i may be a tiny bit genderfluid

‘I have made inquiries,’ Eothain approaches. ‘I was told that such creatures you’ve read of are only found far off the coast, in the greatest depths of the ocean. From here to Sahure in the havens the most we’ll see are seals, cormorants, gulls—that sort of thing.’

‘Have you been?’ Grima asks. 

‘To Sahure? Never. You know that.’

‘No, to sea?’

‘No…which I know you also know.’

‘Then I shall reserve judgement and not trust a source whose veracity you cannot verify yourself due to your lack of ever having been west of the White Mountains, let alone on a boat on the ocean.’

‘I don’t know why you’re nervous. If we start drowning your strange old god can come save you, at the very least.’

Grima gives a withering smile but makes no further response. He can think of many, valid reasons to travel by land rather than water. The superiority of horses aside. And these reasons he has enumerated to Eomer who remains fixed on this mode of travel, a terrier with his teeth in the body of a rat. It isn’t helped that Safan ab Hifir, the one Aragorn made parlay with during the war, has arrived to welcome the Éomarc contingent southward into his home country. Safan, to Grima’s horror, has made it plain that he is keen on boats, sea-life, was once a sailor himself, and is so very pleased to be taking the Horselords on their first voyage.

Third, Grima had replied beneath his breath. But his first two were on rivers, they hardly count, he was swiftly informed.

Grima + Eothain continue to have the best banter. Eothain continues to wonder why he is always saddled with Grima whenever they travel anywhere. 

Eomer: I trust you to keep an eye on him. Keep him out of trouble. 

Eothain: I’m not a babysitter. 

Grima: and I don’t need babysitting! 

Eomer & Eothain: yes you do. 

Anyway, this was supposed to be short but now it’s becoming ‘Eomer is off to meet his future bride and Safan, everyone’s favourite from Cycles of Song, has made a stunning reappearance.’ I’m very pleased about Safan coming back. 

i demand aloto FLUFF 😆 snippet or scene outline or headcanon or anything at all you want to share please!

Thank you for the ask, Jackie my love! <3

Haha unfortunately my coauthor is asleep and I failed to consult with her on how much of the premise/plot I could reveal here, so here's a tiny snippet because I've written very little and it's mostly random sentence fragments.

Jess—with her chew, hard stare, and predilection for pussy—is no angel, but Lupe thinks there’s something holy all the same in the way the sunlight wraps around her jaw and glints off her hair there in the infield.

Sort of fluffy, right?

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tfw you have to call your girlfriend's house to talk to her girlfriend (who is also your boyfriends girlfriend) so you can get your boyfriend released from jail...

(click for better quality PLEASE I beg you)

under the tab are other versions of the drawing so click if you wanna see him with no shirt on .....wait what who said that.....

yall i don't even know how to explain this one i was possessed and controlled by the urge to draw stu macher all pretty and posed like this,,,, so i like when men are pretty SUE ME

credits to @atitanbitch for the idea to include Sid and Tatum in the little bubble and @powderedbleach for reminding me about THE ROBEEEE OH and ofc @harleykeenervarient for sending me the photo reference I used in the first place yall rock <3

included below are alternate versions of this drawing that I was having some fun with mwuahaha that includes no shirt, no shirt plus some ~shweed~ and also ofc trans version bc cmon

alright thats all for now.... thats my cue to slink back into the void until I return with another art drop BYEEEEEE

Had a random Danny Phantom Au idea that won't leave my mind.

Shadow Core Danny.

Now Shadow Cores are unique in the fact that they can mimic other elements. Not unlike how both Pariah and Fright Knight have flames, despite them not having a type of Fire core themselves.

And mimicking isn't exactly the right word, but mirroring isn't either. But that's what a shadow does. It follows, it mimics your every move, your every action perfectly. Until it doesn't.

Wow that's suddenly spooky, but anyway.

Danny with a shadow core and somehow finding his way to where the [insert shadow core tribe name not unlike the yetis for ice cores] reside. And not exactly getting a mentor, not with how varied each Shadow Core is depending on its adaptations and stressors. But he gets someone he can ramble to and ask questions about how the duck this power works.

salt outfit swap

digger harkness gives off bad tinder date vibes. your standards are so low that his weird charm and tattoos are enough to draw you in, and it ends with you walking home from the subway wondering what the fuck happened. you meet at a bar, he gets too drunk, insists that he's sober enough to drive then sends you a pic pulled over by the cops 2 hours later. okay, maybe the peace sign and having the cop in frame was a little funny, but you can't like him!!!! he's a slob, a bad influence!!!! u deserve better!!!! or maybe you should text him back....

between kaycee's avatar constantly wearing the ring and her ebay user being leshys_gurl i have a fierce desire to know if these are intentionally pointing towards leshy and kaycee have feelings for each other yet i would rather explode in the kiln than email the dev a shipping inquiry so here im just sitting here

You’re cursed prince Kaveh wearing mourning flowers in his hair is so,,,, so,,,, so,,,,,

Like. He’s always displaying how much time he has left. Constantly. It almost feels like a Warning for those around him to not get attached.

yes 💔

so i have gotten my hands on google translated versions of ntmgs solos and im here to tell you guys it is so much worse (/pos) than i ever couldve imagined. im gonna need days to process and dissect this bc its FUCKING INSANE

girl help i'm trying to make an edit but i keep getting distracted by how pretty the character is

Bruh the rust maggie sex scene is so fucked up. I mean huge win for toxicity enjoyers but that one was rough boys

x files episode 4 thoughts:

one episode after i made that post saying i cannot wait for that man to be shaking and sobbing we got mulder in a church crying and begging god on his knees for help. i'm tapped in. i'm seated. and i shall continue to be sat.

also he said the words: "i want to believe". another case of (insert leonardo dicaprio pointing at the tv screen!)

is mulder incapable of getting a shirt that properly fits. is he unable to contact a tailor due to his preoccupation with the paranormal or is he committed to the ariana grande-style sweater paws look. either way it's certainly a vibe.

are we gonna get to a point in which some of these cases are actually logical and explainable or is it gonna be alien fuckery with no resolution for 11 seasons? we should get a mix. challenge both of their belief systems for funsies.

they are kinda pissing me off at this point by making scully look weird for not believing in the aforementioned alien fuckery and i would like that narrative to be remedied quickly. you shall not disrespect her she literally went to med school. how many of you can say the same?

Is there ever a hypothetical world where Jackie and Shauna’s situation is reversed (as in Shauna dies and Jackie makes it home)? And if so, how do you think Jackie would react and deal with it?

this is ANOTHER of my favorite cans of worms to open lately so THANK YOU for giving me an opportunity to talk about it!!

i was thinking about this mostly because i was thinking about how shauna's hallucinations of jackie provide us with such valuable information about shauna's thoughts/feelings/desires, how she thinks of jackie, how she thinks of herself (via jackie). hallucighost jackie i think sort of has two sides that are intertwined but serve different purposes - there's one side that's more straightforward and even sweet: it shows how shauna, in her grief and pain, wants to remember jackie (the fun, lighthearted moments; braiding her hair, joking about randy). the other side is more dark but gives us just as much if not more insight into shauna: she uses jackie as a mouthpiece for her own bad thoughts about herself. hallucighost jackie is the whip that shauna self-flagellates with. and she punishes herself, but she's also sort of repressing the fact that she even feels guilty (which maybe is why she needs jackie's "ghost" to guilt her, because she can't admit to herself that she feels guilty). and it all must hurt even more coming out of jackie's mouth - which, if you think about it, is probably why she does it (better fuel for her guilt complex).

ANYWAY, i digress (sort of). my point is, i've always wondered what we could learn from jackie hallucinating shauna. how would jackie want to remember shauna, but at the same time, how might the memory of shauna torture jackie?

if we do a simple swap and have shauna leave the cabin when jackie tells her to during their fight and then shauna freezes, that's one option. we get jackie feeling both immensely hurt by shauna's nearly inconceivable betrayal but, at the same time, feeling guilty for sending her out there. this could lead to some interesting hallucinated convos and, personally, i 100% think it could also lead to jackie doing shauna's makeup in the meat shed lmao. (and thats how you know they're made for each other!)

BUT ALSO. shauna's betrayal (i mean, combined with jackie losing her social status in the wilderness and having the other girls turn on her ofc) made jackie so depressed that she was unable to eat, and shauna dying on top of that would have the potential to completely destroy jackie's will to survive. it would be a big ask, at that point, to get jackie through to rescue. id say its pretty likely she dies of a broken heart, so to speak. like, just loses all her remaining will to live (because her will to live was literally hanging on by a thread and that thread was shauna). the only way i can imagine her surviving long enough to go home is if she has a complete and total break from reality and like, just sort of dissociates from the entire year-plus that follows. i think (? let me know if you agree bc this actually just came to me while writing this and im not sure if it holds up) that if the writers really sold it right, they could convince me that jackie basically goes catatonic and retreats into some fantasy world (one where shauna is around, of course!) for the rest of their time in the wilderness. not exactly the way shauna talked to jackie in the meat shed, because shauna knew she was hallucinating and was more or less able to walk away when she had other obligations. i think jackie would actually legitimately just lose her grip on reality, and succumbing to this would be the only way for her to survive. kind of like the bacchanal but about, like, everything.

the other scenario that occurred to me (and it's a pretty awful way for shauna to die and makes me really unhappy btw, so, sorry in advance) is what if shauna's abortion attempt had gone really, really wrong and she had gotten an infection and died from that? obviously jackie has no clue at this point about jeff/pregnancy/rutgers/etc so its pure unadulterated heartbreak. taissa could play a really interesting role in this situation as the only other person who knows this huge, earthshattering secret. would she keep it from jackie? i think that would be the prudent thing to do. losing shauna would already be almost too much for jackie to take, but she could maybe survive that by designating herself as the keeper of shauna's memory and she could probably convince herself she owes it to shauna to stay alive because if jackie dies then shauna is gone for good. but, as we've seen in canon, finding out that shauna betrayed her sends jackie into a really dark place where she doesnt have much will to live. i think she could plausibly survive with her sanity intact if one or the other happens (shauna betrays her OR shauna dies) but, as i discussed above, experiencing both would either break her sanity or effectively kill her.

and i suspect taissa is smart enough to realize this too, so if she wants to keep jackie alive she'll withhold this information (hide/burn the journals?) and let jackie cling to whatever romanticized image of shauna she comes up with. once they get back to the real world, who knows? taissa might tell her because she feels like jackie deserves the truth, jackie might read shauna's journals from before the crash in an attempt to feel close to her again and find out that way, or even jeff might tell her (worst case scenario IMO)... and im honestly not sure what jackie would do at that point, like, murder jeff maybe? (im joking but i actually am not sure how that whole situation would play out. maybe depression 2.0 but in the real world, but that's not as fun as murder.)

i haven't even said what i think jackie would hallucinate, so lets end with that. for shauna, it's primarily about self-flagellation and self-punishment, although it has some ability to soothe her as well, like when she imagines having fun with jackie.

for jackie i think its actually fairly simple: its obvious to all of us that what jackie wants most is shauna's authentic and full love, and my personal theory is that the main (and maybe even sole!) function of jackie's hallucinations would be escapism and wish-fulfillment, and imagining that shauna really did love her.

jackie doesn't have a self-destruction/guilt complex like shauna does. jackie, i think, would be able to just feel guilt in a more straightforward way. as well as anger! so in the scenario where shauna freezes after their fight, jackie would certainly be feeling a lot of guilt, but she doesn't need or want shauna to remind her, she could just apologize. and she's feeling a lot of anger, but she'd be able to say it to shauna's (hallucinated) face instead of putting it through some twisted alchemical process that turns it into something else. like, i think she actually does have a chance of getting closure in a way that shauna doesn't because shauna would never let herself get closure because then she'd have nothing left to fuel her guilt/self-destruction complex.

i think jackie would want closure for her immediate anger and guilt about shauna's death, and because she wants it, she'd be capable of getting it. but after that's dealt with (assuming she survives long enough to deal with it), or in a scenario where jackie doesn't know about shauna's betrayal/isn't responsible for her death, i really think (and i just made myself sooo miserable realizing this btw so you're welcome. or i'm sorry) that the thing that would cause jackie eternal and relentless pain for the rest of her life would be the immense regret and the feeling that she didn't love shauna enough, or didn't love her right. and her hallucinations of shauna would, by and large, simply be an outpouring of all the love she didn't get to show her in life (and imagining the reciprocation of that love that she always wished shauna would give her).

Angstpril 2023 Day 1 Prompt: Liar

tw: character having trouble breathing, open ending

Obi-Wan knew, from the moment that he agreed to take on this mission, that it would be difficult.

Faking his death, having to pretend to be someone he wasn't for the sake of his own survival, having to interact with the likes of Cad Bane and Count Dooku himself without getting his cover blown…

Well, he knew from the beginning that it would not be easy.

But none of that was as difficult as it was to return.

The transformation from Rako Hardeen back to his own body was uncomfortable — painful, leaving him shaky and somewhat feverish. The vocal emulator wreaked damage to his vocal chords, and Master Che had confirmed that there was likely some infection in his throat that she'd like to monitor over the coming days.

Which obviously meant that he was stuck in the Halls for now. It wasn't ideal, but considering the fact that he couldn't keep down most foods because of his throat and his entire body ached any time he tried to move at all, he supposed it made sense.

Obi-Wan didn't exactly like it, but even that wasn't the worst part.

Anakin wouldn't speak to him. On the ship when they were returning from Naboo, he'd maintained his distance, and once Obi-Wan had gotten his commlink back, he'd sent Anakin messages frequently, only to receive nothing.

Obi-Wan knew that the deception had upset Anakin. He understood why — more than most, he understood.

But he had hoped that Anakin would also understand why he did it.

"You lied to us," Anakin had said, when Obi-Wan had approached him on the ship. "What else have you lied to me about? Do you even care about any of us?"

Obi-Wan had no response to that — how could he, when he knew that Anakin was right? He did lie to them, after all.

And now he was here, alone, because he did what he knew to be right. Anakin wouldn't speak to him, Ahsoka wouldn't speak to him, Cody wouldn't speak to him, the Council wouldn't speak to him.

He'd succeeded on his mission, and yet —

He'd failed them all.

Letting out a sigh, Obi-Wan placed his commlink back on the table next to the bed. He winced as his throat spasmed at the rush of air, and then he coughed, bending forward slightly to gasp for air.

That seemed to trigger a chain reaction of sorts. The more he gasped for air, the more it irritated his throat, causing him to gasp even more. And the air wasn't even traveling down his throat properly, which meant that —

He couldn't breathe.

He couldn't breathe.

The room seemed to tilt on its axis around him as he shuddered and gasped and placed his forehead on his knees. There was a ringing noise, muffled by the blood rushing in his ears, followed by the sound of footsteps. Voices surrounded him, but he couldn't make them out, not until —

"Obi-Wan?" A hand on his shoulder, pushing him back until he was lying back again, head arching backward in a desperate reach for air. He couldn't speak, couldn't breathe, couldn't —

"Okay, okay, just hold on." The voice was gentle, soothing. "Your throat has swollen up too much. You're not getting enough air."

There were hands holding him down, the hiss of a hypospray, followed by the feeling of everything getting floaty and blurry, until…

His eyes snapped shut, and the memory of his lies that constantly plagued him faded away.