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yasmeensh · 2 months

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I finished reading 4 books from Earth's Children series. The last three were really hard to read. After finishing Plains of Passage, I have come to really appreciate Clan of the Cave Bear as a standalone. I miss all the Neanderthals and Ayla's character arc. Gotta do some fanart!

PS. I MISS IZA! Best character in the series.

#clan of the cave bear #earth's children #after the first book it just goes downhill #REALLY DOWNHILL #Ayla becomes the biggest mary sue EVER #in the first book it was believable because it's established in the story the Neanderthals have different skills that Ayla must adapt to #and she wasn't doing anything over the top #She was just adapting #but later she starts doing insane things #like wtf?? NO human ever figured out they could strike iron pyrite to get sparks?#NO ONE ever figured out they could make a needle?#She invented the arrow too (or whatever that thin short spear things they did? not the spear thrower #I will not be surprised if she ends up inventing the wheel in the next two books #also domesticating animals #also there were so many traumatizing scenes #three different rape scenes in book 4 !!???#I was going to throw up #It just.. got very uncomfortable to read #it changed me #so I now I'm thinking about the first book #yes it has all these same elements from the later books but they were sparse and were actually part of the plot #part of the character development. in other books they were just things that happened. Like. the characters are not impacted by it at all.#you could read the end of the book and nothing about the characters change after witnessing these traumatic experiences #they are the same from beginning to end #uh um sorry for the rant O_O #anyways I miss izaaaa #bye

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blighted-lights · 1 month

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slaughterhouse posting part 2 that isn't going to be polished at all and has been sitting in my drafts for days, but this scene is so interesting to me because i genuinely have no idea what megatron wants from ravage in this interaction- and i don't know if megatron knows, either.

megatron starts out by saying that the decepticons' loyalty isn't to him- its to the cause. ignoring how this is immediately striking me as completely, blatently wrong due to the times we see megatron rallying the decepticons around himself when other leaders fail to do the same (nevermind the fact that he started the cause in the first place), he then gets angry with ravage when ravage confirms that- yeah, actually. you're not the cause anymore. we have moved on with someone new. megatron gets so angry he stands up, he looms over ravage, he raises is voice and balls his fist- and why else would he do this if he wasn't upset that they're moving on without him?

which would, of course, make megatron a hypocrite. he left the decepticons and refused to take any effort to rejoin them- he clearly doesn't actually want to return to the fold. but when the decepticons unite themselves and move on from him, it's different. i can abandon you, but you cannot abandon me.

i've always took this reaction as being an immediate, no thinking, gut reaction to finding out the decepticons are moving on without him. he's angry, potentially feeling betrayed by them, when he... doesn't have much of a right to feel that way. and it's not like megatron wasn't given an option to join the decepticons again if that's what he actually wanted.

he was given a choice. he turned it down. he could of turned it down for any number of reasons, but no matter the reason, the point remains that he turned it down.

going back to panel after megatron snaps, ravage clearly takes megatron's outburst as him being upset that they've moved on without him. despite the aggressive way this interaction started with ravage attacking megatron, ravage spends most of this conversation attempting to reassure megatron. megatron gets angry that galvatron took over and they're moving on without him? okay- so then he wants to come back, right? he's upset he's been replaced?

well, galvatron isn't permanent. say the word and you'll be back in charge. megatron says that the decepticons aren't loyal to him, ravage reaffirms that they were loyal to him but now they've chosen a new leader since he left, megatron gets angry that they're moving on without him, and then ravage reinforces their original loyalty to him by saying if he wants to come back, they'll follow him.

and then megatron turns it around; yes he was just angry that the decepticons were no longer loyal to him, but now that same loyalty is toxic, actually. and it is! it absolutely is toxic. but i think ravage backed him into a corner here, even unintentionally. he can't sit down and actually address why the decepticons moving on makes him angry without admitting some part of him wants to return to the cons. or at the very least he still feels possessive of them and doesn't want them to function outside of his influence. when given the option to rejoin, he responds by insulting the decepticon's (and ravage's!) sense of devotion/loyalty and then quickly changes the topic to seawing and the trial. he doesn't say a solid yes or no answer because he doesn't actually have one to give.

ravage nails it down anyways. megatron has no idea what he wants from ravage in this interaction because he doesn't know where he stands anymore, let alone what he wants for himself. before ravage was revealed to be on the lost light, megatron was captain. he even seems content to BE captain- but ravage makes it complicated. ravage is a direct reminder of who he used to be and the people he used to surround himself with. worse, people he's abandoned and hurt in order to get to where he is as captain now. megatron left the decepticons behind with no command structure, no guidance, no plan- and ravage's mere presence is a bitter reminder that even if he's run off to the autobots, he can't escape that.

he's settled into a state of stagmentation with the autobots. one he's content with, maybe- at the very least one he can live with where the guilt isn't as heavy. it is the easiest way out megatron saw for himself.

but if anyone can get him to doubt himself, well.

who else better than ravage to stir up the past?

#blight rambles #blight's meta #transformers #maccadams #maccadam #mtmte #more than meets the eye #transformers idw #idw transformers #idw tf #tf idw1 #transformers idw1 #idw2005 #tf idw #ravage #mtmte ravage #tf ravage #transformers ravage #idw ravage #megatron #idw megatron #mtmte megatron #tf meta #transformers meta #this post is very messy and i debated a lot on posting it bc. idk if it even reads well or if my view on this scene isnt completely biased #because of how much i like ravage #but uh take it anyways. i cannot stop thinking about the slaughterhouse scene #i WISH. i wish their dynamic stayed fucked up. i wish they stayed angry and uncomfortable with each other #i wish ravage having to reassure and comfort megatron while ignoring his own pain was an intentional writing choice and not just #well. what we got in canon. where ravage is megs' support and thats it

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yenpondering · 4 months

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Entitled customers are funny, imagine kicking up such a fuss with our managers that 2 mall security guards had to be called to come mediate all because you and your wife not only can't read but also can't see that our menu literally serves soft poached egg, not a boiled egg, in our Japanese rice bowls

Anyway read the menu properly y'all and ask questions if you're unsure, don't be a dick to hospitality workers especially over dumb shit

#this happened yesterday during boxing day #it was truly hilarious to me #this lady came to complain about our egg not being boiled fully #to which my managers were like 'yeah our menu only serves soft boiled it's shown and written very clearly on it'#but apparently this lady wasn't happy with that answer cause she left and then sent her husband back with the bowl to argue!!!!#and my managers were like nah we're gonna call security to mediate cause this guy legit just kept raising his voice #anyway in the time span of waiting for security to show up #this guy literally pulls his phone out to record a negative review of us which lmao alright #and then proceeds to tell customers looking at our menu to not order from us cause we've got bad food #they still ordered from us anyway with 1 customer saying to my coworker that they hoped he left soon cause he was making them uncomfortable #anyway security shows up and them + the guy + my managers talk for like 10+ minutes #with this guy apparently mentioning at one point that he wants us shut down #just to remind y'all if you're reading this that this is all over a soft boiled egg that is very clearly shown on the menu #and the whole thing ended with 1 of the security coming in to the shop to watch us remake the bowl without the egg #because apparently the guy was afraid we'd do something to his bowl #security looked done with this and apologised to us for this guy being so rude #also before anyone says anything both this guy and wife were fluent in English so it wasn't a matter of them not being able to read our men #and also again our bowls show a very obvious not hard boiled egg #anyway i hope they had an awful day afterwards for being such entitled dicks to us

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trash-bin-ary · 4 months

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Act 4 baby!!! I’m having such a fun time getting emotionally traumatized wooooo

#this is a post i made #in stars and time #oh my phevpuvd Yesssss I finally get to read the unreadable yessssss #this story is great I’m soooooo yipppeeeeee #my theory was 100% Correct and can I know please open that door let’s go #o(-( the just attack skill…#the changes in thoughts are making me have several mental illnesses… just like siff eyyyyy #o(-( ‘cause I’m tired’ then noticing and apologizing for making sif uncomfortable… maybe I’m playing them Too depressed #o(-( the mirror photo changed. oh honey that’s a terrible fake smile #my pain when there’s no extra text… like getting souvenirs and it’s point blank you got it #… it would be really funny if that one book in the secret library is just the giver tree. I mean we are talking about things very similar to #that books concept

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jingsyuans · 4 months

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Anon sent; (cw: jy with a 🐱)

Jing Yuan fucking…. Grinding on your face and making you ask, politely, to eat him out. Then making the smug ass :3 and saying no while he keeps grinding….. explodes him w my brain in a very pos way.

Wait what if the above idea but power imbalance…. Disobedience could mean loaaaaads of bad shit but he tastes so good and smells so good and is pointedly avoiding your mouth with his hand in your hair- firm and bordering on unpleasant not that he really cares. His muscles thighs flexing on either side of your head as he grinds down in just the right way that his slick is on your lips and you know better than to lick it off but gods it’s fucking hard not to.

I really love this idea 😔 I love the idea of him sitting on your face like that (puts my head in my hands) that’s obscenely hot. Making a mess on you ……. That’s insane and I want it so bad !!!! It’s the worst kind of punishment to lay himself right there like the most delectable treat that you aren’t even allowed to eat…

#I apologize for not answering your original ask #for personal reasons I’m just very uncomfortable with tdick #love jy with a pussy! cannot think about it in that kind of way though #that’s on me for including trans headcanons in my rules but not clarifiying my one No in that category #just like how I don’t like visualizing it or reading it as tdick I’m sure it’s upsetting for the other party for it to be changed to ‘pussy’#or something in that language #so I just got rid of the word altogether so I hopefully do not upset you but also keeping myself comfortable in the process #bodies and sexualities are weird and sensitive and I apologize for mine #anyway. agh #honeyed gifts

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deathsweetblossoms · 1 year

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Her hair is sleek and wet, fanning out around her where it meets the sea. Right now, she strikes him as entirely otherworldy. A siren--or one of the aos sí liable to drag him to a watery grave. Fey magic as ancient and wild as the hala, wearing a girl's skin. (A Far Wilder Magic)

I went into this with zero expectations and it really served me well. I knew I was promised "a magical secret, a mythical hunt, and a tender love" and I was very much delivered all of those things and more. I laughed, cried, yelled, swooned. So, if you're curious about this book and want to remain unspoiled, skip this post.

Friends, listen to me when I say this: A Far Wilder Magic is like Darlingstern meets Jurdan fanfiction set in a magical realist 1920s parallel universe. Maggie, described here as a siren (in a very Darlington-Sees-Alex type of way), grows up love-starved but fierce and weapon-wielding. Wes hides behind a layer of charming foolishness, but beneath it he is gentle, kind, and full of so much love. Already the Jurdan dynamic is there, but take away the cruelty of The Cruel Prince and keep the Suspicious-Yet-Reluctant-Friends dynamic of Alex and Darlington when they meet in Ninth House. Additionally, there's a lot of similarities (not in an obvious way where the author intentionally copied things, but in a way where I can just see the similarity of connection between two relationships) in the type of soul-entwined connection that Alex/Darlington have and Maggie/Wes have. It's really something.

There's just so many quotes that took my breath away:

Wes wonders what the two of them would boil down to--what he would boil down to--if alchemy could go deep enough. ... The pieces of them crumble into each other, becoming one...

And then we see this repeated imagery of alchemy and entwining for the rest of the book, and if THAT doesn't cater to my very specific interests...just, wow. Five stars from me.

(Also, the fact that Maggie holds a weapon to Wes and all it does is make him fall more in love? JURDAN CODED.)

#a far wilder magic #bookworm stuff #a far wilder magic spoilers #seriously dont read my tags if you dont want spoilers --#the ONE complaint i really had was annette - not as a character but in how long it was dragged out #i knew early on what the “twist” was and narratively WHY we needed that to happen as late into the story as it did #(because of the consequences and then what was born out of those consequences between wes/maggie)#but he really should have just..stopped talking to her...like..the night he really ripped into her #then when he kept enabling it I really started getting pissed #(and quite frankly this might just be me getting triggered and speaks to my own trauma and other people might not mind as much #it actually felt..uncomfortable hearing his POV and his very real feelings for Maggie vs how much he was lusting after Annette?? Blegh!#but it was really pissing me off)#im happy she was redeemed and we got the payoff we did from all of it but damnnn

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turtletoria · 1 year

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#hi sorry for bein a downer but i just want to make clear that im blocking mcyt blogs on sight bc i curate my own online experience and i -#Do Not want to see that ever. theres been an uptick in ppl rebloggin my old mcyt art and while i very much appreciate that i rlly dont #want to see that shit ever!!!! i hate all my art from that era for real for real!! ive never felt so Bad!#i just really dont like the mainstream mcyters and i just remember feeling very manipulated and hurt by both the mcyters and the fanbase #i think their content is immature at best and downright hurtful at worst #so sorry if you got blocked dont take it personally i just dont want my notifs covered with art of ppl i parasocially despise #sorry i could go on and on abt how much i rlly dont like these ppl but u didnt come here to get a moral lecture from me so i'll just stop #i love the block button so if u r a mcyt blog run while u still can and please stop rbing my old mcyt art #and also. when i say downright hurtful i mean it in the harshest way. to the point my younger siblings (who r in the target demographic for #this kind of media btw) felt uncomfortable watching them. like honestly that boils my blood a little #theres fun cringe and then theres bullying cringe and i put mcyt in the latter. thanks for reading #and blah blah i know theyre not all bad every fanbase has good and bad eggs whatever man. i dont want to engage with that so i am kindly #telling yall to get out.#sliding them onto a paper with a cup and releasing them (derogatory)

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confinesofmy · 2 months

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uh-oh <- just realised how easy it would be to go on a road trip to a cool place 2 & 1/2hrs away, spend the day there, then drive 2 & 1/2hrs back

#you know when you're young and first start driving and start being allowed to drive how you get a little crazy with it #that never happened to me bc i missed out on driver's ed and no one took me to a driving class or anything like that #so i just fully got my license as soon as i was of legal age #no class and very little practice pure trembling during the test driving 30mph around town bc i'd never driven around cars before #then for two years i was incredibly uncomfortable driving because i had to seriously devote more attention span than i had #and i could tell i was not capable of processing my surroundings at 80mph #then i totalled my car in my first ever accident of any kind hydroplaning into the median going like 70+mph #ptsd made driving impossible for a year then incredibly difficult for 3+yrs then BAM plague. stay inside your house don't ever leave.#so now i'm 28 and undergoing a serious revelation of like.. wait i can leave whenever i want??? and go anywhere??? 😳#i was reading about this place on wikipedia when i was like 15 and i've always wanted to go but no one would/could take me 🥲#what if i just went 🥲🥲🥲#i fr think i might cry #adam talks too much

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i-am-just-a-skeleton · 5 months

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for some reason this won't leave me alone so; some random thoughts about cool ways to incorporate artificial wings on humans in sci-fi and fantasy stories (some of them do range a bit into what i would consider light body horror so watch out for that)

there are three kind of. genres? that my ideas went to from the original which are: like. hi-tech sci-fi i guess, the sort with more modern tech, and that one was kinda basic just like. wings made of lightweight metal that wire into the spine so the person can control them. the other sci-fi one was more steampunk-type, with big metal-and-leather wings controlled by a mechanical motor that you'd need a reinforced skeleton to support. and the last one's my favourite, and also the most body horror-ish one, which is the fantasy one: wings created by magic, made out of living wood that grows out of the spine, the roots start small and will burrow in and meld with the nervous system and there are spells or medicine that can keep it from spreading but without those it will keep growing and roots will wind around the bones and the organs will be replaced with dirt and compost and bark will spread across the skin and leaves will grow in place of hair and eventually the person will turn into a creature fully made of wood

#sorry that got a bit more graphic than i'd planned #i tried very hard to not say ''you'' in the descriptions in case it would make them more uncomfortable to read #anyway i just think they're neat

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mantisgodsdomain · 4 months

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"oh, yeah," we think, "we could probably cross this over into Li nked Uni verse if we actually draw out the canon for long enough, smacking different versions of the same character into each other is always fun especially when it has the potential for massive cultural differences and shit like running into things where the thing that has been forgotten has significance beyond the things that are remembered. Hey, we should probably check the comic in order to comply with the six-month rule, we don't think we ever finished-"

We return from the reference images. We have remembered why we didn't finish looking into the base comic.

#we speak #negative chatter #moving one level of fandomization away from og LU to merely use them as inspiration for bootleg LU with more base game inspiration #we forgot why we had the author blocked. we remember now #we probably wont elaborate further on this because we keep a firm policy of not publically shit talking folk at random #we just kinda got Unexpectedly Sandblasted by them being weird abt furries&otherkin in a random twi light reference post #we are censoring this so it does not go into their tag btw! no one likes random shit talk and this is just us being vaguely pissy #the wording is vague enough that they feel like theyre like. they dont mean to imply they DISLIKE this group #they just find them strange and offputting and they strongly dislike that they project anything onto A Character #as we do not control their life and theres nothing we can do to force them to Not be uncomfortable or act Strange towards a group #all we can really do is like. scrunge up at an attitude we find it VERY difficult to mesh with and go our separate ways #the multitude of takes on these characters and the way that their fandom is so creative about them and produces so many different Ideas #is very fun! and we heavily enjoy reading it sometimes! however we cannot enjoy the base comic #because though we know that the author likely didnt intend it to come off like that and we know accusations of hate would be FAR too strong #we cannot shake the feeling that we are the sort of thing that they would look upon as a deeply offputting aberration #and they merely avoid voicing that out of a mix of manners and a wish to not get into discourse while hundreds of people are watching #so it is best to keep our distance where we don't have to be uncomfortable at the subtle bias that will pervade through all art #and they dont have to get grated against in ways that may negatively impact things from us having little shame in our existence #which is to say theres like a solid chance that the bias is not malicious and is in fact just like. lingering cultural bias type shit #however we arent gonna deal with that and us being a huge obnoxious weirdo might be liable to push them against us via abrasion #being exposed to smth more often can very easily actively push you against that thing by virtue of dislike of the people who like it #and though our individual action may not mean much in the scheme of things it will do less harm to both of us if we back the hell off #give that shit some time to soak without being prodded at too hard and hopefully someone else will be able to open the conversation better #because with bias especially you CANNOT break it down with one or two discussions #and you very much have to have the person with the bias willing to step back and examine that pattern of bias and unravel it #because if you go up at people like “this is WRONG and heres why” theyre far more likely to get defensive and feel attacked #and then double down because they feel attacked and don't want to give in to people who have been Nothing But Rude To Them #its a pattern of thought that can be a real bitch to deal with and we really arent capable of the subtle approach it requires to break thro #anyways. where were we. oh yeah we forgot why we blocked someone and now we're making a tumblr post about it

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wordsgood · 2 years

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1. valery k has its issues

2. I feel like the issues it has are not the ones that people are talking about and the ones they are talking about are not as bad issues as they make it out to be

3. shit though where’s that sequel though I’m ready for it now

4. VALERY KHOLKANOV NONBINARY

#personally?? me??? just me???? my own subjective opinion????#MASSIVE improvement in writing women since the kingdoms #i don’t really…….. see the problem that everyone else is seeing wrt anna tbh #anna is a great character she has agency she is very smart and there’s going to be a sequel #i mean?? especially compared to agatha?????? but even on her own I think she’s good I really liked her parts #damn y’all had me thinking she was going to get radiation-disintegrated on the page lmao #like. just my opinion. it was the ww2 stuff that made me the most uncomfortable #it had so little bearing on the plot im not sure why it was included #ALSO one of the reviews I read complained about the bit at the end where valery is talking about gendered titles of address #saying that it was cissexist and like. as a nonbinary person with dysphoria. the way valery said it was exactly how I feel getting ma’am’d #so??? no????? not inherently cissexist? come on now guys #altho if comrade IS gendered in Russia then that’s a significant oversight on pulley’s part lmao #but I mean maybe it’s a she’s a little confused but she got the spirit kind of thing #i know we’re all a little on edge with her being in bridget collins’s anthology #but I’ve got my fingers crossed and also VALERY KHOLKANOV NONBINARY TRUTHER #i keep making posts that feel like kicking a fire ant bed and so I don’t tag anything but then I don’t get into the pulleyverse convos ugh #the half life of valery k #pulleyverse #natasha pulley

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yuridovewing · 6 months

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was reading through the ultimate guide earlier (the og to be clear) and boy it sure doesnt bug me at all that dovewing’s page mostly consists of just her love triangle with only a brief intro to her powers at the start

#and ughhhhhhh ik this definitely isnt the case now but it definitely was back then #but i hate how bumblestripe is treated as like… the best option for dovewing. like ohhh bumble got her to calmmmm down haha #once dovewing got her head out of her ass she finally listened to everyone and accepted she owed this one guy her entire life #and its treated like the best possible ending for her instead of being utterly bleak #also i think its very telling how some of the most vocal dovewing haters thought bumbledove was just so uwu precious #i cheered for bumble when he yelled at dove for being uncomfortable around him! YOU TELL THAT CUNT! im glad she saw the light and dated you’#like it reads like ‘’bumblestripe is owed affection snd devotion from dovewing and im glad he finally got her as a reward’m #like she was just a tool to make the one generic ‘’nice’’ character happy #again i know its an attitude most of the fandom has dropped but man. if you were there then You Know

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tambourineophelia · 11 months

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i know it's pathetic and not helping anything but man i feel so fucking hopeless about life in climate catastrophe

#basically i read this morning how this year is likely going to be way hotter than the past #(and i struggled a lot these past years with dealing with the heat)#and i just spiral from 'this is going to be very uncomfortable for me how am i ever going to work properly i can't function above 30°C'#to 'the trees are already damaged they will die we will lose the forests and the animals and everything will die it's going to be awful'#to yeah just full on climate breakdown anxiety #in minutes lol #and the woooorst part is that I'm not even exaggerating eh #like it's really just this bad #why the fuck even uh.... stay alive for it huh #i know i am sensitive to these topics #but uh the reality is on the side of my feelings in this case #even if i got 'harder' and could ignore eg. damage on trees that i see everywhere #the reality of climate catastrophe doesn't get better - quite the opposite even what i know and notice is conservative #so. what.... do i do

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tardis--dreams · 1 year

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Being passive aggressive towards my professor by not citing him in my proposal

#he'll be in the thesis so all good #but after i essentially recited the core statement of his work during my presentation and he was like #'yeah i wrote that.. but i kinda would write it differently now so be careful with that'#I'm just very annoyed #my brother in christ You made us read the text #sorry #i also feel weird citing professors i know personally #in papers they'll read #it's the stupidest thing to be uncomfortable about but it's probably got something to do with #'i don't want you to acknowledge my existence and i don't want you to know i acknowledge yours (through academic work) '#ridiculous #anyway #academic misery

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