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religion-is-a-mental-illness · 6 months

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Morgan Keller: On April 26, my friend Prisha testified in favor of this bill. Representative Beth Liston asked her if she was affirmed in her trans identity and medicalised in the state of Ohio. Prisha responded perfectly. "If you wait until you have a detransitioner from Ohio, someone is already hurt and you have failed."

My name is Morgan. I am the Ohio detransitioner that Prisha warned you about.

I’m 26 years old and was trans Identified for five years. In March of this year, after trying to ignore the doubt and regret that began to build around my transition, I woke up one morning with the realization that my trans identity was never about becoming my most genuine self or living my life authentically. Instead, it was a desperate, last-ditch attempt to become someone else to escape my unidentified trauma and body and mental health issues.

When I started exploring gender ideology, my life was in shambles. I was in an emotionally manipulative lesbian relationship, I was isolating myself in my apartment and drinking regularly. I wasn’t attending my classes or socialising normally, I had become captivated by the idea that my female body was fundamentally wrong and seduced by the prospect that there was something that I could do about it.

When I sought out help for my complicated feelings towards my female sex, I was affirmed, which is to say I was put on life altering cross-sex hormones with minimal questioning or treatment of my underlying issues. At 21, a license practitioner in the state of Ohio wrote me a prescription for medically unnecessary synthetic testosterone, and just one month after my 22nd birthday, I went under the knife for a double mastectomy based on the recommendation letter from a therapist who still holds an active license in the state. I sat with these practitioners for hours, describing how uncomfortable I was in my body, how disconnected I felt from myself and how hard it was to walk through the world as a masculine woman.

The nurse practitioner who prescribed me testosterone told me that I would transition beautifully and that no one would ever be able to tell that I had been born as a female. After a lifetime of body-image issues and an increasing desperation to become anybody but myself, that was like music to my ears.

I don’t believe that not transitioning was ever considered by my practitioners. I feel like once I walked into that gender clinic, medicalisation was the only option. I needed the practitioners that I trust it to help me make peace with my body, not firm my delusion that hormones and a cosmetic mastectomy might make me feel better. I needed them to just say no.

This week is the fifth anniversary of my first testosterone shot. I was told that this experimental medicalisation would save my life. My parents were made to believe that this was the only way to keep their daughter alive, healthy and happy. No practitioner bothered to dig deeper with me on why felt so disconnected from my female body, and why I thought giving myself an endocrine imbalance, amputating my healthy breasts and masquerading as a member of the opposite sex was such an appealing treatment plan. I can say with 100% certainty that this medicalisation only gave me new health problems and mental distress. I will never, ever legitimatise these experimental treatments as anything based on love or care for an individual.

Under the euphemistic guise of "life-saving gender affirming care," practitioners in our state have become enablers with their prescription pads. At its highest point, my testosterone levels were 11 times the maximum range for a female body. Is this really the standard of care that we want for our Ohioans?

When I realised that my medication was nothing more than a very elaborate placebo endorsed by multiple medical professionals, I made the immediate decision to detransition. It was all over. I quit testosterone cold turkey and endured four of the most brutal months of my life. I had no energy, I didn’t shower for almost 2 weeks, I would cry upwards of 10 times a day, shocked at what I’d been allowed to do to my body in such a vulnerable state with an underdeveloped brain.

I would lay in bed all day, sitting with the realisation that I would never be able to breastfeed children that I didn’t even know that I wanted at the time when I got my mastectomy. I didn’t know if those feelings would ever go away, so I started to make plans to commit suicide. My family was so worried that my parents made me go home, so they could make sure I was eating, bathing and sleeping.

I sent a letter to my prescribing practitioner detailing how much regret I felt, and all of the things I wish were different about the treatment I received, and she never replied. I had been working with that same therapist for seven years by the time I called her with my realisations about the issues underlying my decision to transition. I sent her list of everything that should have been treated instead of getting hormones and a mastectomy, and I will never forget hearing her tell me, "I failed you."

She told me that this was such a new field of psychology that modern medicine is still at the forefront of learning how to treat gender dysphoria. But isn’t that funny, because the current narrative says that this medicalisation is "settled science."

I couldn’t give informed consent at 21, so why are we pretending that children can do that? With this bill we can ensure that children in Ohio are protected from ever waking up and finding themselves in my position. I wish I never opened the Pandora’s box of gender ideology. I wish I’d been told by the practitioners that I trusted. I wish I could say that I’m the exception to the rule, but everybody in this room knows that that is false.

I come to you wearing the scars of this medical scandal asking you to please vote and support of House Bill 68 to protect Ohio’s children.

Thank you for listening.

Senator Kristina Roegner: Thank you for your testimony. Are there any questions? I do have one. You mentioned when you were 21 years old, you went in for the first time to a medical practitioner, and then started the treatments at that point. What was that... how many visits did it take, what was the discussion like, Was it really that quick or what did they ask you? What was that like?

Keller: I actually was the one to push back on them. I went in and they had such a long waiting list, you could just go in and see somebody below the main practitioner who is writing things at this clinic, you know, directing the program. And one of the doctors on the staff just said, "why don’t you start testosterone and see how you feel" And I was like, "no way." I wanted someone that I trust a little bit more to really help me discern if this was correct for me or not.

And I went to the clinic for the first time, I believe it was in June, and then six months later I was on hormones, and I think I went to the clinic three times.

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The thing that never happens keeps never happening.

Lawsuit incoming in 4, 3, 2...

#Morgan Keller #detrans #detransition #this never happens #HB68 #settled science #the science is settled #medical transition #medical corruption #medical malpractice #medical scandal #gender ideology #queer theory #double mastectomy #cross sex hormones #wrong sex hormones #testosterone #religion is a mental illness

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nashmusicguide · 4 days

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Cyborg Drummer/DJ DRMAGDN’s Single “My Best” Nominated For Josie Music Award 2024 Song of the Year Pop/Contemporary/Dance

DRMAGDN Cyborg Drummer / DJ’s new single, an EDM Pop Anthem called “My Best” featuring powerful singer Morgan Keller has just received a nomination for the Josie Music Awards 2024 for Song of the Year in the Pop/Contemporary/Dance category. The midtempo synthwave inspired song was directly inspired by quotes of woman empowerment that Marilyn Monroe spoke during her iconic life in the public…

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#Cyborg Drummer #dj #DRMAGDN #Josie Music Award #Morgan Keller #My Best #nashville #nashville music guide #Song of the Year

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agender-wolfie · 7 months

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Fem is not the default for fanfics and it’s not a woman’s only space. It’s also disrespectful not to tag your shit ☺️

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daneneedssleep · 6 months

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Give me 10 minutes each alone in a room with them and one of us is coming out pregnant each time (and it’s not gonna be me)

Theres more but I’ll give y’all a break😭

#arthur morgan #charles smith #rdr2 #my (odd) taste in men #miguel o'hara #simon ghost riley #john soap mactavish #kyle gaz garrick #mike schmidt #Nikolai codmw3 #john price #alex keller #im gay as fuck

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blackcinderella1 · 1 year

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Riverdale 7x13 “The Crucible” Promo Pics

#riverdale #riverdale 7x13 #toni topaz #veronica lodge #archie andrews #kevin keller #hiram lodge #clay walker #vanessa morgan #camila mendes #kj apa #casey cott #mark consuelos #karl walcott

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usermischief · 7 months

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3.5k follower celebration | few of my favourite things

The Ring (2002) ❃ Gore Verbinski

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leafsleafsleafsstuff · 4 months

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Source: nhl Instagram

#igor shesterkin #william nylander #justin bieber #alex debrincat #mitch marner #morgan rielly #auston matthews #jake oettinger #clayton keller #matthew barzal #filip forsberg #vincent trocheck

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idlewarning · 1 month

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@lgbtqcreators bingo: quotes

the ring (dir. gore verbinski) + "ring" by koji suzuki

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jeccoart · 4 months

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very fun commission for my dear friend @noahclay of samara & rachel referencing an entombment scene 📺🕳️

#the ring #the ring samara #samara morgan #rachel keller #the entombment van der werff #commissions

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prettyboyformasks · 5 months

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hii! i love ur writings, can i ask what characters u write for? :3

thank you so much !! i'm glad you enjoy my writing ❤❤

i write for any cod modern warfare characters, both ships and x reader ! all of my writing is for male readers though, so i don't write any female reader. (if you prefer female reader, check out @konigsblog, her writing is amazing and inspires me to write)

i've also been super into rdr2 lately, so if you're into that i'll write for arthur morgan and dutch van der linde :)

#rdr2 #cod mw #call of duty #cod mw2 #cod mwii #phillip graves #kyle gaz garrick #arthur morgan #alex keller cod #alex keller #john soap mactavish #john price #simon riley #simon ghost riley

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religion-is-a-mental-illness · 6 months

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"A hardware fix for a software issue." -- Shape Shifter

#Morgan Keller #detransition #detrans #double mastectomy #bilateral mastectomy #medical malpractice #medical scandal #medical corruption #queer theory #gender ideology #religion is a mental illness

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di-writes-stuff · 11 months

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Masterlist + Rules for Requests 🖤🤍

Requests:

Current Characters I’m writing for: Joel Miller, Alex Keller, John Price, Arthur Morgan.

Things I won’t do:

🖤 Smut of any kind. I’m fine with sexual tension and all that stuff, but I’m just not comfortable writing smut. So kissing, making out, suggestions of s€x, whatever, just not gonna write the actual deed.

🤍 If there’s ever a request I’m just not comfortable with I won’t write it. There’s not really any other strict guidelines. Obviously no pro-shipper kind of content, or just anything that you objectively know isn’t okay.

🖤 I’m okay with covering sensitive topics like violence, trauma, mental illness, but again, if there’s anything I’m not willing to write, I just won’t.

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Masterlist:

🖤 Joel Miller: