tags from @sweetheartdj13 but holy shit this is what ive been saying for so long. pata2 fucking sucks in terms of its morals and how it just regards as the karmens as "enemies to fight" when in a way they are more fucking sympathetic? or could be more so?? listen i dont fucking care about any "makoton gets redeemed" if the karmens arent going to get any depth

like i think its awful how kharma got depth and yet ormen cant? like whatever hint that exists that the patapons werent such good people is fucking thrown out for a shitty love triangle and just a superoverpowered character they put ALL the focus on in the third game???? like "ysee the karmens kicked and killed the patapons out so theyre the bad guys" like the patapons havent fucking killed hundreds of karmens and zigotons for earthend. i was gonna rant but ormen didny fucking "do it for the evils" but the karmens were probably fucking oppressed by the patapons!!!!! we dont know anything else though because this game fucking LOVES to villainize them!!!!! what the fuck!!!!!!!!!

people will have the most triggering, openly talked about shit on fandom tags but wont bother to put any tags beside the fandom tags so i can block it

I keep almost labeling everything I post or reblog on mobile as mature when I try to tag it because they fucking moved where all the buttons are.

if i could stop having bad/unsettling/scary dreams that would be Great

i have so many mouth ulcers rn that it hurts to eat, my hands will sometimes bleed bc my eczema is currently winning, and my period is a week late. i think it might be bc of stress or not eating right but idk

Yesterday was so insane :(

I had period pain so bad I could hardly stand... much less walk...I almost threw up...I kept feeling too cold or too hot and I was sent to see the nurse by my professor at the end of my first class...because apparently I looked that miserable...and I was let in without a student card or any kind of card for that matter or any document to verify my identity...because apparently it was that bad...

So I'm going to have to finish filling out that form on thursday...

And I still made myself get a grip and go to my last class at the end of the day but that professor was kind of mean...I was sitting there feeling half dead and he ACTUALLY said...on the first day... that we're all a week behind already...that just made my anxiety skyrocket...

Anyways just wanted to complain a bit sorry! There is nothing worse then practically spending all day on campus with no way to go home...

I feel like my writing is losing some of its flowery and poetic aspects and it’s making me a little sad. my descriptions don’t sound as fleshed out as I want recently but we’re just going to push through it.

i should probably visit my mom's grave on her birthday, but i can't ask anyone to drive me there because it's on valentine's day. and getting there on public transport is difficult, especially in this weather

why did that sleep paralysis last for so long this time....

the thing is there's like, a point of oversaturation for everything, and it's why so many things get dropped after a few minutes. and we act like millennials or gen z kids "have short attention spans" but... that's not quite it. it's more like - we did like it. you just ruined it.

capitalism sees product A having moderate success, and then everything has to come out with their "own version" of product A (which is often exactly the same). and they dump extreme amounts of money and environmental waste into each horrible simulacrum they trot out each season.

now it's not just tiktokkers making videos; it's that instagram and even fucking tumblr both think you want live feeds and video-first programming. and it helps them, because videos are easier to sneak native ads into. the books coming out all have to have 78 buzzwords in them for SEO, or otherwise they don't get published. they are making a live-action remake of moana. i haven't googled it, but there's probably another marvel or starwars something coming out, no matter when you're reading this post.

and we are like "hi, this clone of project A completely misses the point of the original. it is soulless and colorless and miserable." and the company nods and says "yes totally. here is a different clone, but special." and we look at clone 2 and we say "nope, this one is still flat and bad, y'all" and they're like "no, totally, we hear you," and then they make another clone but this time it's, like, a joyless prequel. and by the time they've successfully rolled out "clone 89", the market is incredibly oversaturated, and the consumer is blamed because the company isn't turning a profit.

and like - take even something digital like the tumblr "live streaming" function i just mentioned. that has to take up server space and some amount of carbon footprint; just so this brokenass blue hellsite can roll out a feature that literally none of its userbase actually wants. the thing that's the kicker here: even something that doesn't have a physical production plant still impacts the environment.

and it all just feels like it's rolling out of control because like, you watch companies pour hundreds of thousands of dollars into a remake of a remake of something nobody wants anymore and you're like, not able to afford eggs anymore. and you tell the company that really what you want is a good story about survival and they say "okay so you mean a YA white protagonist has some kind of 'spicy' love triangle" and you're like - hey man i think you're misunderstanding the point of storytelling but they've already printed 76 versions of "city of blood and magic" and "queen of diamond rule" and spent literally millions of dollars on the movie "Candy Crush Killer: Coming to Eat You".

it's like being stuck in a room with a clown that keeps telling the same joke over and over but it's worse every time. and that would be fine but he keeps fucking charging you 6.99. and you keep being like "no, i know it made me laugh the first time, but that's because it was different and new" and the clown is just aggressively sitting there saying "well! plenty of people like my jokes! the reason you're bored of this is because maybe there's something wrong with you!"

What About The Kens?

I'm already seeing guys complain about the Barbie movie end, how they wanted Kens to be equal in Barbieland but were only given a small part on the Cabinet.

That's the point.

You're meant to feel bad for the Kens. Believe me, women aren't partying over the 'Returns to Matriarch' ending. Some will be, but the ones who also clocked the meaning behind it won't. Most women will also feel bad for Kens. Because it's an exact parallel to how women are treated in reality.

Men, you're meant to be upset. You're meant to question it. Because you're meant to feel it, and feel what that is like, so you can finally understand women. You're upset at seeing it in a movie, now imagine living it in reality. That's being a woman.

Kens were shit on so you could feel what it was like for women this entire time. Kens were being used as a placement so you could see yourself in a woman's shoes. A world dominated by the opposite sex. When Ken leaves, and sees male presidents (All men) for the first time, men being doctors and lawyers, etc, realising he is more than just a prop for Barbie, that was on purpose. Because that is the feeling that Barbie gave to women. It's why you cheer for him at first before he goes a little overboard.

It's exactly why the real world was an exaggerated Partriarchy and Barbieland an exaggerated Matriarchy. Neither wins. Neither is equal. None of them change for the better. It's why you should want women in the real world to be respected, and Kens in Barbieland to be respected.

The thing is, women also didn't win. Not in the real world. In Barbieland, yes, but not anywhere else. The real world didn't change. But you didn't notice, did you? That Gloria (The mother that helped Barbie) also didn't get a position on the Mattel board? It was still all men? Her idea was ignored until it made a profit, and the men will likely get the credit? She'll still just be the receptionist? The women representing the real world didn't get anymore opportunities, neither did the men in Barbieland.

I was hoping that Gloria would be offered a position on the board, and that the Barbie Cabinet would introduce another entire Cabinet to represent the Kens, but neither happened. They're complete mirrors.

But which one did you actually notice? Which did you actually care about? Now tell me again the ending was unfair. Because it was. For both parties. That's the point.

The difference is, Barbieland is fictional. You will walk out of the theatre with the reassurance that at least it's not real. Women won't. Women can't. Companies not giving women equal opportunities or voices isn't fictional, and that was just one example. There are no women presidents (USA at least) for us to go look at in the real world. We don't have somewhere to go to realise it could be different for us like Ken did. Barbie and make believe is all we had when we were kids, or even now.

You're supposed to be mad, just not at the movie.

I'm COVID positive... fuck

listen I am fully aware I shouldn’t look up at the eclipse without glasses but i feel like a perplexed peasant scratching my head everytime I remember it could damage my eyes. sun is fine to look at without glasses. moon is fine to look at without glasses. sun and moon combo should be double fine to look at without glasses :(

Having the Sleep Paralysis(tm) now for the first time in my life in addition to waking up / not sleeping well because you can never stack too many minor ailments onto one person. It’s been about 5-6 times so far—how long before the sleep paralysis demons appear? No?

I recall saying this before, but it bears repeating:

There could be a billion trans people in the world and it still wouldn't be a bad thing because being trans is not a bad thing. Even if the rate of people discovering they are trans is "disproportionate" to trends from decades ago, that is not a bad thing. In fact, it's a natural consequence for there being more trans people being able to stay alive, and, overall, being able to live in a slightly more tolerant world. You'd only see that as a bad thing if you actively didn't want trans people to either live or live a life that facilitates wellness.

Lol imagine being 22 and blocking someone bc they didn't answer you within 2 hours of sending a message Some of us have jobs lol