just emotionally empty rn #ive been wanting to cry for the past idk two hours but i just got nothing left #turns out even a cool hair color can only distract you from your very likely multiple menthol illnesses for so long #also lol anyone remember how a few days ago i said that i wasnt like su/cidal anymore???#yeah that was a fun lie i told myself gjdhdjddh #like im just SO ready for everything to end 😬#but im too much of a lazy wimp to do anythinv so im still here i guess #tbh i think this is all bc i never even thought id actually get to finish school #so now im just here still not really convinced im still around without a single plan on what i wanna do with the life im still living #thinking abt how im most likely gonna turn 19 next month honestly fucks me up a bit #its such a weird mix between 'wtf am i still doing here' and 'why tf havent i done x y and z yet'#FUCK IF I TURN 19 THIS YEAR THAT MEANS IM GONNA TURN 20 NEXT YEAR #I CANT DEAL WITH THAT #I NEVER EVER NOT EVEN IN MY WILDEST DREAMS THOUGHT OF MYSELF AS SOMEONE WHO COULD EVER BE 20 ACTUAL YEARS OLD #the passage of time is so fucked up #sometimes i think im just faking being a depressed loser but then i remember that it is in fact not normal to want to stop existing #if/when i make it to my birthday thats gonna be so fucled up bc then i have to think of things i want as gifts #when i dont really want anything bc nothing really matters and sooner or later im gonna be de/ad anywayssss #i should wish for another piercing or a tattoo bc then i can at least feel rlly alive while im getting that #NEWAYZZZZ #smth is clearly wrong with me and if u actually read this then haha lol why??#leo.txt

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moidse · 4 years

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hey,

so, i just really needed to talk and check in about friday night and me crying for like 2hr.-- honestly, i was p drunk and do not remember everything that was said. I do know i tried to touch you and you asked if i wanted you to go down on me and then idk, i honestly don’t remember everything just that i was crying and upset... i think i was mostly upset because i thought you were talking about the time we were tripping... honestly the next day i just felt kind of embarrassed about the whole thing, like it was hard to kiss you cuz i just immediately felt weird about that whole situation... i honestly do need to check in because i dont even remember how that convo ended.... i know i was drunk and don’t remember everything but i do know i was speaking about real worries and concerns i think about often. i’ve just been reflecting a lot about what happened that night-- because i feel like its hard for me to say my real feelings and after thinking about it .. maybe i have better words for what i was feeling..

after thinking about things.. like the reality is like, i do feel bummed you don’t want me to touch you and fuck you in these ways. it’s a bummer. but it’s fine you don’t want me to touch you, or see you naked fully, or ya kno, go down on you and etc... i understand it’s nothing personal for me, even though sometimes i react as if it is and im sorry for that. i just know i want to be able to be with my partner in these ways. i want to touch my partner. i want a sexual relationship with the person im dating and i feel like that’s not a need or even want for you and we are just different. i just worry that ever since you told me you aren’t dtf,,, that this relationship has been me trying to like, fundamentally change you and who you are... and i dont think that’s healthy.

like, it’s fine that we just have different sexual wants and needs when it comes to dating.. it isn’t anything personal ,, it’s just what we are seeking... i just worry that i’ve just been trying to change you and like i’ve just been dating you for the hope of a future that may never come... although we never know, i suppose it could come... but it just feels bad and unhealthy. that im just yearning for you in these ways... im yearning for something im not sure will ever be... and it’s like at what point do i stop yearning and move on to trying to find someone else who wants to fuck in these ways.. idk..

which i know you say you sometimes want me to touch you and stuff... idk i do find it hard to believe.. like i guess i would need you to open up more about your sexual thoughts and fantasies in order for me to understand. it just feels like you only share about how you think im hot when im upset about you not being open about that lol. like, that seems off to me. i dont think i should have to show concern to hear you say you think about me touching you and have x,y,z thoughts... it shouldn’t be something i only hear about when im upset ,,,

i guess you want me in these ways but dont communicate it .. it just feels like you aren’t comfortable around me or something... i just dont get the sense you trust me and so it is hard for me to open up sexually to you... even though i am more comfortable in general... im only comfortable if its like a back and forth and both parties are being vulnerable... and i feel like its just me and it makes me feel uncomfortable.. like honestly even about buying the dick.. like what are you interested in? do you think about fucking me with a d? in what ways? like ... i just need a back and forth of vulnerability with talking about sexual desires and fantasies. or if they aren’t there for you and the reality is you don’t think about these things then i still would like to know because like idk ... it just feels like im trying to change who you are to fit my needs and you are trying your best but it still leaves me worried that im asking you to be something you aren’t..

sorry this is a ramble... but so anyways friday night, i thought you were saying like you didn’t want me to touch you when we were tripping... thinking about that moment, i feel like the reality of that situation was the following::

when we were tripping i felt SUCH a strong physical connection with you. one that i’d never felt before with you. it did give me so much hope. and i was like wow i think we finally hit that physical connection. but it was just the drugs lmao. ---when i think back about what made that connection feel so strong and better than normal... i felt a back and forth with you... i would run my hands around you and you would run yours around me back and aggressively pull me closer... it felt like a back and forth rather than me touching you sexually and you not... idk i just very much felt like you wanted me to touch you ... which may be completely wrong-- but i have never physically felt such a vibe between us and our body language. it felt like we were on the same page, through touch, through breath... i felt like you wanted me as much as i wanted you in that moment...

---and as i said, i did want to touch you super bad... honestly it was the most i’ve ever wanted to touch you-- it was very very veryyyy mentally hard to resist. but i did resist. because i was so so so scared at the thought that i was misreading things. i was so scared about asking and bringing it up because i didn’t know if we were too fucked up that you couldn’t consent... i was just worried it could turn things from being hot and good to just an awful bad trip moment and i just felt --as much as i can feel you pulling me closer every time im kinda teasing you ,, which felt like you wanted me to go further--- i do not think bringing this up while we are both tripping hard is the best and i very much wished we would have somehow had a conversation about boundaries and this before we tripped but obviously there was no way to know---

anyways, i was so upset at the thought of you saying you didn’t want me to touch you when we were tripping because that was my main anchor of hope-- to hear that wasn’t real made me feel sad and dumb. but its whatever. if that is how it is, i’d rather know the tea even if it makes me sad. but then, you said i should’ve asked cuz you maybe would’ve been down and then that made me feel even more stupid i was too afraid to ask... and it made me realize like no if you want me to touch you why can’t you say its okay? cuz the reality is i think about touching you like every single time i run my hands up and down your body.. i just have a higher sex drive and you just feel so good skjdnks... but im also very scared about crossing your boundaries and so i feel like the ball would be in your court to let me know this is a temporary time where your boundaries are shifting... rather than me asking every time i see you if its okay... also, like you said there have been times when you want me to touch you.. like when? lmao... and why not say something?!?!!?? lolllllllll oy---

idk.. i just have been needing to share my thoughts and hear your thoughts and feelings about everything but im too scared to talk in person

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daddys-lilbrat-blog · 7 years

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fake family (trigger warning)

so three weeks ago i left my soon to be husband, i packed up my stuff and left for the other side of the country 9 hours away from my home. he was abusive, in most ways. he spent most of his time sitting on the couch giving me the silent treatment or passive-aggressively telling me i was worthless, he painted a picture of me that started to believe and once i realised i was believing it and that things were actually wrong, i packed up and left.

i moved in with my family, three weeks later im still here. when i planned this out, i was told they would ‘wrap me up in cotton wool’ and 'support me whilst i find a new place to live’ and 'they loved me and will help me cope’.

the drive up was nice, my father was kind and gentle, he didnt shout at all. my grandmother was wise and witty, making me feel things werent as bad as before.

day 1 was horrible, i found myself as a person with chronic physical illness exhausted and in pain, i felt good that i had left and it felt nice to be free. my family were kind but a touch brutal with me.

day 3 was when it started getting worse, i didnt want to wake anyone up so i went to the garden at 3am and cried, i paced up and down the garden path, crying uncontrollably, just trying to stop feeling so bad.

since then i have cried everyday and everynight, sometimes more than once. i have gone 13 months without binging or purging and 7months without self harm. i found myself beginning to feel urges again, first just a twinge then full blown discussions and pros and cons with myself. i have been thinking about not being able to cope anymore and wishing a lot that i could die.

due to not being allowed to see my family and friends and being severely punished if i were to even try to leave the house alone, i have in the past year become so isolated and so sad that i realise now i dont think i can connect to other people anymore and i dont think my family can connect to me.

i feel like ive been surfing and ive suddenly pulled under the waves, the tide is rolling in and i cant stop it, for the first week i tried desperately to fight my sadness thinking 'i cant be more depressed than i am now’ itll be over soon, its a stressful time and ill feel better soon’ but everytime i reach out and say 'hey i think im gonna drown’ 'i need help’ someone sees me and pushes my head under the water again, they dont listen, they dont want to listen and they deny it. i just wanted some love and some TLC but i cant have it.

by week 3 everytime i am to try to initiate a conversation or reach out for help, i pause and dont ask because im either met with 'stop being so dramatic’ 'for gods sake’ 'you dont actually feel (x, y or z)’ or im met with good old non caring, non empathetic people.

i tried to say that im feeling unloved and like people dont want to talk to me or care.

today i just cant take it anymore, i keep telling myself that i just need to get through the day and tomorrow will be better…. it hasnt been so far, but out of sheer desperation i keep going, i keep trying to have fun and be a normal person but i dont find pleasure in anything now, unless its being asleep.

crying several times a day is hard and the worst part is im ashamed to cry, im embarrassed to be so weak when the people i love so dearly tell me ive stopped mattering to them.

people say why cant u make more effort with X, Y or Z? i applogise and say ill try harder but what i really wanna say,

dear family and friends,

i try so hard to please you, i care so deeply and love you all, i just wanna make you all happy. im sorry im not doing well at it and hopefully i will be better at it soon, but right now im not just trying to my best for everyone else, im also trying with all the strength in me just to keep myself alive.

i wish people could see how things are and how hard im trying, i wish my emotions didnt seem so fake.

i wish my family werent so fake. i wish i could just feel happy, just this once. 🙏🏻

#depressive #depressing thoughts #depression #hurt #lonely #pain #cant cope #suicide #intrusive thoughts #low self esteem #low self everything #abuse #trigger warning #tw #eating disorder #ed

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(1) Hi so I hope I'm somehow able to word this properly and not be an awful person (I'm sorry my emotions are still running kinda haywire). So yesterday my datemate told me that they are aromantic and they've known for about two months now and they didn't tell me earlier (even tho they hate lying/keeping secrets) bc they still love me (but not romantically of course) and they were worried I was going to cut ties with them completely in order to get over them and not want them in my life

anymore. Which I don't think I would have done, but given my past experience and personality, I think it was a reasonable thing to think. So after they told me that, I cried a lot and we talked about it some more, but it wasn't really a proper discussion since I was crying so hard. (I don't know if this helps but I'm an infj and my datemate (?) is an intj. I'm also asexual and they're pansexual. Sorry to dump this on you, I just think you're insightful and give good advice). We've been dating for 10 months now so it's a little bit hard finding this out after we've already been together for a while. While I understand why they waited 2 months to tell me (didn't want to hurt me, we were already dating, didn't want to permanently lose me) I'm still mad and wish they had told me earlier. I'm very future-oriented and I plan things out so far in advance, I was already imagining a future with them and was so happy and excited about it. I can change this image of coursebut it feels so sudden and it's like everything's been turned upside down. Last night I was overwhelmingly sad, and today I'm still sad but also angry. Maybe it wouldn't have but that's 2 months I could've spent stopping myself from getting attached to this future image. We talked about it together multiple times: what we each want, where we want to live, what kind of cats and dogs we want to own together. I know we can still live together, & I'd really really love that, it's just that someof the certainty of the future has been ripped away and it was really comforting and wonderful to think about. I really love them a lot and I can't think of anyone else I'd rather own cats with. Last night they said they'd still like to be in a romantic relationship with me and date me and continue doing everything else we've already been doing, but they don't want to be involved with any of those romantic rituals like getting married, etc. All I want right now is to continue our currentrelationship, especially since they want to and they really want to be in my future. It's just that I'm so attached to the idea of romantic love and marriage (it's so stupid though) and I don't know how to get away from that & I KNOW that no matter how much I'd like to continue this current relationship, I'm going to eventually want to get married and I don't want to regret anything. The ideal future would be for me to live with both them and someone else I'm married to in the same housebut all I can think about is how there's no way that'll ever work bc then that's three people's lives, jobs, wants and needs we'd have to coordinate in order to live in the same place and area. The probability of it working out is so unlikely & I don't know if I'd be even be able to find someone else to date who'd be willing to do that. I'm thinking the best option is for me to break off my current relationship with my datemate and do something more akin to a qpr, I just hate how vague anduncertain the future seems now. In the midst of this, I'm still mourning our past relationship (it was also my first romantic relationship). I really hope I didn't say anything to hurt their feelings last night but I tried to make as clear as possible that it's okay for them to be aromantic, I'm just upset about the changes to my vision of the future. Like if only I could get rid of this attachment to the idea of marriage and romantic love, and all that sappy stuff, then we could still continue our current relationship into the future the way it's been. I've just been so happy since (and before) we started dating at college and it's kinda of just a shocker, like I was too optimistic. I did get some warning from my instincts which I probably should've listened to (I hesitated before asking them out bc I thought they might've been aro but they said yes & later when they talked about possibly being polyarmorous I freaked out bc I went on a forum & lots of ppl had similarviews on platonic and romantic love and in poly and aro communities and I was worried that they were aro and I brought it up to them and at the time, they thought they were poly so they reassured me BUT two weeks after the convo realized they were aro. Fucking weirdass ni. Should've listened to it. In addition to this, I have become very attached to cuddling and physical intimacy and I don't want that to stop...but at the same time I'm worried I'm never going to stop liking them if I don'tstop the physical intimacy. Last night they said they'd be fine with whatever I wanted to do (become friends, continue the romantic relationship, or continue the romantic relationship and affection until I find someone else I want to date). Honestly the third option sounds the most appealing but I'm just worried I'm gonna be trapped in a limbo and that my new ideal future option is too unlikely to happen & by continuing the physical and emotional intimacy I'm keeping myself from formingother bonds with other people. I don't want to cut them out of my life, bc even if we ended the romantic relationship, we have become so close with each other, and I enjoy spending time with them more than anyone else at college right now. I know that they really value their relationship with me as well, since they said that they trust me more than anyone else and they have a lot of difficulty opening up to people. I'm not quite sure what kind of advice I'm asking for, maybe I just neededto write all of this out. I'm sorry this was so long, I just have so many emotions. I guess I'm wondering what your opinion is, & if you have any advice on dealing with overcoming the loss of a former vision of the future & replacing it with another one (the biggest question I guess). Also maybe any advice on whether or not you think it's something that would work & if I'm still being too optimistic. Do you have any tips on how to go about forming a qpr? Thank you so much! Feel free toanswer whenever you happen to have any time!! Also if any of these messages get lost or eaten by tumblr, let me know & I can resend them (I've saved them). I'm sorry this was so long! Thank you

Honestly I'm starting to feel a little bit better after writing all of that out and thinking about other possible future options (happy ones of course) and it's really nice. Thank you for your blog & all you do for the mbti community. Mbti always makes me feel better when I'm feeling bad and reading your thoughts and insights on it is always fun. I guess it's sorta distraction but it's still nice and isn't really hurting me so thanks

Okay so first i wanna establish i’m likely aro myself so i dont really have a great understanding of the differences between romantic and platonic feelings.

So, one thing I’m confused about is how the relationship would go if you proceeded like the INTJ suggested, (the same, but w no ��rituals”). What exactly about the relationship right now would be romantic to you that wouldn’t continue, besides stuff like marriage? Bc I think the biggest disconnect wouldn’t be in not doing x y z, but in a difference in how you view the relationship. If they view the relationship somehow differently bc they are aro, what are those differences? Bc obviously it isn’t a sexual relationship but you were doing things that would be “romantic” rather than “friendly.” I think it would be helpful to try to figure out what has changed, really at all. Bc if you are viewing the relationship very differently from each other, I can see how that could cause pain.

It definitely seems like you want something more from the relationship than they do, and I do think that if you continued the relationship with you sort of pretending it’s a romantic relationship and them sort of pretending it’s a friendship, with you knowing it will never fulfill those expectations you had, it will feel like something is missing and bitterness/pain/disconnection might come from that. I think if you decided to continue the physical intimacy but say you’re friends, that’s what you’re going to end up doing. I think you shouldn’t cut them off or avoid them, it just wouldn’t be logical. I think you should keep your friendship, but try not to do anything you would see as romantic. Maybe a little space right now would be really good, for you especially, to get your head around it without any pressure or guilt. However, I do think that given time (esp given your types), you could change the nature of the relationship and move on in a way, especially bc it is your first relationship. I think you could be best friends, and you could end up with a different romantic partner that you have a healthy, fulfilling relationship with.

I do think you should trust your instincts, if they’re telling you anything at this point. It seems like doing so would put you in a place that feels natural.

I don’t have any tips on how to form a qpr bc i’ve never had one and don’t really have a want for one, but I do advise you to be careful, bc boy have a I seen people try to have a qpr with someone they clearly have a crush on and it isn’t fun for either of the people involved.

No prob man, I rlly hope it works out for you. I do think the venting helped you organize everything! I’m glad you like my blog, thanks :)!

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