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moon-alight · 7 months

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i like your previous update

One more request 🥺

When you unconscious during a fight

Because you overwork yourself

Hello! I hope you meant &Team otherwise this is awkward 😅 (Also, I like to overwork myself, it is my form of therapy lol 🤣)

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&Team reaction to their s/o fainting during an argument

Warnings: fainting, bit of angst

Word Count: 1004

-K

-This guy is a hothead, alright, but he would see the signs you showed of feeling unwell or ill so he tried to be a bit less harsh

-But he did not realize you were so ill you would faint. Absolutely startled when he watched your body fall to the ground.

-Immediately by your side and trying to wake you up but is unsuccesful for the first couple minutes until you finally do

-Absolutely scolds you (with tears in his eyes) that you should take better care of yourself and how much you scared him

-Forgets whatever you two had fight over beforehand and hugs you tightly against him

-Fuma

-The argument was probably about you not taking enough care of yourself as he had watched you get worse and worse

-When he was trying to prove his point, you fainted and he felt his heart sink in his chest

-You would wake up on your bed with a wet cloth against your forehead and a glass of water on the nightstand with painkillers and a note

-'You are the most worrisome person in this world. Take the painkillers, drink some water, I'll be right home with food x'

-The cold was both nice and cold which did not make sense at all.

-Fuma would arrive minutes later with your favorite food so you could still talk things out while regaining energy

-Nicholas

-My man had never called 119 (Japanese Emergency Number) as fast as he had when you fainted during your argument

-Absolutely shaking and trembling when he explained to the help-line what had happened

-You'd wake up before the ambulance arrived but Nicholas made you stay on the ground as he knew you'd still be dizzy

-Stays by your side the entire time even when the doctor is checking you for your vital signs and blood pressue

-When you seem to be just fine (maybe low blood sugar) he hands you a coke and lets the doctors leave

-Clings to you afterwards and never lets go, afraid you'd faint again.

-EJ

-It was a mild argument but it was serious enough to talk about it inside the kitchen in the afternoon.

-He watched you hold onto the kitchen isle and frowned but did not say anything until he saw how weak you'd become

-Didn't let you faint and instead sat you down on a chair as he got a glass of water for you

-Would sit next to you, rubbing up and down your arm gently as he encourages you to drink a little

-You'd soon feel better but the argument was long forgotten. Ej's just glad you're okay now.

-Yuma

-I say this at every oportunity but Yuma is a hothead!

-Will not notice anything until you've completely blacked out

-He would stare at your unconscious body for a moment in pure shock before he scrambled to get his phone and call 119

-Explains to the emergency line what happened but begins to ramble and does not know how to stop because of the pure panic

-When the ambulance arrived and checked your signs (probably when you're awake) he just stood there and watched

-Would complain about how much you scared him afterwards and ask you to never push yourself to that point again

-Jo

-Again, I wholeheartedly believe you never end up in a bad fight

-But argument happen (even if he tries his best to avoid them) and you're trying to talk things out

-You'd feel terrible suddenly and tumbled to the ground

-Jo called Ej because he had no clue what to do and the poor boy was panicking

-Ej called an ambulance for ya'll and explained to Jo that he should get you some drinks and food for when you'd wake up

-When you're checked by the doctors and have consumed a bit of the food Jo had given you, he'd stare at you with teary eyes

-"I thought I'd lost you."

-Please hold this man

-Harua (this time I didn't forget, aha!)

-Ya'lls arguments are usually easily resolved so just when you two had apologized to one another, you'd feel a wave of nausea wash over you

-He watched it happen and screamed when you hit the ground

-Tried to shake you awake to no avail which is when the panic probably started to set in

-Didn't even think to call the emergency number because he was freaking out

-When you did wake up and asked him for a glass of water this guy returned with water, chocolate, an apple and three cans of coke

-Helped you up towards the couch and hugged you as if you'd disappear if he'd let you go

-Taki

-He was listening to you explaining your point of view of the argument when he noticed you'd act weird

-He called out for you but you did not respond. After a second, you fainted.

-Taki was happy it happened inside the dorms because he could call out to K who came over and calmed him down a little

-When you'd wake up, K would give you some water before he'd leave to give you some privacy.

-You were sure Taki had never hugged you as tight as he had in that moment and stroked your hair to remind himself you were okay

-Maki

-You'd been complaining about a headache all day which he was reminded of when you'd faint during the argument you two had

-He knew it wasn't healthy to not eat or stay hydrated when it was so warm during the day so he wasn't very surprised when your body shut down

-Still freaked out a little but got you some coke (with lots of sugar) and an apple before sitting by your side and stroking your hair

-You'd wake up confusedly and he'd help you sit up while explaining what had happened

-He'd make you drink the coke so you'd at least have a bit of sugar in your system before he'd scold you for being so reckless

#&team #&team drabbles #&team scenarios #&team imagines #&team fluff #&team headcanons #&team nicholas #&team k #&team ej #&team fuma #&team yuma #&team jo #&team harua #&team taki #&team maki

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crushedsweets · 2 months

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so I can't find it, but when the proxies were helping clocks, you mentioned that Tim doesn't like it when she screams or cries. Something about it bothering him. I wish I could recall.

OK SO i also cant find the post (cuz of tumblrs tagging system) buuut i'm gonna use this to ramble about clocky meeting the proxies again, since i sorta adjusted it...

in my au, O/S syndrome refers to slender sickness. it usually starts with the operator taking COMPLETE control over someone's body and mind, and then slenderman 'stealing' them and making them do his bidding (clean up operator problems) which results in them having a 'proxy mode' vs their 'normal' mode

so clockys backstory goes as usual, then towards the end she starts slowly getting O/S syndrome. i sort of want her introduction to toby/the proxies to be ALMOST a reflection of how toby and clocky canonically met. (her getting hurt cuz of him, him helping her as an apology)

so around the time natalie replaced her eye with a clock, O/S syndrome fully set in. while sick, she couldn't form memories, she had inhuman strength, an insatiable bloodlust - just became a general menace, and because bodies started dropping all around tuscaloosa with operator symbols slashed into walls, the proxies had to intervene.

it started with toby stalking her while she's stalking her next victim. her and toby get into a huge tussle and she locks onto him as her next victim. he chooses to play cat and mouse and run off to the forest, having her follow. i'm imagining an almost comical scene where she's slashing around branches and stuff with a machete and he's like 'ahhh cant catch meeeee' and she's screaming obscenities. . .

then by time he ends up at the cabin, tim or brian probably knock her out since she's, yknow, a huge threat. a bat to the back of her head.

and she would wake up in their spare 'storage' room thats filled to the brim with boxes, old bikes, massive stacks of newspapers, cds, etc. she'd probably have her wrists zip tied to an exposed pipe and she'd be losing her fucking mind. screaming at the top of her lungs, thrashing around, whatever. "LET ME GO YOU FUCKING FREAKS LET ME GO ILL KILL YOU ILL FUCKING KILL YOU"

the way to slowly heal O/S syndrome is being around slenderman(aka in his forest) for a long time, until the Operator loses grasp. the way to quickly deal with O/S syndrome is to um.. no nice way to put this. slendermans jaw unhinges and he oozes this gross fucking black tar-like goo, and drinking it (or putting it into pill capsules and taking those) makes the operator let go. it doesnt really have a taste, thank god, but it is thicker than water.

so it would be a whole ordeal of toby coming in like heeeeyyyy... lol... and he would think shes REALLY BADASS because he's never met a woman like her (so strong, loud mouthed, violent, etc). plus he's kinda lonely in general so LMFAOOOO . so he wants to befriend her, and is kinda ignoring the fat that she's mad as hell.

but she's in so much agony. from the O/S syndrome to getting hit with a bat, she's screaming and crying and never shutting up. throwing up, trying to literally bite and kick the proxies if they even bring in water. so toby would be 'designated' to her because "well youre the dumb fuck who brought her here, you deal with it"

he'd probably have to trick her into taking one of the pills or putting the sludge into an opaque water bottle or something. after the first bit is ingested, she quickly gains more clarity. he'd try getting a cot or air mattress set up for her. bring a book and drawing supplies. he wants her to trust him. within a day or two, she'd already start feeling immensely better and the operator is letting go - and toby would stupidly trust her, and completely undo the zipties, and she'd run the fuck off, and he'd be like FUUUUUUUCCCCKKKKKKK. and not even a week later, she'd come back. because she's horribly sick again. and she'd beg for the stupid pills.

and she'd start to trust toby, and eventually kate. . and a little bit brian. but she would still not fuck with tim cuz it is true, he would hate all the screaming, and would occasionally bang on the door and shout at her to quiet down.

but yeah . . thats how she gets situated with the proxies and her O/S syndrome is healed. :3

#asks #clockwork #creeped #hcs

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blackheart-6 · 4 months

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dess-ember day 31/31

hi yall

today i bring my final entry!! i cant believe i made it

its a dess ref, but after the events of deltarune, where i imagine she will be freed

fun fact, i actually made the dess ref i still use exactly a year ago, so thats neat ^^

im not sure if I will keep this design for her being older (the age i usually draw her as is like 15 or 16), but i feel like it turned out okay

i made her a researcher (she researches things to do with souls and magic, things that exist in deltarune but arent really known about in my headcanons), but im unsure if it was the right choice. i imagine she got stuck with gaster in the code for a couple of years, but before that she didnt know what she wanted to do with her life. the way I see it, the gaster in the code with her is the one from undertale, so he has a lot of knowledge on magic and stuff, and learning about it was interesting and helpful for her, and after she got out she wanted to share her knowledge and learn more.

as i said, i dont know if this was a good choice of career, considering she wasnt really the type to become a researcher, but she also changed when she was in the code, so idk. i might change it later.

and for her design, i tried to keep her unruly look as much as possible, despite her job. i changed her hairstyle, keeping it short but giving her a side part and little hair pieces in front of her ears.

i also gave her glasses. i imagine shes needed them for awhile, but she didnt want to look like a nerd 😂 now shes just accepted her fate. i also gave her piercings on her ears, just as a callback to some of my older drawings of her, where i gave her piercings there too.

for her outfit, i gave her a pair of basic dress pants, and a turtleneck (because i love turtlenecks a bit too much lol). and then i gave her a green jacket/coat thing, cause i had to keep her with green, ofc.

and for accessories, i gave her a watch (to match with noelles watch), and i gave her a bracelet with noelles sweater colors. i also gave her a white ring on her left hand, because when i looked it up that was where aro rings were (i hope thats accurate lol).

and thats it, my final entry! its so weird that im here, i didnt think i would make it. i thought id get bored, or too busy, or run out of ideas or something, but i made it. there was a lot of struggle sometimes, and there was ideas i had planned that i never got to, but i feel like it really helped me, having this month. ive definitely gotten better at drawing dess, and i feel like my anatomy and posing had gotten better ^^. though, i dont know if ill do this again. it was difficult, and next year ill be in college, so i might be too busy. i guess we will just wait and see 😁

during this month, ive also thought a lot about dess in general. i have so many thoughts and ideas involving her, yet we still have such little knowledge on her. its weird, i have this whole dess created, but one day she will become obsolete, and we will see who dess actually is. i dont know how to feel about it. but, until we actually see dess, i plan to keep drawing my dess, and i might keep drawing her after we see dess, it just depends. even if im nervous to see her, i cant wait either!

but thats enough of my ramblings, im sure nobody read all that, so for a tldr, i just talked about why i designed older dess like that, my thoughts on my dess-ember, and my thoughts on dess ^^

i hope yall have a wonderful new years!! 🥳🥳

#art #my art #digital art #deltarune #dess holiday #deltarune dess #december holiday #deltarune december #dess-ember #dess-ember day 31

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whysamwhy123 · 5 months

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✨Fic Writing Review 2023✨

Tagged by the wonderful dynamic duo that is @aerodaltonimperial and @perhapswhoknowsvamp and it's very fitting that those two lovely people tagged me because they're a big reason why I wrote much of anything this year! Took me a while to get this done because I wanted to get my last fic of the year out the door first. I'll put the rest below the cut, and fair warning - it's loooooong. This bitch doesn't shut up, so I rambled on. A lot.

Words and Fics

76, 222 words published on AO3 in 2023

15 fics published on AO3 (16 if you count that one kinkmeme prompt I filled and posted anonymously)

2 little tumblr ficlets

Top 3 by Kudos

Voice in the Dark - Hookhausen (not super surprising, considering it was a popular pairing at the time, and it was the fic I wrote for the anniversary event)

Kids These Days And Their Darn Phones - Hookhausen

Half Your Age Plus Seven - OrangeHook (I continue to be incredibly surprised how well this fic did, like...huh?!)

Top 3 by Hits

Voice in the Dark - Hookhausen

Voice in the Dark, Part Two - Hookhausen (how fitting, LOL)

Half Your Age Plus Seven - OrangeHook (Seriously, what was it about this fic that drew people in? More so than any of my other OrangeHook fics? Like, I'm grateful and all but also confused, like this fic is way too long?! And weird about the age difference?!)

Author's Favourite

As much as I'm loving writing OrangeHook now, I think Voice in the Dark, Part Two is probably the best thing I've written? Even though it's also overly long and gets weird at the end (very much did not expect it to go in that direction when I started writing it), I'm actually pretty proud of how that one turned out. I had a clear vision in my head for how each scene would play out and what I wanted to get across, and man, I remember how most of the Hook/Evilhausen dialogue popped into my brain late one night when I couldn't sleep, so I spat it out into a doc and then about a month later when I actually wrote the scene, I don't think I changed a single word? I just added everything else around it, all the not-dialogue parts. And it was just a lot of fun getting to carry on that story, especially as someone who hasn't managed to crank out a proper multi-chapter fic yet. Who knows, maybe I'll return to that world someday...

Fandom Events in 2023

Uh, well, I guess I did the whole Hookhausen Anniversary thing? And...that's about it. I'm pretty disconnected from the fandom at large, whoopsie daisy 😬

Upcoming Projects

Hoo boy.

I have over 5k words of a Ricky/Christian Sugar Baby AU thing written already. I haven't posted it because it kinda needs some smut and that's still not something I can really do. I might post it someday, if I can make something work, or alternatively do what I normally do and put an annoying fade to black in there. Or maybe I'll think better of it and never post it because it's very self-indulgent and I highly doubt anyone else would really be interested or want me to continue it or anything. But I have Ideas for it...so many ideas...

Also, in my ill-fated quest to try and make myself write smut, I kinda started a Ricky/Bill championship celebration fic. Maybe I'll revisit that? Try to get it done?

And then there's that one fic I really want to work on, but have barely started. I've vague-posted about it here before - it's an incredibly fucked-up Dead Dove fic about Daniel Garcia and a Very Bad, Not-Good thing that happens to him, and the subsequent complete mental breakdown that follows. I've had the idea rattling around in my brain for the better part of a year at this point, despite not making much actual progress on it. Every time I think about it though, I have new ideas for scenes or dialogue. I'd like to make it work, but I don't know if I have the writing chops to handle it, plus it would probably end up being super long and nobody would want to read it, so it'd feel like a huge waste of time on my part? And I've had the idea for so long, it's out-dated too. But still, the urge remains...

Oh, and I still have a ton of OrangeHook ideas I'd like to make happen. Some are, of course, about their age difference. Some would (ideally) involve smut. And others... *nervous laughter* Others would likely result in an ''Everyone disliked that'' situation...

Writing Reflection

I was thinking about making a sappy post about this and whoops, here's my excuse! I don't talk a lot on here about my tragic backstory because honestly, who cares? But I will say this - before January of this year, I hadn't written a word of anything in years. Fic or otherwise. I used to love writing, but Stuff Happened and it killed all enjoyment I got out of it, and I thought that's how it would be forever. Then, for reasons I can't even remember, I started reading fic again, specifically in this wild little fandom of ours, and y'all are just so talented that it made my untalented ass want to give it another shot. So...I did.

I remember when I posted my first fic in ages back in January, I thought ''Maybe about three people will read this and no one will leave a comment or anything, but whatever, I wrote a thing and that's something I haven't done in years so that's enough for me!'' And to be honest, I still think that whenever I post stuff now? It's crazy to me that anyone actually reads my stuff and gets some kind of kick out of it. But every kudos and comment floors me and brings me so much joy, I can't even express it properly. I have to say a huge thank you to anyone who's ever read one of my fics, left kudos or dropped a comment. Whoever and wherever you are, you made my day!

And look, I ain't delusional. I know that calling myself a small fish in the fandom would be too generous. But I'm fine with that - because I'm genuinely enjoying writing again and that's what matters most to me. Even though I've also rediscovered how stressful writing can be (🙂🙂🙂) when it comes down to it, there's joy and happiness in my life that wasn't there last year and that's all because I started writing again. And because some lovely folks here decided to let me know they liked what I was throwing out there. The years have not been kind to ol' Sammy Sam-Sam and this year was no exception, but getting to forget about all that shit and write my silly little wrestling fanfiction has been a great distraction and a comfort through this whole year.

So...yeah. Thanks to everyone who's ever commented on my writing, thanks to the folks who follow me on here (I don't know how you manage that though, I'm such an annoying bitch, aren't you sick of me yet?) and thanks to anyone who I've had the chance to chat with about writing and ships and whatever silly little ideas pop into my head (any of y'all feel free to message me at any time, I am always down to blab about whatever blorbos/ideas take your fancy). I'm hoping I can keep this train a-rollin' a little more next year. Still thinking back to when I started writing again, I made my new AO3 account expecting to write Dustjim only, but then I quickly decided I couldn't write those two well enough, and since then I've bounced around a bunch of different pairings, with a few rarepairs shoved in between for good measure. God only knows where my head will be at this time next year, LOL. I'd love to finally be able to attempt some of the bigger ideas I've been cooking up for a while now. Maybe I'll even write a proper multi-chapter fic? We'll see, but this bitch can dream, at least.

Rules:

Feel free to show whatever stats you have. Only want to show Ao3 stats? Rock on. Want to include some quantitative info instead of stats? Please do this. Want to change how yours is presented? Absolutely do that. Would rather eat glass than do this? Please do eat glass, I’ve heard it’s good for your gums.

I'm not going to tag anyone because I'm pretty sure everyone I know who writes has already been tagged? So if you're reading this and you haven't, go ahead and do it! By which I mean, eat glass. Eat all the glass that you want. Accidents happen in the dark.

#What is wrong with you Sam you should not be allowed to write #Also you really need to learn to shut up dude #This bitch went onnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn and on #But it was kinda fun reflecting on The Year I Got Back Into Writing #It's been fun yo #Who knows what this next year will bring??

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s0lar-ch3ri · 1 year

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a tiny ramble on luz's character: the symbolism i saw when she just stood there (spoilers obviously, for both season 2 and 3)

so i've been watching fan vids of the ending for toh and in this one reaction vid i was watching the death scene in a sense and i just had to over analyze it

for context, after belos is removed from the heart, he tries to lie again to luz and it starts to rail, the boiling water melting his human disguise. shes still in this titan form, clearly being as strong as ever, probably getting close to the level of the collector imo, and yet she doesnt do anything as he talks to her. she just stands, blank faced and doesnt move a bit (image shown below, low quality since its from the yt vid)

she just glares him down, not a word. she expresses no emotion other then annoyance, or maybe hate, and thats even just from looking at small details that we get.

yet here phillp is, giving it one last try, one more chance to trick her again. he shows a fake expressing of concern, later on worry that boils to anger and rage. unlike luz, he shows a ton of expression. hes using emotion, a very human concept, as a way to make her believe that he wasn't in the wrong, that he can be trusted, that he can be forgiven in a sense. he talks a lot, repeating with "better" words parts of sentences to show how good it is that she saved him and that wild magic is bad. however, he wasn't always this expressive. infact, the amount of emotion he shows here plays into how luz has reacted before!

i found the screenshot of when hes talking to hunter (its eclipse lake btw, around 1:15) and he seems not so smug but rather relaxed and welcoming. looking from hunter's eyes, this is really his uncle, and his uncle has always looked out for him, hasnt he (no he hasnt lol; also so do note that in hollow mind hunter does hesitiate before going through the memory with the portal door, like he'd take the eyeball monster over going through that again??? (i will be analysing him next hes just so ever))?

now heres an image of when he was talking to the collector in the mind scape. his energy is less familial and cozy but like an adult entertaining a child, he seems so smug and more like someone who you talk trash on others to. the energy he has for the people he surrounds himself with changes with who said people are. however, the amount of emotion he shows isnt excessive like the scenes with luz. even in elsewhere and elsewhen, he's shown more emotion when talking to her then with other characters.

this is how he knows her, the excitment and high energy, want to save everyone luz is how he has seen her. not to mention, he notices how lilith is getting concerned and starts talking differently. i know i keep jumping around with belos, but ill get back to luz soon!

another detail of lesser emotion with belos: we've seen him mostly wearing a mask. now, obviously the mask would hide his face and any form of emotion, but the mask noticiably has no mouth. all it shows is eye holes, lines to represent eyelids id presume, and nose holes. the mask cant show any kind of emotion at all due to the lack of detail. as such, we've only been able to tell his emotions through the tone of his voice, the way he speaks, etc. he has no need for emotion here.

from what belos has seen, luz has shown much emotion and empathy, so he plays into what he thinks is her weakness, pulling her heart strings with a fable that he believes surely she'd fall for. belos is good at manipulation because his style of how he does it changes with whoever he talks to, but one unexpected detail has stopped him now: this human has managed to change in such short time.

however, luz is very expressive even after everything, even in battle, even at the last battle. she always puts her best into whatever she does because she cares (its similar to the papyrus: blink motherfucker post basically, she always puts 110% into whatever she does). shes the main character because shes a very caring person and would never do anything to harm the innocent, making her a very good mc for the show! she speaks out against belos and his evil that one time at the night market because she wants to do the right thing for these people, because she cares for them.

she could just put him out his misery now. she could just kill belos just out of her hatred. yet she doesnt. because shed be stooping down to his level, killing someone because you simply dont like them. in this scene, belos finds sp,ethomg (ok ik ruining mood with that but the mispelling is just too funny, i meant to say something) he never expected, luz just does not care about him. she doesnt care to listen to him, doesnt care for his fate, and will not care in the end. she knows he doesnt deserve the respect of a response.

she doesnt even look at him, she doesnt have the care to now. and why should she? hes hurt many people, and tried to put her on his level of awful, comparing them as if theyre remotely similar. another thing by the way, when trying to use sympathy fails, belos switches to blame, saying how horrible shed be if she didn't help him now.

in this scene, he says "we're human, we're better then this!" with the irony of him being the least human hes ever been. this is pretty noticable, but theres more irony than just this. this is also the least human that luz the HUMAN has ever been. shes constantly been given that title, one example being eda telling luz that her life is great because "shes friends with luz the human"! yet shes harnessing the titan in her, and we see her doing things like eda and king do. and a big human thing we have? emotions and empathy. we sympathize with each other because we care and are run by our emotions, and thats a pretty key part in what makes us human. however, belos uses this against those around him, with promises of things that they desire in a sense. belos has lost any sense of humanity just to fulfill this savior complex (ill be doing more analysing so ill explain this later but no its not like a hero complex) while luz has became more humane with her journey, taking in how what she's done has affected those shes with, understanding them. luz being human is what makes her better then having to stomp him out, needing the last hit. she already did enough and doesnt need to care anymore about defeating him, because even if the rain didnt kick in and he was able to keep his human disguise, he would still lose.

tdlr: luz simply ignoring belos can be very over analysed by my neurodivergent ass, and the reasoning why is simply because when shed care once now she does not.

#watching and dreaming #toh spoilers #toh season 3 #toh season three #toh s3 spoilers #toh season 3 spoilers #toh s3 #toh finale #toh luz #toh belos

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mr-voorhees-husband · 2 years

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< < ' *Slides in*

More Yandere shocker mayhaps? Possibly some Otto as well?

Wow, you're mentally ill. I mean I am too so, no harm here lol

How about I set you up with a drabble for Shocker and Otto? Haven't written for them in a couple months so I apologize if it's a bit OOC (also you didn't specify which version, but I'll assume TSSM)

Warnings: Yandere, Gore, Otto kills a guy, unhealthy relationships, manipulation tatics, slightly OOC

Reader: Gender Neutral

Jackson Brice "Montana" "Shocker"

It was a stupid mistake on your part. You should have known better to ignore the drunk text from him. You could barely remember his name anymore, but none of that mattered. Not while you were sitting on the couch as Montana scrubbed brain matter and blood from the hardwood floor.

"Why'd you answer him?"

"I didn't even remember his name, Montana." You sighed, running a hand through your hair as you did your best to ignore the crimson beginning to stain your shared home red. "I didn't even think he remembered where I lived!"

Montana stood up, boots clicking against the floor as he dropped the bloody rag into a bucket of sudsy water. It was a rusty color, red, orange, and brown all at the same time. He crossed the room quickly, caging you in the room to keep you from rushing away. "Darlin', ya' love me, don't you?"

"Mhm.." It was hesitant, but Montana grinned nonetheless, wrapping arms around you and dragging you to his chest. He pressed a kiss to your head, humming deep in his throat.

"So, how about you think about me next time? I don't want anyone taking my darlin' away from me."

Otto Octavius "Doctor Octopus"

Blood dripped from the razor-sharp claws that Otto called a second and third pair of arms. They clacked nosily, two prodding at the body while the other two stood high above their brothers, swerving around to make sure no trouble arachnid spotted their master. In his defense, he hadn't meant to loose his cool, he was just so angry about what happened earlier.

His phone ringing snapped him out of his trance, his arms sweeping the body into a nearby dumpster before tucking under his labcoat. He grabbed his phone, not even bothering to check the caller ID. It was probably Osborn calling to bug him about Otto's most recent breakthrough. "Yes? Hello?"

"Otto?"

Otto's breathing stuttered for a moment, your voice alone making him stumble. He'd just killed that sickly date of yours, and now you were calling him. Did you know? You didn't sound upset. So maybe you didn't? "Oh! I- I thought- Ah- sorry- sorry, what did you need?" He cut off his own rambling, nervously wiping off his shades before replacing him with his usual square frames.

"Um- I was wondering if you could come over later?" Your voice was embarrassingly soft, the barest hint of nervousness in your words. Beneath it all though, Otto could hear despair.

Were you really upset over that waste of space?

"Oh- well- yes of course!" Despite it being late, Otto would never pass up an opportunity to be with you. Especially if you were as vulnerable as you sounded. "I'll be by as soon as I can, is- is that okay?"

"Yes- yes." You sighed, "thank you so much Otto.."

"Of course, after all," he glanced at the blood coated cement with a smile, "what are friends for?"

#tw yandere #tssm #otto Octavius #the spectacular spider man #shocker #tags aren't working #oh well

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sickiehugs · 1 year

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So I saw you did "v3 Boys taking care of a sick reader" but how about you do the reverse; Reader taking care of the v3 boys

Oh my god tysm for the request, this is my first one!! I would love to :)

Skipping Keebo bc he robot

V3 Boys Sickfic Headcanons

With sickie!V3 boys and caretaker!Reader

Shuichi Saihara

Poor guy would do everything to hide his illness from you, he really doesn't like people worrying about him.

He canonically skips breakfast a lot, so he honestly wouldn't get very far with the above plan. Either fainting at his desk, or just becoming very obviously weak.

You carry him to bed and turn the lights out. You wheel his desk chair to his bedside and sit down, open up your laptop, and adjust the brightness, making it the only dim light in the room.

He sleeps most of the time, but would try to stay awake for the interrogation analyses you'd put on for him (Speaking from experience: Interrogation analyses are actually really interesting and easy to focus on when you're sick. Consider this a sick tip from a pro).

OH AND HE LIKES ACE ATTORNEY!!!! Snuggle up next to him and play ace attorney,,,, he ships klapollo,,,,

He's really weak and fragile. Out like a light and rarely wakes up to do anything. He's really upset that he can't do any work while he's sick in bed, but you're good at assuring him that he deserves all the rest in the world and he can always catch up later.

Can't stomach a lot of food, he doesn't eat a lot to begin with and the added nausea makes it pretty much impossible to keep stuff down.

He hugs pillows,, he gives them hugs,, hug me instead pls

Very apologetic and says he's sorry every time he needs something from you. You'd eventually convince him that he's worth everything and you're happy to help him get better.

Delirious Shuichi would be either a nervous, hallucinating mess, or the only time in history where his anxiety would go poof and he could just stare blankly at the wall and smile like an idiot. Or both.

Kaito Momota

(Assume he doesn't have his canon illness here.)

At first you don't even notice a thing, he's the same loud and confident guy he always is. Well, it seems that way, at least.

Tiny little things start adding up to something bigger; his cheeks are pink, his voice is a little scratchy, his hand is warmer when you hold it...

Everything goes downhill when Kaito's voice crAcks and he finds himself unable to speak, therefore unable to convince you that he's fine (he ain't lol). One big coughing fit later, he's in his bed with the lights out, his arms crossed tight and his face flashing an angry, defeated pout.

He's all like "I'm the Kaito Momota, Luminary of the Stars! Some pesky illness is no match f- *COUGH* *HACK* *COUGH COUGH* *gasp* *COUGH*" bro needs a hug

Tired ramblings are all about space. They'd actually be pretty interesting if they were coherent. He won't stop talking even with the hoarseness of his voice.

He keeps trying to get out of bed to get stuff instead of asking you but he either kinda gives up halfway through and crawls back to bed or you catch him and give him a lecture.

He really really wants a hug but doesn't know how to ask D:

Before he falls asleep he just kinda looks at you and holds his arms out, you understand and give him the hug he's wanted all day... he yoinks you into bed with him and falls asleep with his arms around you

Kokichi Ouma

He'd mostly look fine at first but you notice he's a lot more careful physically, like walking a lot slower and protecting his stomach with his hands. If he had known it'd slowly get harder to hide his illness he wouldn't have come out of his room, but of course it's too late now.

He thinks he's doing a good job when... "Kokichi, you ok?"

The professional liar's mind would be too foggy to properly lie. A stupid guilty smile and two full minutes of tired stuttering go by.

Now normally if you tried to grab the small guy he would run away and you'd have to chase him for hours, but he just can't do that today. He's already getting tired despite not doing anything, his vision is slowly fading and his legs are starting to give out. He knows what's good for him deep down and, as much as he hates it, he'll let you scoop him up into your arms.

Once he accepts that he's sick, this man turns into the ultimate drama queen. I feel like he just wants people to care about him, though? And exaggerating his condition might be the only way to achieve that?

It doesn't take long for you to realize it's not as bad as he says it is. But he's still pretty sick, so nothing about how you take care of him really changes. Just ignore him when he claims to be dying.

Do something wrong and he's like "Do you want me to die? So rude, Reader-chan~!" in his messed-up, scratchy and seemingly painful voice.

Oh my god he will not stay in bed. He literally climbs all over you like a child. Sleeps anywhere but where he's supposed to. Hides in his closet. You're really strong for agreeing to take care of this gremlin and making it this far, you know that?

Delirious Kokichi is even more of a menace but he's twice as tired so it doesn't last too long.

So, say he does get worse. Would his playful façade start to slip, or would delirium make it 10x as strong?

Gonta Gokuhara

(Short since I'm not too familiar with Gonta as a person + I haven't played his FTE)

Everything is fine until he suddendy latches an arm around his stomach and doubles over, teeth clenched and eyes shut tight. You rush to his side and ask him what's wrong.

He tells you it wouldn't be gentlemanly to ask for help, you argue that it would be even less gentlemanly to puke on the floor. He lets you walk him to the bathroom.

He slep,, he sleps so cute,, somehow he manages to look small cuz he is curled up in a little blanket burrito and sleping

Korekiyo Shinguji

(Again, short, sorry D:)

I'm getting gothic whump vibes from him

HE is getting gothic whump vibes too

I think he reads whump stuff when he's not studying anthropology

Lights candles instead of the lamp on his nightstand, his sheets are all white, keeps his windows open, yeah the whole deal. Your Kiyo values aesthetic and that is VALID.

Homies I apologize but I don't know shit about Ryoma and Rantaro. Ever since I started this post two weeks ago I've been stuck on them. Feel free to reblog with HCs for them!! Anyways, super duper sorry for the wait, Anon! I really hope it was worth it D:

#answeriehugs #give kaito a hug #sickfic #sickie #whump #sickfic prompts #whumpblr #sickfic tropes #sickfic dialogue #ask #danganronpa sickfic #fever whump #danganronpa headcanons

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cortexreaver · 5 months

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another thing im kind of proud of myself for i guess is im getting better at being patient with myself when it comes to creating shit like i have this.....it doesnt feel right to call it a proper setting yet idk i have bits of a fantasy setting that formed out wanting to try making a nwn module but not wanting to have to stick to the parameters of the d&d settings im familiar with lol. and ive been working on developing it and actually making something with it pretty sporadically all i have to show for it are a couple rambling docs some unfinished levels and a couple scripts that technically work and i know eventually ill look back on what i have now and think wow you can tell a complete beginner did this but it doesnt bother me anymore ive stopped shying away from just writing down ideas whenever i have them and reworking things later and reworking them again and just discarding ideas once ive laid them out instead of shooting them down before i even get them out of my head. and most importantly i keep coming back to it and over time ive started feeling less and less guilty about time not spent on creating something even while i have next to nothing right now. it could even all go nowhere and i dont think it would feel like wasted time anymore at this point. it feels good 👍

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tezerenotameiki · 1 year

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Hi, uh. I saw your post about the denpa-style C-ta horror game and. 1. your mind?? yes please, and 2. do you have any denpa classics recommendations because I've only played a few and love the aesthetic..

ANONNNN YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH I SMILED WHEN I SAW THIS ASK ,, 1) IM MAKING THIS A THING AND 2) ALWAYS. RAMBLINGS BELOW

ok. im working off the assumption ur like me and primarily play english vns but have relative familiarity with the, uh, quirks of the genre. just in case: denpa games are pretty difficult to recommend in general because of how intense, graphic, gorey, etc. they tend to be. i cant really get into content warnings with each one bc they would be literal paragraphs LOL but i'm going to try and provide a range of options (both classics + things that i personally believe fit the aesthetic). if you need more details on any game, just hmu!!

subahibi: i'll start off with easily the most horrifying game i've ever played (extremely affectionate). it's difficult to even talk about the plot of this game, other than that it's a fascinating spiral down a literal/metaphorical rabbit hole as you unravel the psyches of the most fucked up cast in the world. a read so brutal i have to take breaks from it to recover from it. i adore it so.

sayonara o oshiete: if you want a classic, this is one of the Defining games in the genre. it definitely shows its age, but holy shit is the atmosphere incredible. it's also... another really graphic game. there's an english patch that isn't particularly good, apparently, and got hated on so much it was deleted... but it's not hard to find (lol) and i've definitely read worse translations

shizuku: so this was a fun surprise! in researching this list i discovered someone who machine translated the OG visual novel and denpa game, shizuku, and uploaded it to youtube. it's janky, but a cool find, so i'lll be watching it later. shizuku's just got a neat aesthetic in general and it's good if you want to know about the classics - there's a lot written up about it.

totono: unfortunately, by its inclusion on its list, i'm spoiling that its not a normal dating sim… but it's a nitroplus game, that's a given! a protagonist convinced that he'll never amount to anything begins to connect with the two love interests in the game. from there… the game truly bends the narrative and uses its medium in stunning ways. it's as thought-provoking as it is horrifying. a must-read imo

higurashi: i'm assuming if you're at all familiar with vns you've played or at least heard of higurashi. if not. go play it. shakes your shoulders.

soundless -a modern salem in remote area-: this was actually my introduction to denpa games, so i have a huge soft spot for it! it's insane how much they tailored it to my tastes. a young girl caught in a religious cult is viciously tormented by the other members for her visions — until another member arrives saying that she can see the same things too.

chaos;child: more sci-fi than most denpa games usually are, but with all the focus on delusion, gore, the spiral of mental illness, etc etc i just have to put it on this list. watch this cocky newspaper club president try to investigate senselessly brutal murders across the city and become embroiled in a case beyond human understanding! fun!

^^ (as a sidenote, its prequel, chaos;head NOAH, is supposed to have a improved translation patch by committee of zero coming out soon! just based on the aesthetic, i think c;h is a little bit of a better fit, but i haven't played it yet)

milk inside / outside a bag of milk: two separate games, but mostly listing for the second one, which has a stunning art style that completely replicates that feeling of being disconnected from reality. short but stays with you.

hopefully there are a few on this list that seem of interest to you! i can always dive into my itch.io for more niche games i may have forgotten about lol

#the real issue here is finding games that are actually translated ........ there are a bunch of video essays and articles online #on some other influential ones #asks

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acoraxia · 1 year

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do you think when they were kids mac was taller and made fun of SWK for it. Now the size being opposite SEK doesnt let Mac live it down LMAO. I love your SWK even if personally hc him short (its totally not bc im 5 feet/154 cm and im projecting….no why would you say that) BUT NWAYS I like to think even though SWK is taller now and teases Mac.. Mac still brings it up to embarrass him LOL

weblewupthebus asked: ON THE TOPIC OF PROJECTION It makes me so glad to hc SWK to have chronic pain (that is..a strange thing for me to say) because I have chronic pain due to my physically illness. I say that short stature is a symptom of my illness to make me feel better..it is however, my mom and sister have it as well. My mom is half a foot taller than me and my sister (10) goes to my forehead T^T I havent grown in six years. This is where you tell me im actually immortal and Ill grow in like 500 years right? Right?! SORRY aim rambling but the point is SWK has chronic pain and so does Mac, Pigsy, Xiaojiao, and Xiaotian.

weblewupthebus asked: I have decided that I will say fuck it to everything and HC SWK having my physical illness. IDC IF SOME ASPECTS DONT MAKE SENSE, ITS CANON!! Anyways I will elaborate later today if I dont forget..im running late to class.

oh wow ok you went off uhm!

1- I do think that! I love the HC of young SWK being tiny compared to the other monkeys because of personal HC that he just ages slower than other monkeys and yaoguai alike and when the events of LMK take place he's just. tall. as hell. glamours himself to be short for comfort reasons

2- I also HC SWK has chronic pains!! Same hat tbh yeah I also hc the characters you listed - Except Pigsy! That one's one but it's very interesting tbh i like it

3- ok go for it my dude very glad you can hc and project onto SWK as much as you can and gl in class! I'll be here vibing and trying to find food for myself

#nods nods nods #ask #not my personal hcs but they're neat i like them

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spacedlexi · 1 year

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have you watched tlou? thoughts?

ive made a few posts about it if u search tlou on my blog but i never made a final thoughts or anything

this kinda turned into a final thoughts ramble (essay) so under the cut it goes

honestly it kinda peaked for me at ep 3 (which was a REALLY good ep so the bar was high and i was mostly enjoying the changes up through that point),, i still liked it but i feel like some of the changes they made altered the impact of the og ellie/joel relationship. theyre dedicated to rewriting ellie to have some "violence" problem to attempt to set her up better for part 2 but i just hate that they actively have chosen to do this to her character. they took a lot of her sweetness away which is a huge shame to me. theyre so weird about ellie honestly i dont like the way they talk about her half the time these days i had to stop watching the bts because the way they kept talking about "violence" made me ill sick even. like you can still have your character have a "descent into madness" type plot after experiencing an extremely traumatic event (after a lifetime of traumatic experiences) without being weird about how "violent" people are. they love to throw that word around but they dont like to investigate Why exactly people are being violent and to Who. its typically just violence and/or revenge=bad 😐 (<-and that i think kinda leads into other problems i have with the plots they write in general)

i had less problems with joel. my only real problem was that they really played up the old thing a little much like save it for part 2 lol also not enough accent i didnt hear a single "elleh". i wasnt a fan of how they decided to change joel and tommys convo about ellie, and while i can appreciate it more now knowing that they still committed to portraying joels actions in the final episode as the selfish acts they are, and seeing joel have fears of failure makes sense because im sure he feels he failed as a parent, im still not a fan of how maria doesnt get to chew him out for his selfishness (important character moment of reflection on selfish behavior and consequences of actions on people around him), and how it changes the atmosphere of his and ellies argument when half of the reason he doesnt want to take her is because he feels too old and slow to protect her. and Then when he Does decide to take her its like? werent you crying last night about being slow and deaf and the impact that has on your combat ability? did that change? i understand why they added the lines they added but i dont feel like it made sense with how they continued to play out the episode with line for line scenes from the game...like these are two different things now. similar, but different enough to introduce problems where there didnt used to be. and then hes stabbed and dying 10 mins later

the pacing in general was a little iffy to me. it was only 9 episodes and 2 of them are separate from the main plot. that, plus rewriting existing characters/plots, plus not being able to fit in the more softer personal moments between joel and ellie that would just happen throughout a map(i know its hard to make watching 2 people walk cross country interesting but we needed more of those moments), plus ellie being preemptively hardened so we see less of her soft side slowly cracking through joels tough shell really impacted the believability of their relationship for me. we're supposed to see ellie become more hardened over the game but honestly in the show she always feels at the same level to me :/ those soft moments Are still there but i wouldve liked to have seen more of them. especially felt the loss of the scene where ellie sees real fireflies for the first time

the reason why i love the original last of us so much is because i think it is an INCREDIBLE character piece. every single character plays a very important role in shaping the development of the main two protagonists relationship (the two of which are Also impacting each other) over the course of the story. while i loved bill and franks ep, i wish they would have introduced a new character to fill the role that og bill left. because og bill was very important for joel. he was like a ghost of christmas future showing the man he could become if he continued to push people away. and throughout bills segment joel frequently pushes back against his ideas and this usually lent to a little bonding moment between him and ellie. but this also showed us that joel was open to new connections. whether he would get over his fear of that or not to be solved at a later date (ie: the tommy incident that was altered for the show and my problem with it because joels choice to take ellie after their argument is EVERYTHING and the show muddied it a bit). but by the time they leave bill, joel and ellie have begun building a true connection

sam and henry also suffered from this imo. by writing in all the kathleen stuff, it takes the focus away from how sam and henrys familial relationship is the foundation from which joel and ellies closer familial bond is allowed to grow (which also becomes a source of division when ellie wants to talk about what happened to them but joel wants to move on, which leads into their conflict during tommys section which boils down to more "talk about it vs move on"). i also feel like the story is weaker for choosing not to include the story of kyle and ish. because although it happens mainly through notes, its a story about letting yourself learn to trust new people and the things you can do with a strong community, its a story about how even though good things may come to an end, the time we had together was important and meaningful and WORTH IT and i wouldnt have done it any other way. id much rather focus more in on that as a theme (compounds with the riley/left behind segment/plus joels final act of selfishness) than whatever tf was going on with kathleen and her revenge plot. plus i thought the first game was all about "love" so why not go harder into these "light in the darkness" themes? kathleens plot is just a watered down part 2 anyway i still dont think we needed that :/

all my grievances aside however they Did stick the landing and i was so relieved plus i enjoyed the added anna segment. as someone whos played tlou like at least 10 times over the last decade plus watched others play, it was going to be impossible for me to not constantly be comparing the two. to be fair i think one of the strongest points of the show was how they really nailed how it felt to actually BE the player in these scenes that i had already played a hundred times myself. im sure this show was great for someone whos never played the game since a lot of my problems come from how they decided to do certain things for the show. i hope the people who enjoyed the show but havent experienced the game go watch a clip comp or something because i definitely believe the og game is still the best way to experience this story. video games also deserve more respect as an art form but thats a whooooole other conversation

i wish my opinion was stronger than 'it was fine overall with a couple solid episodes' but welp....definitely couldve been worse tho so im glad its at least as good as it is. it is good!! but the game is very near and dear to me so...i am biased but i tried to at least give it as fair a shake as possible. i think it started pretty strong. peaked with bill and frank. then dipped a little lower than the first ep. then picked back up to first eps strength again for the final stretch. the bill and frank and left behind eps were my favorite parts of the season. its a bit of a shame that the 2 eps that are most removed from the plot are the strongest to me, but also i guess it makes sense

#replies with lexi #incognito #half of this is me gushing about why i love the game so much but it gets at where my problems with the show come from #after u get past my ellie grumblings #tlou critical #but also pos :)#i really did a deep dive hoo boy #time to post this at an unreasonable hour #time to stop agonizing over Opinions and go to sleep

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enchanted1waters · 10 months

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Musically lustful.

Summary: Loser!Ellie is a sophomore in college, a die hard fan of the band. The reader is an oc rocker babe!! Ellie gets more than a backstage tour...

Pt 2 will be the one filled with smut 🙄💅

Warnings: sexual content in next chapter, loser!Ellie pussy drunk, good music, drugs, alcohol.

Enjoyyyy ☝️👀📸

Ellie's pov:

The Professor giving us the 'ok' to leave sent me scrambling to gather all of papers, stuffing them all into my book bag not caring one or two about whether or not they were bent to hell or not. All I cared about was-

*Ding*

Dinathepussydestroyer13

Are you ready, groupie?

Els_constellations

Since when is your user that!?

Dinathepussydestroyer13

I figured if I was gonna give my social to a hot band chick, it better be memorable. It's hilarious, admit it.

Els_constellations

Ha. Ha. So funny. I thought you and Jessie were back on?

Dinathepussydestroyer13

Yeah a week ago, thought you'd know us better than that Einstein.

Walking down the hallway, deep in my conversation; rushing to get out I accidentally bumped into a door frame. Sending me looking straight up to make sure no one saw that. After realizing I was clear, I cursed myself out and huffed. I continued swiping on the very cracked iphone 6. "Jesus Ellie get it together."

Els_constellations

lol, Anyways I just got out of class. You have the tickets?

Dinathepussydestroyer13

Yes Mom, now if I pick you up later and you aren't wearing the most obvious, "hey I'm gay and single" outfit. I'm shoving you into a push up bra of mine.

At the threat I gasped aloud, fastly tapping back.

Els_costellations

You wouldn't dare. >:(

Dinathepussydestroyer13

Oh but I would. >:)) NOW GET READY, ILL BE THERE IN AN HOUR.

It was Friday night, me and my best friend, Dina since preschool; WERE ABOUT TO SEE MY FAVORITE BAND. Fangs and all. I had first heard th when I was flipping through the radio in Joel's truck. When they came on, instead of Joel immediately swatting the dial he paused. Gruffed for a moment sure, but when our ears landed on each thrum of the bass chord, his fingers tapped the steering wheel, my heart soared. Sadly Joel wasn't able to go of course with his contracting job he'd been into recently, but since I showed Dina them about a couple years ago and made her ACTUALLY listen to it a couple months ago...she now just last Wednesday was rambling about getting a tattoo from one of their songs that read, "Everybody has a chapter they don't read aloud." Which I don't blame her for because it was this entire 5 genre clashed into one song, which caused a symphony of layering and then the entire instrumental went silent and then the lead singer, WHO IS ALSO THE BASSIT! sick right!?! She just sounded like she took it from the bottom of her lungs, bottled up for so long and threw it out into the world hoping someone strong enough would catch it- DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON HER. She's only a year older than me. EVEN WHEN SHE TALKS ON TV SHE SOUNDS INTELLIGENT. Definitely one of the first people I ever mast- shit where was I. Jesus Ellie rambling to yourself again

Fuck. I gotta get ready, what to wear...sweats? Nope. Dina will absolutely murder me and bring the most tragic thing over here to push me into.

Shoving ten flannels and sweatshirts out of the way I found a white cut off tank top, old and grown out of, some holes here and there. The cut off exposing my arms and my v line down to my baggy-ish washed out jeans. Hanging lowly around my waist. I looked in the mirror. I thought I looked decent, by decent I mean completely in my head, swallowing and choking on my own salvia. About to crawl out of my own skin before Dina basically busted down my door to tell me how good I looked and for once in my life I actually listened.

Eventually we made it, we FUCKING made it. It was breathtaking, the concert stadium that is. Yet that might have a little to do with the blunt Dina and I shared to counteract the pile of anxiety eating away at me.

Scarlett's pov:

Waking up this morning to banging on my door after a hangover from last night- oh let me go ahead and inform you. My drummer Vick had the great idea to dare me to drink the rest of the beer pong cups, saying I wouldn't do it. And I know what you're thinking, "Scarlett why wouldn't you just say yeah exactly, I won't." Well that's because my family is a bunch of role models and if Im not used as the child to compare to as a bad example, Id be useless. So continuing on, I woke up to my guitarist, Trace banging on my door telling me we made it to Austin.

"YEAH I CAN HEAR YOU, ASSHOLE." I said rolling over, barely seeing through my hair in my eyes. "GOOD, NOW DO YOU HAVE A CIGARETTE?" She asked through the locked door. I groaned in response into my pillow. I then forced myself out of bed to the door, unlocking it as I made my way over to my nightstand pulling out a carton. Her following behind me. I sit down on the bed, pulling on pants. "Here, needy." I say throwing the rest of the pack at her after pulling one in-between my lips. She laughed as she pulled a lighter out.

"You excited? Gonna getcha a cowgirl?" She said nudging me after lighting my cigarette. I rolled my eyes, "if I'm lucky, I'll be the cowgirl and she'll be my ride for the night." She arches an eyebrow at me, "RIGHTTTT, because you're totally gonna take groupie in. You know how you are, you flirt and then you never bring a fan back. If you do it's not a fan, it's some chick from a gay bar."

I take one last quick puff off of my cig before replying, "OUUU fuck me for keeping one moral intact. I just...don't wanna take advantage of them. You know?" She starts to laugh, "I would say yes, but I'd be lying. I love me some emo cowboy groupies." She then presses a cowboy hat on my head she somehow managed to snuggle in here and runs off.

~later~

Spritzing a lingering fragrance onto my skin as a finishing touch, I looked into my mirror one last time to see :Hair fluffed and free, metal necklaces down my cleavage to my mid-waist, dark eye makeup with glitter highlighting my eyelid, light makeup if any on my actual face, freckles in full bloom across my t-zone. Lips plump, teeth whitened, Darkest green jacket caressing my curves as it flows to my knees, cropped silver and black lacey top that flowed into bell like flowy sleeves under my jacket, tits barely over flowing, matching skirt, and finally combat boot like heels. Rings, bracelets, piercings, all jewelry of any kind as well as tattoos could be found at least once on me. I looked good for a concert anyways.

Leaving my dressing room I was immediately offered shots and weed. Passing everything for now other than a single clear shot, I passed by Tracey, looking annoyed by Sebs room my other guitarist. "You okay?" I asked just to quickly be cut off by "OH FUCK- daddy RIGHTTTT THEREEE!" extremely fake pornographic sounds to leak from his room.

"I've knocked four times." She said before cocking her head to suggest giving it a go. I rolled my eyes as Moans continued leaking through the door. I started pounding on the door after knocking three times. Finally with ten minutes before show time, I kicked the door, "HEY BUMPY DICK, WICKED WITCH OF THE PORN STUDIOS CALLED, SHE WANTS HER NOSE BACK. " 30 seconds later a girl with terrible hair and clothes came RUNNING out. Leaving my pendejo of a guitarist at the door, "did you really have to ruin my hard by using child movie terms?"

I scoffed, "Did you really have to waste my time spending two hours trying to find a girls clit? Next time ask fucking Siri." I finish before hitting him in the back of the head. Trace left to inform him of the time crunch left before curtain.

Eventually my band was in position, 25,000 all in one stadium. The cheering coming to a silence as tradition once our green screen begins to project our new clip, (a clip is a video we make of the album genre we're about to play, which we change every show.) As soon as that's over, I strum the bass one time as I finally reveal myself from behind the enormous speaker. Smiling at the camera, I stick out my tongue as my entire band lays into the chords and drums.

Ellie's pov:

Dina had managed to push her way to the first three rows, dragging me along. When I tell you I was RESURRECTED BY THE SIGHT OF THE GODDESS OF A WOMAN. Suddenly the air was thinner, my boxers were tighter- shit I'm no better than a man.

Dina leaned over to me, "If that woman had a dick, id want to have her BABIES." She said causing my face to heat up and hers to scrunch in humour.

Minutes later, Dina had made it front row, screaming the lyrics. By this time I was in another plane of existence, the high chilling in my blood, my favorite band of all time in my fucking presence. It couldn't get better. Until it did.

Scarlett viper was beating the last chords out with her fist when she slung her bass, Tracey migalister sending a soul wretching GUTAIR solo through the air as Scarlett ran to the strip of stage near me. She looked down, at me? No. My weed had to have been laced. Fuck, did I die? Am I in heaven?

Yeah. Her siren like eyes bored into mine as she strutted, curving every step she took towards me, still singing the last lyrics as she stripped her green long jacket off. Maintaining eye contact and stripping would have me on the floor passed out, but the way her plump lips curled onto the words, "wanna savour every drop." Caused screams across the entire acre of land. Jealousy. Out of 25 thousand people, she was putting my set of eyes in a trance. It's definitely for effect right? That is until she laughed at Dina who was fanning me and pointing at me, which I didn't realize. Next second I knew Tracie the FUCKING legend had walked over, fingers like lightning looking for a tall structure on the chords. Bending down to us, Infront of Dina. She leaned back on her heels, back arched as she ripped the song into pornographic sounds from the gutair. Holding eye contact with Dina she picked Scarlett Viper's jacket up threw it to me, landing it on my face then taking her literal FAMOUS pic after licking it and handing it to Dina. THESE TWO ITEMS COULD GO FOR MILLIONS. yet all it did was make me wet.

Dina and I looked at each other and started to fan girl, screaming, grabbing each other. "IM NEVER WASHING MY FACE AGAIN." I screamed as I pulled the jacket off of my face. "IM NEVER TOUCHING ANOTHER MAN AGAIN WHILE THAT WOMAN IS ALIVE, OH MY FUCKING GOD. WHY DOESN'T SHE LICK MY PUSSY LIKE THAT." Half cringing, half laughing at Dina, I was interrupted by a strong set of hands touching both me and Dina.

Us both ready to swing and defend ourselves we're quickly let down when it was just a tall, muscular girl handing us weird necklace things. "These are backstage passes, the band sent them down to you two."

#ellie williams #dina tlou #glam rock

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quinnfebrey · 2 years

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wait hold on looking at mirrors vs photos is such an experience that i can’t assign words to will you share yours 😵‍💫

ok this is gonna be pretty ramble-y but hopefully it makes sense if you just go with it lol

the tldr is that accepting that i will never truly understand what i look like has actually somehow increased my self esteem

ok here’s the long version

for a variety of reasons, i was never particularly happy w the way i looked growing up, but at the same time i also couldn’t really decide on what i looked like or what i disliked? there’s not one thing that i always knew i didn’t like, it was just a very general “eh” with specifics that changed constantly. and if i pictured myself it would be extremely hazy and would change depending on the day

at times i would think that i had a grasp on myself and then days or months or years would go by and i’d see old photos and be like. wait… that’s what i looked like?? what the hell 🤨 the change came both positively and negatively!! it was just so random. and then especially with the way camera lenses distort images, how mirrors, lighting, etc will effect the way you look, it was so confusing to look in the mirror and be unhappy but then like a photo of myself that day. or vice versa, take a bad photo and then look in the mirror and feel better. i don’t look significantly different hour to hour or day to day, so why does my opinion of myself change significantly?

i started asking myself these questions:

do i understand what other people see when they look at me? no. do i know what i look like? no. is there a possibility that, if i was able to objectively see myself, that i wouldn’t like the way i look? sure. is there an equal possibility that, if i was able to objectively see myself, that i would like it? sure

so about a year ago i decided that if i don’t know what i look like then i might as well just decide i’m attractive for the sole reason that it’s a much more pleasant experience than deciding i’m ugly lmao

it’s honestly helped so much and my self esteem has never been higher than it is right now. it’s not arrogance, just confidence in the context of accepted neutrality. i no longer look at myself in the mirror/pictures each day trying to decide if i look good or not because i know ill never know for sure, and my opinion would probably change ten minutes later. i just wear the clothes i like, i do my hair & makeup the way i like, and then i go about my day assuming that it’s fine

basically, i have no accurate conception of how i look, so i just assume i’m pretty & hot because no one can convince me it’s not true for the exact same reasons that no one could ever convince me that it is

weird, huh?

is there a chance i’m actually ugly as hell? yep! but if i don’t know what i look like then i don’t know that for sure, so what benefit do i get from worrying about it??

idk if that makes literally any sense to anyone else but ya that’s how i fixed my sense of self lol

#asks #and honestly in my opinion confidence is so attractive #i rarely ever am attracted primarily to someone’s nose or their eyebrows. that might come later but my first impression?#style of clothing! body language! confidence! how they speak!#and so i almost feel like what i’ve done has snowballed in itself #me completely disregarding how i look has made me more confident in how i carry myself #which in turn i believe makes me more attractive and that makes me more confident #and the whole time i might be mad ugly!! crazy business 😁

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carcharsaur · 1 year

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alright I finished another game, this time it's amnesia: crowd

^a succinct summary of my thoughts on this series as a whole this came out as a 2-in-1 pack on the switch last year, bundled with amnesia: later as both are follow-ups to the original amnesia: memories but I had to take a uh. almost 7 month break after finishing "later" because I literally have to build up an immunity to the parts of these games in particular that piss me off. but also I still really really like kent so I keep buying it LOL I'll put my deranged unfocused rambling under the cut though

my fav parts of this game were the "suspense" scenario things for ikki and kent, most the "work" scenarios and then like basically everything else is just "ehh" or actively grated me.... the after stories were weird also because some of them had to jump around to avoid overlapping with the after stories from "later" which for the most part I liked much better (for the characters I actually care about anyway). I'm too lazy to go into real gritty detail but a lot of stuff just felt regressive compared to the developments that happened in the first FD!?!? and I don't understand why.... it felt like suddenly they had to be a god-fearing christian game.. was there some controversy back in the day when they first were developing this for the vita LMAO it might just be I'm weary with it's... extremely stereotypical japanese 'demure woman vs voracious men' thing but it felt worse than normal. I think I might just spoiled from playing games that are as good as cupid parasite but also just most newer otome games being more comfortable with talking about sex in a way that doesn't feel fucking insane to me. there's making a nonsexual or asexual friendly mc/game and then there's "how are you alive" levels of airheaded unawareness that are just plainly grating.

I will hand it to this game that it finally did make my like ukyo more than I did through the first two games, where I thought he was just very "whatever" but despite the like... weirdass nature of "evil alter ego" they ended up resolving it in a way I think was pretty good and fully undid the initial game's thing about supernatural mental illness = inherent evil nature uh oh!!! but he still has hilarious joker mode sprites so it's still like. funny as hell but also taking itself seriously? at least I'm amused instead of completely checked out I still want toma to just die forever, hate his whole character and the dynamic he has with the heroine and I WONTTTT say more because I will write 3 paragraphs analyzing his character and tearing into how much I hate his fucking writing and how gross every bit of his execution feels. shin is still just unsatisfying as hell and actively frustrating at times (STOP BRINGING UP WHEN YOU WERE ALL 6 YEARS OLD YOU'RE LIKE 19-20 YEARS OLD MANN) also I'm still bearing a grudge on whoever did voice direction for the game because I'd never imagine kakihara would be so boring to listen to!!!!!! ikki was a little funny, sometimes good, but other times just... eyerolls forever and ever and less interesting than in the first FD and thennnn kent is still one of my fav LIs ever, to the point that I still don't know how someone that wrote him and his dynamic with the heroine and then also wrote the rest of these damn games... but his after story frustrated the fuck out of me. it wasn't necessarily ooc but just a couple of the narrative choices they made for it were unfitting and felt contradictory with the "later" route which is somehow still canon and so I was left kind of conflicted and frustrated with it.

the work scenarios were all cute though, and I enjoyed the really good side characters still being involved in the unlockable mini scenarios (except the New side character is just straight ass no question about it) but the minigames were tediously time consuming to get all of them unlocked =_= also kent was SO good in it that I wish his canon route had their coworker dynamic... instead of "math tutor to rival to lovers" LOL

and other than the ones I mentioned earlier, the "suspense" scenarios were just.... mehhh... and the fact I did enjoy kent and ikki's a lot leads me to think it's not just me. or it's just because I do not care for the other characters much LOL maybe both also the unlockable scene with orion, it's not outright 'wrong' sure but it's so fucking weird man. obviously gross bait. wish it wasn't there lmao

anyway taking a complete left turn, to me in my delusional mind palace they're a throuple with an adorable adopted child. or ikki is the mother👍

(the other half of this cg has all the other LIs pointedly avoiding holding hands with each other so this is real TO MEEE because ikki and kents dynamic is so fun forever also this:)

also, pointlessly, here's my fav clip

#car talking #car's 2023 media #also god the original art style is. it's own thing for sure #but all the timeskip outfits for the dudes were STRAIGHT ASS!!!#anyway overall. mid ass series but kent is so good that even though I'm sick to bastard death with half these guys #if they localize amnesia: worlds for some fucking reason I will still buy it #not a series I would really recommend to anyone though unless I thoroughly know what all their icks are. ymmv etc #glad to have it out of my small backlog though

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