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edgyandoverzealous · 2 years

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Bacause Cringe culture is dead and I am back in my FNAF SB phase. Explaining your Kins as the therapist friend but I'm feeling salty so it's all just calling you out. Except I felt bad after a little bit so they each have a funny/lighthearted one calling me out.

Glamrock Freddy

How's those daddy issues doing?

Was he emotionally absent, physically absent, or was he just distant and unaffectionate?

I'm willing to bet he called you superstar once and you immediately started kinning.

Additionally how're those abandonment issues treating ya?

On a scale from 1/10 how displeased were you when Freddy got dragged away by moon 'cause he powered down before he got to the charging station?

You know he originally was gonna turn on you right? That would worsen your abandonment issues, you should thank Scott for that one.

You are the parent friend btw, Ily please bring bandaids and painkillers I'm accident prone and ignore pain until it's unbearable. We may be going to the ER</3

Glamrock Chica

Are you a Lesbian? Or are you the oldest child who uses gentle techniques of sibling-parenting?

How do you feel knowing you probably aren't listened to?

How's your mommy issues doing?

Do you mayhaps think that people won't want you unless you give them something?

Do you feel like no one takes care of you but you always have to take care of everyone else?

How's your relationship with food going? Yeah, me too. Note that chica physically can't eat by the end as well.

Do you even speak/Do you ever shut up?

Scared of overcoddling but also terrified of taking a step back and away because you feel like if you stop they'll all leave you much?

Choir/Band/Theatre kid or grandparent friend with hard candies in their purse that I would eat wrapper and all because intrusive thought said to and shiny.

Roxxane Wolf

So are you a Lesbian, furry, or e-girl simp? Or are you the oldest child who uses more forceful/low-key mean techniques of sibling-parenting?

How's the crippling self doubt and God complex treating you?

How's crying in your room because you yelled at them and said something mean but don't know how to say sorry going?

What about that inferiority complex?

Pushing everyone away because they'll only leave you? Ding ding ding we have a winner.

Burnt out perfectionist?

You're the type of friend whose love language is bullying and play fighting. Be careful you don't make your friend cry, I am the friend that'd cry.

Monty Gator

Self-destructive behavior, pent up aggression and always looking for a reason to fight?

Anger issues much? Or do you just simp for Bonnie's replacement because you saw one too many human Monty edits?

You're probably short too, huh? Just like the fuse you have when given a chance. Or your big and burly which also is terrifying.

How's your constant existential crisis going?

Do you feel like there's a looming expectation that's too big for you to fill over your head?

Do you feel like you're never first choice?

That you're simply a replacement for everyone else?

How about respect? Do you ever give or receive it? No?

Are you always restless? Yeah? Thought so.

You're the protective friend who is willing to throw hands with anyone who disturbs their friends. Me too honestly, I've been held back on multiple occasions because I'm a short queer man and it's in my veins.

Glamrock Bonnie

So are you still sobbing over that one line, you know the one, or are you living on fan theories? Like how are you still kicking?

How's your mental health? Bad? Yeah I thought so.

Anxiety and depression kin you honey? <3

Disasciotiating royalty, you.

You long for something in your past that cannot be changed.

You fall for what you know you can't have and never will be obtained, don't you?

You felt robbed by the game and that's okay. I miss him too.

Sun/Moon

You scare me, legitimately you scare me. Y'alls fandom is legitimately impressive especially for insert types. You have one of every flavor and are insanely good at drawing the skrunglies less skrungly. Good for you.

Additionally how's healing your inner child going?

And those mommy and daddy issues?

I'm sorry you weren't held as a child?

Too busy parenting everyone else to have been cared for the same?

Forced to grow up too fast?

You were definitely a traumatized child. Adults let you down and now you seek comfort in a robot of two extremes as unstable as your adolescence.

You're the "childish" friend. Silly, sweet, and full of fun but you are by no means innocent. That was stolen from you a long time ago.

Also you either can't sleep or you oversleep or both.

Mapbot

You scare me, legitimately you scare me. The scariest bots in the game??? Really??? Those buddies??? Okay???? Honestly the healthiest option tbh.

You are either a troll or a disaster bisexual or an enby.

You cling to people because you don't want them to leave you, but that pushes them away more often than not.

How does it feel to be so underated and the "side character" in your own life?

You blend in wherever you go even when you want to be seen or when you want someone to help you.

By the way how's the constant desperation going? Aren't you tired of being sane? Don't you want to go absolutely feral?

#fnaf sb #glamrock freddy #glamrock bonnie #glamrock chica #montgomery gator #roxxane wolf #kin assigning #mapbot #sundrop #moondrop #this is meant to be lighthearted #im sorry in advance #my entire blog is going to be things like this and im sorry if it's inaccurate #im sorry that Bonnie's is short but the man literally died before game #like what was i supposed to do make them more sad???#don't hurt me im on your side and in the fandom #sorry if this is incomprehensible #im exhausted

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minimoefoe · 7 months

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ftwd 8.10 thoughts

- strand saying 'you don't know troy the way I do' was funny bc king you barely know him either

- I love tracy a lot she's kinda iconic minus her shit name

- I like that troy has told tracy a lot of stuff, kinda interesting. I mean, obviously a lot of what he's told her is twisted to make him not seem like an insane person but it's cool idk

- the idea of ppl continuing what alicia was trying to do is fine but like, the fanclub vibe and acting like alicia was some saviour was so cringe and idk I didn't care about it at all actually like I just wanted the ep to move tf on

- there was a minute where I genuinely thought tracy was saying alicia was her mum and I nearly died like her fondling the fuckin necklace (which, why was she doing that btw) and then when they were stood by that frozen walker the way things were said had me ??? for a second and I was like naurrr but then I was like oh okay thank GOD that isn't what she was saying 😭😭

- I don't mind that tracy was chatting shit about alicia being there, she's kinda a genius. and I don't mind that it was actually her mum instead (assuming she wasn't lying) but the whole 'madison is the reason she's dead' thing is suuuuuch bullshit omg like I wanted to find out madison had murdered this fucking woman but you're telling me they blame her for tracy's mum's death bc she.. believed in the 'no ones gone til they're gone' thing or whatever like..? GROW UP

I actually don't even know how that works tbh bc like, how would this random woman know about this phrase and how could that get her killed like am I just stupid or what. maybe troy and madison will talk about it a bit in the next couple of eps so we get more info? I'm begging at this point but also I worry giving us more info will make it more shit so idk!!

- I think madison believing tracy and going to that place was kinda silly like you'd think she'd question it a bit more but I guess you can put it down to her desperation to find alicia

- the luciana and troy moment was cool. love a nick reference lmao troy kinda can't stop bringing him up 😭

- strand talking to troy on the radio was cool I kinda like them being a mini duo for a second there idk

- this alicia stuff is getting kinda annoying and I'm almost at my point of being over it idk. I'm definitely still looking forward to seeing what's actually happened but now that we've had that tracy's mum let down I worry its gonna be something shit

and also maybe I'm just heartless but if I was madison I don't think I'd give a fuck that alicia wandering around like I'm not searching the whole country for one walker what a waste of time omg

with nick it's like well they know where his body was so they could dig him and give him a proper burial or whatever they wanna do but with alicia it's like a fuckin wild goose chase idk. hopefully the end is worth it but I worry it won't be

- overall I did like this ep I think but it wasn't what I was expecting? and it also wasn't my faaave idrk. mixed feelings

- wish there was more troy content like it genuinely is haunting me how little troy content we're getting and just how many different characters need to get wrapped up endings in these last two episodes

- the next time trailer looks really good. troy with tracy and troy with madison is what I'm in this for fr omfg like I do like a lot of the other characters in this show but now that we have these three I'm like FUCK everyone else I don't care

- I think I had more to say but I've forgotten it so rip

#ftwdfw #twd txt #troy otto #madison clark #alicia clark #ftwd spoilers

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fiction-justanotherstateofmind · 1 year

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Here I'll write the comments as I watch the new Teen Wolf movie, so SPOILERS!!

SPOILER

1) WTF! Why would you keep a evil spirit IN A RESTAURANT?! Easily accessible to anyone. And what if you open the wrong jar while cooking?!

Unbelievable.

2) All the Scott's first scene... kinda cringe

3) I'm not gonna lie, I missed the intro song 🎶

4) I've never heard Deaton speak so much (and for my Italian friends: lo vedo un po' sciupato)

5) Derek, my beautiful love! And hello, Stiles and Derek's son (called like Stiles' grandfather, Elias. iykyk)

6) Why do they talk about the Nemeton like they don't know it?

7) I love Derek as a dad. My heart is melting.

8) Parrish and Malia don't make any sense.

Update from the end of the movie. Ok, I kinda like them, but they still don't make any sense.

9) Apparently Deaton can fight now. Plus every time I see the nogitsune all I can see is this:

10) For a moment I thought I was watching the Winx... I guess some things never change. I surely didn't miss the bad special effects.

And why does everyone needs to be naked??

11) OMG!!! VICTORIAAA. This woman scares me even now

12) I've always dislike Allison, now even more: my poor poor Derek! 😭

Ok no, false alarm, but I don't change my opinion.

I really love Dad Derek btw.

13) I missed Peter and Chirs together. My other ship

14) Scott to Eli: "Find your dad". What if instead you tell him where his dad is too, since you do know Derek is at home but Eli doesn't *facepalm pt.2*

15) The parallel between Dark Allison and Scott and Dark Allison and her killing spree against my precious Erica and Boyd. YOU SEE WHY I DON'T LIKE HER?! (She didn't even say sorry for that btw)

16) The Sheriff killing Oni while sitting on the couch is on another level

17) Derek dies pt.2 (my heart can't take it anymore)

18) What?! Why, tell me why did you run against theirs swords. You literally killed yourself, Eli. *facepalm pt.3*

19) Peter, that was cringe af. And Chris wdym with 8 hours at most when we know from the show that it takes about 24h before the death?? Omg I can't with this movie

20) And now why do they care about the game? Hello, your father's going to die, Eli!!

21) Oh, she's really doing it. I didn't expect it (Allison shooting at Scott)

22) Ouch, that must hurt (Nogitsune with a new hole in the middle of his forehead)

23) I missed Chris and Peter's duo, but please give me back Peter's old hair style, this one is a death crime

24) Jackson my beautiful little lizard. I've always loved you ♡

25) How disgusting! It's like Rufus (from Kim Possible) became the Darach:

Do you se the resemblance too? Unfortunately I don't have a photo of the nogitsune unmummified.

26) The scene is kinda cheap but gods if I missed them

27) Why are Derek's eyes blue?? They were yellow again after the the Mexican fountain of youth

Update: nevermind. They reminded me that after Derek evolves his eyes go back to blue.

28) Can anyone stay dead in this city?? Harris too, come on!

29) You're giving your son TO SCOTT?? Are you serious, Derek?? It's like a big child, he can't take care of Eli. If Stiles was there, he would tell you the same (but if Stiles was there, Eli would be with his other dad -Stiles- so Scott wouldn't be even an option but I stand for my objection)

30) HIS EYES!! HIS EYES TURNED RED LIKE A TRUE ALPHA (btw, Derek, you've always been the alpha to me)

31) They've vanished. No corpse no death. And even then, we're in Beacon Hills so what is one more resurrection, right? Right??

32) SCOTT, WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING!! YOU'RE IN YOUR 30s, ALLISON IS STILL 16/17!

And why are you kissing anyway! Derek's dead*! (*to them, 'cause in reality Derek's alive, safe and sound. I know it)

33) Excuse me, can I see at least one tear for Derek Sourwolf Hale, please? Are y'all being serious? Scott is almost smiling!!

Also, they had a funeral for Derek but didn't invite Cora, his sisters... they didn't even tell Isaac that Allison is alive (you know, Allison, your boyfriend. I know you kinda forgot him even when you were dying but if you remember everything then Isaac is supposed to be in that everything too). They didn't even call Stiles!

35) Why does it seem that when the Sheriff was talking about the jeep he was actually talking about Stiles and Derek (or sterek as a ship/concept). No matter what, we sterek shipper will stand. Always and forever.

Final thoughts

I thought worse but at the same time it felt rush. I wanted to see more Eli and Malia bonding. Also the way the Sheriff cares about Eli it seems more like a grandfather to a grandson (if you know what I mean) but we couldn't really see that. And can we talk about Derek and Noah (John for the friends)'s partnership? Or how Derek speaks about Stiles with Noah as he's still in touch with him??

And where is Eli come from anyway?! Are we finally normalize mpreg?

Final final thoughts

I didn't like this movie. It was like a big bad Scallison fanfiction found on wattpad (ao3 is better). A lot of things were forgotten and other changed.

BUT

There's always a but (as in the Derek's "death" *wink wink*).

This movie gave us a lot of sterek material.

I'm afraid of what Jeff Davis' mind could possibly come with for another movie, probably more about Eli's past which means a mother for sure (unfortunately the world isn't ready for mpreg yet I'm afraid) and less sterek material. But at the same time I want to see Derek alive again, I want to see how they would manage with two true alpha and how Derek and Eli's relationship would evolve.

I want a lot of things to see but I'm afraid they won't give me any of them, so I can't decide either I want another movie or not.

What do you think?

#teen wolf #stiles stilinski #derek hale #sterek #stiles x derek #gif #dylan o'brien #teen wolf movie #teen wolf the movie #scallison #teen wolf movie reaction #derek is alive I know it #werewolves #werewolf #elihale #eli is stiles and derek's son

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lostelfwriting · 11 months

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angst prompts: dream is physically assaulted or roofied (your choice on how far it gets) in the new inn and hob finds out later, after the fact

Thank you for giving me permission to do what I do best! :D This gonna be dark and very much Dead Dove: Do Not Eat, so everyone please curate your own internet experience!

Btw, I'm still accepting prompts!

TW: noncon, self-harm by proxy, mentioned vomiting

Other notables: Human AU, they are in their 40's, now proofread and uploaded to AO3!

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Morpheus sat at his usual table in the corner of the New Inn and watched Hob work. Every time Hob laughed with a customer or grinned at a colleague or his eyes sparkled as he pulled off a defty trick while mixing cocktails, Morpheus's heart lurched. He was still, even after all those years, very much in love with his childhood friend.

He kept those feelings safely under the lid even though he knew that Hob may eventually feel the same about him, if given time, and he would not be opposed to finding out together. But because what was between them was still fragile, Morpheus decided to wait. Another year or two and they could try again. He had learned from his mistakes. He had come back to Hob. He had apologised. All that work couldn't be thrown away for the sake of his greed. He could wait, and if eventually Hob began to feel the same about him, they could finally be together, as they were meant to be from the start.

As if pulled towards him the same way Dream was pulled towards Hob, the pub owner basically danced towards his table with a colourful drink. Dream preferred whiskey on ice over sweet drinks, and Hob knew that, so he frowned in confusion even as he pretended to be working. That was his excuse to come here almost every night – he was working, using the white noise of a public place to help him focus. His notepad, however, lay untouched for hours most nights as he allowed himself to stare and fantasize.

"A nice gentleman bought this for you, said you have very nice eyes," Hob winked at him as he placed the drink down in front of Morpheus.

"I am not interested," Dream said flatly. "And I don't like cocktails. You know that, both of it."

"I know," Hob said, his way too excited grin softening as he schooled his erratic mood. "I couldn't turn him down on your behalf, but you don't have to drink it. I can give him a partial refund if he's too butthurt about it. But you know, isn't it nice that you got bought a drink?"

Dream had no idea what was nice about it. He didn't suffer self-doubt about his attractivity or his ability to get a partner if he wanted to, even though he was not in his twenties (or thirties) anymore. The man who bought him the drink, who kept stealing glances at him now that the drink was delivered, was young, could as well be Hob's student. Dream cringed at the idea of being pursued because of his age instead of in spite of it. But maybe he understood what Hob meant.

"I suppose," he admitted with a sigh. "I should probably politely turn him down and…" He wondered what the right thing to do clould be. What would Lucienne do? "Offer to buy him a drink in turn? The one with Lucky in the name, so he has better luck next time?" He smirked sarcastically.

Hob laughed and shook his head, his eyes fond when he looked at Dream again. "Sure, you do that. I gotta go back, but if you need anything, give me a shout." And with that he was gone again.

Sighing again, Dream eyed the cocktail varily. At the end of the day, it was one of Hob's creations – cocktail nights at the pub were his idea, after all – so he could at least give it a try and give his friend feedback. He glanced at his work but decided that he had done enough for today – he had filled five lines of the notepad in total, though soome of them with only a single cipher or letter – and put it away. Lifting his gaze, he caught the eye of the man who bought him the drink and he raised the glass into the air in a mock toast before he took a sip. The young man smiled in a way that would probably be seductive and sexy if Dream was interested in him at all. To his disappointment, it didn't end at that and the man stood up from his chair and walked ower to him.

"Hi," he said with another vaguely seductive smirk. "So, what do you think? It is one of my favourites here." To Dream's barely concealed dismay, he sat down. Only the fact that he wanted to be on his best behaviour for Hob, especially at his pub, kept Dream from shooing him away rudely. He could try to make polite conversation. Matthew would be proud.

"I am not a fan of cocktails. However, this one is nicely balanced. Not too sweet and not too bitter." It was a compliment to Hob's skill, but the man took it as if Dream was complimenting him. "I prefer whiskey," he added as he put the unfinished drink down.

"Oh, same, actually," the man laughed, raising his glass that he brought with himself and sloshing the amber liquid around. "So, what is your name?"

Dream attempted to sigh subtly, but it was probably still noticeable. "That is not important," he brushed it off, giving up on the polite part of polite conversation. From up close, the man couldn't be older than twenty-two, twenty-three, but was probably younger than that. "I appreciate the gesture but I am not interested."

To his surprise, the man took it well, with only a small disappointed shrug. "Aw, sucks," he shrugged again. "Well, at least I gave it a try. So, now that that is out of the way, can I buy you a drink as an apology for this?" he gesticulated between them.

"There is no need," Morpheus assured. He was surprised by the younger man's mature reaction. He did not expect that, but perhaps that was prejudice. "I am not offended. It is just that I really have no interest in… anything."

The man chuckled. "I get it, I really do. But still, can I? I'll get my favourite whiskey for us and you can tell me if it's good or not. My friends hate it, but I'm pretty sure it's the finest you can get here."

Well, if that was what it took to get rid of the man, Dream could do it. He nodded and watched the man basically bolt out of his chair in excitement. He tried to remember if he had ever been like that aroud people that he was interested in and… Oh no, he definitely had.

The whiskey was fine. Ha has had it many times, sharing it with Hob. He gave his opinion on the beverage and chatted to the young man for another minute, but as soon as he tried to steer the conversation away from alcohol, Dream stopped him with a raised hand. "I am not interested in a conversation," he said bluntly, aware that he was coming off as arrogant. "Thank you again for the drink."

"Sure," the man said, looking disappointed. One more expressive shrug and he was finally gone. Dream sighed in relief and picked up the glass. He had only taken one sip with the man, but now he could enjoy it while reminiscing about the times he had drank here with Hob.

The glass was empty soon, and Dream relaxed into his chair for a second. But then he noticed it. A buzz, bluriness, and not from the alcohol. Different, strange, something he had never felt before and yet knew exactly what it was.

Fuck.

It was getting worse fast, and Dream grabbed his bag without thinking, heading for the door while he still could. Hob wouldn't be mad that he had left without saying goodbye – it had happened before. What would definitely make Hob angry, though, was if Dream got roofied at his pub. People would notice even if he tried to be subtle about telling his friend. Hob would have to throw the young guy out and people would film the conflict and the pub would get a bad name. Hob would blame him. No, he couldn't allow that, he had only just gotten Hob back, gotten his life back on track and could finally pursue his happiness. This wasn't worth the risk, he could and would deal with it on his own.

The cold air helped for a bit. Morpheus breathed deeply and kept a swift pace even as his sense of balance, direction and purpose began to leave him. Where was he going? Didn't there use to be a path? How much did he drink again?

"Hey, mate, are you alright? I'll help you get home, okay?"

The voice was familiar. The face, although blurry, was familiar. Young man, could be a student. His hands were wrong on Dream's arm and way too strong. Dream's brain screamed danger but his body grew more and more limp, compliant with the steering touch. He did not remember much after that.

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Dream woke up and fell asleep again multiple times. Even when the drug left his system, even when the headache passed, even when he started noticing all the discomforts of sleeping in the, fuck, tall grass who knows where, he did not open his eyes. He wished to sleep, so he slept.

But eventually, the sky turned bright and he knew that if he stayed any longer, people would find him. People would see him. As long as he kept his eyes closed, reality was just a dream, but if people saw they would make it real. He forced his eyes open and forced his body to move, to pull up his pants, straighten his shirt, check his bag that had been lodged under his hips for his keys and wallet. Everything was in its place. There was an ache deep inside of him unlike anything he had ever experienced even with unexperienced or rough partners. He got up and walked.

By some miracle, or perhaps thanks to muscle memory, Morpheus arrived to his apartment. He closed the door, locked it, and he didn't emerge for a week. At the end of the first day, his phone ran out of battery in the middle of the twenty-eight frantic call from his employees. The doorbell was disconnected with a vicious tug at the wires that powered it on the dawn of the second day. At some point, he killed the electricity in the whole house by running the tea kettle, toaster, and microwave at the same time, and he didn't bother to fix it.

When it was more than a week since he last visited the New Inn but less than two weeks, Morpheus emerged from his house dressed in his usual work clothes and headed to work. He answered no questions, worked until all work was done, and then headed home. The fuses still weren't fixed. The house was smothering hot thanks to the record-breaking summer heats, and empty, and dead, and he couldn't. So, he turned around and walked until he found a bar. He drank until he became brave. He found a man who was interested in finding out exactly how brave he was, how long until he would cry. He returned home early in the morning and felt a little better.

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Somehow, time became meaningless while it also meant everything. It was more than three weeks and less than five. Numbers. There had been more than twenty men, some repeatedly, often more than one in a night and sometimes none as he collapsed in his hallway at home and slept until it was time to work again. Except for talking to these men, he had spoken only sixteen words out loud, none of them to his colleagues, only to a pharmacist and to Hob.

"I am having a rough time. I do not wish to talk." Twelve words. He looked pathetic but just alright enough when he said them that Hob accepted them. Every day, he reminded Dream that he was tere if he wanted to talk but he didn't have to. Hob was glad that he chose to come to him, if only for a while. Only until the clubs that Morpheus frequented became busy and he could go in search of the next scumbag that he would let take advantage of him.

Every time he staggered home with an ache in his ass, he felt a little more alright.

So why wasn't he okay yet?

Morpheus began to worry that he would never be alright, but he couldn't allow that. No, if he just found the right formula, he could fix it all. He could come back to Hob whole again and give him all the love tha he had been harbouring for him for so many years.

Hob.

Hob had been there that night.

Perhaps…

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The smile on Hob's face when Dream spoke for the first time in weeks chipped away a bit of the hollowness and hurt that Morpheus carried. Not nearly enough, but it was a hint that Hob was the one who could fix him. He was certain of it. It had to be true. It had to. Because if not Hob, then there was nobody left, and whatever broke loose that night would remain broken forever, and then he would not be able to give all his love to Hob. It had to work.

Dream refused to talk about what happened and Hob didn't pry. They talked about Hob's plans for Halloween. It was far away, but he was full of ideas. The summer was over but the New Inn kept many of the people who used to frequent it for its cocktails in the warmest months of the year. Business was great. Dream ordered a celebratory bottle and drank all of it alone and then some.

Hob was angry when he closed down half an hour early, dragging an uncooperative Morpheus up the stairs to his flat. Dream mentally patted himself on the back because his plan worked. Hob would fix him like none of those strange men could. His stomach twisted and he threw up as soon as he found himself in Hob's bathroom, but then he was able to clean his mouth with Hob's mouth wash and strip his clothes, leaving them behind. Hob was nowhere to be seen but that was okay. Dream knew where his place was by now, having been told almost every night by strange men with rough hands.

"Jesus fucking Christ, pants!" Hob swore when Dream was halfway to his bed. He would be on his hands and knees in the middle of it by now if the world could stop spinning for five damn seconds. He turned towards Hob and frowned at the furious expression on his friend's face. But no, wait, that was okay. That was what he needed. It was what would fix him.

Sauntering over to Hob, Dream fell to his knees gracelessly, older bruises on his knees being renewed. Before he could open his mouth, Hob was pulling him roughly back to his feet. "No no no, you are not sleeping on the floor, come on!"

He misunderstood. Dream tried to explain, and his friend's rage grew, yet his touches remained gentle as he guided Dream to the couch in the living room. There was a bucket next to it and a glass of water on the coffee table next to two pills.

Dream knew what to do, having done that multiple times in the past weeks. He put the pills in his mouth, chewed once or twice, and swallowed. Hob gaped at him.

"What the fuck, Dream?! Those were for the undoubteldy awful and well deserved headache you'll have in the morning."

The words made no sense, especially since the next thing that Hob did was push Morpheus down on the couch and hold him down when he tried to sit up again and entice Hob to finally do what he undoubtedly wanted to do, what all men wanted to do to Dream.

"Close your fucking eyes, idiot!" Hob growled, and there it was. Dream complied even as his whole body shivered. As soon as his eyes fell shut, the world stopped spinning so much. He fell asleep almost instantly, dragged down by the alcohol.

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For the first time in a very long time, Dream woke up with no new ache between his legs. As always, he chose to drift for as long as he could, keeping his eyes closed, existing in a dream-world that was real and warm and pleasantly empty and away from the nightmare-reality that was full of hurt. Occassionally, there would be footsteps and huffs and sighs but nothing that would pull him out of his peaceful place.

When he was ready to collect the pieces of himself, Dream opened his eyes and blinked in confusion at a glass of water, a pitcher, and two pills of aspirin. He didn't usually do that; he never had the presence of mind to plan for the morning after. He took it, nevertheless, drinking until the pitcher was almost empty.

"Well, look who is awake at two in the afternoon."

Hob.

All pieces fit together and Dream realised where he was. He wasn't at home. He wasn't even in bed. He was on a couch; there was a bucket vaguely smelling of puke next to him; and he was wearing sweatpants and a hoodie that definitely didn't belong to him.

And he wasn't hurt.

Frowning in confusion, he looked at his friend and asked: "What happened?"

Hob scoffed, and his face was not friendly, not fond, not amused. He was angry. Something in Dream shattered at the sight.

"What happened?" he raised his eyebrows at Dream. "From my point of view, you got absolutely shit-face wasted yesterday, couldn't get home on your own, couldn't tell me where you live. I took you here only for you to get naked and try to blow me or something. I thought, you know, we all have our horny drunk stage, right? But—" he cut off, shaking his head and averting his eyes that were suddenly glistening with tears. "But then you started talking. It didn't make sense. But you were asking me to rape you. Not fuck you but rape you. You kept saying that word. What the absolute fuck, Morpheus?!"

Something was telling Dream that he should feel ashamed, but he was only confused and scared. He had screwed up. He should have known Hob wouldn't be interested in helping him. He was a mess. And maybe Hob didn't feel anything towards him anymore and only wanted to be friends, so Dream's attempts to fix himself for him were not appreciated.

"I am sorry," he said numbly, standing up on wavering legs. "I will get out of your hair."

"No!" Hob growled, blocking the door with his stronger, wider body. "I have spent months assuring your friends and family that you're alright, that you're just going through some stuff, probably a depressive episode, and they have believed me! But that was a lie, wasn't it? You aren't alright and it is not depression. What is it, then? Drugs? You chomped down fucking aspirin yesterday."

"It is not drugs," Morpheus said quietly, still confused. Did Hob not know? Everybody had to know, right? Every time he looked in the mirror, he saw it. It was so obvious, the black mass of goo inside of him that covered his organs and bones and joints and his mind.

But he never told Hob. He never told anybody, for that matter. Maybe Hob didn't know. Of course he didn't know.

"I was working on my recovery," he explained. Had he really said the word rape yesterday? He couldn't say it now and didn't remember saying it in the past weeks.

"From what?!" Hob snapped impatiently. Then, as if he had been slapped, he winced, face going pale, mouth slack, his arms, previously crossed over his chest, falling to his sides. "Dream…" he said quietly. "Have you been raped?"

And Dream, grateful that they were finally on the same note, nodded. "Remember the man who bought me a drink?"

Hob blinked. Blinked again. Shook his head. Blinked.

And then he blew up.

"Fucking hell, Dream!" he yelled, his voice taking on a high, hysteric pitch. "Please tell me that you aren't saying that he slipped something in your drink, please!" He was so angry and Dream trembled but took it all with a weary face. "Are you telling me that he roofied you in my pub, raped you, and you just went about your day?! He still comes to this place, Morpheus, he is a regular! Fuck, how many people did he rape?! Why didn't you tell me about it?!"

Dream felt something in his chest crumble. It was a strange feeling, kind of like what dying must have felt like. Like his soul left his body for good. Hob was so angry with him. Hob hated him. And Hob was right – how many were raped because he didn't speak up? All this time he had been selfishly trying to help himself while he should have been doing so much more. Was he realy unfixable? Not just this wound that he carried from that night, from the morning when he woke up in tall grass, but his other flaws, the ones that his friends claimed were getting better. They weren't. He was a selfish, arrogant, greedy prick.

"I have made a mistake," he said, surprised at how quiet his voice was. He could barely hear himself. "Have no fear, Hob Gadling. Nobody will learn that this happened to me at the New Inn, but I will—" He choked on his words. No, he can't report it. He cannot. But that is what he has to do, for Hob, for everyone, right? "Your business will not be de—"

"Shut the hell up!" Hob hollered hysterically. "Shut. The hell. Up! What are you talking about?! I don't give a shit about the inn!"

Dream looked up for a second, not aware that his gaze had fallen to the floor at some point. There were tear streaks on Hob's face. He was red from the screaming but looked more sad than angry. His hair was messed up from hands running through it. For a second, Dream let himself remember the times many years ago when his fingers ran through those hair. But that was gone.

"I tried to protect you," he said lamely. Then he shook his head, gathering himself. He needed to leave. Hob would ask him to leave soon, Dream was damaged and filthy and bad for Hob's business. He should leave London. He should leave Britain. He should leave.

"Protecting—?!" Hob gasped angrily, but then he deflated. "Dream?" he asked almost softly, almost. Dream didn't deserve even that.

When hands landed on his shoulders and began to steer him towards the couch, he jostled so hard he almost elbowed Hob. It was too familiar, too wrong. But Hob soothed him and continued to herd him to the couch until Dream was sitting, staring numbly at the coffee table.

Hob took several deep breaths. It sounded like he was just a step away from hyperventilating. But he got a hold on himself. "Okay, so…" He took another deep breath. "I am sorry. First of all, I am sorry for how I just reacted. That was wrong. All of what I said was wrong. I was in shock. Am in shock. But that doesn't matter. Or maybe it does, but the point is? Dream, I am not mad at you, it was not your fault, and you don't have to do anything that you don't want to, though I will ban that guy from the inn."

After a while followed a gentle: "Are you listening?"

Dream heard him but the words didn't stick in his head, like most things in the past weeks. Everything got covered in the black goo and slid right off. He could barely keep a thought.

But suddenly, that changed. Hob said more gentle, soothing words and cupped his cheeks, turning Dream's face towards his. Looking into Hob's eyes, urged to breathe in sync with the man, kept in place by the gentlest hold, Dream slowly felt the fog stirring. It didn't lift piece by piece but all at once, once it was ready to leave him. And when it lifted, he blinked and found himself in his friend's living room being held so gently, as if he was something precious.

For the first time since that fateful night, Dream burst out crying. He crumpled into Hob's arms as the last string holding him up snapped and he had no more strength in him, no more energy. Hob gathered him into a bear hug and held him and held him and held him and it didn't hurt. It was warm and soft and gentle and only firm enough to hold the fractured pieces of him together, not so strong that he would fracture further. A pained howl left Dream's lips when he realised that this was the first friendly touch that he had had since that night.

With the tears that had been held back for months came words. "It hurt," he blurted out, because suddenly, he needed someone to know. "It hurt, it hurt, it hurt."

"I know, love, I'm so sorry," Hob soothed, rocking him from side to side like a babe.

"I couldn't fix it. I tried but it didn't stick. I can't fix it, Hob."

"You don't have to fix it now. It takes time. It can take years. Eventually, you will heal, but you can be sad and hurt for as long as you need right now. You can cry. You can hurt. You can hide here when you need it. I'm here, Dream, I'm here. I'm so sorry that I didn't notice sooner."

"Don't leave," Dream pleaded, because that is what his mind somehow interpreted from Hob's words. "Don't leave me."

"Never," Hob swore, cupping his face again and looking into his eyes. "I am here to stay. I'm your friend, Dream, and I lo—"

Hob stopped himself before he could say it, but Dream heard it anyway. The shock of those words stopped his hiccuping sobs and tears. He stared with wide eyes at Hob's suddenly uncertain face.

Tentatively, Dream said it. He had to, now. He needed one thing in his life to be good. "I love you, too."

Hob began to cry again. He let out an ugly laugh-sob and shook his head before he held Dream's face in both hands and kissed him. It was just a gentle peck on the lips, a butterfly touch, but it was enough to convey all the emotions.

"I love you," Hob said through more laugh-sobs. "This is the worst time, the worst love confession in the history of the world. But I love you and I can't take it back because I will never stop loving you. I've loved you all those years. You, we, I think we were just made for each other. I'm so sorry I hurt you, Dream. The fact that something happened to the love of my life and I didn't prevent it snapped something in me. It won't happen again, I promise, just don't leave me."

Dream actually laughed. "Never," he promised. "Hob, I, this—" His breathing quickened as all the things that needed to be said swirled in his head in a violent, all-destroying vortex.

"Too much, I know," Hob soothed, hugging and rocking him again. "It's okay, I've got you. We've got all the time in the world, love. We will figure it out. For now, all you need to do is breathe."

Dream obeyed, taking deep breaths as Hob quietly counted them out for him. Once in a while, he buried his nose in Hob's tear-wet shirt and mumbled his mantra into Hob's chest. "It hurt." And Hob nodded, he knew, now he knew and Dream wasn't the only one carrying the weight of the pain.

"I know, love," Hob murmured into his hair each time, pressing gentle kisses there. "I'm here now. You're safe. I'm here. We will figure it out together, later. For now, all you need to do is breathe. You can be sad. You can cry. Just breathe with me so I know that you are here."

#cw noncon #dead dove do not eat #angst #holy shit this is angsty #dreamling #human au #my writing #nsft

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kitamars · 10 months

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hope you don't mind me sending in another ask so soon but i always find this kinda stuff interesting- now that you've survived two big serious arcs how would you rank the main cast in terms of like. favs & stuff?

don't apologise for the asks at all!! i love answering them and rambling about my thoughts so actually thank YOU for giving me a viable outlet haha

so I had to pull out my notes app to draft this one bc i can't do things simply apparently. i can't rank characters for shit so I'm just gonna rate the main ones (at least to me) out of ten and that's that lol, so onward beyond the cut!

Gintoki: I'm in love with him. 10/10.

He's captivated me with his dead fish eyes and pathetic charm, the way he subverts the general shonen protag archetype really works for me (bc i tend to get annoyed with the genre every now and then) but other than that he's such an interesting character on his own that I cannot get into for fear of rambling too much but yeah. I like him a lot. I might cry about someday in the tags of some art or whatever

(also beam saber arc is UNDERRATED (to me) and its very much overshadowed by everything before and after it but I DON'T CARE it has some of my favourite gin character bits this is my propaganda i just felt like i had to put this here THANKS)

Shinpachi: the human-wearing-glasses gag is absolutely hilarious and I hope it never stops. 8/10.

I love shinpachi a lot I promise, i love how dedicated he is to the straight man role and also the times when he's not. Honestly he could have very easily annoyed me after a bit, but he's genuinely just so loveable and a lot of his charm just comes from his VA's delivery, I've never heard anyone else able to convey the emotional range that I've heard from shinpachi in this anime fnsnjrjgjs

I do think he needs more screentime though (watch beam saber arc),,,kagura tends to get a lot of the spotlight (which I'm not mad about) but he also needs some love!! he's just some guy yk gotta give some appreciation!!

Kagura: queen of kabukicho and the queen of my heart. 10/10.

SHE IS LITERALLY EVERYTHING TO ME. i don't have words to express how much I love her, she's one of my all time favorites ever. She's just doing her thing, eating gin-san out of house and home and kicking ass while she's at it and she's so valid for that.

A big part of why I like her is also just her relationship with the yorozuya. the amount of times I've felt like exploding when I see her and gin or shinpachi just interacting in the background of a scene or something similar is impossible to count. She's my little mimi and she deserves literally the world

(Also there's this one compilation of her singing on YouTube and i listen to it RELIGIOUSLY kugimiya rie is a blessing for this character for real it's insane)

Sadaharu interlude: Big ball of fluff/10 (he's adorable)

Hijikata: this man makes me feel a similar range of emotions I feel cramming the night before a final, if not more. 10/10.

He drives me NUTS. you know me, i love my dark-haired chainsmoking men with issues, and he's just chock full of them, it's like a dream come true. Every arc that's focused on him has been absolutely incredible, and even on his own he's such an interesting and funny character. Fully biased towards his VA btw, i don't think anyone else could voice him as effectively, the delivery is always top notch.

His dynamic with the rest of the shinsengumi is honestly one of my favourites, he's got so much range as a serious and gag character, especially when the plot decides to chuck his coolness out the window with that little mayonnaise addiction of his (now everytime I put mayonnaise on anything at all i give myself a dirty look, idk why).

Also i should mention that tosshi was one of the only things that made my watching experience truly difficult. I'd just cringe out of existence everytime he opened his mouth it was. An experience. I still love him very much. Too much maybe.

Sougo: sadism has never looked more fun. 9/10.

I don't think I really have much to say about him? he's genuinely a really fun character, and his endless quests to smear hijikata across the asphalt is always the highlight of any viewing experience. i loved him regardless, but the mitsuba and farewell shinsengumi arcs gave him that extra bit of depth that really solidified him as a fav hehe

YOU DONT GET CHARACTERS LIKE HIM VERY OFTEN AND I LOVE HIM SO MUCH

kondo: gorilla gorilla/10 (9/10)

thi guy is just the fucking funniest. he's one of the perfect examples of how gintama does characterisation through comedy because by introducing him with all his hilarious gags, you start to care a lot more about him when things actually get serious. Plus the joke never really gets old with him, if he shows up in an episode I know I'm about to have a great time.

but as a serious character as well he's just so good. Him being the glue of the shinsengumi is incredible and sometimes in the plot (crisis and farewell arcs) you can see exactly what it is in this man that makes people want to follow him to the ends of the earth, he is just a good person and I love him for that.

also he's the reason i realised I have not grown out of my 14 year old dick joke phase so there's that

Otose: gintoki's overdue rent/10 (9/10)

I enjoy her so much actually, she's already incredibly fun, but whenever they show more background to gintoki and her's relationship, all of a sudden i am in a puddle of tears on the floor, it's one of the most important things ever to me, the foster parent trope is my weak point.

evidently, kabukicho four devas was my kryptonite (in a really really good way)

Catherine: the heavy accent is pretty funny. 7/10.

I don't really have strong feelings about her tbh, she's alright and funny enough, that's pretty much all I can say

Tama: total number of her leukocytes/10 (9/10)

I LIKE TAMA SOOOOO MUCH SHES SO SWEET AND KIND AND ADORABLE. all of the tama centric arcs have been really fun and each episode involving her is so nice. Finding out she was the time traveller in the bfy movie was such a great twist but immediately made sense bc OF COURSE she would go that far for her very first friends!!!!! i love her innocence so dearly and the way she simply just wants to help others, also otose seeing her as a daughter makes me so emotional

Hasegawa: the madaodog madaonaire episode made me choke at the speed at which I got that reference. 8/10.

Incredibly funny character, the fact that he cannot win a single W is both hilarious but also a bit sad and pathetic, but he's authentic to himself regardless.

He also ruined my later attempts at trying to watch NGE

Otae: the price of one dom peri/10 (8/10)

I love her SOOOOO much she's so entertaining...again I don't have much to say but it's not really in a bad way, i just like her a lot and that's mostly it hehe

Kyubei: otae love/10 (9/10)

as a nb person I have a huge bias towards kyubei, their struggle to figure out where they stand in the binary is pretty relatable, and while I can say that you don't always see a character like that in media who is also hopelessly in love with a woman (so real for that though) i can also admit that this show isn't the best handling of it all, but honestly it's a very "take what I can get situation" so I try not to be too bothered, dekobokko was a bit strange but the ending for kyubei is better than most other instances I've seen, even if it doesn't stay consistent in the series

Also where is jugem jugem? i miss that little bastard so much that arc was so good

Tsukuyo: where does she stash all that kunai. 9/10.

TSUKUYO IS MY WIFE AND GINTOKI NEEDS TO MOVE OVER BC I WANT TO KISS HER. thank you

no but seriously she's a really fun character, and I love everything about her and yoshiwara and her relationship with hinowa and seita and he hyakka and ACK. yoshiwara in flames and the red spider arcs were really good for her, and her slightly confused air at most times is so charming, i love her muah

Sacchan: uhhhhhh huh. 7/10.

I'm gonna be honest, she's one of the only characters I really didn't like since she was introduced, i just found her so incredibly annoying all the time. But then came shogun assassination and suddenly I could stand her a lot more when her personality didn't revolve around gin-san's massive d– (but like. I hate that I can relate to her)

also I don't know where her strange friendship with tsukuyo came from but I actually genuinely like it a lot..........sillies with sharp knives, what could possibly go wrong?

Okay I'm running out of steam here honestly so if I've missed anyone (I'm very sure I have) feel free to ask in replies and I'll tell you what i think jgjekkfkd

this is terrible. Everyone is a main character in my eyes

EDIT: I MISSED THE REST OF THE JOUI 4. I WILL DISEMBOWEL MYSELF. BUT FOR NOW HAVE A LIGHTNING ROUND

katsura: 10/10.

One of my all time favourite characters ever, literal definition of head empty no thoughts, he is so stupid and I want to kiss him passionately under the moonlight

Sakamoto: 10(00000)/10

He is my everything. He needs more screentime. I'm begging on my knees. He is the perfect man.

Takasugi: 9/10

He's great. Shogun assassination made me cry over him. I'm forever sad about him now he was so mochi.....and then the trauma.............ue

Anyways now I think I'm done. time to atone

#thanks for enabling me op #i like to talk too much about them but also holy shit there are so many words #i definitely havent gotten all my thoughts out but nevermind! I shall convey them through art~#i love this show. so goddamn much #nimki talks

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4GGRAVATE UNO STREAM LIVEBLOG ft. lots of out of context quotes

(warning: extremely long post!! also i get who's saying/doing what wrong several times lmao)

PRE-GAMES

REACH FOR THE STARS IS PLAYING !!!!

I KEEP ON RUNNIGGGNG

god i am. too hype rn.

btw i'm team nazeeh and alejandro. i hope they kick everyone's asses tonight

WE'RE STARTINGGGG

alejandro: "christmas treat"

zach...

CY FY!!! BABYGIRL

btw, i'm only watching cy yu's perspective because multitwitch is glitchy for me rn. sadge

"'they hate cynari' HEY I DIDN'T SAY ANYTHING" alejandro you are so dear to me

alejandro saying "zach" like a confused mother i'm crying

NAZEEEEHH

nazeeh's voice is so pretty omg

ZACH?!?!?

HE SPEAKS

I'M THE BOY

"zachary???" ben sounds like he's bleating i love it

"messed up as heck" ~ zachary gordon, grown ass man (lighthearted)

zach: "and my mother is calling me!"

zach: "twitch needs to be user friendly for grandpas"

alejandro, in reply: "you're younger than all of us"

alejandro, to nazeeh: "YOU'RE DATING MY COUSIN YOU BEAT MY ASS IN SMASH BROS IN MIDDLE SCHOOL"

alejandro: "the discord? that we have???"

zach: "i am cooking steak rn"

ben, about zach: "as soon as you go live we're gonna hear an explosion and then you're gonna go offline"

zach is so sweet omg

zach in his doxxer era

"windows might have done a thing" story of my life

ZACH

...why did zach just like. moan

alejandro has 141 unique jokes...

alejandro: "get it? ᶜᵘᶻ ᶦᵗ'ˢ ᵃ ᵖʳᶦˢᵒⁿ ᶜᵉˡˡ"

i love how 90% of my liveblogging is just about alejandro and zach

nice plug

FINALLY GETTING INTO THE UNO LESGOOOOO

THE GAMES

UNO BEGINSSS

(i'm probably gonna get less talkative now bc i'll be watching the game)

alejandro: "that's how microphones work, my guy"

everyone playing their wild cards PLEASE

....this is not how i play uno

nazeeh getting uno first??

alejandro: "it's a MyStErY OOOOO"

ALEJANDRO DOING A SWITCHUP OOOOUH

NAZEEH SCREAMING??

alejandro: "that's crazy. nazeeh go again"

ben: "I DON'T HAVE BLUE DUDE"

alejandro: "that. might be racist"

BEN SDHJFHS

god i forgot how funny cy yu streams are

alejandro why did you do that...

alejandro, in the most american accent possible: "¡vamanos!"

JUST GIVE HIM A YELLOW

ben you dumbass

nazeeh's getting his ass beat bro stop he's already dead

BEN

nazeeh's increasingly loud "FUCK"s

cy yu's being just as much of a liar to himself as i am on a daily basis, love to see it

"if i believe hard enough" and then he immediately fails oh we are one and the same

ben: "i've had it"

nazeeh, in reply: "yeah i think we've all had uno at one point"

alejandro having the worst uno he could have

ben, to alejandro: "YOU FUCKGIN. IDIOT"

also ben: "YOU ARE THE STUPIDEST MOTHERFUCKER I HAVE EVER MET"

I'LL KILL MYSELF??? BEN??

in true kaveh fashion, ben is losing the game and his mind

ben: "it ain't easy being cheesy ok"

my faith in nazeeh is wavering greatly

nazeeh +4ing alejandro fuckin harsh

alejandro: "you might've just given nazeeh the game"

ben: "what do i do? what am i supposed to do? WHO AM I"

i feel so bad for ben bro hsjkhfd

OK NVM NAZEEH WILL SWEEP AFTER ALL

ALEJANDRO PULLING LIKE 100 CARDS BAHAHA

ben after pulling the strangest fucking moves and still losing

no bc why did he swap hands with nazeeh when he had a +2

NOT THE +6 TO ZACH

HOW DID BENJAMIN FUCKING WIN THAT

ben after pulling the strangest fucking moves and still winning

MY FUCKING INTERNET WENT OUT NOOOOO

SHIT

WAIT. WE BACK

I THINK

ben: "it's not baby blue IT'S TEAL"

THAT IS NOT FUCKING MAROON WHAT IS ALEJANDRO WAFFLING ABOUT

them reciting the alphabet i'm crying

the triple uno..

YEAHHH ALEJANDRO WON

that's ben and alejandro at 1, nazeeh and zach at 0

the chat keeps on talking abt cynari. we really are a hivemind huh

ALEJANDRO'S SCREECH WHEN ZACH GOT UNO

alejandro: "do i play a normal red or do i fuck him"

BEN WON WOOO

wait no, that was nazeeh. my bad

this chat is kinda cringe ngl

i'm getting so much ram.exe because cy yu knows i'm his number 1 fan

ZACH WON WOOOO

wait alejandro won 2 rounds? huh?

or is he lying

zach: "the wimpy kid has,, woken up!!"

zach??

i've tried playing dos before. i hated it

i feel like something really funny is about to happen

ben i don't think any of y'all were normal to begin with, uno or otherwise

alejandro: "that wasn't red!"

ben, in reply: "i didn't ask!"

this is such chaos i love it

alejandro just missed out on a mean ass play i'm so mad at him (/hj)

the alejandro/nazeeh friendship is so nice

ALEJANRO BACKSTABBING NAZEEH LMAO

cy yu: "STACK IT STACK IT- awwwuh :'("

RUN THAT BITCH

ben: "i'm gonna play the biggest 7 you've ever seen"

damn. alejandro backstabbing everyone but zach

everyone pulling these nasty ass moves on each other except for zach. he's in his own lane. i admire that

alejandro WHY ARE YOU ANNOUNCING WHAT COLORS YOU HAVE

i can't even tell who tf is gonna win this

actually. idc if he has a billion cards, alejandro sweep

HE'S DOWN TO 4, ALEJANDRO SWEEP

cy fy is back bitches!! hashtag feminism

ok we're back in cy yu's flop era. but i still believe he can sweep

even when ben has 3 cards

god this really is anyone's game huh

SKIPPING ZACH NOOOO

zach: "actually broke my heart a little bit :("

"i'm just playing the game" badly /j

NAZEEH'S HAND??

the "wait a fucking second" in (what sounded like) alhaitham's voice LMAOOO

i was once in an uno game that lasted like an hour and a half because we were missing some cards and it made it so nobody could win for some reason, true story

ZACH WON WOOOO

common tighnari fan W

oh zach is fucking stupid i see /j

ben: "you fucked me, buddy. you REALLY fucked me"

"can you make it yellow?" "no" literally them irl

they censor the word "nerd" in twitch chat??? huh

they really are just the sumeru boys if they could swear huh

the joey slander lmao

bro was ben taking a shit just then? wtf was that groan

ben balmaceda would do numbers on tumblr

zach continuing to make the worst possible decisions

zach: "(uno) brings people together and it brings forgiveness and,, i don't want my hand anymore"

these coin flips are tearing them apart i love it

ZACH WON AGAIN GODDAMN

teams are alejandro and ben vs nazeeh and zach

let's get it

ALEJANDRO CAN'T TAKE DUBS FOR SHIT LMAOOOO

zach: "y'all are yoinked"

goddamn. ben and zach won so much

ben: "alejandro why did you just write 'penis penis penis penis penis'??"

zach and nazeeh vs alejandro and ben (??)

cy yu's just doing everyone dirty here. i thought zach was safe but ig not

THAT SKIP WAS DIRTYYY

alejandro please take the dub

ok he is never taking a dub holy shit

ALEJANDRO WHAT ARE YOU DOING

YOU GOT THE WILD CARD BUT AT WHAT COST

AAAAND CY YU GETS THE DUB LET'S FUCKING GOOOOO

I SAID CY YU AND NAZEEH WOULD SWEEP AND DID I LIE???

it only took like. 10 rounds or some shit

BUT IT STILL HAPPENED

that was so much fun. i loved it

4ggravate supremacy, my final message. gootb ye

#cyyuposting #long post #EXTREMELY long post #4ggravated #<- i think this counts? idk

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yes i can and will call you out out, im stealing the revive book i am singlehandedly reviving cringe culture /j

i mean. cdream is a caffeine addict, it's basically canon if you ask me, i am now having a very vivid image of cdream sat in a heap of books and note papers drinking coffee straight from the pot as punz anxiously hovers at the edge of said pile, clutching a bag of steadily cooling McPuffNuggets.

yeah the odds for a full 100% happy ending for cfiances are Slim, especially since they're all at uh. very different lore wrap up stages. the lnv finale is very likely going to be the end of quackity's character. the odds for cdream dying or /p dreamnap somehow reconciling in that stream are even lower than the fiances wedding so it's definitely not gonna be the narrative end for sapnap. and im not even touching ckarl with a ten feet pole. i saw the ghost post btw, i am very much hoping that ccq isn't just gonna kill his character off entirely. atleast he's gonna wrap his story up, which is something which i've only heard a few ccs talk about. rip cranboo i guess. literally.

honestly, if we're looking at the scene from a doylist perspective the most likely interpretation is proabably just that ccsapnap wasn't prepared to rp a mental flip on his fiance And his murderhobo bestie. in character he probably he just filed it away for later when he wasn't actively preparing to fight dream.

don't worry finn, we all have our c!diskduo demons hidden away in the tumblr drafts. mine probably are the polar opposite of yours but the point still stands.

i mean you don't have to agree obviously, but i think inconsolable established firmly that wilbur had no fucking clue that dream had gotten out of prison. even if you consider the possibility of him lying to tommy, the fantasy sequence made it pretty clear that he still expected dream to be locked inside the prison. so it's either train talk or prison visit. i still haven't gotten around to rewatching that scene, i'll let you know what i think once i do.

csam has to make the ultimate decision between stopping the collapse of las nevadas and bringing cdream a bacon and cheese sandwich as quackity watches in despair. take a guess what he chooses. i wonder if csam has any plans to end his character.

i mean especially cdteam is also a complicated, tangled and angry mess, but yeah q and sam had care but also this very business like and scary.y vibe to them. i would genuinely kill to see a confrontation between them during that stream now that both underwent very drastic changes in mentality (for the worse or for the bettter.

im genuinely trying to keep my expectations low and simple, even though i fear that the first is probably a disservice to ccquackity's work and i literally cant help the second.

I'm not depressed" TikTok audio which I mean pretty fitting for them

I really wonder if that's actually going to be the ending of the character I have the feeling like the most lore based ccs are trying to wrap up their lore already which I don't know if it's in preparation for the second season because Foolish did say he was getting near his last streams for the first season but he called it that directly implying that whatever the world altering event is will lead to the second season and well Wilbur had said that while the lore will be done with his character he would still be around so maybe Quackity will still be around just with less serious lore which a ghost character could work pretty well for that

C!Ranboo is so dead he's just so dead but I really wanted to know what his deal with c!Dream was c'mon at least tell me that man

I really am so confused on what direction the dsmp is going to go

Yeah that's probably pretty true but now I don't know when to really chuck things up to eh it's just the streamers improving because not everything is that serious because after seeing how specific their scripts got at points during the tribute video I think I may have severly underestimated that point in the past

The latest one I had was like a 5 page essay on c!Dream c!Tommy and obsession that I was so close to posting but that I held back on because maybe society just isn't ready for it just yet and the other one was c!Dream c!Ranboo c!Tommy and The Plan that was pretty much just me crying because c!Tommy c!Ranboo friendship matters to me but so does c!Endersmile

So yeah I bet they are complete opposites on almost every regard to ironically I feel like we agree the most on c!Tommy himself

I guess I didn't see it as what he was expecting the most just as what he was one more used to and what made more sense because well in a real setting if c!Dream wanted to kill c!Wilbur it wouldn't really be a difficult task for him to do so therefore what made more sense in my brain is yeah his fantasy takes place here because it's the only possible place it could occur in c!Wilbur killing c!Dream like that and c!Quackity and c!Sam torturing him like that are things that could only happen there makes it all the more imperative that he stays there

But on that case train talk it's what makes more sense because c!Sam didn't really let other people visit c!Dream c!Sapnap did say that getting past him for any visit at all was incredibly difficult so I don't think he would have left c!Wilbur in

Honestly if that did happen in lore I would just be cheering on for c!Dream getting his cool moment of revenge I think he's earned it by now and I don't think he does whenever he brings up c!Sam or any of his other dsmp oriented proyects it's only to talk about what more things he wants to do to my knowledge he hasn't really spoken ever about putting an end to the server or to any of his characters and I don't really think he wants to he seems to have a lot of fun in it and he's part of the members who have been on it the longest after all

C!Dteam are everything to me and also have so many issues that I just don't know how their happy ending could go but I'm still holding onto for hope okay

C!Sam and c!Quackity confrontation just really calls to me because look at all the awful things they did together they both know the other is capable on some pretty inhumane things a business relationship like that is dangerous and seeing how different they are now than when they first met it would just be cool to hear them talk about it

#ghost tag #the comeback of the essayssss #this just made me miss lore so bad just now #beloved's asks

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a-problematic-writer · 7 months

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20 Questions for Fic Writers

I was tagged by @space-cat-in-a-teacup! Thank you for the tag Bestie! Making a separate post just to keep things clean 😭

How many works do you have on ao3? Nine! Though, technically it's ten. One work has been archived.

What's your total AO3 word count? 125,596!

What fandoms do you write for? MCSM! I also write for Fortnite. MCSM fics are the only published ones.

What are your top five fics by kudos? Small Moments We Are but a Beautiful Chaos dance with me, make me sway Secret Admirer Ain't No Rest for the Wicked

Do you respond to comments? Yes! To the best of my ability, I try to respond to every comment I get! They are greatly appreciated 💚

What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? Honestly? Probably something I haven't posted for the public to see, I'm not gonna lie to you.

What is the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? I'm gonna vote my current WIP: Stop the Stars.

Do you get hate on fics? Haven't seen any! I think I'm too small of a fandom name to get it, I'm gonna be so real with you.

Do you write smut? If so, what kind? None that the general public will EVER see ;)

Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written? One of my current projects is a crossover! Ain't No Rest for the Wicked (MCSM/Borderlands) Though I am also writing a MCSM/Fallout fic.

Have you ever had a fic stolen? Not that I know of 😭

What's the longest you've spent working on one fic? And the shortest? Longest? 3 years and it's currently still ongoing. That would be for a still unpublished fic: Stop the Stars. Hoping to get that one out by the end of this month, but the end of the year works too. Shortest, a couple of hours for a drabble.

Have you ever co-written a fic before? Yes... technically. Me and my friends are all working on a for funsies personal project that will never be posted and we bounce off each others pieces and lore a lot!

What's your all-time favorite ship? From all fandoms? Aidesse (MCSM). I don't even think there ARE others at this point. Maybe Drift/Stray (Fortnite)? MacCready/Sole Survivor (Fallout)? MariChat (Miraculous)? But yeah, no, I think it's just Aidesse 😭

What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will? Carry the Fire. It was my first project and still holds a special place in my heart as my entrance long-fic into the fandom. But I don't think it'll ever be finished sad to say, but I'm leaving it up. I don't know. That's half the fun of writing fic, you never know which one might suddenly capture your attention.

What are your writing strengths? Dialogue definitely! I also am pleased with where my Description is right now!

What are your writing weaknesses? Oh most definitely plotting a piece out. It's why a lot of my longer fics fall through. Trying to remedy that! It's a... Work in Progress 😅

Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic? I wouldn't be against it and am not against it, if that person is mostly fluent in the language. Because oh boy can it get cringe fast 😭

First fandom you wrote for? The Walking Dead Game 💚 I was 13 years old lol. Published and then deleted. None of my stuff from then was saved.

Favorite fic you've written? Completed? What if it Doesn't End Well. Ongoing? Ain't No rest for the Wicked <3 Tagging @zonerz! Don't EVEN feel pressured, bestie! But! If you vibe with is :> I would like to see it <3 (sorry abt there being no blank btw ;;) Also tagging anyone else who see this and wants to do it!!

#kyler talks #I have been tagged?!?!#tag game

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KDRAMA ADWJEJ I REMEMBER MY KDRAMA ERA. I would cringe so hard at some of them but get so hyperfocused with some others.

YES I KNOW. I was so scared she was gonna cancel it because she didn't want me to infect her with whatever I had. I had a.. how do you call the thing that you use to cover your nose and mouth. Well, that thingy- un tapabocas csm with me because I always have one with me just in case. Btw I got covid like 3 times, at least I know it's not it (I do hope so at least)

Look, here's the thing. People can have a good heart and not the necessary ability to do some stuff. But what really matters is the intention, the good gesture... It was possibly the worst tea I ever had but I already adore her so her tea is the best thing ever ok. Do you know what's the worst thing? that she said she worked in a cafe before. I am both worried about her economical situation at that point and the customers JAKDWKLELKQWQKL

NO. Coco is actually a boxer!! I have now claimed him as my best friend MUAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA.

I know, Van, I know. What the fuck did I ever do to deserve her? I swear I can't be happier right now. AND VAN. SHE HUGGED ME JQEKWQ. AND PUT HEr HEAD ON MY SHOULDER. Ok you already know I probably don't touch grass so guess when was the last time I hugged someone. Oh boy was it awkward at first but it felt so good and she smelled like coffee candies

Thank you Van!!! Thank you so so so much. AND HEY. I'll be praying (the fact I'm not religious) you get all the good good things you deserve! Honestly, I'll be plotting universe's downfall if you don't get good things only. It's a real threat. Behold!!!

(guess who didn't sleep because her neighbors were fucking at 3 am in the morning and ended up learning - unwillingly, might I add - that her neighbors have the most fucking random fetishes ever. I will never get over the fact that my neighbor calls her husband kitten as the I fuck I swear I came home from work to eat before going to the gym and I was traumatised enough to be afraid of the slightest noise goddAMN)

i still love kdramas LOL there's something about waiting 30 episodes for a dead fish lip kiss. Slay LOL although the newer ones be more spicy or more intense themed.

she really said no i don't care <3 and that's so cute of her. She's obv crazy for you!! (also i think you're refering to a face mask??)

LMFAO NOT THE WORST TEA YOU EVER HAD AND ROASTING HER PREVIOUS JOB. I'm telling on u 🤣

getting close to the dog, smart move. I would also do the same thing

ah yes, another touched-starved indivdual. except you aren't anymore. congrats on leaving the club 👏👏

Honestly, I've just been chilling LOL i make jokes about wanting a gf but i actually am not convinced i have the time to be dating. Pray i get to buy a house in the next 3 years in our economy instead pls LMFAO

NOT YOUR NEIGHBOURS NON-CONSENUALLY ADDING YOU TO THEIR NIGHTTIME ACTIVITES. I'm so sorry bestie. I hope u never have to bump into them LOL hope you've been getting sleep!!

#mm: answered #🦈 anon

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patience is a virtue

summary: college!au. all aged up. eren and reader continue with their sexual escapades. find part one here! warnings: 18+ minors dni. dirty text messages, dirty talk. dom!eren and bratty reader (i suppose?). throat fucking and semi-public sex. (no p in v tho) word count: around 3.5k A/N: i have a love/hate relationship with this eren ahaha, he's been ruling my brainrot ever since the last part so i hope you enjoy! there will be a part three eventually, so be on the lookout for that! enjoy your read and feedback is greatly appreciated! xx

you awake to your phone vibrating somewhere next to you. the hope of it only being a one-time occurrence quickly proven to be false as it just wouldn't stop. brr-brr. a second of silence. brr-brr. pause. brr-brr.

taking a mental note to never go to sleep again without turning off your phone, you roll over to your other side and try to ignore it. you could simply answer the texts, but that meant you'd have to open your eyes. and that whoever was texting you would win this weird battle you've just come up with in your head.

"if you don't pick up your goddamn phone, i'll smack you over the head with it," sasha groans from the other side of your shared dorm, words coming slurry with her tiredness.

brr-brr.

"i could also stick it up your ass, your decision," a pillow comes flying to your head, serving as enough of a warning for you to sit up in your bed, rubbing the sleep from your eyes.

"quit moaning, i'll turn it off now," you yawn, feeling around your bed for your phone, "you never hear me complaining about the shit you do in the middle of the night."

"that's because my shit is funny and not fucking annoying," she scoffs, followed by a muted thump as she is sinking back down into her pillows. sasha's way of ending the conversation.

you find your phone half-tucked underneath your pillow, the display already lighting up again. someone is desperate for attention, you think to yourself and unlock your phone with an annoyed sigh. the messages were coming from an unknown number.

thinking about your wet pussy. this is eren, btw. historia gave me your number. i told her you wouldn't mind you don't mind, do you?

in a matter of seconds, your heart is beating in your throat once more, just like this afternoon in that godforsaken computer lab. ears growing hot at his words, you could almost imagine the sound of him laughing at you again. with trembling fingers, you scroll down further.

anyway, let's do it again sometime i told you. i'll never let you forget about how you moaned my name i'm also not forgetting about how badly i want to fuck that pretty mouth of yours, so it's a win-win see ya, then

staring down at your phone, you don't know if you should answer him. and even if you would answer his texts, what the hell should you say? "fucking bastard," the words escaping your mouth before even realizing that you'd better keep quiet. the only thing that could make this situation any worse was if sasha were to wake up again.

scratch that, you think as you see eren's new messages.

how badly do you want to suck my cock? you looked really hot today, covered in my cum what, you're shy again?

there are two ways this could go: either you stand up, put on some clothes, and then go to eren's dorm to let hell rain upon him - or simply mute your phone and ignore him. deciding to go with the latter, you lie back down and save his number as "fuckhead", a small grin forming on your face. if he wants to be childish, then you can be, too.

the display still lighting up at a steady pace, you have to fight the urge to open his other messages. to physically prevent yourself from grabbing your phone again, you put your hands between your thighs and sigh. what the hell have i gotten myself into?

"so, who am i gonna have to teach some manners today?", sasha asks in the morning, "because there are only two valid reasons for sending that many texts in the middle of the night," she sits up in her bed and bends over to reach for her phone, "either someone's dead or there's a food sale."

cringing at the thought of having to read the countless other messages eren has sent throughout the night, you try to laugh at her comment, "of course, when there's food involved, you're all for it."

"girl's gotta eat," she claims, thankfully being too distracted by something on her phone to notice your strange behavior, "i'm gonna be back later than usual today, connie wants me to be his wingman again."

starting to go off on a tangent about how connie should just get a dating app already, sasha's words become more of background noise to you. you want to know what he wrote. what he has in store for you. at the same time, you curse yourself out. you're turning into a headless chicken and all of it because of eren fucking yeager?

you nod here and there, offering her a "yes" at what you believe to be fitting moments, desperately hoping she doesn't catch up on your restlessness. all the while the two of you are getting ready for the day. this goes on for a few more minutes and you have no clue what she's talking about now, so you decide to grab your phone and stand up.

"i'm gonna go for a run around campus, you want coffee?" you blurt out, interrupting her monologue. the device in your hand feels as if it's burning through your skin. slipping into your trainers, you're already halfway out the room, her perplexed "uh- yes, please," being muffled by the door closing behind you.

it's still warm outside - not as hot as yesterday, but warm enough for you to be glad to have forgotten your cardigan earlier. you let out a deep breath, trying to clear your mind. even though you told sasha you'd be out for a run, you walk at a slow pace.

some people are already wandering around campus, most of them on their way to a lecture. at this time in the morning, everyone has their heads full with their own worries so no one notices you slowly making your way off-campus.

arriving at a little park surrounded by trees, you sit down on the bench farest off. you notice your heart fluttering like the wings of a hummingbird when pulling the phone out of your back pocket. fuck him, you think once again while typing in your code. fuck him for making me feel this way.

12 unread messages.

didn't seem all too shy when i had my hand wrapped around your throat no need to play hard to get when i already had you if that makes sense? haven't fucked you yet doesn't mean i won't get to fuck you

all you want is to feel appalled by these messages. to screenshot them and send them to the dean. maybe even to his mother. sickened with yourself though, you already feel the familiar warmth creeping up your body, curling up in your abdomen.

i know you want it, too how fucking needy you were for me getting yourself off in public to the thought of me maybe you can tell me what exactly you were thinking of? gonna make sure to let your dreams come true, princess

pet names? you clench your fist at the thought of eren leaning over you, breathing the word princess into your ear. you have an inkling that he'd say it mockingly; spitting it out whilst gathering your hair in a ponytail, arching your back forcefully, and slamming his length into you without mercy.

no. you hate pet names. at least, you've always hated them.

i'm gonna find out if you're ignoring me right now remember, you're not the best actress. fucking suck at it, actually wouldn't want to be punished now, would we?

his last message echoed in your head. still coming to terms with the fact of what happened yesterday, now you have to deal with a whole new revelation: eren yeager being a cocky motherfucker pushing all the right buttons for you. even though you want to blast his ass for this, the mere thought of him being near you again is too sweet of an imagination.

you want to play this game, too. for whatever reason keep on riding this high, and you just know that no one could do it quite as well as eren can. somehow you can only imagine taking him on this ride with you, no one else.

so, in that manner you decide to ignore his messages. if he's desperate enough to keep on sending them in the middle of the night, you're sure it won't be long until he sends another text. and it would give him enough reason to try and punish you, whatever that might entail – you're excited to find out. fucking nervous, too. but then again, who wouldn't be?

you stand up and put your phone in your back pocket, a sense of excitement surrounding your steps as you turn left to make your way to the nearest coffee shop.

"something tells me you're ignoring me," of course, the moment eren's voice comes up behind you, you fucking flinch like a little bird that's been scared away, "mostly because i've seen you reading the messages, but what do i know?"

you turn to see him clutching his heart dramatically, "don't play with my feelings like this," he swoons, bringing one hand to his forehead. he's laughing again, all white teeth and bright smiles – you realize this is the kind of eren you rarely get to see. not the cocky bastard he normally portrays; right now, he seems to be a happy-go-lucky kind of guy, just enjoying himself. still, you want to show him that you can play just as well as he can.

crossing your arms in front of your chest, you slightly raise a brow, trying your hardest to not look as nervous as you feel. it's a lost cause though because you can already feel the tips of your ears glowing with heat again. can't things go my way for once? just once? you think and chew the inside of your cheek. you felt so sure of yourself just moments ago. how the hell can he have this sort of effect on you?

suddenly, his whole demeanor changes. before, he seemed laid-back, entertained by the game he played with you. now he leans forward, hands in the pockets of his jacket and an almost cruel smile forming on his lips, "don't try to challenge me in this. you'll lose."

you know that you should feel frightened. terrified, even. he's looking like a lion preparing to jump the antelope, a sense of alarming calmness around him that's causing the small hairs on your neck to stand up. but alas, the way he's looking at you seems to have the same effect on you his scent has.

"i told you not to ignore me," eren says and takes a few steps closer to you, "yet here you are, doing it again." the chuckle leaving his lips a stark contrast to his stern gaze, still trained on you. somehow, you feel awfully small again - still not frightened, though. you stare right back at him, tilting your head slightly as if you wanted to say "so what?"

"are you seriously that desperate to be punished?"

better now than never, you think and once again place a courtly smile on your lips, "seems like it."

for a split second, you see eren's smug look turn into a genuine smile. realizing that you're up for his game, he lets out a smooth whistle, "you do surprise me."

"if you wouldn't always be so full of yourself, i'm sure you'd have recognized this sooner," you can feel the confidence growing in yourself again. clinging on to it, you take a step toward him, "i'm full of surprises."

"oh, yeah? i bet you are," from the corner of your eye, you can see him lifting his hand. before thinking twice about it, you bat it away, "i'm not one for public displays of affection."

oh, it is on– eren's smirk turns into a full-fledged grin as he takes a grip of your wrist, "you sure about that?" lifting your hand to his face, for a short moment you think he's going to suck on your fingers again. but all he does is place a faint kiss on the back of your hand, "didn't seem like it yesterday."

"you weren't supposed to see."

"but i'm so glad i did," he leans forward, the two of you standing so close you can feel his breath on your face, "or else we wouldn't have this kind of fun right now."

still having a hold of your hand, he lifts his other to your jaw, gently tracing his thumb across your lower lip, "you looked so pretty in your skirt yesterday."

taking a leap of faith, you grab his hand, holding it in place and letting your tongue run across the tip of his thumb before biting down playfully. there's a hiss and then eren pulls away and grabs your arm, "come with me."

finally, you think and let him guide you to wherever he wants, let's have some fun, then.

on your way out of the park, you pass jean and marco. even though they stand to greet eren, he just raises his hand whilst not breaking his pace, "gotta go, have an assignment to work on."

"never seen you that determined, but go off," jean laughs.

before you know it, you're inside one of the countless maintenance sheds. pushing you against the wall, eren's movements seem to become more and more erratic by the second. pinning your arms over your head, he's looking down at you, breathing heavily. "you have no idea what you just got yourself into," licking his lips, he chuckles.

"oh, but i think i actually do," you smile innocently, fucking glad to have found your normal self again. admittedly, eren threw you off your game since yesterday – but it's just going to play into your hands now. he won't see it coming until it's hitting him straight in the face; that you're just as messed up as he seems to be.

"then prove it," he breathes against your ear, "tell me how badly you want it."

the stuffy air inside the dimly lit shed doesn't help with keeping eren's scent away from you. being so close to him, looking up into his shadowed face and right into his dilated eyes; you're like putty in his hands. you try to move forward, to touch him in some way because you just know that he'll feel so good under your skin.

"now now, princess," he moves even closer, wedging you between himself and the wall, "how about we learn some patience, first?"

you nod, but then grind up against his thigh, hissing through your teeth, "i worry i'll be a real handful." you know you could very well move your hands, too – eren seems to still be testing the waters as to how far he can go with you. but with him actually letting you grind on him; you decide to play into his hands.

your breaths grow quicker as you keep on, pace becoming erratic. all you want is to get rid of your track pants – come to think of it, what you actually want is eren under you whilst you continuously bounce on his cock. you want to hear him call you princess and immediately after call you his little whore because that's exactly what you are.

eren has a little smile on his lips and you know you should ask yourself why – because you're doing exactly what he has forbidden you to do – but you're too far gone. the heat growing, you feel your knees buckle but he's holding you up; one hand now resting on your waist for support. you're so close –

and then he pulls away from you, nearly causing you to topple over. chest heaving, you place your hands on your knees for balance, "what the fuck was – "

"patience is a virtue," interrupting you with a laugh, but his voice heavy with lust, "thought i might give you a lesson you're ought to remember."

you look up to see eren palming his erection through his pants, standing about an arm's length away from you, "but i have to admit, hearing you getting yourself off is fucking hot."

biting your teeth together, you straighten up and take a step toward him – only for him to click his tongue in disapproval, "you're gonna stay right there," tugging at his pants he raises his eyebrow, "i told you what i want, get on your knees for me."

"the fuck i will," you spit out and make a move again, grasping for his waistband. but eren is quick to take a hold of your hand and pushes you back to the wall, "come on, now, princess," he chuckles but his eyes are concentrated at you, "you want this, don't you?". he's asking for permission, the thought feeling very comforting to you. and also, very excited for what's about to come.

"of course, i do," you answer him earnestly, resting the back of your head against the wall, "or else i wouldn't be here."

"fantastic," he breathes, a little smile playing in the corners of his mouth, "then get down on your knees," placing his hands on your shoulders, weighing you down, "i won't ask again."

the change of tone in his voice has you nodding, slowly sinking onto your knees, you're bursting in anticipation. one hand finally pulling down his pants, he runs his other through your hair, then down your jaw until it comes to rest on your chin.

thumbing at your lower lip, he groans "do i have to be careful?"

you just shake your head no. then you break away from his gaze, fixing your eyes on the bobbing cock in front of you. it's tip leaking with precum already, you remember how badly you wanted to lick it away yesterday.

taking his cock at its base, you bend forward and slide your tongue around its head. the salty taste sending shudders down your spine, you make sure to lift your eyes again once you prepare to take it all down your throat. your other hand snakes up to his balls, slightly tugging them which earns you a moan from eren, and fuck, you're so wet at the sound alone, you let go of his cock and slide one hand down to your own center.

he gathers your hair in one hand, taking the base of his throbbing cock in the other, "bet this is what you thought of yesterday," he slowly but surely pulls your head in closer, "of how i fuck the words right out of you."

bucking your hips into your own hand, you can do nothing but whimper at his words. because yes, this is exactly what you imagined. he's only halfway in and you're already struggling to breathe, but not wanting him to stop you hold your breath and push down even further; trying desperately not to moan.

the tears in your eyes causing your vision to be blurry, you attempt to blink them away.

"shit – ", he's pumping into you now, rubbing the tears from your cheeks and then placing both his hands on your head, "you're doing so well – "

getting lost in his words, the fear of being caught is so far away; you finally moan around his cock. saliva soaking the hem of his shirt, you can't seem to take his whole length, no matter how hard you try. you're a fucking mess under him and the thought alone is nearly sending you over the edge.

he's trying to pull away now and you know he's close, so you snake your hand around his hip, hoping this is enough of a sign to him that if he dared to cum anywhere else than down your throat, you'd bite him.

"you really – " his voice is hoarse, "fuck – this is fucking perfect," he moans as he comes to the realization. leaning his arm against the wall behind you, he's fucking himself into your mouth, his panting and the sound of your choking filling the room.

you close your eyes to blink the tears away again, but eren pulls on your hair, "no – look at me."

with this the knot in your belly explodes, leaving you holding on to eren's hip as you ride the waves of electricity that are running through your body like lava.

"such a good little whore – " he's gone as well, holding your head in place as he's pumping his load down your throat, leaving you no other option than to swallow – which you eagerly do. you feel his legs shaking under your hands.

once again, eren hands you his shirt to clean your face. this time, you take it with a smile, noting that, "i still have your other one."

"don't worry, i'll come get it sometime when sasha's away," the two of you know exactly what this means – neither of you are planning on this to be over anytime soon.

"i'll let you know, then," you nod and stand up, hoping you don't look as well-fucked as you feel, and make your way to the door, "she's gone most of the time."

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photolover82 · 3 years

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The Masked Singer Season 4 Episode 10: THE SUPER SIX/THE SEMIFINALS Featuring a *TRIPLE GASP* Triple Elimination (Commentary & Guesses)

Oh hello friends! Welcome (or welcome back) to Ana’s Masked Singer Recap, the blog where I, Ana, recap The Masked Singer for all of you lovely humans. Today, we are recapping an episode that is wow insane and I have a lot of things to say (well not a lot, but I have things to say, ok? I am building up suspense here). We finally have all of the contestants together, groups gone, all 6 of them! So, let’s get into it... the recap is gonna look very different since you know, triple elimination, so you’ll see how it goes, it’s kinda gonna be like how I did the Group A and C finals.

Ok, so our Super Six are: Jellyfish 💚, Mushroom 🍄, Crocodile 🐊, Seahorse 🐠, Popcorn 🍿, and Sun ☀️

Ok so the format of this one was, um, dare I say, questionable, but the 2 masks from the same group go head to head and whoever loses goes home... yeah I don’t like it either, but here we go. Let’s start backwards with Group C:

Group C’s Battle is Jellyfish 💚 vs. Mushroom 🍄

First up was Jellyfish 💚 singing Stay by Rihanna ft. Mikky Ekko

Performance commentary: She did great, this song totally suited her voice super well, it was really great of a performance. I was really hoping she would do something move upbeat & fun, but it was still a good song choice, just a bit safe in my opinion. I still enjoyed it but there was no wow factor really compared to the others.

Competing against her, with the song Valerie by Amy Winehouse, was Mushroom 🍄

Performance commentary: ok his performance was pretty surprising, he surprises me every time he sings on the stage. I throughly enjoyed this performance, the choreography was spot on, I kinda loved it... That was until he started beatboxing. The beatboxing was a, um, interesting choice to do with an Amy Winehouse song of all songs you can beatbox to, but yeah it ruined it a bit ngl. It was a bit cringe, but you know what, he's versatile and we love that for him, so yay I guess?

Having said that, the person who lost this battle and was ultimately revealed was:

*DRUMROLL PLEASE*

Jellyfish 💚

Who was revealed to be...

Chloe Kim

Ok yes, I got it right! Look at me go, so far at 9/11 correct guesses! Anyways, yup it was sad seeing her go because she really did do such an amazing job!👏 to her especially since she isn't a trained singer and everyone else on there is (Super Six wise I mean). If this was any other season, she probably would be in the finals but everyone is insanely talented so I am not that surprised she got eliminated. She killed it tho! She should so consider singing like doing covers or something. She will be missed for sure.

Next, we have the Group B battle: Seahorse 🐠 vs. Crocodile 🐊

First is Seahorse 🐠, who performed Bruno Mars's That's What I Like.

Performance commentary: This was not her best performance ngl. She tried to go upbeat and do choreography which didn't work out in her favor tbh, but I'm getting ahead of myself. She was still amazing, but the song choice was not the best one, you know? Like she can go upbeat, I have faith in her because she is immensely talented it's insane. However, this particular song didn't suit her amazing voice. I honestly think she still did great regardless, I've just seen her do better.

Next came Crocodile 🐊, who sang I Don’t Want to Miss a Thing by Aerosmith

Performance commentary: Ok, I gotta admit that he nailed that performance, wow he really was like going through the competition kind of low key, but he really shone here. This was super amazing performance, he absolutely killed it, not the best one though (stay tuned) but still really great!

Ok, so who lost and had to take off their mask which made me super sad and kind of annoyed with this format:

*SAD DRUMROLL PLEASE*

Seahorse 🐠

Who was revealed to be...

Tori Kelly

I was really hoping that she would be in the finals, so this elimination made me (probably also everyone else on Twitter) pretty sad and annoyed because she didn't deserve to leave, Mushroom could have left in her place and I wouldn't be mad. Anyways, apart from that's I still guessed that it was her. 2 for 2! Woo hoo! I knew it was Tori Kelly from the beginning so yay. She really killed it & honestly would have been in the finals or even would have won if it was any other season. It is really sad to see her go, like Astronaut from season 3 if you remember how I felt about that you're an OG

Last but not least we have the Group A face off consisting of Popcorn 🍿 vs. Sun ☀️

First up, we have Popcorn 🍿, who sang Better Be Good to Me by Tina Turner

Performance commentary: Ahhh, ok I really wanted her to sing a Tina Turner song, and she did, which I was stoked about. However, this wasn't her best performance, I liked some of her past ones better. However, this song suited her voice amazingly, she really did a great job! Nobody did bad by any means, they are all amazing! So, yeah it was great!

Last but not least came the Sun ☀️ who sang When the Party’s Over by Billie Ellish

Performance commentary: Ok, this was THE BEST PERFORMANCE OF THE NIGHT HANDS DOWN no questions asked. She absolutely nailed this song and it was just her, her voice, acapella, almost no instrumentals and no dancers behind her. She legit made the judges cry! Like they usually talk & cheer when these people perform but they were dead silent, speechless. That tells you something, I could even dare to say this is the best performance of the season. Like, she better win & really bring it in the finals, because how can she top this? Idk, it was that good!

And the last mask going home is (are we even surprised at this point?)...

* DRUMROLL PLEASE*

Popcorn 🍿

Who was revealed to be...

Taylor Dayne

Yay! 3 for 3! I got 11/13 right now, kinda proud of myself ngl. As for popcorn leaving, I am not surprised, I'm still annoyed she stayed over snow owls but whatever she was great and an amazing sport. I loved her costume, it was the best one of them all. She's amazing and she will be missed

Ok that's it... Well I'm doing a part 2 because this isn't letting me put images on this blog post.. So I will share my guesses in part 2. Btw after this, we don't have an episode this week so December 16 I will be back recapping the finale

#the masked singer #the masked singer season 4 #themaskedsinger #celebrities #music #pop culture #tori kelly #chloe kim #taylor dayne #popcorn mask #jellyfish mask #seahorse mask #semifinals

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thebigsimp · 3 years

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Marco x f!reader - how can I live without you ?

SEASON 1 SPOILER !

summary: It's sad, then it's cute but you quickly become sad again because you remember what was sad at the beginning and the end is sad but it's also beautiful I hope

content: Marco spoiler season 1 f!reader/s.o

word counts: 1.3K

tw: death

notes: I swear to god I want to cry every time I think about this shit, he definitely deserved better... btw I didn't read it through since I've wrote it soooo you can totally say it's trash I won't mind, I guess. It's just that it's been a long time since I've posted and it just feels weird to not post still in finals exams tho but I got time to post this just for you if actually someone read it anyway ! hope you enjoy this sad writing.

I Knew Marco and I were made for each other, and now it’s like all of my life is collapsing before my eyes.

When Jean came up to me I knew, I don’t know how but I instantly knew that something was wrong. that Marco was dead.

I tried to convince myself that he would come back at some point and that it was only one sick joke, but he never did, at least alive.

“Hurry y/n we are not getting late again !” Marco was standing against the frame of my door watching me struggling with his teasing smile, knowing that I wasn't paying attention to his words. I’m screwed, I lost the bracelet that Marco gave me for our one year anniversary and we were about to go to a day of training... “wait wait please , I don’t know where I put it Marco and I-” and his laughing now, god If I could listen to his laugh all day long, life would be perfect.

“You know y/n no one is going to see that you don’t have your bracelet...” said Marco walking towards me with is reassuring smile. “This is the one we gave each other Marco I don’t go out without it !”, I was about to curse when we heard our commandant shout the names of the cadets, shit we are really late aren’t we...

“We are in training for the entire day honey, you will find it when we get back home tonight” “but Marco I-” “I’ll help you to find it but we need to go before commandant Sadies find out that we are late, let’s go” he’s right I don’t want to end up like Sasha.

For whatever reason commandant Sadie didn’t say anything when he saw us running in line but instead continued the call up our name, he might be up to something.

“Listen up cadets, today is a very physical day, the training is going to be difficult and you won’t get back here until 11pm, so I hope you got a great sleep because I will need you at 100. I've prepared some groups exercices for todays training, it’s to build your team work assets because for what I saw previously you guys don’t understand the basics of it. I need teams of five ! hurry up so we can start” I take a look at the cadets, I mean he isn’t wrong but everyone seems to focus on getting into the military police, so of course they aren't going to team up. Now I know why they are training us to have great team work, they want us to join the survey corps. But sometimes I can see Mikasa, Armin and Eren helping each other, I mean it's more Mikasa and Armin helping Eren but sure. Reiner and Bertholdt are always together same goes for Christa and Ymir and Connie and Sasha. Jean, Marco and I are quite close as well. We all are close to each other but not as a team like they want...

“ So babe do you want to be with us ?” says Marco “Huh?” Marco, Jean, Connie and Sasha were looking at me waiting for an answer I presume, “Marco isn’t she your girlfriend or something ?” Connie say “Hey but it doesn’t mean that we have to be with each other all the time you know” says Marco looking at me with a teasing smile, Jean snort a little at Marco’s intervention “you guys are literally together every time !” “I know Jean, so babe ?” “I guess we can team up this time” “good”.

The tree others were physically cringing to the conversations Marco and I were having. “ babe you know what we could do right know ?” “what ? honey?” “well we can go somewhere calm and you know cuddles until it’s our turn to go training...” “you guys are so disgusting I swear” “Jean they are literally talking about cuddling” “Sasha, Jean is right, they are disgusting” “oh my fucking god guys cuddling is just cuddling I’m not gonna fuck my girlfriend here” “Wooaaaw Marco your innocence ?!”. If only Jean knew...

At the end of the day, everyone were tired, people were crawling back to their room, some others were going straight to eat, we clearly needed to rest. Marco took me in his arm and carrying me to my room.

“Marco cuddle, cuddle, cuddle” As he was about to exit the room “I need to get you food honey, I’m coming back as soon as I get you some, alright ?” "alright"

that night we just cuddled while talking about our future, our future together.

" y/n I'm about to say something crazy so don't freak out" I looked at him with an amused face "alright Marco say what's on your mind already" Marco pushed a string of hair away from my face with a fond smile before talking again " Well I know we just join the military and that training isn't over, let alone that we havent started fighting against titans and that all of that will probably take a will before we find a way to stop this madness but I'm already thinking of our future" I got up to face him "our future ?" "yes, you and me, living somewhere calm, not far away from our friends but still pretty far so it looks like we are alone together. We can get married, have children, I want a daughter and a son, and we can maybe start a little school together like our parents..." oh yes before the fall of the walls my parents along side Marco parents were proud teachers they dedicated their lives to make sure that we could have the proper education even with those difficult times "I would love that Marco" Marco face light up at my words "we could discover so many things behind those walls and and-" "we will be able to teach something new everyday" Marco smiled at me " you read my mind, I told you we were made for each other" I rolled my eyes before giving a slight punch to his right shoulder "ouch".

"I love you y/n, we will be together trying to navigate life together" "until the end" "until the end are you kidding me even in the other side we will be together" "Marco I was trying to be dramatic" "I know but I just don't like to know that you are thinking of your death like that, you know especially when I'm right here, to protect you" I giggled at is sudden confidence " I know right how can live without you ?" " I don't know it is a miracle that you manage to live to the day we've met" " Marco oh my god haha"

Who would've known that the end of us would happened so quickly.

I miss having you arm around me, I miss seeing your smile every time I say something, I miss the warmth of your body against mine. I miss your wise words. I miss everything.

Jean isn't the same anymore, he saw you laying there lifeless. If they hadn't choose to put me somewhere else I would've been with you, I would've try to save you. I wasn't there when you needed me, I wasn't there when this titan crushed our hopes and destroyed our future.

I know that you would probably want the best for me, you want me to be happy, you want to enjoy my life while I'm still alive. And to be completely honest with you I don't know how it could be possible, but both of know what happened that night when we talk about our future we also made a promise to each other, and I am going to make sure to make you proud from who you are, and when my time is here you'll be happy to see me again, and we will live our future.

#season 1 spoilers #spolier attack on titans #attack on titan #marco bott #it's sad really so if you are triggered don't read it #death

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punkscowardschampions · 4 years

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Venus & Leilani

Venus: Hey girl! 😘😘👋 Leilani: hiya Venus: Awh 🥺😔 how you holding up? Leilani: as expected maybe Leilani: thanks Venus: Of course, so sad! 😥😥😥 Venus: I'm totally here for you, btw Leilani: that's really nice of you Venus: Gurl, of course Venus: I'm a pretty nice person Venus: only to people who deserve it, obviously 💁 Leilani: I'm honoured 😅 Venus: You totally are 🤭 Leilani: 1st exclusive club I've been a part of, for sure Venus: That's honestly even more tragic Venus: oops 🙊 you know what I mean Leilani: 😅 Leilani: yikes Leilani: the tragedies are piling up Venus: What school did you go to before? Leilani: [the name of a school, obvs not a catholic one just standard, are we saying the ruster kids go to a fancy one cos rich and now so does she or are we keeping them #humble?] Venus: [I think you in particular need to go to a standard one to humble yourself, also you aren't smart enough to get in on your own merit so] Venus: I dated a guy who went there Leilani: oh maybe I know him Venus: He was super hot but like, so uncultured Venus: he'd never left Ireland like 🥱🥱 Leilani: I wonder if it's a coincidence that all the uncultured kids go there becos me either yet Venus: WHAT 😱😱😱 Venus: aren't you like, properly African Leilani: I've never been, I was born here Venus: oh my God that's WILD Venus: bless you Leilani: bless my parents for wanting me to have a different life, I suppose Venus: I'm in Paris as often as I can because of my daddy but we go somewhere sunny practically monthly, when the school isn't being extra 🙄 Venus: it's the only reason I stick around, honestly 😂 Leilani: he's french or he just lives there? Venus: He's American, he teaches at this AMAZING college there Venus: he's lived loads of UHMAZING places but Paris is his base now and definitely the best Leilani: what kind of accent does he have? Venus: he was from some middle of nowhere town like this, but in the US Venus: so he had to get out to live his best life Leilani: sounds like he is Venus: Totally 😘😘 Venus: he's the smartest person in his field, like EVERYONE has to go to him to know what to do Venus: hence I can't live with him because he's ALWAYS working 😩 Venus: I told him I was cool with it but he's SUPER protective of me so I have to stay here 🤷 Leilani: I know what that's like, my mum was the same Leilani: protective workaholic Venus: Poor you getting thrown into this mess Venus: ugh Leilani: Grace isn't that bad 😅 Leilani: more of a workaholic maybe but less OTT protective Venus: I guess not Venus: did you know she got stood up at the altar though Venus: would you not just lay down and DIE Leilani: me & my mum were there Leilani: so yeah Venus: 🙈 cringe Venus: we were all there honey, I can't Leilani: your bridesmaids dress was gorgeous though Venus: she can enjoy those photos 💁 Leilani: I think it'll be a long time before she's looking back at the album Leilani: longer than it's been atm Venus: DUH 😂 Venus: they'll be in the 🔥 if she's got any sense Leilani: she did re-sell her dress so maybe Venus: LOL I hope she advertised it as cursed or that woman gonna be 😤 Leilani: I'm sure she worked out why it was listed once she picked it up & saw that Grace's weight hadn't dramatically gone up or down Venus: getting dumped at the altar is next-level bad juju though it's not like she just got too excited Venus: I'd be so pissed Venus: have to sage that SO HARD Leilani: I'd be happy I got a bargain Venus: yeah, nothing says happiest day of your life like that Leilani: getting into debt for it would personally ruin the mood but you know Venus: Don't have a wedding you can't afford, obvs Leilani: yeah ideally Venus: like you can't live above your station that's just basic rules of life Venus: in all areas, tbh, not just funds Venus: like look what happened Leilani: you think he was out of her league? Venus: I can't even remember what he looked like tbh Venus: but clearly the baggage was too much regardless of how fine or not fine he was Leilani: clearly he has his own issues to do something like that Venus: Doubt it Venus: he could've bounced sooner but he still did the right thing 😂 Leilani: he should've said or done what he needed to do before it got to the altar Leilani: he had time, she was planning the wedding for like a year Leilani: maybe longer Venus: whatever, he clearly felt SO trapped by the psychoness Venus: we all know what was up Leilani: what was up was that he didn't have enough balls for the convo Venus: the defence squad is so real, chill out babes Venus: it happened, she took that L, end of story Leilani: It's unfair to blame her for him wanting out & doing it in the most cowardly way is all Leilani: she didn't deserve to be treated like that Venus: that's life, babe Venus: it's not fair Venus: if she couldn't see that coming that's on her Venus: what kind of unobservant head ass person you gotta be Venus: like I'd KNOW if my man was not feeling me 🥴🥴 Leilani: I didn't know him, I can't judge it Leilani: but I didn't foresee my dad walking out & neither did my mum Venus: big YIKES 😬 Leilani: & your dad didn't think your mum would end up keeping you Leilani: some things you can't see coming or don't want to Venus: You mean her breaking a contract? Venus: yeah, it should be illegal Venus: and you don't know what my dad knew or didn't know actually Venus: she literally took advantage of the fact he wasn't legally protected and desperately wanted me Venus: like, your point? 🤷 Leilani: my point is, dragging Grace is pretty rude Venus: She's had worse happen, as you've mentioned 🥺💔 Venus: I think she'll get over it Venus: that's if you even bothered to tell her which would be so petty, honestly Leilani: you don't know what he told her or didn't or how it affected her Leilani: maybe she won't get over it Venus: 🥱 Venus: your mom literally just died, like Venus: people have real problems, you should be the one preaching that Leilani: thanks for bringing it back up, it had slipped my mind Venus: do you like, not want to talk about her ??? Leilani: atm I don't want you to talk about Grace how you are Leilani: she's the person who's in my corner, looking after me Leilani: so yeah, I've got her back & I don't care if you think it's extra Venus: I'll talk about her however I want Venus: you're grieving and I'm trying to be nice and let you talk about it, but like, catch me letting you police me and my opinion Venus: not today, not ever, honey Leilani: say whatever you like once you've gotten away from me Leilani: I'm not trying to hear it & if I do I'm not letting it pass through unchecked Venus: As if I want to be having this conversation with you right now Venus: 😬 bigger yikes Venus: catch me trying to make you welcome at school, seriously Leilani: I can settle myself in without your help Venus: yeah, your personality is like, A++ Venus: 👏 good luck with the amount of invites you'll HAVE to turn down, damn, sis Leilani: maybe it's the grief, maybe I just don't like your personality Leilani: make up your own mind Venus: I truly do not have the time to worry about you or what you're doing Venus: you continue to think up all those what-ifs though, that's cool Venus: can be your thing Leilani: next time that it slips my mind that my mother is dead, I'm sure your opinion of me will be right there at the front Venus: okay, word of advice, milking the whole sympathy thing is not going to get you far in the long run Venus: it'll get old faster than he was running the opposite way down that altar Leilani: I don't need advice from someone who's never been here Venus: 🙄 sure babes Venus: that's some USP Leilani: it's really not Leilani: there's a really big group of us Venus: So like, get over it Venus: the levels you can't get away with being a rude ass hoe just because something bad happened to you Venus: toxicity off the charts Leilani: when I do it won't be to make you feel more comfortable Leilani: the levels it's not your place to tell me how to be when we've just met Venus: I'm not the one telling you what to say though, sis, soooooo 💁 Venus: clearly not the one who's uncomfortable am I Leilani: I said I'm not going to listen to you badmouth Grace, you can take it anywhere else & I can't stop you Venus: why are you so pressed 😂 Venus: is she checking your messages to make sure you're #grateful enough Venus: damn, ok, Angelina Jolie Leilani: I like her Leilani: that's enough reason to not want to hear it Venus: Awh Venus: big love Leilani: sure thing Leilani: I'm a big joke to you, okay then Venus: if you feel you've acted a fool, that's on you Venus: I'm unphased by this mess Leilani: no, you're trying to treat me like one, it's a very different thing Leilani: I'm not entertained or entertaining it Venus: Hoe, where??? Venus: Honestly, I'm SO curious 🤔 Venus: I offered you support and a space to talk about your mom and you've just been nothing but combative, honestly Leilani: telling me to get over it isn't supportive Venus: I'm not gonna not keep it 💯 Venus: and don't twist my words or the situation Venus: I said that was how other people would feel if you came at it all with this attitude Leilani: you have no idea where my attitude is coming from becos we don't know each other like that Venus: Why would I put my time and energy on you when you treat me like that? Venus: using your past as an excuse for bad behaviours now, no ma'am Venus: not in this house Leilani: you said I'm milking the sympathy thing when you're the one assuming everything I said here is a grief reaction Leilani: maybe I'm serving you attitude becos it's deserved Venus: so you're just like this Venus: weird flex then, babe 🤷 Venus: the luck I put out there is even more warranted Venus: cuss me out for giving you the benefit of the doubt about your foolishness, chile... Leilani: the disrespect towards your own family & entitlement you have towards being that way is what's getting you cussed out Venus: and I'm the one making assumptions Venus: 😂 Venus: Grace told you some tea and you think you're in the know now Venus: 👌👌👌 keep on that hype, waste your energy Leilani: it's all been expressed in your own words, barely sentences into this convo Leilani: your assumption was that I'd be eager to join in Venus: No, honey Venus: your assumption is that I consider them to be my family Venus: and your tone policing is literally not welcome anywhere near me Leilani: they consider you to be theirs, it should be enough of a reason not to treat them how you are Leilani: hell, human decency is that Venus: Like I said, hilarious you think you are educated on it Venus: let alone enough to lecture ME Venus: I literally got kidnapped by my father's surrogate and his partner, her brother was too cowardly to do anything about it? Venus: miss me with this nonsense, you're the one stressing on this family Venus: they love a stray, they'll accept you sis, it's all blessed Leilani: I know Grace loves you & she would never use any of your misfortunes as a way to amuse herself or anyone else, so that's what I'm speaking on Leilani: the rest is your business Venus: that's her choice? Venus: the levels I don't concern myself with what people say on me Venus: you sound mad paranoid, that's no way to live, girl Leilani: again, your advice on how I should live is unwelcome Venus: THE HYPOCRISY Venus: are you being satirical now, oh my GOD Venus: I am creased 😷😷😷😷💀 Venus: I will say whatever I want about any sad case in that family, and I can laugh at their tragic life choices, and there's 0 to be said or done about it by anyone, least of all you Venus: if they were living better lives, they'd be unphased, if they ain't, who's fault is that really, look inside not @ me Leilani: don't bring it to my door & think it won't get closed in your face, that's what has been said already Venus: 💔💔 dying to be BFFs, obviously Venus: as has been said, my kindness has been thrown in my face, that's your karma Venus: I'm good Leilani: if you think that's kindness you have your own coming Venus: SIS, focus 👏 on 👏 your 👏 own Venus: your life is super sad Venus: it won't get any better wishing ill on me Venus: 🙏 on your own karma and demons, I don't have everything but I am GRATEFUL for what I do have Venus: I'm still out here trying to help you, even though you've literally cussed me out and put lies on my name ??? Venus: point fingers at your own evils Leilani: thanks for pointing out all the necessary work I need to do Leilani: but you have your own Venus: 😂😂😂 and you get to tell me because? Venus: I've evidenced all the work I DO do Venus: you're still sat here being petty Venus: couldn't be me, God bless though Leilani: I'm grateful for what I have too & part of that is gratitude I'm not you or needing to be around you if this is how it is Venus: 😬 that's so dark-sided I feel really terrible for you Venus: you can be grateful for your good without pointing out other people's bad Venus: lowkey that's kinda the point Venus: go do some charity work ASAP, work out those thoughts and all the negative they attract in your life Leilani: I'm already the charity case as you see it but okay Venus: oof Venus: the self-pity Venus: you really think you're so, so down-trodden you can't do ANYTHING to help your fellow man? Leilani: you think I am, I can't voice what I think unless I speak directly over you atm Venus: I don't allow words to be put into my mouth Venus: not by you, not by the devil Venus: offering friendship does not imply anything about you, but a lot about my character Venus: it's actually very sad you can't see that and have to take it so negatively Venus: no wonder your life is where it is Leilani: the only thing I took negatively is what you said about Grace, how quickly you withdrew your offer of friendship becos I disagreed with you about her is what says things about you Venus: Okay, so my offer is withdrawn because SEVERAL times in this short conversation, you've attempted to tell me what I THINK, what I SAY and what I DO Venus: and no, I can't have that kind of negativity around me, my protection of myself is more important than making myself a conduit for whatever ill you're trying to spread by tone policing so violently Venus: charity has to have limits or it can get twisted by people who seek to abuse it Venus: I have to go on my instincts with this one, I am not one to ignore red flags Leilani: I'm not a charity case & you're not better than me, there's my limit Leilani: I don't want your pity dressed up as friendship & I definitely don't have room for your smugness & condescension Venus: You have to ask yourself, where this inferiority complex really comes from Venus: I've not said or implied I'm better than you, so why do you feel that so strongly you have to attack my personality to convince yourself of the fact I'm actually, much, much worse than you Venus: I'm really sad for you 😥 I wish there was something I could do but that's inner work 🙏 Leilani: you literally called me a stray, so maybe that's where I got it Leilani: not to mention how ready you are to bring up every perceived flaw in my character but also call them evils as if that's a word to be casually thrown around Venus: It's truly not about you Venus: self-obsession is a sign that you're not putting in the work Venus: a happy person does not think about themselves constantly, or think EVERYONE else is too 🙄 Venus: your behaviour towards me has been flawed and it DOES signal troubling thought patterns Venus: I'm well within my right to comment on them Venus: if you think I'm wrong, you'll have no issue continuing as you are Leilani: I'm not a happy person & I am having troubling thought patterns but that's not about you Leilani: you came into this convo knowing that & what it was about Venus: I really don't think it's cool to blame your problems on your mom's passing Leilani: I'm not feeling very cool about anything atm sorry Venus: I hope you get there 🙏🙏😘 Leilani: thanks Venus: I'll see you at school then 💓 Leilani: yeah

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