Do we think Kaveh is a "Lean on the wrong spot and everything comes crumbling down" architect or a "you could take a wrecking ball to the wall and the paint wouldn't even chip" architect?

the fact that he spends all his time grooming kids into believing they're mature enough to consent and then turns around to condescend to them about how young and stupid they are and how they actually don't understand anything makes my fucking blood boil. i need to kill him

my greatest achievement in DA2 is maxing out Carver's friendship

and all it took was begrudgingly kissing a little templar ass in act 1 because Carver didn't want to plan a prison break if my Hawke got his ass arrested for being stupid.

If Nurf ever does ONE horrible thing or ever so slightly CONSIDERS hurting Preston in the new episodes i'm going to projectile vomit and gouge my eyes out the ENTIRE REASON HE WENT TO CAMP WAS TO BE BETTER WHY IS HE THE ONLY ONE THATS HASN'T GOTTEN BETTER WH-

for everyone playing along at home wriggle up on dry land chapter eight is about 10.5k now and i took a detour into thinking about ted and beard and ted's fascinating combo of emotional intelligence and massive blind spot when it comes to his own feelings and i have no idea how it turned out or if it's gonna land but i AM having fun

honest question, fellas. do y'all think johnny may have seen the shrek movies? at least the first one? i mean shrek 1 was added to the list of movies to be preserved for future generations so... and if he did see it do y'all think he feels like a donkey involuntarily following a shrek (v) or like a shrek forced to follow around a donkey (v) because they know the way to the duloc castle (mikoshi)? does johnny also at some point bring up the layers hypothesis? cause i'm pretty sure he has layers upon freaking layers to peel off like a monster onion. and would he consider alt a fiona since she's a kidnapped princess stuck in a tower (beyond blackwall)? or the dragon because she also guards the thing? would he make a "compensating for something" comment about yorinobu since he's in a big boy arasaka tower now? 🤔 anyways, i think i need to stop now

thank you for bearing with my purgatory posting and i'm also glad to see i'm not the only one who still has this fungus eating away at my brain matter. seeing other purgatory posting in the tag makes me feel better lmfao.

i'm not done btw, posting will (probably) continue as i revisit vods. wanted to extend a thanks in the interim, since i know how contentious the event was in the moment. i kinda thought the general consensus was most people hated thinking about it, but there's been a weird amount of engagement and yknow other people talking. makes me happy to know i'm not alone here!

might as well throw in some pingxie thoughts while i’m at it

i have. many things to say about pingxie. but on the subject of reducing relationships to one dimensional tropes specifically, it does them just as much of a disservice.

my favorite variation of pingxie is in the books (very shocking i know, although that’s technically the original them and not a variation), and by comparison to what’s shown in the dramas (which are fun and self-indulgent don’t get me wrong), the books are the slowest of slow burns. never forget we see everything in them from wu xie’s pov exclusively (at least the main entries), so we can only infer xiaoge’s own growth and development from what wu xie sees of it, but it very much exists.

wu xie has a complicated opinion of xiaoge in the earlier books, mostly because he doesn’t quite know what to make of this man who looks younger than he is and completely blows him off on their first meeting (blows everyone off in fact) much to his displeasure, which leads to the initially derogatory nickname ‘menyouping’, and yet is also vastly competent and knowledgeable. he’s cold and indifferent, yet wu xie feels safe around him and trusts him more than he likely should from the get go, mostly because wu xie’s good at reading people’s intentions and character on an instinctive level he doesn’t always manage to rationalize early on. he’s fascinated and would like to know him better, but also finds him deeply unfathomable, even incomprehensible.

and then you have xiaoge, who it merits saying, is repeatedly described as largely indifferent to most things (and he genuinely is), doing what he deems necessary but otherwise not bothering to involve himself with other people or social niceties. this is a man who spends his time off to the side sleeping or contemplating the sky, and yet in the space of four books he goes from not giving two shts about wu xie (or more than he would the average person) to voluntarily interacting with him, siding with him in quiet ways, helping him through unspoken little acts all the way up until a turning point wherein he first tries to keep his distance from wu xie en route to tamutuo in an effort to keep him from getting further involved than he already is in dangerous things he has no concept of, except by then he’s shown enough uncharacteristic interest in wu xie that wu xie notices he's being cold and distant. this all culminates in the infamous moment where xiaoge eventually lets himself act on thoughts he’s likely never fully analyzed himself, let alone shared with another person, leading to the “if i disappeared no one would notice” moment. 

and from there all the way until post ten years later and into things like yucun biji, the reality is that pingxie were never the serious immortal and the dorky clumsy mortal boy he adopts, nor are they the vulnerable strong one and the eventual protector, or any other trope variation really. pingxie are two people who at the start stand on opposite sides of a line neither of them were ever meant to cross, and to all intents and purposes should never have met for how very different the worlds they come from are. they’re people that circumstance threw together who chose to stay together, and keep choosing each other. they don’t need each other to exist, and could have gone their separate ways had they wanted to, but the importance of their relationship lies in that they stay together by active choice, and that in doing so, they meet in the middle.

wu xie matures and comes to understand a number of things through hardship while xiaoge is behind the gate that untether him just enough from the world that xiaoge isn’t quite so unfathomable anymore, while xiaoge comes down from his imposed pedestal just enough that he tethers himself to wu xie (and pangzi) and learns to live rather than exist

neither of them became a different person for the other, and the core of their relationship (and the beauty of it) is in the harmony and understanding they eventually achieve. reducing all of that to archetypes is honestly a little tragic

Some random Daisuke/Daikari headcanons + hopes(?) for 02TB (I haven't seen the movie yet so no spoilers please):

-during the Odaiba Fog incident, Daisuke was the only kid in line not crying as he was paraded in front of Tailmon - and even tried to fight Vamdemon himself in order to protect his family (only to have his ass beat ofc, thus leading to his feelings of wanting to become stronger in order to save others in the spring 2003 drama CD ;()

-if 02TB follows a similar story to Bamboo Leaf Rhapsody from The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya, it'd be cute/ironic if lil' Hikari develops a crush on the "mysterious cool oniichan with sunglasses" and completely ignores Ken even if it hurts my childhood Kenkari heart

honestly something that is more annoying than "that character would not fucking say that" or "i'm assigning you to actually look at the source material again" type headcanons are when you come across a headcanon where there is nothing technically wrong with it and you can't sit there and say "well you just don't get this like i do" because there is no actual solid evidence that whatever they're saying can't be the case, but it still feels like mischaracterization because of your own way too intense headcanons. and you're aware of that so you just have to sit there silently telling yourself "that is just as valid a read of the character as my interpretation :)" and trying not to go ham because you know you have genuinely no justification for feeling like canon is being ignored

Everyone is out here theorising that Jacob Hopkins will kidnap or attack the witches or join forces with not-so-dead-Belos. And don't get me wrong, I fully agree, dude is an antagonist and he kinda sucks, but can you imagine - Hunter, having seen the statue of the Wittebane's wants to find out more about them and thus visits the Gravesfield Historical Society. The witch kids haven't been in Gravesfield for long enough for the incident with Jacob to have come up yet, so he has no reason to avoid the building and/or the curator in question. Also, as long as he wears a hat, he does look human, so- Jacob Hopkins, recently humiliated but otherwise neither charged nor harmed, finds a scrungly looking teenager at the front desk. Jacob assumes the guy is here to ask for more game cards - they're out of stock - and is ready to send him on his way, but instead the boy shyly asks about the founders of the town. Jacob is startled, but pleasantly surprised, and a short conversation later, where Jacob has only shared some basics, the teenager is still there! and eager to learn! Slowly but surely, Jacob starts giving him a tour of their exhibits, shares all the tidbits and anecdotes. The teenager flinches when Jacob mentions witch-hunts and stares at the town crest for a solid thirty seconds with an expression so heartbroken Jacob doesn't even say anything about the clear drift in attention. The teenager remains polite and reserved, asking clarifying questions, but always in strange or round-about ways. Jacob does his best to answer any and all enquiries with his usual enthusiasm, and it must be working because well, the kid's still here, isn't he? "Why do you want to know all this, anyway? School project?", Jacob asks, an hour into the tour. The teenager doesn't meet his eyes, hasn't for a good while of the tour, really. "Something like that. I just... recently moved here. Wanted to figure out some of the... town history I guess. I don't know much about, uhh, local history? Yeah, so. Sorry, if I, uh, was wasting your time." And well, Jacob can't have that, encouraging the local youth to learn about their anchestors IS his job, after all, even if it's not his most important calling. And also, Jacob can't be sure, of course, the teen is being dodgy at best, but he thinks he can spot a fellow lonely nerd. The move must have been hard, judging by the eye-bags, and the scars speak for themselves. Bullying, probably. Either way, Jacob has found a kindred soul, and if he can make the life of one teen a little less miserable, and instill some respect for history? He doesn't even have to think about the offer, when they are done with their tour, almost closing time, and the teen is eyeing a shelf of books in a corner of the building. "Feel free to come back tomorrow, if you want to learn more, or learn about history in general, or just... need a quiet space to hangout. Not that many people come by here these days, anyways." And the kid - Hunter, he introduced himself - nods and almost smiles. "Thank you, I appreciate the offer, I think I will." Anyway and that's how Hunter became a flat-earther for week before Luz and Co nipped that in the bud hard.

Watching the death note musical and man, I just want to give Light some tea and terrible unlicenced therapy.

i mightve sent smth like this already. can't remember tbh. but like. cough syrup is prolly the first fic i've read with a psychotic character who isn't just. written weirdly? like. idk how to explain it. cs!ranboo just seems. so human?? which was and still is really comforting. bc i read cough syrup a bit after i kinda. started coming to terms with the fact that i'm prolly. psychotic to some extent. and like. i'm just some lanky dude who shops off the hot topic clearance rack. and cs!ranboo's like that too. and. idk. where i was going with this. but yeah. thank u for cough syrup it makes me feel human

it was around chapter 8 or 9, i think, when i had talked to my therapist about some issues i was having and she told me it could have been stress induced illusions. that later snow-balled rapidly into depression-linked psychosis, and then into just psychosis, since y'know, i started writing cough syrup in the tail-end of my psychotic break early 2021. took me a lot longer to realize that's what that had been, though.

and y'know i had intended to make cs!ranboo struggle with psychosis at some capacity, since that just fit c!ranboo's character, but it became a lot more personal to me at that point. cs!ranboo was the only place i felt i could talk about these delusions and all this shit i was dealing with, and in all the times i was sobbing because i had lost so much to this perceived failure of my mind, i thought that maybe i could write this character who has the same issues as me, getting a chance to be happy. to find people that love him, who will stay by him, who he could find some kind of stabilizing and lasting peace with.

in a lot of ways, though i bitch now about having to write his chapters, cs!ranboo was my way of coping with a lot of things i was going through. and you know i was actually scared of posting it at a certain point, because it feels so fucking vulnerable. you don't really see a lot of psychotic characters in media that aren't stereotyped, oftentimes written by non psychotic people following a checklist and inevitably messing up somewhere because they're being careless and then find themselves creating this caricature. i don't ever claim that my writing is perfect or good or without flaws, but at the very least my portrayals are genuine in some sense, that i'm using experience and research and both combined to guide it.

i think one of the best things to ever come out of cough syrup is people finding comfort in the characters. so many people found solidarity with cs!tubbo from the beginning, and that grew into projecting things onto him that i'm happy to accept because hell they're not just my characters, they're characters i'm sharing with you all. but what gets me is how many people find comfort in cs!ranboo, like you, because i was so worried about casting that light on everything and am so glad now that i did it.

it's incredibly fucking important to me that the characters i write feel like people. cs!tubbo isn't just an addict, he's a teen who likes checking on NASA's annual halloween-themed posters and who only gets extremely competitive when playing Wii sports games and creates all these associations in his head and fucking sucks at making paper cranes but does them anyway as a love language. cs!tommy isn't just an abuse victim, he's a teen who's favorite color is red and half his clothes are like that and he knows all the cool parks and shops in town and he loves walking around and finding more places and he likes superheroes and animal crossing.

and cs!ranboo isn't just his psychosis, he's a teen that likes baking but hates having to bake cupcakes and will complain about that, and he likes taking photos of other people and hanging onto them for a while, and he likes the idea of falling in love but is a little clumsy with it, and he has a questionable fashion sense but it makes him feel comfortable, and he likes english class but hates chemistry

and all i hope to do is show that (1) these characters' lives are affected by their struggles, but it's not all they are as people (2) you are deserving of love and WILL be loved no matter what you struggle through (3) if you connect to any of the cast, hi i love you you're going to make it you're going to be happy.

sorry for the long tangent. i just - this ask made me feel really happy. because hearing this, that people can find some connection with cough syrup? it's all i've ever wanted. if i hear that then i have a reason to keep writing it, i have a reason to fight through annoying ass chapters and the whole lot of it.

wishing you the best anon. thank you for sharing this with me.

yet another post in my critically unacclaimed "parallels between dghda and mp100" series, this time on the topic: claw security guard guy & lieutenant assistent are literally the same breed of guy

a very minor background character with maybe 10 minutes of screentime total

in fact, *so* minor that he doesn't even have a name (i don’t know if "yoshioka mamoru" is a surprisingly consistent headcanon that everyone agreed upon, or some fanbook tidbit, or what, but the wiki has only one sentence about him and refers to him as "nameless guard", so *shrugs*. as for lt. assistent, he was only named "michael" in the scripts, but that detail never made its way to production; so, if we only look towards the hard canon of the 18 total episodes of the show, the guy doesn't even have a canonical first name)

the same kind of unassuming design: little guy, black hair short black hair, dark official worksuit

the same role in the plot! a member of an evil organization that threatens protagonists, but on a very low, "grunt" level (security guard for an esper terrorist organization / lieutenant at a CIA human experimentation project), whose involvement in the plot plays a small, but instrumental role in the overthrowing of said organization (allows dimple to kick ass / leads dirk to francis' room)

doesn't have any canon personality to speak of, but is commonly headcanoned to be timid/shy/anxious

only has a tiny handful of fans, but nearly each of them is sososo obsessed with the guy it makes up for small numbers

main source of fandom popularity is the ship with the series' most eligible gay bachelor (yoshioka with reigen, mike with dirk)

the popularity of said ship is at least partially due to creators' endorcement (bones kept including dimple!yoshioka in promotional art / l*ndis' instagram post about assistent/dirk romance plans for s3)

the smaller, but Very dedicated subset of the guy's fans is there a little bit less for the shipping and more for holding him in their hands and going "he's SO fucking eepy......."; they produce most of the headcanons

they're twinsies ✌️

as i look at job listings here in korea, i cant help but still dream of that private lesson life. like, every job here will still expect you to teach 6 classes a day 5 days a week, for like a maximum wage of 2.4 million won per month. i could make twice that teaching that many classes in a private lesson setting, and i could easily make the SAME wage and just work less (ideal scenario)

SPARKLEZ!

You wouldn't believe the things I've seen. Or maybe you would. What do I know?

Worlds upon worlds of wonder have embraced my many selves. I'm living a thousand lives at once. And those are just the lives I'm aware of. For instance, in a place called Middle Earth I am reborn a beautiful elf queen. And under the ice shield of a moon called Europa I am a strand of plankton. And in a world we both know well, I'm a bunch of little girls who look just like me, and maybe other things too... Anyway, my umbrella consciousness has reformed for just a moment; my caretaker, in his mercy, has allowed me to show you these things.

But you definitely won't believe the most amazing thing I've seen. Lately I've been looking through a window... A window into bygone years. A man sits in front of a screen, speaking his soul to the world while playing a game. I think I know who he is!

I see this man forming friendships with those who also speak to the world. I know who they are too. They project themselves as tiny box figures into a world made of boxes. It's so much less detailed than the world where the man and his friends sit. I would not have known Ruxomar and it's sister dimensions to be so childlike in appearance except by this contrast!

The days go on as the friends play. The boxlike world is ruled by two gods. Of course I know who they are. The man is faced with a choice between the two. His life is riddled with choices! And like the stubborn idealist he is, he carves out a middle path. He'll take neither god. He'll have a goddess all to his own.

He created me.

A man named Jordan Maron created the goddess Ianite in a world beyond worlds. And Jordan Maron looks just like you. He is one of your countless alternate selves. He looks so much less boxy! I think that if I did not already know you and Spark so well, I would call him my favorite version.

Now I grasp the truth I have been seeking all my life. I have see what is above gods. It is ____________.

My umbrella consciousness won't hold much longer. Let me say a few choice words before the final goodbye between this version of you and this version of me. Thank you for choosing to create me. I believe that had the other you not made that choice in that far off world, none of my present selves would exist. In a strange sense, you are my god. Thank you for believing in your creation enough to make it real. Thank you for continuing to love me and make choices for my wellbeing. I hope another you loves another me in another world soon.

If Jordan looks out the window one of these days, he might be able to see me.

Not even creeping. Just fyi.

Forever Your Lady