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Okay, this post was sitting in my drafts for a while and at first, I wanted to wait til the arc (and season) is over so I could talk about it properly, along with some other things. But I guess now is the perfect timing. Well, what's the topic?

It's the way the (eng) fandom sees Yuhi. Because damn, this guy seems like the most hated character of the show rn when I look around the internet.

I remember during season 1, people would be meh about him because he wasn't as cool/strong/smart as Yuamu and Yudias. He was the "weak one" of the trio, "too childish/silly compared to his twin sister" with a lame looking deck aka uninteresting and people waited for the writers "to do something with him" so he would be up with the other two.

Then season 2 comes and Yuhi gets more focus. He's a bit smarter, his dueling improved too. People who were meh about him at first suddenly started to like him better. But with this change, other people would come to hate him.

The major reason I see people hating on Yuhi now is for him "taking away" screentime/focus/relevance of Yuamu and sometimes Yudias too. And I wonder: Why do you hate the character and not the writers for that? Ngl, I like Yuhi a lot but I totally understand people wishing that Yuamu got the same treatment as him or was at least a bit more involved. I mean it does suck to see how barely she matters when even other girls like Asaka and Yuna do more/get more focused episodes than the freaking main girl. Doesn't help either how Yuamu is just absent on the season 3 poster. Some assume she could be the next big bad but if not.. where is she? Would the writers really just "write her out" for a while? If that was the case, it would just mean that more people would get pissed at Yuhi. Because then, there is just one Ohdo twin so he will get more attention than before.

There's now the arc final duel against Yuga and yeah, it's Yuhi dueling him and not Yudias. I can understand being annoyed or disappointed about this decision but again, instead of just hating Yuhi for this, why not be pissed how the writers don't let Yudias duel Yuga? Like what is stopping them to let Yudias face him? Tbh, I still think there's this little chance of when Monster Reborn gets activated in ep 101, something happens with Yuhi so Yudias has to take over for him. Similar to how Luke took over for Yuga once. It's maybe not much but better than having him not involved at all?

Ngl, while I'm curious how season 2 will end and season 3 will play out with the new antags, I'm not looking forward to see one of my favorite characters keep getting hated for things he's not responsible for because the writers can't manage to give other characters some attention and relevance too. Like I really want to see more people questioning the writers (because they didn't just screw up when it comes to Yuamu just existing or Yudias getting barely proper protagonist time, there are more problems and Idk how some people can't admit that but still say the writing is great) than just go "I hate Yuhi so much" and act like he's the sole source of evil when he's not.

Salvage Showcase: Blue Ink AKA Shinobu Togami

Now it's probably no lie to say that Danganronpa Togami is probably the most controversial to disliked entry in the Danganronpa Spin-off universe. Its earned a reputation in the fandom that, for the small few who know about it, for being utterly bizarre to the point that many write it off as being non-canon.

So one can imagine that when doing it for my Showcases, I’m also under a bit of pressure on how I should approach this. In my view, DRT isn’t nearly as bad as people think it is (that honor goes to Killer Killer) and deserves at least a fair shot against its criticisms and some misunderstandings about it. Of course, there’s quite the snag when talking about its original cast. Or rather, the fact that a good chunk of the major cast are essentially crossover characters from Yuya Sato’s Kagami Family Saga series and even then, when you also include those made (likely) for DRT, well, let’s just say they have quite the limited shelf life in the trilogy which makes talking about them pretty hard. Add together a few having some...baggage, and picking the first one just became an ordeal.

So after a lot of mulling over, I decided it was probably best to do the first Showcase on the series protagonist - Blue Ink, better known in the fandom by her name of Shinobu Togami. Primarily because she is the easiest to get a clear understanding of and, of the major developed originals, has less of that ‘baggage’.

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....Also this would be the part where I post a character’s image but, well, she doesn’t have one. The DRT trilogy doesn’t have illustrations for the cast desgins so...I guess this shot of her Borges works? Sorta?

DISCLAIMER: The following is talking about a character with history of SA. If this might make you uncomfortable, its probably best to overlook this one. I try not to mention it too much, but just to give you all a head’s up.

Summary

Blue Ink is a girl that is enrolled in Hope’s Peak Academy as the Ultimate Secretary and apart of its 77th class batch. Not only that she is the official secretary of Byakuya Togami, being responsible for writing his autobiography: Journey Under The Midnight Sun.

When the Despair Novel caused riots to break out all over the world, Byakuya was called by the Council of Global Controllers, an organization that truly ran the world, to help discuss what the fate of the world should be. Blue Ink was invited as his secretary to attend. However, what neither knew was that Sonia Nevermind, who was a member of Despair High School (AKA Ultimate Despair), had told of the location of the meeting which was in the Church of Bones in Prague. As a result, DHS operatives stormed the building, killing everyone by Byakuya (who got knocked out and clothes stolen off of him aside form his glasses), Blue Ink (who carried him to safety) Sonia (who wasn’t there) and Mukuro (who was there because she was a bodguard for one of the members...but like, he died so she kinda just left).

From there the World Domination Proclamation, started by the the Ultimate Imposter begins. The world has 24 hours to find either the pitful cattle in the world or kill Byakuya Togami. Failures results in ‘Byakuya’ taking over the world. This leads into a chaotic frenzy that has Blue Ink try and survive the bonkers event about to unfold with her Master and whatever allies that they can scrounge as literally everyone wants Byakuya, either dead or captured.

However, not everything is at it seems. First, its revealed that Blue Ink is really Shinobu Togami, older sister to Byakuya Togami via adoption. In addition, her full-blooded older brother is the Ultimate Hitman, Suzuhiko Otsuki, and both were participants in the Legacy Crown Championship. Or rather survivors of that incident.

According to memories of that incident, Shinobu was a part of fifteen participants meant to compete in the LCC to become the new heir to the Togami Congolomerate. In order to win, one must obtain the ‘reliance’ during the ten day time limit. The one who wins gets to become the new heir, while the losers are stripped of the name Togami and meant to go about normal lives. During the LCC, Shinobu isn’t just competing with Suzuhiko and the others, but with her younger adopted brother, Kazuya. Kazuya was adopted after Suzuhiko’s first hit job had him slaughter an entire village, but Kazuya, who was left alive by pure accident. But, things go awry as the participants start getting killed mysteriously one by one and the clashing of selfish personalities aiming for the throne is felt throughout the entire time.

The truth? As it turns out Kazuya was responsible for the majority of the murders, some in self-defense and others because the power had gotten to him. Due to a ‘strange power’ that he had -  a light saber from his hand. This is revealed to an injured Shinobu...all whilst Kazuya ‘loved’ her wounded body. Indeed, Shinobu (with Kazuya being recent during the LCC) has been on the brunt of being sexually abused by both her brothers, more of the case with Suzuhiko, who claims what they have is ‘love’ and they were together. A confusing matter pushed aside by Takaya Togami, the final antagonistic sibling who seeks to be the last sibling standing by lighting the castle on fire and hoping the others burn to death. During this, Suzuhiko carries out an unconscious Shinobu out of the castle...

Shinobu awakens outside the castle tended to by the winner of the event: Byakuya Togami, who disguised himself as Suisei Nanamura’s girl assistant: Polaris  P. Polanski. Concerning the other participants, they’re dead, except Kazuya and Suzuhiko, who have disappeared. With nowhere else to go, Shinobu passes Byakuya’s test to become his new assistant, thanks to her inability to care for Hope or Despair for her future. Thus, he has her remain in the family as his secretary and big sister. The wounds she recieved in the LCC cost her one of her arms, which replaced with a prosthetic, and an eye. For the eye, she received a gold mechanical one that she calls Borges. Borges can give her news, be a dictionary, and just in general be a hi-tech little assistant that she uses for her autobiography of Byakuya. As for her brothers, Suzuhiko reconnected with the Togamis as their hitman on standby (before he defected during the WDP) and Kazuya would reveal himself to be alive and apart of WHO as Orvin Elevator, Captain of the Infectious Disease Prevention Unit during the WDP. Both serving as antagonists that want Byakuya dead, to be with Blue Ink, and, well for Kazuya at least, desire to become Byakuya Togami. Something that Shinobu doesn’t want to make happen.

But...something is off about the entire ordeal. At least, Shinobu’s perspective of it is off. For example, the LCC she knew of...didn’t match up with another LCC where she recalled both her and Byakuya working together. Also, whenever she mentioned something like the Hasegawa Institute people seemed confused by what she was talking about or why she was referring to them as a completely different title. What was going on?

In truth, from a conversation with the creator behind Borges and its AI, a man known as K, she learns that Borges itself had been showing Shinobu unreality. By feeding into Shinobu’s desire to see Byakuya as a God, as well as taking characters and ideas from various novels, like the Kagami Family Saga, Borges had been showing her fake conversations, information, memories, and even overlaying real people in real time with characters from those novels. It isn’t until Borges is destroyed prior to talking with K that Shinobu has the chance to gradually experience the truth of her situation. To forge her own path without the aid of Borges and even giving up her Ultimate talent.

But that wasn’t the end. During the climax of the WDP, where she finally reunites with Byakuya (who had been hiding out in Prague Castle with the Imposter), she learns the full truth: she...wasn’t Shinobu Togami, the original ‘died’ in the true LCC. She was the Kudan that people were seeking after, the ticket to the Togami Family’s Prosperity with her predictions. Or rather was and she hasn’t been for years now after Byakuya had become the Ultimate Heir.

Byakuya intentionally had Borges installed in her to erase memories of her prior life and of the original Shinobu’s identity. As means to get rid of the prophecy element since to Byakuya that was cheating, a sentiment Despair High School agreed with. Regardless of her former life, Shinobu chooses to stay with Byakuya, her own journey at this point giving her the means to tackle reality head on.

Ultimately, both Byakuya and Blue Ink are given a choice. If Byakuya chooses to rule the world, Shinobu dies,. If he refuses, Shinobu will have her mind wiped again and forced to live out a new identity away from Byakuya whilst everyone of the 78th class that came to Prague (like Toko Fukawa) would have their minds tampered to muddle the incident and erase Shinobu from their memories. Byakuya refuse and, before both loses their memories, Blue Ink gives Byakuya memento of her: a blue fountain pen he keeps in his pocket. Blue Ink blacks out after ingesting the drug.

With hope that, eventually, she reunites with Byakuya in a world conquered by him!

Personality-wise, Blue Ink shares similarities with Toko Fukawa, with her most dominant traits being her severe reverence and loyalty to Byakuya, who she considers to be a God. This love manifests between almost akin to a religious fanatic, to a supportive big sister to, well, someone whose clearly in love with him (incest runs deep in Ink’s little family huh?)

She is more open and emotional that her arrogant and reserved brother, though it's been observed she’s colder than people realize. It's implied that the abuse she suffered under Suzuhiko eventually lead to her stop caring about herself personally, no matter what good or bad fate awaits her and she sort of lives with a deattachment towards life unless it involves someone she really loves, like Byakuya. She is without Hope or Despair, but throughout then ovel feeling this way does gradually bother her. This also means if a horrible fate would happen to someone else, she can quickly move from it without issue.

Concerning back to her lack of care towards herself, in a similar vein to Peko, she doesn’t see herself as ‘person’ but rather Byakuya’s property - a writing machine made manifest. Much of her development in the novel is learning to become her own person and see life for how it truly is beyond what a machine wants to tell her. Thus leading to a resolution where, while she doesn’t give up her devotion to Byakuya, she finds the strength to accept reality for what it was and move forward to a Hope created by her own original style.

 Rundown

Shinobu’s character in DRT reflects on its central theme of ‘Truth and Lies’, or rather ‘Escapism/Unreality vs Reality’, if better to make it more distinct than to what V3 was going through with its ‘Truth and Lies’. With this theme, its represented in three parts with the, what I’m going to refer to them at least, the Unreality Siblings (Shinobu, Kazuya and Suzuhiko). Shinobu represents the ideal - a previously ignorant escapist being confronted with the truth and willingly choosing to accept it. The Accepter, to be brief about it.

Shinobu starts off as obsessed with Byakuya and constanlty using Borges for assistance. Throughout her journey, more and more of her fantasy gradually becomes unravelled to the point she is questioning why some people don’t know who some others were or why her memories weren’t lining up. She becomes confused, agitated and scared. This leads up to two important events that make her ar truly great.

The dinner with Hiroyuki that has her confronted properly with the idea that what she has been relying on isn’t actually as helpful to her as she thinks and her meeting with K, who serves as a harsh, yet important, teacher of the dangers of becoming lost in her own fantasies and assures her that she’ll be able to eventually see reality for what it is - as her own person this time. She becomes self-aware of the truth by her own notice, yet its with guidance towards what truly is at fault and giving her Hope of being her own individual without her ‘crutch’ that what allows her to be firm in her resolve to embrace the truth.

What’s more is that learning about her true past doesn’t throw in her in an existential crisis anymore, but she is able to take it in and weave it with her own tempered passion for Byakuya.  It’s a legitimate message with her against overelying on people or technology, forming your own identity and, while you don’t have to drop your strong interests, you can at least enjoy them in a healtier mindset.  Which is a far better conclusion than either Suzuhiko or Kazuya (those two are going to be a doozy...)

In many ways, with these traits, she is reflective of Toko Fukawa - writers who, after a horrible childhood past, comes to obsess over a guy who...isn’t the humblest person around, seeing him in a grander light than they would ever see themselves. Likewise, their arcs are about, while not getting over such a guy, realizing they were other avenues in life they haven’t given a try or were misguided by, with Toko finding her own goals and wants with her trusted friend Komaru and Ink coming to terms with trying to carve out her own path after seeing nothing but lies for a good deal of her life.

Personal Thoughts

Blue Ink is definitely one of the most underrated protagonists of the Danganronpa series and honestly one I feel many should at least read DRT to know more about. Similar to Komaru or Yui, Shinobu works well in bouncing off of Byakuya as his loving and loyal secretary that he actually gets along with, because Lord know Togami needs some more of that......well, not really healthy (get to that in a sec), but just positive bonds in DR. Plus, she actually does work well in bouncing off the other castmates of DR1, such as her rivalry with Toko to her banter with the Imposter back when she thought they were Kazuya and even once it was all over.

Though, there were a few hiccups. I did find it disappointing how quickly she affirmed her loyalty to Byakuya even after learning that he willingly chose to erase her first personality and memories. Would have liked for her to maybe instead have her, while not happy with it, she wants to give Togami another chance. Not because of her infatuation with him or ‘because he’s a God’, but because she has faith in Togami being more benevolent than how he acts. But that’s just personal preference.

Will also say concerning the....Unreality Mess Triangle with Ink, Suzuhiko and Kazuya and their baggage I wish it involved more outsiders, particularly of the mainline cast variety, reacting and interacting with it? A lot of time Ink is spent with her brothers apart from everyone else and it feels too isolating, in a sense? These three are at their best when they’re interacting with the mainliners, such as Ink witnessing the threeway ‘Byakuya’ discussion during their flight or watching Suzuhiko and Genocide Jack fight. Heck, this also goes especially for Ink herself being away from the other prior DR casts so much, which happens suprisingly a lot, especially in volume 3. While occasional one on one conversations are great, ultimately people are likely there to read Togami and his interactions with the main protag and both old/new casts, not just see the protag and the new cast, but little of Togami or the old ones. There needed to be a better mix of it I feel.

...Oh, right the incest too. Due to DR3 and UDH desensitizng me to this, I can say that Ink’s crush on Byakuya is something that I’m personally numb to at this point. Especially since the trilogy is determined to make being numb better than what the Hell was going on concerning her brothers. Also helps, it doesn’t come up as much as her fanaticism to Byakuya and she has more traits going for her to help balance it out.

But those are minor nitpicks, Overall, she’s just plain fun to read about and def think people should give her pov a try. (think about how many protags in this series can say they legit nearly choked out a hitman with one arm!? That’s kickass!~).

With that that’s the first DRT Showcase down! Next up is for the Minor Spin-off Squad AKA Kirigiriso/Ultra Despair Hagakure/Makoto’s Worst Day Ever. Their entries are too short and not enough cast members to give them their own distinct sections so, yeah, they’re all lumped together. To next time!

What are your thoughts about Judith Myers? Like any headcanons about her?

oH YOU OPENED THE FLOODGATESSSSS

I LOVE HER SO MUCH yes she has like. what. a single minute of screentime max? but i uh. i care her so much. maybe its because i project a lot of my older sister feelings onto her BUT ANYWAYYYYYY-

She basically raised Michael for the first few years of his life. The Myers parents aren’t bad people they’re just really neglectful. Due to the age difference, they just kinda expected Judith to help a lot.

This is why when she starts getting into her mid-teens, she acts out more. She’s tired of being a parent, she wants to be a teen.

She loves Michael to death but she also becomes a bit neglectful when he’s around 5. But what can you expect from her? She’s also a kid!

Then Laurie Cynthia is born and she’s both elated and filled with dread. She’s happy to have another girl in the house, but also terrified that she’s going to have to be a parent again. Cynthia is much easier of a baby to take care of than Michael was, though, Cynthia is quiet.

But she slowly loses touch, like I said. She starts spending more time with Danny because she’s just too fucking overwhelmed at home. She loves her little siblings, but again she’s just a kid not a parent.

Despite her trying to distance herself, she immediately notices when Michael starts acting off. She writes a lot in her journal because her parents won’t really listen. “Boys will be boys” is what they say. She’s frustrated. She knows her little brother needs help and she has no idea what to do because her parents won’t listen.

She hates that the two of them start fighting. He was always a happy kid and then everything just changed.

All she wants is for things to go back to the way that they were. And she keeps trying to bring it up to their parents but they don’t listen. And then its too late.

Aside from ALL THAT, she’s a very bubbly person, sometimes too much.

She’s a very loving girlfriend as well, I need people to understand that I feel that her and Danny were actually a really cute couple. They both genuinely cared so much for each other.

Danny tried to step up with Michael when Judy is particularly stressed. Michael actually didn’t mind him all that much. He was chill yknow?

I think that she was a cheerleader as well! Another thing on her plate of responsibilities- but she really enjoyed it!

Judith really liked to sew too, she made Michael’s costume for uh…..well you know..but she made them years prior as well! Her, Michael and Cynthia were actually supposed to have matching costumes that year but things fell through, mom and dad decided to go on date night last minute! we all know where that led-

yeah uh. i think about her so fucking much this poor girl. she was so young and cared so much and she was just a kid and GWAAAAAAAA

i have a lot of other headcanons about her post-death for a myers siblings dbd au i have! eventually i’ll talk about that one ive had it for like 2 years now and i care about it SO MUCH. family reunion in the fog!! yay!!!

Top 5 animated movies?

I see asks like this one for this meme and I'm like "lise what if you just wrote a short and simple response listing movies, then maybe you would actually end up answering all your meme asks" and then my brain goes "nope <3" and I end up with five paragraphs. I'm just not very good at shutting up.

anyway!

1. The Last Unicorn. This is the "no-brainer" one for me because I always feel like this is just...such an important piece of media, and it's one of those things where when I show it to new people I feel very vulnerable about it and kind of go "please understand that in sharing this with you I am showing you my vulnerable underbelly and if you hate it don't tell me." I don't even know that I could articulate why exactly, but it occupies a very particular place in my heart that few other pieces of media can claim to have. I have watched it so many times and here I am going "maybe I should rewatch it today, actually. plug in my external cd drive and pull out the dvd and everything." It's like that.

2. Princess Mononoke. Another one that came to me immediately as I was coming up with this list. I'm pretty sure I watched it a little too young and the opening scene with the boar creature vs. Ashitaka kind of scarred me a little bit but...lord, what a movie. It's beautiful visually and as a story I also love it. I feel like chronologically Spirited Away was my first Studio Ghibli I remember, but this was the one I latched onto. ngl, the fact that there are wolves in it probably helped.

3. Spirit: Stallion of the Cimarron. It started to get a little harder here, but then I remember how I felt when I saw a caption referencing a song from this movie's soundtrack (thanks for the bangers, Bryan Adams! unexpected but I'm grateful) and went "!!!!" like my brain was lighting up like a lightbulb. So yeah, I'm going to say this is an important one. You can take the horses away from the horsegirl but you can't take the horsegirl out of the girl. or something like that. And this was one of my horsegirl movies. I also just now remembered the paint by numbers extras that were on the dvd that I was weirdly obsessed with, so that's cool.

4. Watership Down. Actually this one should've been third and I don't know how I forgot it! I joke that the fact that the animated movies I rewatched most as a kid were this one and The Last Unicorn and that probably explains a lot of things, but honestly it might. This movie has a reputation that's in some ways bigger than it deserves (though the destruction of the warren segment is pretty much as awful as everybody says it is), but it is also just legit a really good story and well-adapted into a movie, in my opinion. I watched the remake and was profoundly disappointed mostly because I felt like the animation style was boring, and one thing this movie definitely had going for it was the style.

5. Atlantis: the Lost Empire. I almost went with The Lion King but then I remembered this movie, and, yeah. What a film. Truly everyone who has talked about the brief period where things were very weird and therefore very interesting at Disney were right. Also Helga probably turned me gay (and specifically gay for female villains), I just didn't notice until later.

Honorable mentions to The Lion King, The Rescuers Down Under, and Mulan. And probably several others I'm forgetting that I'll think of as soon as I hit post.

There are definitely the animated movies I want to see, most notably Song of the Sea, because I suspect I would really like them. I am just terminally bad at watching movies, you know.

shout out to The Secret of the Seal though, which was a movie where I sort of thought one of my sisters and I shared a collective hallucination until finally I managed to track it down with something like "seal macaroni penguin animated movie." not to be confused with the 1992 anime film Tottoi, mind you.

...though considering now that I'm looking again all I can find to prove its existence is a cover, I'm beginning to wonder again. The Rotten Tomatoes page I thought was going to take me to it returns a 404 not found.

IT WAS REAL she screamed as they dragged her away. I SWEAR IT WAS A REAL MOVIE

Anti-Acotar series rant

Like the title says, if you are not "anti"-acotar fan then don't read nor comment meaningless hate.

Also, this is really long so don't force yourself to read everything if you don't/can't.

In a previous post I said I would talk about the female characters of acotar and how f*cking wasted their potential was...Well here it is for our beloved MC : Feyre Archeron!(Girl got her character thrown out to uplift an abuser a.k.a Rhysand)

First, let us talk about how her character was supposed to be written:

Feyre is a young adult (19 years old in my country is older than the official adult age.) who takes down a big villain and saves the day as a powerful mortal girl because of the power of love (Don't get it wrong I have nothing against love and such) but it wasn't that bad because she actually used her skills to defeat the villain. After that, everything goes to sh*t...She falls out of love after her man gets abusive (Logical response tbh) but she gets with one of her previous abuser UTM? Honestly, it was nice when she hated him because she had all the reasons to,like Rhysand forced her into a bargain under the threat that she would likely die and after one book of brainwashing and manipulations she suddenly loves him? Nah, it does not make any sense...Now, after all that brainwashing and such, she supposed to have turned into a badass MC with no independence? Hell no, I don't know how the actual f*ck (I'm swearing a lot and I apologize but I'm very mad about this) this is supposed to work 'cause : If you want to write a "badass" character, you need to make that character evolve and mature and change to become truer to themselves. No character is badass if the only thing they can do is endanger people and abuse them. Overall,(I could go on about this), Feyre was supposed to be written as badass but really she became a bad ass. (Ik this ain't funny but I couldn't help myself). Second, let's talk about her backstory and her actual character: Look, when I read the scene of the cabin, I honestly stopped functioning like a decent human being and overlooked one of the major annoying thing about that small arc. It is actually pretty funny because I, myself, know how the breadwinner doesn't do everything. I'm not poor,in fact I'm supposedly rich(This is getting personal) but that doesn't mean I have servants that clean the damn house. I know how f*cking important cleaning chores can be and how most people attribute these chores as "feminine" and "traditional" because society has always put these things as "female" work when it's simply work you need to do to live in a sanitary environnement. I don't think gender is supposed to have much to do with it, at least not in this age. It should have infuriated me how SMJ dismissed the active work the other sisters must have done to keep the cabin in a "good" shape (Not like you can blame them if they are not super good, since they used to be literal nobles.) but I actually got immersed in her sexist narrative that I believed Feyre when she said that her sisters did "nothing". Here is a link to a really well-explained post about this : https://www.tumblr.com/nightlyteaandpaper/724151253254455297/unseen-labor-exploring-the-undervalued?source=share

Now for her character that had SO much potential and how her story could have impacted the story she is supposedly the main character of:

Feyre, at first, was a savage(this is not derogatory) and defensive person, which is understandable when you know she didn't get that much support from her family,(Yes her sisters took care of the cabin, doesn't necessarily mean they were supportive towards Feyre and she wasn't supportive towards them either just to be clear), and she basically was the breadwinner of her family for years. This is a lot for a young adult who was stripped away from their fortune and had no prior skills to survive. It's why I liked Feyre at first and one scene that proves that despite the non-discussed and bad family dynamic, she still loved her family or at least appreciated them? Is the scene who starts the whole discord of the first book, Tamlin appearance! This scene proved that despite her anger towards her sisters, Feyre still considered them her sisters and even her father. (SN: While their relationship wasn't the happy-family type, it certainly wasn't as abusive as her romantic relationships). After that, we can see Feyre slowly adapt to her new environment and the new relationship dynamics she encounters (her and Lucien had such good friendship scenes) without losing sense of who she is but we do see her struggle with abandoning her family and such, until Tamlin assures her that they are well taken care of. (Tamlin was real for doing the minimum for his "guest", plus it was a good way to make her more comfortable to stay). After the UTM is where Feyre's character got slowly brainwashed, being forced to stay with an assh*le and manipulator should not have felt like romance building up. I understand how she felt less confined (despite still being stuck just elsewhere) because at that point, Tamlin had let his trauma and issues from the first book, hinder their relationship. Plus, the Spring court was busy recovering. One particular scene that had a lot of potential for her growth was the tithe scene. Feyre, who is now treated like a hero 'cause she is, feels empathy for wraiths who are basically starving and helps them despite what Tamlin says. Look, that scene put a lot of emphasis on Feyre's great empathy skills and it is understandable from her POV how unjust the tithe feels but it could have also been a great "prep" scene for how she would come to love and adapt to her new world/gain more knowledge on politics and economics . Because, I'm gonna be clear, I do not like the fact that Feyre became High Lady and did not have classes on like politcs and economics or even just etiquettes to help her. Instead, she is out there painting and doing nothing and don't misunderstand, I wouldn't mind if she painted or anything but to do that instead of learning how to become a ruler to a court is ridiculous. Rhysand basically made her his trophy wife and I hate, absolutely hate, it. Why did we get s*x scenes instead of character growth? Couldn't SMJ include one part,even a tiny sentence, mentioning Feyre learning to become High Lady? No? An another thing that pisses me off is how instead of saying she's getting corrupted by a bunch of losers, SMJ makes us believe they are right? The whole ass chapters in Summer court had too much potential and none of it was used for actual character development. WHY? The least we had was a crappy scene showing Rhysand's trust issues and regrets? I get he is the main love interest but what about Feyre? She is supposed to be the MC not Rhysand. Like why did Feyre not have a more opposing reaction to Rhysand's lying tactics? ACOTAR and Pre-middle ACOMAF Feyre hates dishonesty but just because it's Rhysand and because Rhysand doesn't trust Tarquin, then all of a sudden it is okay to lie and stuff? Why did Feyre not go against Rhysand's order and simply asked Tarquin for the artifact (ngl I don't remember why they went there for...). She went against Tamlin and Lucien's orders but when it's Rhysand she can't? That's all I can remember from the books so I won't add anything else...But I will say Feyre didn't deserve to be thrown out for a overgrown and immature bat.

Overall, Feyre had a great start but ended up being thrown aside for an abusive old perverted bat. I hate it and I'm doing justice for her in a nice fanfic.

(Comment if you think about other examples)

hey guys, i just wanted to say thank you to everyone who sent in condelences in response to my post about the recent threats ive been receiving.

thankfully, these have not been appearing on Tumblr but on my tiktok (where they were the worst) which I have now privated and my instagram, where a few accounts sent threatening dms but ive blocked and reported them

what started as me sharing things on my private story turned into me receiving 50+ messages from accounts and people I do not know. I consider myself a pretty understanding person and with the content of the things I posted, in context to world events, I can understand that emotions are running high and that people forget that others exist. But the absolute second you threaten my family, my little sisters, my best friends, you loose any sympathy from me for your person.

i originally started posting on my private story but once i realized i was taking the cowards way out by only posting my opinion in an area where i currate who views it, i decided to post on my public story. I guess this is where it started getting bad and where I messed up but again, I feel immense empathy and sympathy for people in pain right now but you have no right to threaten my sisters. I honestly don't care about my life, I plan on going into a career field where my life has a high probability of being threatened. Its the little girls that I grew up with and took care of that i will fight for.

i'll probably delete this later but i do have one point to say that is going to sound angry because i am beyond pissed off

do your fucking research people, don't blindly believe the misinformation being spread, don't take one sides account as gospel while the other is overshadowed by lies. im sick of the hypocrisy i see in the mainstream media. im sick of a lot of things

sorry for the rant and i hope everyone has a great day/night and stays safe <3

Day One: Favorite lead female character

Day Four: A female character you relate to

Day Six: Favorite female-driven show

1.Day one:

Hm... It's quite hard to choose honestly, but here are few I like:

From webcomics: Definitely Tammy from Blindsprings, can you blame me? She is a 300 year old princess, kind, loving and responsible, she got seriously mistreated on a multiple occasions by people that shouldn't had this to her, but she still stays kind and tries to accomplish her duties as high priestess. I've never seen anyone not liking her.

Lumi from Hemlock

Amy from Space Boy webtoon: Even through everything she is going through she is still kind and sweet, she genuinely loves people (even then she will not let bad people hurt her or her loved ones).

Honorary mentions from Georgian literature: All the Georgian literature that I've read has been taught to me by school, so thanks. It's no secret that the Georgian literature is dominated by male writers (The only female poet I can remember from school program is Ana Kalandadze), yet still they've managed to create some well written female characters in my opinion. So here are my favs.

Otaraant widow from the Otaraant Widow:

I loved this story and I still do, it's my favourite written story from Ilia Chavchavadze, I love this story so much that I may one day use necromancy and bring Ilia back to life just to ask him what is Otaraant widow's name? Because why the hell you wouldn't reveal her dang name sir?! I love the dynamic between widow and her son, her character is amazing, from one glance she is mean, she has a very... Sharp tongue, it was shown that it's her method for self-defense and it works, everyone is afraid of her and nobody dares to tell her anything about the fact that she didn't get remarried. This woman is a well off peasant, she works on the soil even though she is woman, she never remarried after the death of her husband that she loved and she single-handedly has raised a good son. She helps people (even though she whines in the process, it's one and only big flaw she has, her sharp tongue). This woman doesn't care if you are rich or poor, she treats everyone equally and most importantly shoe doesn't give a damn what her village thinks, she does whatever she thinks is right. Keep in mind, this was written around late 19th century, it is pretty progressive you know.

Also, she loves her son Giorgi and she noticed the change in his behavior, which means a lot you know.

Elpida "Eli" Gordeliani from the Incantation On The Radio (Small Stream Of Great Wails):

I've probably translated the title in a wrong way but I don't care already.

Oh boy, she is amazing. Eli is like an icon, my sister had crush on her when she read this novella (It's her words, not mine), my girl classmates were all interested in the story and were really sympathetic of Eli and her struggles. I do understand how you can not like her as character, but calling her a passive character is a sin. I am going to talk about it in other post that I'll call "bad literature takes: Georgian edition".

2.Day Four:

You know, I stopped relating to characters long time ago, I love reading stories not because I could see myself or the reality I live in it, but because I want to get away from them and see what could've been. I did use to relate to Mabel Pines as 12 year old. If it helps I also was compared to Lilo from Lilo and Stitch and honestly, I relate to her, it's way too familiar, because I was like her as a kid, perhaps less disobedient but the part where she is alienated from the kids but still refers to them as her friends hits home, also I was sensitive and definitely had similar hair style as kid.

3.Day six:

Totally Spies and W.I.T.C.H

I do think that W.I.T.C.H deserved more seasons. It was amazing.

Hello, my dear Author. As much i'm in love with baby sister AU, but what about child AU? It's fine, if you don't like it or aren't interested. Please, forgive me for bothering you.

When Lester throws the last deer into the pit, he hears some kind of scream. The sound of crying from this very pit? Nah, he's probably overheated. But Lester's kind heart does not give rest Lester's tired legs. He climbs into the burial ground to look for the source of the sound. Throwing away a couple of small animals, the man finds a squeaking and crying bundle. He cuts open the bag and, Holy God, it's a baby... They are, God grant, a couple of weeks old..? Nope, no, no. He can't. He is not ready for such a responsibility, no, nope. But he, he brings the baby to his brothers. Bo is angry, Vincent doesn't understand. Lester just couldn't. Neither to kill the poor thing, nor to leave. Judging by the bruises on the back and on the back of the legs, the girl was simply thrown out. And now, they are not the Sinclair brothers, now they are papa Bo, papa Vincent and papa Lester. Of course, Bo is wildly infuriating to explain to tourists, that they are brothers, and not what you thought yourself there! Yes, brothers can raise one daughter, do you have any problems? And all the brothers, who speak and contact tourists are terribly infuriated to explain, that this beautiful, young woman calls them "daddy" because they are her fathers! There are only perverts around, my God... And who could have thought, that the history of their Y/n, would play into their hands so much. Most often, people are very sorry, which causes additional confidence in Ambrose. It is very bad to use child as a bait, but it is so effective and convenient. But still, papas prefer, that their angel does not come into contact with future sculptures. They will never let anything bad happen to you.

Hi, I really loved that idea a lot! Thank you for sending this request, it was so fun to write for <3

Tumblr doesn't let me post it as an answer (got carried away so it's too long), so it will very soon be posted on a separated post! Hope you'll enjoy this <3

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OOC Response :: Levant

When could I be like that? Strong. Powerful.

Even when I'm strong, will I still be subject to another person's will?

Does it ever end?

Admiration and envy, the proportion dependent on how she's feeling that day, color her thoughts of Crowley. She admires Crowley’s strength, her intelligence, and her determination. She can also respect her patience with Anima: even though Anima made a mistake that nearly killed the woman, she didn't lose her temper with the girl, only reassuring her that everything was alright. 

Oh, how long will it take for her to reach those heights? 

Probably a long time, given she’s nearly lost everything after the Dream took its gifts back. 

...Aaand that’s where the jealousy kicks in. 

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But even worse, despite having such power, Crowley is still subject to the whims of others; power still doesn’t mean she’s free. The so-called Buzzing seems to be the most benign of the lot, and they seem to be more assistive than anything else. On the other end, the Orochi Group clearly is hostile to Crowley and even put a bounty on her head.

Those asshats didn’t even remove it when she did them a huge favor by dealing with the Filth in their city. All they did was make the bounty less, which probably helps with the visibility but it doesn’t stop an opportunistic person looking for easy money. 

The fact that Crowley just bowed her head and accepted that...

...She can’t help but lose a little bit of respect for her because of it. 

Hell, if she had that sort of power, she’d give Orochi Group a damn good reason to put that bounty on her. She’s do everything she can to hurt them because how dare you provoke me, you ungrateful little shit. 

She can also coolly acknowledge that she'd likely die doing so because if such a group can put a bounty on someone as powerful as Crowley, there's probably even more powerful folk backing them up. 

The issues of having an innate nature that’s in direct opposition to her intelligence, she supposed. Her own personal issues with anger only add to that mix of admiration and envy for Crowley - because Crowley always seems like she’s in control of herself.

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On a secondary note, after the Anima thing, she can’t help but hate Crowley a little for treating her a child who watched something she shouldn’t have watched - even if those accidentally-posted security videos were gorier than most movie fare. 

Yes, she understands that she physically is a child, and her hotheadedness probably doesn't help people’s perception of her. But she stopped being a child when the Dream descended for her - when she gained almost three extra years of mental age cause she no longer slept and when she got stuck into the intrigue between city factions and the occasion incident that threatened her life. 

...Yet at the same time, she can’t help but appreciate the care shown because she’s never had such concern directed to her in the real world. Even her Mom / big sister is more of the tough love type. Lils meanwhile was more the “sit and listen to your problems” kind of girl. 

In the end, her feelings about Crowley - mostly positive but ultimately complicated. 

Ended up visiting my uncle today. Started out p nice, he used my name even. until he started talking politics and about how its not his responsibility to feed kids and then he started on about “illegals” and at that point. At that point, I was pissed.

But. I decided instead of ruining my mom’s visit (he is gravely ill, not really all there, and she’s close with him and has major trauma from losing family before) I would make my point (and emotionally regulate) by leaving the room. So I sat on the floor outside the door. They came out after a few mins, asked me if I wanted to come to dinner and I had cooled off and went with them to the kitchen.

And then we had dinner. (the food was bomb). While were leaving and everybody was saying goodbye, he initially went for a hug (in my family, women get hugs and men get handshakes) and I went in for a handshake and he adjusted and shook my hand. It meant a lot to me, that he respected my gender even in family tradition. Even with the slip up, he still actually shook my hand, which was such a nice moment to experience.

Afterward, my mom said that when I had left the room, my uncle suddenly stopped talking politics and changed the subject. Based, he understands nonverbal cues! Also based that he realized he was making me uncomfortable and actually changed his behavior.

I had high anxiety the whole time, but once we got back to my sister’s place, I was beginning to have a full blown panic attack. I didn’t think it was that deep but…. According to my nervous system, it is that deep. Even though there were a lot of nice moments.

My guess is that the combination of seeing him again plus the whole politics deal put my nervous system over the panic threshold.

Unfortunately, I had the panic attack in front of everyone. As you might expect, I’m not a big fan of having a visible panic attack in front of others. A bit after I told them I was having a panic attack, the topic turned to how trump’s probably gonna win the election again, which was making it significantly worse. So I had to say “Can you please not talk about this while I’m actively having a panic attack.” I felt bad for not having a polite tone when I said it. I didn’t mean to, I couldn’t control my tone of voice in the moment. But I successfully set a boundary and it was respected. Dubs.

But because everyone saw it, I felt ashamed and defective. And I felt guilty for not appreciating the good that happened. Even though I do. Luckily, the kids didn’t catch on cuz I was mostly just pacing or sitting still clutching my arms with a thousand yard stare, and they were busy playing. Thank god, I did not want to be explaining this shit while currently experiencing it and already feeling embarrassed.

I feel so out of place in my family. I can’t remember a single time where I did feel that connection, to be honest. Maybe when I was 5. I always had a weird feeling about them, like a sense that they would turn on me if I didn’t fit what they wanted me to be. And well, it was true for a lot of my family.

Starting to realize that the chronic invalidation that I have experienced, internalized, and occasionally sought out has negatively affected me in ways I’m only just beginning to understand. To the point where seeing the person who, in 2020, called me sick in the head (and more) on FB would be enough to make it a panic attack trigger. When he did that, he confirmed my worst fears (in multiple ways) and caused a lot of psychological distress. He had DMed me about a political post to argue, and out of nowhere he brought up me being trans and how wrong and sick it is and that ill always be a girl and that im going to hell etc. Blocked him, hadn’t seen or talked to him since.

But yeah, I think that’s probably enough for interacting with him again to cause a panic attack. Even under the best of circumstances.

M2- emptying my head

The coffee is starting to kick in and I will enjoy the feeling for maybe an hour or two because I get woozy and too hyper to be comfortable lol Such a bad habit but I’m so tired without it and tend to get a headache. I choose the warm,black, delicious coffee. Lol

So yep,I deleted my main Facebook page. I have my family one also but am rarely on there. If I did still have my fb,I’d be scrolling aimlessly now and seeing all the same old stuff. Facebook in the older days it seemed people actually talked about themselves and were open but it’s not the same. It’s all memes now and good morning posts, happy birthday posts etc etc and filtered pics day after day ,mostly woman lol How many pics does one person need? It’s crazy.. and the men fill the comments like sniffing dogs or something. Being a woman I know when pics are posed just right or altered but men or most men don’t seem to care. I’ve just been feeling negative energy around there and I’m already stressed from stuff here and my own stuff going on. Added to the stress list is I used a buy now pay later app to get food yesterday! We had no food! I had about $12 bucks and no car or ride and am stuck.. so I got a BK bundle for 3 people. I couldn’t leave 2 others out. One has no money and my sister is already burdened with vet bills. I now owe over $40 made in four payments to this app. For one stinkin meal. I HAD to eat. I had to use a survey site that pays out right away to PayPal and lets you cash out at anytime. I already had $5 in my Chime so I made $7 bucks taking surveys to get a meal and some energy back. I need my meat. Lol The 4th person who lives here feeds herself,has money and is vegan. I felt like I did a little something in my dizzy haze but the reality is now I have to pay off a quick fix meal. Makes me feel so terrible. Ended up last night my sister gave person 3 some money to go to grab a few groceries so NOW there’s food, go figure. Sometimes this happens. Nobody says just hang on, we’re going to get some stuff so don’t buy any delivery anywhere OR give me your card and I’ll grab you a few things. Nah, doesn’t work that way and our communication here leaves a lot to be desired. Being “off the grid” for three days and I’m liking it. The problem is the 2 people I talk too almost daily. A girl friend and a guy friend. Been sort of fading fast from them.. the guy well, I just don’t wanna complain and I will. I’m in a bad funk and don’t want to bring him down and the girl,I’m just closing off. Everytime I open up, her responses rub me wrong lately. Some is her and some is how I’ve been feeling lately. I told her I’m going off the grid but I think she took that as only Facebook as she’s still trying to text me. Person 4 just got up and said “Do you plan on cleaning today?” Sheesh.. I controlled myself and said yes and that person 1 already woke me talking to herself about the house needing an extreme clean. I clean about every other day and I just did but for some reason it gets bad again so fast and we are 4 women. It should not always get this way in one day. It’s insane. Nobody washes their dishes or loads them right away and it piles up. The kitchen is my least favorite house chore. It’s frustrating that it cannot be kept up and then I’m looked at like I’m the culprit of everything house related. Nobody understands how I feel and what I deal with say in and day out. I’m going to go start the kitchen. Put on Tubi for sound and get it going. It’s the hardest room in this tiny house and I like to knock it out first. I’ll be back babbling I’m sure. Happy Saturday though. 😁

My review of Afterlife With Archie no longer appears on the Comic Hunter blog so am posting it here:

While drafting this blogpost I wondered if others had this love/hate relationship with Archie Comics so I polled a number of people via Facebook to get their thoughts. Here’s a sample:

I read them as a kid, and I'm embarrassed about that now. (Sexist, demeaning, traditional gender roles, lack of diversity all the way around.) I guess it was mostly because they were readily available that I read them. And maybe it's crap like that, and growing up in the Catholic Church, that helped me to become/realize I was a feminist, which I am grateful for. Better to be awake than in the dark.

I read them and liked them but I always thought they promoted 'the American dream', white Pickett fence type of thing... Also had horrible values for women... Archie would getting loving from the hot evil woman and when she didn't want him he ran back to the girl next door who was waiting for him always... They always made fun of the dumb, ugly and out of town people... Riverdale was a place you had to earn your stripes greaser style and be home in time for supper... Fun to read though haha

I loved Betty & Veronica storylines best, like all the girls. I was reading them probably between the ages of 8-12?? I think they informed my understanding of male vs female roles....hmmmm, that explains a lot!

I never understood a freaking bloody moment of that crap and HATED it....still do. I also hate anyone who read it. Hate.

Loved Archie comics as a kid, and have bought the odd digest as an adult for mindless reading on long flights. I identified with Betty and thought of my older sister as Veronica. I was mostly interested in all of the female characters (B & V, Josie + Pussycats, Sabrina, etc)- their hairstyles, fashion choices, taste in boys, etc. For some even stranger reason, I loved the beach comics the best in a kind of a 'Beach Blanket Bingo' way.

The outright sexist content is too much. recent readings of current issues prove they reinforce negative gender stereotypes, female competition, bad self image values lower class putdowns, and many more negative aspects. The sunny, vintage illustrations hide a truth based out of bad values & sexual manipulation. We have put a stop on them in our house.

I read them and remember thinking at one point how odd it was that I continued to do so despite never really laughing.

Ok so Archie Comics. My best friend … used to read them. She and her sister had dozens and they would be scattered everywhere; piles of them under the bed and being a voracious little reader, of course I checked them out. Yes, I was a kid who would go over to play at someone's house and start reading their books. Ok so I HATED those comics. And I was shocked. How could I hate something my best friend liked? I hated everything about the comics : the story line, the graphics, and the characters. I had a sense that I was supposed to relate to either Betty or Veronica and I had a sense it was supposed to be the dark haired one that I would relate to, but I still hated her. I felt like the stories were about a world that didn't fit with mine at all, and I could sense what the comic wanted me to think and feel but that it Just Wasn't Right. And on some level, it frightened me that there was this Thing in my world that was clearly cool with lots of others, that I wished didn't exist. At that age I was still frightened by being 'a little different' but the evidence was mounting. Thank you for this little morning homework assignment. I still hate Archie.

I never ever touched it, I recall picking one up when I was a kid and thinking how out dated it seemed. Looking back now, the themes are relevant, but it obviously screams of an era.

My friends’ responses encouraged me that I wasn’t being unduly critical of Archie Comics. To me, the most annoying thing about Archie comics is that nothing bad ever happens. Archie’s car might get a flat tire. Jughead’s belly aches from eating 100 hamburgers. Reggie takes a beating. No big whoop. It rung false when I was a little kid and it sure as hell rung false when I actually entered adolescence and learned what kind of horrible bastards fill this mortal void.

Riverdale is a weird version of the suburban white bread American Dream. While we saw the dark side of this in movies like Blue Velvet and Pleasantville, bad things don’t happen in Archie Comics.

Bad things do happen In Afterlife with Archie #1. The worst things you can imagine. Awful horrible stuff, drawn grotesquely, gruesomely, and gloriously. Archie’s still a player, but he’s dropped the bow-tie and the sweater. Reggie’s still a weasel, but, for the first time, has remorse for his craven actions. The story pivots on Jughead, his friendship with Archie, and mainly his relationship to his faithful mutt, Hot Dog. I’m not going further discuss the plot except to say that Sabrina the Teenage Witch features prominently and her aunts Hilda and Zelda are finally portrayed as proper witches and not just a couple of odd ladies in funny hats. Afterlife with Archie #1 is hands down the best Archie comic I’ve ever read. It’s hands down the best comic I’ve read all year. If you haven’t read it, read it. And place your order for #2. These suckers are selling out fast.

this is going to be a very long post of me rambling about some thoughts I've been having for some time. no need to read it but if you do, know that I love you and would give you a tender kiss in the forehead.

ok I admit I'm sometimes surprised at how little queerphobia I face where I live lmao. let me explain (no this is not a 'come to Buenos Aires' propaganda post, though I wouldn't mind if you are convinced by it):

so I realised I was bisexual at age 16 and immediately came out to my family over the course of the next few days. obviously 16 is not particularly late to figure out your sexuality lmao but it was surprising even to me since I knew I liked girls a lot for years. I still love women a lot, they're great. so great I'm now one too, which I started figuring out the next few years (it wasn't that long ago but it seems like it because of covid).

the response from my family was, admittedly, less than ideal. I definitely thought my family was a lot more 'progre' ('woke'). my sister was a terf back then and the first boy I liked was trans so yeah. and my mom became worried that I'd be punched on the street, especially when I started painting my nails and doing make up. I remember telling her 'don't worry, I'll punch them back' which was probably the worst answer I could have come up with lmao. my dad doesn't generally care that much one way or the other, or at least tries not to show it, though he sometimes drops a phrase like 'I'm just sad because that means I won't have grandchildren' which is wrong in at least 4 massive and entirely different ways, but tbf he is usually pretty understanding when I explain a subject to him well (which i kinda have to have the skill for). and my grandma, well, I don't talk to her anymore (though believe me, my sexuality is just the tip of the iceberg of the reasons why). on the other hand, the response from friends was great because the school I went to was 90% populated by queer people (though the only actual couples were straight so you'd only see straight kisses on recess, sadly 😔) and my college is probably higher than that lmao (I study filmmaking in a public university so yeah).

now, the response from the rest of the world (outside of places like say, pride marches or gay bars) was of absolute indifference. in the best way possible. I have noted some people looking at me when I use my full skirt but like, I look at anybody too for no reason . I never felt threatened or anything like it by a stranger. and from my acquaintances, like my dentists who I visit since I was born (literally, that very day) or the adults in the spaces I frequent, I usually only got passing remarks about my nails or skirt, and I was even offered nail polish once.

now I'm definitely not saying no response was ever bad. last period I had the worst teacher ever who loved humiliating students and always tried doing that one way or the other. the first time I showed up with a skirt he asked me twice if it was indeed a skirt (the second time asking if it was a monk's habit lol) and then proceding to give an example about the day's subject by using the story of a man wearing a skirt because it was the fashion or something. and look, that was, I believe, the most bigoted experience I ever had, BUT, while that may sound terrible and, for many queer people in most contexts, absolutely would be, let me make clear that this teacher is at the very least somewhat disliked by most students and he was trying to mock me in front of a class made up entirely by 18 to like 25 year olds, probably half of them queer. I found that amusingly pathetic more than anything else.

the only other (actually) bad experiences I had were comments made by some adult acquaintances, but all of them (that I can remember) were either questions from genuine ignorance, or easily countered, innocent opinions, if a little stereotypical. literally the only times I was actually insulted for being queer ware before I realised I was queer myself. that is, I was called mean things like 'puto' (kind of like the f-word but much more watered down and reclaimed lmao) by 15 year olds at my high school. obviously it's not great that that's normalised, but at the same time, it was just a mean group of teens. I have never been bullied for being queer nor do I think I would have. I was bullied for other stuff, sure, but that's a whole different issue.

now, that was a bold claim, saying 'I don't believe I would have been bullied for being queer.' I wanna clarify, this is based on personal experience and opinions and info I have on my schools and schoolmates, and definitely not a general claim about schools in Argentina or even Buenos Aires city. we still have trans people murdered here, and '¿Dónde está Tehuel?' ('Where's Tehuel?', a young trans man that was disappeared in early 2021 and has not yet been found) is still an important issue and a slogan for queer people and activists. we're not a country free of queerphobia by any standards, especially (from what I know) outside of Gran Buenos Aires (Buenos Aires City and the sorrounding metropolitan area). but that doesn't negate the fact that I have never, personally, been in any way attacked by anyone. people don't treat me differently, especially strangers. that said, I am still generally male presenting, just with some feminine gender expression, and I'm pretty big so most people would probably think twice before insulting me on the street lmao. so I may not be the best example, but I am the one I have.

again, that does not mean systemic queerphobia doesn't exist here, it is definitely not just a few bad apples. but we are still a country with a long history of very important social struggles, one of the first to legalize gay marriage and gender transition with one of the most progressive gender identity laws in the world.

the fight is far from over, but I can't help notice chatty old people will talk to me equally. that may be a bit weird, but it is something I'm glad for.

"The Invisible Girl" by Mary Shelley

Today is fourth blog post day. The story is written by Mary Shelley. Today I am going to analyze a short gothic story called "The Invisible Girl". The story was written in 1832. I think the the story name came from Rosina, who was walking in the woods and people fought that she was a ghost.

There was an Orphan named Rosina. She was adopted by Sir Peter. He also hade a son. His son's name was Henry, and he is pretty important in this story because he was in love with Rosina. Sir Peter also had a sister and she always snitched and was annoying. She like fought that she is the queen and she can do what ever she wants. Example she told Peter about Henrys and Rosina's love relationship. The sister talked lots of false and the dad got really mad and Rosina ran away from home. Rosina escapes up to a tower. Henry got depressed knowing that Rosina has disappeared. Every night Henry couldn't sleep and one night he saw a light coming from the tower, where Rosina had escaped. Henry goes there and meets Rosina. Henry explains Rosina that his dad did not mean all of the words he told. After that Rosina and Henry married. Peter now could understand that he made a mistake being mad on Rosina and apologies for that kind of action. He could understand that love is the most important and actually saw love in Rosina and Henry.

Now I am going to talk about the characters. Rosina was very kind and shy. When someone told something bad to Rosina, then Rosina took it straight it to his heart. He took huntress and opened her feelings a lot. She showed great respect on Henry and Sir Peter. I also think that Rosina also very smart because she had lost of books in her house.

Now I'm going to talk about Sir Peter Vernon, who was Henry's dad and Rosina's stepdad. Sir Peter was for me a very strict person, he always shouted on everyone . He cared about them very much and when he realized that Rosina had run away he was very sad and started to look for her and he also felt guilty and he definitely missed Rosina, because she was still his daughter. Maybe he hade a hard life as a kid, that's why he is so strict. He also did not want that Rosina marries Henry. He was like very strict but at the same time he showed love.

Henry loved Rosina even though she was her sister. When he fell in love with her he did not care if Rosina was poor or not. He wasn't really a fighter. I think that he should fight back with Peter. Not to get revenge but a man should take responsibility of his girl. He had to talk with Peter in that situation, what I think.

Now let's talk about the conflict. Sir Peter was mad on Rosina, because she was together with his son. So it could be man vs man. But Henry didn't really mess with his father so it could actually be a man vs society, because Peter was mostly against everything. He was against Henry and Rosina.

I see that the moral of the story could be to listen to what you feel, not hear. Peter felt kindness in his heart, but he listened to his sisters snitching fake news. Do what you feel not hear would be my quote to this story.

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