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To continue the tag: that is our blessing from Him for our endurance thru sufferment without a single complaint or a cry of pain, for obeying him without question, showing up and showing out every day, and especially for our actions of refusing to harm them in return. He commanded me twice to retaliate & bc I never did we passed our tests and will be blessed to the maximum so ask away for anything you🖤 want my love you🖤 deserve it and will receive it. He said the only thing we did to them was make their true colors bleed out in the wash, so expose them for who they truly are. Vengeance is His says the Lord and a-fucking-men 2 that. God bless you 2 all the law enforcement (not the crooks) and a massive thank you

A post from Dani Howe, who recently left smosh after working in the marketing team

"From Pet to Threat" - This just happened to me AGAIN and after 10+ years in this biz, I’m sick of having to get over it in silence for fear of being blacklisted, or labeled as “difficult to work with” because I chose to be open about my working experience. I won’t go into details, as this isn’t meant to be that kind of post, but I want to share this research because the “Pet to Threat" phenomena keeps happening to me and so many of my peers, particularly over the last few years here in LA. It’s truly an abusive cycle that repeats for far too many people in the workplace, but especially and aggressively for Black women in the entertainment/media industry. So many of us work extremely hard from a place of love, peace and genuine passion for our crafts. We choose to put our prowess out there, hoping that it’ll be reciprocated with that same authenticity by our leadership/mentors/peers, only to be undermined and vehemently devalued in favor of this insistence for power and control at every turn. I’ll never understand the need to prioritize pettiness & ego over doing the right thing for another team member or putting the best, most collaborative work out there for your company. What’s the point of hiring an expert or someone with big potential, just to diminish them? I'm tired of entering spaces I was promised were full of golden potential and stability, only to have to abruptly leave that space a short while later, lest endure unsafe + toxic working dynamics if I choose to brave it. The feelings of shame, guilt and confusion that come after are all too familiar, and yet they never get any easier to deal with. Constantly being in an anxious place of trying to figure out what went wrong and changing my approach, while the world you left couldn’t even be bothered to think twice about you, feels like a losing game. Why even play anymore? I'm only left jobless with no prospects, broke, and burdened with heavy feelings of sadness that I feel really dumb for having. Because it’s just a job, right? And the house always wins.

Some of you might question why even share all of this. Well, I fully believe transparency is one of the best ways to educate and inspire those around you. By sharing this article and a bit about my experience, I hope others feel encouraged to choose themselves and stop letting lazy business practices suppress their potential. I have no idea what’s next for me - this post has probably tanked any chance of me continuing a career in entertainment marketing. But what I do know is that I’m not accepting being overlooked anymore. Not having my true potential nurtured or recognized because the mentors I believed in would rather act out of insecurity than help me thrive is total BS. I deserve better than that, and so do you. I hope today is the day you know your worth."

Im interested in who are they going to blame now. It was once Defy - but now that it's in the hands of the original creators and owners - the same mistakes seem to be popping up. Hmmm

Also if fans start villanizing her the way they did with Boze and Saige - 👊👊👊 i will find you and i will punch u in the fucking face

Seeing Ian in season 1 puts into perspective the amount of BS he had to go through. Like when I think of things I wish were addressed with more weight, Ian's abuse at the hands of older men is one of them. I know Ian doesn't see it that way but others do (Mickey and Lip) and it feels like it's constantly glossed over. Lip says he wanted to call the police on Kash but he couldn't bring himself to do it. A scene of that would've reinforced just how wrong it is, instead of the situation ending with Kash is a sad middle-aged man and that's why Ian shouldn't want him. Not, Kash is a predator and Ian is a victim.

We can also talk about how both Lip and Debbie are victims of grooming. Grooming was never seriously addressed on the show.

i’m actually so pissed that grooming was never addressed as it was such a big issue for ian, debbie, lip, and also kind of carl but not really (with lori i think her name was, his boss). the only time grooming is ever brought up is with tami but it’s just a one episode thing and it’s irrelevant to the plot tbh.

ian’s situation devastates me because he never ends up thinking it’s wrong. he was constantly objectified by these older men he was with, too. to them he was seen as just a “boy toy” or the “forbidden fruit”. not only were his relationships with kash and ned creepy, but the guys at the club, too. for example, the one who dragged him out of the club, barely conscious, after giving him a roofie. ian graciously accepted the pill like he was used to it, and he probably was. he let this guy drug and grope him, and i always see people saying “imagine what would’ve happened if mickey hadn’t come” and i’ll tell you what would’ve happened, he would’ve been raped. and i can guarantee you with how used to it he was, it had happened before. and i’ll say more about this with lip and debbie, but i firmly believe the reason he indulged into these relationships was to fill the void frank created.

debbie’s situation is also devastating. if you recall, when lip was trying to convince ian that what happened with kash was wrong/grooming people is wrong, he said “ok so what if it was debbie and a 30 year old dude”, ironically, in the next season she gets with a 20 year old dude who for some fucking reason, a good percentage of the fandom sympathizes with/sides with. here’s the real deal: matty groomed her. he was into her, knowing she was 13, but didn’t want to have sex with her, in fear of himself going to prison. prison was the only thing stopping him, he said it himself that he thought she was sexy and wanted to. and before anyone says anything about how debbie did tell him she was 16 at first when he first started to like her, he could obviously tell. the point was that it was obvious she was lying. and yeah, what debbie did was wrong. i’ve said a lot about this before, but what he did was wrong, too. he led her on, flirted with her, promised to have sex with her, slept in the same bed as her, and also talked to all of her friends for some reason, he was a creep!! no grown adult should be hanging out/flirting with an adolescent girl, and it scares me that people defend him. like i said with ian, she was trying to fill a void. not only that, but she was mirroring fiona’s actions. she had seen her sister get into unhealthy relationships, so she did just. and the worst thing was debbie didn’t even like him, it was just comphet. so it was some adult with a one-sided crush on a teenager. creepy. at this time, frank was dying and fiona was working/locked up, she needed attention because she was lacking it, so she went to him for it because she knew he’d give her it.

lip’s situation i have less to say about because technically, he was an adult, but regardless, it was creepy as fuck. more so, his attachment to her was creepy. this is what happens when you get groomed, you grow attached. and lip was so fucking attached it destroyed him when she ignored him. like his siblings, this was to fill the void a parent created. but this time, frank isn’t responsible, monica is. i’ve never really spoken about this despite having a lot to say, but lip and monica’s relationship effects him a lot. i hate to say this, but he’s treated women like shit because of it (i’m not saying he always does, but he has- i’ll explain more in depth sometime) and his mother abandoning him clearly altered his perspective on women. i think that monica leaving made him (and every other sibling, especially debbie) grow attached easily, and i think it also made him lose respect for some women because he just saw his mom in them. i saw a post that explains this a lot better than i am right now so if i find it i’ll definitely link it so it makes more sense.

Yapping about my interpretations of lamb and goat

So tldr; in MY interpretation of the lamb and goats relationship, goat is basically lamb’s sibling- expect their from another universe.

(Feel free to have your own interpretations-)

So for context, my lamb is a girl failure called Eve (she/it). Blah blah last sheep in the lands of the old faith. She was so desperate to keep living she accepted the deal from Narinder reluctantly. She probably leads her cult with manipulation and the promise of good food and warm beds!!! She is sorta afraid of herself and the road she is going down, but ultimately, she wants to survive and be happy. The type of person who prepares heavily each cursade.

And in a sense i want to characterize goat as a foil for Eve.

For the time being I’m calling it Cain (it/he). Cain is a lot more confident and eager for a challenge! It often does stuff on the fly, such as running into battle, for it is secure in its own abilities. It runs its cult with intimidation and the promise of safety. Though like Eve, Cain is afraid- of the future, of itself, of what it can’t control- so it always must go go go. Cain wants revenge. It wants those who hurt it to suffer the same way it did

These two butt heads often, but at the same days, are perfectly in sync.

Beyond this is just yapping about my lamb’s backstory and the alternative universe this goat comes from

Eve and Cain knew each other from when they were little. When Eve was just a lamb, her mother (Esther) begged to be allowed to hide in a village unaffiliated with the old faith. Most of the villagers did not want the trouble, but Cain’s father and traveling merchant, Abraham, refused to just leave Esther and her baby out to die.

So Esther and Abraham made a deal (not really? It wasn’t verbalized). Abraham would take Esther with him and hide her when her can, and Esther would help Abraham make the fleeces he sells + help care for Cain- as It’s mother died in childbirth.

Abraham is a very sweet man!! Basically treats Eve like his own daughter! Slowly over the next decade or so Esther and Abraham kinda fall in love and kinda become a thing! Life is as good as it can be, and the family makes plans to leave the lands of the old faith for good when they have the money.

Cain and Eve aren’t to far apart in age. Cain is older by about a year or two. The two often went on small adventures (much to their parents dismay) under the cover of night and had pretend sword fights with sticks! They dreamed of being able to run around freely!!!

But uh, about the year the lamb turned eighteen the old faith finally catches up to them. In the resulting confrontation, let’s just say Eve escaped and survived and the rest of her family didn’t. Eve would live on the run for the next three years, with the guilt of being the only survivor.

Part of her made the pact with narinder in hopes he may have the capabilities to bring them back. But alas, the red crown can only revive those devoted to it.

Meanwhile in an alternative timeline, goats are the ones being hunted and this whole thing happens in reverse. Also!!! In this universe, shamura is the god of death (hence why the crown is purple but not shamura usual crown) and locked away.

So yeah multiverse BS is happening

But hey Eve and Cain get to see each other again.

Ugh, alright, it is ANNOYING me that people are saying that Gojo’s supposed lack of response to the deaths of Nanhami and the others is “in character”, and citing certain panels and instances of him acting apathetic or unbothered by serious situations as proof that he doesn’t care about anyone or isn’t emotionally affected by anyone’s death.  I call BS on that, big time.

The very fact that Gojo got sealed away in the first place is proof in and of itself that he’s emotionally impacted.  Kenjeku got the jump on him, and was ONLY able to get the jump on him because he knew he would have an emotional response to seeing Geto’s body up and about, and it would give him enough time to spring his trap. 

I don’t get how people can miss this about Gojo’s character, but I’m gonna’ spell it out for all of you who don’t seem to have functioning brains.  Gojo’s attitude of apathy is an act.  It’s a facade, a mask he wears to protect himself emotionally.  He’s DEEPLY affected by the pain and suffering of his friends, and by the deaths of others.  He reached the level of power he currently has because he was so devastated by the events of the Hidden Inventory arc.  These same people who say Gojo’s apparent lack of emotion now tracks with his personality, even talking about how he killed his best friend like it wasn’t a big deal, conveniently ignore the way Gojo reacted when he realized he was going to have to kill Geto.  He was devastated, and he couldn’t bring himself to do it at first.  He only did it after he was left no choice, when Geto began to threaten his students.

So get the fuck outta’ here with this bullshit that Gojo doesn’t care, or has no real emotion toward anyone, or that there’s something wrong with him, like he’s a sociopath or something.  He isn’t.  Acting apathetic is just his way of coping with the pain he’s feeling.  It’s always been that way.  He acts like a detached goofball so he can keep functioning in a world and in a life which has, essentially, robbed him of everything he cares about. 

Why the hell do you think he wanted so badly to change the way the Jujutsu world works?  Why do you think he was trying to raise a next generation of students who would create a better Jujutsu world in which nobody had to die alone? 

So people complaining about not seeing enough emotion from Gojo after his unsealing have a right to, because they understand that Gojo’s apathy isn’t who he really is.  I see some lording it over these people as if they have a superior understanding, or better comprehension of Gojo and the story, which is hilarious, because it’s the exact opposite.  People that thought and expected to see Gojo being more upset are the ones who have the better understanding of his character and the story. 

With that said, I’m sure that Gojo IS incredibly upset, he’s just not showing it, as usual, because he has a job to accomplish.  But to think that he’s unaffected by all of this is absurd.  He is.  I promise he is. 

Theories Time!

Why the Shirai-Ryu is always terminated in every timeline?

I will give 6 theories to this, they may seem impossible to believe but, that’s what theories are! I brainstormed my brain for these theories especially!

So let’s start with the first theory. It seems very very weak but let’s hear it out!

1-(Related to the fire god) Rate:30%

Shirai-Ryu is related to the fire god of Earthrealm. In Mk mythologies Subzero, they stated that other gods are protecting Earthrealm. Fire, earth, and water. One of them is fire and it is connected with everything that is fire-form. And Shirai-Ryu colours are black, yellow, and orange. Related to the fire-colours theme and stuff. Tbh, everything about the Shirai-Ryu is related to fire. Even the gardens! They are called “the fire gardens” it has fiery-orange leaves and plants! coincidence? I don’t think so! So the theory is. Shirai-Ryu is strong and they are related to the fire god of Earthrealm. If they aren’t terminated they will be a force to reckon with.

Quan chi knew about this and he wanted a strong, loyal slave and that is Hanzo Hasashi. He knew that Hanzo has a connection to fire, So, he killed him and terminated the clan with the help of their enemy the “Lin-Kuei”. And recruited Hanzo to be his slave. Decades later Hanzo knew about this and plotted vengeance against those who killed his family. Not just Quan chi who wanted Hanzo’s clan and family termination It was also Shinnok, Kronika, Cetrion, and the Titans! Which means there is a reason we don’t know! Now! Tell me why Kronika and the Titans want a family, or clan to be terminated. It is either of two either they are very powerful if given time to develop. Or they are related to someone who is powerful hint: the fire god!

Note: TBH the Titans involved in this baffles me.🤦🏻‍♀️But I’m willing to go with it. That is the first theory! Now let’s move to the second one!

2-(A prophecy of fall), Rate: 20%

This… is hard to believe but bear with me!

After Takeda escapes the Lin-Kuei to form a clan in his homeland Japan. A lot of the lords admired this idea and started to join the Shirai-Ryu. The Shirai-Ryu now has more students, and new techniques were made by Takeda a former Lin-Kuei. And more masters of martial arts. The Lin-Kuei is scared and mad because of this, So they asked Quan Chi. An infamous necromancer to help them, In return, Takeda made a deal with a sorcerer, Takeda Or the sorcerer broke the deal and told him of a prophecy about the fall of the Shirai-Ryu, Takeda didn’t know what to do about this. He was so deep in thought that he wasn’t aware of the poisoned tea, that was served to him. And he died by drinking poisoned tea.

3-(The Lin-Kuei’s revenge) Rate:100%

TBH, this isn’t a theory! this is what happened according to the lore.

The Shirai-Ryu came after Takeda an ex-Lin-Kuei escaped from China and returned to his homeland Japan to create a clan equal and strong to the Lin-Kuei. the Lin-Kuei have an enemy now. It is known that the stronger and the older clan will target the newly made Shirai-Ryu and plot its demise. The Shirai-Ryu grows bigger and Takeda developed the art of ninjutsu. He even offered his services to the generals and the lords of japan.

The Lin-Kuei made a pact with the infamous necromancer Quan chi. If they retrieved the amulet, Quan chi would destroy their enemy. And that happened as we know it.

4-(A Revenge for the fallen elder god Shinnok) 40%

Back to the Titans again! Remember when Raiden said Shinnok tried to conquer Earthrealm once in the past? Yes, One of the Shirai-Ryu ancestors helped Raiden to fight Shinnok and they won over Shinnok. Kronika promised revenge on all those who fought against her son and won. Kronika is driven by Vengeance What Raiden said, (what drives Kronika isn’t vengeance is BS) she is capable of feeling such emotions. Even Shinnok himself is bitter and angry! Her son is a proof! So, What happened is more than the Lin-Kuei's involvement in the massacre of the Shirai-Ryu. It’s much deeper and darker too. This is a strong motivation for Quan Chi to be involved. After all, He is Shinnok servant. Yes, I would say this is personal for them to attack the Shirai-Ryu only, leaving The Lin-Kuei alone.

5-(simply, prone to destruction) 100%

It’s safe to say that they are doomed to destruction as always, as in every timeline. The reason is unknown. However, I can guess! But there is nothing special about the Shirai-Ryu other than the fact that they are Lin-Kuei enemies and their founder is a former Lin-Kuei member! Sometimes, I have this feeling. That, the creator of MK. Just wants them to suffer, to be alive only for a few years then, boom! They are dead now. I think the reason they exist is only to benefit Hanzo/Scorpion's background. That's it! Don’t hate me okay? 😁.

6- (a curse befell them) rate:0.1% very very weak and unlikely to be the reason.

I have this theory. Where, One of the Shirai-Ryu elders mocked the Elder Gods/Gods, and that man is a blasphemer, In return, the Elder gods cursed them all. With pure destruction that erased all their bloodlines. Due to a man's actions, They are all doomed. TBH my only proof in this theory, is Where Hanzo says to Raiden (I worship no gods) in a quote-round, Search it up!

Note: I ran out of ideas. Lol 😝

Now! We reached the end of the “why the Shirai-Ryu is always terminated!”, I hope you all enjoyed reading this! You can suggest topics to let me make theories about them! Don’t be shy! 😉 Xoxoxo 🖤🖤💋💋😘

Belt & Suspenders

No, this is not related to my pants.

It is related to:

The two companies hired to provide furniture a model room at a hotel renovation. Since one company has over promised and under delivered (still not delivered yet). Also the 2nd company has exceeded our expectations.

The two companies that are currently racing to provide the drapery in said hotel room. In fact one company supplied the other with the fabric. Then said, ummm hey, can fabricate and install also. I’d like to get the entire 510 room renovation. I’ll jump through fire for you.

The vendor that is using 3 different companies to figure out how to buy and ship (1) 55” tv and (1) wall mount for said room.

And finally just added this morning….

The Wife™️ who is dealing with her medical provider and the hormone replacement BS that there compounding pharmaceutical companies are shoveling.

Too bad Sweetie, nobody wants to make the cheap shit anymore. So you might have to go back to the expensive stuff that doesn’t last as long. That is the way of the world.

So way the risk of not getting the stuff vs. paying $200 for a tiny bottle.

Also, last I checked you don’t really have any income coming in. So don’t really worry about the money. I could always re-instate my “Wal-Mart Parking Lot Handjobs for Cash Program”. Because I have so much free time these days.

My morning was going so good. I was firing on all cylinders. Directly in line with the thought process of the guy I report to. In fact, he basically told everyone that they need to listen to me.

I’m not going to let her anger about this situation ruin my day. I’ll figure out a way to pay for it, I always do.

I’ll let my new chiropractor ruin my day later on this afternoon. I’ve been warned that she’s a small Asian woman and heavy handed. Might be just what I need to break the tension.

whoever posted that story about their dad asking for money PLEASE PUT IT ON REDDIT

I thought about it but I know some of my cousins have reddit, and nine out of ten times they end up on tiktok and almost half of my family has tiktok so I’m scared they’ll see the post😭 I can just imagine seeing a “am I the asshole” post getting send my way if I do post this on reddit💀💀💀

As for now, my family is still pissed and some of them are calling me a ‘monster’ and ‘heartless’ because I don’t want to give him money or talk to him😬 Hurts my heart cutting them out of my life, but I’ll protect my peace at any cost. I still have so much trauma from my childhood because of him and I’m still dealing with it. He also admitted that he doesn’t care about my well being, he just wanted the money…so I’m still baffled that they’re taking his side in all of this. I’m still scared he’ll show up at my job again so idk what to do tbh.

No but fr, fathers are shit and they make up all these excuses for being shitty and saying that it’s their “first time” as if they were forced to have kids??? Don’t have kids unless you’re sure you can take care of them. And they ALWAYS make empty promises like “I’ll change, I promise” and all that bs💀 (this is not targeted to people who have lovely dads, cherish them as much as you can!)

Girl you’re literally living in a Reddit story!

Good on you for not listening to your gaslighting family! I hope your father stays well away from you!

Sorry for bothering you all. I’m over this shitshow and my life . I used to come here for a needed distraction and now everything is a topic of discussion and after dealing with all the bs since November…..everything is triggering. But my aggressive has nothing to do with Chris, celeb gossip or any of you. I just suck as a human and I wish I’d just never existed. I’m in a mood, sorry for fussing Sophia. //

Hey hey now, it’s okay. You seem overworked and overwhelmed.

I need you to find a spot, close your eyes and just inhale and exhale, like right now…

Inhale, 1234……hold….1234 exhale

Keep going.

You’re going to fine sweetie, today or the past few months or years may have been challenging but look at you, you’re still here and that’s what matters.

Yes we all come here to gossip and what not, but it’s still real people behind these anons. You can vent it’s okay, we’re hear the listen if you want.

Nap work wonders after a long hard day.

Cartoons always help me too. Go get some food, or just sit in silence for a while and focus on your breath. You got this love, it’s going to be okay, I promise you that. *hugs you*

Anon

July 🕶 2023 Monthly - Taurus

Whole of your energy: Death

This feels like this is the other side of the coin from Pisces’ reading, it’s eerily similar, could be dealing with one or it’s a crosswatching read for either side, wondering how the other would react or how they feel. You’re dealing with someone you know to be a bit of “a disaster”, it’s like drama follows them everywhere they go. 3 Cups shows them as a friend of yours, or friendly with you at least, whoever they are, could be a fire sign or they could have a placement somewhere, fiery energy. The situation seems to be over completely, for now, with Death, but you constantly wonder if you should reach out, “be nice”, try to get them back into your life again. Under all of this other bs, you feel 3 Cups, this person is/was your friend, they mean something to you and you care about them…but they have a lot of baggage that comes with that.

What’s going on in July:

King of Pentacles:

You are completely stable in your life, this is your own energy of running a career, home life, finances, relationships, all with a steady and reliable dedication. You mean what you say and you don’t promise anything you don’t intend to keep, you’re not a time waster, very practical. Clarifying, you have your matching Queen, you may not be fully committed to them just yet but it’s something you both desire. Marriage, children, a stable foundation to pass on through the generations, and you’re the pair that runs 10 Pentacles most comfortably, with ease 😌

King of Wands:

This is this other person, the “mess”, they are someone with charisma, confidence, are probably a lot of fun, that’s why you like to be around them. They get a lot of attention for whatever they do, just being themselves, they’re one to crave the spotlight and it follows them naturally. They’re clarified by The Devil, 9 Swords & The Fool. Knight of Wands shows up later with disaster, I’m getting a very impulsive and immature vibe from this person. To them, it’s a good thing. To you, it’s messy. The Devil indicates that they are trapped in a negative cycle of behavior, they haven’t yet learned the necessary lessons. For some, this could be depression, or mental health on some level. You’re always worried about the next random spontaneous (foolish) thing they’re going to do. You care about them, and also kinda think the worst of them.

6 Swords:

You and your person have moved away from the drama this King of Wands creates or has created in your life. It could’ve been them that’s left you two behind as well. You’ve been kind when you hear from them, maybe giving towards them, could be giving actual money or gifts if this person is a close family member or friend, you help them out however you can. But for the most part, you don’t have much to do with them either because of physical or emotional distance. They tend to take off on adventures. Or you’ve just backed off awhile. Both.

The Tower:

I don’t see this as what’s happening, I see this as what’s being left behind or distanced from with 6 Swords. This King, on their immature days, has impulsive Knight energy where they just rush into things acting all crazy, stirring up a bunch of drama, competition, and other chaotic crap you just don’t want to deal with. Both Tower and Knight move quickly, unexpectedly, out of left field. You never know what’s going to happen with them, and Pentacles people like feeling secure. Especially Taurus. You’re the type to budget money five years in advance, we don’t do impulsive Towers in Pentacle land, this is not the way 🚀 The last encounter you had with this person probably involved some drama, and you’re just expecting more drama if you would try to message them or check up on them. But you think about it, you want to, because you care.

The Moon:

No progress by the end of the month, I’m not sure what brings them to mind, but you’re thinking about this a lot, and there is a lot of fear and confusion in regards to what you should do. You’re being told to wait for inspiration, intuitive messages, which you’ll receive unexpectedly. You don’t know if you want to stay friends or if you should just cut this off and walk away for your own peace of mind. Mostly for stability. You can’t be stable with chaotic people in and out of your life with drama, because this option shows 8 Cups, leaving a situation behind looking for your 9th Cup, your dream. 9 Cups is with your person & 10 Pentacles, the happy stable family. I don’t know if you can separate that from them, or if you fear this person negatively affecting what you have. For signs, every fixed sign is here, which could apply, or could be showing the fixed challenge, which is accepting other perspectives outside of their own. Judgmental attitudes. There is no one “right” to anything, just your opinion vs. theirs. An astronaut may not understand a priest, and a farmer might understand the genetic engineer, but it doesn’t make one right and the others wrong. Charmaine can refer to gossip & talking shit, it may not even be you but others around you. Your person? Boundaries are necessary, judgement is not 💚

Signs you may be dealing with:

Capricorn, Aquarius, Leo, Taurus, Scorpio, Aries & Pisces

Oracles: ✨

17 - Flash

A creative flash of inspiration will come to you and quickly give you the perfect solution.

18 - Start

You must start from where you are, examine your situation, and take a chance.

6 Discernment 🤨

As spiritual, physical, and energetic beings, we oftentimes blur the lines between our energy, the energy of a situation, and the energy of another person. When we take on other people’s energy and label it as our own, we start to judge. This lowers our energetic vibrations. We then get caught up in a seemingly never-ending cycle of feeling “bad” labeling, justifying, and appropriating what is not ours to claim. The lesson here, is to simply be present, not label or judge, and let the energy/feeling wash over you. Once you do this, notice where in your body do you feel the effects of the emotion. Does your heart open up? Does your belly hurt? Does your throat get tight? Your head can lie to you, but your body never does. It is easy to become overwhelmed. Make a habit of making your first response to overwhelming energy: “Wow, that’s interesting!” instead of “What’s wrong with me?” This allows you to objectively discover how and why your body reacts in any way to a given situation or person. This card is asking you to stop looking outside yourself for answers to an issue. Instead, sit with it and listen to what your body is telling you.

We enter into July as:

Grass 🌱:

“Your message to others is best expressed by being uniquely you.”

The time is right for you to move on from anything holding you back from full self-expression. You are being told to break away. Be different. Be unique. It is time to grow! It could be time to plan a change of scenery. Take a tour, go to a spa, get into shape, visit a foreign place, learn a new skill, depart from the mundane. Take the chance you’ve always wanted to. Most importantly, grow. This is an indication you also need to become more in touch with your spiritual side. You’ve strayed from your inner voice, Spirit invites you back. It is time for your personal growth.

What is to be learned in July:

Charmaine Chartreuse 🗣

“I never met a person I didn’t like.”

Charmaine Chartreuse suggests you begin finding the good in others. So much is lost when we do not appreciate those around us, for we lose the wonderful gifts of who they are. Appreciating differences will enrich your present situation. This can be a warning that you’ll lose a valued relationship if you do not appreciate what you have. Thinking the best of another person is more powerful than putting them down. Do not attempt to choose sides. Getting others to agree with you that someone else is wrong will also backfire, you may find yourself alone if you are not thoughtful. Wasting energy focusing on something you shouldn’t is also denoted here. Gossip is an indication you’re not focusing on your own life. What we think may not be the truth of the matter. Be aware now of how you speak of another, for the things you say will come back to you at this time. “Doing your own thing” may leave you lonely, and an aloof attitude may lead others to believe you don’t like them, when that isn’t true. If you’re feeling cut-off, consider that others may be waiting for you, and take a cue from Charmaine, being kind is called for from you, even if others are behaving in an inappropriate way.

Green may be a lucky color 💚

I love writing Cami/Spencer scenes/dialogue a little too much. I can't stop re-reading this scene. I need to so I can write the next one

I needed a distraction. It occurred to me that Spencer was probably lingering around here somewhere, this seemed to be his usual hiding place. Rising from my seat, I went to search through the aisles. 

I found him standing in the historical fiction section, poring over a thick book. 

I approached slowly, hands raised. “I come in peace.” 

His eyes flicked up to me, then back down to the page. “What do you want?” Tone flat and disinterested as always.

“Hello to you, too. I’m doing fantastic, thank you for asking.” 

He looked up briefly once again. “What do you want?” 

Shrugging, I shoved my hands into my front pockets. “Nothing. I was just bored, I needed a distraction and I knew you’d be here.” 

He squinted at me. “Not a single part of that sentence followed a logical progression of thought.” 

I scoffed. “Would it kill you to be a decent human being for like, I don’t know, five minutes?”

“I’m assuming that’s a rhetorical question.” 

Turning away, I kicked at the base of the bookshelf in frustration. Feeling my mind drifting back to my dilemma, I found myself telling him the truth. “I’m hiding, if you must know. Someone asked me a question I don’t have an answer for and I can’t face them until I do.” 

He shut his book and slid it back onto the shelf. ”I love all this extraneous information I didn’t ask for.”  

I rolled my eyes. “You’re right. My breath is wasted on you.” 

“You promise?” 

I scowled. 

Fingers hovering over book spines, he inspected each one and then slid out a thin book with a red cover.

“I swear you always have a different book in your hand,” I observed. “Why do you love reading so much?” 

His gaze snapped over to me sharply. “That’s a pretty stupid question. Especially coming from you.”

I immediately went on the defensive. “What the hell’s that supposed to mean?” Why was every word that left my mouth immediately met with hostility?  

Thumbing through the book in his hand, he said, “You draw, right?” I was surprised he remembered that. He’d only ever seen me draw that one time. "Why?” 

I was caught off guard by him throwing the question back at me. I thought for a second. “I enjoy creating, dreaming up things. Then taking an idea from my imagination and making it tangible. ” 

“That was a cute little rehearsed response.” His blue eyes pinned me to the spot. “Now what’s the actual reason?” 

I clenched my jaw at his demanding tone. Digging deeper, I pulled out a more truthful, vulnerable reply. “Drawing helps me escape. To somewhere where I feel safe and in control. Everything is my own making and mine alone. It helps me block out or deal with all the BS and unfairness around me.” 

His gaze lingered on me, then slowly fell away, focusing on nothing in particular. “Out here, I’m just average, a kid,” he spoke the word kid with such disdain,”whose life is meaningless, inconsequential.” Closing the book in his hand, he returned it to the shelf, the spine still at his fingertips. “In here, life means something. It has purpose. In here,” he said quietly, almost in a daze, “I can be extraordinary.” 

Lips parted, I watched him closely, baffled and in awe. For a moment, he seemed to forget I was even standing there, and I swear, but couldn’t be sure, that in that small frame of time, I caught the tiniest sliver of vulnerability within him. But once he caught me staring, his face hardened, hand dropping to his side.

“Good luck playing hide and seek.” He turned and left.

MAG11 - Dreamer, review and stuff

Diversity wins! The guy who dreamed about your death is gay!

I was hesitant to write this one because I didn't know where to start. Not because it isn't good, I love every single episode of The Magnus Archives, this whole exercise (reviews etc) brings up a few questions to me, what's the point of consuming horror media if I am not scared by it? Can I truly review it if I'm not scared?

And, in relation to MAG11, is death scary?

Well, personally I find the horror genre intriguing, and highly dramatic. It's a dark fantasy that you won't have the chance to experience in real life (or at least, I hope so xD). TMA plays with probability, rather than impossibility, even if there are some fantastic elements in the mix. Every episode is a promise, or a threat, horror and fear would find you anywhen and anywhere. Not even the Dreamer is safe from this promise.

Can I review the hell out it? Yep, yes I can. I can be objective, and I can analyze how well constructed everything is. Have you ever reached episode 200 and made a relisten? Do it, you won't regret it.

Death is scary, is the only certainty in life and at the same time, is paradoxically, uncertain. Everything ends, that much we know, and Antonio Blake doesn't seem to think there's nothing after.

I always think about this quote from Doctor Who when thinking about death, maybe it's useful for you

(Transcript: Peter Capaldi's Twelfth Doctor in The Return of Doctor Mysterio, "Things end. That's all. Everything ends and it's always sad. But everything begins again too and that's always happy. Be happy.)

And talking about quotes, let's comment some bits from the episode:

"I’d broken up with Graham, my boyfriend of six years (...)" - Antonio Blake, March 14th 2015

Yes, yes, weird thing to remark, but hear me out: Graham? Graham?? Is the same Graham as in Graham Folger????

"It was there, sleeping on my friend Anahita’s sofa, in the depths of my misery, that I first started to have the dreams." - Also Mr Blake

Woah, take a seat misery etc, I'm this dramatic too

"I found myself standing atop the very peak of Canary Wharf and overlooking the Barclays building where I had spent so many hateful hours. Behind me I could feel the pulsing beat of the light that stands atop that looming tower; it thrummed through me and I could see the glow pass across my skin like oil but, try as I might, I could not turn around to look at it." - I don't know why it's so appealing.

I tried to recreate it with a screenshot from Google Earth and Photoshop, the result doesn't convince me but it's pretty close xD

"Lucid dreaming has never been a skill I’ve possessed, and I generally get swept along in the current of whatever runs though my sleeping consciousness." - I love it when horror characters get logical, like, uhm, this shouldn't be possible, sir, this is a Wendy's

"And by my estimation he had appeared about ten days before his death. I tell you this because I feel you have a right to know the sort of timescales that we’re dealing with here." - Antonio "may as well just roll with it" Blake

He is so chill about all of this, isn't he? Like, yeah, I have this weird ass powers, I figured out more or less how they work and hey, you're next

"I’m well aware that I don’t even know your name, and I have no responsibility to try and prevent whatever fate is coming for you." - Antonio "I'm doing it anyway because I'm that chill and cool" Blake

"At the very least, you should look into appointing a successor." - LMAO

" I have no idea if Gertrude got the chance to read this statement before she passed away, but if anyone comes in ranting about dreaming my death, then I very much want to hear about it." - Jon "anything is bs except Leitners and prophecies about my death" Sims, April 15th 2016

Sir, with all due respect, wtf

General overview:

Vibe: it's mysterious with a side of peace and quiet

Horror: spooky, just plain old good spooky

Audio: pretty ASMR in general

Humour: Jon, why are u like this

Score: 10/10

Ok this hasn’t been asked abt BUT

I got OrangeJuiceVerse Stan on the brain (again)

Specifically in terms of his protectiveness.

In the last OJV ask I got I mentioned that he and Kyle have the most parental tendencies of the Star Seven, and boy oh boy do I have some thoughts on Stan’s knight in shining armor complex!

I won’t get into the Kyle part of that bc 1) I have talked wayyyy too much abt that on ao3 and here, and 2) that’s a whole separate long ass post and I would probably combust.

But!!! First focusing on the M5:

So growing up together they were all generally referred to as “Stan’s Gang”, which he was like wait why are they my gang but then he grew to love that bc they were his people. He loves them with all of his soul (ojverse Stan is a lover for sure) and he is EXTREMELY protective of everyone and kind of (smh this man) sees himself as the dad of the crew. Done with everyone’s bs, the “fun” parent. A lot of that comes from his resentment of Randy, his desire to keep everyone out of true danger and not be flaky despite his own problems. This is especially poignant with Kenny.

So Stan and Kyle VERY much see Kenny as “their egg” (yes I’m borrowing from the “Stan is a protective father” note of that episode) and they really look out for him growing up bc of his shitty home life. Really all of the M5 have a soft spot for Ken, but Stan and Kenny understand each other on a spiritual level. Though Stan doesn’t consciously know abt Kenny’s immortality and IS his Ride Or Die Disaster Bi in all things reckless, the second something goes wrong he’s there, swooping in and reminding him that “yeah you can be a crazy bastard, but don’t you dare die”. He’s less overbearing than Ky gets when Kenny gets hurt, but he’s there to be like “hey man you’re good, you gotta be careful tho”. He was the first to INSIST that he pay kenny in full for his art and commissions stuff regularly through their entire lives.

With Marj, it’s really, really complex. I mentioned before in my OJV Stan hcs (thank you to the wife for that ask btw) that he was the first person she went to when she realized she was a girl! Bc he’s always been pretty emotionally honest and accepting of everything, and she was dealing with her crush on Kenny too and Stan notoriously THINKS he’s slick in being a massive simp so two birds one stone lmao. He was pretty clueless at first but that protective instinct kicked in and he was like GIRL WE GONNA FIND YOU SOME RESOURCES! Also, I’ll do a post abt how NO ONE in the OJV Star Seven is neurotypical soon, but i briefly mentioned in The Wacky Adventures of Craig And Kyle that Marjorine has the ‘tism as well, and Stan is NOT the person to go to when you’re having a meltdown, but rest assured he WILL get you to someone who is. Like she can tell him “Stan I’m feelin a little…” and he will IMMEDIATELY find her Kenny or Kyle. Kyle’s obviously his go to when things are out of his emotional scope, and that extends to Craig later down the line.

So TWEEK!!! Oh god Tweek and Stan’s relationship in the OrangeJuiceVerse is so important to me. They’re the first encounter of the Broken Bottles Quartet, and that moment when Kyle figures out about Tweek’s problem, Stan was full man-with-the-plan mode about how to help him! Before he takes Tweek to AA, he’s at ye ol’ meetin’ hall talking to the old geezers in the local group and it’s like:

“Hey, Stanny Boy, good to see you back, how you healin up (smh I did break his ribs for good reason I promise) got anything to share?” “Actually yeah, I’m gonna bring someone with me in a few days, but you guys HAVE to give him space he gets really nervous.” And the longtime AA peeps who are prone to being overly friendly back off and let Tweek just listen that first time, and Stan is consistently checking in and with Stan’s support Tweek slowly gets more comfortable, and Stan is SO fucking proud of him and he’s his sponsor for a LONG ASS TIME before he officially is.

As for Cartman, once he moves away, Stan will call him up pretty frequently to check in, like “hey fatass how’s the wedding planning company coming?” “Fuck off, hippie did you get the-“ “YES I got the beef jerky club membership quit sending me that shit” “heh, sweet.” “Asshole, but seriously are you doing okay?” “Yes you photosynthesizing dildo. The Jew looks tired in his last facebook post check on him” “I got him, Cartman” “you guys are assholes” “we love you too” “gross” smh theyre so unserious.

But yeah that’s this episode of me not shutting tf up abt OrangeJuiceVerse

I’m seriously getting fucking passed off right because I just cannot be happy about anything right now and I just can’t deal with this anymore because this is ridiculous. This is pissing me off and I have every God damn right to be pissed off because I’m over all of the BS. First it’s the toilet fiasco in the last 2 days and now I’m dealing with the fact that my Mom is in the hospital without me knowing exactly why, but I assume that it likely has something to do with her blood pressure or her chest as I hope for a speedy recovery so that my Mom can get out of the hospital because the Holidays are quickly approaching and not too long ago she just have been released from the hospital and her breathing is better, but I have to wear a mask around my Mom for at least 5 days. Personally, It’s always about something because it appears that God has been turning against me at every turn and it’s frustrating that God and myself included have been having a complicated time to permanently see eye to eye without even having to cave to Michigan State haters because of me to me these mudafuckers are absolutely the worst human beings that I’ve ever seen. Me and God could have and should have had a golden opportunity to have permanent solutions to any issues and problems before the 2023 college football season even started and yet Michigan State haters rejected it because they refuse to allow Michigan State football to have an 11-1 record in 2022 and now in 2023, but my point is that the fall of 2023 is the worst part of 2023 because of internal conflict with conservative Instagram and gaming Discord, Twitch and YouTube. With the way that I’m having to be in a position repeat myself when I should never be in a position to do so is extremely annoying and exhausting and that to me is seriously my biggest pet peeve. People on social media wants to do whatever the fuck they when my Dad is around and is not working on days when he’s supposed to work, but when he’s at work and I’m around that’s somehow supposed be a problem when all they’re doing is being one sided about it and do exactly the opposite of being civil and fair while defending him at every single turn and refuse to allow me to hold him accountable whenever I see fit and on top of that they just expect to do everything for him without me holding accountable and responsible while making father and son accommodations mandatory and not giving in return, so obviously that’s the part that’s foul to me. As a result of that, I’ll guarantee God and anybody in person and/or on social media there will be serious consequences and I promise you that and I’m not even kidding because I’m being 100,000,000,000,000% serious about it. Being fair is something that I enjoy as far as playing video games, but when certain don’t have any interest in the genre that I’m interested in and refuse to do so, that’s when it should be time to stop catering to people who don’t care about certain categories, specifically when it comes and pertains to the subject of wrestling. Personally, most people will have a favorable view on wrestling, but not everybody in the entire globe is likely to have a favorable view of wrestling, so not everybody is going to be forced to tune into wrestling, not even my family. Why? Because mot all of my family members want to have anything to do with wrestling, especially with the WWE because they don’t even watch WWE, so I look at it in a way that they’re not interested and I have a right to not be obligated to play WWE2K23 because at the end of the day I’m not going to be obligated to play WWE2K23 for my Dad and not being obligated to do so has absolutely nothing to do with me being disrespectful and being selfish at the same time and I told God about it and what I’m disappointed about it is that God decided to link my favorite teams to lose because me not wanting to play WWE2K23 for people who refuse to have anything to do with WWE is ludicrous and I’m sick & tired of it, so the high level of catering about this has to stop and it needs to come to a permanent end like right now.

Kurt Glee Rewatch: Wheels

Yay, finally a Kurt heavy ep! I’ll try to restrain my Schuester-rants this time.... no promises...

Oops, already annoyed at Will. 

I do love how they always bring up a number for competition bc relevant to plot of ep, and then none of the songs are ever used in competition loll.

And ughh I’m so sick of Will. He just hands the solo to Rachel... no discussion... no auditions. Mercedes only gets to sing sometimes bc she fights for it. Everyone else just sits in the background like omg Will, the point of a teacher is to help all the kids, build them all up. If one isn’t as strong a singer, then freaking teach them ugh.

I literally never see Will actually teach these kids, honestly. He teaches Finn dance? but that’s it.

You can also see a trend, where Will supports Finn and Rachel, then Artie in this ep... later Sam when he joins? But he ignores the students like Mercedes, Santana, and Kurt... who are more likely to talk back/call him out on his bs. 

This outfit kills me. Wouldn’t mind the jacket with something else? But otherwise... wow.

I do love how hype everyone is when he says he wants to audition, they all want to choose him over Rachel lol.

The fact that Will doesn’t know Kurt can hit a high F is a sure sign he hasn’t done vocal training with most of these kids.

If he actually cared about being a music teacher, wouldn’t he love the chance to work with a countertenor, use that range and help Kurt hone his skill??

And as we go on, there will be more rants about how Kurt basically never gets a solo in competition with ND. Just.....oh boy, I will rant.

Another amazing Kurt and Burt scene.... Now I can gush yay.

First of all, Kurt has become such a caretaker for his dad.

Then Burt immediately knows something’s up bc even while distant, he still knows Kurt the best.

And after the coming out, Burt still isn’t perfect. He is not ready to deal with Kurt liking a guy. When Kurt makes the pregnancy joke, Burt loses his appetite. He’s clearly still a bit uncomfortable with that part of being gay.

But, when it comes to the solo, Burt is there. He’s in immediate dad mode because if anyone pushes his son around, he is ready to throw hands.

And he’s serious about it. He doesn’t stop at getting the tryout, he asks who’s going to judge because he wants to make sure Kurt gets his chance, fair and square.

Ugh, I love Burt. He still has room to grow here, but he is the best dad ever.

I mean, we all know that if he hit that note everyone would vote for him bc of popularity lol.

Also omg Rachel. An audition is ruining her life? Do you expect to be given every role and never have to audition?? Do you not understand how performing arts work???

I wonder how painful this was for Chris bc he’s actually a ninja and would never drop the baton loll

I love Kurt’s spotting while he practices, treating it the same as a pirouette.

Another great scene. Just, the tremble in Burt’s voice bc it’s not that he disapproves of Kurt singing. He truly is scared bc he doesn’t want his son to get hurt. There this dangerous line of he wants Kurt to get to be who he is, but too much and things could go very badly.

And I love the little mentions of the mom we get as show goes on. Do wish we learned more tho? But you can def get that Kurt is a lot like his mother. But also like his dad omg, with the stubborn and the talking back to every bully etc. And the burying of emotions...

Aww, they’re all there for Kurt. And Mike’s giving support! This friendship is so background, we get zero actual convo

Then the performance (with amazing spider brooch).

I will say, the autotune here is a bit much. Also, Kurt doesn’t have his confidence yet so there’s the hand on hip that doesn’t really fit the tone? Then he has this little leg bounce that makes him seem uncomfortable. It is his first real solo so makes sense.

They do a close up on Santana sending Rachel a Look as Kurt sings which is great. We know who she was going to vote for.

And Kurt also gives Schue a look at ‘I’m through accepting limits, ‘cuz someone said they’re so’ like oof, the Shade.

I like how you can see the emotions on Kurt’s face as he sings, as he’s planning to throw the note.

Lowkey, even though Kurt’s singing here isn’t as strong as later, I still like him better. Partly is me just personally not being a fan of Lea’s singing (I think Glee made me burnout on her solos, and she has this certain squeak to her singing  idk if it’s stylistic or what, also in this song you can hear her breaths much more than Kurt’s)..

Would’ve been nice if after this, Kurt got a different solo? Like if Will could still acknowledge that Finchel aren’t the only singers in the glee club.

Every Kurt and Burt scene is the best.

I love how they use language. How Kurt ‘auditions’ for kicker and then Burt is mad that Kurt ‘threw the game’. And Burt has such faith in his son that when Kurt announces he lost, he immediately thinks the competition was rigged.

“I love you more than I love being a star” Excuse while I sob.

Even when at their rockiest, Kurt still loves his dad more than anyone else and the way they only had each other for so long I just. Even while they’re still working out how to connect with each other, their issues are never a lack of love or wanting to protect each other. And it’s written so well.

And then Kurt mentions his coveralls to help his dad work on a car.... and we don’t see it. We never get to see mechanic!Kurt.... and I’ll forever be salty about it

Lowkey Kurt is always so hidden during these end-of-ep group numbers.

You know what would’ve been a nice teacher moment? If after Kurt lost the competition, Will said hey, you’re still a good singer, and gave Kurt a couple of lines in the group number. 

As sweet as the moment between Kurt and Burt was, it angers me that Will learned nothing from the whole situation and will carry on ignoring Kurt (and others).

uggghhhhhhhhhhh. But otherwise, great Kurt ep